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					<description><![CDATA[This series of liftings from my collection of commonplaces &#8212;&#160;​&#8221;​A passage of text considered to be generally relevant or appropriate, which may serve as the basis for a discourse or discussion; a topic suitable to the purpose of a rhetorician​&#8221;​ &#8212; was inspired but not furnished by&#160; quotation books​.When I started keeping a ​commonplace book​ [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<figure class="aligncenter size-full"><img fetchpriority="high" decoding="async" width="438" height="758" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/Seldes-Great-Quotations.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2184" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/Seldes-Great-Quotations.png 438w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/Seldes-Great-Quotations-173x300.png 173w" sizes="(max-width: 438px) 100vw, 438px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">The cover is gone from my copy, but I still have the pages&#8230;barely</figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">This series of liftings from my collection of commonplaces &#8212;&nbsp;​&#8221;<em>​A passage of text considered to be generally relevant or appropriate, which may serve as the basis for a discourse or discussion; a topic suitable to the purpose of a rhetorician​&#8221;</em>​ &#8212; was inspired but not furnished by&nbsp; quotation books​.When I started keeping a ​commonplace book​ over thirty years ago​, my memory did turn, however, to a&nbsp;discovery as a snooping 13 year-old to a paperback that&nbsp;my father kept In his capacious basement ​library​:&nbsp;The Great Quotations&nbsp; by ​<a href="https://www.broadstreetreview.com/essays/the-singular-life-of-george-seldes">George Seldes</a>&nbsp;I still have it​&nbsp;although ​now​&nbsp;it is in crumbly condition​.&nbsp;S​eldes was the&nbsp;kind of contrarian figure who appealed to my dad&#8217;s sensibilities; Seldes described himself in his autobiography as &#8220;&#8221;a libertarian, an idealist, a freethinker, a Deist, a Utopian, a Single Taxer, and a worshipper of Thoreau and Emerson . . .also a joiner of all noble causes, and one of them was called Friends of Russian Freedom, of which he was either one of the founders or the secretary​&#8221; My father was defintitly not in that &#8216;Friends&#8217; group, but libertarian and freethinker fit his often expressed beliefs; this is a man who&nbsp;also had Ambrose Bierce&#8217;s Devil&#8217;s Dictionary in that library along with William F. Buckley AND John Henry Newman.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">In the foreword to his collection, which leans so far left it was surprising it didn&#8217;t tip over, Seldes wrote, &#8220;<em>All great ideas are controversial. Or have been controversial at one time. The safe cowardice of omitting controversial subjects seems to have animated several editors, past and present, of some of the most imposing and popular volumes of quotations. They seemed to have lived in the world of the moralities of Queen Victoria and the customs and conventions of Mrs Grundy. To me at least their compilations seem unconsciously censored</em>.&#8221; That sentiment may have sold the book to my father as it did to me. The Thirteen year-old and seventy-five years &#8216;young&#8217; versions still favor the uncensored consciously or unconsciously.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Reading&nbsp;The Great Quotations&nbsp;as a teenager meant heading through categories on class struggle, clergy, compromise, ego, genius, Intelligentsia, and Liberty with contributions from everyone from <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mikhail_Bakunin">Mikhail Bakunin</a> to Samuel Johnson, Grover Cleveland to Daniel Defoe,&nbsp;Thomas Jefferson to <a href="https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/bergson/">Henri Bergson</a>,&nbsp;and Thomas Paine to <a href="https://wesley.nnu.edu/john-wesley/">John Wesley</a>. for our Irish-Catholic home, it was a surprisingly anti-Catholic volume as evidenced in its entries under the heading of&nbsp;<em>Rome, Roman,&nbsp;</em><em>Romish</em> with tasty insults from Coleridge, Dante, Milton, and <a href="https://www.britannica.com/biography/Girolamo-Savonarola">Girolamo Savonarola</a>.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The present tattered condition of Seldes volume is down to me because I lifted it from my father&#8217;s library 50 years ago when my parents moved to Florida. Since then it has accompanied me not always in careful packing or secure transport from Inwood to Yonkers to Saratoga Springs to various couches, futons, and concrete patches in New York to a basement in the East Village, a converted warehouse loft in Tribeca,&nbsp;A house on the highest hill in Tarrytown and finally to its current perch in a home office in Princeton where it sits in a leather case because the cover is gone that I impulsively bought from the <a href="https://rivoaltus.it/info-e-contatti/">(too) charming Rivoaltus shop</a> near the Rialto bridge in Venice.</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Like George Seldes, my collection skews individualistic; I saw no need to have a bunch of Willy Shakespeare quotes since that&#8217;s what fills the standard quote collections. My collecting quotations came from a similar impulse that George S cited in his introduction to the original publication of <a href="https://bit.ly/3WuO9Qn">The Great Quotations</a>. He was writing a great deal about free speech and wanted to find appropriate epigraphs but the collections that he cited were deficient; e.g., Nothing from John Stuart Mill on the subject, which is weird. So he started clipping and copying from books that he referenced and ended up with this idiosyncratic and ingenious collection. The same thing happened for me, but I had a great deal easier effort as by the time I started the &#8216;cut and paste&#8217; function on Windows already existed. In some instances, I did have to write or dictate the quote because it was in some online book that prevented me from highlighting the appealing text, but that&#8217;s still less time-consuming than the efforts other quote collectors had to endure. </p>


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<p class="has-text-align-center has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Tis well said again; And ’tis a kind of good deed to say well: And yet words are no deeds.</p>
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<p class="has-text-align-center is-style-info has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Wm. Shakespeare, Henry VIII</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Now in putting these quotes out there for others to view, the question arises as to whether collecting quotations and then using them is a good idea. Interestingly, George Seldes himself had no section on quotations. In fact the only things under &#8216;Q&#8217; in his alphabetical organization of his subjects are Quakers and Questions. The latter section starts with an entry from Niels Bohr, the physicist found in the New York Times book review on October 20th 1957: &#8220;Every sentence I utter must be understood not as an affirmation, but as a question.&#8221;&nbsp;That&#8217;s a good one heretofore not it in my collection, but now its is.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">And so, here are some quotes on quotations for this 6th entry in our series,&nbsp;<em><strong>In&nbsp;</strong></em><em><strong>Other&nbsp;Words</strong></em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Winston Churchill (1874–1965) observed, </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em><strong>“It is a good thing for an uneducated man to read books of quotations. The quotations, when engraved upon the memory, give you good thoughts.”</strong></em></p>



<p class="has-montserrat-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Montserrat"><br><strong>Four hundred years earlier, Michel Eyquem de Montaigne (1533–1592) said, “I quote others only the better to express myself.”</strong></p>


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<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">A quotation in a speech, article or book is like a rifle in the hands of an infantryman. It speaks with authority.<br>Edward F. Murphy AKA Brendan Francis</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>Quotations have always been supremely effective rhetorical devices, instruments of one-upmanship, ways of supporting any position under the sun with borrowed or stolen authority.<br>Justin Kaplan</em></p>



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<p class="has-montserrat-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Montserrat">It has been observ’d by Great Men, that&nbsp;<strong>the Genius, Wit, and Spirit of a Nation, is discover’d by their Proverbs,</strong>&nbsp;which shew the Wisdom, Invention and Disposition of the Country either to Virtue or Vice.<br>Samuel Palmer&nbsp;</p>



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<p class="has-faustina-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Faustina">“Flaubert&#8217;s mother said of her son that he had squandered his life on a mania for phrases. Or words to that effect. Flaubert, c’est moi. Except in my case it&#8217;s not phrases but facts, or facts set in phrases. What else could I have done with my allotted time? Facts, so described, are the tin tacks that hold a life in place, the shape of it I mean.”<br>John Banville, The Singularities</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>Words are our only source of noetic nutrition. Without them, we suffer anorexia of the mind.<br>Reinhold Aman, Maledicta 1983 vol. 7 73</em></p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“&#8230; words are wise men&#8217;s counters, they do but reckon by them; But they are the money of fools, that value them by the authority of an Aristotle, a Cicero, or a Thomas, or any other doctor whatsoever if but a man.”<br>Thomas Hobbes, Leviathan</p>


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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Make your own Bible. Select and collect all those words and sentences that in all you reading have been to you like the blast of a trumpet out of Shakespeare, Seneca, Moses, John, and Paul.<br>— RALPH WALDO EMERSON</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“Using maxims is appropriate for those who are older in age [when uttered] about things for which they have some experience. Using maxims before one is this age lacks propriety as does story-telling: [to speak] about what one has no experience in is foolish and uneducated. A sufficient sign of this is that bumpkins especially tend to make up maxims and they easily show them off.”</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">&nbsp;ἁρμόττει δὲ γνωμολογεῖν ἡλικίᾳ μὲν πρεσβυτέροις, περὶ δὲ τούτων ὧν ἔμπειρός τις ἐστί,&nbsp;<strong>ὡ</strong><strong>ς</strong> <strong></strong><strong>τ</strong><strong>ὸ</strong> <strong>μ</strong><strong>ὲ</strong><strong>ν</strong> <strong></strong><strong>μ</strong><strong>ὴ</strong> <strong></strong><strong>τηλικο</strong><strong>ῦ</strong><strong>τον</strong> <strong></strong><strong>ὄ</strong><strong>ντα</strong> <strong></strong><strong>γνω</strong><strong>μ</strong><strong>ολογε</strong><strong>ῖ</strong><strong>ν</strong> <strong></strong><strong>ἀ</strong><strong>π</strong><strong>ρε</strong><strong>π</strong><strong>ὲ</strong><strong>ς</strong>&nbsp;ὥσπερ καὶ τὸ μυθολογεῖν, περὶ δ᾿ ὧν ἄπειρος, ἠλίθιον καὶ ἀπαίδευτον. σημεῖον δ᾿ ἱκανόν· οἱ γὰρ ἀγροῖκοι μάλιστα γνωμοτύποι εἰσὶ καὶ ῥᾳδίως ἀποφαίνονται.<br>Aristotle, Rhetoric 2.1395a translated by <a href="https://sententiaeantiquae.com/2018/10/16/aristotle-on-whether-young-people-should-use-maxims-an-ironic-quotation/">Sentantiae Antiquae</a></p>



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<p class="has-times-new-roman-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Times New Roman">“A maxim is a statement which does not concern specifics about each thing—as in what kind of a person Iphikrates was—but it is general. Nevertheless, it does not aim at all general things—such as the fact that straight is the opposite of crooked—but about however so many things are the goals of actions and what should be selected or avoided in acting</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Aristotle</p>



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<p class="has-heebo-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Heebo"><strong>She had a pretty gift for quotation, which is a serviceable substitute for wit</strong>, and having for thirty years known more or less intimately a great many distinguished people, she had a great many interesting anecdotes to tell, which she placed with tact and which she did not repeat more than was pardonable.<br>W Somerset Maugham</p>


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<p class="has-text-align-center has-karla-font-family has-custom-font wp-block-paragraph" style="font-family:Karla">“Misquotation is an occupational hazard of quotation”<br>Ralph Keyes</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Why quotes? “Bacon <a href="https://history.hanover.edu/texts/Bacon/novorg.html">begins</a> his book <em>Novum Organum</em> (“or, true suggestions for the interpretation of nature”) by decrying two categories of thinkers. On one hand, some have “presumed to&nbsp;dogmatize on Nature,” inventing or borrowing a theory, trying to explain everything in terms of that theory, and “bringing others to their [preconceived] opinion.” On the other hand, some have succumbed to the “despair of skepticism” and are known only for their “complaints and indignation at the difficulty of inquiry.” The third course is to observe and experiment with nature, one piece at a time, striving always to challenge our&nbsp;prior assumptions. Having proposed that course, Bacon then offers a series of numbered “Aphorisms on the Interpretation of Nature and the Empire of Man.”</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Why aphorisms? Arguably, because Bacon is highly suspicious of grand theories that&nbsp;organize everything neatly and prevent us from noticing what is actually happening. So he is suspicious of the logical connective tissue that would turn individual propositions into larger&nbsp;arguments. He&nbsp;prefers to list specific propositions and encourage the reader to consider each one on its merits and to&nbsp;put them together only tentatively. We must stop to think about the logical relationship, if any, among Bacon’s thoughts.&nbsp;The form thus&nbsp;befits its&nbsp;substance.” Peter Levine</p>



<h3 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center"><a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/">More from the In Other Words series at this SubStack link</a></h3>


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					<description><![CDATA[Hurray for Samuel A. A. Levine and his NYT Op-Ed on Customer Service chatbots about a plunge into &#8216;the digital labyrinth&#8217; of customer service trying to correct an inaccurate charge on a hotel bill. He notes that &#8220;Whether you’re trying to return a purchase, cancel a subscription or recover a hacked account, getting actual help [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Hurray for <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/samuel-a-a-levine-28443861/">Samuel A. A. Levine </a>and his <a href="https://www.nytimes.com/2026/10/20/opinion/mamdani-ai-rule-customer-service-doom-loop.html?unlocked_article_code=1.KlE.Rc1Z.129DT2HD8mMH&amp;smid=url-share">NYT Op-Ed on Customer Service chatbots</a></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">about a plunge into &#8216;the digital labyrinth&#8217; of customer service trying to correct an inaccurate charge on a hotel bill. He notes that &#8220;Whether you’re trying to return a purchase, cancel a subscription or recover a hacked account, getting actual help requires a <a href="https://www.fastcompany.com/91409096/amazon-iliad-flow-prime-lawsuit" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Homeric quest</a> past a morass of junk.&#8221; Not sure about the Homeric part &#8212; no Circes ever appear in my brushes with these bureaucracies &#8212; but the &#8216;morass&#8217; metaphor works for me. My people are from Ireland, the boggy part and slogging through a morass or two there is unavoidable, frustrating, and exhausting.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">My latest example comes from trying to stop the catalogues we receive from <a href="https://www.instagram.com/thecompanystore/">The Company Store</a>   The image above shows how many times we&#8217;ve tried to stop these annoying mailings via the excellent site <a href="https://www.catalogchoice.org/">Catalog Choice</a>; if you don&#8217;t know about it you&#8217;re missing a chance to limit the recycling pile at your house. If you go to the Company Store website they say to call their customer service number to unsubscribe from a mailing for which we NEVER subscribed. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">That process fits the OED definition of Kafkaesque: &#8220;<em>characterized by nightmarish or perplexing circumstances, or subjection to a complex, oppressive, and seemingly illogical bureaucracy</em>.&#8221; &#8216;Seemingly illogical&#8217; appears an apt characterization because why would you wish to engender ill feeling among potential customers? And why waste the cost of the mailing? <a href="https://www.instagram.com/foxyeco_official/reel/DemiseKFQlg/">Foxyeco points out here </a>that these retailers and other companies cut down &#8220;Over 100 million trees every year &#8230; just to print junk mail that goes unread&#8221;  </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">So what is being tested here (besides my patience) given the name of this blog and Substack? The same thing that was being tested in the last Gilded Age: the power of corporations to impose their will upon citizens of the republic.  There is no dispute about the right of corporations to send out this dreck; &#8220;the (Supreme) Court in <a href="https://firstamendment.mtsu.edu/article/bigelow-v-virginia/" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><em>Bigelow v. Virginia</em></a> (1975), and more explicitly in <a href="https://firstamendment.mtsu.edu/article/virginia-state-board-of-pharmacy-v-virginia-citizens-consumer-council-inc/" target="_blank" rel="noopener"><em>Virginia State Board of Pharmacy v. Virginia Citizens Consumer Council, Inc.</em></a> (1976), found that advertising did indeed merit constitutional protection, though it was <em>less deserving of protection </em>(emphasis added) than social or political discourse&#8221; according to the <a href="https://firstamendment.mtsu.edu/about-the-free-speech-center/">Free Speech Center </a>at Middle Tennessee State University. But where is the protection for citizens against having to deal with unwanted materials? The <a href="https://consumer.ftc.gov/articles/how-stop-junk-mail">Federal Trade Commission</a> directs people to &#8220;register at the Association of National Advertisers’ (ANA) website <a href="http://consumer.ftc.gov/now-leaving?external_url=http%3A%2F%2FDMAchoice.org&amp;back_url=https%3A%2F%2Fconsumer.ftc.gov%2Farticles%2Fhow-stop-junk-mail">DMAchoice.org</a> and choose what catalogs, magazine offers, and other mail you want to get. DMAchoice will stop most, but not all, promotional mail. You’ll have to pay a $6 processing fee, and your registration will last for 10 years.&#8221;  It&#8217;s eight bucks now, but we did it anyway. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The growth of AI as <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/samuel-a-a-levine-28443861/">Samuel A. A. Levine </a>pointed out in his op-ed will further ensnare us in tangles of contact and engagement that are not wanted, needed, or desired. Will representatives on the federal level work to give citizens the choice to be left alone? This will prove consequential as the unwanted encroachments drain our reservoir of attention. As the Scottish philosopher and logician  Sir William Hamilton wrote 170 years ago in his lectures on metaphysics &#8220;<mark>Attention</mark> <em>is the voluntary direction of the mind upon an object, with the intention of fully apprehending it</em>.&#8221; Our current situation poses many involuntary seizures of attention and we ought to be able to curtail these intrusions. At the risk of appearing satirical, we can waste our attention all on our own and don&#8217;t need any help from conglomerates with offers for more ways to enrich them and burden oursleves.</p>



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<figure class="wp-block-image size-large"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1024" height="639" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-1024x639.jpg" alt="" class="wp-image-2171" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-1024x639.jpg 1024w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-300x187.jpg 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-1536x958.jpg 1536w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-766x478.jpg 766w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/attention-brian-rea-2048x1277.jpg 2048w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">Illustration by Brian Rea in The New Yorker for Nathan Heller&#8217;s 2024 article</figcaption></figure>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Two years ago <a href="https://substack.com/@nathanheller">Nathan Heller </a>examined this phenomenon of distraction in <a href="https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2024/05/06/the-battle-for-attention">a New Yorker article</a>. Nathan early on covers the critical concerns: what is the purpose of attention and does making it primarily a mean to economic exchange and value demean its qualities? Here are two illuminating paragraphs on that inquiry:</p>



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<p class="has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph">There is a long-standing, widespread belief that attention carries value. In English, attention is something that we “pay.” In Spanish, it is “lent.” The Swiss literary scholar Yves Citton, whose study of the digital age, “The Ecology of Attention,” argues against reducing attention to economic terms, suggested to me that it was traditionally considered valuable because it was capable of <em>bestowing</em> value. “By paying attention to something as if it’s interesting, you make it interesting. By evaluating it, you valorize it,” he said. To treat it as a mere market currency, he thought, was to undersell what it could do.</p>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The association of bestowing value means that we are giving something to every Instagram reel, Threads, chain, and, yes, Substack post. Avoiding the slightly paranoiac view that brainwashing leads us to such &#8216;gifts&#8217; of our attention, there is a huge difference in the appearance and materialization of items that require our attention that we never sought now agreed to accept. </p>



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<p class="has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Advertisers’ interest in attention as a measure was sharpened with the publication of “The Attention Economy” (2001), by Thomas H. Davenport and John C. Beck, which offered a theory of attention as a prelude to action: we pay attention in order to do (or buy). But there have long been varied views. The neuroscientist Karl Friston has suggested that attention is a way of prioritizing and tuning sensory data. Simone Weil, one of attention’s eloquent philosophers, also resisted the idea of attention as subject to economic measure.</p>
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<figure class="wp-block-image size-full"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="897" height="665" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/simoneweil1.jpg" alt="" class="wp-image-2172" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/simoneweil1.jpg 897w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/simoneweil1-300x222.jpg 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/10/simoneweil1-768x569.jpg 768w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 897px) 100vw, 897px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">the French philosopher <strong>Simone Weil</strong> (February 3, 1909–August 24, 1943)</figcaption></figure>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Simone Weil got me to pay attention to the sacred dimension of this action of focusing on something, of doing &#8216;one thing at once&#8217;, with her aphorism: <em>&#8220;Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity</em>.&#8221; The sentiment chastised me, multitasker notorious, but also led to adopting the <a href="https://cac.org/daily-meditations/centering-prayer-2018-12-12/">meditation exercises of Basil Pennington and Thomas Keating</a> as a way of practicing attention. And Weil&#8217;s insights that &#8220;<em>Attention, taken to its highest degree, is the same thing as prayer. It presupposes faith and love&#8230;Absolutely unmixed attention is prayer</em>&#8221; highlight the profanity of assaults upon mind and spirit by corporations. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">I know. This guy starts out complaining  about The Company Store not making it easy to stop their catalogues filling his recycling bin and somehow wends his way to a French mystic. But that&#8217;s the point. The world created by these various systems may have us devalue our attention but it&#8217;s one of the most important resources we possess. It should be held for greater purposes than dealing with corporate obtuseness and overreach. The test for us is to reclaim our attention, to use it for our desires and not to fend or foster the aims of an invading entity. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">At the end of that New Yorker articl, Heller is with a group of people, The Order of the Third Bird, who follow a Standard Protocol &#8212; Encounter, Attending, Negation, Realizing— to achieve a particlr form of attneiton especillay to art objects. Nathan is with them as they contemplate &#8220;a public sculpture by Peter Lundberg, &#8230; encircled by a ramp of the George Washington Bridge.&#8221; Here&#8217;s his final account:</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">&#8220;<em>A wind rose all at once. The waters of the Hudson darkened to a moody gray. The walkway traced a horseshoe shape around the sculpture, and, on an impulse, Nalencz called Realizing while leading the group to a position on the other side of the curve. They made a new phalanx, facing the opposite direction: five people giving everything to an art work hidden for years. Could it have been my own imagination that the steel flanks of the sculpture seemed to flash with new importance under the force of their attention?</em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>It was sunset now; the skyline of New Jersey carried a thin wire of gold. I watched the group wield their strange power on the art work, and it was one of the most real things I have ever seen</em>.&#8221;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">That&#8217;s what attention can do in the best circumstance: give us &#8216;the most real things&#8217;. In the Kafkaesque world of advertisement and flyer, junk mail and flashing displays, our attention is stolen, abused, and lost. I prefer to get real. And to hell with The Company Store.</p>



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					<description><![CDATA[Care, the verb not the noun for we want action not an entity,​ is a​ ​word  ​from  Old English and before that ​Old German ​t​hat originally signaled mourning, ​sorrowing, ​worrying in a deep unsettl​ed way ​. ​B​ut quickly at least compared to the pace at which usually words shift meaning, the verb care​ ​b​roadened in common definition:  To feel concern about or interest in [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><strong>Care</strong>, the verb not the noun for we want action not an entity,​ is a​ ​word  ​from  Old English and before that ​Old German ​t​hat originally signaled mourning, ​sorrowing, ​worrying in a deep unsettl​ed way ​. ​B​ut quickly at least compared to the pace at which usually words shift meaning, the verb care​ ​b​roadened in common definition: </p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>To feel concern about or interest in something; to attach importance to something. Also in colloquial phrases expressing or implying a lack of interest or concern, as in <strong>for all I care</strong>, <strong>see if I care</strong>, <strong>who cares?</strong> </em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">As important as the presence of the action of caring was so too became the awareness of its absence​, of uncaring. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">During the phase of my ​straight jobs ​that had me a counselor in the field of ​behavioral ​health​ (1976-1988), a great benefit ​was ​getting to work alongside people who had gained their wisdom from difficult experiences​, often from their own recovery from addiction. One of those sages, Laverne Washington, had a mantra that he invoked whenever circumstances seem​ed to be conspiring against our best efforts​ on behalf of our clients.​, ​Smiling widely and wryly, Laverne would unleash his regular basso profundo tones around th​ose words, ​<br>&#8220;<em><strong>Nobody </strong></em><em><strong>cares, T​.J., nobody cares.​&#8221; </strong></em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The slogan conveyed a fine irony​; while, of course, <strong>we</strong> cared, a reminder  also was needed that the world usually was not at one with our intentions and actions.  Expectations of sympathy were ​​​simple-minded.  Laverne provided the reality check. Such a slogan would be horrible if true generally. The welfare of us all depends upon somebody who <strong>cared </strong>often if we were lucky enough a whole passel of somebodies. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">We all feel better when someone <strong>cares </strong>about us, don&#8217;t we? Conversely, how bitter and cold the life of some fellow being who no longer feels such caring. The word care has been much on my mind because in trying to make decisions about which candidates to support the critical criterion for me is whether they <strong>care </strong>for their proposed or current constituents. The caring has to be evidenced by action, saying that you care means little might even be proof of unworthiness unless accompanied by actions that prove that concern is more than unctuous pandering, mealy-mouthed dissembling.</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">I could never have known so well how paltry men are and how little they <span style="text-decoration: underline;">care</span> for really high aims, if I had not tested them by my scientific researchers. Thus I saw that most men only <span style="text-decoration: underline;">care</span> for science so far as they get a living by it and that they worship even error when it affords them a subsistence.<br>— Goethe</p>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">What would that evidence that a candidate cares in the manner prescribed above look like? How could we know that someone would ​militate to fulfill our wants, ​to engage with our needs?</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">I&#8217;m still figuring out the answer to those questions, but in the meantime a perusal of those quotes in the commonplace book that dealt with that verb ​<strong>​C</strong><strong>​ARE</strong>&nbsp;seem to be an appropriate ​fifth&nbsp;installment f​or our Series <em>​In ​Other ​Words</em> two weeks before ​November 3rd,&nbsp;a very important ​Election ​Day in the United States.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"> I <strong>care </strong>about what happens to this country and ​besides those contributions and getting out to vote early I&#8217;m ​d​emonstrating that ​<strong>care </strong>by taking this action​ of a SubStack post. Will it make any difference?  I hope at least a few people ​w​ill rest​ack this post so that more people ​m​ight ask the question ​as they vote not of what policy someone proposes or the quality of their television ads or the​ir endorsements from other leaders but what evidence can we find that they <strong>care </strong>about our wants and needs ​A​ND about the Republic that is so important to our lives.​ </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">How would we know that somebody <strong>cares </strong>about maintaining our democracy? Have they actively stood up to those destroying institutional safeguards and obliterating long held norms of political Behavior? Have they gone beyond words and take an actions like our ​fellow &#8216;carers&#8217; over at​ <a href="https://www.democracydocket.com/">Democracy​ Docket</a> and <a href="https://elias.law/">Elias Law Group LLP</a></p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">My old friend, Laverne Washington, was right most of the time when he would say, &#8216;<em>nobody cares</em>.&#8217; But he was implying the remainder of that sentence: &#8220;<strong>nobody cares <em>except us </em>and our caring makes a difference in an uncaring world</strong>.&#8221;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"> Our caring about who gets elected on November 3rd can make an enormous difference in these troubled turbulent times</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">And now for this installment of <em>In Other Words</em>, selections from a commonplace book</p>



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<p class="has-secondary-color has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-2 wp-block-paragraph">&#8220;<strong><em>A civilization cannot thrive on strength without care, nor on care without strength. To exalt only one side is to create a lopsided household, as dysfunctional as a marriage in which one spouse dominates and the other disappears. Flourishing comes in the dance—masculine initiative yoked to feminine nurture, vulnerability without fragility, and strength without cruelty</em>&#8220;</strong><br>Paul Anleitner</p>



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<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Therefore, you should take care that your children are full of the goods of both intellect and learning, as the riches of the greatest fortune<br>Francesco Filelfo, Letter to Lorenzo</p>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em><strong>“When God gives out talent, He doesn&#8217;t care whom He gives it to.&#8221;<br>Joe Queenan, circa 1992.</strong></em></p>



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<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’</p>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">‘That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat.</p>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">‘I don’t much <strong><em>care</em></strong> where-‘said Alice</p>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">‘Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat.</p>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">‘-so long as I get SOMEWHERE,’ Alice added as an explanation.</p>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat<br>&nbsp;~ (Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll)</p>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a><em>“Show me,” Wittgenstein liked to say, “how a man uses a word and I&#8217;ll tell you what he really thinks about it.” No word in a context can have more meaning than the writer thinks into it. When a writer does not <strong>care </strong>about the meaning of a word, we know it. We also know how a man <strong>cares </strong>about words; We know from his words what he honors, what he is unaware of, and how he modifies with his individual use of it the culture in which he exists.&#8221;</em><br>Guy Davenport</a></p>



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<p class="has-text-align-center is-style-quote has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph"><strong><em>“A man’s first care should be to avoid the reproaches of his own heart.” Joseph Addison</em></strong></p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><strong><mark style="background-color:rgba(0, 0, 0, 0)" class="has-inline-color has-secondary-color">When you read you make it clear that you have withdrawn your attention from those around you. Perhaps your interest and concern. Who can tell? You are not available. The ability to be physically present but not actually there is a disturbing reminder that people who are supposed to love and <span style="text-decoration: underline;">care </span>for you live inside their own heads and that their thoughts are their own. It can be a worry.</mark></strong><br>Jenny Diski</p>



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<figure class="wp-block-pullquote"><blockquote><p>A man may do an immense deal of good, if he does not care who gets the credit for it.</p><cite>Father Strickland, SJ</cite></blockquote></figure>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a>“If, at the time of our deaths, there are people alive whom we love or about whom we <strong>care </strong>deeply, and with whom we have valuable personal relationships, then one effect of our deaths will be to disrupt those relationships. Odd as it may sound, I think that there is something that strikes us as desirable or at any rate comforting about having one’s death involve this kind of relational disruption. It is not that the disruptions per se are desirable or comforting, but rather that the prospect of having one’s death involve such disruptions affects one’s perceived relation to the future. If at the time of one’s death one will be a participant in a larger or smaller network of valuable personal relationships, and if the effect of one’s death will be to wrench one out of that network, then this can affect one’s pre- mortem understanding of the afterlife: the future that will unfold after one is gone. In a certain sense, it personalizes one’s relation to that future. Rather than looming simply as a blank eternity of non-existence, the future can be conceptualized with reference to an ongoing social world in which one retains a social identity. One can imagine oneself into that world simply by imagining the resumption of one’s pre-mortem relationships with people who will themselves continue to exist and to remember and <strong>care </strong>for one. One needn’t fear, as many people apparently do, that one will simply be forgotten as soon as one is gone. In fact, to a surprising extent, many people seem to feel that not being remembered is what being “gone” really consists in and, correspondingly, those who are bereaved often feel a powerful imperative not to forget the people they have lost. Faced with the fear of being forgotten, the fact that there are other people who value their relations with you and who will continue to live after you have died makes it possible to feel that you have a place in the social world of the future even if, due to the inconvenient fact of your death, you will not actually be able to take advantage of it. <strong>The world of the future becomes, as it were, more like a party one had to leave early and less like a gathering of strangers</strong>. …The fact is that it does matter to us to have other people we <strong>care </strong>about live on after we die, and it also matters to us to be remembered, at least for awhile. These things matter to us, I have argued, partly because they help to personalize our relation to the future.”<br>Samuel Scheffler, THE AFTERLIFE, The Tanner Lectures on Human Values, 2012</a></p>



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<p class="has-text-align-center wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/p/in-other-words-4?r=a5da&amp;utm_campaign=post-expanded-share&amp;utm_medium=web"><strong>In Other Words # 4 is here</strong></a> </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/p/in-other-words-3">3 is here</a></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">and more quotations <a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/p/in-other-words">here</a></p>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 15 Sep 2026 22:03:06 +0000</pubDate>
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					<description><![CDATA[5 seconds ago Some quotes about the future from my commonplace book “People like us, who believe in physics,” Albert Einstein wrote in a letter of condolence on the death of a friend, “know that the distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”&#160; “I know when a man talks of [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Some quotes about the future from my commonplace book</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>“People like us, who believe in physics,” Albert Einstein wrote in a letter of condolence on the death of a friend, “know that the distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”</em>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“I know when a man talks of posterity in matters of this nature he is looked upon with an eye of ridicule by the cunning and selfish part of&nbsp;mankind. Most people are of the humour of an old fellow of a&nbsp;college, who when he was pressed by the society to come into something that might redound to the good of their successors, grew very peevish,&nbsp;We&nbsp;are always doing, says he, something for posterity, but I would fain see posterity do something for us.”&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>Thomas Stafford as reported by Joseph Addison&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“We busy ourselves trying to change life so that our descendants might be happy, yet they will say, as is the custom: ‘<em>Things were better before; life today is worse than it used to be.’</em>”&nbsp;<br>Anton Chekhov</p>



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<li>Мы хлопочем, чтобы изменить жизнь, чтобы потомки были счастливы, а потомки скажут по обыкновению: прежде лучше было, теперешняя жизнь хуже прежней <br> </li>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>“Past experience carries with its advantages the drawback that things never happen the same way again,” wrote Churchill in his memoirs. “Otherwise&nbsp;I suppose life would be too easy.”</em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>“</em>Who controls the past controls the&nbsp;future.&nbsp;Who controls the present controls the past.”&nbsp;<br>George Orwell,&nbsp;<em>1984</em>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“We look at the present through a rear-view mirror. We march backwards into the future.”<br>Marshall&nbsp;McLuhan&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“<em>People are always shouting they want to create a better future.&nbsp;It’s&nbsp;not true. The future is an apathetic void of no interest to anyone. The past is full of life, eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us, tempt&nbsp;us to destroy or repaint it. The only reason people want to be masters of the future is to change the past.</em>”&nbsp;<br><em>Milan Kundera</em>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“The best way to predict the future is to invent it”<br>Alan Kay&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>&nbsp;“The race is not always to the swift, nor the battle to the strong; but that is the way to bet.”</em>&nbsp;<br><em>Hugh Keough</em>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">“To expect the unexpected shows a thoroughly modern intellect.”&nbsp;&nbsp;<br><strong>–Oscar Wilde</strong></p>



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		<title>25 Years Past 09/11 Reminds Me of Pynchon </title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 11 Sep 2026 21:23:29 +0000</pubDate>
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					<description><![CDATA[Why do we write about 9/11? I’ll brook no denials of thqt phenomenon; ubiquitous remembrances prevail this week. We do it because we care and remember the caring of that time. Why add to the mass of recollections and reminiscence? Because we were part of something terrible that seems wrong to forget while also wishful of recapturing the unexpected graces arising from those horrors. The [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<figure class="aligncenter size-full"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="461" height="255" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/ant-sits-atop-white-peony-260nw-2694182339-1.jpg" alt="" class="wp-image-2129" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/ant-sits-atop-white-peony-260nw-2694182339-1.jpg 461w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/ant-sits-atop-white-peony-260nw-2694182339-1-300x166.jpg 300w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 461px) 100vw, 461px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">Me before reading the passage below from Pynchon&#8217;s <strong><em>V</em></strong></figcaption></figure>
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<p class="has-text-align-left wp-block-paragraph">Why do we write about 9/11? I’ll brook no denials of thqt phenomenon; ubiquitous remembrances prevail this week. We do it because we care and remember the caring of that time. Why add to the mass of recollections and reminiscence? Because we were part of something terrible that seems wrong to forget while also wishful of recapturing the unexpected graces arising from those horrors. The quotidian nature of our lives, the rushing from here to there to do this or that blocks out the reality that we are always part of something, and then a massive misfortune makes our painful connectedness unavoidable or a triumph (‘<em>Knicks in Five!</em>”) produces a giddy synesthesia. Recognizing that we are part of a larger body might be painful or pleasurable, but it is always revealing that the caring about something is widely shared.  25 years ago, September 11th 2001, summer not yet done, the connectedness was inescapable for me and the many.</p>


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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">In my early twenties, Thomas Pynchon yanked me momentarily but unforgettably above my self-centered complacency Into at least an awareness of my connectedness with this passage from his novel <strong><em>V</em></strong>: </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>“Twenty days before the Dog Star moved into conjunction with the sun, the dog  days began. The world started to run more and more afoul of the inanimate.  Fifteen were killed in a train wreck near Oaxaca, Mexico, on 1 July. The  next day fifteen people died when an apartment house collapsed in Madrid.  July 4 a bus fell into a river near Karachi and thirty-one passengers  drowned. Thirty-nine more were drowned two days later in a tropical storm in  the central Philippines. 9 July the Aegean Islands were hit by an earthquake  and tidal waves, which killed forty-three. 14 July a MATS plane crashed  after takeoff from McGuire Air Force Base in New Jersey, killing forty-five.  An earthquake at Anjar, India, 21 July, killed 117. From 22 to 24 July  floods rampaged in central and southern Iran, killing three hundred. 28 July  a bus ran off a ferryboat at Kuopio, Finland, and fifteen were killed. Four  petroleum tanks blew up near Dumas, Texas, 29 July, killing nineteen. 1  August, seventeen died in a train wreck near Rio de Janeiro. Fifteen more died the 4th and 5th, in floods in southwest Pennsylvania. 2161 people died  the same week in a typhoon which hit Chekiang, Honan and Hopeh Provinces. 7  August six dynamite trucks blew up in Cali, Colombia, killing about 1100.  The same day there was a train wreck at Prerov, Czechoslovakia, killing  nine. The next day 262 miners, trapped by fire, died in a coal mine under Marcinelle, in Belgium. Ice avalanches on Mont Blanc swept fifteen mountain  climbers into the kingdom of death in the week 12 to 18 August. The same  week a gas explosion in Monticello, Utah, killed fifteen and a typhoon  through Japan and Okinawa killed thirty. Twenty-nine more coal miners died  of gas poisoning in a mine in Upper Silesia on 27 August. Also on the 27th a  Navy bomber crashed among houses in Sanford, Florida, and killed four. Next  day a gas explosion in Montreal killed seven and flash floods in Turkey  killed 138. These were the mass deaths. There were also the attendant maimed,  malfunctioning, homeless, lorn. <strong>It happens every month in a succession of  encounters between groups of living and a congruent world &#8211; which simply  doesn&#8217;t care. </strong>Look in any yearly Almanac, under ‘Disasters’ &#8211; which is where  the figures above come from. The business is transacted month after month  after month.”</em> </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">All those souls every day lost to disasters and we had nary a word about them. Even though I grew up in the 1950s and &#8217;60s with the advantage of men in suits and ties soberly telling us about the workings of the world every night on our black and white TV and two daily newspapers delivered, similarly black and white, spreading before us additional dispatches on the events and antics of humans, this paragraph shook me out of the littleness of my comprehension.  Most of us lived our lives and experienced our universe like the ink-black ants seen in the garden every year crawling on the white peonies, taking their journey on that flower and back to the anthill as encompassing their only and whole cosmos.  Suddenly Pynchon conveyed to me that my usual condition was one of not knowing squared, of nearsightedness in my soul.  </p>



<p class="has-text-align-left wp-block-paragraph"> On Tuesday, September 11th 2001, I was back in that usual tunnel-visioned condition because I had things to do, a situation that tends to sharpen the focus on what is dangerously, urgently, or just burdensomely in front of our nose. Still an organizational consultant then (the term covered a multitude of gigs, pitches, skills, and sins) just a few months before ETS would hire me as their first (and as far as I know only legitimate) Chief Learning Officer, this was an off day from the engagements that had me traveling to Dallas and Denver, Pittsburgh and Princeton. But there were still things for me to do. My father, John T. Elliott, had developed late onset Parkinsons that didn&#8217;t become evident or get diagnosed until four years earlier when he was almost eighty. My mother&#8217;s death just after the turn into this century resulted in our family moving him from Florida to New York City, first at my saintly brother Brendan&#8217;s house with his wife Barbara and then through the extraordinary assistance of my equally saintly sister Irene to an assisted living facility run by the Catholic archdiocese, exquisitely situated on upper 5th Avenue across from the gorgeous Conservancy Gardens of Central Park. </p>



<div aria-label="Collage Gallery" class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage alignwide is-style-tiled has-caption-style-dark has-custom-gutter" style="--coblocks-custom-gutter:0em"><ul><li class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__item item-1"><figure class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__figure"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="387" height="516" alt="Gallery Image" class="wp-image-2132" data-id="2132" data-index="0" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-gardens.jpg" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-gardens.jpg 387w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-gardens-225x300.jpg 225w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 387px) 100vw, 387px" /><figcaption class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__caption">The Conservatory Gardens, a jewel in NYC</figcaption></figure></li><li class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__item item-2"><figure class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__figure"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1024" height="683" alt="Gallery Image" class="wp-image-2133" data-id="2133" data-imglink="" data-index="1" data-link="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/?attachment_id=2133" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-1024x683.jpg" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-300x200.jpg 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-768x512.jpg 768w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-1536x1024.jpg 1536w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/South-Garden-Spring_6255-scaled-1-2048x1366.jpg 2048w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px" /></figure></li><li class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__item item-3"><figure class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__figure"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1024" height="576" alt="Gallery Image" class="wp-image-2134" data-id="2134" data-imglink="" data-index="2" data-link="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/?attachment_id=2134" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-garden-2-1024x576.jpg" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-garden-2-1024x576.jpg 1024w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-garden-2-300x169.jpg 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-garden-2-768x432.jpg 768w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-garden-2.jpg 1280w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px" /></figure></li><li class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__item item-4"><figure class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__figure"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="480" height="640" alt="Gallery Image" class="wp-image-2135" data-id="2135" data-imglink="" data-index="3" data-link="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/?attachment_id=2135" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-3.jpg" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-3.jpg 480w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/09/conservatory-3-225x300.jpg 225w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 480px) 100vw, 480px" /><figcaption class="wp-block-coblocks-gallery-collage__caption">This is what featured outside my Dad&#8217;s window on 9-11-2001</figcaption></figure></li></ul></div>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The unsteadiness that is a feature of that disease and which in a way what cause six months in just time a fall, a broken hip, a tortured convalescence, and finally a lethal heart attack made us seek&nbsp;a companion for my father so that he could take walks in the park and around the neighborhood. At the time, my boss,&nbsp;Pam&nbsp;Cavanaugh,&nbsp;knew of a&nbsp;retired&nbsp;fireman,&nbsp;Pat ,&nbsp;who had helped her with her own father in&nbsp;a similar situation.&nbsp;I had arranged with&nbsp;Pat&nbsp;to meet&nbsp;at&nbsp;my father&#8217;s&nbsp;room&nbsp;for a combination interview and introduction that morning of September 11th.&nbsp;Leaving&nbsp;our house in Tarrytown in what I thought was plenty of time to be there before&nbsp;Pat&nbsp; so&nbsp;that&nbsp;I&nbsp;could discuss the situation with my&nbsp;father who was still pretending to&nbsp;a more independent&nbsp;and steady existence&nbsp;then&nbsp;his body would support,&nbsp;like so many others, the first news&nbsp;of the events downtown&nbsp;came over the radio.&nbsp;Those&nbsp;accounts&nbsp;had&nbsp;the&nbsp;expected noise of confusion and&nbsp;contradiction&nbsp;the unmistakable signal&nbsp;that&nbsp;something significant had happened.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The traffic jam&nbsp;encountered&nbsp;southbound&nbsp;on the&nbsp;Major&nbsp;Deegan&nbsp;past rush hour&nbsp;reinforced this notion.&nbsp;So,&nbsp;using skills and knowledge gained by being a school bus driver again in my early 20s, I exited that roadway and wound through local streets&nbsp;that were already eerily deserted&nbsp;to get to the Cardinal Cooke residence. I wondered if&nbsp;Pat&nbsp;who lived in&nbsp;Yonkers&nbsp;would make it to the appointment, but when I reached my father&#8217;s&nbsp;apartment&nbsp;he was already there and the two of them chatting let me know that there was no need for&nbsp;introduction&nbsp;or&nbsp;interview.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">So we watched the television. Peter Jennings in a suit and a tie was our guide. My father had been a navigator during World WarII on the route known as &#8216;<a href="https://www.nationalmuseum.af.mil/Visit/Museum-Exhibits/Fact-Sheets/Display/Article/3627010/flying-the-hump-lifeline-to-china/">The Hump</a>&#8216; an extraordinarily dangerous flight pattern from Karachi —yes, the same Karachi that Pynchon cited in his litany of woes  where ‘<em>a bus fell into a river &#8230; and thirty-one passengers  drowned </em>— and northern China. When he returned to the Bronx and my mother and brother John (who, of course, barely knew him having been born pretty much nine months after their wedding night and eight months after my father was posted to Asia), he worked as a short order cook and took advantage of the GI bill to attend Brooklyn Polytechnic for a BS degree in Electrical Engineering. He graduated second in his class and held all sorts of other honors while during those four years also added &#8212; along with my mother &#8212; three more brothers to the family. He was an impressive man still even with Parkinson&#8217;s wasting him. I miss my father, but cherish that day was spent in part with him</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">On this day, as we watched the the steady shot of the World Trade Towers, a place where my consulting jobs had taken me many times, a locale where when we lived in Tribeca our eldest daughter learned to walk in the vast spaces of its underground mall, suddenly smoke obscured the view and my father said, “<em>The tower has collapsed</em>.” I thought he was mistaken, that we were seeing an illusion. But he proceeded to explain to me the realities of super heated jet fuel and skyscraper architecture. Pat, the retired fireman, concurred. That September 11th was a brilliantly sunny day made my acceptance of this reality all the more difficult. But then an hour later as we looked out the window onto 5th Ave., we saw a man walking dazedly covered in dust and ash, an ambulatory portent of the destruction done. </p>


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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Among my large family,  I alone was in New York City that day with a car. That status turned my time with my Dad into fielding panicked  phone calls from family: a sister stranded, a child to be retrieved from school, a dog needing rescue from a locked house, and simply the reassurance that a niece was safe even though she had been in the towers that morning. My father&#8217;s facility decided to lock down and Pat and I left. (He served My Dad nobly and caringly right to the end.) My path then involved collecting people while avoiding the crowds covering broad avenues like Park and Madison as folks tried to walk anywhere as long as it was away from lower Manhattan. I burrowed into my best Bronx accent to talk a harried cop into letting me get on to the West Side Highway at 125th Street despite the orders to close it, and then drove as the only car for miles and miles back to Westchester County. In all that solitude, there was the beginning of the synesthesia; this horror is happening to me, to us, even if I am not among the dead. A city and then a country rediscovered that like the <a href="https://www.nationalforests.org/article/underground-mycorrhizal-network/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">mycorrhizal network</a> of an ancient forest our roots connect all of us even if the threads are thin and often unacknowledged. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">At the end of that passage above from <strong><em>V</em></strong>, Pynchon writes of catastrophes that  they happen “<em>every month in a succession of  encounters between groups of living and a congruent world &#8211; which simply  doesn&#8217;t care.” </em>Indisputable, But <strong>we</strong> care. We worry and mourn and comfort the victims even if they were strangers to us. And in the days afterward, the body of carers seemed to cover and stretch over the entire Republic and even beyond our shores. Since they knew we were from New York City,  the staff at <a href="https://hotelaviatic.fr/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Hotel Aviatic</a> in Paris where we had stayed that  August sent a postcard  hoping that our family was safe. When a shop owner in North Tarrytown gave me an American flag, our ensuing handshake brought tears to the eyes of both of us.  The acts of kindness were not random, but purposefully caring.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">. I miss that caring that everyone had for one another at that time. I wish disaster was not prerequisite for sympathy. I pray for the souls of those who were lost but even more earnestly for the families who lost them. 25 years later, the learning seems lost as well. But perhaps today by remembering we can recollect and restore more of that sense of similarity, of sympathy. The world largely gave us love and for a time we returned that gift.  </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">AI will tell you if you ask that “<em>No major unrelated natural or accidental disasters of catastrophic scale occurred in the United States on September 11, 2001, as the coordinated </em><a href="https://www.history.com/articles/9-11-attacks" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><em>September 11 Attacks</em></a><em> completely dominated national and global events.</em>” Try to get Gemini to be less USA oriented and the answer doesn’t change much: “<em>No major catastrophic international disasters or historical anomalies outside of </em><strong><em>routine, unrelated local incidents (</em></strong><em>emphasis in the reply</em><strong><em>) </em></strong><em>are widely recorded as occurring concurrently on September 11, 2001</em>.” Is disaster ever routine as in ordinary, usual?  Pynchon’s “<em>encounters between groups of living and a congruent world” </em>that would be filed later <em>“under ‘Disasters’ “ </em>seem not to have been recorded at all for that day, which is unfortunate because the absence of such evidence deprives us from remembering that our fellow beings suffered too, diminishes chances to realize connections, to care. Everything I perceive about the world right now tells me the caring is what most people crave, not just the words but the deeds that show palpable concern for their lives. Politics and technology seem to row in the other direction with concerns not for people, but for profit and power. 9/11 and it&#8217;s aftermath proved that our nation indeed the world doesn&#8217;t have to be that way. Of course, as <a href="https://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Thomas_Pynchon" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Thomas Pynchon—whoever he is</a> — noted, The world will always run afoul of the inanimate, but we the animate, the spirited, the living can soften and even repair those collisions with caring for each other.  And this day, September 11th, reminds me to try harder to do just that.</p>


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		<pubDate>Sun, 06 Sep 2026 17:34:38 +0000</pubDate>
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					<description><![CDATA[Offerings from the Quote Collection # 2 A Couple of Chestertons &#8220;Every great literature has always been allegorical–allegorical of some view of the whole universe. The ‘Iliad’ is only great because all life is a battle, the ‘Odyssey’ because all life is a journey, the Book of Job because all life is a riddle. There [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="has-text-align-center wp-block-paragraph">&#8220;<em>Every great literature has always been allegorical–allegorical of some view of the whole universe. The ‘Iliad’ is only great because all life is a battle, the ‘Odyssey’ because all life is a journey, the Book of Job because all life is a riddle. There is one attitude in which we think that all existence is summed up in the word ‘ghosts’; another, and somewhat better one, in which we think it is summed up in the words ‘A Midsummer Night’s Dream.’ Even the vulgarest melodrama or detective story can be good if it expresses something of the delight in sinister possibilities–the healthy lust for darkness and terror which may come on us any night in walking down a dark lane</em>.&#8221;</p>


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<h6 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-right"><em>GK Chesterton</em></h6>


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<h6 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-right"><em>G. K. Chesterton </em></h6>


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		<pubDate>Sat, 29 Aug 2026 19:44:18 +0000</pubDate>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>There are people like Senhor José everywhere, who fill their time, or what they believe to be their spare time, by collecting stamps, coins, medals, vases, postcards, matchboxes, books, clocks, sports shirts, autographs, stones, clay figurines, empty drinks cans, little angels, cacti, opera programmes, lighters, pens, owls, music boxes, bottles, bonsai trees, paintings, mugs, pipes, glass obelisks, ceramic ducts, old toys, carnival masks, and they probably do so out of something that we might call metaphysical angst, perhaps because they cannot bear the idea of chaos being the one ruler of the universe, which is why, using their limited powers and with no divine help, they attempt to impose some order on the world and for a short while they manage it, but only as long as they are there to defend their collection, because when the day comes when it must be dispersed, and that day always comes, either with their death or when the collector grows weary, everything goes back to its beginnings, everything returns to chaos. </em></p>
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<h5 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-right">José Saramago, All the Names</h5>



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		<title>On the Essence of America: Monica Hesse only gets one thing wrong &#8212; testing</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 13 Aug 2026 21:42:18 +0000</pubDate>
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					<description><![CDATA[https://wapo.st/3Sct3EL Cautionary tales abound about the danger of persnickety obsessions with seeing the one thing wrong with an other wise splendid entity. Nathaniel Hawthorne&#8217;s tale The Birth-Mark presented to the Sophomore English Honors class at St. Peter&#8217;s Prep in 1966 by Mr. John Casey told of the peril of obsession with trying to remove the [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://wapo.st/3Sct3EL">https://wapo.st/3Sct3EL</a></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Cautionary tales abound about the danger of persnickety obsessions with seeing the one thing wrong with an other wise splendid entity. <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Birth-Mark">Nathaniel Hawthorne&#8217;s tale The Birth-Mark </a>presented to the Sophomore English Honors class at St. Peter&#8217;s Prep in 1966 by Mr. John Casey told of the peril of obsession with trying to remove the one flaw of a beloved beauty. You just might kill it. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">And then there&#8217;s the stern advice from Jesus about fault-finding:</p>



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<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">Why do you take note of the splinter in your brother’s eye but do not notice the wooden plank in your own eye? <sup>4 </sup>How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me remove that splinter from your eye,’ while all the time the wooden plank remains in your own? <sup>5 </sup>You hypocrite! First remove the wooden plank from your own eye, and then you will be able to see clearly enough to remove the splinter from your brother’s eye.</p>
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<h6 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-right">Matthew 7:3-5, New Catholic Bible</h6>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Jesus makes a good point &#8212; as usual. BUT on reading <a href="https://wapo.st/3Sct3EL">this insightful and very interesting column</a> by Monica Hesse that tells a very uncomfortable truth about SOME of the USA one defect did catch my eye, the one with the plank in it. And I feel a little bad now raising it because fittingly, the author who grew up in <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monica_Hesse">Normal Illinois</a>, has a keen vision for spotting the deviations that now define part of our citizenry. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">What was the flaw? </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The phrase &#8220;teaching to standardized tests with shifting goalposts&#8221; repeats a common and unfortunate misunderstanding.. The belief allows for even more harmful judgments and should be confronted every time it appears. First, &#8216;teaching to the test doesn&#8217;t work so why would people still be talking about doing it? More perniciously, such myths, which are quintessentially 21st Century American in their vague anti-science cast, aid the overall rejection of educational measurement. If you want to say No Child Left Behind didn&#8217;t work or the Obama era follow-up initiatives were ineffective there&#8217;s an argument to be made for those sentiments although the reality of what happened is highly complicated. But the teaching to the test (Tx4) bugaboo was wrong from the start.</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph"> Did Tx4 happen in many places? Yes. Was it a stressor for teachers? Undoubtedly. Should administrators at each level of governance &#8212; federal, state, district, and building &#8212; have stoipeed the parctice because of its demonstarted ineffectiveness? YES. Did they? Mostly no.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"> How do we know that Tx4 didn&#8217;t work? That depends upon the circumstance.. In states that employed the cheapest version of tests, the scores might have risen but subsequent National Assessment of Educational Progress showed those results to be fraudulent. In some cases, the &#8216;teaching&#8217;  involved giving the questions ahead of time to students for practice and feedback, which is not so much teaching to the test as cheating to the test. In other cases, the technique simply didn&#8217;t work that should, able been np surprise because its already proven and well published inefficacy.</p>



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<h4 class="wp-block-heading">Teaching to the Test</h4>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">In 1997, long before NCLB was instituted and Tx4 became a watchword for the perceived indignities of educational measurement, Lorrie Shepard <a href="https://files.eric.ed.gov/fulltext/ED415238.pdf">gave the 3rd Angoff Lecture</a> at ETS on &#8216;<em>Measuring Achievement: What Does It Mean to Test for Robust Understanding?&#8217;</em> (Looking up the paper and seeing my friend and former colleague Shilpi Niyogi&#8217;s name in the acknowledgements as its editor was a bonus in this little excursion.) Lorrie demonstrated that there were similarities between what the textbooks contained and what the tests then included as questions. The significance of those findings was that the curriculum focused on a narrow set of information that didn&#8217;t necessarily advance more critical learning. Here is one of her examples:</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><br>&#8220;<em>&#8230;pages from textbooks from the 1980s make the case that both first-time presentation of content as well as end-of-chapter tests closely resembled skills and formats from standardized tests. For example, because it appeared on standardized tests, second and third graders spent significant amounts of time learning to write out, from numerals to words, the narrative translation of 3,467 rather than doing problems to check on their understanding of what the numeral means (not what it &#8220;says&#8221;). Not surprisingly, some children who can write out three thousand, four hundred, sixty seven do not have the place understanding to be able to subtract 26 from 3,007</em>.&#8221;</p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">That kind of teaching to the test was NOT the teacher&#8217;s choice but developed at a remove in conversations between state boards of education and educational publishers. In fact, Lorrie&#8217;s paper documents the &#8216;scandalous&#8217; finding that state reports overestimated progress by students. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">This changed, and Lorrie&#8217;s call for more &#8216;performance tasks&#8217; as opposed to multiple choice in these tests was answered by many educational researchers.  Why performance tasks? </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><em>&#8220;(P)erformance tasks are intended to prevent the format effects of multiple-choice tests that have distorted instruction and in turn enabled students to<br>pretend to know. Open-ended tasks are more challenging and directly reflect desired understandings and applications. Therefore, it is less likely that students<br>could do these items correctly and still not understand the underlying concepts.&#8221;</em></p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">My late friend and colleague, <a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/p/claims-will-always-matter-but-sadly-bob-mislevy-is-gone">Bob Mislevy</a>, stimulated significant changes in the shape of assessments with his conception (alongside Russell Almond, Linda Sternberg, Jan Lukas, Malcolm Bauer, David Williamson and others) of <a href="https://files.eric.ed.gov/fulltext/ED483399.pdf">Evidence Centered Design</a> of assessments. As Lorrie Shepard noted, tests and the preceding instruction need to be clear about what the intention of the learning is, the construct. That happened with ECD WHERE the unfortunately rare powers that be would approve and pay for it; happily . Bob was a pro-learning guy, not necessarily a pro-testing guy.</p>



<h3 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center">Do State Education Officials Read the Research of Their Field? </h3>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">When NCLB starts in January 2002, the evidence already exists that teaching to the test only works if you are rigging the tests with the textbook ploy above or out and out cheating by distributing the tests beforehand as happened in Atlanta, Georgia. That same year, <em>24 years </em>before the mention in the WaPo column that got me exercised over its Tx4 canard, <a href="https://www.albany.edu/sites/default/files/resumes/Judith%20A%20Langer%20CV%202020.pdf">Judith Langer</a> <a href="https://www.npr.org/2004/09/13/3915565/schools-aim-to-improve-test-scores">on an NPR program</a> &#8212; listen at around 22 minutes for the exact testimony &#8212; told of her experience in schools that teaching to the test only supplied very short term results.. <strong>24 years ago! </strong>But you still hear about teaching to the test.</p>



<p class="has-secondary-color has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-6 wp-block-paragraph">More damningly, this paper by <a href="https://www.readingrockets.org/people-and-organizations/craig-d-jerald">Craig D. Jerald</a> from twenty years ago pointed to research by Newmann, Bryk, and Nagaoka who <strong>&#8220;<em>analyzed student test-score gains on the commercially developed, nationally norm-referenced Iowa Test of Basic Skills (ITBS) assessment and the state-developed Illinois Goal Assessment Program (IGAP) exams. The results were startling. In classrooms where teachers employed more authentic intellectual instruction, students logged test-score gains on the ITBS that exceeded the national average by 20 percent. However, students who were given few authentic assignments [i.e., taught to the test] gained much less than the national average. A similar pattern emerged when researchers examined results on the IGAP assessments</em>.&#8221; </strong></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">In other words, if you taught to the test in the way critics interpret that phrase, your kids did WORSE.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Given my role as Chief Learning Officer, accusations of bias regarding my views about educational measurement merit attention. I worked almost two decades for what was AT THE TIME the largest and most prestigious testing organization in the world. That must make me an apologist for the tests produced there, right? <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rufus_Miles">Where you stand depends upon where you sit</a> is a worthwhile aphorism. But it does not describe me in this case because my own views of &#8216;<a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/no-tests-but-for-learning/">No tests but for learning</a>&#8216; were NOT shared by many of my colleagues especially those who were so-called &#8216;business facing&#8217;. After all, the current contracts for testing then produced important revenue and with a quarterly results focused leadership messing with revenue was anathema . Why? Another quote, this one from <strong><strong><u><strong>Upton Sinclair</strong></u></strong></strong>, explains their views &#8212; and many things that go on in corporations:</p>



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<figure class="aligncenter size-full"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="554" height="554" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-1.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2106" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-1.png 554w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-1-300x300.png 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-1-150x150.png 150w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 554px) 100vw, 554px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">Old Upton, &#8220;<em>a man with every gift except humor and silence</em>&#8220;</figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">It is true that even Sinclair&#8217;s wife found him to be &#8220;<em>a man with every gift except humor and silence</em>&#8221; but his quote above well describes in part the reality in which ETS never developed the systems that would have consigned the poor tests and the useless teaching to the test methods to the dumpster of educational practices. Maybe that&#8217;s why the teaching to the test misclaim  irks me so much. While people were putting about such nonsense ETS and the nation were missing an opportunity to change the entire educational landscape through<a href="https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/15366367.2010.508686"> Cognitively Based Assessment of, by, and for Learning or CBAL</a> Instead of futzing about the current tests, every stakeholder should have demanded the scrapping of  the summative system, the one where certain grades devote a week to the old style of tests, to an adaptive formative system woven into actual instruction. I didn&#8217;t have anything to do with dreaming up this system, my friend and brilliant researcher <a href="https://www.nagb.gov/news-and-events/calendar/special-events/25thanniversary/speakers/randy-bennett.html">Randy Elliot Bennett</a> led that effort. But when Randy and others like Ida Lawrence first exposed the idea in a crowded hotel meeting room, I wanted to be part of getting this plan into the world. After all, that was part of my job, a ;part at which I mostly failed. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">During my nineteen years at ETS, an effective strategy for taking the unique and consequential research on these matters effectively into the marketplace never materialized.  <a href="https://www.researchgate.net/publication/317971728_Escaping_Gravity_Facilitating_Disruptive_Innovation_in_an_Operate_Maintain_Organization">In this 2017 paper here</a>, I wrote about how the layers of conservative attitudes in an older &#8216;Operate and Maintain&#8217; organization like ETS constituted a kind of gravity that made it difficult to put new products into orbit<a href="https://www.researchgate.net/publication/317971728_Escaping_Gravity_Facilitating_Disruptive_Innovation_in_an_Operate_Maintain_Organization">.</a></p>


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<figure class="aligncenter size-full"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1012" height="326" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2104" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image.png 1012w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-300x97.png 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-768x247.png 768w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1012px) 100vw, 1012px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">Way too optimistic. </figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">But my paper now reads as seriously flawed because a) it&#8217;s too optimistic about how ETS will escape gravity and b) my role in the failure to make that happen receives no notice. And that&#8217;s why a comment like the one Monica Hesse made about the supposed USA reality of &#8216;<em>teaching to standardized tests with shifting goalposts</em>&#8216; galled me so much that for the day I abandoned work on another project to compose this rant. I very much agree with Hesse on the other things she wrote of in her column about our country where &#8220;<em>The American Dream comes down to OnlyFans, dodgeball and reality TV .&#8221;  </em> The mess she illustrates is connected to all of this:</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">&#8220;<em>A teacher is paid $37,000, a scholarship is $125,000, a college tuition is a gazillion dollars, the cost of living is too much. Wherever you live, it’s too much, but this is America so you must find a way to monkey-bar your way to solvency and/or pull yourself up by your own boobstrap.</em>&#8220;</p>


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<figure class="aligncenter size-large"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1024" height="392" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-2-1024x392.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2108" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-2-1024x392.png 1024w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-2-300x115.png 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-2-768x294.png 768w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/image-2.png 1222w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">More nightmare than dream</figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The paragraph gets at the issues of inequality and opportunity that have gotten worse in the last fifty years. As Paul Krugman noted recently: &#8220;<em>Between 1979 and 2000, the share of total income going to labor as opposed to capital was basically unchanged. But while the&nbsp;<a href="https://fred.stlouisfed.org/series/LES1252881600Q">typical worker’s income</a>, adjusted for inflation, barely increased over that period, the average real labor income of the highest earning 1 percent, such as top executives,&nbsp;<a href="https://realtimeinequality.org/?id=labor&amp;laborend=01012025&amp;laborfreq=annually&amp;laborgroups=Top%201%25&amp;laborstart=01011979&amp;labortype=labor_income&amp;laborunit=working_age_equal_split&amp;labory=growth">nearly tripled</a>..&#8221;</em>. </p>


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<figure class="aligncenter size-large is-resized"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="819" height="1024" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/Krugman-819x1024.jpg" alt="" class="wp-image-2103" style="aspect-ratio:0.7998028713828759;width:342px;height:auto" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/Krugman-819x1024.jpg 819w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/Krugman-240x300.jpg 240w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/Krugman-768x960.jpg 768w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/08/Krugman.jpg 1200w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 819px) 100vw, 819px" /></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">At the end of her thought-provoking and soul-disturbing essay with stories of teachers turning to Only fans and dodgeball teams being decided by political affiliation, Hesse asks and answers a question that many of us have pondered this summer of the 250th anniversary of the Republic: &#8220;<em>Where has life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness gotten us in 2026? Heaven only knows, but on television it’s gotten us to some very weird places.&#8221;</em> It&#8217;s not just on television. The inequality Krugman documents above has gotten us to a place where it is more difficult than ever to get a man (and/or a woman but definitely <em>more</em> a man) to understand something like this impending societal disaster, when his/her salary plus bonus, stock options, network membership, fear of exclusion form the oligarchy, etc. depend on not understanding it. It&#8217;s gotten us to a place where the very health of our country is endangered.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">What does​ educational testing have to do with all of this?​ Education could make a difference in reversing this decline. (Even staunch Republicans like former Senator Ben Sasse calls for a return to teaching coivics.) Not the kind of difference that will change everything. That&#8217;s a ridiculous and naive supposition, but testing for learning could make a difference in this situation.  How? The comprehending of the way in which the world really works makes us all more sensitive to the way in which we are being worked over. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">I understand those that doubt any statement justifying assessments even on like <a href="https://www.researchgate.net/publication/266735650_Formative_Assessment_with_Cognition_in_Mind_The_Cognitively_Based_Assessment_of_for_and_as_Learning_CBAL">CBAL</a>. Testing is vilified and in some cases that judgment is deserved especially in States that have perverted the standards and gone cheap on methods and assessment. If you take a look at the states that have done that, you&#8217;ll also see a connection to either inaction or actions against their own interests among citizens of all generations there. Is that a harsh correlation? Yes. If you think that making ends meet by putting your wife on Only Fans is a good idea (read <a href="https://wapo.st/4gcRU3m">the Hesse column</a> to understand what this means)  then what I&#8217;m suggesting here won&#8217;t make any sense to you. </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">There is​ another&nbsp;way.&nbsp;If testing is connected to learning as it should be, and the learning is focused on those constructs that most matter to having a productive life in a functioning Republic, then creating an overall methodology where the assessment is of, by, and for learning makes a difference. Learning will be more effective in that it will be more&nbsp;​actionable​,&nbsp;Able to be acted upon or put into practice​.&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Is that kind of learning going to bring down&nbsp;​Only&nbsp;​Fans or stop what&nbsp;​Hesse&nbsp;describes as even the politicization of dodge-ball?&nbsp;​(Have you no shame, sir?)&nbsp;Certainly not. But it could make a difference in tilting more of the citizenry to askin​g&nbsp;questions as to what are they getting out of all of this? How is the current circumstance serving them? What will the continued decline of the Republic happening in concert with the increase of inequality affect their children or anyone else they care about in the Next Generation? Those goal posts are not shifting. And the test is still ongoing from all of us although I have​ the sense&nbsp;​that&nbsp;time is running out.</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Oh, and here&#8217;s what CBAL looks like for writing</p>



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					<description><![CDATA[Your Queen is in danger, Spock! All Nine London Test Posts About RETROSPECTIVE’s UK Premiere  Obsessed with tests? Yes, but this post offers advice for all performing and presenting artists  The words test and toast qualify as etymological cousins. Language experts think that the former word meaning originally “a piece of burned brick, clay, or tile” derived from the Latin “tosta, from torreō (‘to burn, [&#8230;]]]></description>
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<p class="has-text-align-center wp-block-paragraph">Your Queen is in danger, Spock!</p>



<h3 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center">All Nine London Test Posts About RETROSPECTIVE’s UK Premiere </h3>



<h5 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center"><em>Obsessed with tests? Yes, but this post offers advice for all performing and presenting artists</em> </h5>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The words test and toast qualify as etymological cousins. <a href="https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/testa#Latin" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Language experts</a> think that the former word meaning originally “<em>a piece of burned brick, clay, or tile</em>” derived from the Latin “<a href="https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/tosta#Latin" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><em>tosta</em></a>, from <a href="https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/torreo#Latin" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><em>torreō</em></a> (‘<em>to burn, parch</em>’).” That means our word &#8216;torrid&#8217; is in this linguistic clan as well and London reached 100 degrees Fahrenheit as we departed yesterday after the conclusion of our run of RETROSPECTIVE. Torrid! </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">The other connection between TEST and TOAST is that after a theatrical experience like the just concluded run of RETROSPECTIVE &#8212; as depicted in our nine post series London Test &#8212; all participants including this playwright and his goddess of an Executive Producer wife are ‘<strong>toast</strong>’ as in the colloquial sense of <strong>burnt out, frazzled, exhausted</strong>. (Bonus phrase reference; the use of ‘toast’ in this way purportedly originates with words mostly written by Harold Ramis and dan Akroyd but spoken by Bill Murray as Venkman in Ghostbusters “<em>as he prepares to fire a laser-type weapon &#8230; ‘This chick is toast’.” </em>) </p>


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<figure class="aligncenter size-full"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="900" height="507" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-20.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2082" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-20.png 900w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-20-300x169.png 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-20-768x433.png 768w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 900px) 100vw, 900px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption">He changed the line from the script; of course, he did</figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Knowing that after such an adventure as RETROSPECTIVE , you’ll be the metaphorical equivalent of a word that originally denoted “<em>A slice or piece of bread browned on both sides by exposure to an open fire, a grill, or other source of radiant heat (formerly often immersed in wine, water, or another beverage)</em>” should prompt theatre makers and other artists to journal about their work <strong><em>while</em></strong> it’s unfolding. Creating performance or presentation involves activity (and often anxiety) on many different levels; the work is multi-faceted.  It&#8217;s x-dimensional chess and you have to solve for chess just like in high school algebra. </p>



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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">This is not just about theatre; my good friend and sometime cast member, <a href="https://www.instagram.com/smitpat99/">Patrick Smith</a>, just published his first novel <a href="https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0GZJH4M7R?ref=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_7AHKBZ63CDKKV4G48DG8_1&amp;ref_=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_7AHKBZ63CDKKV4G48DG8_1&amp;social_share=cm_sw_r_ffobk_cso_cp_apin_dp_7AHKBZ63CDKKV4G48DG8_1&amp;bestFormat=true&amp;fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAc3J0YwZhcHBfaWQPOTM2NjE5NzQzMzkyNDU5AAGnYhWn64mEwRl0eRC3eqp-6LxCyDYWCemqrqU3yWGkhJGz_TXED1J8spbz24c_aem_wQ5Mm0kq8BKLBQta8D0WDA&amp;utm_content=link_in_bio&amp;utm_medium=social&amp;utm_source=ig" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">The Last Revision.</a> The event extends beyond the writing to the revision, negotiation, promotion, and reflection of all of the material. Talking to him in London when he came to see RETROSPECTIVE provided a rich travelogue of that journey from the book being done to the author never being done. Well, it&#8217;s just that Patrick is  not <strong><em>there</em></strong> yet. Waiting to capture the impressions and insights of your creating means you’ll miss a few. (Emily St. John Mandel, one of my favorite contemporary authors, seemed to turn her jottings from the experience of her hit novel Station Eleven into a whole other highly imaginative novel, <a href="https://www.waterstones.com/blog/a-qanda-with-emily-st-john-mandel-on-sea-of-tranquility" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Sea of Tranquility</a>. So, there’s that possibility too from journaling during the work.)  </p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Creation of ANY type is&nbsp;perplex. The wonderful Word Origins newsletter&nbsp;reminded me of one way of&nbsp;portraying&nbsp;the process:&nbsp;<a href="https://wordorigins-org.ghost.io/x-dimensional-chess/?ref=wordorigins-org-newsletter" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">x-dimensional chess:</a>&nbsp;</p>



<figure class="wp-block-pullquote"><blockquote><p>The earliest citation of <em>three-dimensional chess</em> in the <em>Oxford English Dictionary</em> is a literal one, found in H. J. R. Murray’s 1913 <em>A History of Chess</em>: <br>The latest derivative game of chess is <em>Schachraumspiel</em>, or Three dimensional chess (see Dr. Ferd. Maach, <em>Das Schachraumspiel</em>, 1908). <br>The German is literally <em>chess-room-game</em> or translated more idiomatically, <em>spatial chess game</em> </p><cite>Word origins is very cool</cite></blockquote></figure>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://www.amazon.co.uk/Grudges-American-Political-TJ-Elliott/dp/B0D3PPQ9MF" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Joe Queenan and I when writing Grudges in 2019-20</a> took advantage of the pretentiousness of the &#8216;playing x-dimensional chess&#8217; term to skewer a certain political figure whose cult members claim he&#8217;s operating on that level, but as Dr. Spock knew (but NOT <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Einstein_versus_Oppenheimer" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">Dr. Einstein apparently</a>) chess like creating art <em>tests </em>not just our cognitive intelligence, but also the emotional type along with resilience and adaptability. In writing the nine posts about our LONDON TEST, some elements likely escaped that documentation, but the journaling helped me to understand what this thing called theatre and myself within it is all about </p>



<h3 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center">The nonet of London Tests&nbsp;</h3>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=1988&amp;action=edit" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><strong>London Test: 74 year-old Bronx Irish Catholic Guy Takes His Play to London</strong></a><strong>&nbsp;contains&nbsp;the links to posts 1-4,&nbsp;which&nbsp;emerged&nbsp;as Substack notes</strong>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=2008&amp;action=edit" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><strong>London Test # 5: Collaboration, Inspiration, Admiration</strong></a>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://knowledgeworkings.wpcomstaging.com/2026/05/18/london-test-6-rothko-knew-what-rory-knew/" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener">London Test # 6: Rothko knew what Rory knew</a>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=2015&amp;action=edit" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><strong>London&nbsp;Test # 7:&nbsp;Claps and&nbsp;Clunks</strong></a>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=2043&amp;action=edit" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><strong>London Test # 8: “You’re going to love London&nbsp;audiences”</strong></a>&nbsp;</p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph"><a href="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=2062&amp;action=edit" target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener"><strong>London Test # 9: “Time’s up; Pencils down”</strong></a>&nbsp;</p>
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<h5 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center"><em>The London Test finished last night; now scoring can proceed</em></h5>


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<figure class="aligncenter size-large"><img loading="lazy" decoding="async" width="1024" height="680" src="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13-1024x680.png" alt="" class="wp-image-2063" srcset="https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13-1024x680.png 1024w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13-300x199.png 300w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13-768x510.png 768w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13-1536x1020.png 1536w, https://testing-a-personal-hx.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/05/image-13.png 1665w" sizes="auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px" /><figcaption class="wp-element-caption"><strong>Images of our examination</strong></figcaption></figure>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">As I start this final post of my <a href="https://substack.com/@tjelliott/p-198275015">London Test Series</a>, it&#8217;s 6PM BST or British Summer Time; this year marked the 110th anniversary of what was termed &#8220;<em>Another social revolution for conservative England</em> <em>&#8230; the adoption of ‘<mark>British Summer Time</mark></em><mark>&#8220;</mark> This day, May 23 2026, brought a strong sun and very hot temperatures, but the cooler night breezes will carry the voices of our actors completing RETROSPECTIVE&#8217;s eight show run at Barons Court Theatre, an event characterized by me as a test. Well, <a href="https://substack.com/home/post/p-197876027">as previously noted</a>, everything can be thought of as a test although the sense of that categorization here was circumscribed as some experience that &#8220;<em>by which the existence, quality, or genuineness of anything is or may be determined</em>.” What was RETROSPECTIVE&#8217;s quality? Yes, there is that ninety minutes of artistry unfolded by <a href="https://knowledgeworkings.wpcomstaging.com/retrospective-at-barons-court-may-14-23-2026-2/">Noah Huntley, Sarah Pearcy, Jasmine Dorothy Haefner, and Benjamin Parsons, superbly directed by Liviu Monsted</a>, brilliantly lit and otherwise designed by <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/mehran-mortezaei-50293767/">Mehran <strong>Mortezaei,</strong></a> and hosted by the estimable and generous <a href="https://www.instagram.com/leobacica/">Leo Bencisa of Barons Court</a>. But the test ending, and a look at the results is best started BEFORE the cast celebration that will occur after the last bows.</p>



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<h3 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center">What was the construct &#8212; the concept or characteristic &#8212; this test was measuring? </h3>



<p class="has-large-font-size wp-block-paragraph"><em><strong>A few basics</strong></em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Regular readers of TAPH know that if you want to  make a claim about a performance or attribute then the first step is to define what you&#8217;re measuring. With RETROSPECTIVE as with any theatrical venture, there wasn&#8217;t just one measure. ; let&#8217;s start with some obvious measures.</p>



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<li>Could we get audiences to come?
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<li>We had about fifty percent attendance in the theater. That was below both our goal and our budget, but according to reports from other pub theatres about what they see this season.</li>
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<li>Would we break even?
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<li>See the above to realize that the answer is as usual, No.  <img src="https://s.w.org/images/core/emoji/17.0.2/72x72/1f641.png" alt="🙁" class="wp-smiley" style="height: 1em; max-height: 1em;" />  <em><strong>But</strong></em> our losses are among the lowest of our ten productions since 2018 and also represent a reversal of a trend of steadily higher per performance expenses since 2023, Our ticket sales were over $5000</li>
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<li>Did the marketing plan work?
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<li>Not to the degree planned by a <em>wide</em> margin; Facebook and Instagram ads failed to trigger ticket sales despite all the lovely assistance of everyone on the team. Our friends and theirs know that every one of the RETROSPECTIVE cast and crew posted like maniacs throughout this time with great help and marvelous content from the digital wizard, <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/gifford-elliott-34338b223/">Gifford Elliott</a> and our videographer <a href="https://www.linkedin.com/in/louis-catliff-714546111/">Louis Catliff</a>. Director <a href="https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1KhnhfQN71/">Liviu Monsted</a> and our <em>Clint Belinsky</em>, multi-talented <a href="https://www.instagram.com/benjaminparsons/">Benjamin Parsons</a> were particularly creative. But the ads didn&#8217;t register. Cards and flyers were more effective as was the work done by our <a href="https://www.matthewparker.net/pr/">PR wizard Matthew Parker</a></li>
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</li>



<li>Did everybody on the team get paid?
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<li>YES! This is a critical element of Knowledge Workings Theater&#8217;s mission so extra marks on that front.</li>
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</ul>



<p class="has-large-font-size wp-block-paragraph"><em><strong>Harder parts to measure</strong> </em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">But those were not the most significant aspects of the test: this is theatre! Here are the main goals:</p>



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<li>What about the audience reaction?
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<li><a href="https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYZZ0XnoBs6/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&amp;igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==">This reel</a> is a good indication that audiences engaged. Only two people left early over eight performances, which is very good for a so-called &#8216;existential comedy&#8217;. (I&#8217;ve picked up the calculations here AFTER the last show.) One guy sat next to me and fidgeted all night and I could see another person bored out of their gourd while their partner, rapt with attention, tried to get them to behave. Bet that was an interesting ride home on the Tube. And then there was the woman in a front row side seat <em>on her phone</em> last night&#8230; But these were exceptions. Audience members provided enthusiastic and unsolicited feedback for the play and the performers. </li>
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</li>



<li>How about critical reaction
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<li>Very positive especially for the acting and directing. Take a look here:</li>
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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Check out this about our players&#8230;</p>


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<p class="has-large-font-size wp-block-paragraph">this is part of the test &#8212; to get our team noticed to help their careers, which happened as shown above <strong>and</strong> here&#8230;</p>


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<p class="wp-block-paragraph">Yes, some critics thought the play could be shorter and one called it <a href="https://tjelliott.substack.com/p/london-test-7-claps-and-clunks">clunky</a>, but that&#8217;s helpful in part because that gets to another critical dimension of the London Test&#8230;</p>



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<h4 class="wp-block-heading has-text-align-center">Did we learn things to  make this or subsequent plays better?</h4>



<p class="has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph">YES! In fact, we will  make some cuts before RETROSPECTIVE goes to the printers</p>



<p class="has-large-font-size wp-block-paragraph"><em><strong>But the most important measure is how this all worked spiritually. In plainer terms, did we have fun in London?</strong></em></p>



<p class="wp-block-paragraph">ABSOLUTELY! We made theater live, met old friends, made new friends, and reaped the joys of being alive in our art. We put ourselves and our work to the test and thanks to Marjorie Phillips Elliott stayed sane and succeeded. This was not a pass-fail test, but rather a take-home exam, an opportunity to put all we have learned about theatre and life into these moments. If you throw yourself into that opportunity always alert to chances to develop and help others to do the same, there are no wrong answers.</p>



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