Stuffing My Feelings

Scale Steppin' Saturday--194.3

2012-02-11T19:51:00.001-06:00

Lunch today at 3 p.m. because I was not prepare to feed myself. Well, that weight is a surprise. Because I am all about full disclosure, I weighed in last Saturday at 195.4, which was .1 lbs less than the previous week's weigh-in. It wasn't that I wasn't proud of any loss or embarrassed by the minuscule loss, I was just not in the spirit of blogging about anything. I was lazy and irritable

Will You Ever Eat Grains Again?

2012-02-03T14:48:00.001-06:00

My friend and colleague asked me that question today when I showed her my meals for today. I prepped my breakfast of 1 egg + 1 egg white, which I made into a fritata with kale and leftover meatloaf that I made with parsnips, carrots, onions, garlic, and kale, and a banana. Lunch was a salad with left over pork chop and french dressing (it was authentic--from a bottle), and grapes. She

Scale Steppin Saturday--195.5

2012-01-28T09:32:00.000-06:00

I am down a smidge more in weight. I weighed in this morning at 195.5 lbs. I am happy and giddy. This week was a bit rough. I had PMS and my TOM and tons of cravings for chocolate, which I satisfied every night with a couple of pieces of dark chocolate. However, last night I did a bit of a chocolate binge having half a bar. And Trader Joe's definitely betrayed me by having dark

Running, again?

2012-01-26T10:57:00.002-06:00

I've been exercising this week. Three days of 30 minutes of cardio with some strength training afterwards. This is a pic of me at my first 5K in October of 2009. I've been saying that I was at 207 lbs, but I think it was more like 212 lbs. Now that I am below 200, I'd like to give running a try again. I started running on a treadmill in Summer of 2009 because I thought it would help

Back to Cardio . . .

2012-01-23T08:05:00.000-06:00

From Weight Loss I got up early this morning to do cardio. I am getting back into working out, and today was the day. I realized a long time ago that I seem to have a disconnect between my eating plan and workout plan. I'll start working out and can't make myself eat better or less, or I'll eat better, but not work out enough or hard enough to make a loss on the scale. I am hoping

1/21/12--Scale Steppin' Saturday--196.3

2012-01-21T10:59:00.001-06:00

I lost weight again. Slightly. But a loss nonetheless. I am happy because this week was a rough week. I've been running around all week with crazy obligations at work. After work I have to race to get 3 kids at two different places during snowstorms. I've been battling a cold. And since last Sunday, I've had a very painful toothache. I bit into a sliver of bone from ribs that I made last

For the Hip Hop lovers, the case for Paleo

2012-01-18T08:00:00.000-06:00

For those of you who aren't into rap and hip hop, Fat Joe is a rapper from NY. He and I are around the same age. I grew up listening to his music in high school. As his name indicates, he was recognized for being fat. One of the artists that he produced was Big Pun who died of a heart attack at age 28, and speculation places his weight at death at around 700 lbs. Whether or not

Full . . .

2012-01-17T12:07:00.003-06:00

When I was eating foods like that pictured above, I was constantly feeling the need to eat and eat and eat. I craved vast amounts of sugar. Binge eating was the norm. I got sick and tired of eating so much and not feeling full. Now, with Paleo, I do overeat. But it may be an extra piece of beef, or some more veggies. I don't usually snack after dinner, but I grabbed a bowl of

Scale Steppin Saturday--197

2012-01-14T17:10:00.001-06:00

I weighed in this morning and am down 1.1 lbs to 197 lbs. I am happy the scale is going down. With any weightloss there tends to be some desperation to drop the weight as fast as possible. I keep reminding myself that it took me over 13 years to gain this weight. It is not healthy to drop the weight so fast. I am not built that way. I also won't maintain the weight loss if I rush this process.

Coconut Oil's Benefits

2012-01-10T13:33:00.000-06:00

Remember yesterday's post about my mother's preparing coconut oil and how that stopped 25 years ago because of her cholesterol? I will be running to the store to stock up on coconut oil and put it in her coffee, lunch, dinner, and water bottle.

Elimination, Part II: Grains. . .

2012-01-09T11:50:00.000-06:00

About 2 years ago, I wrote about my giving up dairy. I gave up dairy because I've had a life long battle with Irritable Bowel Syndrome. After one particularly horrible episode, I went to the doctor and she tested me for various things, one being gluten. She didn't test me for dairy allergy or intolerance. However, I later decided that dairy was the culprit after another incident where I

1/7/12--198.1

2012-01-07T08:33:00.000-06:00

I weighed in this morning. Saturdays, since being on Weight Watchers while in law school, is my official weigh in day. After 1 month on the Paleo Diet with some exercise, I've lost over 8 lbs. I was teetering up and down the scale before officially committing to Paleo after the holidays and before the new year, so a true measure of my weight is not possible. My initial goal when starting this

Cravings . . . are gone.

2012-01-05T15:37:00.000-06:00

I've gone Paleo for the last 4 weeks (off and on). However, I just returned from vacation and have lost weight. Even with eating out daily doses of decadent food, I've lost weight. I won't reveal the number just yet, so as to ensure that it is all really happening. Before Paleo, by the end of everyday, all I ever wanted was a nice sugary latte with soy and a large cookie. It was my

Weak Spot

2011-12-29T20:58:00.000-06:00

While waiting on one of the longest lines in the greatest place on earth, my daughter started patting my upper arm. She said, "this is fun!" And she laughed maniacally, as my upper arms jiggled under her slaps. She pushed my button. She got me at the core of my weakness; the part of me that makes me feel so uncomfortable and unconfident. She jiggled my bat wing. And even as I flexed, she

Merry Christmas with an early resolution . . .

2011-12-25T10:49:00.000-06:00

I have been gone for a bit trying to sort out the next phase of our new life. I've been busy with work, kids, hubby, new house, and Nana. It has been quite an adjustment. During the period of Thanksgiving, I went on a sugar and carb binge. I was overdosing on the sugary lattes, large cookies and desserts every day for about 3 weeks. However, in early December, I realized that I must

Phase II, Day 8--going Primal

2011-10-28T10:49:00.001-05:00

I have been having a really tough time with eating. Not so much eating to excess because I have my moments, but generally, I am doing pretty good. It is about eating the precise things. Like when I was a vegetarian, I gave up meat for over two years. No meat. Nada. Zilch! But giving up grains as suggested in the Primal Blueprint diet, is a condition I am not prepared to do. I

Phase II, Day 1

2011-10-21T10:05:00.002-05:00

My goal is to eat more of this than grains or sugar. I did it! I finished Phase I of my 30 days of Jillian Michaels' DVDs. To recap: Phase I required alternating Ripped in 30 (RI30), 30 Day Shred (30DS), 6 Week 6 Pack (6W6P) everyday until I completed 30 days of consistent exercise. I started with Ripped in 30, Level 1 using 3 lb hand weights. The next day I used 30 Day Shred,

Workout Zone-Day 19, Phase I; 11 to go.

2011-10-09T21:16:00.000-05:00

From October 9, 2011 I've been working out for 19 days straight. I've been doing 30 Day Shred or Ripped In 30 on alternate days. I use my spin bike or my treadmill depending on the day. This is my "dungeon". It is the utility room in my new home. It is all concrete, exposed pipes, beams, and electrical and cable wires. Behind my workout zone is the furnace and the hot water heater. Both

Transitions . . .

2011-09-26T16:25:00.000-05:00

From 2011-08-27 I needed a blogging break. A break from letting the world know that I felt like a complete failure. The list of failures are vast and are forever expansive. We bought a house within 28 days. We took two days to move our family of 5 from our 3-year-rental to our new-to-us home. A week later, I flew to Boston by my lonesome and moved my mother to our home. When I arrived, I

Hot Yoga

2011-06-10T12:02:00.000-05:00

A new Hot Yoga studio is opening up in my town. Hot Yoga benefits are: allows muscles to become more flexible. allows you to go deeper into a pose. helps to diminish the risk of injuries. promotes sweating which helps you release toxins. promotes weight loss. I am so excited to start attending that I started back on Yoga on Wednesday of this week. I did my Biggest Loser Weight Loss Yoga DVD

As Big As A House . . .

2011-06-04T06:57:00.000-05:00

Recently, my boy has verbally lashed out at me and hurt my feelings whenever he is angry or denied something he wants. His autism doesn't allow him to filter his words, so he lays it out there. He has told me recently that I am "as big as a house." That hurt. Bad. Ever since his stinging statement, I made changes to my eating; with a vengeance. I made salads with chicken and my own

Ruthless . . .

2011-05-11T11:23:00.000-05:00

There is a movie called Ruthless People with Bette Midler. I loved that movie when I first saw it in the 80s. I love Bette Midler. One memorable scenes is when she is being held captive in a basement for ransom. Because she has all the time in her hands, Bette's character decides to workout and eat better. Ultimately, she loses weight and says something to the effect that she has spent a

Reflection . . .

2011-05-09T11:59:00.000-05:00

I had a great Mother's Day; excluding baby being hit on the side of her noggin by her brother's after swing of his bat (yes, a real bat). We sat outside after a nice breakfast of pecan waffles with syrup, bacon and one egg with a small glass of orange juice. I chased that with lunch of leftover Chinese fried rice and fried chicken wings. And capped that off with a hefty serving of roasted

Exercise Twice

2011-05-02T10:02:00.000-05:00

When I lost 75 lbs in college, I started exercising by running around my college's football stadium that had a track. I would walk or jog daily and run up and down the stadium stairs. I worked at the Police Department on campus as a work study, and I was able to use the gym for lifting weights in the building's attic. It was a recipe for success. I often exercised twice a day without a

God

2011-04-25T11:06:00.002-05:00

I've been researching Overeater's Anonymous. I am a researcher by nature and education. I have to read and study on my latest interest before I delve into it. When I complete that research, I then entrench myself into the subject matter. I keep studying and perfecting what I do. It becomes a compulsion. It seems to me that I get addicted to that "thing". I've been researching