Stupid Sleep Deprived Ramblings

Hello....Goodbye

2015-08-15T21:30:00.000-04:00

As i watch re-runs of M*A*S*H on netflix, i reminisce, a thousand memories flood my mind, these are the same re-runs i grew up watching. I had the good fortune to see Loretta Swit in Shirley Valentine when i first came to Canada, the major was still going strong.

These-days i think about the past a lot, how different my life could have been, had i taken a different road, but circumstances led to me being where i am right now, of course circumstances coupled with indiscretions on my own part.Call it fate or eventuality it is what it is, or maybe i am just going through a mid-life crisis :)

I had an interesting talk with my dad recently, mainly about religion and God. He is a firm believer, and believes it is jesus who will resolve all the problems in our lives, i on the other hand.... well i am who i am, i do not believe in organized religion. That being said i have always respected people who believe and stand up for their faith as long as we are not talking about the crazies who want to wage war on the rest of the world, but normal God fearing people. Well anyway, the talk led me to question myself, is my life the way it is because i do not go to church, i do not pray etc. ?

I thought about it long and hard and i came to the conclusion that, no its not because i do not go to church or have memorized the bible that my life is the way it is, its because i chose to make it the way it is. Life events have influenced my thought process and that is how life is, some have it good, some have it hard!, i fall in the latter category but then then i am among the lucky ones ,there are millions or even billions out there who are worse! and most of them are where they are in life through not their actions, but pure fate!

Anyway that is it i guess for this post, just needed to write something!

The need to write....

2015-06-21T19:53:00.000-04:00

I felt the need to write again, i know i neglect the blog, but it comes handy when i do feel the urge to scribble.I sometimes wonder what life has become and how different it could have been, i look around myself and i see people i know, friends and family and they have their own families, they are settled in life and i guess in a way leading a normal life. Which leads me to question myself, why am i not one of them? why have i always shied away from leading a life which meant having a family, having kids etc. ? instead here i am, alone, sometimes the loneliness gets to me and today i guess is one of those days....

But would i ever be comfortable in a life like that, that is the question i ask myself, over and over again and the answer is a resounding NO, my genetic makeup seems to be different, i like my independence, i like to be free, i hate being tied down, its just not me, maybe just maybe i can find a companion in life who thinks the way i do, who enjoys the same things i do and loves her independence just as i do mine, so far the search has been unsuccessful but i can always hope....

I feel disgusted these days, because of the world we live in, there is so much violence, poverty, hunger and death all around us, why is it that we as humans cannot learn to co-exist with each other, why do we want more, enough is never enough, there is always a hunger for more, the rich get richer, the poor get poorer, the religious zealots use religion as a weapon, there is no place for spirituality anymore, everything seems to be fake, no one cares about the starving hungry child and if we do care its because our religion says so or maybe we think we have done something good, we feel the satisfaction, there are very few selfless people left in this world....

I propose a society free of money, religion, poverty, where there is plenty for all to eat, where disputes are settled by diplomacy and talk, instead of killing and death. The rule of the jungle does not apply anymore, i know its just a Utopian dream but maybe just maybe we will have such a world one day, devoid of hate, where everyone loves the other and we all co-exist in peace....

Anyway i think i have written enough, maybe will post again soon, it did feel good to write a few lines!

Good Bye 2014

2014-12-31T18:10:00.001-05:00

So it is the last day of 2014 and i get the urge to write something, how apt! There i wrote something,see you in 2015! wait i'll write something more, maybe about my year, not that anybody cares anyway, no one reads this blog and hence it has become a diary of sorts!

So my year was ok i think, nothing too exciting happened, on the relationship front i have had absolutely no luck, i think maybe 75% of the fault is mine though in that aspect, i have stopped trying, its like i don't care anymore, but its on days like these that i feel the need for someone more than ever!, to top it off all my ex's well almost all, lets say 70% had babies this year or found out that they were pregnant, again i am happy for them, but you know a little sad as well, i wanted all that i guess, to be with someone and have a family.... i guess i am just not destined for that!!!!

Lets see what else? hmmm , i missed my close friend's wedding which was a big deal i think, have to make it up to him somehow, i was in an accident just last week, luckily came out ok, had bronchitis, damn this is all bad or depressing news, i cannot think of anything positive that happened this year, well my sister moved to ohio, i guess that was a positive thing, she is closer now!!

Anyway lets hope 2015 brings some joy, and i hope the same for everyone else as well, adios and see you next year, enjoy the song!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1D5PtyrewSs

Whatsapp!

2014-09-30T23:05:00.001-04:00

Over the years technology has become a necessity rather than a luxury, mobile phones, computers etc. which as recently as 20 years ago were deemed a fancies of the privileged are now common place and dirt cheap.

Of course with phones these-days which are tagged as 'smart' come applications which are also smart, one such being WHATSAPP!, being valued at 19 billion dollars, can you imagine someone wrote an app which made communication easier and its worth an insane amount of money now, i guess 19 billion is in essence a payment for the idea not the app, a cross platform communication device.

Anyway my blog post is not about how over-valued i think whatsapp is or how companies are making acquisitions for ridiculous amounts of money when people die of starvation each day, that is for another place, another time. Rather i want to talk about Sacred Heart High School Class of 93, a whatsapp group which i was added to recently.

Sacred Heart High School Class of 93 was my graduating class, and the idea for the group stemmed from a facebook picture which was posted. An enterprising friend decided to create a group, a whatsapp! group, now that the group has been created, its sole mission is to find every member of that graduating class, no matter where in the world they are, its funny but there is a sense of unity, a sort of oneness within the group, i should know, i am silent member, i rarely chat but i do follow every conversation that takes place and it makes me smile, its good to reminisce, those were after all the good old days!

I wish i could write more, maybe paint a picture or even a caricature of the people in the group,every shade of colour imaginable would fill that picture for that was the class of 93, maybe i will write more, maybe sometime soon!!

Here is to you friends, all of you will always have a special place in my heart!!

Adios for now!! till next time!!

Over a year!

2014-03-26T15:22:00.001-04:00

Been over a year since i last posted, never felt the need to post, i guess life happened!

Arsenal still gives me heart-ache, my long term ex had a kid, i am still single(although i did have a promising budding relationship which went nowhere), i got promoted, 2 of my closest friends got married, that about sums up the year!

Arsenal + Arsene Wenger

2013-02-19T22:19:00.001-05:00

So i had a miserable weekend in terms of Arsenal that is, otherwise it was quite pleasant actually and my misery was compounded today, so on the weekend we went crashing out of the cup with a loss to blackburn and today albeit a much stronger Bayern side trashed us 3-1.

I have mentioned previously in posts that when Arsenal lose and i don't care to whom i have a miserable day, i am angry, i am frustrated and i feel like i am never going to watch football again, but come game time i am desperate to see them play.I guess most fans passionate about the game and their team are like me, but there comes a time when i have to question myself, why do i even bother watching anymore? its not like we are going to win anything? the satisfaction of finishing above spurs is there every season but it seems unlikely this season,, which brings me to Arsene Wenger.

I have long believed that Arsene has done great things for the club and he still is the right man for the job, but everytime something like this happens i question myself and my judgement.I read a lot of blogs primarily sports related and from what i can see there are an equal number of people now in both camps, i.e. the For Arsene Camp and the Against Arsene Camp.I still do not know where i Fit in, i was in the For Arsene Camp but now i am on the FENCE.

I do believe however that replacing Arsene is not the solution,as people on blogs like Le-grove may lead you to believe, it may be part of the solution but definitely not the end game, the entire heirarchy should go, i mean Gazidis, Hill-Wood, Kroenke, the lot, easier said than done considering Stan the Man owns close to 70% of the club.NOTHING and i repeat NOTHING will change just by firing arsene, and besides he makes money for the club so the other three are happy with him anyway. Ironic how Arsene always talks about running a club responsibly in financial terms and i agree completely, i would hate for a Sugar Daddy to take over and us become like Chelsea or City but he(Arsene) can take a page from the club that beat us today, Bayern Munich, the club is run like a well oiled machine and i don't mean in footballing terms but i mean as a business and they still attract some of the biggest names in world football something i think Sadly my beloved Arsenal does not anymore.

I am not a writer and i don't have a lot of time so in conclusion, here is what i think,
For Arsene Wenger: Finish in the top 4 secure Champions League Football for next year, then spend and i mean spend a lot in summer, forget about turning in a profit
For the Board and Kroenke: Let Arsene Spend and if he does not MAKE him
For the Fans: Support the team so that we finish in the top 4 and if changes do not happen this summer time for an Arsenal Revolution next year, similar to the Arab Spring, stop following games, buying merchandise,etc., a fan-blackout of sorts, let the club lose money and then maybe we will see some action on the part of the owners and the manager( i sincerely hope it does not come down to this)

Adios for now!

Crazy stuff??

2013-02-12T00:29:00.000-05:00

So a little over 2 weeks(well almost 2 weeks) since i last posted i guess, some crazy stuff has been going on in my life, not like wildly exciting crazy but just nonsensical, that is a word i think :) well i know it is!

Some of the crazy stuff has been good,
Example 1: I am on the subway coming back home, the train stops at yonge and eglinton like it does everyday, but it stops for an extended period of time, i guess the driver might have had to take a leak or something, i am standing lost in thought, suddenly among the loads of people exiting from the other side i see a familiar face, i see ricky and he looks at me and has the same puzzled look!, anyway i have been trying to co-ordinate a day to hang out with ricky and mana ever since i moved here but it had not happened and all of sudden a coincidental meeting at the subway station leads to drinks and dinner at their place!

Example 2: Bad but interesting crazy stuff,
So a couple of weeks ago? i think it was 2 weekends ago i was supposed to babysit/house sit for a friend of mine(the one i spent christmas with, close friend) but it did not happen, i was back from kingston that day so i thought well i better make some other plans and so i did. But when i reached home to my surprise there was no electricity, meaning no heat, no hot water nothing!!!! Apparently the wires had burnt out and the whole house needed to be rewired! and so it was sat,sun and mon without heat, hot water and more importantly internet!!!!!! A couple of friends insisted i spend the weekend with them, but i hate to impose and besides would have meant leaving oreo alone in the cold, so i decided to make it a camping experience, indoor camping! well i survived but boy it was cold and cold showers in cold weather not so good!!!!

Anyway there is more to write but i am getting sleepy and its almost 1, so maybe in the next post!!!

Superbowl sunday....

2013-02-03T20:45:00.001-05:00

That is what it is today and i guess most people are glued to their TV screens! i have my TV on as well, but i have never followed american football so most of it is greek to me:)

Life has been hectic the past few weeks, mainly a lot of work, although i did manage to go out for a couple of movies and a few drinks with a good friend from work, i like hanging out with her, its lottsa fun:) and its good to have someone to talk to about life and all its problems! she gives me advice on love/life etc. her being older and wiser :) and i throw in my two cents whenever she has any issues in her life!Also my bubbly neighbour at work is bubbly as ever and so very cute!

Anyway, its been a while since i wrote anything about the gunners, frankly it has been a disappointing season and even in the january window we did not do much business, got a left back who looks good but i think we needed to add more offense, there is something missing in this team and i cannot put my finger on what it is?
Some may say RVP or Cesc but i say those guys are history, i think we need a player who can carry the others, jack might be that player in 2 years but right now who is that player?

done....

2013-01-09T22:21:00.001-05:00

So i did not respond and i think its over for good now and i am so glad, in fact i am in high spirits, i do not think i have ever blogged about this particular woman, maybe i should? oh well some day when i have some time i guess!

Other than that, i am kind of impressed with myself, i was feeling a little insecure and down but all that changed, someone extremely attractive wants to go on a date? insecurity you go out the window, the solitary date might amount to nothing but it did give me the boost i badly needed :)

round 1 to me....

2013-01-08T21:42:00.001-05:00

So she called and left a message, i chose to ignore it :),,,, although now i feel bad about it!
Should i repsond?

Second post

2013-01-06T22:44:00.001-05:00

Of the new year! i don't know when i will get some time to post again so i thought might as well write another blog post! not that anyone cares or reads my blog but like i have said on numerous occassions this is my diary of sorts:) and i like keeping it.

So my previous post of the day was written when i was frustrated, angry, sad etc. all at the same time, but i am glad i got that out of my system, did not take long :), wow come to think of it, i got out of getting into another messy complicated relationship with someone who i don't think i can ever trust! and i think the feeling is mutual, i dont think she trusts me as well and fair play to her, she has her life, i have mine, hopefully i can press the ignore button on my phone when i get a message, though usually its me who messages, you know how i am, have a few drinks and i get all emotional and shit!

I have always known that she was twisted very twisted in fact, but somehow i was always attracted to her, still sort of am i guess, not that she is the super hot babe that i crave for?? do i really, no i do not:), just an average looking woman , and the last i saw her, she had actually gained a few, a few rolls here and there, not too appealing i must say, but there is something about her.... oh well that is history now and i am glad, but come to think of it, makes me wonder, she was excellent at playing the victim, always has been... i wonder if there is any truth to what she had told me so far, i think there must be? maybe like 35%, 65% being a fabrication of her imagination!

Ok now that i have vented some more, i think its time to hit the sack, get to see my neighbour tomorrow after a few days, should be fun! she is so bubbly and full of life and so very innocent, i usually end up smiling just thinking about it:) a good girl something i cannot say about a lot of other women out there, if you get my drift!

Till next time, adios!

2013....

2013-01-06T15:34:00.000-05:00

So happy new year to everyone out there, my new year as usual was busy, with work that is!!
So here i am on a sunday afternoon with emotions running wild, feeling the urge to express myself, as i have written before, writing makes me feel a lot better, its good to write things down get them out of your system!!

So rule number 1, never trust people who you know have a history of not being trustworthy, i don't know myself sometimes, why do i fall for someone who i know is going to end up hurting me? luckily i found out soon enough, what happened in the past should remain in the past, someone people are just not worth the time or the effort, i know there is someone better out there for me and i know that person will fill my life with joy and happiness,

So today i have decided to call it quits on a friendship/relationship with someone i have known for quite sometime, it had never been a concrete relationship of sorts anyway, it was all a guessing game i guess and i guessed wrong i think, as i sit here writing this i feel a tinge inside, something inside me feels hurt, unknowingly i had started to like someone again, how could i make the same mistake over? do i never learn? i need to buck up, pull my socks up and live life, like i said some people are just not worth it....

Disclaimer

2012-12-28T15:35:00.000-05:00

I know i posted a disclaimer before, but thought i should post one again, most of my posts are purely based on the mood i am in, these do not translate into anything literal, so if someone(i.e. someone who i know) reads my blog please do not take it too seriously, these are mainly random musings and i keep this blog as a diary of sorts with tidbits of information, and usually i have had a drink or two or three before i post, so... you can infer,,,cheerio!!

Christmas....

2012-12-27T02:21:00.003-05:00

So christmas is over, i just got home and today, well yesterday now was boxing day and i was stuck in a snowstorm, i went to church on christmas eve, exchanged gifts, had a nice time, christmas day was a similar routine and boxing day i went to see life of pi(for the second time) and like i had mentioned got stuck in a snowstorm,,,,
These days usually i find that i do most of my thinking when i am on the subway, its like i tune myself out from the noise and commotion and just think, its a good trait i think because i can do it on demand now, tune people out that is:), anyway back to my thoughts, so today on my way back i was thinking about the women in my life and how most of them measure up to the one girl that i truly love and respect(as a friend of course, i had mentioned her in my previous post, somewhere on the lines of she is closest thing to perfect i have come accross but we knew instantly that there was 0 compatibility, so we became good friends)

The answer, most of them come nowhere even close to measuring up, each and every woman i have been with, either romantically involved or physically or both have been like me, so that says it all i guess, me, i am a nice person but i am selfish, not entirely trustworthy, i lie, i am pretentious sometimes, i am opinionated etc etc, the list goes on, in short nothing like my friend, i might be spending new years with her, she messaged and i will extend my stay in ktown so that i can keep up the tradition we have had for the past few years, spend new years with the same bunch of friends!!

anyway, time to get some shut-eye i guess!!!! but wait there might be someone, my cute and bubbly neighbour:), she definitely has a good heart, as for the other things,,,, time will tell, but 7 yrs younger? i wonder?

So..

2012-12-10T23:34:00.001-05:00

Last night, just when i thought i had written it all down and felt better, i had the urge to call my dad and then we had an argument, then i had an argument with my sister, so i felt miserable again,,,,
Today was a miserable day, i felt lousy all day that is till supper time, i met up with old friends from kingston, it was nice to see them again, it felt good to have a few drinks and a few laughs, i miss that:)

So i am back to being my optimist self again, i will continue looking for that one girl, the one i think who will complete me, i have a picture in my mind, but somehow i cannot get to see the real thing, i probably have a friend in kingston who is as close as it comes to the real thing, she is kind, compassionate, caring and i rarely say this but she has my utmost respect,,,,its too bad that we are two different people, not compatible at all! but i am glad she found someone who is really nice:), so my search continues, so what is my idea of a soulmate, if some such thing does exist, the optimist in me is screaming right now, it does, it does!!!!! or rather she does!!!! she does!!!
Well she has to be kind, not judgemental, sweet, someone who helps others at every possible opportunity they get, cute, gentle, smart, someone who is not a liar(seen too many of those(fuck i lie as well,so i should know the kind)), someone i can trust, in short someone who is not like me at all, which to many of you would be like" what the fuck is this hypocrite talking about?","look at him and look at what he wants"
Yes i am a hypocrite, but i believe and i truly believe that if i find this one girl i will change who i am, she will be able to mould me into this"good person", i will never lie, cheat, some of the other qualities i think i already have, i am gentle,kind, non judgemental etc.(i think so anyway)
might be a pipe dream but hey i can dream right?

Dec 09 2012

2012-12-09T21:55:00.002-05:00

That is the date today, almost 2 months in toronto.... i just watched a movie, "silver linings playbook", it was good, made me feel like writing, i guess a lot of emotions got stirred inside of me, mixed feelings about love, life, you know the whole fucking shabang, first time i have ever used the word fuck i guess in a blog post, well fuck, there is a first for everything!!
I feel like i am caught in this web and i cannot seem to untangle myself, pressure from family, work, 0 love life prospects, what is going on i wonder, i guess today all of it came out and i decided why not write about it, afterall writing does ease some of the frustration as some say....
Its funny, how when u feel like you have a connection with someone or even get close to someone your whole life looks brighter, you seem to enjoy everything, well right now i do not feel like that, not even remotely close, i feel like i am cursed in the love/life department, in both aspects its always been a miserable trek for me, well it starts out great but as the road un-winds it leads to a dead end and that is the eventuality of it all.
I have been an optimist all my life, i do look for that silver lining but for some reason nothing ever seems to come out of it, let me tell you a little story,my mother who i was extremely close to died of cancer in 1999, i was 21, i was in canada, i did not go to her funeral, i did not cry, i was expecting it, but it left me broken inside, i became cold, i stopped caring about things, life went on, then i met someone, someone who i thought was special, but she was married, did not stop me from being attracted to her, we spent a lot of time together, i told her i was falling for her and she said she was too, i was overjoyed, i did not know what to do, here is someone who cared about me, filled something inside of me, but hey she was married,,,, i still loved her until i found out something, she hurt me and trust me it hurt like hell, but i moved on, she moved away to a different city, i remained, fast forward 6 years i met someone who became a friend then a lover, then we moved in together, i quit my job packed up and moved to the city where she lived, we adopted a cat, we had a family or so i thought i had fallen in love again, after all those years, when i dated but nothing came out of it,,,,i had finally found someone who i could love,,,,
Things were far from rosy though, we never fought, we talked out differences and there were a bunch, but i still loved her and i thought she did as well, until she hurt me, but i let it go, it was not a big deal, these things happen in relationships, she did not cheat on me or anything like that so i thought you know what its fine, but she had other ideas i guess, she thought she loved me but she could never see herself getting married to me, a lot of complications she said, religion, nationality, ambition or lack of, just to name a few, now here is where it gets interesting, i had kept in touch with the married lady all this while, albeit via email, it was mostly exchanging pleasantries i guess, i have this some may call bad habit of keeping in touch with other people, ex's included,
We met up, her marriage situation had not changed, she was still miserable, i spent a day with her away from it all, she said she loved me, i said and i quote " you are cute", i did have feelings for her but i was also in a relationship, what i had done plagued me with guilt, i had never done this before and i never will again, so i avoided her and stuck with the girl who i thought really loved me, the married woman thought i had purposely hurt her, because of what she had done all those years ago, but i had not, not even remotely closely, i still liked/like her but my guilt inside was overpowering everything....
fast forward a few more years, the girl who i thought loved me, left me, she is married now, how convenient, me as usual had kept in touch with the married woman, but it was sporadic, random facebook chats,,,, but then i met her again and she was different, very different, it was like she did not trust me anymore, understandable i guess, but i told her or tried to tell her i was sorry, after all there was guilt in that department too, i had not intentionally hurt her, nor did i want her to feel used, i know feeling used is probably the worst feeling a person can have and i did not want her to feel that, i still had lingering feelings for her, i think i always will, that will never change,,,,
Fuck that was long, now i have lost my chain of thought because i just got of the phone, i don't know if this blog post makes sense, i just wrote down what came to mind, in the end it might be a load of garbage, but it did make me feel better to write it down!!!!

Just over a month..

2012-11-12T19:48:00.000-05:00

Has passed since i moved to toronto. I am adjusting ok, i have fit most things into my routine seamlessly, the commute has become normal now, still a far cry from the 3 mins it used be though,,,,
Other than that not much exciting going on, i have been contemplating my future of late, i think in the new year its time to move on, life has become too dull and i cannot seem to find someone to share it with, maybe its just me or maybe i am tired of looking, too many disappointments have made me jaded, still the optimist in me cries out, she is out there:)
I guess its just the mood i am in today, but i think i need to be surrounded by family and currently i am not and i guess after a while you just miss them, my sister lost the twins due to a premature pregnancy which was sad, so the excitement of being an uncle fizzled out as well, i guess i am just going through a rough patch personally which accentuates the need for someone special in my life, someone i can share all of this with,,,,

I am sure this will pass and i will be back to my chirpy self sooner than later!

till then adios~!

One week,,,,

2012-10-08T11:42:00.001-04:00

So i completed a week in Toronto, so far so good i guess, other than the longish commute i do not have any major regrets about the move,,,, so far anyway, but like i had mentioned before, i do kind of like the commute, especially taking public transit, you get to see weird and unusual things, well weird and unusual people mainly, also you get to see many different faces each with a story of its own, to interpret the story would be a full time job in itself.

As for the office itself, everyone has made me feel extremely welcome, i wanted to be in the downtown office ideally, but i think this office is just fine, met some old friends and made some new one's, my neighbour is a very bubbly Indian girl, reminds me of someone i was once very close to, its a joy talking to her, always has a smile on her face, well lets see if a story begins or ....

Oreo is adjusting well to the new place as well, although he is still a little bit reluctant to come out when someone comes to visit, i think in due course he will get over that as well, there are a lot of cats in the neighbourhood many of them outdoor cats and i do have a backyard now, so i decided to take him outside, but he came running right back in, i guess he is and will always be an indoor cat :), anyway till next time!

Toronto,,,

2012-10-03T22:05:00.000-04:00

Frist three days here and still getting used to the commute, takes me an hr to get to work, when previously it used to take me 2 mins....

I wonder was the move worth it? honestly i think it was, i don't mind the commute, i wake up earlier and in due course my routine will change, i will adjust, there is more to do here, found a great apartment in a great location, so all in all not too bad i would think, now to find that special someone to share it all with....

Till next time!

One more week....

2012-09-22T15:24:00.001-04:00

In kingston, i finally found a place and am moving this coming weekend, it was all a bit last minute but the stress of finding an apartment seems to be over,

Now off to the hustle and bustle of a big city, i hope i adjust, it has been so long since i have lived in a big city, i mean i have loved vacationing in big cities but always had a small little town to come back to, i guess we will find out!

Hectic....

2012-09-05T21:23:00.000-04:00

To say the least, the month of september has barely begun and i am running short of time, so much to do!! still have not found an apartment which really bothers me because in 4 weeks i am due to start in toronto, hopefully this weekend i should be able to close the deal and settle on an apartment i like!!!!

Other than that, my boss at work is away for the month so part of her job comes to me as well, which has made me busier than usual, i hardly get time for anything, i like being busy but this is just burn out pace that i am going at, oh well,,,, i requested the move, the promotion, the new responsibility, i guess it comes with the territory!!

One good thing though is that we are playing really well, the season started and three games in we still have not conceded, i read somewhere it has been 88 years since something like that has happened, i like the shape of the team defensively, we look solid, the nervousness seems to have disappeared and everybody is starting to put in a defensive shift. Of the new boys i have been impressed a lot with cazorla, he is good with both feet, can thread the needle with a pass and is not afraid to have a go at goal!, poldi is settling in, giroud i believe will take more time to settle in but in due course i am sure he will be a success at arsenal, following the footsteps of some of him famous french predecessors!

October! Almost

2012-08-23T20:51:00.000-04:00

So i am due to move the end of this month, i start in Toronto on October 1st, and guess what i still have not found a place, its all a bit hectic really and fingers crossed i will find something in the next 2 weeks or its panic time:),

So the season kicked off with a 0-0 draw at home, not the greatest result, in fact far from it but i am just glad united lost on rvp's much vaunted debut!

Will write a longer post in a few days, just wanted to scribble so wrote a few lines!

Mercenaries,... Aren't they all?

2012-08-15T20:58:00.000-04:00

So RVP is finally gone, the end of 8 years and now he is a united player, the top scorer in the league last year and behold he does not want to be an Arsenal player anymore, the love for the club just vanishes when more money is put on the table.... nothing new, the club has survived worse and will continue to survive....

That brings me to the whole transfer saga, most of our best/better players seem to have left us right when they have been at their peak and i know there are 2 camps of fans right now. The first camp who think RVP leaving is not a big deal, in fact we got a very good deal out of it, for player who is 29, injury prone, 20 million + is not bad at all, on top of that we have had a productive summer with 3 quality additions. The second camp is all about Arsene Wenger and Gazidis and mainly the board not being able keep players who could make a difference, win trophies etc etc.

Both camps have merit in what they say, we did get a really good deal for rvp, no denying that and if that money is re-invested before the end of the window even better. There are those who will question his loyalty to the club and have every right to do so, but at the end of the day he is just another player who is attracted by the cash on the table, sure he did not choose city but rather united and he can say it was for the love of trophies, who would say no to joining the most decorated club in english football arguably even world football,you become an icon overnight, but i am sure he is not joining them on 70000 pounds a week heck not even for 130000 that was on the table from us, i am sure it will be more like 180 or 200, so if he says money was not the issue then that is bollocks!

Also there has been a lot of talk about loyalty especially in regards to arsene wenger, there are lots who praise him for being extremely loyal and then there is the other group of people who think the time is up and losing our best players is his fault, directly or indirectly.

Arsene Wenger seems like a very stubborn individual, he has his philosophy laid out and he expects his players to follow that philosophy but in this day and age with the money on offer that will never work, so Arsene spends time finding talented young players, and he is very good at unearthing talent, arguably even the best in the world.

But to me he is not doing any social service, arsene is one of the best paid managers in the world, i would understand if he was being paid a fraction of what most managers make and he still sticks around employing his philosophy, that to me is loyalty but arsene is simply doing his job, as a thorough professional.

Mind you i still think arsene is the best person to lead arsenal, there is a stability in the club because of him although i would like to see more investment into players and better contracts for the better performing players(maybe then we will not spawn another RVP)

So the moral of the story is that they are all alike the players and the managers, money drives everyone, in some cases, case and point arsene,its a combination, money + absolute footballing authority.

I detest RVP for what he has done for the club, i detest arsene for letting it happen, i hate the board and the owner for not doing enough but rather just making it a profitable business, but does it really matter, at the end of the day i love Arsenal and i will continue to support the team i love no matter what happens and who i hate cause nothing else matters!!

Olympics.... should i watch or should i not

2012-08-01T22:19:00.002-04:00

So its been a busy month, mainly with work but the Euros happened and now its the Olympics, so busy from a sporting perspective as well.
Back to the topic of my post, The 30th Olympics, XXX stands for 30 i think?, i always enjoy watching the games and every year there is controversy and this year is no different, but now i am starting to re-think my stance on watching the games, why should i watch? there have been so many allegations of matches being fixed, being thrown,doping etc., it leads one to believe there is no point anymore, does the athlete who has trained all his/her life for the event even stand a chance?

To answer my own questions i think they do, hard work eventually does pay off and those who did not win anything will come back stronger, especially if they think they were denied a medal because of officiating and or other reasons which are beyond comprehension.?Also i think will continue watching and XXX does stand for 30.

One thing though that has ticked me off is the case of 16 year old Ye Shiwen, so she swam an 'unthinkable' swim, hence we(the media) infer that she is on drugs or has been genetically manipulated( a man in a 16 yr old girls body), keep in mind there is no proof, but i guess its OK to call her a cheater maybe because she is Chinese?? and they have history of doping?. Note that she might have cheated but my point is that until anything can be proven all these sentiments and nonsense should be kept to one-self and not expressed publicly, she is 16, let her enjoy her gold medal, is that so hard to do??

Which brings me to the second point, 'judging sports' tend to be extremely biased, Boxing, Fencing, heck even badminton have major flaws and the IOC turns a blind eye, why? maybe because as some news outlets were calling it, 10 million dollars a promised for 2 Azerbaijani gold medals, again i have nothing against Azerbaijan i just wanted to point out an example of what might be going on in the world of amateur boxing.

The IOC like FIFA is filled with a bunch of bigots if i may use that word, prejudiced and self obsessed, and it is time common people like me and you started questioning how these organizations are run, after all they do it all for us, if there was no audience then what would be the point of sports and we(common people) should start leveraging that to make sport fair and not what governing bodies want it to be(kind of a paradox since they are there to ensure that sport is fair)

Long time, no postings....

2012-06-24T18:48:00.002-04:00

I have not posted in a while and there have been a number of reasons why? to start of, work has been extremely busy, have had to learn the ins and outs of a new system and get proficient in it, all in the span of a month or so! that being said i could have still taken the time to post something, but the heat and humidity are taking its toll and i do not have air conditioning so it makes things all the more un-bearable!
So other than work what is happening in my life? well frankly nothing much although i did get promoted at work and my move to Toronto was ok'd so come September i will be working out of the t.o office, which will be a welcome change, i needed a change, i am sure a change of scenery will only do me some good!

Hopefully with the change of scenery comes someone special into my drab life :), one can always hope!!