Tash on the Dash

Happiness?

2018-11-15T19:04:00.000-08:00

Lately, I've been asking myself this question alot ;-

"Am I.. happy?"

I've pondered a lot on this. Especially during those long LRT rides back home with sad music playing in my earphones. Jaded faces all around me, each reflecting on their own individual stories.

I know i am blessed, and I'm never not grateful to Allah SWT for all that He has showered me with. But I've come to a conclusion, that staying within my comfort zone for so long is slowly, but surely eating me up inside.

This past year, 2018, has probably been the most stagnant year of my life. It was just a routine of going to class, coming back home (sprinkle some household drama here and there).

Maybe it's my fault. Because maybe I didn't push myself hard enough. I didn't force myself to step outside my comfort zone. I settled for comfort. And in the end, I can't seem to leave my own comfort zone anymore.

I also miss the person I used to be, back in degree life in UK. Back then, I was THAT person who'd be busy 24/7. Constantly rushing off to join some volunteer work, some odd jobs with the university and join any student events going on.

Yes, I was busy. I was tired. But... I was happy.

See the difference between that Natasha and this Natasha is that she wasn't afraid to take risks. She would just throw herself in the new environment and learn from the experience. I miss me.

I do question myself a lot on why I've become this way. One excuse that always comes up is that "this isn't your passion". Yes, I'm currently studying for CLP. But I've never been 100% sure that I want to practice law. But on hindsight, I'm wondering now, do i really not want to practice law because i don't have the passion for it, is it simply because i'm afraid?

I read this the other day on Twitter and it really hit me hard.

Last night I went to a group discussion. There was an entrepreneur there who said something that stuck to me: The opposite of passion is self-entitlement. Entitled people don't do shit, and they don't get shit done. They just wait and demand things come to them.

It hit me hard because I realized that's who I've become. A self-entitled piece of shit.

Ok fine,
maybe not that bad. But i do realize now, that I've sort of just been sitting around waiting for my life to get better without actually taking action about it.

It's time for a wake-up call.

Happiness is a choice.

There's got to be more to life than this, and i'm going to find in. InsyaAllah.

11/10/2018

2018-10-12T00:28:00.000-07:00

A bed, that only yesterday, you laid.

A room, that only yesterday, was filled with the buzzing sounds of the face mask, heavy breathing, and an air of silent concern.

Everything is silent now.

On 11/10/2018, at 10.30 am, a strong and resilient woman whom I am proud to call my grandmother, has returned to Allah SWT.

Truly, the past one year and more has been a constant battle between nenek and her health. As her immune system weakened, and her organs deteriorated, one thing, that never faltered from my beautiful grandmother was her fighting spirit.

Through the immense pain she felt, she was still able to give a bright smile to anyone who visits her in the hospital. In her fragile state, she was always still trying her best to please those around her. Her smile, the reassuring squeeze when she gave when you held her hand... she was always so strong.

If there is one thing, that I have learnt from watching my grandma battle her illness this past one year, is to never give up.

Even when the odds are against you, never give up.

Although, you are no longer with us, nenek, i'm sure you were aware by how much you are loved by everyone around you. From atuk, to your children, grandchildren and everyone else, you are loved and adored.

I can only hope to touch as many lives as you have done, nenek.

Life is fleeting.

But because of that, make the most of it. Live your life, with passion, with love and most of all, with gratefulness.

Goodbye, nenek. Love you always.

InsyaAllah, may we meet again in the hereafter.

Of peanut butter and Danny

2017-10-14T22:49:00.000-07:00

Earlier, I was asking Danny a question as to why he was spreading peanut butter and butter on his toast. Maybe some of you may do it, but in my household we just spread PB on its own (it already has butter in its name anyway! :p)

The point is, he ignored me and just continued spreading out the PB and butter.

Now normally, I consider myself a very chilled sorta person. I really DON'T get mad easily. But somehow, him ignoring a direct question irked me.

I asked him why he wasn't answering me?

And he just replied "well, you can already see me spreading the butter and peanut butter right? There's no point in me answering".

And that was it, my anger level just went from mild annoyance to burning hot lava.

I went on a rant/lecture on how rude it was to ignore others and how it was basic manners to at least reply someone when they're asking you a question. Besides, what kind of reply was that anyway? How does continuing to spread out PB & butter answer my question of why he was spreading out PB & butter??

I ended my rant with a dramatic statement of "if you're going to ignore people like this, i'm not going to answer you anymore when you talk to me".

*mic drop*

*storms upstairs*

*attempts to slam door, but ends up closing it gently anyway for fear of scaring my grandma*

Back in my room and scrolling past a couple of Youtube videos later, I finally cooled down. I don't like dragging out arguments. I think they're a waste of time and only makes both sides miserable. Although, i would like Danny to just apologize to me before i start talking to him again.

Manners Maketh Man, after all.

I suddenly started reminiscing memories of Danny and I when he was a sweet little kid of 1 - 8 years old. Man, I was the very shining example of your doting big sister. I brought my little Danny boy everywhere! We'd go cycling after dinner (well, me of course, he'd just nicely sit at the backseat of my bike), I brought him to the park and sometimes, i even brought him out to meet my friends.

Danny, as naughty and mischievous as he is, he really is a sweet little boy with a kind heart.

I remember those days i became his self-proclaimed dance teacher and trained him for his various performance in the neighborhood. Mind you, Danny was quite a mini celebrity as the little dancer of Puteri 8. *beams proudly* *i was his dance teacher!*

Now at 13, he sometimes goes through that horrible teenage rebellious phase where he becomes all nasty and sulky. I wonder to myself, OH GOD who is this teenage monster that has taken over my not-so-little baby brother? What do we do and how do we get rid of it?!

It's funny because I myself graduated from teenage-hood not too long back.

I too was once a horrible teen monster to my parents. *shudders*

Life truly is a cycle isn't it?

Just like me, Danny will eventually grow out of his teenage phase and in time, he too will laugh at how grumpy he was. (to be fair, i do revert back to a grumpy teen once in awhile) (teehee)

Nevertheless, Danny will always be my little baby brother. No matter how big he gets and no matter how annoying he can be.

And while i shall await his apology that will probably come much later, let me reminisce of this little gap-toothed Danny boy who is growing up all too fast these days :')

A letter to my abang

2017-07-06T03:21:00.000-07:00

Dear bang,

Now that you and your newly wed have safely entered the plane and are on the way to enter a new phase of your lives in UK, I finally have the time to sit down and recollect my thoughts after this whirlwind of a week in Malaysia.

3 major events in a row from the Nikah (which mama and I did "not" cry at *sniff sniff*) to the Bride's side wedding reception to the Groom's side wedding reception is no easy task.

First of all, I want to say a big big congratulations to both you and Kak Syawal. I can see how happy you both are with each other and for that, i am so grateful. I truly wish nothing but a long-lasting and blissful marriage life ahead for both of you.

I'll admit, when i first found out that you wanted to get engaged last year, I was shocked and a little sad. But hey, i think a small part of you may have already knew that didn't you? It felt like I was about to lose a big brother... and not just any brother, but my big brother. I guess every little sister has an over-possessive defense mechanism build into them. Well, whatever you could call this feeling, I just didn't feel ready to lose my big brother yet.

But in the months that followed after the engagement and the events happening in my own life (read : final year of law degree), i finally learned to let some of the reluctance go.

Landing in Malaysia just a little over a week ago, i barely had time to get over my tiredness (what is jet lag?) days just flew by in a flurry of wedding tasks and errands. But now that everything is done and dusted, you are a married man now, Bang.

To be honest, I still can't believe sometimes that you are now married. (well, to be fair, it's only been a few days since the wedding so i can't help thinking that hehe). Occasionally i still get sad thinking how no matter what, things can never be the same as before again. (fine i may be slightly over-dramatic right now). But it's true, you will now have responsibilities to your new family and maybe we will never have another bro-sis dinner hangout session, or perhaps not as frequently anymore. I will miss and cherish all those times our family can just hang out with you as a bachelor. huhuhu

But life goes on, and change is a part of growing up.

Kak Syawal is lovely, she really is. (and i'm not just saying this because there is a high possibility that both of you may be reading this together at the same time). I hope that she will be a positive influence in your life and push you to became a better person than you already are. Although, the days the family spent with Kak Syawal was slightly limited. I think the past 3 days spent in PD was nice and most importantly, comfortable. Kak Syawal fitted in well and I look forward to the days where she will become more and more part of the family :) Also, being your number one victim of teasing/bullying (along with Danny too), i hope you won't tease Kak Syawal too hard. Trust me, it DOES GET ANNOYING AFTER A WHILE nanti Kak Syawal marah you baru tau!

I know i don't say this much, but love you loads bang. Always remember to be a good son to mama & papa and a good husband to Kak Syawal. (Also, i expect a long post dedicated to me on my wedding day too muahahaha)

With love,
Your beautiful & slightly emotional adik :p

Change

2017-02-18T13:24:00.002-08:00

As swift as sand, passing through my fingers

Is time that runs, it does not linger

As people grow and join the race

I’m still learning to find my own place

I see their passion in what they do

But for me, that simply isn’t true

And perhaps that is what, I fear the most

The future that’s coming all too close

I have so many wishes, hopes and dreams

But in nowhere it fits, or so it seems

Sometimes I question, is this how growing up is?

To do what you must, and not what you love

But then, I stop and reflect on my thoughts

Life has a way of connecting the dots

Although I am stuck in a crossroad

I know this phase is just an episode

Although I am filled with doubt and pain

They always say rainbows come after the rain

Having faith in His plans is the key

At this moment in time,

I am exactly where I am meant to be.

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2016-12-31T15:40:00.000-08:00

As the clock ticks and itches its way closer to 12 am... 2016 will be over, just like that.

And what am I doing in this significant moment at the brink of a New Year?

Nothing, actually. Just sitting here in my bedroom feverishly trying to revise for the coming exams. (whats new, right?)

Nevertheless, despite my somewhat lackluster way of ending this year. 2016 has been nothing short of a brilliant year for me. In all honestly, I felt that this was the year I truly took chances and learn to let go of my fears, even if its just abit.

Honestly, after my high school years ended, I felt like i somehow lost that part of me that loves to be active and take initiatives to join new things. For a long time, I felt comfortable with where I was and what I was doing in life. And that, isn't necessarily a good thing.

I became complacent. Just living my life with the routines that came along with it.

Thankfully, everything changed when I entered my second year of Uni. I joined KPUM (law society), then became the lead actress of Mnight (and the hours of rehearsals that came with it), joined Student Action Homeless projects with the Uni and became a Student Ambassador for my University. All these things gave me such priceless and unique experiences that I will never forget. Not to mention the variety of new friends you get to meet along the way.

I'll admit, time management is so important when you're juggling alot of things at the same time. Call me weird, but i actually feel more productive when I go out and do something, Rather than sit in my room, try to study but fail miserably by going on YouTube for hours.

I'm not going to go into the specifics of what I did in each event, but truly, the 2016 was the year I learnt not to be afraid to join things. Maybe confidence may come easily for some, but to me, I've always been a little nervous and anxious when it comes to venturing into unknown projects and stuff. I've also learnt that even if you get rejected, (trust me, i've had my share of those), it doesn't mean you're any less capable. Just stand back up and try again.

Remember, it only takes one person to change your life ;

you.
:)

Now in a typical old-school Natasha way of ending my blog posts. I'm gonna do some throwbacks of some moments in 2016.

Mnight memories (makes reconsider life decisions) (maybe I should just be an actress instead :P)

KPUM formal dinner

Us Student Ambassadors on duty in Welcome Week

Volunteering in a Children's Home during Summer Break

I almost forgot, I also got my driving license again this summer break! and I only passed in ONE TRY with 3 classes of lesson. Guys, this is a big achievement for me ok! I KID YOU NOT, I AM A TERRIBLE DRIVER. hahaha

Well, I can hear the fireworks outside my window now. Happy New Year to anyone reading this, I hope you had a great 2016. Alhamdulillah for such an amazing year. Now, lets look forward to a new beginning :)

GOODBYE 2016, HELLO 2017.

Nostalgia

2016-01-14T14:48:00.000-08:00

"A sentimental longing or wistful affection for a period in the past."

Now i'm not usually one to start off my blog posts (or even essays) with definitions. But somehow, that one really got to me.

What i'm feeling today is definitely...

nostalgia.

Nostalgia for those blissful and carefree days of my childhood. How I used to looked forward every day to go to school to meet my friends. And then look forward to going home and going to the park in the evenings to meet my neighborhood friends.

Those days, what mattered most was who was the fastest in playing catch.

And then I grew up.

Today I feel nostalgia for my high school days where I'd hang out with my girlfriends all day long. Oh boy, was I naughty back then. I'd skip classes by doing miscellaneous duties for teachers. I'd break all the rules about hair ethics. But yet, those days was the time of my life. Teachers still loved us, regardless. And life was just so carefree

And then I grew up.

I even feel a pang of nostalgia for my college days were my dad would drive me to Shah Alam every Monday morning and I'd stay in the hostel till Friday. Before packing up and going back home again for the weekend.

I complain so much about how homesick I was in INTEC, but I know if i could, I still wouldn't change a single bit of my college experience.

I feel nostalgia for those late-night gossip/movie/makeup sessions with my roommate. I miss roaming around Section 17 and going to our favorite food places together. I miss the freedom and adventure of it all. I even look back fondly at those hot & humid nights spent in my hostel room. (it was either open the window to cool the room and suffer the wrath of mosquitoes or close the windows and sweat the whole night through). But damn, that was part of the experience of Intec.

I feel nostalgia for all those deep heart-to-heart talks i'd share with my roommate. I still laugh when i think about the time Shah Alam had an insanely long water shortage. So one day when it started raining heavily, we literally went out with our shampoos and soap and started showering in the rain in front of our hostel block.

Friends you can really bond with don't come easily as you grow up

Today I just feel a deep sense of nostalgia reminiscing my past. No, I am not sad... I'm just nostalgic, that's all. And yes, I know what you're thinking... i'm young and I still have alot ahead of me, right? Well there's no harm in reflecting your life and everything you've been through so far. I've had friends that have gotten married, some are getting married soon and i've also experience the loss of a dear friend of mine. So many things are changing and sometimes, i feel like time is just flying by too fast as i grow up.

This year, I turn 22. And wow.... do i feel like i've grown alot (in terms of maturity but definitely not physically) these past few years. Where ever life takes me for the next few years, I look forward to it. Also God, Thank you. Thank you for giving me such a beautiful life for these past 21 years (and 5 months) of my life.

You truly are the best of all planners.

The Big Elephant in The Room

2015-03-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

So today, I decided randomly to wear a hijab to class.

Don't ask me what triggered it, I could say it was the usrah session I had last week, or perhaps, a deep buried intention of mine that's been there since coming to UK.... I could say many things, but mostly, I guess Allah just moved my heart to do it. (and i'm so grateful for it)

But anyways, true to last week's usrah where I talked about consistency.

The Prophet ﷺ said, “The most beloved of deeds to Allah are those that are most consistent, even if it is small”.

I decided that I will take a small step into wearing the hijab, by wearing it every Wednesday.

Strangely, coming out of my hall today with the hijab on didn't feel any significantly different than when i'm not wearing it. Nobody gave me strange looks, everyone just minded their own business and life went on. However, i already anticipated that this was the reaction I was gonna get from strangers. After all, I do live in Manchester, where the diversity here is amazing! There are already so many (beautiful) hijabis walking around on a daily basis. So its a pretty common sighting.

But when entering class, that's when I got a slight bit nervous. Meeting Su Wen earlier was fine, since I already told her and the rest of the gang that I was gonna do it on Wed. But the class.... nope, no one knew. Now, what was the reaction I got?

nothing.

But not the normal nothing-nothing. It's the nothing as in there's a big-elephant-in-the-room-nothing. The people I knew and knew me, didn't say a word. Most just didn't talk to me, but those who did, just pretended that nothing was different. It was almost funny, really! I mean, I could sense the curiosity radiating from them, but no one asked. It was as if, they we were afraid to ask. As if it was a sensitive topic. To be fair, I think I myself was radiating a whole nervous don't-ask-me-about-my-hijab vibe. So, can't really blame them. Hahah.

Nevertheless, I'm glad I did what I did today. Nobody said the first step would be easy. I just have to persevere and remain consistent. First step is always the hardest, once everyone gets used to it, no one is going to feel weird at all. InsyaAllah.

I pray for the strength to continue being consistent in doing what I know is right. Amin.

And the first post of 2015 goes to......

2015-01-08T15:44:00.000-08:00

My family!

Just wanted to say.... i miss you guys.

Maybe its because my flatmates are not back yet, (and i'm currently the only person living in flat 10 right now), maybe it's because its currently the depressing pre-exam season phase now or maybe its because my brother had warned me that its only after the family visits you that homesickness starts to kick in.

But either way, I really miss my family right now.

To be honest though, I really am surprised at how long its been before this homesickness kicked it. I mean, i always thought that from the moment i flew to UK, i would be homesick ~~all~~ most of the time. But to my surprise, my first sem of Year 1 in UK has been relatively homesick free!

But then, after that amazing (close to) one month of family coming over for winter break.... its like all the warmth and joy went back with them when they boarded the plane to Malaysia. Having the annoying little siblings around to annoy and be annoyed with... having papa around with his unnecessary but endearing tendency for lame jokes and picture-taking.... having mama around to cook for us and care for us unconditionally... and having abang as well to kacau. (Although technacially abang is still here in the UK, I just don't get to see him so often anymore).

I guess its really true what they say, home is wherever your family is. Never have i felt more at home here, than with my family around. Time literally flew this time around. I remember visiting UK two years ago (2012) with the family. That time, we were visiting Abang who was on his first year. To me that one month in UK felt like a long stretch of of fun and bliss. It was termed in my family as the best holiday ever! Fast forward to two years later, and this time its my turn to be the one in UK with my family visiting me (and abang). Somehow, I felt as if time just FLEW for this visit. I wasn't the only one, Danny also commented that he felt this holiday was going by too fast, although, maybe Danny just said that cause he wasn't looking forward to school when he goes back....but i digress.

To whomever reading my blog right now, appreciate every moment with your loved ones. You never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. Yes, I am aware i just stole that line completely from the internet :P But its true though, I would love to rewind back time and just spend the days on winter break with my family again. But life goes on. And so must we,

Although, every part of me wanted to jump on the aeroplane back with my family that day when abang and I sent you off...... I know i can't :(

I miss you, family. See you in 6 months time, insyaAllah.

Thank you, mama.

2014-09-01T23:15:00.000-07:00

"Tasha.... this is the ubat you take in case you get headaches there."

"And here's the ubat for sakit perut since you always have sakit perut one..."

"This one, you take before you get flu, so you can prevent it."

I watched, as my mom tirelessly took out medicine after medicine from the plastic bag she was holding. A part of me felt slightly irritated as to why she spent so much money on medicine for me. I hate it when she spends unnecessary money on me (well, unless it involves clothes shopping of course :p). Yet, as I watched her take out the seemingly infinite amount of medicine from the plastic... I felt... like I missed her. This may seem odd, since my mom was standing right in front of me. Yet, I felt like I miss her already.

She was and always is looking out for the family. Forever running around and taking care of everyone's needs and current demands. New mechanical pencil for Danny? She'll get it. Someone is craving their favourite food? She'll be there to cook it. Baby Chu has a sore throat? She'll buy the medicine before you know it. Mama's always running around like an energizer bunny, taking care of the family. Sometimes to my annoyance, without taking care of her own health. When I voice out this opinion, she'll say "How can I relax? I have to take care of everyone in this house!" *read that with a really loud angry voice*

But ma.... I want you to know, that everyone in this house loves you so much. I am sure you know that already. I know sometimes you feel you don't get enough help around the house, but please, tell us and we'll try our best to help.

Whoops, i'm slightly straying off topic. What I mean to say is.. thank you. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for your constant advice and encouragement to me, thank you for being my listening ear for all this years, but most of all, just, thank you so much for being my mother. You are truly the best mother one could ever ask for. And I hope you know that.

The other night, you watched me pack my bag. You folded all my clothes neatly as I threw more and more clothes towards the floor singing "I'm bringing this! I'm bringing this!". *sigh* I am really going to miss having your presence around me... I also worry so much that you will become more stress when I am away. I know how naughty Danny and Baby Chu can be together. Their constant bickering can drive anyone nuts! I am worried that I won't be there to help out with Danny and Baby Chu's studies anymore and your workload might increase.

Please take care of yourself. I know that you will do your best in taking care of everyone else. (yes, never stop nagging papa to stop drinking cold sweet drinks okay!). I'm sure nothing will change between me and the family eventhough we are miles and miles apart. In fact, i'm pretty sure you'll be getting bored of me constantly pestering you and papa for a skype session. Hahaha.

I love you always mama.

And I just want to say, I miss you already.

For Gung Gung (grandfather)

2013-02-23T03:20:00.000-08:00

an empty seat.

It is on that exact seat, where I would see you spend most of your time. Reading your Chinese newspaper, taking your naps, resting before going to fetch Danny back and forth from his school or tuitions.. You were always so comfortable in that place.. But now, it is nothing but an empty seat.

We were never really very close as we had a typical awkward grandfather-granddaughter relationship. Generation gap kept us from conversing naturally and frequently. Plus, there was a communication barrier between us as I was fluent in English and you were fluent in Chinese. Hence, we had to communicate in an in-between language that was malay. Still, it touched me to see you try and make an effort to talk to me. You would ask me how was my day when I returned from somewhere, buy snacks for all the kids whenever you had money to spare and ask me to teach you how to handle your handphone. And for awhile, we would hold a conversation..

It was during the year 2012, where I really got to know you better. I was fresh out of high school and needed transport to take fetch me to my part-time job. Also, I needed transport to fetch me to my driving center since I was having driving lessons back then. Initially, those car trips with you was awkward as we didn't really have much to talk about, but over time, we grew more comfortable with each other's presence. In fact, you even shared with me some driving tips and how driving was so different back in your time. I enjoyed listening to your stories. I felt happy that finally, I was beginning to form a relationship with my Gung Gung.

One year flew by to quickly.. just when I was beginning to know you better, you had to leave. To be honest, I am still in shock now. It's as if reality has not really sink in yet. Gung Gung is gone now. Those are just words to me, but they have no meaning. I keep expecting you to still be alive, in the hospital, and getting better day by day. But now.. its too late.

You were always so strong to me. Even despite your age, you were healthy and fit. You could carry things around and do odd jobs around the house (though sometimes you spoilt things in the process >.<). That is why, it is such a shock to me that you have left. Then again, I should have mentally prepared myself. After you suffered your first fall in January 2013, your condition detoriated rapidly, suddenly it was as if disease led to another disease. I begin to see a different side of you.. and it broke my heart. It was like you lost a big part of you. Losing your ability to take care of yourself must have been so hard on you. I wish I took the time to talk to you, ask you how your day was, like you did to me all those years back. Even when you got rushed to hospital, I was not so worried. I guess I was still in denial that you were very sick. To me, I was so sure that you were going to recover soon. Then you would be your old happy self again. I was wrong.

My biggest regret is not taking more effort to talk to you, I know that I am in Shah Alam most of the time for college. But I guess I should have converse with you more during the weekends when I'm home. And now it's too late. Too late. Those two words that can make me tear up because I feel so much regret. I did not even have the chance to wish you goodbye. My two last memories of you was during Chinese New Year when you looked so pleased to see me wear cheongsam for the first time. And my last memory of you, was when you fell down again. Kakak and I had to support you and rest you on the pillow. That was before you got sent to the hospital. If only I had known then, I would have asked you take care.. at least talked to you a little before you went to the hospital. Because now, that will always be my final memory of you.

When I returned home from college yesterday, I received the news around 6pm that you had to enter the emergency ward again. I was calm. "What could happen?" I remembered thinking. Then around 9 pm, the house phone rang. When it was papa on the other line, I felt the first feeling of panic. Then papa said on the phone softly "Dik, Gung Gung has passed away..".

All your belongings is packed up by popo earlier. She puts up a tough front, but deep down, I can tell she is just as sad as the rest of us that you are gone. Danny cried this morning when he heard the news.. Even though all your things have officially left the house to be transported to Ipoh to your family. Your memories here will not die. Thank you Gung Gung, for everything you have done for us. I know I have never said to you this before, but I really appreciate you and I will miss you so much. I hope you are in a better place now.

Rest In Peace.

I was never great with goodbyes.

2012-09-09T03:04:00.000-07:00

I once heard a saying that goes like this "Sometimes, being a brother, is even better than being a superhero". But if you knew a person like my brother, I'd say they got that quote all messed up. It should have went like this "Sometimes, having a brother is even better than having a superhero".

Thing is, words cannot even begin to describe the relationship between me and my abang. We fight, we play, we gossip (yes even my brother does that :p) but most importantly, we truly care for each other and look out for each other. When I first got to know that my brother was flying off to Manchester Uni in UK. I felt... nothing. Its like I was still in a bubble you know? Refusing to believe that my abang is flying off miles and miles away for a long long time. Then, as days gradually crept closer to M-day. Mon Day. Mikhail-flying-off Day. I felt the bubble slowly getting weaker. I allowed myself to imagine what life at home would be without kacau-ing my abang, without my own personal driver (oh no! I'd probably have to learn how to drive the car now!), and without just the general presence of a big brother in the house.I felt really... sad. Don't take this wrong bang, I'm really happy you managed to get this chance to continue your studies overseas, just that, I'll really miss you.

Anyway, bang, since I'm sure they are days where you'll feel really homesick in UK, I decided to be the ever-helpful sister I am, and compile a few awesome memorable memories of us together. Starting since, the beginning. Toddler-hood.

TODDLER-HOOD

Of course, this story has already been told by my brother to several people many many times over the years. But for old times sake, let me just blog about it still :P As a baby, I admit I did have a violent streak in me. I enjoyed biting my brother really hard. Hard enough to leave marks that will last the whole day, only to fade off just in time before mama and papa got back from work in the evening. I call it skills :D Anyway, the biting continued alot during my itchy-growing-teeth period.Despite my brother's endless complain to my parents about my biting, they never believed him. Number One : he had no proof (marks fade before parents return from work) and Number Two : One look at my innocent baby face and my parents will never believe that I can do violence >:)

But one fateful day, I accidently lose control of myself and bit my brother with EXTRA HARD force. This caused a deeper-than-usual mark on my brother. And by evening when my parents returned home from work, the mark was still there. That was the epic day when my brother finally had evidence to support his case. I was guilty as charged and receive scoldings from my parents that night. Finally, in the battle between Abang Vs. Adik, abang won -____- *sorry if this paragraph sounded very lawyer-ish to you, future lawyer in the making here! heheheh*

However, this was not the only time abang got scolded because of me. There was this one time we had a race in our old house. Because I could only crawl, while my brother already had the ability to run on two legs, he was way ahead of me. When my brother reached the finish line, he noticed I was missing! So he went back across the 'track' and found out I had hit my head on the edge of a wall while crawling too fast. I was bleeding and well, let's just say I still have that scar on my eyebrow until now :( anyway, our maid put all the blame on abang and claimed that he had pushed me. When mama&papa got home that night, abang was in alot of trouble.

My point is, abang got into alot of trouble because of me when we were younger. And well, I guess I just want to tell you thank you, bang. I guess I was too young then to understand the trouble I got you into, but now, I'd like to take this oppoturnity before you fly off to say sorry.

:')

CHILD-HOOD

As we both grew up, the dynamic of our relationship also grew. I had long since grew out my teeth and stopped biting my brother for fun.Yes, we'd still have sibling fights now and then (ones the involved kicking, punching and.. biting xD) but we also learnt to help out each other. There was always this unspoken rule in the house that whoever that breaks one of mama's glass ornaments, will kena.. THE ROTAN when mama gets home from work. So whenever one of us accidently breaks mama's glass ornaments, we'd never rat out each other. After all, one does not simply break the Sibling Code 101 : Never tell on each other to your parents. Mama while eventually find out the culprit herself using her killer sharp mother instincts.

Here's a random memory that cracks me up everytime! Do you guys know that there was this one time I made me brother laugh SO HARD during lunch that he actually VOMITED out all his food! O__O Heck, even I was surprised of my comedic ability. Either I'm really funny, or my brother laughs too easily. But mama got so mad that she made abang clean up his own vomit on the floor afterwards. TEEHEE ^^

Other than that, my brother and I also shared awesome padang sessions that lasted from 5pm to 7pm. We'd cycle to our neighborhood padang and played lots of kinds of catching games with our friends there. The most famous game being 'Dinosaur' that my brother and I introduced to our neighbourhood friends. Hehehe *feels proud* I gotta say, those padang sessions were the highlight of my childhod :')

TEENAGE-HOOD

Then came teenage-hood were my brother and I bonded further. We'd discuss deeper issues other than games and toys and instead, talk about life and family. Those were our gossip sessions. Muahahahahah. We'd do all this during our supposedly 'study time' :P Honestly, we were supposed to study but most of the time my brother and I would just talk or write down random funny stories and let each other read it. Of course, abang also played his big brother role well and taught me the things I didn't understand at school. Honestly, I really miss those 'study-sessions' I shared with my brother. Once high school ended, so did those session together...

Once abang finished high school, we entered a new phase. The phase where abang was hardly home anymore. First, he was selected for NS and so he was missing from home for 3 months! I only got to see him during the weekends when I visited him. That was the first taste I had of life without abang. I really missed him, but I knew in the future there will be plenty more moments like this. And true enough, after that, abang received scholarship to study medicine and was placed in Kolej Mara Banting. Again, we only got to see him during weekends. You may think that being far apart from abang and not seeing him so often would make us drift apart. But then the most amazing thing happen, we bonded further. My brother and I can talk about just anything! I realized that the distance, made us realize how precious time spent with each other and the family actually is. Now we cherish every minute with each other.

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Well, I don't want this post to be too long. To end it, you are and always have been an amazing brother, bang. I am so proud of you. You inspire me to be a better person in every way, I'm always in awe of your confidence in public speaking/debate and such. You have taught me and the family to be thankful to God. For after all, we are just mere humans. I love you very very much and I as much as I hate to admit it, I will miss you to bits when you fly off! Our family won't be able to see you during the weekends anymore, now probably only during big semester breaks. PS- I have a feeling that thanks to you, all my holidays for the next 4 years will only be to the same destination : UK =__=

Please take care and be safe in UK. Don't slack and remember to study hard. I hope you will always remember to keep in touch and call mama and papa often, you know how much they miss us children when we're not home. If you ever get sad or lonely, you can always skype or call the family, cause we'll always be there for you! Remember, distance means so little when someone means so much.

Goodbye, my superhero!

With lots of love,
Your beautiful adik

Life after SPM

2012-04-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

KNOCK KNOCK!

WHO'S THERE?

NAAAATAAASHAAAA!

....finally -.-

Hello my loyal adorable gorgeous and fantastic readers (bodek sikit since I disappeared for so long). As you can see, I'm back! And that (referring to the 'knock knock' joke above... is my great comeback line xD I know, lame kan? But what to do.. I haven't blogged for ages. It feels pretty awkward now. Kinda like how I felt when I first started blogging. Clueless and nothing much to say :/

......but anyway! I decided to blog again since people have started reminding me to do so. Plus, I finally have a topic to blog about :3 LIFE AFTER SCHOOL. One of the main things I realized once school is over, is how boring life is without it. I'm not even kidding. School kids reading my blog, here's a piece of advice for you ; cherish school while you can... Once its over, there's no turning back and you will realize how fun it actually was. Oh, and also go do your homework :P

On the other hand, I do have much more freedom now. And by that, I mean my parents are much more lienient to my outings now. Thank you mama papa! So today, imma upload the piczas and summarize a little on what happened on my outings. Wait- did I just say summarize? -____- told you my blogging style is a little off right now. Don't mind me ;)

OUTING NUMBER 1#

Natasha Amelia Sofea

I forgot what day this outing was already.. but lets just called it Funday! :D We went and watched Mirror Mirror. It was pretty nice, but all we did was talked about how thick Snow White's eyebrows was throughout the show. Heheheh! To be honest though, I was secretly very jelly over Snow White's eyebrows. Mine is so freaking thin it hardly comes out in photos. -____-

Oh! But there was one MAJORLY weird incident that happen in the cinema. While we were watching the movie, the cinema suddenly started beeping. Well, not exactly beeping, I don't know how to describe the sound. Kinda like something you would hear in a fire alarm. It was pretty scary actually O.O I don't know if we had to evacuate the cinema or not.. can't even watch the show in peace cause of the sound and the flickering lights. The sound finally ended few minutes later... mysteriously... as mysterious as it started.... *jeng jeng jeng*

This is in the toilet later, where everybody goes after a movie.

Well you know us girls, we just can't bear to leave the toilet without at least having one toilet camwhore photo :P Its compulsory I tell you! So after the movie we decided to eat, definitely not MacDonalds since we're all so sick of it. So guess where? My family's favourite eat-out spot ; Penang Asam House (IOI old wing). Throughout lunch I also took a bunch of photos. Just so you know, I bought a new camera recently (present for my good SPM results ^^) and this camera has a bunch of crazy functions! Fish eye, reflection, beauty mode etc etc. See for yourself! :D

Oh foine! The only camera function I used during lunch was the reflection one ><

I forgot to mention! Earlier before the movie, we went to Guardian and Sasa and tried on the make up stuff there (actually only Sof and I, Ame just give 'advice' haha). Sofea went and bought lots of eye make up. That girl has finally discovered the wonders of make up! I didn't buy anything... lack of funds $__$

Now, the moment you've all been waiting for... *drum roll* Lets take a look at the 'beauty mode' photos!! The Before and The After >:D buahahahahaha.

THE BEFORE SHOT

THE AFTER SHOT

THE BEFORE SHOT

THE AFTER SHOT

Hehehe and that's it so far. Not bad right that camera function? The beauty mode automatically erases all your pimples and makes your face fairer. A girl's dream come true! Later on, we also did some random shopping here and there but didn't actually buy anything x) Then it was time to go home! Amelia was our driver for the day, so imagine her fear when we went outside and it was raining super heavily!! Hello, new drivers on the road here xD

Driving in the pouring rain.....

But can still smile! :DD

And what are Amelia's awesome and helpful friends doing while she drives in the pouring rain?? Helping her? Looking out for her??

Taking pictures of course!! TEEHEE XD

Well, we did that for awhile. But after that, we helped Ame drive in the rain by looking out for her. You can never fool around too much in the car. Road accidents can happen anytime, so always be careful. Team Safety! Hahaha. Well, I wanted to blog about my 2nd Outing in this post, but its getting too long :( So yeah, save that for the next post. Bye guys! Keep reading this blog cause I'll definitely update more often now :D

xxx-

till next time! <3

Wonder what happen.

2011-12-28T21:17:00.000-08:00

So I was cleaning up my desk recently and stumbled upon a poem I made a long time ago. And what struck me about it was how... sad it sounded? Here, take a look at it.

The Girl In The Mirror

Mirror mirror, on the wall,

Who is that girl that stands so tall?

Mirror mirror, on the wall,

Who is that girl with tears that fall?

I see her smile, I see her laugh,

From afar, she seems so tough,

So together and always intact,

Doesn't her life seem so perfect?

Always surrounded by all her friends,

She's also ahead the latest trends,

Fun, Friendly and Miss Popular,

Don't you wish you could be her?

But wait- stop, and take a look..

Remember to not judge the cover of a book,

Have you not seen her tear-stained eyes?

Have you not heard her silent cries?

She hides in her room when there's people around,

So no one will hear her make a sound,

For she cries at night to let out the pain,

That causes her tears to pour like rain

Despite the size of her place,

She suffocates in that huge space,

Alone and lonely but no one knows,

The misery she feels that grows and grows..

Depressed and pressured for their hearts are like stone,

Can't they just leave her alone?

I guess they don't know how she feels,

Let her be, and maybe she'll heal

So tell me mirror on the wall,

Who is that girl with tears that fall?

I touch the reflection that I see,

And realized that girl starring back, is me...

So yeah, pretty depressing huh? I wonder what situation was I in last time to write such a miserable poem. Well, whatever it was, I'm glad that phase is over. After all, who wants to spend time being sad when you can be happy instead? :) This message implies to everyone out there. Our existence in this world is short. Treasure it, and be happy. For every second being sad, is a second wasted.

"Happiness often comes sneaking in through a door you didn't know you left open"

p/s : on my next post, I'll FINALLY blog about the Miko story part #2. For those who didn't read the first part, click this link HERE. And I'll also give updates on my Book Sale :D till next time, xoxo--

ATTENTION STUDENTS!

2011-12-24T03:46:00.000-08:00

Meet Nerdtasha. She is in a dilemma. Exams are just around the corner, but alas, she has no revision books to use. I mean, we all know the best and ultimate way to prepare for an exam is to do some exercises, right? Well, too bad she has no more revision books left. (Being the nerd she is, she finished using all her revision books in the last exam) OMG! THIS IS A FREAKING CALAMITY!!

Well, fear not Nerdtasha! We have a solution for you! Haven't you heard? There is a BOOK SALE going on right now. Yes, a Book Sale! Not any ordinary Book Sale. This Book Sale specializes only on revision/exercise books only. Specifically, form 4 and form 5 subjects.

Nerdtasha : snort snort! are you serious???

YES! We are very serious! Not only that, here is the BEST part : All the books are selling at FREAKING CHEAP-CHEAP prices. We're talking about RM3/RM4-ish here! That's cheap! Plus, you get to choose from alot-ta subjects. This is Nerdtasha's dream come truueee~

Nerdtasha : Aww.. zhank you! zhi like this zho much!

You're welcome Nerdtasha! Its all in a days work to help out a soon-to-be SPM candidate like yourself. Now, wouldn't you readers like to be as lucky as Nerdtasha? Yes? Yes? ..............Great! Then here you go, the details about this amazing Book Sale!!

THE AMAZING BOOK SALE

As a high school graduate, I have collected a ~~small~~ HUGE-ASS pile of revision/exercise books throughout the years. However, I have this habit of not actually writing my answers in the book. Instead, I look at the questions in the book and write the answers on another piece of paper. Why? so that I can reuse the book again. But now that I'm out of high school, I realized that most of my books are all very clean and untouched!! Very sayang to throw away hor? -__- So an idea came across, why now, sell them instead?! Of course, I will now sell them WAAAAAAAAAYYYY cheaper than its original price so you guys who are buying it will VERY untung man! Like up to 60% or 70% its original price! :D

Time : 10am - 4.30pm

Place : My house! Just ring the bell and I'll open

Subjects : ALOT! But if you really wanna know, drop a comment below and I'll answer

Form : Form 4 and Form 5 (but I'm also selling some PMR books)

omg seriously, this is alot of books you know

Just remind you all again, the prices are so cheap I would cry tears of joy if I were a form4/form5 student. Why go to POPULAR bookstore when I'm selling almost similar books with a lower price? xD Save money, buy here!

- FORM 4 SUBJECTS -

- FORM 5 SUBJECTS -

- SPM MODEL PAPERS -

So yeah, please buy from this AMAZING BOOK SALE. I mean seriously, its super worth it. Berquality dan murah! Grab this opportunity and purchase as many books as you can. Cause honestly, its so hard to find revision books with cheap prices this days... Honestly. In any other bookstore, RM10 will hardly get you two books. In this booksale, RM10 can even get you three books. #serioustalk

So buy, buy, buy!!! Or die. Heheheh jk jk. But seriously, start buying! May you have great results in every exam you take! God bless you :)

Nerdtasha : I am soo happy now!

p/s any questions just drop me a comment below, and I'll answer!

GOTCHA!

2011-12-10T22:09:00.001-08:00

I KNOW I SO LALA (-__-)V

Hey look I have long hair up there!! Oh right, old photo. Anywaaaaaaayyy, today I decided to blog about THE EVENTFUL DAY (6/12/11). The day I went out for a super fun outing with my buddys (Sofea, Amelia and Dee) and the day I got Gotcha'ed my Ean. Actually, t~~he day started pretty normal enough~~ this outing already had problems since the night before. Everyone has transport problems and the outing almost got cancelled. Luckily, things got sorted out by the two so-called orang tengah's Sofea and I! We slept late sorting things out, but it was worth it =)

Anyway, on the morning of the outing, more problems came up! The plan was for Dee to come to my house by 9am where my dad will drive us both to Sunway Piramid. But then. JENG JENG JENG. She didn't come. As the minutes flew by, I kept looking at the watch, 10 minutes late... 20 minutes late.. I started to panic. I called Dee's phone but she didn't pick up! O M G! I called the other orang tengah Sofea and told her that Dee was not here yet. "Do you think she got..... kidnapped?" Some bad guys could have captured her along the way and do "nasty" things to her. My imagination went on over-drive mode.

Fear not! To cut the long story short, after a million calls to Dee, she finally picked up! Turns out, she was sleeping all along. Very anti-climatic, Dee xD My dad and I drove to her house and picked her up and we were off to Sunway! Once we reached there, Dee and I were earlier than Sof and Amy so we went around and did some window shopping. What to do? Didn't bring enough money to go mega shopping. Sobs.

Later on, Sof and Amy join us and we all decided to go skating!! Hahah actually it was more of me and Sof's idea. Amy and Dee don't really like skating. TEE HEE! But this is the part I got......

gotcha'ed! -_____-

we were about to buy the tickets for the skating rink when suddenly... my phone started ringing. I looked at the screen. PRIVATE NUMBER? Oooh, that made me more curious so I answered. Okay, honestly I can't really described what the person on the line said, he talked waaaaayyy to fast and I couldn't hear a word he said. The reception was so bad in the skating place!

So yeah, needless to say, the beginning of our conversation consist alot of me saying huh? okaaayy? yeahh.. uh-huh.. right? That sorta thing! I must have sounded sho stupid!! But anyway, later on, I could hear certain words like dentist, braces, teeth and I could make out what message this person was trying to get through. He said I have to put on my braces again!! FOR ONE YEAR WOR. (so sad, I just took off my braces the day before this outing) But halfway through the gotcha, I SUDDENLY feel like I recognize the voice on the line. I hear it every morning xD Souds like one of 'em Hitz.fm guys! So I said, is this a gotcha call? and the person replied

"Young lady, this is not a gotcha call. I have no time for jokes okay.

This is a serious matter for your own good so please be seroius"

O.O Talk about fierce! Hahaha so I said, okay.. sorry. Anyway I guess words can never really describe something in full detail. You sould hear the gotcha call for yourself!

Click this link HERE!!!

To my friends who had to wait for me for so long on the phone, sorry ya guys.. :) but we were all so shocked when we knew it was a gotcha call! I'M SO GONNA GET BACK AT MY DAD FOR THIS! HE BETTER WATCH OUT. YOU, PA, READING THIS, WATCH OUT.

After that, we went skating. There's this photographer guy who approached me and Amy on the rink and asked if we wanted out photos taken B-) I know, we so cool right? LOL. We went hyper in the middle of the rink and took so many shots, like a boss! hahar. But buying the photos took alotta money. But being the cool people we are, we bought the photos, like a boss! Ok ok, enough like-a-boss jokes -.-

P/s- I just realized something, just because our whole group consists of GIRLS. Every where we go, all the shops where the staff are guys they will always be very chatty with us. Flirty and smiley and all that sorta things xD Better service, eh? Also, they will always say "come again, okay???" when we all wanna leave. Awww, we do feel flattered xD

After skating we went watch movie, jalan-jalan at Asian Avenue (cos we're asians) found out that our beloved photo booth not there anymore. WHAT THE- whhhhhyyyyyyyyyy?! D: *cue dramatic music* anyway, we also bought a cat necklace :3 okay, that's a quick summary of what happen. To cut it short, it was a very enjoyable day! I had so much fun! Can't wait for the next outing we'll have :D January maybe? eheheh.

On that note, imma end my post now with a warning.. to my dad.. you're next.=D

Braces.

2011-12-09T19:18:00.001-08:00

As my vision cleared itself from the post-waking up blurriness, I lazily reached for my phone and checked the time. Still morning. And then, OMG IT HIT ME! Today is Monday. The Monday I've been waiting for.. I can't believe 2 years have flown so fast. It was time! It was finally time to remove that metal in my mouth. How did I feel exactly? I don't know, totally mixed up. Maybe a spoonful of happiness, a dash of excitement, a hint of nostalgia and a pinch of.. sadness? There you go, a recipe of how I felt that morning.

I can't really explain why I felt that way, just a few nights before I was so excited that I was practically spamming Facebook with "I AM REMOVING MY BRACES" type of posts. And now that it was actually time to remove it, I suddenly feel all sentimental.

Braces and I. We've had a rough relationship. Pretty love-hate if I could say so myself. I remember the numerous times the Mr.Braces physically abused me! Its sharp metallic body causing my tender and alluring (perasan) lips to tears and bleed. Or! The time my tongue got stuck at one of its hooks, and the process of separating them was needless to say, painful! Mr.Braces also abused me emotionally. I remember numerous occasions where I felt rather insecure wearing braces. Thoughts like "Do I look ugly?" or "Dammit, I bet that stupid rice is stuck on my braces again." constantly run through my mind. Heck, I'm sure my friends suffered just as much as I did! Especially after recess sessions xD

[This is a common scenario that happens EVERY recess session]

Me : Guys, got something on my braces anot?! *huge-ass grin that shows my braces*

Friend : *check and check and answers*

Me : Thanks weih!

Thanks peeps, the ones who's always there to help me with my paranoia that some random piece of food is stuck on my braces. You know who you are guys.. =)

Then again, Mr.Braces also helped me alot in my growing up process. I feel that, I've grown up alot this past two years and I've come to understand myself, my friends and my family a whole lot more. Mr.Braces was there to witness this.. this.. this Evolution Of Natasha. He even made me more confident in myself. I used to by shy wearing braces and all, but not anymore. Hey! Even a gotcha call on Hitz.fm recently was about my braces. Garhh! I just can't escape from Mr.Braces. So, I can't believe i'm saying this but... I'm gonna miss ya, Braces =)

The walk I encountered 2 years back. How nostalgic =(

-2 hours later-

My braces is off!! AND IT FEELS SO WEIRD. Its like, my mouth is so slippery smooth and no more obstacles on my teeth. I feel, I feel, I feel, weird! xD But the moment of truth, after the 2 hours "operation" was over, I thanked my dentist one last time, and rushed to the toilet. I looked at my reflection and I felt.... weird! Hahaha you see, I've grown so used to seeing my bracey smile this past 2 years that now when I look at my reflection, I feel like something is missing. HAHAH STRANGE HOR?

The new braces-less smile. KA-CHING!

So yeah, I'm ready to start my new life. After high school, after braces, after uniforms, after alot of things. Its a new start, and I'm planning to make it the best I can =)

p/s - click HERE to read about my post the day I PUT ON braces xD

That one special male in my life

2011-12-01T18:37:00.001-08:00

He comes running to me everytime I call him. He's always there when I need someone to cuddle. I can spend hours just watching him and his beautiful eyes. I love how loyal he is, to run to me even in the rain. I love that patch of mischievous-ness that twinkles in his eyes every time I see him. There's no other like him. There's nobody that can ever be like him. And now, he's gone.

Miko, I miss you so much.

My beautiful, adorable, loving little rabbit! Why did you have to get lost, why??? WHY?! Memories of you and I keep running through my mind, eventhough its been months since you went away. I will always remember you. Always.

It was early this year when you arrived to this household. The day you arrived.. I still remember how tiny you were. So cute I wanted to pinch you till you die! (not really). It wasn't long after we bought you a little female rabbit to keep you company. I still remember how our family thought Bobby was a male and YOU were the female. (Hence, the name Bobby for the female rabbit). It was one day when we saw you mounting on Bobby and giving her a lots of "action" that we knew you were actually the male and she, the female xD

Still, the bond between you and our family grew stronger and stronger as time past. I never knew a more "manja" rabbit then you! But then again, I never knew a rabbit who had bigger testicles than you either 0.0 Maybe that's why you like mating so much.. Oh well...

good shot of those balls here B-)

The day he went missing, I would have never expected it. I usually let my rabbits run about my garden during the day and keep them back in the cage at night. So that day, as usual, we let them out. But by evening when it was time to keep them back in the cage, Miko was nowhere to be found.

He escaped through that tiny hole at the edge of the gate. Hence, the Great Search begun. There we where, my maid, Danny and I together with our torch lights and cap (it was raining) walking around the neighbourhood shouting MIKO! MIKO! at the top of our lungs at night. It was cold and dark, but I was getting desperate. I shine the torch lights everywhere! Drains, shrubs, neighbours house, but Miko was well and truly... lost. We ended the search when it got too late.

That night itself, I went and printed those "Missing person" type of poster for Miko. Next morning, Danny and I distributed it around p8, with hopes someone will return Miko to us. Well, weeks past... and no news of Miko still. I gave up hope. Is Miko lying dead in a drain somewhere? Is he in some wild dogs stomach? Is he in some random strangers house right now? I guess I'll never know.

BUT FEW WEEKS LATER, SOMETHING HAPPEN. SOMETHING WEIRD.

-to be continued-

You've arrived C:

2011-06-07T02:30:00.000-07:00

ITS HERE.

Whats here?

THE PACKAGE.

It finally arrived. It frickin' finally came!! and I've been hooked to it ever since. No idea what I'm talking about? Well about two days ago, I was on the computer (as usual) when I heard the doorbell ring. I looked out the window, and well wadya' know, there's this huge lorry outside my house. Two men announced that the package has finally arrived. Package? What package? and then it hit me. Even longer [3 weeks back] my family and I were wandering around IOI Mall when we saw this Gintell Fitness promotion going on. Needless to say, we bought something. A TREADMILL!! I'm so happy! I mean, this one is seriously cool. Got all the latest and greatest gadgets that comes with it. Don't mess yo! Hahah finally, a reason to exercise again.

Anyway, since I'm so in love with this particular treadmill, I've decided to do (my first time doing this sorta thing) a PROMO POST! This treadmill is so awesome, you should all get your bums of the couch and buy it now xD With that said, here's my Promo Post :-

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GINTELL TREADMILL (FT22)

Hi there! Don't look around, I'm talking to you, yes you! (cheesy promo intro here) Have you ever wanted to go for a run, only to be rudely interrupted by bad weather?? Well fear no more! Gintell's latest treadmill release is bound to put a smile on your face :D Who needs to exercise outdoors when you can do it the comfort of you own home. Go on, get out now and buy it!

Who needs to go outdoors? not us treadmill users!

This latest Gintell Treadmill is so stylish and sleek, you're bound to lose weight just by looking at it! (not possible, but a person can dream right?) It's ultra comfortable to run in, and it's specialized just so it does not hurt your knees as you run. Awh, what a considerate treadmill. Also, it is big enough to make running easy, you can go on for hours without even realizing it! Wait- provided you have some catchy music to run with of course. Theeeen, you can go on for hours :D

Such beauty, such style, I weep just looking at it.

So many functions and programmes to choose from, you'll never get bored!

So this is the point where usually an interview is fitted in so that the promo advertisement is more believable. However, in my case since I'm the only one doing this promo advertisement, I guess I'll have to interview.... myself.

NATASHA : How was your reaction when you first saw this treadmill?

NATASHA : Well, I wasn't sure if I wanted to try it out cause well, I hate exercising. But after a few runs. It actually turn out pretty fun. I SWEATED LIKE SHIT! hehaheha!

NATASHA : I see.. that explains the smell. But anyway, do you think this treadmill is appropriate for all ages?

NATASHA : What smell?! -.- but yeah, other than automatic, you can also manually adjust its settings to suit your style of exercising. If you're older, you can adjust it to slower speeds. But if you're young and energetic, go crazy and turn it to full speed!

NATASHA : That's great! What do you love most about this treadmill?

NATASHA : Other than the fact I look absolutely hot running in it? (perasan) well, I think it's this cute little fan attached in front on it. The wind blowing my hair back as I run makes me feel like I'm running for a Bay watch scene, except, I'm in fast motion of course.

NATASHA : Thanks! That'll be all. How bout a photo of you with this treadmill then?

NATASHA : Alright! You're welcome :D

-End of Interview-

HAHAHAHA. Go ahead and laugh at my lame-ness people, but I actually had fun doing the interview. No seriously. Moving on, another thing I love about this treadmill is that it can incline and go upwards. Lemme show you.

BEFORE

AFTER

It's so awesome, I feel like going up a hill when I put it to its maximum height. So, yeah... now I'm running out of ideas to promote this treadmill. Hrmmm. Ok, let me tell you a story. A story of a young boy...

MEET DANNY

This is a story of a boy, who cried a river and drown the whole world. And while he looks so sad in photographs, I absolutely love him..... when he smiles!! *love that song hor?* Lol but seriously, this is Danny. Danny is sad and moody. Why is he sad and moody? He can't go out and play. The rain refused to go away despite singing the 'rain, rain go away' song for the millionth time. Now, he has no hope of playing.

But wait! Now he remembers! He has.. GINTELL TREADMILL! No need for outdoors, he has a treadmill to ~~play~~ run with. After a few minutes of running. Danny felt a magical change come over him. BAM! Danny feels super strong. Danny can do this!

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Sexy! Cool! Hip! Behold, the power of Gintell treadmill~!

Gintell treadmill, we love you! Say fit and healthy with Gintell treadmill. With that I shall end my promo post. So what do you think? Okay anot my first promo post? xD Anyway, hope you all like it. I was just having fun with this post! Enjoy reading and comment me and click my adds please? ^^ Bye! imma go run on the treadmill now :D -xx

Go to your nearest store and buy it now :P

Guess who's back?

2011-06-05T00:32:00.000-07:00

MEEEEE :D

Hellow people!
and yes, I know what you're thinking. FINALLY SHE UPDATES HER BLOG. I'm sorrryyyy. Things have just been really busy this days, and I guess the blogging bug hasn't bitten me for the longest time. But the ultimate reason for my absence is cause.. well, I realized that if you stopped blogging for a long time, its really hard to get back in the swing of blogging. Like really awkward you know. So, yeah. You see, I'm typing funny!! D: BOOHOO.

Anyway, I was initially planning to blog about my trip few days back to USS (not USA, its Universal Studios Singapore xD) but I'm sure that'll take FOREVER. And I'm in no mood for a long post right now so maybe next time. Teehee! Today, I'll be blogging about.... :D :D :D errr wait- what do I wanna blog about? -___- Right, no idea. I'll just update you people with what's going on in my ~~life~~ mouth :P okay? hookay? wookay?

So lately my dentist added this latest addition on my already cluttered-with-metal mouth. She added rubber. I'M SERIOUS! You know what she did?!? She placed this mini rubber band things (kinda like the type you use to tie your hair, except, smaller x10) between my braces. And now, everytime I open my mouth widely, I resemble this monster creature from cartoons. No kidding. Lemme show you a picture.

That slime around this creature's teeth resembles my rubber.. things. No kidding.

Ok fine, maybe I'm exaggerating ~~a little~~ alot. xD But seriously! I think my rubber elastics look like that. Hah, I bet you all expect me to upload a picture to show how my mouth looks right? NO WAY HOWZAY! Eheheh sorry I keep rhyming my phrases, its just so fun to rhyme things! *awkward silence* weird. Anyways, fine! I'm not that cruel. To satisfy your curiosity of how it looks like, check out this picture I found on google images. Its pretty much same like my mouth :B TAA-RAA!

You see? YOU SEE? Same mo?? -___-

Never mind, the fact that I'll have gorgeous teeth after braces makes me feel so much better. Oh yeah, on a more positive note, those rubber elastics HURT! :D Why is this positive you ask? Well, it makes it slightly uncomfortable to eat. Thus, painful = less food consume = thinner me! Hah, what a nice cycle :')

Lets see what else.. oh yeah! My mom and I are planning to sell some of our clothes. We sorta have a "I got so much clothes but nothing to wear" situation. So yeah, I'll tell you more about it in the next post. Some of the clothes are honestly brand new + never been worn before and some are second-hand but still in good condition. Can you imagine me having a garage sale right in my own garden?? That sounds so cool, no?! Hahaha okay okay, I'm off to stalk people on YouTube now. Once again, sorry for my late-ness & also this post is pretty short. But hey, like I said before, I need to get use to blogging again. See ya later, alligator! (again with those rhyming phrase ^__^)

Walking down Memory Lane

2011-02-05T03:52:00.000-08:00

Once again, I managed to not update my readers about how my new year went. I'm sorry! Its just, I've been so busy doing other things that I didn't have the time to update. And well.. fine. I was just lazy to blog about it. But you all still love my blog, right? Right?? *hysterical despo smile*

Anyway, I kicked start my 2011 this year by once again, organizing a new year's countdown party with the Puteri 8 gang + the adult commitee. It was pretty last minute and the fireworks was an epic..... :D

FAIL.

So yeah, I'd rather not talk about that. Lately, I've been doing more blog surfing than blogging. Along the way, I've found some really awesome pawsome blogs! :) One of 'em is Kenny Sia. For those who don't know him, where the hell have you been living?! xD He's this really funny blogger from Malaysia. I. am. obsessed. with his blog. Some of his post can literally make me LOL! or sometimes, LMAO! Or at his best, makes me ROFLMAO! Well not really, but you get the picture. His blog = good. Period.

In fact, it is because of him I am inspired to start this blog post :) First of all, HAPPY 2011 PEOPLE! and yes, I am aware its February making this probably the latest new year wish you'll ever receive.. but oh well, better late than never eh? :P Anyway, before I welcome 2011 with open arms, I'll walk down memory lane and recall....

"10 big things in 2010"

1. Playing on a life-sized snakes and ladders board with my family.

Not once, but..

......TWICE. :)

But the most ironic part was, guess who won both rounds of snake and ladders??

Danny!!

This just goes to show Snakes & Ladders is totally a game of luck! (yes, I am a sore loser that's why I'm blaming luck for making me lose both rounds xD) Danny, the youngest in the family ended up beating everyone twice. While my brother and I on the other hand, always ended up the bottom two.

2. Became a guest judge for a bunch of ladies doing dance performance.

This was done together with my older brother and my friend Ivan. Also before that, we had to perform and teach them how to do the dance! Not only that, we also co-host that day by organizing a few games and activities for this ladies. Confused on what exactly is that day? Teehee! Actually, that day is my mom's annual "kick-off" day for her work agency!

The Dedicated Trio

Teaching ~!

The two awesome performance team xD

Posing as Randy, Paula and Simon (you guess who acts as who) and Judging~!

An awesome day! Can't wait to help with this year's kick-Off day :D

3. Went to my first ever concert :- The Wonder Girls.

The wonder girls in wonderful red dresses (haha I made a lame joke there)

Showing off the WG tickets!

Showing off the WG fan crowd!

Showing off.. err.. nothing really. I post this pic cause I think I look cute here :P

Doing the typical "nobody nobody but you" pose after the concert

Doing the typical "fan with poster" pose after getting WG freebies

and omg!! Met with my friend regina there! :D

4. Attempted to make dinner for family for the first time.

Uh-huh fail. Maybe I'll try that again this year..?

5. Separated from big brother for first time.

All my life, I've never imagined the day would come where I'd wake up and not see my annoying but lovable big brother the whole day. Last year, I had to go trough not seeing him for weeks sometimes. He was chosen for National Service which basically means, being away from home for 3 months. After that, he went for college that is a boarding school. Hence, begins the period where big bro will no longer be living at home as much as before. As much as I hate to admit this, I do miss him. Things are just not the same at home without ya, brother! Oh well, I know this is all part and parcel of growing up (I still can't believe he's 19 this year o__O). So if you're reading this 'bang, thanks for being my play companion all trough my childhood years, my tutor trough my exams and my joke partner most of the time. Sure we've had our ups and downs, but I'll never forget all my memories with you :)

Now that you're all grown up and leaving home for college and all... I wish you all the best in life and your studies. Never forget me, your beautiful and gorgeous little sister okay :D BUAHAHAHA.

Visiting bro during his National Service period. (Harhar bald egg head! Sorry, couldn't help it xP)

Bro getting the good news of being accepted to some college :D

6. Had my first taste of Disco Roller Skating.

You remember how effortless Jessica Simpson looked as she did some fancy move on her roller skates while singing 'public affair'? Well guess what? Not as easy as it looks! I mean, the skating part was easy enough, but when it comes to doing some stunts. One word : OUCH.

How the hell?!?!

Coolio~!

This is how OUR version goes like xD

Danny after a fall!

Brother smiling despite falling down on that ramp 100000 times.

Mom actually not bad, doing the disco pose!

'Ze Group Photo~!

Overall, I give it a 9/10 for fun! I THINK I WAS THE BEST SKATER IN MY FAMILY. ^_____^

7. Won second place in The City Stock Challenge.
My journey being in the Young Entrepreneurs [YE] Club has totally been a roller coaster ride. But despite all my ups and down, my BEST memory being in YE would be the 2 day event : City Stock Challenge. I was teamed up with Stefan and Edwin and together we made an awesome team called the "Oogas-oogas". In the first day, we had to learn about stocks and how it is in the real world. It was tough but totally interesting and fun! At the end of day, our team had to come up with our own buisness card, outfit, name and all.

Second day was the stock challenge itself! It was a full day of competing with other schools (plus our own school) That day was just all about stocks, calculating/balancing accounts, making wise decisions on which stock to buy depending on the current world situation. Man I tell ya, I felt like a real adult that day :) In the end, we made a whole lumsap of money! Big enough to win us second place! WHOOO!

Posing on stage after the results were announced :)

The whacko outfits that also helped us win xD

With one of the many tutors/judges there

This was later on back in school, they gave us prizes for winning :)

8. Jogged for 5 km.... ON A HOLIDAY.

The jog turned out to be surprisingly enjoyably and fun. No doubt it was tiring but hey, at least I finally did something different in Cameron Highlands other than pluck strawberries and well.. pluck more strawberries xD

9. Performed an indian dance for 3 different locations.

So what started out as a harmless little performance for school, ended being repeated 3 times on other locations. Puteri 10 and Puteri 8! Yo, we were quite famous for awhile you know B-)

Click ME to read about the performances

10. Wore braces!!! To school I mean. I was totally self concious initially, but you know what? Its not that bad after all :) People just tend to get use to it after awhile.

*actually I have no idea what to write for number 10 cause I have so many choices to choose from xD Another big moment in 2010 was my sweet 16! I had the best birthday last year and I'd like to thank everyone who made it what it was <3

With this, I gotta end my blog post now. I wish all of you a Happy Chinese New Year! At least I'm not late for this one, right? Heheheh. Bye! :)

Sun, Sand and Sunblock lotions

2010-12-23T09:33:00.000-08:00

Natasha's list before going Sepang Gold Coast

Sunblock lotion

Sunglasses (uv protection)

Sun dresses and scarfs

more sunblock lotion

~~Shaver~~

Hellow people! I'm finally gonna start my blog post on my trip to Sepang Gold Coast :D If there's one word to describe the whole trip, I'd choose ; supercallifragilisticexpiadilocious. Doesn't make sense? Good! Cause no words could describe my trip there. It was definitely one of my top fav trips.

One of the best things about Sepang Gold coast was obviously our chalet itself. I mean, seriously, room on top of the ocean? COOEL! My grandfather was fishing on the balcony of our room everyday of our 3 days 2 nights there. Anyway, we started out the day of the journey by leaving at the crack of dawn, 4 am. Hehehe gotcha! Do you seriously think I got the will power to wake that early on a holiday? We left around 12 something after Danny came home from his Yatchee school. The journey in the car was... was... was... well I dunno really.. cause I slept practically the whole way xD TEEHEE.

When I woke up, whadya know? We were already there o__O how long did I sleep anyway?! All I could hear in my faint half dream-half reality state was my mom in a deep conversation with my dad about asking for directions. Wait- maybe that wasn't a dream after all >:P Anywayyyyyyy... when I woke up, I saw the beach. THE BEACH. Do you know how long its been since I've been to the beach? The sight of it definitely knocked out any grogginess from the car ride outta me. We ate lunch by a stall near the beach and after that, I straight away ran to the beach to... camwhore xD

Now now, I also took pictures of my brothers okay? Its not all about me :P Btw, if you look at the picture above and look far at the horizan of it, you can see the long row of chalets on the oceoan. That's Sepang Gold Coast. The comfiest and cosiest and most gorgeous place ever. Man, since I'm promoting Sepang Gold Coast so much, they really should give me a free trip there again huh? :P heheheh

Danny running towards me at top speed as I, errr, took a picture.

The men of the family + a random cat

Sorry brudder, couldn't help it xD

After that, we rushed to the resort to check in our room. When I saw the entrance I went all "gasp gasp gasp we're living on top of the ocean!!" Okay, now is probably the time where I should explain to you the structure of that place. Allow me to go to goole images to find an image of Sepang Gold Coast for you... :)

FOUND IT~!

Presenting, the Golden Palm Tree Resort at Sepang Gold Coast~!

But the best that explains that place it this video. WATCH IT! :D

Do you know we even have this mini cars to drive us around too our rooms? Well, partially that's cause the walk to our rooms would probably take a long time. The stretch of road, also seen as the batang of the 'palm tree' in the picture above is very long. Imagine walking trough that in the afternoon (hot sun) ?! hence, the mini cars.

OMG we're here!! and look at that long stretch of road/chalets behind me .__.

So we ride mini cars!

DAY 1

So yeah, day 1 was all about just settling in the room. Well more like starring in awe at my room xD After the driver dropped us off at our room, we entered, I went like OMG! And ran in everywhere! The balcony, the rooms, the TV room, the study/guest room and of course, my favourtie place in every hotel.. the.. toilets! :D I jst lurrvvve checking out fanch shmancy hotel's toilets. Sigh, wish mine was like that. They had this frickin' sunked bath tub in the middle of the toilet!! :D Lets not talk anymore, picture time :-

Siblings showing off balcony

Mom and I showing off master bedroom gorg bed

The trio showing off the cute table on the balcony

Dad showing off the study/guest room

Brother showing off TV room

Granny showing off the.. couch. With style~! :P

After settling in and taking a bunch of photos, we went to explore the resort (minus grandfather cause he was already at the balcony getting ready to fish). It totally made me fall more deeply in love with the resort. There's something in the ocean I tell ya!! It makes me wanna stay there foreverrrr o__O Well, we stumbled upon the swimming pool area and the design there kinda reminded me of the design of the pool in Lake edge. Anyway, my dad, big bro and I played 'monkey' in the pool. Somehow, I always ended up being the monkey. IS THIS JUSTICE I TELL YOU?! Hmph .__.

We practically played in the pool the whole evening :) Then, when we returned back to the room, all of us got ready and went out hunting for food >:) Guess what's for dinner? SEAFOOD. No surprise there huh :) t'was good. I'm honestly not such a big fan of seafood, but the food there was fresh! Like, maybe they just caught it .___. maybe they did. Ooooh.

When we got back to the resort, surprise, surprise, my grandfather managed to catch fish!! I know its just fish, but the whole family when berserk. We were all like 'fish! fish! fish!'. Macam tak pernah nampak fish before. Eheheh :p

Go Gong Gong! (pun is intended :P)

Bro was so impressed he join in the fishing fun~

Holy macaroni, he actually caught one!! :O

That night, the fishes my Gong Gong and bro caught was just the beginning the whole lot more they were about to catch the following nights. Sadly though, we threw back all the fishes we caught that night back to the ocean cause my Gong Gong, being the fish expert, knew it was poison fish he caught. Could kill us if we ate it :O So after taking pictures of it, we threw it back to the ocean. Alive, of course. :P

DAY 2

DAY 2

I woke up the next morning as an ice block. Seriously! D: My blankets were too thin cause my parents and grandparents were using the thick ones. It was the coldest night of my life. But enough of that- Day 2, we were going to tour around the Sepang area on a bike ride tour and after that, we're going to the beach for fun and games the resort provided. Excited much?! I was!! :D

First of all, we had to have breakfast right? So our mini car driver suggested to us most cute little stall nearby that had nasi lemak & roti canai and all those sort of things. Needless to say, that was our destination! :b yum.We rushed through breakfast though, cause we thought we were late for the bike ride tour thing, but when we got there turns out! We were early? o__O Need to wait 15 more minutes. What to do in the meantime? CAMWHORE! Durhh :)

Bright and early ; posing in front of our room :)

so sweet :3

camwhoring while waiting for the bike tour to start

The pro-ness of my photography >:P

Lovin' the background

Beach! The beach! :D

Finally, after taking some shots and all, the bike tour started! It was nice ~~eventhough my skirt kept flying up~~. At least I got the exercise I wanted this holiday. Plus, one of the bike staff was a french man?! bonus bonus bonus xD

After the bike ride, we all went to the beach!! Its was pretty hot when we went out so I made everyone splatter on sunblock before they left. What? I care for my family okay :P TEEHEE. Just so you know, it didn't really help, I turn dark anyway after the trip. Pfft.

volley ball surfing sun tanning boat riding swimming sand castles sea shells hunting relaxing checking out hotties

aaahhh, a summary of what happen at the beach. And no, I did not spend majority of my time checking out the foreign staffs there *ahem* I was busy surfing and err... riding boats!

OH FINE D: As you can see, I fell more than I surfed! But oh well, still an effort eh? After that we went for lunch and returned to the chalet. That was pretty much how day 2 went. When we got back from the beach it was pretty late, we were all exhausted! and dark! So I spend the rest of the evening snoozing :p heh. But danny and daddy (pun intended again) went to the pool while my bro and grandfather bonded over fishing. (they caught alot more btw)

Bro doing the fish face, while holding the fish

When I woke up, I watched TV and watched the guys fish for a while. I was pretty much just relaxing and taking in the sea breeze and the serenity. Very calming :) Later on, during night time, we went out for dinner at the same restaurant we went last night. We are a family of habits xD

When we got home, surprise surprise, bro and grandfather went fishing again! And this time, my bro shocked EVERYONE by catching the biggest fish of the holiday! An Ikan Keli aka Cat Fish? I guess my bro just has the fish genes in him huh? Well that explains the smell he always carries around, heheh!

Good job! We ate that fish for dinner few nights ago. Not bad :b

DAY 3

So for day 3, the first thing I woke up to was the sound of my mom packing up all the clothes into the bags. Nosily. Anyway, the family woke up soon after and headed for breakfast, at the same stall we ate yesterday morning. Told cha' we're a family of habits! xD Soon after, where else did we head but to the beach! To try all the stuff we didn't try yesterday. Like......

This thingy-that-runs-on-windpower!!! sorry, I don't know what its called :p

When we reached the beach, we saw this couple of people in that wind car thingy running by the beach side, it look so tempting we all decided to play it too! However, the wind wasn't strong enough that morning. So at one moment you could be moving as fast as well... the wind, and the next, you could suddenly stop moving (cause the wind died). Dammit. So yeah, one kinda embarrassing incident happen while I was playing that thing.

My brother and I were racing lah, you know us, sibling rivalry and all? Hahaha so yeah, my brother was ahead at me that time. He was totally taunting me you know >:( laughing at the fact I was behind him!!. Then, karma took over and his wind car stop moving cause the wind died at his place at that moment. I seized that opportunity to over take him and skillfully managed to 'catch' the wind and start moving very fast :D HELLL YEAH, I OVERTOOK HIM! As I turned behind to see his flabbergasted face (big word, I know), I laughed at him and shouted "LOSER" while emphasizing the L alphabet. I guess, karma did his thing on me next cause guess what happen?!

My. whole. wind car. went. UPSIDE DOWN!

No, don't ask me how it happen (though I suspect it was the sudden strong wind, karma's an ass). All I know is, one moment I was happily moving far ahead of my brother while laughing at him and the next moment I felt a weird sensation while being tossed around by the strong wind, in the wind car.

Allow me to draw you a picture in my attempt to explain this situation to you, here:

That's me shouting help while being pin to the ground, while my mom and some random uncle ran to my rescue. P/s my bro was busy laughing at me while this whole thing happen, so I did not include him in my drawing. Serves you right, har har! :3

Somehow, this incident didn't affect my parents and danny as they also decided to join in the wind car fun and get their own! Behold :-

She caught the wind! Go momma!

Dad joins in the fun too!

After that, we got tired of wind cars. So we played volley ball with some random people who were also staying at the resort that time. Pretty awkward, but okaylah. Heheheh then the volley ball game ended. So my family went and played beach football. My big bro and lil' bro vs. my dad, mom and I. It was an intense match filled with lots of foul shirt pulling (ok fine, that was mostly on my part), pushing around (danny is guilty!) and screaming (my mom -.-). But needless to say, the winners in the end, was my mom, dad and I! BUAHAHAHAHAHA.

THE WINNERS

LOSERS :)

It started raining soon after. Perfect timing cause we have to check out soon anyway :P We returned to the room, packed our bags, rode the mini cars for the last time and said our goodbyes to that place.I was pretty bummed out though. This has been one of my most fun-filled and exciting holidays thus far. Will definitely be missing fishing at the balconies, playing by the beach, riding the mini cars, checking out the foreign staffs and eating seafood- wait, maybe not that. :P but the rest of course. I WILL MISS SEPANG GOAL COAST!

Good bye, I'll be back.

*at last I finish this post, my fingers are numb from all this typing .__.

A Change

2010-12-05T02:54:00.000-08:00

To change or not to change?

That was the same damn question that replayed inside my head again and again as the hair dresser snipped baby chu's hair away. It all started when my mom, baby chu and I were on the way to the hair dresser to give baby chu a hair cut. On the way there, my mom said 'why don't you cut your hair too? At your age, I was busy trying out new hairstyles all the time'. Moms, they always do the when-I-was-your-age-thing don't they? Well it worked! That got me considering a hair cut. Anyway, don't get me wrong, I seriously don't mind hair cuts. Just that, the hair cut my mom meant here was a drastic 'cut-till -short' type. It took me ages to grow my hair the length it is now from my very very short cut when I was in form 2. Now, should I cut away my hard grown long layered hair into a short cut again? To change or not to change?

Decisions decisions. Well, on the other hand, my long hair has been layered ALOT. While it can look nice when I let it go, it looks really thin and limp when I tie it up. So a hair cut would be doing my hair a favour by growing it thick again.

Time's running out.. as more and more of baby chu's hair fell to the ground. I knew I had to make a decision soon.

And then she's done! Baby Chu with her new boy cut. AWH!

At last, I decided to cut my hair. No, not super short, just cut of all my layers to even my hair and make it thicker again. To healthy and happy hair! So now that I've made my decision, I wasn't sure about which new style should I choose. After all, there's not much decisions you can make with short hair, right? xD

What to choose?

what am I getting myself into?!

snippity snippity snip

The whole time I didn't really care what she was doing. But when she got to my FRINGE. Oh my gosh D: She completely snipped of most of side-fringe! And now, its kinda like a short fringe. Hah. I look like a kid again~! Dammit -.- I'll just have to wait for it to grow back again eh? After the cut, my mom suggested me to go dye my hair to a lighter shade of brown. Nothing to drastic, cause I want it to look natural. So we dropped by guardian and got a bottle of Liese. OMG my first time dying y'know!! and I did all by myself too! I'm so proud xP

BEFORE

AFTER

Different? I know, different right xD Well so yeah, this is my hair now. Except, its browner compared to the photo above. So here's someof the feedback I got so far.

"wow, your hair looks like a mullet"

"nice! you have such a punk hair now!"

'"your fringe looks like shit"

"your fringe looks so diff/short now"

"I love your new hair"

Thanks for all the errr.. interesting feedback people :P Its fun to try out new things sometimes y'know? When you're young, you should always be open to different things and styles. Anyways, I'll end my post here. See? I am in fact, able to write a short post okay?! :P Hehehe bye, take care and keep reading!

25 Random Things About Me

2010-11-30T21:43:00.000-08:00

A billion years ago I got tagged on Facebook to do this note called '25 things'. Instead of doing it in Facebook, I'm just gonna do it here. So yeah, read on! :)

FACT NUMBER 1 :

Everytime I go to a mamak stall or restaurant whatsoever, I always without doubt, will order Milo Ice. Its become kinda a habit I guess. Besides, who doesn't love milo ice? Its the best most delish drink ever invented! Period!

FACT NUMBER 2 :

I get leg cramps very easily. In other words, pins and needles. I seriously don't know why. It happens everytime I sit crossed-legged. I know this is bound to happen if I sit too long cause the blood cannot run smoothly and stuff.. but the thing is, even if I sit for like a FEW minutes, I already get em' cramps. Is this normal? D:

FACT NUMBER 3 :

Ever since I stared watching this Korean drama called 'Boys Over Flowers' last year. I got hooked on K-dramas and songs. In order words, yes, you can call me a Korean addict :D and I'm proud of it too. For all you anti-koreans, spare me your dirty looks. I used to be just like you okay? I used to think the guys there were so girl-ish and too feminine, but now.. they look nothing but hot in my eyes. *dreamy zombie voice* come... come and join the Korean craze before its too late... OoOOohh....

FACT NUMBER 4 :

This year, I ~~stole~~ took a teachers pass, and never gave it back. I'M SORRY OKAY D: it was an accident! It was a few more minutes before school ended and I seriously could not hold back anymore. In other words, bladder was in critical condition! So I took teachers pass and went to the toilet. When I finished my *ahem* buisness, school bell rang. Despite my frantic search for teacher, I still couldn't find her...

I'm sorry, let me keep this as souvenier of this school?

FACT NUMBER 5 :

Okay, a few of you may know this about me already but for those who don't... You know most people eat their roti canai/ roti telur with dal or curry, right? Well, not me! ^______^ I eat mine with sugar. Trust me, it taste way nicer. The reason I started in the first place was cause when I was younger (like, age 6) my parents gave me sugar instead of dal cause they were afraid I couldn't stand the spicy-ness. Tens years later, and whadya know? I'm still hooked on eating roti canai + sugar.

FACT NUMBER 6 :

I. am. obsessed. with. my. hair. This is a fact I'm sure most of my friends already know. Early this year my obsession got so bad that I couldn't walk past one car without looking at the glass reflection to check/puff my hair. However! Its safe to say my obsession kinda died down a little after one particular incident -.- its embarassing.. should I tell you? Hmmm.... ahh, what the hell! Here's what happen :

I was walking past a car. Then, it couldn't help it. The glass reflection was calling out to me!! I could hear it, it was saying 'check your hair.. check your hair'. That was it. I went to the mirror and happily puff puff puffity puff my hair :) aaahh, satisfied. And that was when I saw.. him. Starring back at me. From the other side of the car window!! D: His facial expression was an exact replica of mine. We both had this omg-who-the-hell-are-you look on our face. Turns out, in my concentration on checking my hair, I completely did not notice that the car had a person inside it watching me check my hair the whole time. I swear, I got no face at that moment x_X I quickly mumbled an apology and RAN away. Literally.

FACT NUMBER 7 :

You know those lil' photobooths in Sunway Pyramid or anywhere else? I absolutely LOVE taking pictures in booths. I love those moments when you and your buddies go scrambling into another pose as the timer ticks in front, I love see-ing how gorgeous our face turns out (due to the good lighting) or it could be vice versa, how hilarious some of the facial expression will turn out x), I love edditting the pictures later on and adding those funny stickers and words, in short I love everything about those photobooths!

Oh there's more, trust me. I just malas wanna show all :P

FACT NUMBER 8:

I have a tendency to read back what I wrote very often when I'm writing something. Like, for example, at this moment itself, I'm gonna read back what I wrote from the beginning of the post..................Ok, I'm done. You see? This is so annoying but I can't help it. I will always have this urge to read back what I wrote every few minutes. =S

FACT NUMBER 10:

Once, I ate half an insect body when I was happily munching on choclates. Bleeeehhhhh. It tasted like.. shit! Not that I would know how shit taste, cause I never ate shit before.. but ahh, screw it you get what I mean. It tasted horrid! Who knew insects had such a metal-ish bitter taste about them?

Also, I once stepped on a...omigod.. COCKROACH! And I was barefoot D: Now that was honestly the most disgusting feeling ever. I have goosebumps even as I type this out. You see, I've always had this phobia for cockroaces. Ask any of my friends, I'm sure they know my fear for cocroaches, right Lim? Hahahah. Needless to say, that accident made me even more terrified with cockroaces then I already am.

FACT NUMBER 11:

The truth is, I stalk random people whom I find interesting on Facebook. I can spend like, hours going trough their photos and stuff. The saddest part is, I don't even know this people and they probably don't even know I exist either! D: But as long as they're interesting, then I enjoy browsing trough their stuff. Hey, you there. Yes, you reading this right now. Be careful, I might just be stalking.. you.

Be careful folks...

Stalker on the loose!!

FACT NUMBER 12:

I just finished re-reading my post from the top. (again -.-)

FACT NUMBER 13:

I recently developed a fear towards my own hand phone. Well technically, more like my... number? I should explain. Recently, my OWN number has been calling me at night. The first time it happened I was shocked o__O Like, I didn't know if I should even pick it up or not. In the end I didn't. (cause I'm chicken :P) It was so scary when it kept ringing.. and ringing.. and ringing.. and ringing... then it stopped.

Omg pheww. I was puzzled but thankful it finally stopped ringing. Then, I got a message stating this : You have received a voicemail from 012-*******. MY OWN NUMBER. What the heck?! So I dailed 1313 and listed to the voicemail. Man, I'm brave. Well anyway, the voicemail was.... weird. I could hear shuffling, as if the person or thing that called me was doing something. And breathing sounds. Scary. Then, the voicemail ended.

The following night, I got a call from my number again. I didn't pick up again. Why is my phone doing this to me?! I'm seriously jumping into conclusions. Is my phone possibly.... haunted?! *dramatic music*

FACT NUMBER 14:

When I was younger, I had this stuff toy rabbit that I love so very much. However, I've been neglecting her since I've grown older and stuff.. Anyhow, her name is Abbit! Don't ask me why that's her name, cause I can't remember either. My theory is, she is a rabbit. Take away the letter 'R' and what do you get? ABBIT! Haha, I was a kid okay? Probably my creative juices weren't fully developed yet :S

Told you Abbit was old :P

This rabbit name Abbit has been everywhere with me when I was young. I even took her to Korea and other holiday destinations.. sighs, I miss her, but we'll probably never be as close as we used to be. I've grown up now. :(

FACT NUMBER 15:

I care way too much about what other people think of me and their impressions about me. I wish I don't, but I do. I always try my hardest to please everybody and I hate offending people. Its so annoying cause I end up hurting myself in the end. Thankfully, over the years I have toughen up a little and I don't try to please everyone that much anymore. I still do, but not so much :) Push me to my limits, and I will snap back at 'cha.

If there's one thing I can sum up about what I learn in life, its :

You can't please everybody so stop trying too hard , and just treasure the ones that are worth it.

FACT NUMBER 16:

I realized my mom told me many tales (that I actually believed) when I was a kid, in order to make me do something. Now that I'm older, I realize their all white lies and seriously illogic. Here are some stories I can still remember her telling me :

One time, she told me if you don't blow your really hot soup/water, steam will come out from your ears. I was like "weaaallly mama?" and she said yes, cause she saw steam coming out from my brother's ears once when he ate something hot.

REAL REASON : She didn't want me to burn my tongue when I drink hot soup/ water.

Another time, when we were eating rambutans/durians, she told me if I swallow the fruit's seed, the seed will grow and a plant will sprout from my head.

REAL REASON : She didn't want me to swallow the seed and choke.

Anyway, as years passed. I learn science and stuff in school and I realized the stories were all just plain.. weird. But I know, the real reason she told me the stories were cause she was just looking out for me. Who knows? Maybe in the future I'll be telling my kids stories too :)

FACT NUMBER 17:

It is a known fact that I truly enjoy shopping. Give me extra money, and I'll go out and get a new shirt or something. But don't get me wrong, I can control my urges. So take note i'm not a shopaholic, okay? However, I must confess that I was a shopaholic when I was in primary school. There was this teeny weeny bookshop that sells pretty things. As a girl, I use to go GAGA over the things they sell there. Eventhough now, I'd cringe thinking of how silly I was last time.

I have impulse buys there quite a number of times. But probably the most huge and silly impulse buy I ever purchased there was this HUGE stack of 'calling cards' I bought! I mean, seriously? I still have them you know D: What to do with it anyway? Why I buy it in the first place horr?

Looks pretty, doesn't it?

Does it still look pretty to you?! Not to me. There's so many D:

What was I thinking when I bought this?

FACT NUMBER 18:

I hate cooking. (repeat that statement 100 times) Its more like, I fear cooking. I'm scared on the hot oil that jumps and pops. What if it hits my hand?! D: OUCH. Dammit, I'll never be good wife material now.

FACT NUMBER 19:

When I was younger, I used to take ballet and piano classes. One time, I even performed at IOI mall with my fellow ballerina friends. Aaaah, those were the days when I was flexible. Now I can't even do the split! I stopped when I was about to take my UPSR cause time was an issue, but I never regret taking ballet classes. It was a huge part of my childhood, really :)

As for piano classes, man, those practical exams really scare me. Waiting for your turn to come before you enter the room. Just the examiner and you. In one room. I can feel my heart beating so hard it feels like its about to fly out of my chest. But the relief you feel when its all over is awesome. As for theory, its not so scary as practical. I can still recall my mom forcing me to memorize piano term like allegro, crescendo and more. P/S - I got distinction for my last theory test! :D Unlike ballet, I still continue playing the piano up till now. Its a great stress reliever :)

FACT NUMBER 20:

Initially I was suppose to make 25 facts about me but imma stop at 20. This post is getting way too long and besides, I'm not gonna reveal all my facts in one post, you've just gotta find out the rest yourself >:) Bahahaha. Anyway, here's one last fact for you : I hate chocolates that has nuts inside it. It totally spoils the taste don'cha think? I love chocolates that has jelly fruits in it d: DELISH!

I hope you've enjoyed discovering the side of Natasha you never knew. Finally I'm done with this post, took me ages to finish it cause I kept doing it halfway and saving it under drafts :p Till next time, BYE.

I WANT CHOCOLATE! :O

Scary make-up = Fame

2010-11-21T07:06:00.000-08:00

One year ago, my friends and I organized a Halloween party for my neighbourhood. We had so much fun planning everything!! Thankfully, the event went smoothly. Real smooth. In fact, it went so smoothly that the RA invited us to organize one this year too! Too bad I was stuck in the midst of my finals went they gave that request, so I had to turn it down. Luckily, the RA was determined to have a Halloween party this year, so despite us refusing to organize one, they organized a Halloween party by themselves! YAY!

Thus, Danny The Vampire was born!

Bloody zombie, Green witch, Pink princess, Kitty cat, Vamp dude.

So yeah, on Tuesday November 9 2010, guess what? My friends and I appeared in Star Newspaper! I knneeeew it that besides ghouls and monsters, there was a few paparazzi among us! >:) Yup, I'm certain it was the scary make-up that did the trick of attracting them. Heheheh. Well, one problem though.. in my excitement to take a photo of it, I kinda lost the original newspaper piece (probably my maid already passed it to the local newspaper man for recycling) so I'm only left with the Online Star. Never mind lah, more modern, no?

and presenting....

TheStar online~!

and look, I was also featured in one picture on that article! Don't worry, its pretty easy to spot me. I was right in font y'know? :D

Yeaaahhh there we are, Danny, Amanda and I. Right in the middle. Totally centre of attraction, right?

errr.... not so.

Oh well, despite the huge crowd ~~making us less visible~~, at least we still made it in the news. I felt like a celeb with all the camera lights flashing. B-) It was one helluva night, just chillin' with my girlfriends and lots and lots of... kids. But heck, it was still fun! Plus, I learnt one very, very, very importo lesson.

The older you are = The less candy you receive

A sad but true fact. I learnt it from experience! Everytime we reach in front of a house and scream "trick or treat!" before I can even finish that line, the lil' kiddies all ran- wait, more like rampage their way towards the house and start shouting for candy. Thus, the older children, like me, will be left behind with this shock expression like this ---> O_O on my face. At last, when the crowd eventually clears and the big kids make it to the house, the people giving out candy will say this 'sorry, all the candy finish already' and then, my facial expression will go like this ----> D: WHY AM I BIG? WHYYY??

But it wasn't all that bad. There were some very nice little kids who donated some of their candies to me. Really! I was so touched :'D Such adorable little kids, I love them! And no, I'm not saying that just because they gave me part of their candy though that does count abit, it was cause they looked SO cute in their costumes.

Showing off my empty candy bag (mouth cencored cause braces too sexy :P)

Anyway, lucky thing I wasn't there for the candy. It was more for the heck of scaring my neighbourhood >:) A rule was we had to go all 'OOOHHHH' and 'BOOOO' that night. No kidding! So I had a blast screaming and yelling. Probably I ended up looking more like a spas cat then being scary though. Besides that, I think the walk/run around my neighbourhood was very beneficial. Beneficial in a sense that I'd probably lose weight (yay!) .....but then again, I'll probably gain weight later on from eating all the candy (noOoOo!).

Oh oh oh! Speaking of long walk/runs, my buddy Yi Jun broke her high heels from all that walking! See the thing is, I think Yi Jun and I were the hyper-est teens there that night. Running around all.. no wonder I got blisters that night. Eheheh, but anyway, Edwin ever the gentleman, gave her his shoes while he continued the walk in HER high heels instead! Hah, kidding! He continued the walk in his socks :) Heyy, it ryhmes! Walk.. sock.. see the similarity? Yes? No..? Never mind. Anyway, wasn't that sweet of him :D Looks like the sweetness of 'Mr. Your amazing just the way you are' is up for some competition >:) I meant Bruno Mars by the way.

Yi Jun (check out her shoes) on Dee's back as I point on

My girlfriends!

Yi Jun and I among the little kids! Yay!

And that's it! Sorry for my long overdue Halloween post guys :) It was a truly enjoyable and memorable night and everything you could hope for in a Halloween event. Oh, and the after-party which was held after the 'trick or treat walk' was fun too! I loveeee seeing the adults dressed up scarily, so sporting. Bravo!

P/S - If you think my post sounds abnormally hyper-er than it usually sounds, sorry, its late and I'm feeling restless and all.. so yeah. PEACE! x)

P/PS - I can't wait for the next years Halloween party! teeheehaaheeehaahahah!!

P/P/PS - To read the article on the Halloween night, click HERE