The lost kite

Dry The River

2011-06-14T13:03:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite songs

God

2011-06-10T11:11:00.000-07:00

I'm surprised with what human have become day by day, we becoming less human and more animalistic, tell me what so human about us? We fights over demesnes, we fights over beliefs, we fights over almost everything even over the smallest things in the world. You said you live in peace what so peace about human nowadays? You live in your comfy house and doesn't care shits about anyone, that's not peace my friend that's selfish. Just because no one terrorize your country doesn't mean you live in peace. Libya, Palestine, Iraq and many more being terrorized everyday over there and what you've been done all this while? Oh ya you're man of peace so you chilling at your bucolic house and having a coffee while watching what's going on? That's what i called animalistic. A lot of us just don't bother what's happening around the world. Just because they are Muslims so it’s their fight not yours? Just because they are Christians so it’s their fight not yours?

Peace doesn't really work that way my friend. If you want peace, you got to make sure your fellow human being live the life as you do, have a proper job, proper shelter to sleep to eat to gather with family and halcyon things.

You said you believe in god, but do you believe in his words? "Oh I’ve commit a lot sins so god doesn't care about me anymore" stupid, god is forgiving always remember that, no matter what the sins you have done just seek for forgiveness, what kind of god wants his children burn in hell ? Unless you stop believing in him. For me there are two types of sins, sins to god and sins to my fellow human beings, if didn't pray, if i drink alcohol or anything relates to god, i will seeks his forgiveness and Insyaallah he will forgives me, another is a sin to your fellow human beings, that's the sins you should beware of, you have to seeks forgiveness directly to the person you commit sins to. You can't seek forgiveness from god when you hurt your fellow human being my friend that just doesn't make any sense right?

so back to the topic for me as a Muslims i learn that Islam clearly prohibits all kinds and forms of aggression and violence against anyone, except in self-defence, Islam also places very high importance on justice, and allows for attackers or invaders and unfair people be punished accordingly, unless they repent before they are brought to justice. At the same time, Islam encourages people to forgive those who have wronged them whenever possible. These are the Surah that proves it

"Fight in the cause of Allah those who fight you, and do not transgress; for Allah loveth not transgressors." (Surah 2, Verse 190).

"But if the enemy incline towards peace, do thou (also) incline towards peace, and trust in Allah: for He is the One that Heareth and Knoweth (all things)." (Surah 8, Verse 61).

"And if ye do punish them, punish them no worse than they punished you: but if ye show patience, that is indeed the best (course) for those who are patient." (Surah 16, Verse 126).

Not only Islam promotes peace, Christian too but of course i can't say anything on it because i don't want to be wrong so let me just give proves of it

Psalm 34:14
Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.

Every other religion promotes peace too, but the main problem nowadays for human being is there are less people who believe in god. They rather pursue their own needs for their own self without thinking about anyone else. There are 3 things or roots of evil in this world and its Gold, Oils and Drugs. And if you combined the first letter of every word you got G.O.D.

You choose which god you worship.

"Be soft , do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

Friendship

2011-06-10T00:46:00.000-07:00

Well there are things in life that i regretted doing it and there are things in my life that i glad i done it. For the things that I've done before this there are positives and there are negatives , and for all the positive things that I've done i will make it as guide to lives my remaining life , and for all the negative things that I've done to myself or to people around me, I'm sorry for it. i know there's lot of bad things that I've done to my friends and people around me , and i never say I'm sorry for doing it.

Sometimes i sit and look around me...I'm wondering what kind of person i am? How selfish i am? Even though I've hurt them really bad, they are still around me. They have the courage to hold the bond of friendship even after i screwed them and i don’t even have the courage to say sorry? well let me take my chance here to say I'm sorry for all things that I've done guys , if you're one of my friends and you reading this post right now , I'm sorry alright ? and don't get me wrong alright , it's not that I've done something bad to you guys recently , just felt like saying sorry for all the things that I've done and i didn't noticed that i hurt you guys lah :) same goes to my girlfriend too , I’m sorry ye. It's not wrong to say sorry even if you doesn’t do any mistakes, it's healthy!

Friendship also needs appreciation not just for couples, in life I've told you guys a lot of times , there are 5 things that matters the most in life Your loved ones , Family , Friends , Faith and lastly but not least positive mind. If hold these 5 five things dearly, insyallah your life will be wonderful. Oh yeah i forgot forgiveness. Never keep vengeance on anything it will only make you worst, everyone make mistakes, don't be selfish le your felling is not the only thing that matters in your life, don't say you can live your life without those 6 things.

Iron & Wine - Trapeze Swinger

2011-05-31T09:05:00.000-07:00

Ivory

2011-04-21T13:54:00.000-07:00

The tusks of an elephant can grow to 17cm in a year and it grows continuously during its life time. Tusks is generally uses by elephant for digging water, salt and roots more than that it also uses to move trees and branches when clearing a path or to mark trees to establish territory and sometimes as weapons.

Just like you as human that commonly has right or left-handed, elephant also are the same, instead of right handed or left-handed elephants are usually right or left-tusked. The dominant tusk is called the master tusk.

Tusks is like a hand for elephant, it’s important for their everyday life just like you as a human being, have you ever imagine a life without your hands? It would be difficult isn’t? Your everyday routine would be difficult and there would be certain things are unable for you to do.

For elephant their tusks is a gift for them, but sadly their tusks is also the main reason why they are heavily hunted. Elephants in both Asia and Africa are known for their tusks, it’s because the tusks contain ivory, which is valuable for many different purposes.

Elephant tusks or things made of ivory is often seen as a symbol of status , so therefore who has the tusks is considered as a person with status, this is because ivory that has in the tusks is not easy to come, so the possession of ivory speaks for itself.

Elephant tusks is also a root of money, there are several ways to make money from elephant tusks , one is to be a poacher or hunter , these people kill the elephants and take their tusks to sell it to others illegally. Poachers or hunters do not typically keep the ivory for themselves.

Only male elephants have tusks, so when people killing elephants for their tusks, they are slowly killing the animals to extinction. Even though they are not after the female elephants, elephants can’t reproduce without the males.

World wide elephant populations have declined at an alarming rate since the mid 1970’s and the large illegal trade of the elephant tusks is the key thrust of the declining of elephant populations, due to the matter Endangered Species Act was created.

Endangered Species Act was created by the U.S legislation that was passed in 1973 for the purpose of protecting wildlife that was close to extinction. This law prohibits the import and interstate commerce of all products that are manufactured from species on the endangered species list and on this act it makes it illegal to import trade or sell elephant ivory worldwide.

Both Asian and African elephants are on the endangered species list as of 2010 and have since the 1970s. Due to the act in 1989 Kenya forced to burn about 12 tons of the country’s ivory stores even the financially poor country could have used the money from the ivory but that would have sent a different message than burning it.

Even though the act has been established over many years ago, in the last ten years or so the elephant population has dropped by 80 percent, from 150,000 down to 30,000 in Kenya alone. This mean the hunting for elephant’s tusks is still out there kicking the life out of the elephants.

In this matter who is it to blame? Can you say the governments? The poachers? No, the one who should be blamed is us. We live our life as if we are the only creature who deserve to live in this world, the supremacy of human being is sky high , we kill things so it could accommodate us, we kill things so it could benefited us and we kill things without thinking of the consequences.

God created everything in this world with reasons , not even a single creature god created without any purposes, that’s how god balance this world with creating things that are depended on each other.

Have you ever asked yourself in 20 or 30 years time, if we continue to do such things, would our grandkids get a chance to see what we used to see? Will our grandkids get a chance to see such lovely and gentle elephants are?

. It is our duty to protect animals from extinction and you can’t depend on the organizations alone to protect it. There are many ways to stop animals from extinctions, it just a matter if you care or not. Act now before it’s too late.

Last minutes with oden

2011-03-18T11:32:00.001-07:00

Colonialism effects

2011-03-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

It’s been what? 54, 53 years since we achieve independence right? And it took us hundred years to be freed from any parties and depending on ourselves. But do we really an independent country? If not as a country, how about as an individual? the effects on colonialism is still here, after so long eating British, Japanese and a lot more slaps it’s hard for Malaysian to forget the supremacy of those Colonialists. Today we still make them as an example how a develop country should be like, no matter how many flying kicks that we have received from them, we still look upon them. We are scared of the colonialists in terms of mind until now, especially the whites, whenever we see them we immediately tend to think the positivity about them. We feel they are smart, we feel they are good looking, we feel they knows thing so much than us and many more. What so positives about them if they used to flying kicked us all over the village? And not only that, not only we can't deny the supremacy of the colonialists, we adopted their culture too. So where are the independent? In form of what we achieve freedom? In form of "as long as we are not getting any flying kicks is good enough"?

Just because a person can talk fluent English that doesn't make him/her a smart person. Language is just a language, even if you're Malay and nurture from you're 2 years old to talk Tamil, you will be able to speak fluent Tamil too. Oh speaking fluent Tamil is not good as speaking fluent English? Because of what? Oh the colonialists use English kot when they colonized us, they spoke English kot when they beat the shit out of us, a-Ha look at the mentality, you can't judge a person simply by looking at the language he spokes or ethnicity.

If every subjects is turned into English then might as well change the Bahasa Malaysia to English too, it’s the same thing kan you still learning Bahasa Melayu but in English? They said if subjects are changed to English it’s easier for students to understand and prepare them for the future. Why? Our future is heading to where? Prepare for what? Prepare ourselves if say we are being colonized again it would be easier for us to negotiate when they try to give us flying kicks maybe instead of flying kicks maybe penampar ok kot,kurang sikit sakit kan? Is that it?

If you want to prepare students to master in English, all the universities in Malaysia is using English kan, so why bother the school students? If in school they are not learning much Bahasa then why say Bahasa is our national language. Don't say like that if you're doing the opposite way. Promote the national language, not abolish it slowly.

That's the one thing that has been troubling us for so many years, Denying the supremacy of the colonialists. And that's my friend is Colonialism effects.

Gonzo Journalism

2011-03-13T14:03:00.000-07:00

Uh, I always fascinated with gonzo journalism and it’s my dream to be a gonzo journalist one day if I can't be a war journalist. I'm sure there are no gonzo practitioners here in Malaysia, and I'm sure it would cause me so much troubles, but well I will take my chances rather than being a servant who writes rubbish just because my master asked me to do so. I always believe if you want to write sincerely, you write when you want to write and write what you want to write, Simple as that. Gonzo journalism is a form of journalism that writes story based on his experience being involved in the subject and reports it as narrator or a first person report for an example if a reporter is asked to write a story on drugs then the reporter will take the drugs and experience it first hand and write about it. And if a reporter is asked to do story on gangsterism then the reporter will join local gangs to experience it and write about it as the subject itself, not a third party like the normal reporters does. Sounds cool eh? And there are risks too. If the reporter got caught breaking the law during the assignments then the reporter will be charged breaking the law, no excuses. But hey no pain no gain eh? Ha-ha.

For me gonzo journalism is the real deal. I mean how would you write a story or report based on subjects that you haven't experienced right? Are you going to write an article based on your own personal judgment which you don't know about? Or you going to write an article based on another person's experience? Doesn’t that sound bias? How you going to write the details? That’s how you got rubbish from the newspapers everyday because they wrote things based on their bias evaluation. You should write things that you understood clearly. By doing a research alone is not enough for you to understand the subject lah.

Gonzo journalism is actually more suitable for novels and not newspaper, but there are certain subjects for the newspaper that can be cover using gonzo journalism. The pioneer of gonzo journalism is Hunter S Thompson, he wrote numerous of books on gonzo journalism, one of his books that caught my eyes is Hell’s angel: the strange and the terrible saga of the outlaw motorcycle gangs, Which he tells the story of him becoming one of hell’s angel crew a notorious motorcycle gang and got carried away with the life style of hell’s angel crew and its good, you guys should read it! Gonzo journalism is the most exciting type of journalism. I know there are similarities between feature writing and gonzo, and you know what? Fuck feature writing, it’s for pussies and geeks.

Anyhow yeah hopefully if I can't be a war journalist then I will be the first Malaysian who does gonzo journalism.

Rights

2011-03-09T13:42:00.000-08:00

If you can't give us freedom of speech, if you can't give us the power of students, at least give us some rights to decide.

Best days

2011-01-15T11:04:00.000-08:00

Hello gangster! Happy anniversary! It’s been 1 year and 6 months I’m with you now gangster, got to say I still feels the same as the first week that we get together.
I'm not going to lie to you that I never mad at you or I never make mistakes all this while when we are together. I do mad at you, but not always. I do made mistakes, but not always (or always?) but for all those negative feelings or acts that I had and done will never faded my love towards you, you just got to trust me on that alright baby? I know words don’t mean anything, everyone can say whatever they want, but I have proved you so far right baby?

I know sometimes I act and spoke things that I shouldn't have, but baby I always told you I'm just a normal human being, there is nothing special in me that can prevent me to do such mistakes. when we argue over things and it gets bigger know you expect me to understands you and I always failed to , and I'm sorry for it , I really am. I know I said sorry for millions of times already but I never lied about my sorry. I really meant it when I said I'm sorry.

Oh yeah! You once said to me that you're luckiest one to have me right? So listen here gangster, as for me, from my side, you make me feel special and lucky to even have you touch me with your tiny hands or even when you look straight into my eyes. So you’re not the luckiest one, maybe you are a bit lucky, but I’m the luckiest! Thank you for making me feels that way. Until this day! :)
I love you ain! And I miss you. let’s hang out shootin’ cans when you got time g,He he :)

Anything for you.

2010-10-31T12:00:00.000-07:00

I would do anything for you ain :)

I woke up early from my bed
With a secret in my head
In the back of my backyard
I keep a spaceship in the shed

I lit the engine and took the sky
From up here it looks so nice
I didn't stop until the moon, where I
Picked a flower just for you

And I fell down to you in a parachute
of newspaper rubber bands, tape, and glue
So you would see I would do anything for you
Anything for you

I didn't want to wake you up,
so I put the flower in a cup
On the floor next to your bed
Without a sound I laid my head

Drifted off into a dream
Of what has been and what could be
I saw your tears, I saw you fall
But I saw us rise, I saw it all

And I never want you to know
All of the lengths I've gone
To find where the flowers grow

Love is never supposed to be
A present under our tree
I do it because I believe

Stand by me :)

2010-10-30T11:20:00.000-07:00

Listen to it while reading the post!!

For those out there who are scared of commitment,i would like to say; Don't be scared darlings,because eventually at certain part of your life you will need someone who you care and you love to be around you. it's a lie if you say you can stay single without needing a person who really love you and care about you. it's a lie if you doesn't want anyone to ask about how your day was,how pretty you are today,and it's a lie if you doesn't want someone waiting for you the whole day just that he or she get a chance to talk to you. It's a good feeling when you're a having a rough day,and at the end of the day,there's someone who are waiting for you,just to hear what you've been through,There's someone who are willing to hear all your problems and comfort you. never choose side when you're in troubles. and never judge you,even though you are wrong sometimes. Don't you want that?

yeah you might say you have friends all over you to comfort you,but does it feel the same if the person is your partner ? the person who really loves you,a person who even can't look you cut a little bit? a person who can't even smile when you're having a fever? i don't think so."Friends are great, but friends are not gonna be here on a night u are coughing and cant sleep and someone has to sit all night with u,comfort u, try to be helpful. a loved one is important." And yeah you might say " i already try hard enough to find someone who understands me but i can't!" well how would he/she understands you if you never give him/her a chance? open up a bit, relax,the earth is going nowhere,don't rush,don't try too hard it will only lead you to choose the worsts out there.

The real answer is Put your expectation low,don't expect much from others while you yourself can't afford to fulfill the expectation itself. So good luck out there guys,sometimes you feel you're strong enough all by your own,but trust me,you are stronger when you're with your partner ;)

Life's Hardship.

2010-09-27T20:05:00.000-07:00

Don't complaint when you are in trouble, share it. that's the best advice i can give to you. it's normal to have troubles and hardships in our life , it just how you react to it. the more you worry the bigger your problem will become , trust me..so Don't worry and be happy because eventually in life no matter how hard you try to stay out of trouble,it will get you. Constantly. So let it be,Don't fear it. Don't worry about what may never happen. i mean how sucks it can be? i bet there are more worst thing can happen to you right? unless you just killed someone then yes,you have a good excuse to feel worry because sooner or later the police will get to you.
So next time when you're in trouble or life's hardship get to you , ask yourself this question: "Will this matter a year from now?" The answer would be nope :)

Pray.

2010-08-29T15:19:00.000-07:00

These days are moving fast ahead,one more day like this on world that we are living right now, would change everything that we thought is ours. we only live here for certain period of time. just because you live the whole life on this earth doesn't mean it is yours, and you can do anything you want. it is wrong. people shouldn't kill each other. people should'nt killing each other just because of oil or faith that ones believing in. how many blood have to be spill until we realise we are hurting our own selves. its strange how people these days acts. admit it. we are acting strange these days. we should help each other instead of watching someone Else's life crumbling down and do nothing about it. yes,we can change the world. a simple act can change the world.
just look around us. our behaviors. even the animals doesn't act like us. there are million of creature living in this world,why should we be selfish? we are destroying our own world. minute by minute. we can start by praying to our god. instead of asking him to make you rich,famous,powerful or "good",why not ask him to make you live without hate,whim,jealousy,envy,fear,honest,natural,clean in mind, and wish others to live their live as good as possible. that's the first step. you doesn't have to pick up a rifle to change the world. it seems that people have lost faith on this world. people stop believing in doing good to others will lead you to a good life. people would rather do mean things to lead them to a good life.
you might think you are safe now just because you are in Malaysia,but do you really think you can live a life knowing others are not lucky as you are? i can't. i believe we all should share the feeling of PEACE. no matter what country you are from or what colour you are. i used to dream on becoming a war journalist,but when i grow older i forgot about the dream,I've change. i stop thinking about helping people. i stop thinking about Fairness. i fed my mind with things that are not important. i thought i was happy the way i am right now , but the truth is no. i cant live my life knowing others are being torture and bully every single day. WAR IS KILLING US,SLOWLY BUT SURELY. i know who am i to change it,but it is better for me to try rather than sit down not doing anything about it.
if i fail,i will try again. if i fail i will try again,becuase at least i know hope is still there. but what if im not doing anything about it? what would happen if i stop chasing the dream? the hope is over.

so yeah, insyaallah i will become a war journalist and show the world how terribly we have become and ignorant we are. one day. Insyaallah,I'll pray. :)

Decision.

2010-08-25T03:09:00.002-07:00

Have you ever in a situation where you are in dilemma for making decision in your life , where you stuck and confused to choose something which will impact your life later on? something could change your life forever ?

which one would you choose,to stay the way you are right now or explore new things in life?

i know life can be cruel,you might ended up choosing a wrong decision for your life,But well…Fuck it..you wouldnt know if it is the wrong decision if you never try it right.

Life and Friendship

2010-08-25T03:09:00.001-07:00

It’s not that bad after all, Life is great. sometimes we are at the bottom of the deepest hole and sometimes we are at the top of the hills, and when we are at the top, everything seems to be alright we forget all things that have been troubling us before, and that is what great about life, we always forget what makes us down and sad when we are at the top of the hills. Forgiveness is what matters. Throw away your anger and vengeance, it will only make you worst. we all done some bad things and good things in life, that’s how god balance this world. You expect people to forgive you for what you have done, so does the people who made mistakes to you. Let’s just forget about yesterday and the day before. Let’s start all over again. That’s how you suppose to think as a human. Who are us to revenge and judge what is wrong and what is good while god almighty never punished us for we have done, he always give us chance to seek forgiveness . Be nice to people because you never know what you going to get in return. i always nice to people, no matter who they are. I always keep in touch with my friends old friends and new friends , no matter how things have change. Just because we are differentiate from our gender doesn’t mean we can’t be nice to each other. Friendship is something you have to hold on to, just because things have change doesn’t mean you have to change too. Not everyone being nice to you expect something in return from you. Trust me there are still people who have pure heart in this world. Someone who seeks pure friends. Someone who seeks pure love. Remember just because you think it is what you think it is, doesn’t mean it is what you think it is. Life is a mystery to us. Just remember, when you love you someone, love them with your whole heart. When you make friends with someone, keep them close to you heart.

Chasing the dream

2010-08-25T03:08:00.002-07:00

To be or not to be , your call. Don’t let people put barrier in your head stopping you from achieving your dream , you dream about it , then chase it. life is all about Chasing what you want the most,Its a race and like all the old sayings , it’s not about reaching the place ,but the journey and how you reach there is what matter the most. that what makes it more meaningful than any other things that can happen to you. you can’t stop when every little things come in front of you , that’s how the universe works kid. no matter what life throw at you , you gotta be strong and push it away. you are the director of your life , you make the ending , you can make a happy ending and you also can make a sad ending , it’s up to you mister director.

now matter how much wrong turns you have made , trust me at the of the road your dream will be there waiting for you. So no matter what your decision are or what life test you , keep the faith close to your heart , swallow it and keep chasing or give up and forget about the dream. your call.

But put in your mind,It’s all about planning. if you fail to plan then you are planing to fail. stay positive.

Captain of your own life.

2010-08-25T03:08:00.001-07:00

Never listen to people around you when dealing with dilemma,you can ask an advice but never ask for direction. No matter if it is wrong or right , at the end of the day you know you still have your heart and that is what matter the most in life,knowing you live your life as you want to live.

When a moon misses his star

2010-05-01T16:44:00.000-07:00

sweetheart i miss you when I'm happy about something,that's because you're the first person that i want to share with

I miss you when I'm sad, that's because you're the only one that can comfort me .

i miss you when I'm laughing my head off,that's because you can make me laugh harder till my head,legs and hands off.

i miss you when you're not here beside me, that's because life without you is not fun at all.

i miss you when i play my football game on ps2, becuase i kept remembering how cute you are playing it before this.

i miss you when i see myself in the mirror , that's because you are the only one who belive in me.

i miss you when I'm eating, that's because i got no one to fight over the foods with.

i miss you when I miss you that's because it makes me love you more than ever when i miss you.

you maybe far away from me ,but trust me , your love is still lingering all over me. ;)

and yeap,I love you Ain. a lot! and I'll never stop :)

Questions without Answers.

2009-12-22T15:08:00.001-08:00

Hey guys, long time no see eh ? And now i finally see you. yes,i can see you from here. nice pajamas. but you look much better without wearing anything. ;) just joking. it's been a long time i haven't write anything on my blog. i do wrote something on my blog but it's not for you guys. its for my sweetheart. he he. jiwang. now this post i is for you guys! now lately I've been asking myself about many things. since our world has changing over time , there are a lot of questions keep wandering in my head.

So the first question is..do you remember when in the 80s or in 90s there are millions of story that we heard about UFOs ?
People seeing small body creature with big head , or big head creature with small body or creature with big small body without head. ( wait..it doesn't sound right...doesn't it ? but well,who cares) not only the story we heard but it also came on the news,usually the things that came on the news are real,so is it real ? i mean the aliens ? the UFOs thingy?

I bet you will say "Yes there are some other creature living in this planet beside us apit" ( with a mystical tone and odd looking face") HA HA

are you sure about it?

here come the best part. if you say there are UFOs in our planet , then why the hell in the New age , Modern age, Nano-technology , V-tech,High tech,Super tech,(and others sophisticated words combining with tech) world that we are living in where everyone seems to have their own video cam or any other device related to recording a video yet failed to caught A real UFO?
Why when almost everyone have their own cam coder they stop talking about seeing UFO like they used to do ?
Do you understand what i'm trying to say here ?
Why when there are no recording device , everyone seems to see UFOS
but when everyone has a recording device , they stop talking about UFOS?

The ANSWER IS , because the world we are living right now,is all about seeing is believing.

they stop talking about UFOs because they know they can't talk about UFOs while mimicking The UFOs wandering the woods using their hands. they have to prove it with a video.

Right ? Right ? Right?

so now? what happen ?

yes,just like you thinking...they keep quiet and act like the aliens is prolly already bored with our planet and decide to find another planet's woods to wandering around.

So the point here, its obvious people from the 80s and 90s is bullshitting us.there are no UFOs.
The video that you used to see about UFOS is FAKE,where there are flying object with oval shape wandering the woods. it's actually a KITE!. really. (Dont ask me how does they make the kite to look like UFOs because i don't know how,maybe they tied their son to the rope and ask them to climb A tree and act like a ufo while making a strange sound. i dont know..besides why would you ask ? don't you have other important thing to do?)

This Years Love.

2009-12-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last

So whose to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last

Distance

2009-09-23T14:03:00.000-07:00

Hey Beautiful,

I just wanted to do something simple to say I love you and to put that smile I love so much back on your face. Sorry for making you sad just now, i wasn't mean it. So i want everyone to know how much you mean to me. ever since you have entered my life, I've been flying on Cloud 9 and I have not come down yet. and It's been a while since I saw your pretty smile. i know its been difficult for us this past few days being separate and not seeing each other.Life seems to be full of trials without you by my side.i felt like losing my lucky charm when you're not around.my days are gray and dull when you're not around.my morning doesn't seems to be bright as always when you're not around.

Sweetheart, you are a significant part of my life.You are a great girl and I just can't imagine a day without knowing you. When you are not here I see you, I smell you, I feel you,and you don't know how much I really do miss you. a lot! and I miss the way you would hold me and hug me when those sad times came around... can't wait to see you again this weekend!

p/s : I love you more than you could possibly know.
p/s : Come back fast!
oh p/s : i miss you! banyak.

Smiling wide

2009-06-25T07:00:00.000-07:00

Since the first time I saw you,i couldn't seem to forget you. But now after we really met , i don't know how am i going to control myself if i don't see you again.
I feel so happy around you and god when I see you smiling after i stared at you , how i wish i can describe how wonderful it is , life wasn't that bad after all.
Your smile,It makes my life worth while.
Gotta see you soon , i already missed you quite terribly here!
:)

Happy Birthday!

2009-06-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

Hey! It's your Birthday! by the time you reading this , it's prolly your birthday now . unless you read this early lah. this suppose to be another surprise. :)
i just want to say I can't explain the way that I feel right now , For all the times we spent together it just gets better day by day.You make things better And no matter what the day is,when you are with me , it's better.The more i talk to you the more i fall deeply into you. And Sorry i can't be there on your birthday , But believe me even you're far away , you still in my mind , not a single second you're out of it. Can't wait for you to read the card that sent to you. sorry i posted it a little late. :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! good luck in everything you do alright.

Summer is coming.

2009-06-16T09:01:00.000-07:00

I remember the moments when i first looked at you, those big black eyes and sweet face of yours. i kept asking my friends about you after that day. I remember your earliest tears when you text me, how I just wanted to keep you as close to me as I could and rock those tears away but i can't I'm far away.
i know there's no one perfect in this world , but you're perfect enough for me , and please stay Forever who you are now , don't change a thing. "In my Dreams You Were Perfect, When I Woke Up you Were Perfect"
There's something about you that makes me attracted to you , and i don't know what is it. I've tried so hard to figure it out but i can't. I've never known before such a feeling. it's a wonderful feeling. only heaven knows how the feeling are . really.
i got lost when ever speaks to you.
so i think i have to buy myself a compass for that lah , this weekend :P