Super Fantastic Nothings or Somethings

Sometimes its more than just a roof.

2022-12-13T12:25:00.003-08:00

12/13/2022

When we send texts, make calls, answer emails, etc.

We think what a miniscule interaction it is to us and the person on the other end of the line.

The simple error of a calling someone the wrong name, is not simple.

The assumption that this wrong name doesn't hold so many emotions, good bad and ugly.

I have always been lucky enough to be happy with my name.

I am lucky enough to be happy with the gender I was assigned at birth.

I am lucky enough to be in a safe relationship.

I am lucky enough.

Today, I asked someone if they wanted any information about a product my company is offering to current and previous customers. Simple customer service, right?

The person at the other end of the simple text I sent, was covered with emotions of trauma and experiences I will never know or understand. I would've never known. I am so glad they addressed it. I was speaking to someone and addressing them by their abusers name. I would've never known.

This customer had to take it upon themselves, to address trauma from years ago, just for something as simple as a sales cold call and text. This situation was supposed to be dealt with a year or so ago. I saw NOTHING in the notes. NOTHING on salesforce.

My job title is CUSTOMER EXPERIENCE SPECIALIST. I felt awful. So, I called the branch manager where this original contract was signed, I called the VP of operations, I made sure the entire account from front to back and in between was updated in BOLD letters. The abuser does not exist in my books, in the companies books, and the survivor is the ONLY proud owner of a home with a transferred warranty.

Finally.

Then the customer had the nerve to ask me about the product I was offering in the original conversation.

Sometimes, its more than a roof.

Process…

2022-03-29T19:54:00.003-07:00

I have to process what happened since everything was going right and then crashed, burned, and has to be rebuilt.

We could start from the very beginning but I would never finish. Let’s start from what’s fresh in the brains trauma factory.

I spent many days in the hospital last month surviving, trying to do everything in my power to stay alive. I have friends, family, and my husband and children who need me. I saw all of those people as a purpose to fight. They are worthy of winning the hardest battles. The only person I was actually saving, was myself. I didn’t think about that person. The one I wake up with every day, the only person that knows me and what I’m thinking and feeling in the darkest depths of my soul. I have to survive so I can learn to live, live with myself. Love myself, continue to work on myself. Evolve myself, if I can do that, I’m teaching those I love and survey for how to do the same. So? I wrote down 4 words..

Process. Create. Save. Learn.

I will use these words as affirmations to remember what I need to do for myself; to love others the most. Because I do. I love you all the most.

WE WERE ON A BREAK.

2022-01-31T18:19:00.000-08:00

Hi. Welcome back, lets pick up from where we last left off.

The timeline leading here is ummm... a lot of dumpster fires...

/but here we are.

IT'S FINE.

a little update on the good bad and UGLY-2022.

I had a boy named George Wolfgang. He is 5 and ginger.

I have a kid named Ace, they are 10 and my life guide.

Mary is a freshman at Ohio State majoring in Psychology and dating a lil sailor.

Jane, my baby jane is 15, desperate to drive a manual shift car, she has MS, had brain surgery and is so smart.

Donald Trump was the president.

We are 2 years deep in a global pandemic.

I have lost countless people I love figuratively and literally.

My family lost everything in a fire on Mothers day 2021.

I am recovering from Covid pneumonia and have 5 nodules on my lungs. TBD

But, I found myself again. Lets call her Willow. She's my inner child and my heart.

Get ready, because here I come.

Phoenix

2015-04-14T14:35:00.000-07:00

phoe·nix

ˈfēniks/

noun

(in classical mythology) a unique bird that lived for five or six centuries in the Arabian desert, after this time burning itself on a funeral pyre and rising from the ashes with renewed youth to live through another cycle.
- a person or thing regarded as uniquely remarkable in some respect.
**copied and pasted from Google**

Last Thursday, Mary was accepted to Phoenix Middle School!! The second definition of the word Phoenix describes her perfectly and when I wrote about her on the application to the school, I used the same words to describe her but I never knew she was a Phoenix. She is definitely going to the right Middle School!!

Our family is so proud of her and looking forward to her experiences.

Pollyanna syndrome

2015-04-09T10:33:00.001-07:00

My mom has always said she likes to find the good in people, similar to Pollyanna. Whether she likes it or not, it's not always a good quality to have. She always told me I wear my heart on my sleeve, another quality that isn't always a good one. Seems pretty negative to disagree with her wanting to find the good or people or loving everyone regardless of their actions but let me finish.

She recently learned that it is sometimes hard or impossible to find the good in people, including the ones she loves...like ALOT.

She and a few others recently dealt with a pretty heavy situation involving people they love and the outcome wasn't pretty. It was quite ugly! Not the first time my family has dealt with some ugly situations but it affected someone that has NEVER put herself first and always done what is right regardless of the situation.

Back to my point I am trying to make..when someone lives their life always finding the good and overlooking the truth behind the good..it can make for a nasty realization that some people are NOT good. Sad fact at 59, considering this person she has always tried to find the good in has always been the person my mom finally sees, in her truest form.

On that note, I wasn't going to blog but she is pretty heartbroken and as a daughter, I owe her this post. I'm not sure if my mom or the others will ever find a solution to this situation but thankfully we have something else to find the good in..Christ and he is ALWAYS good even at OUR worst.

**To my mom, thank you for teaching me to find the good in people and to wear my heart on my sleeve because I know that whenever I come across a REALLY good person, I hold them even closer to my heart or sleeve as you call it.

**To my aunt Teresa, thank you for being you because quite honestly, we need more of YOU in the world and I don't think you realize what a treasure you are in my life and everyone else's life you touch on a daily basis.

3rd grade is tough

2015-03-20T12:21:00.003-07:00

I'm totally biased but Jane is absolutely the coolest kid around and when she comes home crying about not having many friends, it breaks my heart in to pieces. She held herself together until she saw me and the tears poured down her face. She recently became friends with a little girl because the little girl is teased and didn't have any friends either.

Third grade has been tough on Jane and dealing with her own insecurities and self confidence makes having friends very important because she wants to feel part of a group or included.

Jane asked me to have lunch with her at school yesterday. It meant the world to me that she wanted to acknowledge me at school and as difficult as it was to plan around having a sick kid at home and a needy three year old, I knew I needed to make the time for her. I'm so glad I made it to lunch because I saw a little glimpse of what she goes through everyday. I noticed her anxiety as soon as we walked into the lunch room.

She walks into lunch very anxious because finding a table is impossible when you have no one to sit with other than the little girl who is teased by the other girls. So once we paced the room a few times she finally sat down at an empty table. I looked around and noticed she was very nervous. I made a comment to her about how glad I was that we got the table to ourselves so she wouldn't feel so bad about not having a lot of friends to sit with. We started eating and her friend was sharing Oreos with a girl at another table. Then another little girl got upset because she wants some Oreos too. Jane whispered to me that those girls tease her friend a lot and so she only shares with the nice girl at the table. I smiled and pretended it wasn't a big deal that her friend feels bad about herself also because of the teasing from the other table. We spent time talking about her day and she told me things that had happened and it turns out she is being teased herself by some girls. I knew she was having troubles but she never opened up like she did at lunch yesterday. I hung out with her as long as she needed me and eventually she and her friend were the only third graders left in the lunch room. They finally decided to play outside at recess but I knew Jane was hesitant to even go outside and play. So, I stayed with her for a bit longer while she lingered in the hall looking at pictures and she eventually went out to recess.

I went home and cried a lot.

So, when Jane got off the bus today and was upset again, I knew things were not getting better but worse. She wants to have friends and even wanted to plan a party so maybe people would want to be her friend. I agreed to it and after the bus fiasco today, she wasn't in the party planning mood.

Being a parent is tough. Seeing your child suffer and not being able to jump in and fix it, is the pits. I see this beautiful soul trying to be a friend to anyone and everyone, especially the ones who need it most. Putting them first and making every effort to be a good friend. I am so grateful she has plans this evening because otherwise the bus issue would have been more difficult to get through. Even with the plans, she still wanted to be included so badly and we both knew that it was impossible.

Say an extra prayer for my sweet Jane because her heart is hurting far worse than mine that is crumbling as I write this.
**Many thanks to the 2 friends she has for always being a great friend and mending her heart the best they can**

Perspective

2014-11-18T07:25:00.001-08:00

When I was a little philly, I day dreamed about being an adult and married with a cute cape cod and some really cute kids living in it. I always thought I would have a really trendy career and my husband would have a 9-5 gig.

I don't have the trendy career, I am a proud stay at home mom and my husband has a trendy bar tending job and drives for UBER and LYFT on the side. I have the cute cape cod and the cute kids. I am definitely blessed.

Here's the thing!

I came from a broken home. A lot of kids come from broken homes. I made a bunch of mistakes as a young person, I still make the occasional bad choice as an adult. I do however fix them or deal with them. No excuses! Why can't others realize this too? I always knew life wasn't going to be easy, people who seem to have everything didn't get to that point because of hand outs or some one always taking the blame/fall for them. They still have to wake up, figure out how to get where they want to be or continue on the path they chose to get where they are now.

I'm far from perfect, my husband might disagree with that but he knows it and I know he isn't perfect. We have tough days, a lot of them, and are still learning how to get through them. But we don't just give up and expect it to be fixed for us. We occasionally accept defeat and move on but make sure the outcome will not effect our children or the ones we love. We believe that no matter how hard the job is, or how much we hate it, we have to do it. As parents, we have not only our lives to look out for but the lives we created and are blessed to see everyday we wake up. Everyone has a choice to wake up and make something good happen or the opposite. What I don't understand is how someone wakes up and chooses to make the wrong one or atleast doesn't try to make the right one and expects the outcome of the wrong choice to be fixed for them. I will help my kids up when they fall, but that's because they are kids. I will teach them how to fix it so it won't happen in the future. When my children are adults, I hope they know that when things get tough, I will help but I won't take responsibility for their actions and won't fix it for them because while they were growing they were taught how to fix it. I'm sorry if makes me a mean mom but I want to see my kids grow and become self sufficient adults. That's my job!

All in all, find the right path. Take it and even if it seems like the right path is more difficult or never ending, just keep swimming! The path wasn't made to be easy!

*unless it's a clock, throw it away and buy a new one*

Bedtime stories with Adeline

2014-09-28T21:01:00.001-07:00

Tonight we read several books at bedtime. Typically we start with a new book and end up reading her favorites over and over again until she fell asleep.

Jane usually falls asleep after the first few pages of the first book but Adeline wants to hear every last word.

Our books tonight..

Mommy? A pop up scary story book

Sesame Street fairytale ABC's

Three Bears Halloween

Trick or Treat shapes

The Gingerbread Man

Just go to bed

Runaway Bunny

Good night moon

I absolutely love reading to my kids, I love that they look forward to it every night and when I'm not feeling well, they love having daddy read the books!

But tonight was different.

Adeline is smart, really smart. I don't typically brag but this seems worthy of it.

She is only 3 and throughout all of the books tonight she was able to tell me what each shape was, find the shapes by herself, find common themes, express how the book made her feel and even correctly answer basic reading comprehension questions I would ask her.

Let me share some worthy examples..

While reading the Sesame Street book she noticed the gingerbread man running away on one of the pages. When I started the gingerbread man book she remembered the page from the precious book. (Common themes)

At the end of the gingerbread man book she expressed without being coaxed that she was sad because the fox didn't give the gingerbread back to the little boy and ate it all by himself. She also correctly answered comprehension questions I would ask, what do you think will happen to the bear? (He will chase the gingerbread man) Will he catch the gingerbread man? (He will have to rest too but maybe he will catch him)

At the end of the book, just go to bed, she told me she hated that book because she didn't want to go to bed like the critter.

Last but not least, we read the runaway bunny and goodnight moon. She always knew while reading the bunny book that the mommy would find him and hugged me because I told her I'm always there for her too. Then while reading goodnight moon, her eyes got so big when she noticed the mommy bunny and little bunny were the same ones from the other bunny book. She also noticed the cow jumping over the moon like we read in the Sesame Street book. She also noticed the page in goodnight moon with a picture on the wall from the runaway bunny book.

I could keep going about her intelligence and every little thing she did while reading tonight. It just fascinates me! I am so proud to be her mommy!!

End note: I am always so proud of Mary and Jane too!! I'm just thankful to God he chose me to be their mommies!

Actions and words speak at about the same tone.

2014-01-25T23:26:00.001-08:00

Running as fast and far away as I can just to feel like a deer in head lights again.

Another subtle reminder of what once was without hesitation or consideration of my feelings then and even now.

I always look for the best in someone especially when they are at their worst. I have no idea what is really going on unless I ask. I cannot judge a person based on their actions alone.

Actions speak louder than words...

But words are incredibly powerful.

I hope one day to be remembered as the person I have spent my entire life striving to become, the person I am now. Or that people will try and understand why I made/make some of the mistakes or choices.

I guess I am going about it all wrong. I should remind people more often of the negative things they did once upon a time. But I won't.

I'm an open book and will tell you my story, if you ever care to ask.

End of the school year, beginning of Summer Vacation!

2013-05-30T16:13:00.001-07:00

So much has changed this year. I changed my eating habits or in other words lifestyle change for the better. I have at this point lost 35+lbs and am so happy with myself! I have cheated a lot but my over indulging is a thing of the past. I am so thankful for the support from all of my friends and family and all the compliments as well! I am finally getting comfortable in my skin.

I also recently started Copaxone. A daily shot for MS that I never thought I'd be able to do! I had to stop the Gilenya because of some side effects that occurred. So, I stopped the medicine and 2 weeks later I was hospitalized for a relapse. It was a pretty depressing experience and really really don't want it to happen again! Thankfully the Copaxone has been a wonder drug at this point.

A lot has changed with my girls too!

Mary turned 10, double digits?!!! I am still adjusting to that and we recently started a new journey together!! She is becoming such a beautiful and intelligent young lady and it scares me to think that she is really growing up! She is definitely not my little girl anymore :( She will always be my baby but I can't believe her maturity level and looks in general. She is questioning everything and trying so many new things!

Jane is finally trying to express her self and it is a tough battle for her but she is tough and will get through it :) She is so sweet and getting so big! She wasn't reading much at the beginning of the year and by the end she received an award for reading over 600 books!! I am blown away by her dedication, proud mama moment for sure!

Adeline turned 2 and is so smart!! She loves to swing, dance and watch Umizoomi!! She is such a ham and so different from Mary and Jane. Such a unique little sour patch kid. We gave her the nickname because like the candy, first she is sour then she is sweet.

Now we have reached the end of the year and I am desperately begging for time to slow down! I am so excited to spend the summer with the kids and watch them grow and our relationships to get stronger!

Here's to a new beginning and a bittersweet ending!

Schools out for Summer!!

Nescafé Momento Review

2013-02-25T20:17:00.001-08:00

I was so excited to receive my first Buzz Campaign. A friend on Facebook has blogged a few times about her Buzz Campaigns and that's how I found out about it.

So, here it goes, My first review!!!!

I drink coffee every morning. My hubby knows how to make me the perfect cup. But I love trying new flavors and don't mind drinking "instant" because he can make any cup of coffee taste good. When we go camping and use coffee packets similar to tea, he can make that taste delicious, so finding something ready to go and makes a flavor filled coffee drink is music to my ears!! So, I turned on my electric teapot and followed the directions on the packet. It read, use HOT water but not boiling. Ok, done! Time to drink my Nescafé Momento mocha :) It tasted really good but not what I had hoped for. It definitely didn't satisfy me. I had to make a lot of coffee after just because it just wasn't hitting the spot.
The following day I tried the caramel macchiato flavor and it was a little better but still not what I was hoping for :(
The last flavor to try was cappuccino and it tasted better than the first two by a long shot. By far the best!!
But, I was still not satisfied.

I thought about why I didn't like the first two as much as the cappuccino and came to the conclusion that I don't like sweet anything in the morning and had a cup of each flavor in the afternoon and was pleasantly surprised at how much I liked them after a meal. I am definitely a fan now!
As for the cappuccino, it just isn't the cup of coffee I desire to drink in the morning, it doesn't help me wake up and I just think I need to stick to simple drinks in the morning and leave to fancy for traveling and afternoon pick me ups!!
So if you are looking for a quick sweet pick me up in the afternoon or something sweet and tasty, make a cup of Nescafé Momento and enjoy!

AVON

2013-02-05T22:33:00.001-08:00

At the beginning of 2013, I decided to take the opportunity and join Avon as an indepedent sales rep for extra money. Ryan and I loved the idea of me being home with the kids and still finding time to do something I enjoy and also bring in some extra money. I looked at a lot of different companies and felt like Avon was the perfect fit for me and my family.

Well, it turns out, I was right and I love what I am doing! I thought this would be a part-time gig and it has turned into my very own business. I achieved leadership within my first 2 weeks! I have more and more customers coming to my online store everyday! It is all I think about. Everywhere I go, I think about giving someone a catalog or telling them about the opportunity Avon can give them. They really want you to succeed and they help you make it possible. It is such an empowering company and the more I get involved and indulge in learning more about the company as whole, I fall a little more in love. Not to mention the fact that I love the makeup, clothes, jewelry, fragrances, AND different Avon brands..like MARK, getting a discount on one of my favorite brands is just one of the perks! But the bonds that have
begun in just a few weeks are worth it alone. I have a whole new group of friends that I hope to have for a very long time.

Oh yea, here is a link to my online store, can't forget that ;)

youravon.com/allisonenglish

*All of my info is on my website in case you are interested in joining Avon as well. You will not regret it!!*

Strawberry Blueberry Smoothie

2013-01-22T19:04:00.001-08:00

Jane wanted to choose dessert tonight and I was totally okay with it..especially because she finished her dinner without any complaints! I asked her what she wanted to have, expecting her to say cotton candy or anything else that would have gave her a sugar high an hour before bed.

NOPE, SHE SAID A SMOOTHIE, Say What?!!

So we went to the kitchen, I let her pick all of the ingredients

and she came up with the best smoothie I have ever tasted!!

I told her I wanted to post the recipe on my blog and on Pinterest because it was that good!

So here it is!

Jane's Strawberry Blueberry Smoothie

You will need:

1 tablespoon honey

2 cups Greek Goddess Strawberry Honey yogurt (best yogurt on the planet)

8 oz frozen strawberries

2 cups blueberries

1 whole banana

2 whole kiwi

Directions:

Slice the banana and kiwi, throw everything in the blender and blend to your favorite consistency and enjoy!!

You will LOVE it!

**To make it extra special, add a lime to the side of your fancy cup

and add some extra sliced banana if you have any to the smoothie**

Amazing right?!

Mary and Jane holding their fancy cup smoothies

too little for too long

2012-12-11T10:42:00.000-08:00

Haven't blogged in what feels like forever.

Lots of happenings.

Late August or early September, I decided to change my lifestyle by becoming Gluten Free. It was a very difficult transition but the results have been completely worth it. I still have the occasional loss of will power and take a bite of Kraft Mac and cheese or sometimes I complete forget I am eating something filled with Gluten and stop because I know I am going to pay for it later on. I will still on occasion eat pizza when it is offered but most of the time I turn it down. All in all, it is now just a way of life. The kids have even embraced it and will ask if the food we are eating has Gluten or not. Most times they are pleasantly surprised at how much they like the dish I have made. Even my most picky eater, Jane loves loves loves GF Mac and Cheese.

*GF=gluten free*

A little background to the decision.

While most of you know, I have MS. This past spring I was hospitalized and given mass amounts of steriods through IV for a few days. I gained a lot of weight. I weighed more than I had ever weighed, even when I was 9 months pregnant. I was miserable, grumpy, and tired all the time. I felt sick 24/7. It was just awful. I talked to my family dr and she put me on an anti-depressant. I talked to my nuerologist and he put me on anti-fatigue medicine. Neither of them asked me about my diet or offered any natural option. I am not trying to talk badly about either of them because I would and could never ask for better health professionals but after listening to my husband always talk about supplements and healthy eating habits and natural ways to a healthy lifestyle, I started to really think about it. Then my best friend who currently lives in Japan told me about how she was trying to be GF and the benefits of it especially since I have Ms and how it is such a great option for me. I decided to give it a try.

Current Status.

LOVE being Gluten Free, I do not think I could ever ever ever go back. I still take the meds the dr prescribed me because I know the damage the last relapse did to my body. But, I feel great and not to toot my own horn, I look great too! I went from 150 lbs in August, I now weigh 127 lbs!!! I am so close to the goal weight I have desperately tried to reach for almost 2 years. Who knew I had so much crap just begging to be released from my body. I am not 100% GF all the time but I am about 95% of the time. That says alot for me especially during the holidays. Halloween candy, Thanksgiving Dinner, Christmas cookies and everything else delicious about Christmas is a struggle but I have managed to try my hardest to not give in to temptation.

* I also have my amazing families who support the decision also*

They have been behind me all the way because they know how much being healthy means to me and to my husband. So here's to a new journey and if you are struggling with weight, health, or just want to try something new I highly recommend going GF. Your body will LOVE you for it!

Patience is a virtue. See below.

2012-08-16T20:03:00.001-07:00

Hehe

2012-08-16T12:29:00.001-07:00

"Repinning" for a Purpose

2012-08-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

My family is going through a million different changes this year and one of them is living on one income. It is a hard ship to sail but I see the lighthouse at the end of the ocean. When I really started "repinning" for a purpose I just knew it was going to help in a plethora of ways. So, floating along Pinterest this summer I found countless amazing ideas, recipes, DIY, fashion tips, hair do's and everything else a person could ever dream of wanting to do or need to do. I thought I would start blogging on the ones that have changed my life ever so much. In no particular order, here we go!!

1. HOMEMADE LAUNDRY DETERGENT. Yes, its true and I cannot believe how drastic my grocery bill is when I don't by detergent anymore. I am making the powder version she has on her blog because I don't have anything to put the liquid detergent in yet but I will say that the powder is lasting forever and doesn't leave any residue at all. AMAZING!!

http://www.onegoodthingbyjillee.com/2011/07/brand-name-laundry-detergents-last.html

2. HOME MADE DISHWASHER DETERGENT. I knew there was an alternative to buying dish washing detergent floating on Pinterest somewhere. Alas, one fine day I found this. Again, my grocery bill is much much kinder these days. Seriously, I think my husband and I calculated 3 cents a load. You cannot beat that anywhere. So easy to make too!!!!

http://www.buildingitonpennies.com/2012/05/saving-pennies-dollars-in-this-case.html

3. SHAVING. I don't know if any of you have extra sensitive legs/arm pits that always get dry even after applying a bottle of lotion a day after shaving and get big red bumps from just about anything that comes in contact with them. Ok, maybe you don't. Well, stumbling upon a picture of a girl shaving her legs I decided to see what this new trick was that someone had to share on their blog. Turns out, the tip is number 14 on her blog post and reccomends using CONDITIONER to shave with rather than shaving cream. Maybe I am slow or something but I would've never thought of this in a gazillion years. So, before vacation last week I decided to ditch the cream and condition my hair while shaving my legs. Amazing, I wish you could've felt my legs. I made my husband, mom, and every other person I came in contact with feel my legs.

I am so excited to find a product that doesn't make me break out and saves me money. WIN!

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/6qQ7vB/www.aimlessdirection.com/2008/17-tips-to-make-your-life-easier/

4. HOT CORN DIP!! I think this is one of the first recipes I tried on Pinterest. This is beyond amazing and so easy to make and change it to your liking. So, for football fans, hockey fans, delicious food fans please make this. Mine did not turn out as pretty but who cares.

My kids still ask for me to make this! Enjoy.

http://ginamarieskitchen.com/2010/10/28/hot-corn-dip-2/

5. MELTED CRAYON ART. One of the most difficult things for me on a daily basis is well first finding a time to update my blog and two, finding activities that cost nothing or nearly nothing for my girls to do and not argue about. This was the most fun we had for free and made something beautiful to hang on the wall. Word of advice, Google "melted crayon art" to see all of the creative ways to do it. Wish we would've but I love ours just as much!

http://lindseydanielladidit.blogspot.com/2011/09/melted-crayon-art.html

6. RAINBOW FRUIT SKEWERS. Easy healthy and fun. We love rainbows and anything to make my kids eat natures candy is fine by me!

http://backonpointe.tumblr.com/post/22589374613/hellogorgeousgirl-tiny-to-toned-please-give

7. STUFFED ANIMAL STORAGE. Saw a picture on Pinterest, didn't follow the link. It was that easy just looking at the picture. Take a bean bag chair with out stuffing and fill with stuffed animals. Done. My alternative, we used a body pillow cover. I will post it to my blog for you to see as well as the crayon art and everything else I have listed.

http://www.cometogetherkids.com/2012/07/stuffed-animal-storage-solution.html

That's all for now. Keep following me here at my blog so you can see some of my creations and find me on Pinterest too! Thanks to all the bloggers out there who are helping my family out during this time in our lives. God Bless.

Always.

2012-08-16T08:35:00.001-07:00

Found this picture on Facebook, describes me to a tee :)

Wind Power

2012-08-15T13:23:00.001-07:00

Get with the program people..and these windmills don't require you to carry them along to power anything. I asked a woman in the grocery store we stopped at what all of them powered, there were hundreds and she said they powered thousands of homes in New York and if you read the sign at the rest stop the one in the corn field and a few more could power 70,000 homes!! Can you imagine all the money we could save and jobs this could create!

end of summer bummer.

2012-08-11T16:26:00.002-07:00

The family and I finished our last week with Shawn and our last real week of summer out of town! We went to my aunts house in Michigan and my favorite city in the world..Chicago <3 It was so nice to get away and just relax at the beach and tour a city that I could live in and almost became a bum in one winter night ;) I loved not having a schedule and staying in one of my favorite Hilton brand of hotels for next to nothing because of my husbands awesome career move! Hilton Garden Inn Magnificent Mile I posted the pics on Facebook so take a peek!

So, its the end of summer. On Tuesday that girls and I will find out who their teachers are and schedule our conferences for the first day. I feel like my life is constantly changing and too quickly. From my recent hair changes (I have bangs and I love them) to my oldest child starting fourth grade. ugh My heart breaks just thinking about it. This week is going to be filled with a lot of getting back to early bed times and even earlier mornings and making sure they are completely organized for the first day of school and new school year. Maybe I will get around to painting the desk and putting the new knobs on it so they will have a quiet spot to study. I hate to see one of my favorite summers yet come to a close but I am so excited for fall and winter and everything to come this year. A long time ago I felt like moving forward was a scary thought but now I look forward to what God has in store for my family. Did I forget to mention that Mary is a christian!!! It was such a wonderful event and something I always dream about for all of my children but never felt such joy then when it actually happened to one of them. I still get emotional just thinking about her coming out of the water feeling brand new. Let's finish on a high note and thank God for everything he has given us so far and what he will give to us in the future. Amen and God speed my lovely followers. I pray that all of you enjoy your blessings now and in the future!!!

Sweet Adeline!!!

2012-07-06T06:44:00.000-07:00

So, most of my updates on Facebook recently involve mishaps on my phone or in my life due to my 15 month old, Adeline. So, I thought I would share them with my fellow blog followers. I haven't blogged in a while because summertime is fun time. And on a side note, I am feeling much better after my hospital stay in May.

I started realizing Adeline was really good at using my IPhone when she bought her first Groupon for a Sushi making class that cost $48.00 after my Groupon bucks went through. Sneaky little sushi loving girl! I had no idea until I checked my email and noticed the heading, "Thanks for your purchase!" from Groupon. UGHHH, I immediately called Groupon and they refunded my money. phew :)

I swore from that day forward Addy would NEVER touch my phone again.

A week later, she threw it in the tub.

The next thing I noticed she could do was change my sounds. It was a few days ago that I realized she wasn't just playing but changing my tones. I seriously thought I was losing it on the fourth of July when I kept hearing what I thought was a train. Seriously, no tracks near by. Then I got a few texts at once and realized the train in my head was actually my text sound. She changed my text tone. I haven't changed it back because it actually amuses me and annoys my family. The sound is actually called, "Suspense." haha

So, today I was checking out Blogger and noticed 2 new entries before I created this one. One was in June and one was from this morning. I already knew she turned my alarm off and I missed an appointment but I had no idea she wanted to be a blogger too.

Well, long story short. She really should not touch my phone EVER. We will see how long that lasts!
Happy Friday folks.

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June 5, 2012

2012-06-05T18:25:00.001-07:00

So, do any of you ever have one of those weeks where you just want to scream and cry like a baby..moody and irritated for no reason at all and want to run away just to sleep for 48 hours straight??... Yea, that sums up my week so far and its only Tuesday!!! After being released from the hospital, I felt super.. I assume the steriods had a lot to do with it but everything felt great! I had energy and was on top of my game! Now I feel like I'm falling apart and almost getting depressed. I'm not typically, I guess you could call it manic, but I am an emotional wreck!! Ahh, sorry about my rant.
I wish things would go back to normal, like 100% normal, every aspect of my life. Am Iosing it?!

MS the whole story.

2012-05-23T06:28:00.001-07:00

Well as most of you know by now I was admitted into Riverside last night for MS excasperations(spelling error) and because my brain MRI showed atleast 6 new lesions.

Alot of you have asked about what all of this means and instead of becoming a broken record I thought I could share my current story via my awesome blog:

ok here it goes..

I was diagnosed with MS 3 years ago. I had numbness and tingling on my right side that traveled from my hand to my waist. I dealt with that from late winter and started treatment in early spring. My nuerologist considered what I had "presumed MS" because it was the only issue I had ever experienced. 3 years later..here I am, it's official, I have had multiple excasperations. So my diagnosis should change.

here's the latest. Last Tuesday, I starting to feel very shaky and weak. I couldn't hold anything as little as a pen in my left hand. I honestly wasn't thinking it was MS. It got worse and my left arm started to tingle and shooting pain started traveling down my left leg. At that point, I knew. MS was working hard on me. I didn't know what to do, all I wanted to do was cry but I knew I could keep on moving and needed to keep the tears to myself. I pretended to feel a little better but I knew I was getting more numb. Last Friday I knew I was completely numb on both sides, but the left was much worse. I was so thankful my family dr was able to get me in on Monday. I wished I could be honest with myself and my dr's and say, I needed help then, I just couldn't. My kids and my husband needed me and I wouldn't allow MS win this time. Well, come Monday my family Dr knew I was worse than I was letting on. I couldn't use my left side to do anything. So he scheduled the brain MRI and Tuesday afternoon at 2pm I went and had my MRI, I left the procedure at 330. At 345, I was buying trash bags at CVS and got a call from te doctor. She always has to give me the bad news. She said the initial read on my MRI showed 6 new lesions. She asked me how I was feeling and every little emotion and feeling bursted out..all in the middle of the store. She said she would call my nuerologist and see if they wanted me admitted in the hospital tonight or tomorrow..I then sat on the floor and cried..paid for my items and left. Drove to my moms which is 5 minutes away and got the call that I was being admitted that night and would get a call when my bed was ready. I got the call at 430 and Here I am. They started my meds while I slept. I woke up at 4 this morning with pain in my legs, and had the nurse assist me to the bathroom. Around 7am, I woke up for breakfast and had more feeling on my left side. Nothing significant, but at this point I'm grabbing onto anything.

A few minutes ago a few attending and a student came in to do the typical tests. Turns out I can't walk right now. sad face.
Most likely will be here a few more days..but still praying to leave today. BUT as I have said since this started last Tuesday, this is a blessing in disguise. There is finally talk of a long term medicine.
Prayers and visits as per requested on facebook.