that kid with a broken heart

Nothing I do better than write stories

2011-11-27T21:33:00.000-08:00

Taylor Swift’s ‘Better than Revenge’

(That kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

Now go stand in the cold
And think about what you did

Ha, time for a little story telling

The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and
I had a brother, I had him right by my side
She came along, got him alone, and fed him poison
She gave him a hickie faster than you can say suck off

I never saw it coming, wouldn't have suspected it
I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to isolate me from the baby like saying I’m a stranger
She underestimated just who she was messing with

She's not a saint, and she's not what you think
She's a cheapskate, whoa
She's better known for the things that she gets
from her parents, whoa

Soon she's gonna find out messing with my family
in the worst way won’t make her many friends
She should shut her mouth, she should shut her mouth
There is nothing I do better than tell the truth, ha

She lives her life like it's her party and she's so rich
She looks at me like I'm an itch and she's scratching all over
I think her ever money problems are a little troubling
She thinks I'm psycho 'cause I like to rhyme her name with things but

Sophistication isn't what you have or who you know
Or making people give you what you want or where you wanna go
Oh, they didn't teach you that growing up, that’s so fucked up
But no amount of trips to Disney World give you dignity

She's not a saint, and she's not what you think
She's a money spender, whoa
She's better known for the things that she buys
that she can’t afford, whoa

Soon she's gonna learn telling other people my stories
in the worst way won't make her many friends
She should shut her mouth, she should shut her mouth
There is nothing I do better than write stories, ha ha

I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at, honey
You might have him, but haven't you heard?
I'm just going to write another story about you, honey
You might have him on your side, but I always win the war

She's not a saint, and she's not what you think
She's a lair, whoa
She's better known for the drama that she causes
with my family, whoa

Soon she's gonna find herself alone in the cold
in the worst possible way with no friends
She should shut her mouth, she should shut her mouth
There is nothing I do better than cut up a cunt, ha

And do you still feel like you are a good person?
'Cause I don't think you are, oh
Do you still feel like you know what you're doing?
I don't think you do, I don't think you do

Let's hear the applause
C'mon show me what else you can take from me
See you deserve some applause
'Cause your such a fucken bitch
She gave him a hickie faster than you can say suck off

'for the love of a brother'

2011-11-26T23:21:00.000-08:00

Demi Lovato's "For the love of a daughter"

(that kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

Twenty-four years old with my back on the floor
All I could see was her stabbing my heart
Your selfish girlfriend is always wanting more
Am I your brother or just a casualty of war?

You have a hollowed out brain and
she’s got you stuck to her chest
I try so hard to make you right but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, brother, please, brother
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, brother, please, brother
Push your girlfriend back
For the love of a brother
Oh

It's been five months since we've spoken last
and you had my back
What happened to you?
Oh, you can be manipulated
Only so many times,
Before I step in and let you know
I start to break down and die

You have a hollowed out brain and
she’s got you stuck to her chest
I try so hard to make you right but it's hopeless
Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, brother, please, brother
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, brother, please, brother
Push your girlfriend back
For the love of a brother
Oh

Don't you remember I'm your baby bro?
How could you push me out of your world,
Lied to your flesh and start a war,
Put me down because I told you the truth about her
Don't you remember I’m the only uncle to your baby girl
How could you throw me right out of her world?
So young when she lost her uncle
Now forever afraid of being a brother

Oh, bother, please, bother
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh, bother, please, bother

Oh, bother, please, bother
Push your girlfriend back
For the love of a bother
For the love of a brother

Decision making

2011-11-09T21:25:00.000-08:00

Decision making

By: Angel D Barrera

Sometimes the thing you want the most is not often the thing you need the most. But when you obtain this thing you crossed oceans and moved mountains for, you find yourself unhappy and questioning yourself, what will my future be like? Will it be this unhappy? Is it just a bad day? A bad month? A bad year? It’s so easy to put something back on a self at a store that you just simply changed your mind about buying when checking-out. It’s not so easy though to take someone out of your life that you thought you wanted because of love, until one day you realize, was I ever in love? Maybe I was blinded by my want and fooled by my need. In this world you often get cheated, but it’s not about grieving about your lost, it’s about the decisions you make once you realize where you are.

Should I go left and go down that scary path? Or should I go right and leave my current life? Maybe I should go straight forward into the darkness, not knowing where I’ll end up, dead or alive. If only there was a way of going back, knowing what I know now, would I make the same mistake twice? Oh decision making, I love the way you make me pull my hair out at night, staying up until the morning light. It’s a tough decision but it’s easy to make when it’s not your life. This very thought brings you to tears that it’s so easy to get where you want to be but it’s so hard to make that decision.

Sometimes the thing we want the most keeps us from the thing we need the most. Yet, we always get what we want and in the end we are unhappy. It’s exhausting to think about all things we got by wanting and now we have all these things we don’t want. The stress of unwanted things, the fear of being unhappy, and the need of knowing is a constant ridicule that is haunting our mind. But no decision has been made, instead we breakdown and cry.

'Long Live'

2011-10-25T01:11:00.001-07:00

Taylor Swift is at her best in 'SPEAK NOW'
SPEAK NOW 1yr anniversary..LONG LIVE!!!

Taylor Swift's 'Long Live'

(that kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

I said remember that moment
In the front seat of our cars
The time we sat there and heard the speak now cd
The words were deep and we felt the pain

We are the kids and the quiet hearts
And they broke off our faith
The first night we listened like we knew your life
Mine would never be the same

We held your cd like it was a hero
On a history book page
It was the beginning of a decade
and the start of your fame

Long live the album it will shine through
While the kid’s hearts are still healing I’m here for you
I was screaming, long live all the music you made
And bring on all the haters, one day you’ll be in the hall of fame

I said, remember this album
I rewrote the songs about
all the pain I felt as I stood there with my broken heart
Wishing for you right now

We are the kids with broken hearts
We traded our hearts for painful songs
and when you made us the album
We held it up like a crown

And the Kanye fans were outraged
Screaming, this is absurd
'Cause for a moment you held the spotlight
but he ripped you off by retaking the stage

Long live the album it will shine through
While the kid’s hearts are still healing I’m here for you
I was screaming, long live all the music you made
And bring on all the haters, I'm not afraid

Long live all the songs that made us move
I had the time of my life listening to you
I was screaming, long live the album in our fate
And I’m not pretending, one day it will be a prayer

We’ll hold on by singing the verse
As your tears falls to the ground
May these hearts heal and never hurt

And as you take this power
Promise me this
That you'll stand by us forever
But if God forbid love should step in

And forces you into a goodbye
If you have children someday
When they listen to the songs
Please tell them the pain

Tell them how our hearts went dead
Tell them how I hope they never feel the pain

Long live the album it will shine through
I had the time of my life listening to you

Long, long live the album has sold through
All the kingdoms right through me and you
And I was screaming, long live all the magic you made
And bring on all the haters, I'm not afraid

Singing, long live all the albums you made
I had the time of my life listening to you
And long, long live the album in our fate
And bring on all the haters, one day you’ll be in the hall of fame

'Judas'

2011-10-23T00:10:00.000-07:00

Lady Gaga's 'Judas'

(that kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with him

Ohohohoh
But she’s in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! ANA

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! ANA

When he goes to work she is lonely
she’ll take out her dolls and brush their hair if they need
Forgive him when he lies and doesn’t come home
Even after hours doesn’t mean he betrays her

A break up doll, a break up doll, doll
A kid with a broken heart, kid with no heart

She’s just a married fool, or maybe he’s so cruel
But she’s still in love with him, maybe
She’s just a married fool, or maybe she’s so cool
But she’s still in love with Judas, maybe

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with him

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! ANA

She could love a doll so purely
Even people said she was kooky in a way
she learned dolls are like a friend you can
Build a friendship or make body parts

A break up doll, a break up doll, doll
A kid with a broken heart, kid with no heart

She’s just a married fool, or maybe he’s so cruel
But she’s still in love with him, maybe
She’s just a married fool, or maybe she’s so cool
But she’s still in love with Judas, maybe

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with him

Ohohohoh
she’s in love with Judas

Ew
In the most Monster High sense,
she is beyond obsessed with
Frankie-stein hooker, prostitute mummy, she vomits her mind
But in the matrimonial sense
she just jeopardized her future in a way
Judas kissed her in a obvious way,
Or was there a condom on his face?

She wants to love him,
But something’s pulling her away from him
Jesus is her savior,
But Judas is the doll she worships
She prays to him

She’s just a married fool, or maybe he’s so cruel
But she’s still in love with him, maybe
She’s just a married fool, or maybe she’s so cool
But she’s still in love with Judas, maybe

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with him

Ohohohoh
She’s in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! ANA

Fairytale neighborhood

2011-10-16T00:07:00.000-07:00

Fairytale neighborhood

By: Angel D Barrera

Dearly beloved fairytale neighborhood, I think I’m ready to leave, I think I’m ready to fly, I think I’m ready to die and leave this world behind. Oh so many don’t know the tragic lies that have been told like happily ever after in a magical world, but to tell you the truth it’s just not true. Here in my neighborhood happy doesn’t exist, not even in your dreams, not even in your hopes for a future, or in your wildest wish, it just can’t come true, not in my fairytale neighborhood. You see, I’ve seen all the wives miserable inside, all the husbands cheating and lies, despite the magic they still want more. We have castles instead of houses, carriages instead of cars, and we have royalty instead of family. But it’s just not enough for my fairytale neighborhood.

Somehow every character has a flaw like Sleeping Beauty sleeping with every guy that kisses her. What happened to her prince that married her? Divorced because she just kept sleeping around, I guess she just couldn’t help it, she is the queen of going down. Let’s not forget about Arial who sells her soul to sleep with boys. Oh everyone thinks mermaids are so rare but here their like sushi, they will never fill you up, not even after a dozen, they just don’t phase your heart. But the biggest flaw of all is my ex-girlfriend Jasmine, who I gave my heart, but she rather sleep with Jafar. Here all the good girls are sluts, the villains rule the world, and I have to live every day in this fairytale neighborhood.

Yeah my brothers got a keeper but she’s a sea witch that’s slowly manipulating him to do her evil bidding, like Cruella Deville keeps running over my dogs, and the old lady from next door keeps leaving poison apples on my porch. I’m so sick of this fairytale neighborhood where I have to pretend everything is fine, where I have to smile in pictures, and wear nice suits when I dine. It’s all just phony, this world is bologna, and their all just trying to be something they’re not. I’ll leave my throne, I’ll leave my magic, I’ll leave my heart, I’ll leave it all to leave this fairytale behind. Dear fairytale neighborhood, fuck you for leading me to believe you were real!

'Enchanted'

2011-10-09T22:31:00.000-07:00

Taylor Swift’s Enchanted

(That kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

There I was again in class, facing forward, taking notes
Same old tired lonely me
Walls of insularity, shifting mind, and jealousy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

I whispered, "aren’t you in three other classes with me?" I think you are, your in Armstrong’s class
We make our way to the other class
The teacher didn’t allow conversation, so we didn’t pay attention
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This day was magic, don't you know?
I was wonder-struck, thinking all the way home
I'd spent forever looking for a friend like you
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who’s your best friend?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm writing down and stating, you are my best friend
I'm an open book and you would read

I was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This day was magic, don't you know?
I was wonder-struck, thinking all the way home
I'd spent forever looking for a friend like you

This day was flawless, don’t you know?
I was wonder-struck, writing stories at home
I'd spent forever looking for a friend like you
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me saying that

This was the very first day when we met, where the story began
I imagined you were in a yellow dress and I was a mess
They were saying mean words as we were leaving the room
But I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't listen to what they say
Please don't change if somebody says
Please don't listen to the hate they say
Please don't change your unique ways

These days are still sparkling, don't you let them go dim
I'm still wonder-struck, smiling all the way home
I'll spend forever looking for a friend like you

This day is flawless, don't you know?
I'm wonder-struck, wishing you a sparkling birthday
I'll spend forever looking for a friend like you
I’m still enchanted to meet you

Please don't listen to what they say
Please don't change your unique ways

Helpless Tonight

2011-10-06T20:43:00.001-07:00

Helpless Tonight

By: Angel D Barrera

I am falling into a motionless state of mind, every finger typing to word my very last bit of hope is just getting weak, and my eyes flutter as darkness surrounds my thoughts. I got bitterness on the tip of my tongue that’s making my words sour but I swear it’s not my intention be so rude with imprudent remarks. I’m on strings tonight dangling off your wisdom in a dizzy unseen mess with intellectual cords that got me hung up on your words. I’m just a boy hanging there, in midair, floating at ease, yet with torture pains wrapping around my neck got me suffocating for help. Just be a dear and take my pain, fake it with my name, to be forever in debt to your fate.

Silently vile vomit splats to the floor, I’m so sick to the core, I’m just tired of being sore from the tides of laboring works. The waves won’t stop and like a sinking ship I’m going down to the ocean floor, so slow, so effortless, so plain it spots like blood on white sheets to a new born whore. I’m speechless now, wanting out of this coffin I dug myself in, bombarded with bombs exploding with headaches just makes me want to pull the trigger of my brain. It’s like screeching long nails scratching down on a blackboard, sinking so deep into my thoughts, forcing me deeper and deeper into the ground.

I’m buried under six feet of nightmares so heavy I can’t even move an inch to scratch an itch so ferociously irritating it’s got my skin rotting off like ants swarming to a carcass. The stench of this disguising mood is so far up the moon that I’m howling like a wolf so violently trying to survive the night. With every bite I take there is a knife slicing pieces of my insides like cold cuts of meat I’m just stacking up my organs for the monster inside to eat. I’m running out of energy, out of light, out of fight to continue with this life, I’m crippling down so fragile like glass I break with just one touch, I turn to dust.

Dear Jess (‘Dear John’)

2011-10-04T22:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Jess

Taylor Swift’s ‘Dear John’

(That kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D. Barrera

Long was the night when our prom day revolved around love
Counting the hours praying the night won't fall through, again
And my mother accused me of losing my virginity
But I swore I didn’t

I’d bring you a red rose and you’d go right away and turn it dead
And I lived in your princess game, but you added a prince everyday
Wondering which prince you might get rid of tonight, it was me
Well I stopped playing your stupid game and this song is to let you know why

Dear Jess, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't think you wanted love only me to mess with
The girl in the elegant dress was a slut the whole time
I should've known

Well maybe it's my fault for being blind, I guess I’m to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to fake love then throw me away
And I’ll add your name to my long list of whores who don't believe in love
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said that girl is full of lust

Dear Jess, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't think you wanted love only me to mess with
The girl in the elegant dress was a slut the whole time

Dear Jess, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played by
Your dark misleading games when I loved you so much
I should've known

You are an expert at lying and keeping me lonely
Never impressed by my sentimental gifts
All the guys that you've slept with have problems, miserable eyes
'Cause you've whored them all out

But I took my dignity before you could take my virginity
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, sinful life

Dear Jess, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't think you wanted love only me to mess with
The girl in the elegant dress was a slut the whole time

Dear Jess, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played with?
The guy with a broken heart wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known

Life after death (The Clash of Friendship Part III)

2011-09-25T00:01:00.001-07:00

(The Clash of Friendship Part III)

Life after death

By: Angel D Barrera

Just a year ago we clashed, we crashed into the ground, smashing into every tree branch on the way down. It was a fatal crash for no one survived, we all died, moving on into different lives. It was horrific the pain, the game you played, the way you tore me to pieces in just one day. But it’s all over now, the anger, the hate, and the violence all went to shame. Life after death is so much calm just like we used to be when you were young. I know your spirit still lingers here, your voice still whispers my name, but please don’t call because we both know we’ll fall apart. We are living separate lives in different worlds and if they ever intertwine we might just decline into deeper masses of hate crime.

I know you moved on into a better life that is healthier than mine. I can feel the change in your heart, I know you’ve gone to a better place now, somewhere in the light you are shining through but I’m still in the dark. In my new life I am a little bit colder, a little bit darker, and a little bit deadlier. Just promise me you’ll never come back, I promised you I’d never hurt you, but you hurt me instead and now I’m a monster. Life after death isn’t always happy, not everyone goes to heaven, some people go to hell, now I’m burning. Maybe in another life we could’ve been more than just friends but in this life we’ve already ended.

You’ve burned the bridge to my heart, it’s why we fell apart, now you can’t come back and play the girlfriend part. The friendship is dead, you can’t fix it with words, a broken heart can only be filled with distractions but deep down the pain is still there. I know you still trying to resuscitate, but I don’t want you to precipitate in my life, it’s time for you to let go. You can’t hold on forever, not even in the afterlife, you’ve got to release my ghost that’s haunting you. Just a year ago we were fine, now we’re dead, and life after death… let’s just give it a rest.

The ending of us ('the story of us')

2011-09-24T02:31:00.001-07:00

The ending of us

Taylor swift’s ‘The story of us’

(That kid with a broken heart version)

By: Angel D Barrera

I used to think one day I’d write the story of us
How we met in high school and we both wore glasses
And people would say they're the ugly ones

I used to know my friends and you were my best
Now I'm sitting alone in my empty room
'Cause lately I don't even know who's really my friend

Oh, a simple conversation
Motivation to end a friendship leads to a war
So many friends that I wish I never knew
So many phonies, I break down

Now a year later in a crowded chat room
And I'm not speaking
And I'm dying to know, are you pregnant yet?
Like it's typical of you

I don't know what to say since you didn't choose me
When you took her side
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How'd you end up this way?
I see you constantly adding me on Facebook and Myspace
And I'm doing my best to avoid you

I'm starting to think one day I'd write the story of us
How I was losing my mind when you took her side
But you held her like she was your best friend
You should have held me instead

Oh your scared to see the ending
Well I’m not pretending this is a fairy tale
I'd tell you the ending, but you have to wait now
I've never see betrayal quite this bad

Now a year later in a crowded chat room
And I'm not speaking
And I'm dying to know, are you pregnant yet?
Like it's typical of you

I don't know what to say since you didn't choose me
When you took her side
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a combat movie
The one were the soldiers die
But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in my hands now
And I would lay my armor down
If you would be on my side but I rather not hear your lies

So many things that I wish you didn't do
But the story of us will be ending soon

Now I'm here online in a crowded chat room
And I'm not speaking
And I'm dying to know, are you pregnant yet?
Like it's typical of you

I don't know what to say since you didn't choose me
When you took her side
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now

And I'm not speaking
And I'm dying to know, are you pregnant yet?
Like it's typical of you

And I don't know what to say since you didn't choose me
Cause' you took her side
And the ending of us isn’t really a tragedy but a reality

The end.

The Duel (Harry Potters)

2011-09-19T19:04:00.000-07:00

Harry Potters and

The Duel

By: Angel D. Barrera

Darkness has taken over, the brother I once knew is no more, and he rises as the villain from the deception. She has you under a love spell making you do her dark magic, can’t you see my life is now tragic, everything is dramatic. Our lives are now a movie and right now the duel scene is about to begin. You want to be the bad guy, you want to be Voldemort, well I’ll be Harry Potter, now let’s duel like wizards do. Take a bow because I’ll vow to destroy the evil soul she gave to you. Now disarm yourself, don’t you fight back, you know you deserve to die. How dare you fight back when you know I’m right! Now take your punishment, take it good, take my rage like you took her too! You want to be a father, a mother too, but you can’t even be a brother, now stop crying you fool! I write stories, I write them good, if you don’t like them then let’s duel!

Shedding light upon the night with your lumos you’re still not right. You think you’re the good guy, you think your Harry potter, well then I’ll be a Snape so you can put on your fake face. Now go ahead, tell everyone I’m evil, that I’m plotting against you, and that I want to kill you. I’m not the bad guy, I’ve been protecting you all this time, you foolish boy look at what you’ve destroyed. A magical bound that was so tight, now we’re foes in a dueling fight, fire and ice it’s a horrific site. But I’ll stand my ground, I won’t back down. You think you can just wave your magic wand and take everything I own. Take my niece, take my joy, well now its war! Get away from my goddaughter, you won’t take her too, now get behind me and watch us duel.

Your starting fires but you’re not following through, show your face, fight me you fool! You’re acting like a little girl, you want to be the bad girl, you want to be Bellatrix, well I’ll be Mcgonagall so I can teach you a lesson. Now look at me you bitch, I tell the truth, my words are like daggers stabbing through, this is why you feel pain because you know it’s true. Now fight me! Fight me! You coward! Stop hiding! You started a war but you’re not willing to duel, you stupid fool! You run like the wind, black smoke fumigating, intoxicating, obligating to breathe. But I know dark magic too, I can play your silly game, I’ll show you my duel. Faster than light, brighter than white, smoke descending from the sky, it’s time to die. You will run no more, I will fight fire with fire, now avada kedavra! Dead just like my grandma. I write stories, I write them good, if you don’t like them then fuck you!

The return of Gwen

2011-09-11T00:40:00.001-07:00

The return of Gwen

By Angel D Barrera

These days are violent
These nights are silent
But by morning the return of Gwen shall dawn upon us
Should you treat her right
You would see the light
That would stop this fight
But nothing is bring you
Nothing is keeping you
So why are you not visiting?
Are you not listening?
I think someone is whispering in your ear
Pulling you with fear
Tearing you to tears
Is this really you?
Is this really what you choose?
To leave her
To not be with her
She is just a baby
But you are a man
This is not the plan
So stop making me mad
Be glad she came
Make an exception for a day
To visit
But you missed it
I kissed her goodbye
And she went off into the sky.

The Bloodline

2011-09-03T22:42:00.000-07:00

The bloodline

By: Angel D. Barrera

You were next in line, air to the throne, king of Rome. But somewhere along the line you fell in love, you fell blind, you fell out of line. Oh brother how could you betray our mother? You crossed the line. Everything is not fine! My blood has done me wrong, a betrayal was made, an alliance that didn’t side with mine. Now you won’t be king, I’ll be the one who wears the crown when the old man dies down. You used to rule this kingdom but now I rule the world. You made your choice, you took her side, and now you left the bloodline.

Distance and cold, you’re all alone, in the darkness of this world. You hold a grudge so deeply, so aggressively, so persistently you’re not letting go. But you have no reason for this rage for you have only caused a war. You may have a grudge but now I have a vendetta against you that is seeking revenge. Never have I been dissed before like I have been dissed by my own blood. I’m at my boiling point and its time I draw the line. I won’t tolerate disrespect and you have disrespected the bloodline. You have no grace, you have no shame, and you don’t even know your own last name.

Your king to an evil throne and don’t you know we’re at war. When the time comes to behead you, I’ll turn my head like you turned your back on us, and I’ll forget you’re my blood like you have forgotten about us. It’s going to be a bloody fight because I treated you with grace and now it’s time to show you my RAGE! You made your choice, you took her side, and now you’re not a part of the bloodline.

The Perfect Stranger

2011-09-02T23:17:00.001-07:00

The Perfect stranger

By Angel D Barrera

I used to believe that she could change, that I could write her in a different light, one that no mirror could ever portray. I used to believe she could learn from her mistakes - which she would become humble and grateful upon the many sacrifices I have made. But no. Not a gift, not a card, and not even a thank you from the bottom of her heart. Instead I’m put in the dark, I’m a stranger in the park, and I am looking for you in the playground but you don’t even know who I am.

She told you that I’m a stranger you shouldn’t talk to, that I’m a psychopath you can’t trust, and that I am a villain that is plotting against you. But I am not. I’m your blood. And I’m here to protect you. It doesn’t matter what lies she may have told you, it doesn’t matter if you hate me for who I am, and it doesn’t matter if you think I’m a stranger. I’ll be the perfect stranger in the park, watch you play while I sit in the dark, until I know your safe I’ll listen with my heart.

I used to believe she would bring you, that we would play in the backyard, just like a family would. But no. Instead she tore this family apart and now I’m a stranger to you. I have to be in the shadows while you grow in the light, is this really the way we treat family? No. But she won’t even change for you. Darling don’t you cry because she told you that your uncle died. There is a perfect stranger out there with your blood type and if you ever need a heart, liver, or any organ, you could have mine because I am the perfect stranger that will save your life.

Fuck you I'm going to Disney World

2011-08-28T14:36:00.000-07:00

Fuck you I’m going to Disney World

By: Angel D. Barrera

A lie was told, my dream was stolen, and deception on her lips as she gave him a kiss. A princess gets everything she wants as she smiles with her rotten soul. Something evil is brewing in her, the smell of poison is in the air, and he is on his way to hell. To Disney World they fly, love birds in the sky, while I wait for the lie. He should have been here by now but too many lies have been told and now he’s at Disney World. He left his sister, he left his mother, and he said fuck you I’m going to Disney World to his brother.

The poison has set in and he believes he is humble. But we have been disowned. He left us behind, he left a path of destruction by lying, and now sister is crying. The princess is at Disney World celebrating her birthday while we are back in reality, blessedly paying the bills, while sister is visiting from the hills. My dream was Disney World but she took it like she took him for her own personal will, demanding him to go for the kill, putting the dagger in my heart. This is what drifted us apart, the princess getting between brothers, and her saying fuck you I’m going to Disney World while sister came to visit him.

Lies were told, my family was disowned, and poison in her heart as she gave it to him. The princess got everything she ever wanted with her rotten soul. She went to Disney world with my brother in their lovers quarrel. But for all I care they can burn in hell! I don’t care that you are back in town, I don’t care if you are only here for a month, I don’t care about you! So fuck you! I’m going to Disney World without you!

'Last Friday Night'

2011-08-21T10:45:00.000-07:00

Katy Perry's 'Last Friday Night'

(that kid with a broken heart version)
By: Angel D. Barrera

I am sitting on my bed
Drawing pictures in my head
Writing stories in my room
About my brother in a pool
I imagine I am him
Farting around in the yard
With barbeque and maybe you
Is this a hickie or a bruise?

Bills of last night
I didn’t pay online
I’m screwed
Oh well
There’s a blackout sale
I’m going to charge up my credit like I rule
Damn!

Last Friday night
Yeah we rented a car
And we crashed it at the bar
Think we fought but I forgot
Last Friday night
Yeah we went to the mall
Then we went to your mom’s
Asked for money and we left

Last Friday night
We went spending money in a shop
Eating candy in the dark
Then had an argument
Last Friday night
Yeah I think you broke my jaw
Always say you’re gonna stop
Whoa-oh-oah

This Friday night
Do it all again
This Friday night
Do it all again

Trying to pay my cell phone bill
Don't know what to tell my mom
Think she’ll give me money for my car?
It’s better than begging at the bar
I’ll wear my favorite shirt
We’ll ask her out tonight
Think she said hell no
That was such an epic fail

Didn’t brush last night
Cavities in line
I'm screwed
Oh well
I’ll ask my mom to pay for my root canal because I rule
Damn!

Last Friday night
I made out with a leech
I didn’t brush my teeth
Now I have cavities
Last Friday night
Yeah we got matching hickies
And the clock kept ticking
So we hit the sheets

Last Friday night
We made a baby in the park
threw the diaper in the dark
Then had an argument
Last Friday night
Yeah I think you broke the law
Always say we're gonna stop
Oh-whoa-oh

This Friday night
Do it all again
Do it all again
This Friday night
Do it all again
Do it all again
This Friday night

T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.

Last Friday night
Yeah we went to a concert
And we didn’t pay the rent
Think we got evicted but I forgot
Last Friday night
Yeah my brother wrote a story
And we got offended
So we went to tell him off

Last Friday night
I threw the stories in his face
Went crying for a day
Then had an argument
Last Friday night
Yeah I think we failed in life
Always say we're gonna change
But we never do
This Friday night
Do it all again

Ball n Chain

2011-07-17T21:50:00.000-07:00

Ball N Chain

By: Angel D. Barrera

Its sounds like a whole lot of arguing with some fake display of public affection. They are the lovey-dovey couple next door with matching his and her hats that somehow can’t seem to keep their hands off each other when they are in the public eye. Yet, when they are in the comfort of their own home it seems to be the opposite with plates being thrown and walls being punched. When someone asks about their so called marriage in privet, that’s when the tears come pouring out, that’s when they spit out the truth. They can’t stand each other but no one wants to admit their love story is really a sham.

Here she comes to the party with the ball n chain but everyone knows that she doesn’t really want to be tamed. She tries to throw a wild eye stare to the boy standing with the crazy hair, but every time she walks the ball rolls behind, she is stuck like glue to a man who doesn’t fulfill her. But the party goes on and she dances even though she is in chains, she can’t help it if she wants to get laid. She is the loudest one there but no one seems to care or really stare, so she grabs their attention by making a dare, she lets down her hair and dances in her underwear.

She makes all the dogs come running out of their cage, to the center of the stage, they drool with a daze. But it’s all bark and no bite; no one has fallen for her lies. The only fool that has been fooled is her man who she has booed. This sudden dis has caused him to be pissed and with his fist he smashes her kiss. Oh everyone knows they’re headed for divorce but at the end of the party she reassured him she has remorse. And as they head out of the door everyone said “aww can we have a little more”. But to me it sounds like a whole lot of arguing with some fake display of public affection. Lovely-dovey is more like fakey-fakey.

The rollercoaster called love

2011-07-10T01:53:00.000-07:00

The rollercoaster called love

By: Angel D. Barrera

I waited all day, I waited all night, weeks, months, years, even decades. I think even in previous lives I waited centuries just to get a glimpse of it. But today I only waited hours in the flustering line clustered with people waiting to ride the ride. Someone asked if the waiting was almost over, I asked if the wait was worth the ride, then I heard the ride approaching and I knew I was finally at the front of the line. People came screaming off the ride, “It’s the best I ever had!” as the ride halts before my eyes, my stomach started twisting in knots as I stepped aboard the rollercoaster called love. It began to slowly take off then it started to climb - up, up, up it went into the sky. I was up so high I thought I was going to die. Then when I thought the rollercoaster was going to come steeply speeding down, it just went straight cruising along the skyline.

I was up there with all the stars and on a summer night they are really nice but to be honest the stars weren’t as bright as they were when I watched them from below. Up and close they are dull, full of dust, covered in lust. They lost their shine, it didn’t make me want to be their mine, and they weren’t even kind. Everyone seemed to be impressed but I was distressed! The ride was more than one night and I wasn’t having fun - I just wanted to get off the ride but it wasn’t ending. The ride continued to go in a straight horizontal line, there were no twists, no thrills, no down falls, it was just a boring ride. I thought this was going to be like the movies when they go on a magic carpet ride, when the boy kisses the girl and sparks fly, when they close their eyes and hold each other’s hands because the ride is a scary bumpy life full of twists and sharp curves.

But no, this wasn’t like that. There was no magic, there were no kisses, and there was no element of surprise. The ride was socially awkward. And when it finally came to an end I cried. To have waited this long for such a disappointment, how could you not cry? I waited all day, I waited all night, weeks, months, years, even decades. And when I finally got to the front of the line and got in, and then came out, I realized I was in line to a whore house this whole time. This is love? I rather die, so this is my goodbye.

Scarlet FEVER

2011-06-26T00:05:00.000-07:00

Scarlet FEVER

By: Angel D. Barrera

I woke up way too early today by accident, dawn is just breaking in, but for some reason I have this sudden urge to run. I close my eyes for a second to imagine the stars fading away as I run through the wee hours of the morning- it’s an adrenaline rush. The excitement has filled by body within seconds that I don’t even bother to put on my shoes or wear my clothes, I run out in the nude. Everything was going fine until a shadow crossed by path, now I’m burning up, weighing a thousand pounds heavier as everything spins out of control. I lost my balance, now I’m on the floor and there is a strange figure standing to the right.

His foot is ice cold as he places his foot over my mouth so that I won’t scream- his cold foot is a relief to my burning sensation. “Don’t hurt him”, says a women’s voice in the background as she came forward into the light. Hers eyes are scarlet red as they locked on to mine- it was like I couldn’t look away. It felt like I was under hypnosis, I could hear everything, but I couldn’t move an inch of my body- I was numb. Then the morning fog rolled in and they faded into the dark as I lay in a pool of blood, their gone.

I’m not sure what happened, I’m not sure who they were or what they were, if they were human or if they were monsters. But I have a feeling a ritual was performed and now I have this scarlet fever. Did I find love? Was it lust? It couldn’t have been because I’ve never felt this way before. But I have all these bite marks all over my body and no teeth to show for it. Suddenly I feel sick. I feel disgusted. I can’t stand it. I closed my eyes- I just want this scarlet fever to go away. I scream as loud as I could, then I realized I was just in the comfort of my own home this whole time, was I dreaming? Because dawn is still breaking in… But why is my skin broken? I have scarlet FEVER.

Oh brother how you've changed

2011-06-19T00:01:00.001-07:00

Oh brother how you’ve changed

(Happy father's day)

By: Angel D. Barrera

I woke up today to find you here banging on our door, demanding why I didn’t let you in before, but excuse me I thought you didn’t live here anymore? Why do you keep coming back and asking for our help? Once your out, your out, your on your own. Don’t look back, just keep going straight forward on that path, no matter how bumpy or crazy it seems its life and sometimes that’s just the way it’s suppose to be. These are lessons in life you must learn, but when your here almost every day asking for money, childcare, or whatever the dilemma of the day is, your not learning anything.

It’s not cool when your twenty-five, you have a child, but you have no job. Your the man, your suppose to be wearing the pants, bringing home all the cash. But instead your so far up her ass, she’s got you wrapped around her finger, and in a snap she’s got you on your knees licking the crap off her ass. Your her bitch and she’s got you on a short leash. She’s completely emasculated you, she ripped off your testicles and she has them inside her mouth, using them as the mouthpiece which she speaks from.

She castrated you, oh brother how you’ve changed. Your no longer the father, your the mother who gave birth to this daughter, and now she’s a reminder of you. I remember when we were young, you were the bigger brother, now I look down on you and pity you, what a difference five years have made. Your my brother up until the day your not my brother and I think that day is today. Take back your balls, even if she bleeds, grab them while you can and place them where they belong. Until then you are not my brother, have fun being a mother.

a cure for a poor man's heart

2011-06-12T03:17:00.001-07:00

A Cure for a poor man’s heart

By: Angel D. Barrera

A poor man stumbles over a rock as he walks the streets in search for a job. He’s in aching pain, he has a disease that’s rotting his core, his mouth is full of nerves that have been exposed. It is a horrific situation, for he could die if he doesn’t find a way to pay for the cure, but being poor is why poverty has taken its tolls. All day he walked the streets looking for a job but his pronunciation wasn’t as good as the occupation he was applying to and he didn’t get the job. He dreads to go home without finding a job because he knew you would be angry if he didn’t bring home a little cash, but there he goes.

He walks into the mansion you live in with a tear in his eye, but you’re not the kind of person to be sympathetic over this kind of situation, and you raise your voice about the bills getting paid. It doesn’t take you long until you ask his family for money but a poor man has an even poorer family. You can put on your sad face, you can cry out your eyes all you want, and you can say it’s for the cure but you don’t fool me one bit. If you love him so much you would pay for the cure yourself, it’s a small price for a life time of love, but you’re not in love, you’re in lust, and you prove it everyday. All you care about is yourself; you’re a selfish, narcissistic, egotistical bitch.

You want his family to pay but I got your cure right here; sell your new car, sell your new washer, sell your big screen TV, sell your expensive toothbrushes, sell everything! Don’t be afraid to leave your new house to live under a bridge, don’t be afraid to go from eating at restaurants to eating out of dumpsters, and don’t be afraid to give up your life to save a life you love. It’s for a cure for a poor man’s heart but you don’t deserve his heart. And that’s why you don’t have a ring around your finger because you can’t handle the for better or for worst part of a marriage. You say it’s a do or die situation but he’s still rotting inside while you sit on your porcelain throne.

that kid with a broken heart

2011-06-03T21:38:00.001-07:00

that kid with a broken heart

(1 year anniversary)

By: Angel D. Barrera

Twenty-three years ago a baby was born into this world burning through his mother’s womb nearly killing her the day of birth. It is said that the baby is a messenger of god, an Angel brought to this world to save humanity, but something went terribly wrong and the baby came out with horns. The mother gave the baby all of her love but it wasn’t enough to cover the father’s hate that was in his heart. No matter how hard the mother loved her baby the horns never went away, in fact they only got bigger as the baby grew, six years later the mother realize she created a monster.

He was incapable of friendships, he was incapable of caring, and he was incapable of love. There wasn’t much the kid could do, all his emotions seem to revolve around anger and hate, that everything he touched was brutally beaten to death. He fought with his mother until he broke her heart. He fought with his brother until he broke his jaw. He fought with his sister until he knocked her out cold. And he fought with his father until he grew old. But now they’re all gone, he lives in the dark, telling stories about his broken heart...

To be continued...

Dreams

2011-05-30T02:30:00.000-07:00

Tonight I drown in my dreams...

My final for my digital art video class (Ignore glitch)

My dear sister

2011-05-23T21:56:00.000-07:00

My dear sister

By: Angel D. Barrera

We get older each day and the memories of our younger years fade day by day. But I still remember that day when you came back from summer and we played in your room with the toys you got from being away. It is the happiest memory I have, all the rest are dark and scary, I guess I’m not really ordinary. I was angry the day you got married, I should have been happy, but I was mad you didn’t ask me to be your best man. Now I regret saying those awful words, I’m cold, I guess that day I really wasn’t being your bro.

But today, on your special day, I wanna show you that I am your bro and that I care. Even when you are a thousand miles away, and it is a holiday, I still remember your birthday. It doesn’t matter if it rains, if the sky falls, or if I have a crazy day. I will remember your birthday. And today I made you a cake, lit the candles, wishing you a happy day. Then the memories came flooding back, you are in your teens, and I am just a kid going through your things.

How did the years go by so quick? Now you’re a mother and I’m a college grad, when did we ever start living in different lands? I guess we all just went our separate ways, I just hope that one day we all end up at the same place. But for now, just blow out your candles my dear sister, for it is your birthday and I miss you.