Sunny Len ♥

So Im still alive

2015-10-09T15:53:00.001+01:00

Oh damn I havent been here in over a year. Jesus

Hello! Damn if my last 2 posts were anything to go by I was having a pretty rubbish time which was about as fun as you would imagine it to be.

But today as I was looking back on old memories I thought, hey, why not write a post, why not see if anyone is still out there.

So this is me one year later. After probably the biggest struggle of my life. I still work in the same place sure but now I have the most amazing girlfriend. Now I am getting happier each day!!

God I missed blogging, getting to weite out the cool things I did then reading back on them <3

Maybe this is me coming back. Just another step to getting my life back on track!!

Bye for now~

Alex xx

On Depression II

2014-10-20T13:03:00.001+01:00

Back in August I made a post about treating people the same whether theyre diagnosed with depression or not.

I was the or not.

Since then Ive been doing mostly badly. My mood went up and down like a roller coaster, the up times were great but the down were the worst. Ive never felt so bad, and for what? There was literally no trigger.

It was about the time of wanting to die, self harm and smoking did I think 'I need help'

I went to the doctors and after years of going up and down I got help. Im on anti-depressants. Theyll take about 2 weeks to kick in so until then Im a bit on edge.

I never really understood depression until I felt it myself, you really cant snap out of it. And as much as the stigma is still attached its not attention seeking.

Nobody wants to feel like dying. People dont want to cry for no reason. To want to throw themself in front of a car because they see no future for themselves.

And nobody deserves to feel that way. If youre struggling, please get help. I panicked so much before going to the doctors but now Im glad I did. She was lovely and they are there to help.

I for one cant wait to get my life back on track. Maybe I'll actually get back into all the things I used to love.

Although rn I just need to change how I think. Cause I feel like Im using it as an excuse now? Even though I know its a real thing that Im having to take stuff for. It is ridiculous that I of all people am suffering.

Although once I understand that and am feeling better myself I want to help others who are suffering. And to educate people on depression because I figure so many people have no idea what theyre dealing with. Im quite sure my parents dont. And in the past I wouldnt know what to do either.

Moral of the story- dont be afraid to get help and dont be afraid to tell the people around you so they can help

So that was my poorly written announcement. I dont care who knows about it, it doesnt need to be a secret.

The only way is up~ or something c:

Ive got Expo to go to, much up thank you <3

Self self self~

2014-08-25T10:56:00.001+01:00

I'm actually getting back into blogging omg <3 I really fell out with social media since I dropped my phone :'3 I don't even remember how long ago it was but after smashing the screen and getting it fixed it didn't work properly ;n;

Couldn't log into so much stuff which sucked since 90% of blog related stuff I did on my phone. But nooow I have iPhone5c <3 Super love it!

So I guess this is a 'I'm back!' announcement c: Can't wait to finally finish all my old posts! cons/ concerts/ etc

And to make this post worth it here's some camhos~

Before I went out on Friday ^-^ (I go out to bars and stuff now, wtf)

Manami cosplay~! from Hyper Japan, will blog about sooooon

Yesterday! before going to Brighton ^^

Now I'm gonna sit around all day bc it's bank holiday~! feels like Christmas

ciao ciao <3

On Depression

2014-08-19T13:48:00.001+01:00

(Couldnt I have talked about something happier after all this time? No)

So as you probably know Robin Williams died recently, due to depression. It is sad :c how someone who made so many people laugh was himself so unhappy.

This post btw isnt about Robin Williams but about general unhappy.

Depression is something that is diagnosed, you go to a doctor when youve been feeling low for a long time and thats what they tell you. Then you can tell other people and then they can understand simply why you cant snap out of it.

But then there are so many people who suffer in silence, who maybe are just having a hard time or think that they cant possibly have depression and cannot bother their loved ones by making a thing about it.

What about them?

You wont treat them differently because you dont know. Because they cant talk to someone. They are stuck feeling low or just blank and nobody will help. Cant tell them to snap out of it either.

It difficult to explain but even though they havent been diagnosed it doesnt mean they arent feeling as bad as someone who has.

So treat everyone the same way.

Example- I wouldnt go as far to say ive ever suffered depression but Ive had times, that can last for months at a time where Ive felt simply awful. Lose interest in everything, thinking it would a lot easier to not exist, or feeling completely numb and indifferent to everything. Its not fun. Even right now my mood goes up and down several times a day, its tiring.

From an outsiders point of view my

problem wouldnt be so big of a deal, Id get over it. Right? Someone over there had depression so stop moaning. Wrong.

Be mindful of people. Someone diagnosed with a mental illness (so not just depression, stuff like anxiety) does not become more important to worry about than someone whos not.

For all you know the only difference is having a doctors opinion or not.

Saying that if you do think youre suffering from depression, or any problem...

Talk to someone

Family, friends, co-worker, even the internet can be like a massive support group.

Bottling up and hiding isnt healthy and there is no way it will help you. Just gotta have a bit of courage right?

If you need help find it, and if someone comes to you for it, help them.

Dear god that was serious.

Bye? <3

London MCM Expo May 2014 ^o^ Friday!

2014-06-07T16:15:00.001+01:00

Oh my god I swear all I write about is Expo xD 99% of my photos are selcas...I'm not sorry :3

Expo was of course wonderful as it always is! I'm still tired from it though ^-^' too many late nights this week ;n;

Okay okay so Friday I came from home as Shima! I don't think I'll ever get bored cosplaying him~ he's just so- urgh <3

I got up early so I had lots of time for camhoing

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE ONE <3

I look so glowy~

Time for a change in angle wtf

Compulsory goodbye picture with Haru-chan ;n;

Okay so all packed after finishing my Pit cosplay the evening before and I went to get the train woo :D We planned to all meet at a certain time so I organised traveling around that BUT THEN a tree fell down on the track :c

The train had to stop and then the power went out so I was sitting there for an hour, bored as hell ;n;

So I took a picture of myself

Omg though I was super tired so I put my feet up on my case and tried to nap instead xD and finnalllyyy we got moving again, and they said we could have a refund, which I plan on doing, although honestly I wasn't pissed off or anything, it wasn't their fault a tree wanted to fall down in the middle of the day~ some passanger thought they'd be all smart with remarks but I'm like...shut up plz.

So so because it was late it went to Kings Cross instead of where it was going to go (a less main station) and since Im rubbish at knowing routes I had to try and re-work out how I was gonna get to Expo! I had no idea D; I got so far until the DLR where I was mega confused, luckily I ran into some cosplayers and went with them :'3 they were super nice!

And sooo finally I got there and had to drag my tired ass all the way around the Excel with my case and beyond to meet Tasha who came to get me ^-^

We stayed at super budget hotel (so sad, no kettle!) where I met Caitlin and Jack~ who was part of the hotel group with me Tasha and Rachel c:

Finally we go to Expo :D it was really strange how we had to go through the side to get in, but the queue was like, non-existant which was awesome!

Like a bee to honey I went to the cute stall first :'3 but I didn't buy anything until Sunday wtf. I can't believe this was only two weeks ago and my brain is just 'what?'

I think we did lots of wondering around, and sitting down. Oh oh I had the most yummy bagel I've ever had in my life for lunch, it was just simple stuff like ham, cheese and lettuce but it was so nice. I didn't even know bagels could be so good *o*

While we was outside I heard a 'Shima!' and then got a hug, which is where I met Beks ^-^ Who I have on Facebook and is so damn cool and an amazing cosplayer and her Rin is just *o* Although she was cosplaying from Sword Art Online~

JUST LOOK

I got the hug right, then she ran off but then came back :'3 I wasn't forgotten!

Had to take a selfie of course!

(I really hope she doesn't mind me sharing this pic but I love love love it) One of her friends had this KPP mameshiba with her (those goddamn things) and was getting cosplayers to take a picture with it and so I did <3 She was really nice too ^o^

Also while outside met this damn tall Bon cosplayer o-o I thought I was a decent height...but then D; who needed some cheering up actually which I hope I did good at! (I'm nice, see?)

A stolen picture >w< but we spent a lot of time sitting up on this hill ^ ^
Wtf I don't actually have a picture of Claire D:

She, Tasha and Caitlin were all cosplaying frim The Regular Show which is a cartoon I've never seen, but still they looked awesome! <3 mad creative how they personified it~

So there is a funny story about being on this lovely hill. As you can see there is a keyboard, which is Claire's for her character. And while she was sitting there some weird Asian guy (that;s the name he ended up with) asked if she had like a back-up battery thing for it?? First thoughts 'It must be about the camera' because Caitlin's camera was running out of battery. But no, it was the keyboard.

Claire was like 'its from the 80's' so no. Poor girl xD after that he simply would not go away. I don't even know what he was talking about, honestly I zoned out while Tasha started taking selfies. Leaving poor Claire to suffer this weird guy talking to her :'3 ehehehe.

3 types of people at cons:

Super friendly people

Picky 'elitist' people

Socially inept people

He was actually spotted over the weekend again but luckily he didn't recognise her!...God he was just...I don't know.

On the hill I made friends with a pigeon that was in the bush. I swear it was my friend, it was so cute ah! Sitting there and eating stuff aw~ Tasha told it off for being noisy and scary, for rustling the leaves. How rude.

I can't remember if I took this when weird Asian guy was there or not, but it was on the hill so its relevant!

Me and Tasha ^o^ she's a gumball machine :'3

Me and Rachel...cosplaying as 'Rachel who's been at work' poor thing :<

Later on when me and Rachel went back inside to get her suitcase from the thing I heard a 'Steph!' and was like what? I didn't even recognise her at first cause I'd only seen her as Mikoto from K Project ><

But it was Vy-Vy ^o^ I've already forgotten what she was cosplaying from oops. But looks so cool!
I felt bad for not recognising her but then she did it to me on the Saturday so we're even~

I think after lots of hill sitting we went back to the hotel c: Got introduced to Yowamushi Pedal, which I now love and am gonna cosplay from. And ate pizza and played Animal Crossing til bedtime

Aaand I guess that concludes day 1 of Expo yo! (Why the yo? I don't know.)

Update update!

2014-05-16T22:55:00.000+01:00

Time for a sit down chat. Well a sit down I type you read.

I'm sorry I've been such a super super long time :c I bet all the readers have left xD oops. FORGIVE ME

First of all is just on car. I don't have much to say wtf. It's back and fixed and Im so happy to be able to drive around again <3 I missed it!

And what have I done in this month+ that I havent been blogging? oh my god hopefully I actually did stuff wtf.

Oh I went to Kyary Pamyu Pamyu concert! It was awesome c: Am working on a post on it at the moment actually~ she is so cute. And and talking of concerts, I've got tickets to see Babymetal! Eeeeeee! <3

And then speaking of tickets, Expo is NEXT WEEKEND HOLY FU-

I'm still making my cosplay, its like, maybe half done? /cries. This is what I get for leaving it last minute. I can't sew, really cannot.

This part needs to be on a new section. It is to do with Expo, cause I had to completely re-plan my plans for Expo, on Tuesday, such short notice, because I was cosplaying with the bf, who is now my ex-bf since he broke up with me TT so many not okays there, but I'm not going to go into and rant, I'm not that bitchy. I can save the chatting and emoing to my friends ;n; So Im not so excited for Expo as normal but hey, if I finish the cosplay I'll be so happy and I'm sure I'll like wearing the last minute re-dos when Im actually there and stuff :'3

Since I probably wont have time to blog- the cosplays will be:
Friday: Shima - Blue Exorcist
Saturday: Rin - Matryoshka vers, Vocaloid
Sunday: Pit - Kid Icarus/ SSBB (the one Im making)

Also coming up soon (Monday!) I'm going to be turning 20 years old o-o I can't cope, where are my teenage years?! I feel old D:

I was supposed to be talking about what I did, not what I'm doing wtf

So I guess I was 100% distracted with having a bf and thats why I've not blogged. Makes sense ah.

Now I'm all sexy, free and single I can go back to blog loving <3 I don't even take so much selcas at the mo- oh wait yes I do, never mind.

Oh look there's one now!

I dyed under my hair pink but now its blue :'3 I'll offload all other glorious selfies at a later time, I'm tired xD need bed. zzz.

Okay uh, so just so you know that I didn't die or anything ^-^

Ciao darlings~ <3

Why So Serious?

2014-03-26T20:57:00.002+00:00

I don't like watching TV shows that people argue in (example: Jeremy Kyle, the long version of the news, etc) because I just sit there like 'why are you throwing a tantrum?'

It just bewilders me how so often people choose to get mad about stuff. Getting pissed isn't good for your health you know~

Okay okay I have a lot of beliefs about stuff and I'll stand by them but if somebody says something- 9/10 I'm just gonna float on by and ignore it, why do I want to ruin my time by getting mad at arguing? It makes no sense!

Like I can easily carry on about what I'm doing and being happy and what not, while the commenter...well they get to sit there in their ball of negative and just soak in until they get stress wrinkles. Ha.

That is such a satisfying thought :'3 TAKE THAT. I hope you don't get ill from being so angry all the time hehehehe

It's even worse when somebody says a bitchy comment just to get a reaction and then ends up like 'omg I am so annoyed' because somebody argued with them about it. I'm like...well wtf did you expect.

I used to think people stop acting like children when they grow up.

It's such a waste of time to get angry, it doesn't achieve anything and it only makes you feel bad...and makes you look childish.

Although~ ranting is fun so uh, do it with consideration. Like, don't be surprised when somebody argues with you, don't be all high and mighty about it, just you know... don't be a douche

~~Be like me~~

I mean what

I think sometimes I'm too lazy to get annoyed, sitting in bob standard happiness is a lot easier than working myself up.

Peace out yo (was that a pun? It might of been)

Too Amazing For My Own Good

2014-03-25T21:58:00.001+00:00

(I stole this)

Okay so I don't get asked out often, and it always comes as a surprise when I am. I haven't had much relationship success in the past (note. past.) but now I am thinking about the reasons at to why I didn't even say yes to people.

It isn't me, it's them.

Is your head okay?
This happened when I was at my old job. I was putting stuff on shelves and he came up to me like 'this might be a bit strange but can I have your number?' I was shocked xD I didn't even know what to say! Okay so I did actually give it to him because I was flattered that I'd been asked out (he actually did ask me out there somewhere.) He text me later on but I ignored it. Successful escape. Or is it?

This guy happened to live quite near me so when I was walking home from work a week later, he was freaking walking home also. wtf help. He apologised for asking me out so suddenly and that I must have thought he was really strange to which I responded:
'I thought you'd smacked your head on a pole on the way in.' (Oh my confidence levels are great)

The thing is with people asking me out as work is that they knew where to find me TT I always chatted kindly with him other times he came in but I never went out with him heheheh.

Mr Fancy
Okay so this was at my old job also! Back in the day I was oblivious to when people are flirting with me...still am tbh xD anyway back to the story. He was the last customer of the day and we were just chatting and stuff and he was all 'youre really nice' and I was like 'aw thank you' bc I am nice, thanks for noticing. And then I had to let him out and as I did, he asked me out for a drink. Again, shocked wtf.

I think I said something like 'I don't even know you' I actually don't remember. Although I do remember going back into the shop like 'he just asked me out' o-o I couldn't believe it xD was also oblivious to my own pretty. Anyway this story continues.

Several days later he came back into the shop when it was busy and was all 'remember me?' I did. and then he gave me his business card. It has his name and mobile number on it, in case I changed my mind. Oh my god. I was like 'did that just happen?' my co-worker thought it was funny. Omg I was embarrassed though xD all the other customers saw it happen and me get all like wtf.

I don't think I ever threw the card out, it got buried in my room somewhere.

What are you? 12?
Old job again. Two teenagers, who were 16 (ew) and mega chavtastic (even more ew) came into the shop.
Teen 1: Will you go out with my friend?
Me: No.
The end.

...

Is that all the moments I have? Omg I have been asked out more than that I know but other times is boring or was somebody I'm actually friends with and I don't wanna be mean >< and sometimes there is no story at all!

Ehh to make this post longer I'm gonna chuck in some camhos.

From Motown and Soul night the other weekend ^o^

Just me (duh), pre-haircut last weekend. I never camho'd at this angle before wtf

And finally me today!

Okay bye bye! ^-^

P.S. I wonder how many people take my over the top vainness seriously?

Trouble With Guys

2014-03-21T20:40:00.002+00:00

Omg it sounds like I'm gonna relationship rant. BUT NOTHING OF THE SORT AH. Just didn't put 'working' in the title so they don't know I'm talking about them! (Unless they actually read the post wtf)

At my job now, where I've been for three months, the part I work in is all guys, all older than me at least by a few years.

But when I get together with my girls I realise all the girly things I miss now that I spend so much work time with only guys!

For example, the simple task of whining about tummy cramps. Of course guys don't get D; I just want to whine about them! It helps. And and then when emotions go everywhere I'm stuck like 'conceal. don't feel. don't let them know' I don't need to be random mood swinging omg.

I really also miss bitching omg. I shouldn't miss it, it'd probably do me good to cut back. But god where is the raging on somebody you don't even know because of their shitty outfit? No more gossiping wa wa wa ;n;

One day I totally stabbed my boob with the corner of a box, it totally hurt, and still did for a few days but I couldn't complain about my boob for goodness sake. Otherwise everyone would be thinking about my boob wtf xD

I want to talk about make up and clothes and hair and needing to stuff ones face with junk food once a month and babies and pretty things. I just wanna talk about girly things ;A;

Do they even camho?

Okay okay they are actually all very nice and because I am a girl and the youngest they look after me ^o^ woooo! I need to get stronger though so I can lift stuff without dying.

Oops post so short TT I STILL WANNA TRY UPDATE MORE THOUGH <3

An Cafe Concert! o(≧∀≦)o

2014-03-15T09:52:00.001+00:00

So guess who went to the most amazing fabulous concert in London last Friday?

ME

I need to calm down enough to write this

It was so so so so wonderful! I love them all but Miku has always come out tops. And now I love him even more. Because he spent so much time staring at me <3 EEEEEEEEE.

I kid you not. The amount of eye contact was crazy! (not that I can blame him) but oh my god. just wow. Marry me please xD There was one time where he stared for ages, I looked away to squee at wife and I look back and he was still staring.

He knows he's gorgeous.

Okay on to the actual day. Even though the best part of the day was Miku staring into my soul (seriously stop flirting with me and get in my bed)

Lets start with camhos before I left the house~ Wife couldn't get into London til three so I spent a lot of time not doing much that morning :'3

Looveee my outfit! I stole the clothes from the bf because I didn't have anything. I want to keep <3 Did I ever mention I love visual kei?

Nyappy make and hair!

This is why Miku stared.

My nail varnish is super chipped now ;n; but I don't want to take it off!

I have more but this post is not about me for once, well not that much about me...okay it is but sh. Need to talk about An Cafe

Or talk about my day first. We went Purikura! <3 I've been like 4 times now I love it, its like it was made for me~

Omg what is this quality xD but we did Nyappy pose! <3 and derping and stuff.

We checked out cute/anime/nerdy stuff for a while in China Town also before going to the venue, because the earlier we were the nearer to the front we would be!

In the queue! Idk if you guys have seen my wife yet, but this is her <3 been wives for like 2 years already! Using her actual name's weird for me o-o
She so prettyyyy and check out that SnK jacket!

While we were queuing we heard about a meet and great...we hadnt heard thing about this before! </3 omg total unfair ;;;

And near the front we were!

Three rows back and right in the middle. Hense why Miku had the perfect line to stare down. hnnnggg.

Okay okay don't be mad but the order of the concert is a complete blur. I dunno when stuff happened, just that it did.

I blame Miku,when I think of the concert I think of eye contact and everything else is fuzz. Dammit. (Therewassomuch)

It was crazy exciting when they first came on stage one by one. They were real! Not just on the internet xD oh my god it was too good to be true;;;

I didn't think they'd do anything from Bou era but they did! Which was great! Because my favourite songs are from back then ^-^

Example, Maple Gunman. I loved loved loved that performace cause we got to do the little gun actiony thing <3 And Escapism! Super love that song toooo. Oh oh and Smile Ichiban Ii Onna <3<3 my first An Cafe song so that was super special ;u;

A really fun one was Natsu Koi Natsu Game which has a dance to it. Shamefully I didn't know it so I had to learn quickly xD I got it down now though! This was one of the many times Yuki was upfront and just having a great time :'3 he was like a puppy! He was all excited before Amazing Blue also c:

Near the end they did Cherry Saku Yuuki WHICH WAS AWESOME (it was last or second last idk) I love that song sooooo much

At one point Miku poured a bottle of water over his head and then shook his hair over everyone. It was great :'3

It was totally cute when Teruki started going on about sushi, asking if we liked sushi and that he'd had sushi in London and it was the best. Baw what a dear~

When Kanon had his time to talk he got everyone to yell nyappy, then nyap-py-py-py. He had a little giggle afterwards, apparently he thought it was funny xD

(Omg cannot remember if Takuya had a little talk. Omg brain what are you doing. It might of been his for some of it I was like '...what?' adorable Engrish)

One of the last things they did (after encore) was take a photo of them with everyone! And I can see meeeee <3 in a picture with An Cafe, oh yes :'3

That is me, fo sure <3

Guuhhh it was just so wonderful. I hope they come back again soooooon~ ^ ^ oh oh I forgot to mention I got that shirt their all wearing too. Matching clothes. level up.

I wish I could actually remember it better than a blur of awesome ><

BYYEEE <3

London MCM Expo October '13 Sunday

2014-02-21T22:16:00.001+00:00

Hello you! I've been on an accidental hiatus >>

My brain got taken over by car stuff TT (and boyfriend stuff hehehehe) car situation still not sorted but more on that when it actually is.

Instead I will finally (finally finally) blog about the last day of Expo, which was one of the best Expo days I've ever had <3

With the Ouran High School Host Club! I was Hikaru :3

Quick selfie with the darling twinny as we waited for everyone else to get ready :3

Cannot praise Kydeka enough for the gorgeous roses!!!

We had to drag our luggage with us to put it the locker type place at expo since hotel checkout was in the morning and we didn't want to wheel it around all day nope nope!

We weren't even the full group at the point as we had to find Gem (our Tamaki) and Alice (Kyoya) because they werent in the same hotel. BUT. Even with suitcases and bags and not a full group we still got stopped for photos as we wondered around trying to find this place.

And even outside the bathroom myself, Rachel (Kaoru), Tasha (Mori) and Kydeka (Honey) waited for the others we had pictures taken xD haha have your picture taken with half of the host club outside the toilets pffff

Looking out for some new guests for our club~

But finally we got rid of our stuff and became a full fabulous host club! <3

If I could sum this day up in one word it would be photos

IT WAS MADNESS

We couldn't really go anywhere without photos being taken. And I'm not even exaggerating. When we stopped it took ages before we could go again as sooooo many people came to snap a picture.

A genius (omgomg I forgot who thought of bringing it, Tasha? maybe? imsorry) brought a roses backdrop for such times and me and Rachel were the ones to hold it up, the arms died.

But it was amazing. It was tiring but it was the best thing ever you have no idea <3 <3 <3

Here is a handful that have been dug up on the internet since (prepare yourself)

Also introducing Laxmi as our perfect Haruhi!

One amazing thing that happened when photos were being taken was that the group who always do the best Cats (The Musical) cosplays ever, I swear they must actually be in it they are so good, were around and then they were like 'can we take a picture with you?'

ARE YOU SERIOUS?!

The amazing Cats wanted pictures with us. It was me who wanted pictures with them! Omg they are like freaking celebrities. Ahh it was so amazing ;A; and then they started playing with our back drop and roses and started dancing and alksjdld I wish I could have filmed that whole moment!

Such a pretty backdrop ;;

It was impossible to get us all facing the same camera because there were SO MANY

A FRIEND. Lots of people posed like that with us, where we all held out our roses to them ^o^ omg I wish I had been them, being given the attention of the host club *o*

Okay time to breathe for a moment. Blogging this makes me miss this day sooo much.

Even when we went outside to do a photo shoot of sorts, there were people up on the balcony taking pictures xD its like we were the real deal guys <3

Speaking of the photo shoot, here are the gorgeous photos!

THESE TWO MAKE THE BEST PAIR ITS SO CUTE

We twins are very close <3

Lemme interrupt with a selfie with the king!

Finally Tamaki gets the guts to confess to Haruhi!

Alltheloveforthis

I feel bad I ruined this by looking the wrong way TT

Much better <3

From a different angle this time~

Gem actually took this one so no Tama-chan

LOOK AT THAT LITTLE FACE AW

Stairs are the best thing for pictures

The host club is really unserious a lot of the time

Twins!

Especially the twins >>

Had enough of us yet?

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE ONE OF ALL TIME. I LOVE IT SO MUCH

Okay lets end this part with a family photo <3 Mother, father and daughter~

I hope Tasha and Gem don't kill me for photo stealing >> I think I included most of them!

Naturally, as I seem to do with every freaking expo post ever, I forget what we did when so heres just pictures and words and stuff c:

So there was this photo booth. IT WAS SO FREAKING TINY YOU HAVE NO IDEA. 3 people would find it a pain to take pictures in there. But what did we do? Shoved us all in it. It was so squishy xD you can probably tell. But I love these photos so much xD

A blur blur picture from lunch tiiimee <3

A selfie with Mori ^o^

And finally (omg I only camho'd with 3 others on that day what is wrong with me) one with Honey! And Usa-chan~

I've said it enough times but oh my gosh it was a wonderful day one of the best days that ever was. We have to do the host club again! It was great fun!

And thus ends the final post of October Expo 2013. Only a few months until the next one!

Ciao ciao~

Things Can Only Get Better

2014-01-29T20:04:00.001+00:00

Somebody owned up to hitting my car! 3 days after.

Apparently they got out and had a look at which house it was. But couldn't tell. Oh bitch don't lie, if you'd gotten out you would have seen the giant ass bumper piece of yours that you left behind. Oh and it was outside my house funnily enough, my car, my house, where I live. Try there.

And also later in the day they went back to write a note and the car was gone...no it was in the drive way moron. Where it was when you saw it to post the damn confessing letter. Blind much? Oh must have been to hit my car.

I don't know how the fuck you hit that ice for you to go into my car like that.

So you said you're sorry for any distress caused. Oh you better be. Im still stressed as anything thank you very much.

I've never felt so ill from stress in my life.

I really must be stressed if I have to admit it to people.

It is horrible okay. I have had the worst few days and it wouldn't have been so bad if you hadn't taken 3 days to confess.

You better be sorry. You better fucking fall on your knees and apologise again and again. And then pay up. Pay for the damage on my car, pay for the money its costing me to get the bus to work and damn just give me extra money to make up for the emotional shit you caused.

It seems like it was a company van of sorts. Not that they've said what, all I got was their insurance company number. I don't want to talk to them I want to talk to you. If you weren't part of a company, in a company van you wouldn't have owned up, would you? But you had to. Incase somebody had seen that van. Damaging the reputation of the company for sure.

And so far ringing the insurance company was pointless. I rung them, they said 'oh we'll ring blahblah and they'll look at your car and get back to you' or whatever. They said they'd phone back today. Did they? No they did not.

Wow. 10 points to you. I'm not ever getting insurance through your shitty company.

Gonna call them back tomorrow...

So I phoned them back (I'm writing this several days after ok) and then they said 'oh they'll get back to you Monday or Tuesday' wtf. And did they? NO.

So this morning I rung them again and later on finally, we're getting somewhere.

And HERE IS SOME GOOD NEWS THE BEST I COULD HOPE FOR...

That insurance company is paying to fix my car. and even offered a replacement car to drive round in while they are doing so!

Eeeeeee! At last! Omg I can finally stop stressing about it. Okay I won't have my car back for a while yet but it's sorted and I don't have to spend tons of money on fixing it or new car.

So after all the stress and crazy shit its all over.

LETS CELEBRATE <3 <3 <3 <3

My Bad Day

2014-01-20T22:17:00.000+00:00

This morning I got woken up with the news that some twat had driven into the back of my car and then driven off.

Good start to the week.

I believe my reaction was 'are you fucking serious?' going outside and then crying. a lot.

It had been shoved forwards several feet and was now at an angle I had not left it at. It had been parked, perfectly, outside my house.

HOW THE FUCK DID YOU HIT IT?!

There was glass all over the road from where the rear lights on the passenger side got smashed up. Other random debris from my car were there too. The quarter of the back right side of the car, totally screwed up. I can't drive it.

Bits were out of place, somehow even underneath the car had been pushed up. So so so bad and I didn't even see the full extent, open the boot and apparently its worse.

One part of my car actually just lifted off. You broke it.

How on earth could you be so heartless?! Spineless pathetic moron. You know what I have of yours? Part of your bumper. And so I know you car is a Ford. and you must be local to have been driving down this non-main road early in the morning.

Oh and of course! With the shit you did to my car, the front of yours can't be looking to good either.

You have a big car, 4x4. cause of where you managed to damage mine.

The police won't find you because apparently it's not their job even though you're a fucking criminal. Yeah. its a crime to drive off. REPORT IT YOU WEAK EXCUSE FOR A PERSON.

Dammit police. Isn't it your job to catch criminals? Look here I'll do some of the work for you. You know where it happened. Got the type of car, know its a big one, know the route they take, know where its damaged. Check CCTV footage. Keep tabs on local repair services and see if anyone has damage like that. GOD IT IS NOT THAT DIFFICULT

But I will find you. And I will smack you round the head with the piece of car you left behind.

Apparently you have 10 days to report that you're a total dick who smashed the back of a young persons car.

A car that I'd only had since October. My first car. You shit.

What if I'd been in it?! Would you have driven off then?

Everybody local, heck, everyone in Hertfordshire. Everyone in freaking East Anglia look for a slightly mushed up big Ford car, with part of bumper missing. passenger side should've taken the damage there. With a driver that looks like an asshole.

And then tell me. Tell police. Take their number plate. Get them in deep shit for what they did. I WOULDN'T BE SO PISSED IF YOU HAD NOT RUN OFF.

Dear asshole driver,

I hope you feel guilty about this every second of every day for the rest of your life.

I hope your family and friends and co-workers know that you failed as person for being so immoral.

I hope your car is fucking damaged and nobody will fix it because they know you're a moron.

Do you have kids? What would you do if this happened to them!? Would you want the driver to fucking drive off? No. You wouldn't.

And you know what. My car is old okay. The insurance company would write it off.

YOU COULDVE LEFT ME WITH NO FUCKING CAR AT ALL.

AND YOU DROVE OFF

DO YOU KNOW HOW EXPENSIVE CARS ARE YOU ASS?!

Although no. I am going to pay a lot of my own hard earned money to get it fixed. Dammit what person my age has that kind of money to spare?!

You know I was saving to visit my friend at uni. saving to visit friends in London. conventions. saving to go to Japan. saving to pay my dad back for the car in the first place which you just wrecked.

I could deal with the crazy amount of money its gonna cost to fix it. I can deal with getting the bus to work (more expense) and walking also. I can deal with being emotional all freaking day, crying, being angry, etc. But I can't deal with the fact that you drove off.

Karma is going to bite you so hard.

London MCM Expo October '13 Saturday

2014-01-18T16:00:00.001+00:00

GOOD MORNING EXPO

I was sharing a room with Rachel and we both woke up early so we made tea and watched Sooty and Sweep hahaha xD I felt like an old couple. Although if she would stop stealing the covers that'd be good ahem.

But anyway after chilling for like an hour it was time to get into cosplay gear <3 and it is the return of Miku <3 god I never feel as pretty as I do when wearing this.

Oh gosh, all expo posts are really going to show how much I abused that photo app.

My favourite selca now

Here is me and the lovely Shona!

And she, of course she is brilliant and cosplayed freaking Katrina from Sleepy Hollow <3

That is the film vers, by Tim Burton. A brilliant film I have to say!

Rachel looking gorgeous too!

Recognise these two? Cause they sure didn't recognise me as Miku haha! Met them at Hyper Japan, as Kuro and Shura then, now Rin and Shura~

Me and Joe (who I don't remember ever made it onto the blog before XD) but accidently hair twins!

Now check out the skill of these darlings. Tasha, Claire and Kydeka. just. damn. they made this shiz. All from Fire Emblem forgive me that I can't remember the character names other than Chrom xD but woaahh

Plus somebody I do not know haha xD

Selfie time with Tasha ^ ^ she suits pink hair so well~

Just check it out!

Ignore my face haha look at this other gorgeous one :'3

Shona again! She just look so pretty I kept snapping pics xD

Me and Alice! ^o^

Oh and a camho apparently. I really just put these on here in the order they were on my phone >< I LOVE MY EYES

I met Lee! Had her on Facebook but omg shes so adorable!

Selfie selfie time with Claire!

Aha I should blog about it faster, I forget everything that happened xD

Oh something that was cool I was in a video! I met with Liam who Ive been subscribed too for ages and have him on Facebook and he was just so niice and sweet! I forgot to camho with him though xD but he made cosplay videos at Expo, both are amazing! This is the one with me ah watch it and hes actually a really good dancer too!

I met my wifey and also Sophia but I didn't take a picture with wife because I lost her in a crowd TT and the one with Sophia, I look so bad! Haha so you cannot see. But she was sooo nice it was my first time meeting her ^o^

Naturally, I got lots of pictures taken hahaha what. I enjoy it too much.

OMG I can't remember what happened really!

So Im gonna give up wtf.

I better write Sunday before I forget EVERYTHING.

New Years Resolutions!

2014-01-03T21:03:00.000+00:00

I normally say 'get healthy' or whatever rubbish but of course I never do hahahaha. Who actually can keep that one?!

So this year I've decided to make some proper ones and actually write them down. Cause if the internet knows then I kind of have to stick to it.

1. Get more confident! Like don't be worried to even speak up in a group conversation amongst people you don't know well, and don't freaking by shy of ordering in a restaurant or asking stuff wtf xD Confidence to the level of 100% never worry about how I'm coming across.

2. Be more honest. I gotta stop saying different things because I don't like how what I was going to say came across. When I rant about stuff I often freaking back track and make an excuse as to cover myself but it's stupid xD I should just be straight forward and honest...and not twist truth to make people feel better.

3. Don't be such a bitch. This follows on quite well from the previous one. Even if I just start from how I talk, and then move on to how I think. I'll be typing something to a friend and I think 'wait that's really bitchy' and then I send it anyway. And I often catch myself thinking something horrible about someone for no reason and am like- woah, dude! Must be nicer. Must. Honest but not mean.

4. Complain less! I totally take things for granted and it needs to stop TT I really gotta be more positive! Going to change negative thoughts into positive ones~

5. Really strive to achieve and stuff I looveee. Like put more effort into learning Korean and Japanese and do more clothes design and blog more and work harder at doing make up and at cosplay. Basically just work harder and freaking achieve <3

6. Really improve myself as a whole! Not gonna set anything unrealistic but just try not to eat badly all the time and make sure I take care of myself and get more pretty too hahaha that sounds weird but whatever.

I planned these already but now I've written them it sounds strange. Bleh. Deal with. Love.

Good luck me!

My Week Off!

2014-01-01T21:49:00.002+00:00

Tomorrow I go back to work wah wah but I've had such a nice week off! I haven't had this much time off to relax since I left school omg <3

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! ^o^ heres to 2014, I'm excited to see what happened~

I probably started feeling all happy and festive when I went to a carol service with my family. The one time a year I will go to church xD I don't listen to the vicar talking or whatever but I love to sing loudly haha. And it's just nice to spend time with the family of course~

Then it was my works Christmas event, although I've actually left them now (this is the place that took me back in before. they damn didn't want me to leave but no way was I gonna stay) but that was really nice! Because the people I worked with were really like family to me, so kind and stuff.

We just went for drinks and food and chatted. And I saw this super super hot guy who I admittedly have a bit of a crush on wtf. but yeah I cannot talk to him he's out of my league and he works at this place anyway and whatever I'm getting off track.

This is what I wore/ looked like

Omg my fringe is too long. still is xD

I totally have more than these but I don't want to get carried away, check my Dayre (@SunnyLen) if you wanna see :'3

And after that I had 3 more work days and it was Christmas Eve and time to relax! And I did! Just watched films (Mean Girls. Super love it.) and then lets jump forwards to actual Christmas Day!

I totally miss the super excited and sparkleness that you get when you're a kid :c but that doesn't mean I didn't have a nice day! Here's some camho's

New lipstick! It is actually red but if I wear it bold it doesn't suit me xD but like this is fine~

Oh and new ear rings...these are things I got for myself before Christmas xD

SPARKLES MAKE IT FESTIVE NO?

And wore this. I have had this skirt since summer but like...haven't worn it

Look me and my sister! We're wearing dorky Christmas tree hats <3

I'm the older one dammit!

Here is the table ready fooorrr...

DELICIOUS MEAL <3

Ok off point but how freaking creepy is this biscuit? Tastes really nice but that face. wtf.

I wanted to take a picture of my nan's fancy present wrapping but cause my phone case got in the way this happened. Accidently fancy~

AND LET ME SHARE WITH YOU MY BIG BANG CALANDER. hehehehe so wonderful

So yeah, Christmas day was soooo nice. Lots of food and random. And then in the evening we visited some relatives which just great! Especially cause my far away (like hour) grandparents were there too <3 I hadn't seen them in agesss! Aw it was just nice! (nice is a rubbish word to use but it was k)

Then on to Boxing Day! This time at my dads and nearby grandparents came round <3

Heres a not very good picture of OOTD

And then here's a selca!

More super wonderful gifts were exchanged to add to the many awesome thing I already got of course and then, here comes another really really yummy meal <3 <3

On another b-e-autiful table!

Mmmm <3 can I eat this again?

Ah so after eating, pausing, then eating a bit more we just sat down and relaxed before that day was soon over too. I was in such a good mood though! Tired but happy :'3

The following day we went to see...dundundundun....The Hobbit! OH MY GOD IT WAS AMAZING <3 just like I thought it would be~ I freaking loved it. Why did it have to end?! I can't wait for the next one!

And then to make this day even better, I got myself a 3DS!!! I've been wanting one since Nintendo first said about them xD so ages. and now I finally have one! And I brought Animal Crossing: New Leaf with it and I've been playing it unhealthily ever since <3<3<3

Isn't it pretty?! (sticker got as a gift :'3 and it suits it perfectly)

I think the day after all I did was play Animal Crossing...Yeah I actually did! And then in the evening I went to my friends house so we could play it together xD omg I love life.

Then then then the day after was the only productive day I've had this whole holiday! I tidied my room and I'm damn proud of myself xD Still this counts as another good day in the holiday because you know got to sleep lots and eat whenever and whatever and gah, just amaze.

And then whatever day was after I went to London! Yay London! And I saw the forever gorgeous Tunika who hadn't seen since Hyper Japan ;A;

We spent like the whole day in China Town. She is like a London expert so I went to where ever she was going haha xD

First we had crepes (how to get accent I do not know) which were sooo nice!

I got banana <3

And after a lot of trail and error cause they weren't damn open we went to Purikura! My first time eeee <3 we spent such a long time there but it was really fun and now here's 16 awesome pictures that are awesome:

It made my scarf look crazy haha xD

Tunika said it's like a drama poster, one super happy vs one grumpy!

China Town has legit pandas. totally.

I ACCIDENTLY WINKED. THIS WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.

God why is she so cute?!

Hearts and hearts and hearts <3

Tunika and SunnyLen for cover girl?!

If only I were this tall!

We are. Total. Dorks.

Wtf a monkey

My favourite one <3<3

OH NO A BEE

OMFG WE ARE IN SPACE HELP

Omg omg too adorable (not me xD)

We can be bunnies too!

Tunika showed me this super awesome flower hand thing! Bwaaa~

You know it wasn't just my first time, it was hers as well! Omg it was so fun! We also ate Japanese food which was super yummy and we went shopping for a while too! (saw cute guys hehehe) And all day we talked and talked and talked.

It was so nice seeing you again hunny! Why does everyone have to live in London ;A; I miss you!

Okay nearly done of this looongg post xD

Then it was New Years Eve!

This my new jumper too!

I posted this on Facebook with a message~ 'Happy New Year! (dont look too excited)

People keep posting about how theyve over come mean comments or people who didnt believe in them or who pissed them off etc etc etc but I dont have any of that to write :'3 I'm too loved mwahahaha! Or if people hate me they do it in secret >>'

It is so true! I have to admit I was glad that I didn't have any of that to write~~

In the evening to see in 2014 I went to my friends and joined by forever awesome friends who I love for life from school days <3 its so hard getting us together these days ;n; and exchanged presents and spent awesome time together! <3 I love you guys!

And there you have it, we happily saw the new year in and had a great time!

All over I had a really great week I'm sad to let it go! Time to go back to the real world hehe

Bye bye bye bye <3 from the first post of 2014 omg

13 Things About 2013

2013-12-29T14:40:00.004+00:00

I hope everyone's Christmas was great! Mine was ^o^ and then I brought a 3DS and then my life was over <3

I'm doing the same thing as last year yay! As the years go on I'll have to do more and more cool things to add up to the number. It's a few days away yet but new year is soon so let me have a think about things that I've done xD

1. I got a car. And pretty much re-learnt how to drive it!

2. So that means I also passed my driving test! Oh yes! 10 points!

3. Made a load of new friends, mostly at conventions of course <3

4. Went to Hyper Japan for the first time and it was amazing~

5. SAW SUPER JUNIOR LIVE IN CONCERT. DOES NOT GET BETTER THAN THAT

6. Oh and even though it was back in February, I also saw Kyary Pamyu Pamyu in concert <3 <3 <3 that being my first concert EVER. and and I saw other shows too!

7. Again my confidence grew and grew with my blog, it's really taken off this year ^o^

8. I started on YouTube! I haven't given up on it but I actually have videos now, with my face and voice! Gosh~

9. (Because this is damn cool for me) I got approached by a model scout

10. I had a bit of a muddle with jobs/ no job but now I'm in a whole new one which I like c:

11. I pushed my hair to the extreme with bleaching and dying, it still hasn't recovered xD

12. I re-discovered my love for interesting fashion

13. I also found more about myself and what I think about different things and just things about me

Oh my gosh I looked back on my blog titles over the year and I can't believe all those things were this year! They seem like a life time ago! And also looking back I really had a good year <3 <3

I wonder what next year will have in store for me ^o^

Late Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year <3

Plastic Plastic Fake Fake!

2013-12-16T21:41:00.000+00:00

Good evening dears~! I hope you've been seeing my excessive camhoing on Dayre?

Today I'm going to talk about plastic surgery ooooo. First of all, I think its perfectly okay! I'm all for beauty and that's just a length people can go to to achieve it. And well it sure works! I'm totally jealous of how amazing it can make people look. Just because they've got guts and money xD

It bugs me about how taboo it is in the UK. I've actually never gone past a plastic surgery place before, or ever seen any adverts. When somebody mentions it (like I have to friends before) you always get the 'oh no you don't need it youre so pretty!'

Yeah but what if I want to look prettier?!

It just seems like too damn extreme for people in this country. And if someones had it done they keep it secret wtf. Why aren't you showing off your dedication to your looks? It's so bad when people lie. And then wonder why it has a bad reputation.

I'm jealous of people in South Korea, it's such a common accepted thing there! Like- you wanna get a double eyelids? Okay go on then. Hey it looks good!

Wah wah wah

(Although why people want double eyelids I do not know. I wish there was one for single! They can look damn good also!)

I don't think I could ever mention such a thing to my family, it's like me announcing that Im going to France to marry a guy Ive never met xDD (best fake example ever)

Dear me, Western world why arent you accepting?! So much is about beauty but as soon as its something more permanent like surgery you avert your eyes and scorn people wtf wtf

General reactions are 'fake' 'bimbo' 'plastic' 'vain' etc etc. mostly fake. Oh how is your makeup and hair extensions doing recently?

I don't get how if someone is naturally pretty they get all the praise and everything but if someone is just as pretty but it's because of surgery they get hated on for it! Just because this one person was born with a good face, it's not fair! People cannot help the face they're born with. Some people will use make up to alter themselves but some can use surgery. No big diff. Why should they accept the face they have if they can get one they want? Omg omg people are so bitter.

I've never ever had anything done but I'm not past thinking about it, if I was loaded (and was able to get away with it without my parents killing me haha) I would totally have (not official names I dont know stuff like that) (oh and its included cosmetic surgery):

-Eye widening

-That thing they do to give people aegyo sal

- Straight nose bridge

- Something thatll make my skin all nice idk xD zap it

I think thats it from the top of my head~

Oh oh wait! Give me Invisalign PLEASE

And if I don't ever get those things I want the UK to actually sell beauty products I want! Sheet mask, hair mask, Etude House stuff, bottom false lashes! ;n; I've never found these things ever ever </3

(Can you tell where I get my beauty ideals from? xD)

Guuuhh then I'd look so perfect guys!

GIVE ME MY FAKE ALREADY

Why Do You War?!

2013-12-11T21:11:00.000+00:00

There's no real reason why I'm writing this now when it would have made more sense to write it like last month but oh well here!

Maybe cause I was going on a mini rant with my mum about how charity people always try and bug you on the street haha xD

Oh right, first, disclaimer: some people may get offended by reading this blah blah blah. if you're pro war for some reason go away I don't even want you page view.

I was having a think about that and then I remembered the time that on the street in my town was a guy getting people to donate money to soldiers and stuff. It was damn annoying how he was shouting out to try and get people to come, he had a table and flag and everything oh my god.

So this stall was to get money to help them out and then to freaking recruit people to join the army! Fuck no.

You know you always try to avoid eye contact with these type of people otherwise they'll feel inclined to talk to you (bleh) and when I had accidently eye contact with this guy it was bitch glare and then march right on by.

No I won't support that! No chance.

On Remembrance Day I buy my poppy and I wear it and I do the silence because it's damn sad to have so many people die for something so stupid and avoidable :c

Especially when you think about WW1 and WW2, such tragic loss! Just because people are selfish and want power.

Hey, if you want people to like you be nice don't kill them. Duh.

But! When troops go swanning in to some other country cause they are trying to get all involved and up in the counties business and then get killed because of it- wtf!

I'm not gonna support that! What did you expect was going to happen when you went to war?! You were gonna live?! People die in wars for gods sake.

I don't support war at all man! Even when people try to resolve stuff with violence I'm like...did somebody replace your brain with a block of wood?

Aaah you'd think with all the shit that comes with war that people would learn but no they do not

It's not noble, its not smart and you can get killed.

There's this Christmas advert right now and it's got a home video of this family doing a video message for their dad saying happy Christmas and stuff cause he's doing military things, at the end he shows up and they're all very excited and its cute. But wtf what kind of parent puts a war over their own family?!

Being there for your family is more important than anything

The kids could see you every day! Not have to miss you.

Also also, you don't just get killed in wars. You kill people too. Nice having that on your conscience huh?

Killing people is wrong no matter how much excuse you want to put on top of it.

So yeah, moral of the story- don't get me to donate to your war cause, you wouldn't have gotten hurt if you didn't have a war in the first place c:

DAYRE SUCCESS

2013-12-11T20:33:00.002+00:00

QUICK READERS FOLLOW ME ON DAYRE <3

I'm actually using it now! I plan to update it with something every day ^-^ cause every day happenings aren't cool enough to make it on to the blog xD

Why should you follow me?

Cause right now you're missing out on these camhos that I took since I got my phone fixed! (yes fixed. Im soo happy)

Dayre knew I started a new job, knew how I won the staff over by talking about video games and how damn scary driving in the fog was. You guys didn't :c

So what are you guys waiting for?! Go and follow me on Dayre ^o^

I am as SunnyLen of course!!!

I don't know how to get a mobile link type thing omg. but now you know. YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE. Download it, follow me!

Shallow Ah

2013-12-04T11:50:00.002+00:00

Pretty this, pretty that. How's my make up? Clothes? Hair? Can I just check on my reflection? Quick take a selca!

Okay I've got a lot of talking to do right now xD I was gonna write a 'off load old selcas that deserve attention' post but now I'm just gonna include it in this post because posts without pictures are boring.

And sorry if I repeat some, I forget.

When my Shima wig first arrived it was so pretty xD

There really is a point to this okay lets get on with it.

Right now, I've realised how much i've changed how how I have actually become kind of shallow wtf. It's not 100% because of course if you know me, you know how I can be shy etc etc. but it is pretty key I think!

I won't go on a date with you because you are not good looking enough. - God damn I think that all the time. Its probably a teenager thing but I remember back at school and people would show a picture of their boyfriend and everyone would be like 'oh he's so cute' That's the reaction you want! If you didn't get it you failed hahaha

Who doesn't want to have a hot person next to them? I want someone I can take selcas with who will look good with me! I put so much effort into how I look, it's only fair they do as well.

I'm also way too absorbed in my own life to let somebody else in like that

(And don't say you don't think stuff like that either. People are idolised for how hot they are :3)

I love to take selca's all the time because it makes me happy! In case I forget how I look or I feel ugly that day I can have nice pictures to remind me!

Although I dropped my phone dammit. One of the cracks goes over the front camera ;n;

And taking ones without being able to see is hard. Wtf

I think saying that I like to camho isn't even news to you guys hahahaha!

I also think I've got a slight obsession. I've decided its an obsession because on multiple occasions I tell my self to stop 'famewhoring'

I think about how I can improve, catch attention without it being OTT wrong kind of attention. I want to be bigger than freaking XiaXue. I want to be known for my blog, cosplaying, selcas. And in the future maybe even fashion (news: Im considering studying fashion design) and maybe YouTube idk.

Don't get me wrong, I love doing all those things! But it's not like being an accountant where you just go ahead and do that shit, with these things you have to be known to be successful. I just happen to like something like that.

And ever since I got approached by that model scout I've started to consider it to be a realistic goal for once.

What do you think?!

I KEEP WORKING AT IT

'Even though I have bitchy thought's I'm actually a nice person' - motivation to keep going c:

You know when I can't see how I look I worry I look bad and then confidence leaves for a while wtf.

I still miss this hair :c

All my goals right now are very 'me' orientated. I'm trying to get my skin looking good, trying to get fit and healthy. It's damn hard let me tell you! If I told my friends/ family I was exercising they'd be like 'WHY YOU DONT NEED TO' but shut up c: I may be small but I am not fit no way!

If I can get fit then I can skilled at other things. I'm in love with K-Pop (duh duh duh) and want to be able to dance like them. One day to be able to say 'yeah, I can do that.' ~~famewhoring~~

Enough selca for you?

Getting success for just blogging is not skill enough for me! I'm gonna do more and more or everything!

'Im so gorgeous what do I do' vs. 'oh my god Im never as pretty as her this sucks what now? what lengths do I need to go to?!' - Inner mind battle

Is this some kind of rebound cause of how I grew up so shy and un-me?

Who knows who knows, I sure don't.

Although I can't deny I'm having fun! If I met my old self I wouldn't like her. I would get annoyed at how closed off she was and how, she didn't realise the first step to personal happiness was look good!

Old self, you should have owned wigs and lashes

I feel I should mention that I'm sometimes still quite like that, so you don't hate me by the

time you finish this post <3

*Still a nice person

*Still gets insecure and shy about stuff

*Still me

*Still not confident

*Still the girl you see in all my posts. I'm nothing if not honest

*Still not sure on life goal. But this is what I'm thinking about right now.

I am freaking SunnyLen and I can do anything <3

London MCM Expo October '13 Friday

2013-11-30T15:42:00.000+00:00

Finally gotten over post-Expo blues long enough to blog about it~ (please take me back ;n;)

I travelled from home by myself again this time, which of course means I got to mirror hog and whatever hahaha!

Friday I wore Kagamine Len (the Vocaloid if you don't know~)

Ready to go!

Please excuse all the effects, I've kind of become addicted to this Chinese photo app >>

It was so sad guys, I had to leave my alpaca behind because she would just not fit in my suitcase ;A; bye bye Haru-chan </3

Even though the case was this huge TT Also wearing jeans and cardigan because its cold

It kind of sucked how I had nobody to travel with wah wah. I was self conscious wtf. Yes yes people in my town I'm aware how much I stood out xD

Although maybe it was a good thing because someone offered to help me with my case on the train aw *o* (but where was that help when I had to drag it up flights of stairs omg. IM NOT THAT STRONG OKAY)

AND NOW I'M ON THE TRAIN YAY

After a fair amount of travel and dying because of how unfit I am to carry suitcase and looks, I finally see some of the others yaaaaaay! Finally I didn't feel so stand-outy ':3

So wonderful to see them again! And then after a ton of waiting and waiting and waiting the others appeared too! <3 AH <3 <3 <3 other than Kydeka I hadn't seen any of them since last Expo ;A; I miss them already~

Once we were all gathered we travelled off to the Excel centre and then our hotel~!!! When we arrived it was kind of different o-o there were staff standing outside the doors, not letting people in until the opening time. Normally you have to wait until the part with all the stalls in to be 'in' the Expo, but this time they just kind of had the whole building. Which meant we had to walk around the outside to get to our hotel ;^;

Changed into full cosplay and ready to Expo! At last <3

Here's my twin! Alice! I actually know her cosplay this time around...not just because she's Rin or anything

If it weren't for Alice I would've been the odd one of the day, which is, very sad. Everyone else was from Kuroshitsuji/ Black Butler which I couldn't do because I didn't have enough money ;A;

So naturally on Friday we stuck together ^o^ We wondered around the shopping area a bit because I wanted to shop then, although in the end I actually didn't. We got a lovely amount of photos taken too <3 which was wonderful~ and compliments! Gah!

Also a total first for me somebody asked us to do a birthday shout out for his friend who wasn't at the Expo. So yeah I hope you had a good birthday dude! (I have no idea how to spell it but his name was Nadge) I felt like a somebody doing that xD Or...dressed as a somebody at least.

So that was all really fun, our twin photos <3 <3 although I've only come across one online so far D:

Even though it was only a month ago my memory is awful, so I hope the others remind me of stuff that happened that I didn't write about~

THIS WAS LUNCH SORT OF. Late lunch. Some noodles with a meat that I don't remember which one and some sweet and sour sauce, it was damn nice <3 <3

I believe lunch was before splitting up and Kagamine twin wondering, so by the time we re-joined the others they were outside! And now you can finally see them in their Kuroshitsuji goodness thanks to the power of selcas!

Kydekaaaaa. As the best Grell EVER

Dear Rachel as the Undertaker! Her contacts were a-ma-zing.

Tasha as Sebastian! Also had winning contacts!

Claire (who I actually got to meet properly this time round ^-^) as Ciel awww

Shona as Mei-rin <3

And finally another one with Alice before she wondered off xD

The Kuro lot were all hot in their cosplay while I was cold TT Bleh. But we stayed outside and met a pair of really nice cosplayers who's names I actually can't remember IM SORRY

But here's a picture of one of them as Honey ><

AND WE GOT A PICTURE WITH THE GIANT TOTORO OH MY GOD <3

After that I think we just went back to the hotel, somehow time totally flew while we were there aw.

But that also meant more food! Yaaaaaaaaaaaay <3 I ordered a pie of some sort which was soooo nice. I don't know how a hotel can have such yummy food but it does xD It was great just sitting and eating and laughing :'3 it makes staying in London worth it!

I moustache you a question...

THIS GIRL. IS TOO ADORABLE

Mwah mwah mwah! You see what I mean about the contacts?!

Sebas-chaaaaan~! Oh you.

What is this thing being pointed at my face? Bawww

Wow I didn't have much coverage of the day ;n; but anyway that was Friday and after more more chats and laughs it was time for beeed and for me, taking my yellow nail varnish off and putting teal on. omg.

Okay look out for Saturday post sooooooon! <3 <3

Super Show 5 London!!!

2013-11-20T22:35:00.002+00:00

Now I need to breathe and write this quickly before I get over excited about the memories:

If you wanna read a fan account scroll down, first I'm writing about our day in London okay? okay c:

Right so, because it costs so much to travel into London, we (we as in myself and Kydeka) decided to spend the day there to make it more worth while! And what a good choice it was~

First of all we headed to Camden to find the Hyper Japan store ^o^ it took a damn while but eventually we did, and it was small aw :c we didn't buy anything but all that effort was totally worth it!

Why you ask?! Because we saw Tana and Aiden on the TV outside the store! It was showing about Hyper Japan, and there they were in their Amaimon and Mephisto gear! Eeeee <3 it was like they were famous *o*

Look to the left yeah!

Okay then after there it was time to head for the no.1 location always-must-go-there in London, Tokyo Toys! <3

I brought myself a lovely Attack on Titan necklace, which I don't have a picture of because I'm lazy but I super super love it! And also funnily enough while we were there we saw the guy from Expo (oh yeah you don't know who I didn't write about it yet) who did the wristbands, and who also took a picture of us all on the Sunday! For some reason that was really exciting xD

Kydeka got a Pikachu onesee. So mature. Okay I'm actually jealous it's so soft ;u;

Then we headed to nerd store number two to just have a look around because you can't not go there~ (Forbidden Planet) and even though this day was costing me a lot already, I brought 3 mangas yay! 2 Blue Exorcist and the first Attack on Titan <3 (can you tell what I'm in to right now >>)

And so, since I was kind of dying of tired (I didn't sleep much ;^;) we went to China town to get some lunch <3 checking out all these different places to then pick one! And here where a good story comes in, please look at the next paragraph hahahaha.

As we were going to our chosen restaurant this Asian guy comes up to us (who had walked by before, I didn't notice) and says 'you guys are adorable' WHAT. OHMYGOD THAT IS SO RANDOM. WHY ARE YOU SO RANDOM. Although that was sweet aw xD surely he can't of actually been from the UK even though he had no accent, we don't go up to people like that in this country oh no.

But we got a nice little conversation out of him, didn't get his name though. Although it's great meeting new people with Kydeka so we get to tell people about our same name xD He also said that I didn't look English...where do I look like I'm from then?! Oh my days xD I think I would have also enjoyed that conversation more if I wasn't hungry and tired and kind of ill~

But thanks for the compliment <3 <3 <3

So finally we get to eat at a Chinese restaurant and oh my god it was so nice <3 I have no idea where the restaurant was or what it was cool but it was so yummy! Had some chicken noodle thing and you got given flower tea (is it Jasmine? Idk) not an option though! Although I'm not a big fan, I was so grateful for something hot to drink since it was a cold day~

Although after eating, I still didn't feel 100% so we went to Boots and I got pain killers yay! The reason I didn't sleep much was tummy pains (for no reason wtf) and they kept coming back all day and trying to kill me :c

And then we went to the bank to get MONEY oh yes. That's not really important but the great part about that was how the machines offer 'advice slips' I was like what advice can a cash machine give you?! But I didn't care enough to find out :'3

And then we realised we had nothing to doooo so we decided to head to the concert venue!!!!!

On the super long tube ride I was really slowly dying from feeling ill ;n; I didn't think Id cope going to the concert omg, but there was no way I'd miss it for nothing! But luckily, the pain killers decided to work then! So slowly slowly I was getting better ^o^

It took a little while but we finally found Wembley Arena!!!!!! <3 (Omg Im excited just thinking about it), we even passed a big group of people taking a picture with fan signs and stuff. ELFs!!!!

Even though we were several hours early there was still so many people outside the venue!

It suddenly felt very very real, that we were actually going to see Super Junior! That they were inside of the building we were at!!!

And what a pretty building it was *o*

And here we are outside EEEEEEE

This hair style kept falling out dammit

And because we had so much time we headed off to find a café of sorts, I'd been wanting to get coffee all day xD and we found a Café Nero! Yaaaay <3 since it was so busy in there we got our drinks and headed back, wondering wtf we were supposed to do with all our time now xD since we'd earlier been told to start lining for seating at half 7 or something -___-

So we stood randomly somewhere and what is this...we could hear...music and wait...SINGING?! OH MY GOD WE COULD HEAR THEM INSIDE. By the sounds of it they were practising A-Oh! (I think). I nearly cried. Oh my god I squealed and laughed and looked stupid but I really couldn't believe it! (needless to say I was feeling better!)

Then we went and stood somewhere else where by luck a standing queue started forming because one of the staff was like 'just make a queue' I guess she was so done with everyone just standing around xD time to stand organised! So we got to be right near the front yaaay!

And there we made QUEUE FRIENDS <3 which was awesome, we spent those 2 hours or something just talking about Super Junior and K-Pop <333 I've never had such a K-Pop conversation before <3 it was kind of beautiful ;u; they were all super nice! One of them came from Spain and another from Poland! Just for SS5 oh my god dedication!

Awesome picture with (2 of) new queue friends! Nico and Charmaine ^o^ Thank you guys for making queueing that much more fabulous! <3 <3 <3

So yeah, wonderful conversation-ing happened in the queue~ it was also freezing cold so it was good to be distracted from the weather xD And we could all get excited together!

In the queue we were also given fan signs!! which was damn exciting because we didn't get lightsticks :c tried looking for the seller but couldn't see them ;n;

Top left: For Henry and Zhoumi who couldn't be there ;A; so sad :c and to show that we all accept them as part of SJ! AND NO HEECHUL EITHER /CRIES or Yesung or Leeteuk </3

Top right: For during Mary U <3 <3

Bottom Leftish: I don't remember when for, for always hahaha. The concert was so close to the anniversary ;u;

Bottom Right: For during the Hero stage (which ended up being Wonder Boy) because Siwon dresses as Captain America, heres something even better! Hehehe~

Ignore the article, it doesn't count~ although it what was the i paper wrote about SuJu and the concert <3

OH AND AT LAST ITS TIME TO GO INSIDE I CANT BELIEVE IT. and I was glad also because I was so cold haha. First they did a bag check and threw away my bottle lid. rude. but at least I got to actually keep the water ^o^

And we find our seats! Which were actually the wrong ones and a staff came and moved us FORWARDS. OH MY GOD. while we waited for it to start they played SJ songs which we were all singing too, and when they played 'No Other' everybody screamed <3

OUR VIEW. <3 <3

And blue nails of course <3

NOW TIME TO WAIT FOR IT TO START

Omg I don't think my heart can take writing about the actual concert. I. my feels. I miss them so much ;A; okay here we go

FAN ACCOUNT OF SUPER JUNIOR'S SUPER SHOW 5 LONDON STARTS HERE (if you don't care about me and just wanted to read this bit :3)

So the lights go down and a video comes up on screen, with a spy theme! Ooooo! Even when the video started, before you saw anyone, everyone was screaming xD and then as the different members appeared, more screaming! They were just being so cool!!!

AND THEN THE LIGHTS ON STAGE CAME UP AND THERE THEY WERE. ACTUAL SUPER JUNIOR IN THE FLESH. IN THE SAME ROOM. I CAN'T- AWEJGRKLEJGLEJLRS <3

They started of with Mr Simple! Which is the only song I actually learnt the fan chant to xD so that was fun! BLOW YOUR MIND~. Then they sung Bonamana *cue extra screaming at those hip thrusts oh yes. Then they did the Korean version of Super Girl <3 I wish they'd done the Chinese version though, because that's the one I like best xD but it was great nonetheless! I was still in the 'that's actually them' state of mind, whist screaming my head off ;u;

After that they did their introduction! When they did their greeting everyone was like AAAAHHHHH. Omg I've waited a long time to see that in person >< Okay everyone was like AAHH and every point and at every sentence hehehehe xD

First was Shindong! Said it was 'nice to meet you' AND I AGREE YES IT WAS.

Next up Sungmin! (that adorable guy) and he said 'you are so gorgeous' I CAN'T BELIEVE HE ACTUALLY SAID IT. THAT LINE. I. OH MY GOD <3 I wanted somebody to say so bad ;u; reminds me of Full House days and dear Heechul ><

Then Ryeowook's turn! 'I love you!' awwww <3 and he did a heart ^ ^

And Donghae!!! I think his greeting was the best, he started with 'my name is- what?' gosh so confident Hae! and he said it again and everyone was like 'DONGHAE' of course xD then he explained 'I can speak English but only a little bit' (and boy was he wrong, his English was so good! I was amazed at how much English he actually knew <3) and he went on to say 'today, forget everything. Your boyfriend, your homework, money. Everything!' I was like OKAY SURE NO PROBLEM. 'Only one day, only one show' of course it is the most important thing ever. and then that guy, that guy pointed at the camera and gave a kiss >u<

Next Kangin! didn't do English like the others before but there was a translator~ he said it was his first time in London and it was just like a dream! Awww! and and that they'll give us an unforgettable performance that we'll never forget. That- is very true! Kangin, how did you know?!

Then it was Siwon! and he started talking (in English!) about when he came to London before and he said it was a hard time with the Eurostar and some shooting problem in Paris omg, but ELF saved him! Aww! AND he said he had always wanted a concert in London <3 we waited as long as you Siwon-y x3 it was so cute that he said 'God bless'

And probably the most funny introduction was Kyuhyun's! When everybody started screaming he like, did sort of a celebration action, like he was basking in the glory, which made everybody scream more of course xD it was brilliant! then he said 'let me introduce myself' xDD (and his English was so cuuuteee) 'I am a member of the very popular boy group, Super Junior. you know?' hahahah xD How he said it with a straight face I do not know. and he added a 'You are so gorgeous' there too <3 <3 oh Kyuhyun

Then finally Eunhyuk time! Our temporary leader~ he totally soaked up the love for a moment, much more classy than Kyuhyun xD and he said 'yes yes sure' which ended up being the catch phrase for the entire concert! I think it was them being British or something xD he introduced himself as anchovy xD and he was then like 'anchovy no' and did a Donghae and said 'my name is what?!' EUNHYUK <3 said he was excited, and told us to be more excited! He spoke in a bit of English but stuck with Korean mostly. He said the members that couldn't come were sad :c Heechul ;A; and Henry and Zhoumi :cc

He also said that because they'd come all the way from Mexico from their last concert so they were tired, poor things :c :c they really didn't act like it though!!!

Oh my god I wrote so much already xD I will try to narrow it down a bit for writing about the rest.

So they went on to more performing! Doing It's You <3 <3 there are no words to describe how much I love this song. It was utterly heart breaking and amazing to see it performed live ;n; it was my first SJ song as well. I really felt Heechul's absence towards the end as he has his little bit, but any missing parts (like Heechul's, Yesung's and Leeteuk's) were so amazingly covered you couldn't even tell! Wookie covered a lot, he is SUCH a good singer!

Then they did Sexy, Free and Single and SPY :D I got so excited seeing the (what I call) the swan dance at the start of Sexy, Free and Single and then the switch between Kyu and Wookie in SPY and and that off the shoulder jacket bit! Huuuuu. And because Sungmin is just love, when he did the 'pew' at the end. I. GAH <3

I think the solo time was next ^o^ ...there might have been another spy video first, I think there was. I don't remember the order but Kyuhyun came on and sang 'Isn't she Lovely' ;u; eeeeeee <3 it was so cute and his English! 'lobely' hehehehe aw. and god I could just put him in my pocket <3 it was brilliant when Shindong came on and tried to mess up the performance! First by stealing his harmonica and then dancing around him XD such a cute and funny performance :'3

Then (maybe then, I think then) was CROSSDRESSING TIME OH YES. First up came Siwon in a nice blue number, ohmygod his legs! Then Wookie...and oh my god HOW IS HE SO GOOD LOOKING AS A GIRL?! I CANT BELIEVE IT. Then Kangin as Ga In xD and finally Sungmin came out as Hyuna! Min...YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS. I can't believe how amazing he looked either! Does it better than Hyuna her self~ and then they all did Sistar's Alone which was hilarious! And how is it they can wear heals better than me?

Next up was EunHae ^o^ EEEE. They first sung Hello which a totally amazing love love love song <3 and then another highlight, Oppa Oppa! Before they started they had a competition of who can get ELF to yell 'Oppa' the loudest xD which was fun. Hae let Hyukkie win c: I suddenly had a 'am I actually shouting oppa like a crazy person?' moment but I got over it and shouted as loud as possible! And it made me super happy that the London part of their song finally came true! Oppa Oppa~~

Then they did A-Oh! Which is, if you read the top half, what we heard them practise! EEE! Like with Super Girl it was the Korean version so I was like aw :c but still love love loved it all the same!

And the part I had been waiting for (not that I knew what they were gonna perform but I was hoping for this) ROCKSTAR! I love that song so much! It was great to sing along and see them all get crazy and hyper :'3 and they did the ending a lot of times! I think it was Hyuk and Siwon who stripped. THOSE ABS OH MY HOLY SHISUS. this was totally the most fun performance of the whole concert!

I believe there was another video but I don't remember which, I think it was where they were all being badass seeming again and there was a moment where you think Kyuhyun is the boss and Shindong just shoves him out the way xD Then theres a mega shoot out BUT they don't actually have guns! They're just pointing finger guns at each other ahahahaha XD And they all 'die' and then walk away fine.

While Im here and since I don't remember the video order, there was a super sad one with Hae and Kyu about a loved one dying and then I think Hae wished for it to have not happened but it happens to Kyu instead, because (Kydeka had to explain this to me) it still had to happen to someone. But Kyuhyun protects her and HE GETS SHOT omg the tears help

So the next performance after whatever video it was was the ballads ;A; they did Bittersweet, Someday and Memories together. I cry. It was like crying but I had no liquid in my body for tears xD too much screaming. but oh my god it was so heart breaking.

And because they wanted to reduce ELF into sobbing messes, Kyuhyun and Ryeowook did Grey Paper and if that wasn't sad enough THEY PUT YESUNG UP ON THE SCREEN ;A; K.R.Y. <3<3<3 all the tears. so good yet so sad ;A;

Then another video (I remember where this one was xD) they were all in their super hero costumes trying to fight this bear I think! It was so funny xD Which can only mean it was time for the hero stage! When I heard Wonder Boy start I got SO EXCITED!!! I love that song so so so much, especially because its from the film <3 <3 they need another film omg. They dorked around so much during this one xD Kyuhyun is the PERFECT Loki!

Then there was another video! Teaching us the dance to Sunny ^o^ which was really cute and I still remember it of course :'3 and because as you know, my blog is 'Sunny' my online me is 'Sunny' so it was like they were singing to me! HEHEHEHE <3 'Sunny, Sunny, Sunny, I love you~' bawwwwwwww. Such an adorable performance!

And after all that fun they went and made as sad again saying the concert was almost over ;A; with their ''last song'' (Note those little things there) So I. It wasn't the end! They then sung Sorry Sorry (OMFG one of the best performances <3<3 doing the little dance), Miracle, which was such a good song for them to sing! So sweet and such memories :'3 and it seemed to have a great meaning because it was their first show in London, Dancing out and then Mary U which I squealed at a lot and screamed. Totally in love with them more and more! Yes Super Junior I will marry you okay? Okay <3<3<3

Then it was time for their real end messages (they talked a lot before the encore). It was so sad ;A; I couldn't believe it was over.

I'm gonna write these a bit shorter than the opening ><(might come back and edit this to write more haha). Their ending was like half an hour or something xD

There another screaming contest! I think first it was the guys! Because they were surprised that there seemed to be a fair amount of guys there (I was surprised too xD) but when half the girls screamed too Hae was like 'ONLY GUYS.' it was so funny xD And every time he got more loud about it even yelling 'NO!' xDDD and when it was the girls turn he was like 'ON-LY-LA-DIES' hehehehehehe xD needless to say that was VERY loud oh my god. Then they did 'only staff' and because of their accents we heard 'only Steph' and were like OMG WHAT STEPH THATS US but then it was staff awww :c

More yes yes sure~ (they said this so much)

Then it was only Super Junior! Hyuk trolled them like '1-2-wait.' xD they did it without mics, they were damn loud as well!! And I think that's also where they got Wookie to do a really high pitched voice! so cute xD

Shindong was first like at the start, said it was a really good way to send off his 20 years! (like age, gonna be 30 in Korea soon I believe) 'I love you!'

Then Ryeowook asked for us to keep loving them! OF COURSE

Min said he really wanted to come to London ^-^ then to end Sungmin yelled 'I LOVE YOU' with out a microphone and it was so so so so cute and amazing how loud his voice was! WOAH <3

And Donghae had a mini speech haha:

'Sometimes you're my hero, sometimes you're my girlfriend, sometimes you're my sister, sometimes you're my baby' -insert super fangirling here- He was gonna say more but wasn't sure on how to so he had to ask Siwon! (Shisus was all 'I got your back' xD) Bless~ then we went on to say 'Without you I could never see, without you I could never hear, without you I could never have happy tears in my eyes' AWWWW even after that he wasn't sure said it right and said it again in Korean with translator. But omg Hae you got it perfect!

Kangin said he was really really happy! Thanked the fans! And especially Korean fans haha XD -excluded forever- its okay we know he loves all ELF xD

Siwon was so sweet, I've not got this word for word but he was like 'the fire is Super Junior and ELF. ELF are the stars in the beautiful night sky and Super Junior are the spark that keep the fire ablaze' awwwww <3

And again Kyuhyun totally just absorbed all the love haha xD and said about introducing himself again xD and he said 'Do you wanna know a secret?' 'I love you' AW KYUHYUN YOUUU

Finally was Hyukkie </3 gaahh. 'Yes yes sure' HAHAHA. 'I'm so crazy. Because you.' 'Very very very beautiful, very very lovely, very very awesome. And then- me too.' I laughed so much! Then we went on in Korean and thanked as all and said how good it was. And said that we made Super Junior THE BEST (they were already the best though) and how he'll never forget this night aww.

As a special treat (especially for Exotics (Im not one but was still exciting)) Kris and Suho were there! They'd come to Europe for the EMAs and went to see SuJu's concert! They were in the audience and everything. They got them to come on stage and everyone was like OMFG xD SuJu tried to get them to do a dance to Rockstar, they so weren't expecting it! They were like 'what...' and it was so awkward and funny xD it was pretty cool to see them! Like it was extra special for London :'3

Then such such sadness the show was over ;A; Although they said they'd come back for Super Show 6!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I really wanna stand next time!

Fan account over all that follows will be fan girl screaming and crying and non-English sounding Super Junior feels.

I MISS IT SO MUCH. I MISS THEM. Even though there was only 8 performing the stage still felt full! They were just so amazing and gorgeous and perfect and more than I thought they ever would be ;;;;;; it was the best thing in my life I swear to god and nothing will ever beat it! Hehehehehehehehe <3 <3

ELF FOREVER

As you saw in my last post I was freaking depressed afterwards xD remembering it all again now writing this makes me sad and happy. I didn't think I could love SuJu more than I already did, but I was proved wrong!

I wish I could've written every single little detail but damn I would never stop typing >< there was a cute moment where Sungmin went to throw something into the audience, didn't and then pulled a face at them xD So cute! Then he actually threw it.

If anymore random moments I remember I'll write them down here~~~

Oh oh like Shake It Up! They sung that too <3 and I don't remember when it was but at one point they all started running in a big circle with their arms out behind them ahahahahaha XDD

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My voice was a little croaky afterwards xD not as bad as Kydeka's though! Maybe because I'm normally so quiet I have a lot of voice to use for screaming xD I hope I didn't annoy the girl next to me, she didn't scream so much ><

YES YES SURE <3

You guys are all too amazing. How do you exist? Even now I can't actually believe that I saw them ;u;

SUPER JUNIOR HAVE A BIG LONG REST AND COME BACK SOON I LOVE YOU!

Okay BYE READERS I LOVE YOU TOO <3 <3

What Dayre?!

2013-11-15T23:11:00.001+00:00

Everyone whos anyone has been getting new Dayre app! And I was going to as too! If you dont know its like a quick easy blog type thing which you can use for daily updates! Random pictures and stories from your day~ it sounded sooo nice because using blogger on my phone is rubbish TT and on Dayre your content can be lazy yay!

BUT. As I said I was going to but didnt. I signed up and confirmed my email and everything, and I went to log in and it didnt let me :c didnt know my password or wharever, so I clicked the option to re-send email varification but it didnt even come wtf. I only want to use this app, let me! I swear I'll be the best blogger on there ;n;

Okay okay this post is just a little update since I havent blogged since before Expo o-o (which was great). So Expo happened and Super Show 5 happened which was the best thing ever. I'll write about it soon! I was too busy being all depressed because it was over wtf. I can handle it now~

And so l will do something which would be the sort of thing you can do on Dayre if you have it. Ifitwillletyouhaveit

Halloween was a thing that happened (nokid) and since Im lazy me and my friend just went to check out this guys house who decorates it OTT for charity. It was so amazing! Cannot believe how much effort it must've took! You may have heard of this actually because this guy got in trouble with the police because a mum rang them because the halloween decorations were too scary and made her kid cry AHAHAHAHAHA.

Anyway, this is my lazy I-dont-have-an-outfit Halloween look:

This is why its good I have so many accessories~~

I knew my lenses would come in handy!

^o^

Oh and we had some chips and it was nice. I would include a picture of me and her but idk if she wants to be on my blog haha xD

Oh speaking of that very friend! Shes the one whos trying to get me to do vlogs and get youtube famous so she can marry danisnotonfire. Not all of that is strictly true. And so just for her I made a new mini mini short short video. I have a lot of feels about what I speak about (giving kpop stars some space) which is in my blog somewhere so didnt say again!

I want to link to my video but does blogger app let me? No it does not. So instead youll have to click on the link at the side to get to my channel -__- I'll link the video in a later post!

From one holiday to the next, work wanted me to decorate a christmas tree for display- OMG WAIT I DIDNT TELL YOU GUYS. I got my old jobs back :'3 people are so nice awwwww. Okay back to the tree:

Haha it looks so bad XD dont ever ask me again

Another happening is that I tried to grow my fringe out! It was only really gone in this time I wasnt blogging wtf. I wanted to be able to have more diverse hairstyle but my fringe hair just did not stay at the sides D-D so a couple of days ago I welcomed the fringe <3

It was fun though! I got used to the fact I suit non-fringe I guess and I also got to look after my eyebrows haha xD its exciting cause Ive been getting my straight fuller brows again that I had to pluck before Expo ><

Bye eyebrows hello fringe!

And finally I really should sleep. I havent been sleeping properly since Expo omg (my own fault) so Ive been super tired for soooo long (even writing this because Im not sleeping)

Tons of make up and filter but look like I havent slept in a year. Dem eyebags.

Good night~ ^o^

Time For A Bit Of Pre-Expo Magic

2013-10-22T17:16:00.001+01:00

I can't believe that times come round again!!!!

That also means a short pre-Expo post about just who I shall be cosplaying yaaaaaaaaaaaay!

I'm going all 3 days of course <3

Friday I think I'm going as Shima again, even if I'm not I'll still have the cosplay with me >< I can't decide if I should wear Len or something since Shima's been out an about an awful lot this year~

Edit! I'm going to cosplay Len on Friday. And yes bring Shima along~ Gonna leave Shima picture there anyway :3

But just in case you forgot how I look as Shima:

Even though this picture was only in the Hyper Japan post x3

And here, just in case I do Len ^o^

A fancy close up also. Oh and look at my blog heading too! Len's there~

Then Saturday...I get to wear my beloved Miku cosplay again ;u;

Although I hacked off some length of the wig </3

I had to make my eyebrows all thin too. Cause you know in manga they always have thin eyebrows xc R.I.P thick straight brow look.

And finally, on Sunday my only new cosplay of the weekend! The forever gorgeous and best host ever...Hikaru! <3 from Ouran High School Host club ^o^

Went to Kydeka's the other day and we derped about in Ouran cosplay! She's being Honey. We have a group of all the hosts! I can't wait!

TA-AAA! The rose beautifully made by Kydeka <3 ilu

And another picture just so you can see her too c:

I can't wait for Friday to get here! YAAAAAAAAAY! So many people I wanna see/meet over the weekend ;u;

See you there! BAI BAI <3