Crusade!

O simpla idee!

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 12:00:00 -0700

Ce ar fi, ca pentru o luna, o saptaman, o zi, sa incetati a va inchina lordului divin? Asa, sa traiti cu ideea ca nu exista "un creator atotstiutor". Pe multi ii deranjeaza o astfel de idee, pe putini ii bucura, si pe foarte putini ii lasa indiferenti(din pacate). Nu doresc sa fiu privit ca un eretic modern, ca un blasfemiator sau mai stiu eu ce insulte a nascocit religia. Doresc sa luati in considerare aceasta idee, si mai ales, sa o puneti in practica. Va intriga faptul ca dupa moartea "trupeasca" nu va ramane decat o amintire intiparita in mintea urmasilor vostri, pe multi ii nelinisteste. Aici intervine divinul, care, se presupune, ii ofera o viata mai buna dupa acest sfarsit(multi il privesc ca pe un inceput). Acest divin "ajuta" oamenii sa treaca peste greselile cancane ale vietii lor privind asupra lui ca un zeu a carui grija este buna-starea cetatenilor statului X. Oare, daca in acea luna, saptamana, zi ati dedica timpul inchinarii zeului vostru si l-ati canaliza spre inchinarea la... eu stiu, o carte. Probabil ca si cartea aceea ar prinde puteri supra naturale daca milioane de oameni ar crede cu tarie in ea. Va rog a ma scuza daca ati ajuns pana aici si simtiti ca v-am irosit timpul, regretele mele sunt alaturi de dumneavoastra. Dar(intotdeauna este acest "dar"), tinta la care am vrut sa bat este urmatoarea; nu sunt deranjat de oamenii crestini si nici de monumentele/ofrandele aduse acestui zeu. Ce ma nelinisteste e, in schimb, limitele asupra omenirii pe care aceasta (daca imi permite-ti sa-i spun asa) "doctrina" le impune. Intr-adevar, unele dintre aceste limite sunt de bun-simt si maniere, dar pentru a te supune acestora nu e nevoie de a crede in ceva, e de a actiuna cumva. Cat despre celalalte limite, din pacate ingradesc si pun frane in calea marilor descoperiri si tehnologiei, cat si a experientelor personale noi acestea fiind "interzise" de codul divin. Inca odata(ma repet, voluntar), va rog macar pentru o zi sa uitati de existenta imaginara a "creatorului" si canalizati-va atentia asupra dumneavoastra. Ca o ultima idee, daca alegeti a urma calea crestinitatii, va rog(eu si multe alte chipuri bisericesti) fi-ti pana la capat, fi-ti adevarati, pentru ca in calea mea intra foarte multi pseudocrestini a caror minte e total bulversata. Va doresc o zi placuta, independenta si libera(atat sociala, cat si mentala)

I'm all over my heart's desires

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Thu, 3 Sep 2009 16:19:00 -0700

fockin' long time since i haven't been writing. it's always this way, heh. what can i say, i write when i feel the need. as to say, this past few days i've enjoyed the life of the casual gamer. rly, casual as i could be, ending up to 6 games in less than 5 days. I really enjoyed them, some new as Dead Space, some old as Crysis. All in all, a good time, a time rly loved departing from the hardcore scene of DotA and from all the WAR that's been going on around here. Btw, i'm in a fockin' faculty now, it's informathics:). Ye, not the way i planned, but it's good... really good. New? nothing. Old? everything. Bye lads!

am I Ulysses?

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 05:33:00 -0800

Am I Jesus? Who the fuck knows, mb my father did but it's too late for him to inform me. Again, a long time has been running around since my last post, but nothings new... or mb it is. I love Franz Ferdinand's new song "Ulysses". The same hardcore gamer you know for some years, the same old me. But i found a new way; that would be the extreme daredevil stunts that the Jackass and Dirty Sanchez team are performing. Mb one day i'll be as famous as they are, either by this or by the way of the gamer. Tbh i've been thinking in the last days about getting... uhm, a girlXD. But fortunately, the gamer inside prevailed, proving once again that my gaming instincts are the very foundation of my daily life. What else can I say? Search youtube for Franz Ferdinand - Ulysses :)

Stein um Stein!

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 16:50:00 -0700

I feel more and more atracted to Rammstein, the band that made me listen to rock. It's been quite a time since i've listened to them, but it's ok. i'm back at the roots. and maybe i'll get the chance to rebuild my musical senses again, and probably i'm going to be a metalhead again(althou' i'm not sure that's what i want). A lot of people tell me that i should have a break out of DotA, but i keep on playing. i really don't know what's in my mind, is it good or is it bad, bud right now, it's the best fucking thing that i can do. so, when you're feeling down or you're not in the mood, just play DotA :)

Crusade!

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Tue, 2 Sep 2008 14:58:00 -0700

i'm quite sure that my future will be set on by this years actions. i'm 2 weeks away from the graduating year and i feel like it's going to be the end of my life(strange, i never felt that way). all in all, i think it's just the "Bac" nightmare that haunts me every day... and what faculty should i chose? should i follow the path of informatics or should i go on my own, and built a political carrier? there are some questions that i think only time will tell, but i'm quite anctious about the answers.
btw - my musical tastes haven't changed too much(well, i can delete heavy,glam,rap and shits like that from the list), i just enjoy listening to a lot of jazz and hardcore/metalcore(but, my dressing manners have changed as well).

is this life?

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Tue, 2 Sep 2008 14:51:00 -0700

some recent past events have forced us(me and my mother) to live together again. teh context is quite sad, it's really depressing, but as many said, i was HIS pride, and i will work and fight so that i will be the pride of HIM hence forth. i will continue the tradition of "Crisan" family, i will fight for national unity, for my future and for a safe-Romanian contry. i can assure you that he will not be forgiven, his name and life will be forever in my mind. it's just, i'm quite confused right now, i don't know which path should i take, wether i should let it all flow or fight for everything(because, as in the past, i'm an atheist and i believe only in me, not in any type of god). anyway, a new life has began, it's like a rebirth to me, i really feel like i will arise like a phoenix from the ashes.

just a gamer

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Tue, 2 Sep 2008 14:45:00 -0700

well, not quite. in fact, i've been playing A LOT since i haven't been writing. i think it's a good way, i got really tired going day by day thru' the same stuff. now i can say i enjoy my time, i really am good at the game that i am playing. ok, ok, some of you might have guessed it, it's DotA(known as "Defence of the Ancients"). you might say it's just a map(or mod) for WC3, but for me, it's much more. The map(mod) got a lot of popularity, i could say even more than WC3. the concept started in SC - BW with the map Aeons of Strife. it was a good map that everyone was enjoying that time, but eh, times change. the map has been exposed to some radical changes, and now, all hard-core gamers like me enjoy it to the core. it's great! i feel very well when i'm playing it, and i have big plans, and as a surplus, i really don't feel like going back to my ex-life.

forgotten

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Tue, 2 Sep 2008 14:43:00 -0700

i'm starting to write today(again). i dunno what started my need for "blogging" again, but eh, i'll get thru' it. what can i say, there are some big changes going around here, most of them are about me, some about my family(unfortunately, some sad ones) and about my idea of life/society.

just a normal day

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 15:28:00 -0700

i can say this day was a normal one... i didn't felt happy, n'or sad, i just felt satisfied on my human condition... i realised i'm nothing more than a mortal... i had a good time with my friends, i enjoyed slam-dancing in the street, and i enjoyed the cigarette i finished to smoke just before the bus arrived! i got home, did a shower, and now you find me here, typing a new message that you pro'ly will ignore ^_^! but never mind, i'm happy now^_^... at least, satisfied with my life^_^... cheers! \m/

i hate summer!

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 07:03:00 -0700

i think it was the "stinkiest" morning ever... it all began when my father asked me to go to a supermarket placed at the exit ov the city! heh, i thought it will be a piece ov cake, since the market has some buses that carry the people from the town at the supermarket! but omg, outside were 40+ degrees (celsius), and i started to boil! the bus arrived in time, no problem, but the climate was broken ( :( ) and i had to withstand the apocalyptical temperatures just to get to the fucking market, and find out that the offer is out ov date, and i fucked my morning... ov course, the road back-home wasn't easy as well, but ehh... fuck it! i got a nice dream and everything is back in order now and i am enjoying some hardcore now ^_^! cheers mates!

the memory remains

noreply@blogger.com (crusad3r) — Thu, 16 Aug 2007 14:48:00 -0700

one night wondering in the everglades... no, it's not an iron maiden song ^_^! today was supposed to be a normal day, with a gathering ov the "family" (my so called maggots, my friends:) ) but it all turned up into a big nightmare. it started nice n' easy:), 'though i got a little bit late to a friend's birthday... but i felt kinda good:), 'cause i was the only one who brought him a present, even if it was not such a grand one, it would make him happy and to "push the pedal to the metal". my present was an original racing simulator, X-pand Rally Xtreme, who's very appreciated by critics... he enjoyed it:)
then we all wend to a local pub, the Irish public house, where you can enjoy a beer and forget about grief and let it all "slip away", or "spit it all out" to a friend... anyway, all in all, it's a nice place, but you must be careful, 'cause it's easy to get drunk :(... and exactly this happened today... i gladly drunk 2 beers, but then tragedy came... 4 ov our brothers got overdrunk and we had to take great care with them... horrible scenes ov group-puking... omg, it was a real horror... i'm glad i was not one ov them, 'cause most ov them suffered severe physical damage, and even tried to commit suicide... i'm happy this is all over, and i hope i will be there the next time too, 'cause i think i was the brick that supported the whole refreshment process!
now i'm enjoying some Lamb ov God and drinking some Pepsi, the true drink:)! cheers 'till next time!