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The internet was designed to break limits, not create them!

2012-01-23T23:04:00.000-08:00

The internet is now succumbing to a crackdown of copyrighted material under the influence of the proposed acts SOPA ( Stop Online Piracy Act) and The PIPA( Protect Intellectual Property Act) with Megaupload shutting down indefinitely under the federal law of United States of America. One would say it is justice, but others say it is a degradation of freedom. Nonetheless it is an insult to those who have sacrificed in the name of freedom; those who seeked knowledge and understanding. With the owner of Megaupload, Kim Dotcom, arrested, who was living in New Zealand at the time, it is now become more obvious that the US is trying through all means to obtain more power, control and influence over other countries.

So what is SOPA and PIPA. Who proposed it, what impacts does it have and consequences it may have if it is pushed through? Well first of all it was proposed by Lamar S. Smith, also one of internet's worse enemy. The impacts and consequences can be summed by a quote by Brad Plumer, "at basic level, SOPA-and its senate analogue, the Protect IP Act- would enable copyright holders and the Justice Department to get court orders against sites that ' engage in, enable, or facilitate' copyright infringement. that could include sites that host illegal mp3 or sites that link or such sites ( the revised House bill focusses primarily on foreign sites ). Courts could bar advertisers and payment companions such as paypal from doing business with the offending sites in question, order search engines to stop listing the accuses infringers, or even require internet service providers to block access entirely

In the ironic twist of fate, his own site for the SOPA bill has some copyrighted problems of its own. A person called Jamie Lee Curtis Tatete researched deeply into Smith's campaign site . It turns out the images on Smith's site was harder to source which meant the owners was not acknowledged properly Then Tatete found a picture of a "idyllic backwoods scene "was by photographer DJ Schulte. DJ Schulte said the photo was listed as creative commons - anyone could use this image so long as he was credited. But what appears to be is that the site did not. Forbes have described Smith as "hypocritical".{ which precisely true}Because the internet is linked so thoroughly, severing them will be catastrophic as anything can be considered a crime, even the Smith himself can be charged for not crediting the photographer. How can an Act be put forward if the owner contradicts it?

I'm pleased that many big names have opposed to these acts such as Wikipedia- who blackout english version for 24 hours- Google, Yahoo, Ebay, Twitter, including Facebook owner Mark Zuckerberg who wrote this Anti-SOPA massage on his Facebook page: " The internet is the most powerful tool w have for creating a more open and connected world. We can't let poorly thought out laws get in the way if the internet;s development…we will continue to oppose any laws that will hurt the internet," This suggest that this bill is majority unfavored by the public as it is hurting not only the flow of information but also the way the information is being published. Even human rights organisation such as Reporters without Borders, The electronic Frontier foundation and the Human Rights watchs are getting involved inoto opposing the acts.

You may not currently care, or even give a damn to what SOPA and PIPA may have upon the internet but you will soon. Already with Megaupload gone, whose next? Our songs? Our network sites, and then freedom of speech? " Imagine a World without Free Knowledge."~ Wikipedia.

ART and REALITY

2012-01-15T18:11:00.000-08:00

Sorry haven't been posting things for a while now( I think its been two weeks), but never fear I'm still there. Unfortunately the busy weeks ahead of me won't quell till the end of the month, hopefully, but I will promise that I will be posting at least three more before the month end. {Note this as a news years resolution}.

This morning I found this amazing statement abut Art, which pretty much sums up post-modern art; the art movement that parodies, satirises, and appropriates infamous or famous scenes/subject matter/ ideas etc during the 20th century. Indeed art is the best way to challenge reality. Science once did but gave a more non-bias reality to the current reality at that time. So now art is the best way to challenge reality( I think) it addresses not only the moral values, but also immensely on the social aspect of society which transcends the reasons why we create actions that sometimes have consequences. e.g consumerism that results in devastating the natural environment on the earth.

Do you have any thoughts about it ? You know this statement does suggest in its own right a literary artwork. I mean, this statement is like challenging reality itself by making it plain obvious with the connotation of words and size difference of the words themselves to highlights the essentials ones. Even the colours creates a sense of plain- obvious looking.

Warning: If you fin the F-word offensive, pretend it never exist as you will be acknowledging what the word means.

2012 is here

2011-12-31T21:43:00.000-08:00

2012 is here

I finally farewelled 2011 and welcomed 2012 . 2011 at the end (for me) was a bittersweet conclusion - I managed to secure a life after high-school , and bitter in that I missed out on some opportunities that i wish i could of taken part that would of helped me this year. I guess this happens for a reason but I'm determined to not have that chained me down. With plans already set in place and new lifestyle and new time( especially during the day) I should be able to do a lot of productive things this year. But I will make sure it will be different from last year.

One cannot imagine how stressful last year was until you walk a mile in my shoes. In saying that those who were involved in the WACE exams, especially coming from my schoo would know what I mean. I'm just happy that I won't have to go back to that awful era which I can title it "The Era of Self-Doubt."

I can finally end the demons of the era that seek to destroy me. After receiving my ATAR results on wednesday (which I found out after receiving random phone calls at work from my fellow peers whom were panicking) all the fear of not getting into university disappeared. All the emotions that terrorised me had vanished. I knew why - it was over. The numbers were there. It was released telling me to welcome the future.

But I cannot deny or pretend that I was both pleased and disappointed in my ATAR ranking. I'm pleased in that I got into university, but disappointed that I knew I could of had a much better score if things had not blocked in my way. What I can proudly say is I can finally farewell high school and never again look at those subjects ever again. I plan to make myself having nothing standing in my way. It may sound selfish but I must now be in order to succeed. Cold in truth but somewhat human the next. Competition is always there in the real world and I won't be over-taken by others by my own weaknesses.

With university ahead of me this year, I anticipate where it would lead me to. I hope I can use my strengths to an advantage more often and not so much to my weaknesses, and I also hope I don't get sleep-deprivation at the start because that would be the irony of what it means to be organised.

I'm hoping 2012 will be a great year for me. But hope is not not enough to guarantee one. It is only when you do things that make it great. Therefore I have been organising life around met. I got a diary to write down what i need to do ( which the first week is already filled,) learning French so I can proudly to say I can speak three languages fluently in the next year or so, plan to put more of art into the public eye, working, and learning to drive.

Glancing back at 2011, I can not believe it has finally ended. I cannot wait to get out into the real society which I've waited so long.

Emotions

2011-12-18T21:51:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been so mad that it controls you? Has it ever perpetuate a character you do not wish to become? Or has it enable you strive for success, or the very goals that you set out to do . Emotions are what makes us humane but in another sense it can also makes us inhumane. Like many other homo sapiens, our emotions tie in with out intelligence. Therefore we are easily controlled, influenced and manipulated by our own emotions. our emotions is internal to our identity in being the human being.

Emotions can be used for great purposes. These emotions we have are what makes us human or humane. When we experience the feelings of kindness, caring and happiness we give a warm energy to the atmosphere which can brighten surrounding people. We use them to convey an empathy for others. We use these emotions to feel the sense of pain and despair of another. It is how we can understand each other and a way to let people out there they are not alone. Emotions can bring out determination and motivation. The feeling of that sensation, that aura that needs to be channel into something productive. it can also create inspirations and dreams.

But in another sense it can make us inhumane. Our emotions can control us and how we live. our emotions are mis-used for obtaining that invisible power and authority over others. Our emotions can drive us to the walls, slamming ourselves and along with everyone else caught in its direction. It can inflict pain and sadness and a feeling of lost sense of purpose to yourself and others. It can crush dreams and the very future we hope to strive for. We lose ourselves as our feeling towards caring for others is erased so much like a chalk-duster wiping the chalk off the board.

Emotions of love can manipulate of who you are. It can make people do some crazy things in order to satisfy the desire( depending on gender), such as creating a character of what is completely opposite of yourself, or doing impulsive things, sometimes it can be threatening to one's health. Emotions in love is what i called it a "hurricane." Beautiful yet destructive . Beautiful as I saw a couple so happy as thiough everything was one with the universe, but I'm reminded of the sadness of relationship break-ups and divorce and so forth.

I think emotions if conjured in a negative way is truly the Achilles heels. Lately I've been doing that and I seriously have doubts on my future as the ATAR scores are drawing near. Panic attacks are getting more frequent. I can't change the past nor the future. My future is rested upon a ranking that I think is somewhat flawed- it does not show a person's capabilities and commitments in the real. I know there is more than having a giant brain and being timed in a stressed environment is not exactly like the stress at work. Trust me if you haven't.

Emotions can be positive and negative for one's mind. But imagine if all emotions were gone for a day. How interesting would be it. I would imagine it sounding like the speakers of the computer reading of what is written.

Living is Work

2011-12-10T21:34:00.000-08:00

when I finally get the time to write up a post I suddenly procrastinate an hour or so... Woops!!! But like any other humanoid creature, I need a balance between my busy side with my lazy side. But it seems that it occurs at the worse moments; when I need to do things that are important, or when I want to feel like doing it but don't because I'm tired.

I cannot beleive i survived last week. Had so much on my plate. literally! I had so many lists of "things-to-do" that by the time I finally get an updated list, i need to throw out a bag of now out-dated list of things-to-do.

Because I'm on "holidays" people tend to assume that I'm lazy and should do something more productive. in a sense its true, there are more to things in life than doing nothing. and it is better to point out. I just think people to lay it off when you can tell he or she has so much to do in such little time.

But before you start criticising me I ask you; have u ever worked after-school for the past 6 years nearly every single day. and manage to do your homework?

The advantage of working however, is the money $$$ . But that is also a disadvantage. the other day i bought the book " the philosophy of Andy Warhol". Now its one of the best 9.95 I've ever spent. he is such a character. I wish i could of met him. There is one nice quote summed up my relationship with money that I found in the book so funny yet true.

"I just not happy when I don't have it. The minute i have it, I have to spend it. And I just buy stupid things. "

Unfortunately I splurge on books and confectionary items- I gotta stop eating them. But could not resist the macarons. delicious it was- I will be back for more.

The weather has been strange lately. I can never trust the weather crew anymore. It's so contrasted that I'm forgetting that now its Summer. They ought to be more careful with their wordings such as not using "bizarre."This puts me off as the last thing I need is Transperth to say they are delaying their services due to weather conditions. But I suppose I will learn to use it more effectively as such would a every day business man who also catch the same buses as me, everyday of every week. Its part of life and I must adapt to it in order to succeed the dream of freedom I venture for.

What I'm predicting this week will be filled with? Money and no life as i will begin my seven day a week( till end of the month) work session. Maybe then I can finally be the selfish person that i desire free from the burden of others.

a blog for an upcoming blog :P

2011-12-10T07:34:00.000-08:00

People, I shall be posting a new blog tomorrow. Stay tune... Or read a book and anticipate for the new, perhaps paragraphs of nonsense writing I will be publishing tomorrow .

not my work. ironically this could be depicting me as the one that is eating these buildings. I like the idea of taking back for what is "mine"

Right now, my existence lies deep in the abyss where fantasy becomes my new reality for maybe 7-8 hours( 9 if I'm lucky). Where will I be taken this time. I wonder if its the realms of success, fame and fortune. That would be a boring dream. boring dreams are dreams where things are made predictable an more likely to cause you to have a shit night. Don't worry, constipation can be compensated.

So anyways, until i find the magical portal or be in the situation like "Alice" in the wonderlands, I won't be able to do so. unless i sleep walk.

The menacing pink elephant.

2011-12-03T23:35:00.000-08:00

Why did I draw a pink elephant in my art journal? Why does it have to be pink? Why does it have to look cute? Why is it coloured in watercolour? Who makes these ideas of a pink elephant?

Answer: By drunken people who undergo alcoholic hallucinosis in which I've diluted into a a rather comical and friendly creature.

Water-based ink pen, Artline-drawing system( 0.1mm), and artline- fineliner (0.4mm) ~ thanks Salt Melts for giving me these awesome pens and other arty stuff :)

I kind of feel sorry for the people who do see pink elephants when they are drunk. Not because of their liver, but because they are stuck in a reality where they cannot escape, bounded by the chemicals they digested. it cannot be removed unless it is (painful) rejected into a pool of mess and horror, at near death. Pretty scary don't you think. If not, then how would you feel if you saw a pink elephant that only you could see?

Saving up for a camera to show of my presence of a setting in my wonderful adventures is lately a flaw from the start. cannot save up. spend too much. and now the all-time consumer event - Christmas- is coming by slay soon.

Recent adventures examining the high-rise buildings, after a dreadful experience in navigating the streets of perth via google map. yes, I didn't feel like god- frustrated at the fact I couldn't manoeuvre that well as it should of been. And there wasn't even traffic to begin with

I want macrons. Saving up for a pack of 24 this week. Will I have enough for both the camera and the macarons? But first I gotta find the cafe... I'm terrible with directions....like a map without its north bearing.
Here's another hint of my upcoming artwork........ coffee...... the smell of coffee whiffing through my room making me feel as though I'm in a cafe, and I have a sudden urge to read a book .

roller-coaster week

2011-11-28T01:34:00.000-08:00

I'm pretty content of what has happened last week I got a lot of things done. It was sort of a roller-coaster week as at the start it began slow. than tuesday I had to say goodbye to two of my friends whom were flying back to be with their family for this coming holiday. afterwards I had to throw out my now pointless pile of notes that i slaved over this pass year, and had to go out to get new things from the agglomeration of commercial stores for my new life. :P

Although I do wish I could of done more. I've just been so busy last week, and I will be even-more-so this week as I've got deadlines to meet: art portfolios, a painting to complete, a resume to write and an interview for uni at the end of the week. I hope I get them in on time. The irony is that what suppose be time for me to after a hard year of school is that I'm running around doing things with a relax mind. ...... But i knew this would happen anyways. Life doesn't stop for me, which I need to remind myself now and again.

Whilst during the busy week, I finally got my tower of notes up and standing before throwing it out. yes It was almost tall as me. and yes, it took a long time constructing it, purely because the A4 finder files kept slipping out( till I tied it with string).

Apart from that, I can pretty much sum it up as a very productive week. at least it I'm use to it now, or i would of crumbled by the sheer pressure. Gahh.... that would be nasty. I just hope I get the time to read my book and learn more French. But will I be able to when I already started up an art journal and working 5 days a week? Who knows..... Life is too short , so better do it now than later. :P

If anyone has a bigger tower than me, please show me :P CAUTION: assembling a tower of notes without proper structure is potentially life-threatening as it can collapse and crush you.

Also thanks to the people who supported my artwork at the New Arts Awards 2011. Even though didn't win the Public awards, or was a finalist in the painting category, your contribution was still worth it. I can gladly say I as in the top 10 ( unofficially)for the highest number of votes when it was tallied :)

Votes for me?

2011-11-19T23:06:00.000-08:00

Hey guys this an update to inform you I've entered an online competition( at short notice) called the New Art Awards at the internet site www.temporarygallery.com.au.

Technically the competition earlier this year April and I had no clue about it till three days ago. There is technically only three five days left for the votes to be tallied. But doesn't mean its too late to give votes to me and the others. just click here and please "like" it. :P

And to those who have voted for me , thank you so much :). It means a lot to me as an amateur artist.
So right now, other then campaigning as though I want to be the next prime minister- preferably not- I've just went back to work.. things have changed since I had to stop 4-5 months ago, I've finally had the time started drawing more, and now trying to learn french- je parle anglais! so yeah, busy busy busy!!!

Also I will be entering into another competition soon and I hope I get in the top 10. Wish me luck. I'll give you a hint of what I'm going for with this piece of inspiration. Don't worry, as time goes on, more will be reveal under this leafy veil.
Enjoy!!
P.S. Remember to vote if you can.

Is it pretty?

2011-11-17T19:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, while casually out in city streets I'd encountered a a peculiar scene. An elderly woman standing in a corner, at the place where the train station was linked to Myer . She was holding a can with a dollar coin hole on the top. Dressed in her uniform, she waited for the donations that may never come. Was it worth it- to stand there everyday holding a can waiting for people to donate. I think of this every time when I encounter her, at the same place. It makes me wonder whether people can actually see her. Why? Because we walk past the problem as though we are actually blind. We think it is someone's problem therefore we we think it has nothing do anything about it. this is termed by Douglas Adams as Somebody Else's Problem ( also known as SEP Effect). This made me think to an image I had seen earlier. Questioning whether who is blind. Society or the blind man. Click on here to see the image for yourself.

Sometimes I wonder whether we are all ugly within. We create a persona or an identity that mask our inhumanity through our mannerism, make-up, and those layers of muscles. I thought it when I found out there was a Facebook group that highlighted the growing trend that to be beautiful is to be "hot." It is where you would be judged by others with only just a picture that you send ( which highlights a minuscule part of who you actually are.) To make it worse was they added humour with captions such as "lick or brick" and "smash or bash" that pretty much implied a yes or no response , but on a critical level. But to be honest, I had been expecting sooner of later groups like these would be popping up in social networking sites. Recently society is becoming rather prejudice towards people with "undesirable" features but not the exactly racial prejudice, but on a overall view. With new trends evolving and new words such as "bro", mirim" and "jelly"( which are becoming more based on appearance) it's hard to break out of the trends. But I think its better to understand the trends before being swept away and losing yourself. It is so that when see things that are wrong we know when to stand up. We shouldn't treat ourselves like pieces of meat.

This is is a drawing I drew of me. It is a self-portrait of what i think looks is me you look like within. That is my inhumanity, my myself tainted in an ocean of sins. Do you think its pretty, or do you think the drawing is pretty?

I used Art-line pen and diluted ink on A4 paper

"We" and the buildings.

2011-11-14T04:14:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wondered how does a building feel when we're gone? Lonely I presume. We humans love our buildings. We build them,clean them and find ways to make them more majestic. In return they provide us with shelter, a home which protects us from the heat of the sun, and the cold of the ice. Literally, we grow up in buildings. They are like our second parents whose role is to protect us from Mother-Nature. Without buildings we would be nothing- we would die much sooner without them. In saying that our civilisation would of not exist. But this also means buildings can't live without us. Yes, they need us as well as much as we need them! They need us to build them and the brains to even get it off the ground. So it makes me wonder- who came first, human civilisation or buildings? It's a bit like the chicken and the egg scenario. Nonetheless all I know is if we all to disappear, buildings will be lonely. Think about it. Have you ever walked into a what would-be a busy urban area that is quiet? Yes -it can be intimidating. Already you feel like your alone, watched by something- a force that is peering someone in many thousands of glassy-eyes. And imagine yourself not being there. That place would be even more quiet.

Without our presence they merely scars or - sculptural reminders that epitomises man-kind control over nature( and I don't think Mother-Nature would like to have them around for long once we're gone). Without us buildings are vulnerable. They will corrode, their windows will shatter and eventually collapse as they are too old o carry on. it is like us at the end of s great age. we gotta let go.

Today, i got inspired by the drawings I made using my leisure time- aka Free-time.

So here are some drawings of buildings. I only used an artline pen( 0.4mm), a brush, some water, blue highlighter ink, and pencil for guidelines on paper. I painted based on my mind, didn't had much reference point. I've tried to draw from different angles- to get the feel and texture.

I find the patterns of buildings so fascinating. The way it is so structured, precise and same as to each floor. It makes me wonder if it is exactly precise in reality.These patterns I see are connects with other buildings. Its like forming into one giant building. The windows make me wonder especially at night how many people there are and the fact many windows are all different stories.

Techniques i've employed is hatching then picking up excess ink with water and spread it onto areas where it needs to be shaded in. I also attempted to dilute the blue highlighter ink by adding onto paper, then mix it with water before transferring onto the windows. I was trying to produce a subtle transparent blue to imitate the blue skies.

Back in the days...

2011-11-11T06:22:00.000-08:00

So yesterday I have finally completed my WACE exams and I'm finally relieved to have been able to sleep without the fear of an upcoming test, exam, assessment, to wake up 4am to finish assignments or freak out that fact I will be late. And yeah I do have a lot of debt to be paid back I've finally got the chance to do things that I wanted to do for so long and have already made a list- I'll share some later in another blog-post Today in the mail today, and what in was my last letter from my school( I hope) which contain my "time capsule letters" that I had written back in the days when I was small and innocent- who was about to discover the life of a teenage life.

These letters has a nostalgia over me; I remember things that I had forgotten nearly 5 years ago! What has shocked me is how much I've change and so I can't believe these were written by me. I've definitely gained weight, wear larger clothes size, I'm now 17, and my handwriting now highly cursive - all thanks to puberty!! ^^

This is like a historical document because judging by the font of the text and the pictures, I can confidently say this is obviously from a 2003 MS format. Clearly indicates of a rapid technological revolution that is re-defining our way of life. And i have a feeling it has just begun.

Boy, was I excited back then- to able to meet new people , cultures and friends. I had a blast, well most of the time. So now I'm thinking; the fact that those feelings of entering into a larger realm( high-school) is similar to what I'm feeling right now as I'm heading out towards the abyss ( the real life) . It makes me wonder as I question whether history will repeat itself. Will I later on hate life just as the life of high-school? Or will it be different- I will continue to love entirely and seemingly like a flawless dream . If I say "No" then I am naive- life is meant to be difficult. Or will I say yes and let it happen- even though i know that path is not pretty? It makes me wonder both out of curiosity and fear. time will tell as I will soon head for Uni.

Interesting to note is how terrible I was with my written expression. the word "see" brings me back to memories of when i kept using it because I did not had a clue there was other words with similar definition. . I guess I was forced to find them( otherwise i would fail). Now it was required to use words other than "seen". There's perspective, observation, viewpoints, distinguish, direct and notice just to get by in test and examinations. But hey I don't mind; communication is essential for to connect with our past, present and future. communication is what links time and space together. So now, until next time :)

This week so far....

2011-11-04T05:50:00.000-07:00

So this week was the start of the WACE exams, and already completed three of my five exams. I just can't wait till it is over( and i know I'm not the only one with that in mind). This week somewhat what i imagine- a living nightmare. it's mainly from the aftermath of the exams- yep', to see my face afterwards would make your day..... then there are the moments of getting to and from the exams( because all mine are held externally) . I swear every time I went there something happens to me that is out of context.....first there was the process of listening to not ravens or corws, but native birds crying out. second was the round about- it re-defined what traffic meant for me. And thirdly discovering that the cafeteria sells fried chips( that i thought was extinct) YUM!!!!!

the place at first was intimidating because i never been there and I didn't exactly know where the place was. So I googled mapped it- and spent 27 minutes trying to memorise the roads and the surroundings which was frustrating to manoeuvre around in the map.

Lately I have been eating a lot of sugary foods- fanta, sweets, cookies and fruits- which has been giving me the consequences of the sugary highs and lows. So I'm planning to stop tomorrow and eat savouries to balance it out. Got to otherwise I might faint if it hits to the extreme points,or so I heard!! and that reminds me. this week has marked the end for biology, Modern History and English. it's good to get rid of these diabolical subjects.

Currently the flies are back- already I have killed 14 and they seem to be no end to them. The good news is my kill rate is higher than before- so watch out flies!!!! Also I managed to get back my artwork from school. So happy and posted underneath is my final production. It got me top marks!!!!

"Following the Journey of Human Creativity" - by Jacky Le
Mixed media on wood panel

" My work reflects the expanding creativity that has lead to the technological evolution of our civilisation. Inspired by the fact technology was inspired from one's creativity, I want to show the dynamic cultural significance that creativity has given to people. This is expressed by the octopus in I used it as an analogy for our dynamism in ideas which started from rock paintings. Using symbolism, i want to convey the causes , the ways it impacts of y and the possibilities of creativity on our civilisation in a positive means. I purposely retain the wooden textures of my support to suggest there is more room for creativity to grow. "

Underneath the layers of ink and paint, there is of course another story; the process of construction the art. There were times this work was a BITCH!!!!. Not only had time constraints but also just filling in other facets of human journey and composing in the right place to have balance, harmony so it doesn't conflict with the message. and then I had to consider the viscosity of the medium. too heavy and the ink or paint would be too intense and almost impossible to get rid of. Too thin and the water would eventually cause the wood to expand, twist and bend. It's not finish( even though i said it was) which I will later on fix up and perhaps enter in some competition.

Hope you like it, Now i just need to complete two more exams , then I'm done, forever!!! Good luck to WACE people( those who are still finishing theirs) and I'll post soon.

Halloween? This time not for me

2011-10-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

Pumpkin Patch
by catch---2
I used this image to conceptualise the Halloween spirit- the atmosphere conveyed by the autumn and the feeling of the the contrasting cold nights.

So what exactly is halloween?

Halloween is an annual holiday tradition where people come out, dress up like some demoic creature of their choice- whether it be ghost, zombie, or vampire- and go around to parties, trick-or-treat , carve fanatical pumpkins and watch horror films. This annual tradition is held on the 31st of October( which is tomorrow.) Unfortunately this year I won’t be participating these activities other than the fact I’m gonna have to sit in a exam in the morning and then study for next one- straight afterwards. I guess you can say that is in itself a scary thought.

Right now I’m kind of hating halloween this year- the fact I will have to answer the door to the kids who are trick-or-treating while I’m studying. And what’s worse is the egg throwing. I despise egg throwers. They are like weeds in a garden. This is because when the egg dries up it forms a layer- which is somewhat insoluble to the water. I think its due to the fat molecules, and the proteins binding them into a cohesive layer( yes I have been studying chem). So really it's hard to clean up, particularly on the walls of your house.

But like all cranky people, if I get egged I will be throwing my own batch and probably chase after them. That is if I’m stuck at home. I’m planning to go to the library- so I don’t get distracted. So yeah planning ahead.

Even though I currently sound pessimistic its just that my Exams are at stake and I need to get into Uni. So yeah you can say I’m a little be nervous.. But I'll tell you this, I love halloween when it doesn’t clash with anything that is in stake. I can be creative. the most creative moment for halloween was when I had carved a Jack-o-Lantern using a lemon. This was because pumpkins are hard to come by( as the seasons are different from the north.)But hey like they say: If the world gives you lemons, make lemonade. It turned out alright- I was pleased. The only difference from the real thing was it was yellow. But I was still PROUD!!!! Besides, pumpkins were substituted from turnips. Yes- the turnips were first used before the pumpkins came in. This occured in england and Scotland. Later, it was discovered in North America pumpkins were a lot easier to carve then the turnips. I guess size does matter on this occasion....( ok awkward)

So for me this year, no Happy Halloween for me . But hey I hope you guys do have one yourself. Now I must go and study more.

(NB: used this as an english study session)

A Review: WE ARE NOT ALONE- by F. MOSTACCIO

2011-10-27T21:50:00.000-07:00

I must be honest- I only came to the Media Production Night with the intent of meet up with friends, so really I wasn't expecting much- maybe just one, or two above the average. It's a good thing they've proved me wrong!!!!!! I had a wonderful time watching all the short films. But of course there was one that stood out from the rest : WE ARE NOT ALONE, a short film by FLORENCIA MOSTACCIO. This stood out for me ( partly because it followed a different topic from the rest). It is perhaps the most powerful short film I have seen so far this year!!!

This WE ARE NOT ALONE centralises the last records of Rose Miller- played FLORENCIA MOSTACCIO- who tries to prove that there is something existing in our lives that we cannot see, touch or feel. It is only when we become attentive that somehow we can. Throughout the film it features scenes of mysterious phenomenon; from mysterious white glows to sounds of an eerie hide and seek of a dead child- played by ANTON MOSTACCIO- which gave the film a heads-up. What was good about this was how convincing the argument was! The level of character of Rose Miller just by her hopelessness and joyless tone-of-voice allowed not only me but for everyone else to feel what she felt- fear!!! Also the acting of child's innocence was creepy as I could not believe that hide and seek could be scary, emphasised by the slow counting from one to ten. It is definitely that the acting made such an impact.

It's extraordinary how simple things could make such an impact- it was mind boggling just watching it and quite powerful. The well-executed scenes of apples sliced in half which was being used as an analogy of life; outside represents the life we see and the inside represents the life we dont' see was highly original and somewhat creepy. also it was artistic ( and yes I'm sometimes bias towards the arts). I also loved the writing on the piece of brunt paper. For me I see a reference to the Middle ages by the candle light and the low-quality paper. And to top it off was the construction of the clock that emphasised the distortion of time where each scene it had shown the hands pointed to a new number- all the more to add in the fact Miller (by her implications) "doesn't have much time left".Quite creepy, simple yet original!! And surprisingly I could not find one second boring throughout the film.. yes- I know it was a bad pun.

The sound of the howling violin by KEVIN MCLEOD had its own character! That's right it did! It gave the film the right kind of sinister mood and atmosphere. It is like Titanic's 'My Heart will go on' by Celine Dion. And I gotta say the visual effect; I could not believe how well it was done. Especially on a low budget. It stood out from the rest. I could not find anything tacky about it. It was almost spotless apart from the not completely synced white auras with the moving figure. Nonetheless it was effective, convincing, creepy but also powerful as the message ran clear throughout the film - we are not alone! This is a hard thing to execute considering fear and suspense can detract you from the message of the short film. but in this case it was a success- the message remained clear throughout.

Sure its another low-budget short film about a woman telling ghosts are real but it made more than it. It ticked all the success box for me an gave us an insight into the unexplained phenomenon that we experience on a number of occasions(e.g shadows that have no owner.) What fascinates me was how F.MOSTACCIO was able to use suspense and fear without the use of blood. like some film makers say: less-is-more in horror. And I enjoyed it as I didn't held my stomach with disgust but with actual fear. and that is why I love it!!!

WE ARE NOT ALONE has certainly made an impression for me. It is something people should see for themselves and think to themselves whether if "we are not alone". As for me, I'm still getting my head around as usually I don't believe in ghost but in this exception....... Without further more i enjoyed this short film, its suspense and fear it manipulated but most of all seeing an artist in the making. I will be looking forward in seeing more production of F.MOSTACCIO.

Geography- come to dreams are made of

2011-10-24T03:22:00.000-07:00

These people- alexis, Chamaka, Yin, Josh, Kirstyn, Nicole, Larissa( did not forget about you) and our beloved Ms. Rowell( one and only teacher whose handwriting is out of this world)-in my Geography class were the ones that actually kept me continuing the course . On many occasions I contemplated on quitting. But I stayed. Why? Because these guys are perhaps the most amazing people I had ever met and it would be a shame to not experience the fun times made this year. What this class distinguished from other classes was the fact we were close-nip . also we had a super-cool nickname. we were called GEODUDES!!!!!- pretty neat don't ya' reckon'?

Each of us bought in a special part of ourseleves and shared with the class. and biy they were the fun and happy moments of my high-school memories. i enjoyed the times we learnt about the city of dreams: new York( planning for set date soon).I will miss way we interpret things outside the box such as,"why can't we have a treasure hunt using our geographical/fieldwork skills?" and witty quotes such as "magic monsoon" and the infamous phrase: geography is dynamic!

I remember coming into class and asking " is this the geography for stage two year 11?" that was my first words. the class i saw was full and almost crowded. never in my life I felt squashed as i had to sit in the front with little room to sit in comfort. slowly we dropped like flies( i wonder why?{ sarcastic tone}) as the people left one by one. i remember vividly one excursion that caught my attention. the mines to aloca. a woman compared the mines wit KFC that chickens must be real chicken. Strangely enough everyone actually caught attention to what she was saying- because we were hungry- and what's even more funny is the fact birds seem to haunt us as time went on.Most remembered was we buried a headless bird during class:\..... yes we did. i had to show them "how to dig a hole." but hey we aim high and dream high in the sky. that's why we did interesting things!!!

this picture is just an example of the Random things happened inside and outside of geography class. Alexis: Yin, where's your shoe? Yin: I lost my shoe. that was a funny moment when we suddenly realised the dry lake bed wasn't really dry at all. awkward if you asked m. the only person to not sink in was josh.... Our shoes except his ended up soaked in mud!!!! i will definitely remember the other random crap we had in our class such as realising the roof of our class had straws to insulate the heat and that we couldnt' use the heaters...... that I will not miss the cold days( and it was really cold)and i certainly will not miss case studies, especially when it got to the point had one due every single week. Late nights are not good for the health of ones's mind and its sanity.

we rock!!!!an certainly we did. geography we did!!!
We learnt so many things and we can stand high above the table as we've conquered it. We learnt that PERTH was unique in its site and situation, and discovered that site and situation was a completely different word from each other. We discovered 'el nino' was a guy's and 'la nina' was a girl's name . we also discovered exams were pointless pieces of paper that contradicted the ideas of environmental sustainability as each booklet needed about 50 pieces of paper. And what we discovered- which was the best of all- we were something more than a class. we were like family. we survived through the harshest of times, bearing the sad and lonely times and helped each other along the way. thanks guys. you guys made my day shine!!!!

In this picture Yin has carefully slipped the egg out of its shell in one piece by this special technique( which i cannot exactly remember what was it called). We also collected shells and took plenty of random pictures of buildings and land. You see in Geography, taking pictures was a must to prove your argument. its like diagrams in our assessments- we need to use in order to not lose four marks. and I discovered what our teacher. Ms. Rowell meant by "geography is dynamic". not only we learn things in Geography but also learn other interesting( maybe pointless to you) but insightful things from each other. for example the egg technique. I have yet to perfect it.

I will remember Larissa's "jelly" quotes and Joshua's mathematical genius ( p.s i can't believe you wrote 6+1=3) . I will remember Yin's fascination of how the world's works and I will remember Alexis's patience and her out of nowhere celebrations. I will remember Chamaka's mocha drinks when he brings them to class . I will remember Kirstyn as our only hope of carrying the A grade and will remember Nicole for her general support in everywhere. But most of all I will definitely remember our teacher's cursive handwriting when she annotated our assessments, in RED!!!!!

As we look towards the future, I can't help but feel sad that I will be leaving them. I will miss everything of it no matter good or bad it was. it is something I will not trade no matter the economic, social, political or environmental cost. as the waves pulls back into the blue, its mouth frothing onto the sand, i can sense my life will be somewhat quieter without these guys. they have been a part of my life, my experience and of course my journey in becoming what I am in this world. as i head into the future waiting in the horizon, all i can say is YOU GUYS( and you know who you are) were the best!!!! thank you so much. you were the class that anyone would dream of having!!!!

last days of high school.

2011-10-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

so yesterday was MY last day of high-school, FOREVER!!!!! and I would be lying if I said I wouldn't miss it. I took many pictures of my valedictory( held at Curtin) and second last of school- last day where we sit down learn( which we did not because we were busy taking pictures).i haven't been able to edit pictures( because i hate photoshop and still struggle with the basics) so mehh if you hate it. and sorry for not posting much this week. it has been far too busy to even make a decent post!!!! but enjoy:)

As you can tell i'm releived. Having received my sash- nearly putting it on myself when i wasn't suppose to- you can tell how exhilariated at the fact that i have officslly graduated. at the valedictory night we were given blue-slik gowns, with zips. i didn't understand why i couldn't get things out of my pockets till i found out why.. quite embarassing for those few moments, in front of 400 parents and their 340 offspring's!!!

this is one of my favourite class ever- ART!!!!!. i will truely miss those moments that i place in my time capsule; those times when we laughed, cried, and even yelled at each other. and you guys( and you know who you are) were like a family. thnak you so much for these past 1-3 years. you've been such a family.
obviosuly in art we have to analyse. here is "facial expressions"- it's where you can see how we experience different moods everyday and when we interact( by me holding onto Willa- paledivision.blogspot.com )can distort it. this is how we the facets of high school does so while be go through maturation.

I think this says it all- people are awesome. This is because we subconsciously describe people using the word "awesome" . This is observed when I was writing messages in people's yearbook, shirt and cards etc.an also don't you think my glasses are awesome? It's like my unique characteristic- that I wear Silver Sci-fi glasses. so its a like my trademark. But i don't it will be later on.
Also my chem' teacher is awesome because of the fact he has a moustache. Because it's so unique we got him a mug with moustache pictures around it and a moustache comb. p.s "moustache season" is coming up and i think its awesome that people with moustaches are getting represented in a positive light.

When it comes to muck up day( a tradition where you break the rules on the last day), many are keen to get last minute preparations. what i observed was many people -in fact more than half- were coming in at the last minute. and you know what they say: first come, first serve. Luckily I got the good stuff few days before they ran out such as silly string. The things we bought( i tagged along with friends) were big and large - and quite frankly random to a passer's eye. and to carry it ,using public transport before walking home in the dead night may make you ask why? as I like to say" grand ideas need great dedication, and commitment in order to succeed"- and we did!!! So it was worth it !!! We went "wild" in the early morning. p.s my pranks involved water. I'll show you the results in another post. but yeah this week has been very busy and fun!!!

so in conculsion. i must say this week has been far too busy for me to write anything else up. sorry for those who were waiting but yeah, i was finishing a very important last page of a my high school chapter story of my life. remember you guys- CARPE DIEM!!!!!

I'm alive + year 8 memories

2011-10-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

hello. I'm back.. and yes i'm alive and well. Today got my results back from the teachers today. the results were somewhat baffling. I don't know where to begin. you see, i had the intention of going to school with the feeling i would be failing Chemistry. To my astonishment i've passed my chemistry exam....... hooray!!!!!!! Unfortunately i failed my biology- that was a shocker. i guess it was my "off" day. nonetheless i passed my other subjects. I feel relieved but not proud - I mean i wished i could of done better but because the circumstances that was presented to me - so i'm content at the results.

so here's what i can remember in year 8

sorry i don't have any pictures. especially those times when i was in year 8, 2007. (p.s: i'm saving to buy my own camera)so for year 8 i remembered was a coming of age year for me.entering high school meant meeting new people from other primary schools . this meant new minds, new values and new competition. It made me realise that there will always be someone that will do better than others. Also realised just how small I was compared the monstrous year 12's. at first i didn't understand why they look angry at us. i do now- we walked slow and complained at the most naive things( e.g; we thought one page of homework a night was bad- until we reached year 9( which i'll talk bout it later). in year 8 we saw where the final days where our innocence would become lost as we would be twirled into the pot of Health Studies. That's right!!!! we learnt the things of the banana . Ironically i did a research about Potassium for science and initially i didn't know why they found it funny when I said " banana's have a high potassium concentration compared to other foods." It took me a few years to understand why... but I don't see how can it be linked!

Also in year 8 I left for a holiday for 6 weeks during the first week of the term. I'm not sure whether to be blessed with experiencing new places or cursed with the fact i had to catch up four weeks of assessments and forced to fit in a already changing year group- the circle of friends was becoming impenetrable to enter. but of course this is where I met my best friends. so yeah. year 8 I will remember as the year that foundered the start of who I am today and how i see of the world. but it would be year 9 that changed things even further. that will be later...

Sunday; the beginning of the end; liberation

2011-10-16T06:53:00.000-07:00

Note: this is a representation of my sad moments at school,
not a self-portrait of myself.

Tomorrow I begin my very last week of high school. It has finally begun! I can already taste pure freedom; the feeling of liberation and the sound of the real world calling out to me . I can touch it and taste it with my taste buds. I am hungry for freedom. and that is why i'm forever alone... Just kidding. but seriously I wasn't kidding a few months ago. To be bombarded with assessments with results commenting "your not performing the way you should be," it would make anyone conjure up a feeling of hopelessness, made worse by the onset of losing seven hours of sleep each week.... it really does wreck your well-being. Currently I am SANE! Never actually went insane if you ask me .... only just caused a dozen arguments here and there. Nothing too serious (as far as i can remember). What school taught me about life is you're never comfortable. you must make it comfortable through earning it but even when your comfortable, it can be easily taken away through retributions. You must constantly earn it in order to constantly be comfortable .

Currently I'm reviewing my memories of the times I was in lower school( year 8 to 10) and upper school(11-12) . I'll post about them later on and I think you may be surprised at the things i've done. no one is perfect btw so don't judge me. I think this week will be based on high school experience and don't worry. i'll post something about my high-school art life.

p.s I'm gonna get my results back from the "mock" exams - exams designed to prepare us for the final exams- which i think i'm gonna need some happy medicine. Just kidding ( that's why i'm forever alone). but seriously, I kind of lost my motivation because I've now reached a point where i know enough of myself that these exams are not gonna define my capabilities in the real world. the real world is not an in-class assessment. atlas, I excited that its gonna be over soon. YAY!!!

Art Review: Banksy- i just love his work

2011-10-14T06:53:00.000-07:00

Apparently this is - by the general public- his "self portrait"

. I love Banksy's work i find his work very interesting because not only he challenges the westernised government's lack of empathy towards the developing nations, he challenges us for allowing it and even promoting for the government's lack of response by juxtapositions the westernised lifestyle and the impoverished lifestyle of third world countries. in the work of the "mondays" you can distinctively see the contrast between our lifestyle and theirs. We whine about going to work represented by the clothing, while they worry about surviving; search for water, food and shelter. the colour obviously contrast the lifestyle: the bright colours imply our lifestyle is so utopian compared to their dull and somewhat ill-fated life represented in the barrenbackground. the face of the child is anger. obviously its a strong image because it symbolises the forced maturity of a child- the sense of innocence quickly taken away by life's hardship. i'll quickly wrap this up by saying i will comment more of his stuff because i might bore you out but if you think i'm wrong about his work, that it challenges us ( and our humanism) then look at the child. would you like to be in this scenario? and further more check out his site. trust me its safe. and if you were wondering if i was advertising his work, i thought you would like to know Banksy believes advertisements is a social pollution, just like some people views towards graffiti art. http://www.banksy.co.uk/index.html.

the dog, the bird and the neighbours.

2011-10-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

Omgggggggggg!!!!!!
I'm currently almost to the brink of losing it!!!
you see the past two months, the neighbours' dogs have become more vocal ( made worse by the highly emotional exam stress). at first I thought it was me because it seem to occur when I was at home..... until I realised they still bark when I'm away..... and the fact I'm not the only one who has the same viewpoint( thanks mum and dad). Then I thought it was spring and they might suffer some allergy such as hay-fever( dogs are renowned for having highly sensitive nose). But unfortunately it is not the case. It turns out the birds have been stepping in their "territory". because the neighbours have beautiful and exotic flowers , birds like to come and have a drink or two from the sweet nectar. It's understandable because it means new birdies are gonna pop out of their shells soon- evident by see eggshells falling from the trees, gently gliding through the breeze- because its part of the natural cycle. But for the dogs; I seriously had enough of this excessive barking. It's now to the point where I'm literally shouting the dogs directly to shut up( when the neighbours are not there. What's disappointing is the neighbours even though they know they are too loud they haven't really addressed the problem. I hear them ordering the dogs to "be quiet" and "sit" to the dogs.But what do the dogs do in return? they bark even louder before following their orders. I swear the dogs are becoming more louder each day!!!! grrrrrrr. I'm not trying to be a "Bitch" but seriously, dogs are meant to be promoting a good lifestyle, not harming them. we domestic dogs as our companions for life or in time when we are alone. it is so it benefits the owner- it is like a symbiosis relationship.
nonetheless I shall be glad it will be over soon( which will) when my stress levels go back to normal

dishes- emotionally invigorating?

2011-10-11T22:39:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I was washing the dishes and i thought myself how vital it is in everyday society. I believe dishes is a part of life's chores even though doing the dishes feels like life sentence. but this is due to the fact I do them in the crappiest mood ,and next to a clock that has the second hand moving at a constant speed( not "tick" "tick" "tick") But then i realise the reasons why its coidiencedently there is when it really needs to be done, like whenI run out of bowls. ....( please don't judge me)

I also realised there are moments when i'm in a good mood - which i forget because they are neutral; memories, like walking to school or catching the bus ...... when i'm emotionally stable..... when i'm not sleep-deprived.

The fun part ( and yes it sounds sad) is when I dry them. the shine of the freshly washed surface, the slick-pure metallic handles and the arousing circular forks is like a swan bursting with pride from its former ugly ducking self. ..... yes it is highly descriptive ;and no, you've just got a dirty mind.

anyways, after that later on my cousin made green macaroons for me. and my they were delicious- even never tried them before- the texture and the appearance was exactly what the " Masterchef australia" described- hard on the inside which easily breaks through into a sweet soft concoction of goodliness.

but that also brings to mind; don't eat too much of them. i did because they were so tasty but at night and think my body couldn't take that much sweetness and the ingredients; the recipe must've had rich ingredients.

Fun day but i just hate that shirt

2011-10-10T04:50:00.000-07:00

Ok, so i didn't post one yesterday; i was out watching a game. :)
it was great; nice to go out and spend time in the sun and have fun.
it was even more awesome when the Glory team won (about time .) but there were not so awesome moment. there was this person who was wearing this disgraceful T-shirt. it was a white T and had (quote): I don't discriminate. I hate everyone!
like seriously, its not cool!!!(particularly to those who are thinking of wearing it)i can not believe what i had saw. this person wearing this T-shirt with this message of hate and the underlying idea racism is justified because you hate everyone makes me sick and i wasn't the one. i whispers of " that's so strong, its not even funny," from people around me. the fact the person had the balls to walk out as though he was proud of it, through a multicultural crowd shocks me.
did a quick research and i realise is accepted in mainstream society. you can literally purchase this for $25;online (please don't!!! waste of money). It is to satirise the notions of equality by saying "its not discrimination i see it as hating everyone" . although i'm understand on how it can be funny(personally don't!!), i don't understand why should it be seen in public, when the statement is way ahead of our time? why should you wear in front of people from different cultural background. why do you have to wear it in front of kids who don't even know what the word racism and discrimination is. You can wear it at home or around with friends who understand the "humour" but not in the eyes of the public. not the eyes of people who have endured discrimination and inequality throughout their whole life, until recently. And especially not in this time period!!!!! we're only just then made racism unacceptable. and its still fragile!!!
anyways, i won't let those silly things get me; i know i had a fun day. i hope you see my viewpoint, even to some extent.

feeling slow-mo

2011-10-08T05:04:00.000-07:00

Hey, sup again, so earlier this morning i already told you about my dream- it was quite an experience- and how it 'shaken' up my shoes. I would like to gladly tell i'm feeling much better; relax, calm and stable.
so today nothing really happened apart from a slice of life from a pizza :) yummmmm. other than that it has been a sluggish day for me. especially when it came to do things. I tried to organised my file system( which involves me sorting out papers into 10 A4 binder files) - but gave up after an hour. the whole crap is still there, unfortunately. :( but i'll promise at the end of the year all of it is going into the recycling bin. [ P.S: please recycle. its better for all of us ]
What I felt was I didn't have much energy to do stuff. maybe its because my body is still catching up sleep-debt. nonetheless i was tired; yesterday had to do stuff and last night i didn't get a good sleep.
what I could do was making notes. ...... not discussing that further.
anyways the new episode of one piece is coming out tonight. i can't wait. literally. earlier it said 7pm but now its says 9pm. i sometimes believe that was deliberate as a way for moire viewers to watch other episodes before the new one is released. yes its like me thinking of conspiracy theories, which is strange for me- i usually don't think of conspiracy theories.
anyways , this is all i could think of today, in this evening.

awake- escaping the nightmare

2011-10-07T21:53:00.000-07:00

like WOW!!!!. last night i had a seriously awful nightmare. I was in my class receiving my results and then got a bad result of 44%. literally i chucked a spaz because naturally you would if you realised that it was your exam result. then suddenly had this friend of mine attack me accusing me of been hypocritical because i " annoying them with my whinging", and she then goes onto saying about my other results and how it was reflecting me. Instantly I lost it and yelled back at her saying i was hypocritical for the right reason( the results wee counting towards my final marks) and quickly criticise her for been because she brought in my other results( which i did had a feeling about it). the situation was so bad that i had to storm out of the class before destroying the class. the scary thing was it felt so real ;like final destination, except with the deaths and gore. what concerns me is this is how i would react in real life if this scenario happanes. i hope its not that "de ja vu" scenario. gosh that can get ugly.
Naturally you would think nightmares are about the violence and gore, how the media portrays it as an inhumane genre. i find nightmares in the media over-done and fabricated. nightmares can be anything other than violence and gore.. nightmares can be anything really. they. are like a "imagine yourself" in a situation that your uncomfortable with and would never imagine yourself to be in. what remains the same is their version of reality is designated to inflict pain , psychologically.
anyways, ill another blog later on the day because the nightmare is just one part of morning.