Teen Mom Double Trouble

Bella

2012-12-17T13:48:00.003-08:00

Everyone has heard and seen pictures of my little partner in crime.
Well here is Bella's story:)

Like you already know her name is Bella.
She is a 3 year old black lab mixed with pitt bull.
I adopted Bella 3 years ago, the week before my 16th birthday. To be exact I adopted her on 10/11/09. 1 yr before I gave birth to my two twin boys on the exact same day! 11 must be my lucky number.

Bella came from the dog pound. They found her in the middle of a high way in Orlando, Fl at 2 months old.

The day I adopted her my dad told me to pick over getting a dog or a car for my sweet 16. Obviously I chose my dog. & even though my parents still surprised me with a car for my birthday choosing my dog as has been one of the best decisions I've made.

I started my first job at a McDonald's near by one month latter so I could afford her, and show my parents I didn't need them to take care of her for me. Well all I can say is it was a good thing I knew how to save money because, 1 month into having my first job Bella had to get treated for mites.

A couple months later I became pregnant with my boys Josh and Noah. Bella then became my partner in crime. She became protective and wouldn't leave my side. She went on daily car rides and made sure to leave me some space on the bed at night.

When moving to Illinois and leaving everyone behind Bella became more then just a best friend to me. She's truly my other half. She was there for me when I cried alone, when I had know one else to talk to, when I only had kids to hangout with and need my down time. It may sound crazy that a dog can mean this much to someone but if your animal lover you understand 100%.

I absolutely can't explain my love for this dog any better.

I love you Bella!

The Twins are 2!

2012-12-06T12:07:00.001-08:00

Joshua & Noah turned 2 back on October 11.

They had two birthday party's in one weekend!

Talk about a lot of cake and presents!!

The boys had one party with their dad, Josh and a one with their mom, Jennifer.

Jennifer had over family and friends of the boys to celebrate the start of the twins toddler years.

Below are some pictures from the boys birthday party with their mommy.

^Jennifer rented out a bounce for the 2 yr old party!

^The twins Birthday cake!

< Noah enjoyed his cake!

**Shirts by: Bailey Boopers Boutique**

Below: Joshua couldn't have enough cake!

Update: Jenn & the twins

2012-09-14T17:58:00.003-07:00

It's been months before having an update about the boys and I. I'v gotten emails and comments of people saying they want an update so, here it is!

The boys and I spent our last few weeks of summer camping at Disney world with my parents and younger brother. The boys are little swimmers! They have learned how to swim with floats on:)

Now that it's september.. I'v started college in Florida. & yes, I'm still going to school for Criminal Justice. Making my way to be a Law enforcement! I have been spending two hours of my everyday life out at the barn with my horse Jack.

Back to Joshua and Noah.. They are turning the big 2 next month! Time goes wayy to fast! They are having a Dora and Deigo theme party! I ordered shirts for them from BaileyBoopers, I'm so excited to see them on the boys!

The Boys have been learning so many things, including adding more vocabulary words.

They have a play room full of colors and A,B,C's. They know the colors blue, red,yellow,purple, orange and green. They have started calling each other by their names. Its so cute! Noah has started the "mommy, mommy, look!" and the "lets go!" with the pushing added to that. Joshua has started the terrible two's tantrums! & I mean the whole throwing himself on the floor, kicking, screaming, biting, and hitting thing.

(Joshua keepin me busy before the first day of school.) >

Joshua and Noah love sports! They enjoy bouncing Basketballs around the whole driveway, Football is their favorite. They even sit down to watch a game:) I make sure the boys get at least 1 hour of play time out side everyday. We are a very active family.

(My baby Jack)^

It's been hard to make Florida our home after being gone for 1yr and a half but were happy and everything is falling into place slowly.

Twins: Joshua and Noah 20 months old

2012-06-30T19:09:00.000-07:00

  Joshua and Noah are 20 months old! July 11th they will turn 21 months old. Just a few more months and they will be celebrating their 2nd birthday!

  They both can now answer question's and are very independent little boys. They can count to five and are in the middle of potty training.

  It's summer time! So, the boys and Jennifer are spending a great vacation in Florida with their family.

(^ Noah is with green floats & Josh with red.)

   Can you believe these boys were the little preemies you guys meet on MTV just a year ago?!

   Here are a few more recent picture's of these cutie's!

^Joshua

^Noah

   ^Fallowing in mommy's foot steps? Maybe!

   **To keep updated with Jennifer & the twins like her fan page on Facebook.**
   **www.Facebook.com/JenniferDelRioOfficialFanPage**

Del Rio's get a page in the Chicago Tribune!

2012-04-26T16:44:00.000-07:00

On the 16 & pregnant season 3: Where are they now episode Jennifer mentioned moving to Chicago, Illinois and showing us how her life is now.

Here is a little recent update from the Chicago Tribune about what Jennifer is doing now!

Jennifer's article:http://triblocal.com/lindenhurst-lake-villa/2012/04/21/16-and-pregnant-teen-mom-takes-on-new-role-as-advocate/

National Teen Moms day: T-shirt!

2012-04-26T16:37:00.001-07:00

   Many big wonderful things are happening for May 6th (National Teen Moms day)
   One of those are T-shirts!

   For those of you wanting to know about National Teen Moms day...
It's a day for organizations that serve teen moms around the U.S to come together for that one day and make aware there are many people trying to help teen moms! It's a day to acknowledge those teen moms who have stepped up to the plate and have done their job as young mothers. It's a day to bring teen moms together to show them the support they have behind them.

Show your support for THOSE teen moms who have taken the responsibility and keep moving forward for the future they want!

   Buy your T-shirt now!

   && wear them on National Teen Moms Day! (May 6th)

   Go to: http://www.stand4teenmoms.com/your-day

Over view: Lucky One

2012-04-21T18:56:00.001-07:00

You all know I'm absolutely in love with Zac Efron!

Honestly though... you guys gotta see this movie!

I went to see the movie Lucky One on Friday at 12am to see this gorgeous man..

not only did Zac efron's ocean blue eyes and his body get my attention ha ha but this movie had my attention the entire time.

Kinda reminded me of my life a little bit but besides that fact it's a great love story & PERFECT date movie :)

This movie also makes you more grateful for our soldiers fighting for us.

If you haven't seen this movie yet.. make sure to go see my future husband lol.

National Teen Moms Day

2012-04-07T10:39:00.000-07:00

A few months ago I said I was going to find away to help teen moms.
Well, after talking to a group of soon to be or already teen moms I have worked hard along with a few other people to make a National Teen Moms Day. My hard work is paying off!

Teen Moms Day is the first Sunday of May every year. So, this year Teen Moms Day is May 6th!!

Teen Moms Day is made to support Teen Moms through out the United States whether they have kept their child/ren or gave them up for adoption. It is to show the hard work and the struggles that a Teen Mom goes through and congratulate them on the amount of things they have accomplished.

Yes, I know many people are going to read this and say "why should we support them when they got pregnant young" or "Teen parenting is nothing to be proud of"

You all know I'm a teen mom to twin boys and I'm going to tell you now, as hard as it is to just be a parent its 5x as hard being a teen parent, and no matter how hard it is or it can get I'm not ashamed of being a mom to TWO at the age of 18.

Us teen moms go through what every parent goes through and just because we are teens doesn't mean we should be treated any different. Every body makes mistakes. Yes, we are kids who made a mistake, but we are teens who decided to take responsibility for the mistake we made. & for society to judge us and say we shouldn't be awarded for the hard work we do as teen parents nor be told good job on things we accomplish and are proud off is 100% wrong!

That's why Teen Moms Day was created! Now, us Teen Moms get a day to be congratulated and acknowledged.

For more information about Teen Moms Day go to www.stand4teenmoms.com

*There are shirts and other materials being made for Teen Moms day, if interested keep an eye out on jennifer's closet on this blog*

The Del Rio's are moving HOME!

2012-04-03T08:06:00.001-07:00

   It's official, Jennifer and twin sons Joshua and Noah are moving back to Florida!
   After, a long year of court proceedings and being across the country from the rest of their family
   Jennifer has made the decision to move home to Riverview,Florida.

   She has made it clear that she misses home and NEEDS her southern land.
Like they say.... you can take the girl out of the country but can't take the country out of the girl.
   Well apparently that saying doesn't work for Ms.Del Rio.

   Jennifer will be moving back home next month and has many plans for her and her children.

  Ms. Del Rio will be going to college this fall in Florida and is still getting her degree in Criminal Justice but, has also decided to add a little something more for her life accomplishments. Jennifer also has plans on studying Paralegal in college as well.

We are extremely happy that Jennifer is moving back home where her and the boys can have a complete support system and where they all can be 100% happy.

   Sending prayers to Jennifer and the boys that everything goes well.

Del Rio's Family trip to Florida!

2012-04-02T08:14:00.001-07:00

  Joshua, Noah and I spent our spring break back home in sunshine state! Can't say enough how happy we three were to be back home.

  For the first time in a year the boys got to stay the entire weekend with their dad, Josh and other grandparents, Tammy and Mike.

  Through out the week the boys had lunch with their dad on his lunch break and spent much need quality time together.

Above Picture:
(Jenn,Josh,twin boys Josh & Noah)

It's been a year since the boys and I have been back home together as a family. It was wonderful to hangout with all my cousins and little brother. We spent most our time by our pool getting that Florida tan!

Above Picture: (Jenn and little brother Tony)

My dad has a Harley Davidson screaming eagle motorcycle that I always look forward to riding with him.

I'm daddy's little girl so our long rides on bike mean the world to me.

It was sad to leave home and have to say bye to everyone. It's pain full to have to say bye to all your loved ones.

The Del Rio's are headed HOME!

2012-03-16T15:42:00.004-07:00

  Jennifer, Joshua Jr. and Noah Del Rio are headed home to Tampa, Florida for Spring Break!!!

  As many of you know Jennifer took a huge move to Illinois almost a year ago. Since then, Jennifer has only made one trip back home, last september.

  Twins, Josh Jr and Noah were 6 months old when their mom Jennifer made the move. It will be the first time that the Del Rio family (besides grandparents Rico and Jenny, and uncle Tony) see the twins in a YEAR!

Jennifer has made it very clear to family, friends and including her fans thats she's super excited to be reunited with her amazing family and blessed that this time around her & the boys are doing it as a family!

   Jennifer is also taking a good friend of hers along with her for the ride!

   Looks like Ms. Del Rio will be having the time of her life in the Sunshine State NEXT WEEK!

We hope Jenn & the ENTIRE Del Rio family have a fantastic weekend being together again for the first time in a year <3

   To keep up with Jennifer & Twins Joshua and Noah Like their FanPage on Facebook!
   www.Facebook.com/JenniferDelRioOfficialFanPage

**Also.. Don't FORGET to watch the 16 & pregnant season 3 "where are they now" episode on MTV this Tuesday at 10/9c!**

17 Month update: Jennifer & the Twins

2012-03-16T15:13:00.000-07:00

   Joshua & Noah turned 17 months old this past Sunday!
   Making their way to being 2 soon!

   The boys have grown soo much in last month!
   They are now opening doors and copying every thing they see someone do.

   Joshua is a climber this month! I have a monkey as a son ha ha.
   Noah has hit the winning stage.

   Its so weird how they both do different things at different times.

   & as for me... I'm halfway through my first semester of college and doing good.

The boys and I are much happier these days & looking forward to more happy faces in our future :)

Where are they now: 16&pregnant season 3

2012-02-28T12:34:00.003-08:00

   That's right us 10 girls are on the where are they now episode!

   Its been official that the where are they now episode will air March 20th!

   Make sure to watch and get caught up with our lives!!

Update: Jennifer's relationship status

2012-02-20T15:33:00.000-08:00

Many people have asked if I'm with Josh or not.
No, Josh and I are not together. We are civil and happy the way we are.

Not to sound rude... but, just because I was on TV and in the media doesn't mean that the world has to know everything. So, I will not mention why Josh and I decided to go our separate ways and I will not discuss if we are seeing other people. If we are seeing other people that's no ones business. If we aren't seeing other people that's STILL no ones business.

So, don't get made when no one replies back to you on my fan page about why we aren't together.

Thanks<3

Update: Joshua and Noah's health

2012-02-20T15:23:00.000-08:00

   A week ago I posted that the boys were sick. Turns out all three of us were sick!
   Joshua had a 105 temp with strep and an ear infection.
   Noah had a 101 temp with a double ear infection.
   I had a 97.5 temp with strep and a ear infection.

   That week was sooo bad I called for back up.
   My mom flew in from Florida to help out with us.
   Even at 18 and a mommy you still NEED your parents.

   Now, that its a week later we just have colds and are still on antibiotics.
   The boys are finally back to them old self's.

   They have started to say and do many things since they have gotten sick!

   They now say hi,bye, what, oh, bird, go, mommy, and dog.
   They wave bye bye and know how to bark like a dog.
   They learned how to put their dirty diapers in the trashcan and pick up their toys.

   Found out they lovee puzzles.
   They also learned how to kick a ball and play fallow the leader.

Joshua and Noah also got a new table this week to eat their meals on and play with their puzzles and books. Its amazing how much kids learn within a week!

^ brother love (while sick)

^ their new table!

Managing life as a teen parent

2012-02-20T15:04:00.000-08:00

   Being a teen parent in general is a difficult task for any teen to come a cross.
   Not to mention the everyday life roles you have to manage.

   Here is a little peek of what my schedule through out the week looks like.

Mon, Wens, Fri: drop the boys of to their babysitter at 10am, be in class at 11am, pick the boys up by 12pm, make lunch at 12:30pm, put the boys down for a nap, do homework, make dinner at 5pm, give the boys a bath at 6pm, have the boys in bed at 8pm, and the rest of the night is for myself.

Tues and Thur: drop the boys off to the baby sitter at 8:30am, be in class at 9am-10:50am, pick the boys up by 11 and the same schedule as the above.

   Your probably thinking when do I get to go out and have my free time... umm NEVER.
My free time is after 8 pm. If I want to hangout with friends they either have to come over or we go somewhere where the boys can be entertained and its child friendly.

A lot of teen parents find it very hard to juggle everything and try to fit in some time for them self. Teens are use to having that freedom and not having to give it up. If you know a teen with that struggle try to help them. They are learning how to juggle life. When becoming a parent and wanting to go out and have fun you have to put your child first. At that moment the baby comes first.

I hate saying its about the baby because not EVERYTHING is about the baby. You have to put your self first too in CERTAIN situations for you to become something and give your child what you want in life.

The words "Your pregnant.."

2012-02-20T14:38:00.000-08:00

  Most of my fans have been wondering how I found out I was pregnant or what my reaction was when I found out I was going to be having twins.

When I found out I was pregnant I was two weeks pregnant. I know sounds crazy and your probably thinking you can't find out that early.. well I'm here to tell you, you can lol. I took at least seven pregnancy test before telling my parents. My first pregnancy test was with Josh.

  I can't find one way to explain my emotions when I saw that positive sign. I swear my brain stopped working and it felt like if the world itself stopped moving. For about four days all I could think about is how I was going to tell my parents, what there reaction will be, and if this was even real!

  I found out I was having twins while in the emergency room at the hospital (Tampa General Hospital).
I went to school for about two hours while in the worse pain. I couldn't walk nor even move. No one at school knew I was pregnant besides my close friends. When I got to the nurse I was soooo embarrassed to have to tell her I'm three weeks pregnant and in major pain. So 30 min later my mom came and got me from school and took me to the hospital.

  Three days before having the pain I was getting, I was bleeding so I was scared I had miscarried. The doctors and nurses in the ER couldn't hear a heart beat so they got worried. They sent me to get a sonogram done to see if something was wrong.

  No, twins don't run in my family and that's exactly what I said to the ultrasound tech when she asked me if twins run in my family. At the same moment she looked at my mom and I said "honey your having twins." My mom was the most excited person I swear I ever seen about a situation like this. I on the hand kept telling the nurse she was wrong and needs to check again. I called Josh to let him know what I was told and dang that boy was soo quite. I thought he hung up on me.

  In my other ear I kept hearing my mom say shes so excited to be having two grandchildren. She called my dad right away and screamed that I was having twins. To make the day even better it was April 1st! So my dad thought my mom was pranking him lol. So much for an April fools joke haha.

Sick babies

2012-02-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

   Joshua and Noah are sick today.
   Of course I've had to skip class and stay with my boys.
   & I don't mind at all!

   It sucks to see your little ones so ill.
You do everything you possibly can and they look at you with their drooping little eyes that tell you
   Mommy I don't feel good and I just want you to make me better

   This morning I woke up running late to class anyway.
   I was thinking ok well Joshua and Noah being sick is the worst thing today...
   That was a joke.

   They took apart their diapers. ew!
  I gave them apple juice.. They some how managed to take the top off their sippy cup and spill the juice all over the couch. They now are eating apples and Noah is braking it into pieces while Joshua throws his at me.

Then that's when I said great! Just when I thought my day couldn't get worse.. Joshua and Noah just had to wake up with little monster attitudes.

^ from this morning.

Lets hope the day gets better and the boys will be feeling better tomorrow.

What makes my day

2012-01-30T16:57:00.000-08:00

Have those days that its cold outside, you don't want to get out of bed, and have to go to work and school? You probably have them all the time.

It was a little chilly this morning and boy did I just want to stay in bed cuddled up with my dog Bella.
So, funny because I love it when I can just have that one hour before the boys wake up to just watch Tv and talk to my dog like a crazy person. haha.

Anyway, Noah loves to watch me do my hair and put make up on. He's like my yes or no man haha. So, he walked into the bathroom this morning while I was doing my make up and ran straight to the bathtub. He picked up that cup they sell to pour water on a baby's head, and I forgot it had water in it!

He wanted to drink the water so when he puts it up to his face the water spills all over him! Most parents would be upset because then they have to clean the bathroom and change their child all over again but, I couldn't do anything but laugh at him.

He looked at me said oh. lol. Then started talking baby talk. I didn't think a big mess right before going to class would make my day. lol. Wish I had a picture of it!!

But since I don't here's a couple cute pictures!

^Noah

^Joshua and my best friend! He was trying to get her attention. (always does that)

The boys also went to their first cheer competition this past weekend.

They had a blast!

When to say enough is enough

2012-01-29T15:58:00.000-08:00

Many people have been in a relationship where your constantly trying to better the other partner. We do it because, we feel like we "love" that person and care for them. There is so much you can do for that person and there is just so much you can handle. When that person seems like they have potential and you see it you try to help but, then they do the same old thing like always..there little pattern they may have.

What do you do when you reach your breaking point and your tired of the same thing every week or every day? Then once you actually react on your feelings they may not go as smooth as you think.

Next thing you know, you feel bad for how you feel and you feel angry against that person all at the same time. So, you start thinking about everything and you don't know what to do. You stick by what you said and how you feel but, what if that person starts to blame you?

What do you do if that person isn't just a boyfriend or girlfriend or even a friend? What if that person is your baby mama, baby daddy, husband, or wife? Then what?

Some might say its easy to walk away. Reality is, it's not as easy as saying it then actually doing it.

I'm NOT like the other girls!

2012-01-24T18:32:00.000-08:00

I don't read many of the articles that talk or talked about Josh and I but, those that I have read really piss me off! To let you guys know... what you see on the show is EDITED! Its a 40 min show! Mtv tries to edit every episode the best the can to tell the girls story's. Make sure to remind your self's that you don't see behind the scenes and don't think MTV shows every little thing.

  Yes, Josh and I got into a bad argument but, you don't know what caused that. The ENTIRE part of us arguing and why, wasn't even shown. So don't act like you know everything about us just because you saw a 40 min film.

My parents DID give me a baby shower. I had TWO amazing and beautiful baby showers that I'm thankful for! My family wanted a privet baby shower for my side of the family THAT'S why you didn't see it. Tho Josh's family wanted the camera's not to be their either they let it go.

I am thankful for my parents wanting to protect me. It was the RIGHT thing to do. They did what EVERY parent SHOULD do. I'm thankful for them putting a roof over my head and my children's head and letting me get my education UNLIKE other parents who KICK their pregnant daughters out of their house.

I'm sorry but its COMPLETELY WRONG for you to Kick your child out just because they made a mistake! Let me teach you a life lesson.... your not helping the situation by kicking them out the house nor are you helping society! Just like us TEEN PARENTS you too have responsibilities when you have a child. Its is STILL your responsibility to SUPPORT and TAKE CARE of your child EVEN when she is PREGNANT! Its not the governments nor the rest of the populations responsibility to take care of YOUR child just because your ASHAMED and don't want a pregnant teen under your roof!!!!

& that doesn't mean you kick out your son either! Nor does it mean your son shouldn't take responsibility.
   When a girl is pregnant the guy is pregnant too!

For those who also want to compare me to Amber and Jenelle. I'm NOTHING like them. In their own way they BOTH are good mothers. But for you to sit their and say I'm just like them or I'm "the next Amber and Jenelle" is wrong! My situation isn't anywhere close to theirs. You base your stupid facts off of 1-2 min clip!! & just because I dropped out to get my GED doesn't make me like any of them either! I'm actually more happy that I got my GED then to be in high school.

I know you dumb people are gonna want to "eat me up alive" after reading this... GO AHEAD!

   I stand up for what I believe in and if you don't like the reality then just get off my blog.
   <3

Courageous: The movie

2012-01-22T06:50:00.000-08:00

I saw this movie when it was in theaters and I just bought it Friday night.It's an outstanding movie! It focuses on the morals of a father but, in my opinion I think fathers, mothers, everyone NEEDS to watch this movie.

   Go get it!!!

   I can promise you it will open your eyes.

If your a parent maybe you can learn something from it.

   Ahh I love this movie!

   (you can find it at walmart)

Child Support

2012-01-17T20:21:00.000-08:00

Why is it when a parent files for child support the other one just complains?

Yes, there are parents who take advantage of the system but, there are those who do think of their child/ren. If your child/ren have a parent who files for child support for that child/ren then why complain?

Life is hard. Times do get tuff. Reality is whether your together or not you have child/ren to support. It's not about supporting the other parent it's about your child. If you sit there thinking you paying for child support, supports the other parent then maybe you shouldn't have decided to become a parent or parent together.

I can understand being upset with the amount of money you have to contribute when you also have your personal issues to pay for too but, why sit there upset and fighting with other parent because of how much the courts are making you pay? The other person doesn't tell the courts how much they want from you. The law makes that decision. Just like you made the decision to have a child no matter the age.

ugh! People these days. Grow up and take responsibility. Like it or not.

College!

2012-01-16T14:18:00.000-08:00

   I start my first day of college tomorrow morning!

   As, most of you know I'm majoring in Criminal Justice.

I dropped out of high school and haven't been to school since the first day of my sophomore year you guys saw on my episode. So, I'm super excited to be back in school & get my degree!

   I am shooting for my Bachelors degree :)

Since, I didn't finish high school and got my GED there are a few basic classes I do have to take and will be taking this semester as well. But either way I'm excited!

The boys do have a baby sitter who lives literally two minutes from my school & she is way amazing!

   I'm excited for the boys.

I know you guys have been waiting on new pictures of the boys and I will be posting some on my Facebook Fan Page. But, here is one that I thought was just cute lol.

Keep an eye out on my Fan Page for new pictures coming soon!

Mixed Emotions

2012-01-12T22:39:00.000-08:00

Well, the snow showed up today. I have never seen pretty, fluffy, sparkling snow before. Just the nasty ice snow. It was so exciting to see it. The boys and I went out and played in it. Joshua loved it while Noah hated every bit of it. My dog, Bella and I had a great time. I haven't been able to really run around with her outside since I got pregnant and today, I threw snow balls at her and got to chase her. It was nice.

Now, It's midnight and I have the energy to work out. I love working out. Once I get going it'll be hours till I'm done. The gym, sports, and tanning WAS my life before I got pregnant and I want it back!
In Florida we have beautiful weather year round but, now that I'm in an apartment everyday with now snow outside isn't doing it for me! The boys give me enough exercise already having to chase them around but I NEED weights and sun!!!!!

I moved away from my home back in Florida for a LOT of good reasons or I'd still be their. I've stayed in Illinois because, things have worked out for the boys and I and are much better here then back in Florida. Of course I was home sick when I first moved but I have now gotten over it these past few months. Through out the day I don't think of going back home or every thing I miss about back home because I'm busy with the boys but, now that I'm just sitting here in work out clothes my brain is having an anxiety attack.

I sit here thinking "If I go back are things going to go back to as they were? are things going to be better? Do I even want to go back yet? Then I sit here thinking "No, I don't want to go back yet. I left the bad to better my self and my children. Why do I want to waist everything I worked so hard for here to go back to who knows what?" I try to get my self to think I'm ready to go back but, I get this dumb gut feeling not to go back yet. So, knowing I still get that feeling just thinking of going back I know I'm not ready and it makes me scared to even step foot back in Florida any time soon.

I miss my family I wish I could see my mom, my daddy, my brother, ALL my cousins, my two closes aunts to me, I want to see sunshine, the beach, ugh everything in Florida!!!!!!!

Its bad enough I'm out here by myself with just the boys. I have no one here but the best friend I have made and the amazing people I have met through connections. I know It was my decision to stay and I know that as long as I have this gut feeling I'm not going back to Florida but, now what?

   This sucks!!!

At least I can look forward to starting college next week and hopefully I can start feeling better about things.

   I'ma go grab a midnight snack now and go to bed.

   Night y'all!

   This sucks!!!