tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-98705932013-08-27T14:23:10.475-07:00SykoPoetry has Moved to http://blog.joshed.infoJoshua Shearnoreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-42848007637381232082009-11-01T11:54:00.001-07:002009-11-01T20:07:18.200-07:00Written while in the air somewhere over eastern California or western Arizona .<br /><br />San Francisco<br />a beautiful city<br />too early to leave<br />feels like I Just got here<br />as I head home<br />it is clear<br />that I can help others<br />through my experience<br />education and compassion<br />abound around here.<br /><br />JIS 2009 <br /><div_prefs id="div_prefs"></div_prefs>Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-91516952156610924502008-12-21T23:54:00.000-07:002008-12-21T23:55:37.449-07:00I am falling for you.<br />It's happening so fast.<br />I try to go slow.<br />To remember the past.<br /><br />I like to think that.<br />I'm smarter than this.<br />But love doesn't follow.<br />The same rules as logic.<br /><br />I fall off my feet.<br />I'm swept off my heels.<br />I've obsessed with the thought.<br />How do I feel?<br /><br />My major hope.<br />Is to give this to you.<br />And have you respond.<br />I love you too.<br /> JIS 12/21/2008Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-88305539730434222292008-12-21T23:53:00.000-07:002008-12-21T23:54:21.643-07:00the way i feel<br />i just dont know<br />i want to die know<br />just take my soul<br />i cannot live now<br />i'm lost again<br />lost in you<br />until the end<br />i repeat the same lines<br />i use cliches<br />but i have fallen again<br />it feels so nice<br />you dont know what you're missing<br />until you tryJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-17893308015465940662008-12-21T23:51:00.000-07:002008-12-21T23:53:12.087-07:00does she love me?<br />the way she giggles when i make stupid jokes<br /><br />does she love me?<br />the way she looks at me<br /><br />does she love me?<br />the way she stares into my eyes<br /><br />does she hate me?<br />the way she avoids me<br /><br />does she hate me?<br />the way she responds to them, but not me<br /><br />does she hate me?<br />the way she ignores the deep stuff<br /><br />does she love me?<br />the way she strokes my hair<br /><br />does she love me?<br />the way she touches me<br /><br />does she love me?<br />or does she hate me?Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-7276124542041309162008-12-21T23:50:00.000-07:002008-12-21T23:51:30.840-07:00sitting, waiting, yearning, thinking<br />emotion, devotion, creation, elation<br />loving, caring, giving, feeling<br /><br />the process of life<br />it takes us there<br />we get on with it<br />we show how we care<br /><br />i just want to be with her<br />i just want to hold her<br />i just want to be around her<br />i've got so much to share<br /><br />i hold back<br />don't want to scare her<br />she thinks something<br />something is wrong<br />but i cannot scare her<br />so i let her go along<br /><br />she has so much going on<br />i can't seem to stay involved<br />the only problem i'm having is<br />unrequited love.Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-81763627813663424372008-12-21T23:49:00.001-07:002008-12-21T23:49:43.448-07:00Is she looking for the same things as me?<br />will she? wont she? when will she get here?<br />I don't know what is wrong with me again<br />I don't know why i obsess over these things<br />I don't know where I'm going again<br />but as long as she's with me it'll be alright in the end<br />I miss her when she's not around, i want to know what's up<br />I lay here with a hole in me, i feel all used and torn<br />I cannot get enough of her, no matter what is done<br />why does it always go down the same way when i try,<br />I lose them from obsessing over, of all things, time.<br /><br />JIS 12/21/08Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-32160463522977564262008-12-09T01:35:00.002-07:002008-12-21T19:12:42.490-07:00Everybody's in their own head,<br />everybody's got their own thoughts,<br />everybody with their own ambitions and their own dreams<br />dont know what it means<br />don't know what i thought<br />but just when you get cought up<br />things change and open up<br />horizons brighter and smiles wider<br />options arranging, contemplating<br />we all flow along in the same sea<br />each with our own currents<br />fighting against them<br />until we crash into each other<br />some enjoy it, some prevail<br />some are scared and some are frail<br />why would we let life get old<br />when nothings new unless you make it yours<br />because the tale has been told.<br /><br />JIS 12/09/08Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-73113501696653832522008-11-03T19:04:00.000-07:002008-12-21T19:06:17.659-07:00It's all a competition, it's all just a rouse, it's all set up so i always fucking lose.<br />It's a lost cause, there's no end in sight, it's going nowhere, just call it a night.<br />The path that i choose, dark and forgotten, untrusted; despised, but we all pay our dues.<br />Time waits for no man, no man controls me, i take my reigns back, take hold of my destiny.<br /><br />holdin up, hold it in, ghostin it, rolled it up, smoked it up, all out, time to roll<br />worldwide underground, smokin with the kings, potluck, the hill, and the junkeez<br />down with the clown, with the krown, with em all, the junkeez army, and the bleste nation<br />waitin for the day that i blow up on these fools<br />prove to these mother fuckers who they've been holding down so long<br />time can tell you fear the, well, upcoming destruction of your morals, your plurals, you, your vowels, i grabbed em, stopped your bowels, upchuck your vocabulary, you got none at all, it's fuckin scary, empty brain without thought, who'da thunkit, like skunk hit, lost in thought, bought on sale at the walmart, you come at me? oh, no, don't start, please oh please, it's a bitch with a lease on life that's about to run out, ive been around the block too many times to fuck with a little schmuck who cannot enunciate or even pronounce a word worth their life, you act like you're grand, but it's just part of the master plan, to let you all burn while you think you have learned, the secret to life, but, all the while it all ends in strife<br />(ha ha ha ha ha)Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com65tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1149856161851382262006-06-09T05:29:00.000-07:002006-06-09T05:29:21.866-07:00i wasnt there for her<br />and now she is lost<br />i didnt hold her tight<br />and now i am lost<br /><br />i'm breaking... away<br />i'm falling... apart<br />i'm screaming... inside<br />i'm dying... for you<br /><br />i didn't cherish you<br />you found someone new<br />i didn't show you my love<br />so now you've had enough<br />i'm lost without you<br />broken inside<br />i'm dead without you<br />my soul can't survive<br />i can't live on (not this time)<br /><br />it took all i had<br />now it's the end<br />she cares for him now<br />who cares if i'm dead<br /><br />December 29, 2005 4:35 AM<br />JISJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1149856340500466662005-08-23T20:47:00.000-07:002006-06-09T05:32:20.500-07:00without her around<br />I feel empty at heart<br />without her at home<br />I could just fall apart<br />I miss her cute smile<br />her bluntness in words<br />to not have her here<br />I feel pierced by a sword<br />the fear that I have<br />building to tears<br />I hope that we last<br />loss is my fear<br /><br /><br />JIS 2005Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1110164314011386332005-03-06T16:00:00.000-07:002005-03-06T19:58:34.013-07:00i let my heart out<br />that was my mistake<br />i left it all open<br />there for you to take<br />there for you to break<br /><br />i lose it all now<br />where do i go?<br />why does this happen<br />why don't i regret it<br />why don't i forget it<br /><br />so this is it<br />my one goodbye<br />the time we had<br />though very brief<br />has ended now<br />so you are freeJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1108420040126742952005-02-14T14:14:00.000-07:002005-02-14T15:27:20.126-07:00Sinking into your world<br />Don't want you to go<br />Just want you here with me<br />Just want you to know<br />This could be it<br />The search could be done<br />I hope it can last<br />I hope it's the one<br />Searching through life<br />For the right one to find<br />Be we never know<br />When we may go blind<br />When we're not looking<br />Is when we are caught<br />and it finds us offguard<br />It reminds of the scars<br />It guides us so far.Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1108420110525001312005-02-10T01:51:00.000-07:002005-02-14T15:28:30.526-07:00the line is so fine<br />between obsession and sweetness<br />you can go out of your mind<br />trying to be sweet<br />come off obsessed<br />and you get thrown away<br />she gets stolen away<br />the moment's goin to stay<br /><br />the time is so short<br />between coming and going<br />you lose yourself there<br />wanting to be free<br />we're all oppressed<br />and we go down today<br />we all drown today<br />we've all gone this way<br /><br />the wait is so long<br />for her to decide<br />what she wants from life<br />thinking of the past<br />looking to the future<br />we are all done<br />what happened to the fun<br />just screw it all and run<br /><br />2005 J.I.S.Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1108082468949174512005-02-01T01:35:00.000-07:002005-02-10T17:41:08.950-07:0002/01/05 1:35AM <br /> <br />you sit here by side <br />i look into your eyes <br />you turn away from me <br />you run away from me <br /> <br />i sit here by myself <br />i cannot find my place <br />i'm lost within myself <br />im lost without your face <br /> <br />i had you here with me <br />bit i didnt see <br />the way we really are <br />the way we really are <br /> <br />i had it all for free <br />but i didn't see <br />the way it really was <br />the way it really was <br /> <br />i cant open up <br />feelings locked down <br />pieces inside me <br />thoughts im hiding <br /> <br />behind prison walls <br />guarding my heart <br />from being torn apart <br />from being worn down <br /> <br />stepped on <br />slept around on <br />abandoned again <br />left with nothing again <br />left alone againJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1107151198181238762005-01-30T22:59:00.000-07:002005-01-30T22:59:58.183-07:00lasting thoughts <br />about another <br />i cannot take it <br />i cannot smother <br />i'm feelin good <br />my mind is blown <br />as i head down <br />will it be known <br />stuck here waiting <br />for a signal fading <br />away with timeJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1108420247942846652005-01-03T23:50:00.000-07:002005-02-14T15:30:47.943-07:00pushed aside<br />left behind<br />coulda tried<br />but it's too hard to find<br /><br />left alone<br />sad and depressed<br />whine and moan<br />it's time to confess<br /><br />wake to night<br />jumpstart the day<br />cause no fights<br />thats ok<br /><br />i can't make your choices<br />i can't be your voice<br />but somehow<br />it'll work out<br />as it always does<br /><br />i can't make you choose me<br />i can't make you do anything<br />but i can show my love for you<br />and hope it's returned<br />hope it's for sure<br /><br />eventual meeting<br />not exactly confirmed<br />grasp what you want<br />is what i've learnedJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503003990468272004-12-21T17:25:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:23:23.990-07:00 gimme some weed <br />gimme some pills <br />get me high <br />gimme some thrills <br />nothing's enough <br />i always want more <br />when I run out <br />the fiend will take over <br />so gimme my shit <br />i hate being soberJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503046280124502004-12-21T17:20:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:24:06.280-07:00 the talking goes on <br />but never an end <br />complexes surround us <br />complexes have bound us <br />bound by our mind <br />bound by our thoughts <br />kill the ideas <br />that we are supreme <br />kill those ideas <br />that are merely a dream <br />constant collision <br />lile the waves of an ocean <br />never at rest <br />always in motion <br />any attempt at a fix <br />will never succeed <br />we are all sick <br />it's all in our breed <br />too intelligent <br />for our own good <br />sick mental humans <br />who've based all on mood <br />Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503084712507882004-12-21T17:08:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:24:44.713-07:00 push down &amp; turn <br />look down and burn <br />get away and fight <br />try with all your might <br />every day it all repeats <br />stay and take a seat <br />take one tablet by mouth <br />take it all and run south <br />released from you <br />to find the truth <br />in the midst of the lies <br />and the various highs <br />a thought will remain <br />deep within your brain <br />a way to escape <br />a way to make a break <br />a chance to be free <br />one chance left for me <br />where we tried to believe <br />but just wanted to leave <br />its as simple as life <br />like a thief with a knife <br />locked up for his crimes <br />take his life, and his time <br />freedom just a thought <br />imprisonment we've bought <br />locked in our own lives <br />under rulers that thrive <br />caught up in the mess <br />that's created by the restJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503121812659052004-12-21T04:57:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:25:21.813-07:00 poison your soul <br />cloud your mind <br />fill it whole <br />make yourself blind <br /> <br />find the remedy <br />there is none <br />come with me <br />ill show you one <br /> <br />stay down still <br />it's time to perform <br />pray for kills <br />she is forlorn <br /> <br />clear your mind <br />let it be free <br />what you'll find <br />isn't what you see <br /> <br />pump the bass <br />pass the herb <br />find my place <br />write these blurbs <br /> <br />i got it all <br />but i got none <br />i want to fall <br />forget it some <br /> <br />take me out <br />take me down <br />yell and shout <br />fight and frownJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503169349227982004-12-16T01:27:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:26:09.350-07:00 take these pills <br />they make you normal <br />make the kills <br />and write the journal <br /> <br />get the chills <br />its not today <br />take these pills <br />its the only way <br /> <br />control your thoughts <br />hold back the victim <br />take in the terror <br />that's comin' with him <br /> <br />split decision <br />open mind <br />with precision <br />we're going blind <br /> <br />keep the facade <br />hold it up high <br />worship your god <br />believe your lie.Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503220827168422004-10-23T22:04:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:27:00.826-07:00 another saturday home alone <br />no one calls, no one cares <br />no one answers their phone <br />they'll be there they say <br />but when the day comes <br />they're needed they're gone <br />they're off in their lives <br />they're off in their fun <br />I've been forgottenJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503260425779032004-10-21T08:40:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:27:40.426-07:00 waiting to meet you <br />as you permeate my thoughts <br />waiting to hold you <br />an illusion at hand <br />i can almost see you <br />waiting for me, stagnant <br />but as i appear, you vanish <br />to forever elude me <br />ahead of me, anticipating <br />my every turn, plagued by uncertainty <br />can i find my way out <br />a way to sanity <br />a way to happiness <br />a way to youJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503304270257852004-10-21T08:17:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:28:24.270-07:00 I can't find myself <br />because I've locked myself away <br />because I've taken a wrong turn <br />it's all gone, torched <br />ashes falling, smoke that rises <br />an escape of longing <br />torn from desire <br />without me it can flourish <br />living within memory <br />forever it seems <br />signals of thought <br />tied up in this game <br />essence of choice <br />fed up with the shame <br />some don't live at all <br />some live too much <br />life <br />so divine <br />so enriched <br />so sublime <br />life <br />it's our downfall <br />Joshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9870593.post-1104503705657049342004-09-09T00:54:00.000-07:002004-12-31T07:35:05.656-07:00 lost inside yourself <br /> looking for escape <br /> lost inside this place <br /> memories taking shape <br /> <br /> folding your hand <br /> in the game of life <br /> a deck full of jokers <br /> each one with a knife <br /> <br /> taking time to be <br /> to find yourself within <br /> to figure out the answers <br /> and why you're so willing <br /> <br /> to let these people crush you <br /> to let them take you down <br /> to let them hold you hostage <br /> and keep you on the ground <br /> <br /> everything they say <br /> the negative way they are <br /> constantly eating <br /> away at your heart <br /> <br /> it'll kill you inside <br /> take your pride from you <br /> you'll never get it back <br /> you'll never get the truth <br /> <br /> you've got to rise above <br /> just say you've had enough <br /> it's all just testing you <br /> feelings arresting you <br /> <br /> just wanna get away <br /> from all those things they say <br /> but no one understands <br /> things get outta hand <br /> <br /> you've got to rise above <br /> just say you've had enough <br /> it's all just testing you <br /> feelings arresting youJoshua Shearhttps://plus.google.com/113581984289692358560noreply@blogger.com0