The B-Side of My Mind

MOVED.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 04:48:00 +0000

I have moved.

I will no longer be posting with blogpost. Thank you for all the years being with me on this blog but since i don't have that much time to do so anymore,
i made a decision to move to Tumblr :)

Feel free to visit..

MY TUMBLR PAGE!

At THAT Point.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 15 Jul 2011 03:38:00 +0000

Self-help Books.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 15 Jul 2011 01:16:00 +0000

In this month alone, i have already purchased 3 books and all of them are self-help books:

1. Men are from Mars, women are from Venus
2. Mars and Venus on a date

..and the most recent one i bought, is:

3. Why men love bitches.

I got this book last night at 1Borneo's Times bookstore. It cost RM60 but i think it is worth every cent. It made me realize a few things that i never really thought of myself to be. In chapter two of the book, there were some yes or no questions for the readers to answer. Guess what? i answered ALL of them YES! OMG!!!

I AM A GOOD GIRL!!! I am wayyy too nice. Being nice is nice, but being too nice is dangerous and that's what i've been doing all this while. The things is, when i like a guy, i can't help but be nice and accommodating, which leads me to being completely taken for granted. Every freaking time when he calls, i will drop whatever i was doing, no matter what the circumstances, and go see him. I was being motherly, and took care of his needs. Now that i'm here, i'm thinking "why the hell did i be so motherly? he has his mother for crying out loud!". If i don't cater to his needs, he'll be putting words into my head that suggest i am not being a good girlfriend or companion whatever. I've been selling myself too low for too long and it only shows how weak of a woman i am when it comes to men. I will ignore my feelings, opinions etc just to avoid arguments. Ohmygawwwd!

I've only reached chapter 3 already i find it terrifyingly true! This book is genius, an eye opener. I recommend every girl out there to get a copy of this book.

Like, now.

Rock Climbing.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Thu, 16 Jun 2011 03:28:00 +0000

I went rock climbing for the first time in my life last nite at Sabah Indoor Climbing Centre (SICC) at Likas. Before i went, i spend a good 1 hour or so at the gym - running. I told my friends i need to warm up first.. hahahah!!

When i reached SICC, At first i was not really sure if i could climb it. But just after 1 shot of a climb, and i was hooked! I am so loving it.. gonna make it a regular activity in my life :)

Starting...

Getting chalk on my palms

Climbing on

A little bit more......

Yeay! i made it!

These pictures were taken during my 1st climb.

I climbed 3 more times after that.

It was damn tiring yet challenging and i like it!! You can't believe how sweaty you'll get when you climb. I was dry when i climbed, when i went down i was sweating like mad.

The whole group (minus fara who had to go back early)

//pictures are not that good since it was taken using my blackberry :D
but okaylahh.. still viewable

Operation Malaysia.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Wed, 15 Jun 2011 06:25:00 +0000

After MCMC's (Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission) action of blocking P2P (peer to peer) or file sharing websites listed below, came this warning from a famous P2P website, The Pirate Bay.

Blocked Sites:
1. warez-bb.org
2. thepiratebay.org
3. movie2k.to
4. megavideo.com
5. putlocker.com
6. depositfiles.com
7. duckload.com
8. fileserve.com
9. filetube.com
10. megaupload.com

My say on the warning (whether it is a scam or not) : Kotoh! baru tauuu!!! Come on lah.. you are taking people's basic right to freedom. Like many of you out there, i am also a huge fan of downloads. I'll openly say i download my music, movies, tv series but if you claim i download for free you are damn wrong. Like everyone out there I pay my internet bills every freakin month for what? a not-so decent connection line. Don't you feel like you've been ripped off??

I haven't met anyone who felt happy about this issue. If there is, there's seriously something wrong with you man. Oh, if you're internet is acting up and cannot stream the video above, i'll make things easier for you. This is what the video is saying:

" Greetings, Malaysia, We have seen the censorship taken by the Malaysian government, blocking sites like The Pirate Bay, and WikiLeaks. Malaysia is one of the world’s strictest governments, even blocking out movies, and television shows. These acts of censorship are inexcusable. You are taking away a basic human right. The internet is here for freedom, without fear of government interference. Do not think that no one else notices. Your structured government has done the talking, and we hear loud and clear. Let this be an announcement to all your people. This is a sign, a warning, and an opportunity to listen to ideas above your own. In a way you are being stubborn. But how will this help anyone or your country. We fear that if you make further decisions to take away human freedom. We are obligated to act fast and have no mercy. For rules were meant to be broken. And corruption was meant to be washed away and forgiven. Now we will wash your corruption away so be prepared. Take this as a favor."

(Photo courtesy of belogkiter.blogspot.com)

(photo courtesy of belogkiter.blogspot.com)

The above letter is the sample letter for your reading. Has your ISP started to block your access to the above sites already?

Queen B.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 13 Jun 2011 23:52:00 +0000

I can't wait for her new album "4" to come out on June 28th!!

My Latest Obsession.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 13 Jun 2011 04:38:00 +0000

R U N N I N G .

Yes. I love running. It doesn't matter if it's on the treadmill or running outdoors. I just simply LOVE to run!

Love Yourself.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Sun, 12 Jun 2011 12:32:00 +0000

for my own wellbeing, i am going to close the chapter of my life which has been very dear to me. i should have done it long ago but i just cant. to be honest, if i dont do it now im afraid i'll get sick. the last thing that i want for myself is to be depressed.

i can only do, feel and think so much alone on a two-way street. i love him, yes. but i wont allow myself to be treated this way. i feel pity for my ownself. i need to distance myself, find myself back and try to find happiness within myself again.

this depression can't go on.

i love you, goodbye.

Cupcake Bake.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 10 Jun 2011 10:36:00 +0000

There's alot of things that i have not done in so long! one of them is baking. Me and my colleagues love to eat and watch cooking shows i.e. masterchef, junior masterchef, DC cupcakes, Cupcake girls.. just to name a few. Two of us came of with the idea of baking cupcakes this weekend and try to perfect it like DC Cupcakes' cupcakes.

I've got my ingredients ready :D Just waiting for the right time to bake hehehe. Is there such thing as a right time to bake? hmmm.. -.-

Milk, cream cheese, margerine (i prefer using margerine everytime),
my chopped walnuts, sugar & flour.

Oh, just so you know i'm planning to bake carrot cupcakes since i love carrot cakes :)
I'm so hoping the cupcakes will turn out fine and dandy. But most importantly, it is edible hahah!

I don't know if i'll be able to join the zombi-fied sunday run organized by the AdiNation of runners KK on facebook. My left knee kinda hurts when i walk so i'll maybe use that time to bake instead of run!

Thank God It's Friday!

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 10 Jun 2011 00:41:00 +0000

It's Friday once again and i am more than thankful that the weekend's here! I am so tired!! physically..

To count up all the KMs i've ran this week would be: 36.65km. At this moment, i just feel like i wanna sleep. But i can't since i'm at work.. so, yeah. I slept quite early last night, around 11pm and woke up at 6.30am. I had to bring my make up with me to work today because i don't want to be late. Being late means going back late and it's Friday. I don't want to go home late.

Here's some faces of me taken by my laptop's webcam after i've done my face :D

(1.)

(2.)

(3.)

I've realized that life is too precious and too short to fret, worry and be sad about things that didn't turn out the way we want it to be but look around, open your eyes.. there's a lot more things to be grateful and happy for.

It's not easy for me to say it because i learned the hard way to appreciate the little things in life. After all, it's the little things in life that matters the most sometimes right? Now that i have learned a really valuable lesson by experiencing it first hand, i just hope and pray i wont make the same mistake again in the future.

:)

BIM2011

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Thu, 09 Jun 2011 02:40:00 +0000

Hello!

It has been a very long while since i posted anything here. The reason of my absent was: lazy, busy, lazy, lazy, busy hehehe.

My laziness was caused by my busy-ness. I go to the gym 3-4 times a week and everytime i say i'm going to blog after gym it will not happen because i get so tired and thus lazy. But since now i have some liiiiiittttlllllee extra time (more than half of the class was absent so i dismissed my students early) to kill so here i am blogging!

This year i joined the BIM (Borneo International Marathon) again and i participated in the same category again : 10km. But this time, my time improved than last year's run. I don't know why, but i am kind of addicted to running now. I have even joined a group of runners on Facebook thanks to my friend, Danne :D This sunday will be my first time running with the group. Although i don't think i am going to run 21km with them. I'm going to go slow. I'll just do the 10km run.

My official time for this year :D Improved, eh? i think it is quite good considering i had no outdoor running training prior to the run.

My 2nd 10km monkey medal.

Up close with the monkey medal.

I'm planning to get my 1st 21km monkey medal next year!

Waiting for my cup of cold Milo.

I think thats about it. I've just been called to submit the marks for the students' past exam which i am still working on haha!

Oh, and by the way i am going to start blogging morrre! *fingers crossed*

testing..testing

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 28 Mar 2011 23:12:00 +0000

err hello? just wanna see if this goes through.

Sony Trik Ipod Dock Boombox.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Tue, 22 Mar 2011 01:40:00 +0000

My old speaker at home, an Altec Lansing which i had for like, almost 10 years have finally showed its worn out signs. If it didnt affected the projected sounds, i dont mind but unfortunately it did. So i began searching for a replacement. I was thinking of buying a new Altec Lansing, since i really love its sound. I came across this Sony ... and since i have gotten myself a 32GB ipod touch for my birthday, i think this would be the best speaker to buy as it compliments my iTouch.

When i was vacationing in Singapore, I have tested this speaker and how i love the sound! luckily the speaker was 9kg heavy! If can lipat-lipat the speaker, sudah sa kasi masuk poket! I remembered seeing this speaker at Technocrats in 1Borneo so that same night, i searched for Technocrats' website but there was only their facebook page. I sent a message to them, asking how much is the price. They replied, saying it is RM499 but now promotion konon, the price was slashed to RM399. Only 2 weeks ago i told my brother about this speaker and my so-called 'dream' of buying one. He said that Technocrats mahal so we went to check out the Sony centre at Karamunsing. The price was the same, RM399 but the guy said he can give us RM380. Apa lagi, sa angkat lah satu terus! hahahaa...

It was damn heavy okay! luckily my brother was there. He helped carry the speaker :D

My new Sony Trik ipod dock boombox

The great thing about this iPod boombox is that, it comes with 4 skins. You can also customize your own skin at Skinit.com :)

Just want to show this because this song's getting into me.
Can't wait for Femme Fatale album to come out!

I've got my mark on it, so no one can take it and claim it's theirs. tee hee heee...

Me, Today.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 06:46:00 +0000

Every Saturday, i will follow my parents to church so that means no driving for me. Im so tired of driving myself to work everyday and i'm glad in a week, there is at least one day that i dont have to drive. But this morning my parents said they'll be attending church at Kolombong (SDA Chinese church). I didn't want to attend church there so i decided to follow my sister but it turns out that my sister isn't going to church too! I did thought of skipping church hehe :P but i know it wouldn't be the right thing to do - skipping church just because i'm so lazy to drive?

Since i'll be driving myself to church, i took my sweet time getting ready. By the time i was ready it was 30minutes to 10am :D My lateness to church can partially be blamed by my photo taking session again before leaving (hehe sempat lagi kan) :

..alllllmosssssstt out of the door

Then i realize that i forgot my purse, so i headed back to my room -.-

..and took another shot of myself. Lately i like wearing nude shades of lipstick instead of the usual red shades. Today i mixed my lipstick up: Maybelline's watershine hazelnut sauce (number 24) and then finish it with BodyShop's Love Gloss - this lipgloss smells so nice, it also tastes as nice hehehe.

Last shot before i leave my room AND my house

The white polka dot babydoll dress i'm wearing in this post, i haven't worn it in 2 years. I bought it when i was in China 4 years ago. I stopped wearing it because apparently i got bigger and it didn't fit me anymore. I was almost giving up hope in ever wearing this dress again and i even thought of giving it away. I was kinda skeptical at first on whether i could fit it this morning.. but hey! it fits!! I think it fits me better now than it did then. Yeayy! So happy!

When i was editing the colors of the pictures in this post, my mom passed by me and said that my lost-weight really shows in this pictures :D ..another reason to be happy!! yeayy! I don't know if i have already mentioned it in my blog but i have lost 5kg (..and counting!) I hope to lose another 5kg and then after that it's all gonna be about maintaining it.

Friends In High Places

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 18 Mar 2011 23:24:00 +0000

Larnelle Harris is one of my favorite contemporary gospel singers and i personally think he is one of the best singers of all time and this song has been a constant favorite of mine all through the years.

I've got hope when things look bad
And I can smile when I should be sad
I've got friends who lift me up when I'm feeling low
And they watch over me wherever I may go

I've got friends in high places
So high but not so far away
I've got friends in high places
And I'm gonna be with them someday

There's the Father right by His Son
And the angels, each and everyone
And other friends I miss so much and I long to see
But knowing ill be with them one day comforts me

I've got friends in high places
So high but not so far away
I've got friends in high places
And I'm gonna be with them someday

Why should I run

Why should I hide

What's there to fear
When my friends are on my side

I've got friends in high places
So high but not so far away
I've got friends in high places
And I'm gonna be with them someday

I've got friends in high places
So high but not so far away
I've got friends in high places
And I'm gonna be with them
Yes, I'm gonna be with them someday

Happy Sabbath to all Sabbath keepers and have an awesome weekend to all!

Singapore

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Fri, 18 Mar 2011 11:35:00 +0000

I was in Singapore last month, but i totally forgot to blog about it :D

My stay there was a short one. Only 4 days 3 night. Yea, skijaaaap saja. But the most

amazing thing was i only had more or less S$400 in cash AND i survived. My cousin kept on asking me a day before our trip "are you sure you're only bringing that much money?" because my other cousin told me to convert RM1500 - RM2000 because only that amount of money will be enough for our stay there. I beg to differ and i said i am going to defy that.

My purpose of going there is NOT for shopping. It was only for jalan-jalan makan angin. So there i was with them, both of them with about S$1000 in their purses and me, with just a mere S$400 (more or less haha!) Luckily we stayed at a friend's condo, so more money saved!

Ok. 'nuff babbling, now Pictures!! lots and lots of them!

the three of us all ready to roam the city (pic taken inside the lift of the condo)

Seriously, i haven't ride a bus for a reaaaallly long time. But if our bus system was like the ones they have in Singapore i will be more than willing to ride the bus everyday!

Destination: unknown.

Weird looking cupcake.

Our first foods there.

The lights behind reminds me of Macau :)

1st day worth of shoes.

When will I be able to own an authentic LV bag? hmm..

This was our room for 3 nights. I slept near the window :D

Chicken tika, and um.. some Indonesian food, which i love!

Lapar!!

Midnight snacks

Just like the guy with the Nikon camera, I was also wondering what they were looking..
could it be the sun?

This picture i took is dedicated to all my Bugis friends hehehe

Little Devils of mine :) - I bought the skins there. They say it is sold in KK but until now i havent seen any being sold. Or maybe i have been looking at the wrong places? hm.

Me IS Back.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Thu, 17 Mar 2011 05:45:00 +0000

Yes. I am back! :)

I was at a crossroad, i didnt know which way to go and it was frustrating me. So i had to take some time off from everything. When i say everything, i mean EVERYTHING! i didnt open facebook for a few days, the facebook app on my blackberry was also removed. I only depended on a few close friends for guidance and comfort. Notice i didnt mention parents? yea, i didnt tell my parents about my condition because i think some things are best kept from them. i think they did noticed a change in me - quiet, swollen eyes from crying, no appetite, locking myself in my room. But they know im a tough cookie. They know i will survive that phase.

Maybe you're wondering what happened to me? I just went through a horrible break up with my now ex-boyfriend. I never cried that much in my whole life. I'm not gonna go through the details because i don't want to end up saying bad things about him. I still respect him enough as a person so let the details be known to just me and him.

But the important thing is that i am now OK. Life must go on no matter what happens right? To tell you the truth how i reeeeeaaaaaaaaalllllyyy got to where i am now after the break up is i read alot of quotes. Surprisingly quotes from people that i follow on Twitter like, @MovingOnTips, @iTwitQuotes, @LearnToBeAlone, @TheBestSex101, @TheKillerTruth and MORE. Not forgetting my ever supporting friends at work. They are the best. Thank God for good friends :)

taken this morning before heading to work.

So yah.. I am back and I am going to be posting like, everyday from now

(that is, if im not too busy at work ;D)

I Am Not Okay.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 03:23:00 +0000

i guess the 30-days blog challenge have to be post-poned again. i was unable to do my 1st posting on the 1st of march and i really dont want to do backposts. i think i need a time out from this blogosphere for a while. a very dear friend of mine was hospitalized and my emotions are unstable. i hate it when this kind of things happen to me. i just wish i could shut it all off or tear this page out and start my life on a new leaf. i need a time out.

Blog Challenge = F.A.I.L.U.R.E

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 08:51:00 +0000

My 30-days blog challenge was a failure. I was defeated! :( :(

But i am not giving up. Since today is the 1st of March (whatttt?? it's March alreadyyyy???) i am going to start another blog challenge. This time it's on honesty. Here are the topics of the 30-days HONESTY challenge:

* Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
* Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
* Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
* Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
* Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
* Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
* Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
* Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like sh*t.
* Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
* Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
* Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
* Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
* Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
* Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
* Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

* Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

* Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
* Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
* Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
* Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
* Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before.
What do you do?
* Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
* Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
* Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.
(Just post the titles and artists and letter)
* Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
* Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
* Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
* Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
* Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
* Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Hopefully this time will be more successfull. No more backposts!

Merlion City

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Tue, 22 Feb 2011 02:17:00 +0000

This weekend i will be going to Merlion City! Yes! Singapore!! I'm so happy i can be somewhere else for a change this weekend :) Since this is my first time to go to Singaore, I have prepared a list of places to go to. The list i got it from some travelling forum on the internet.

The list.

Anyhoo, on Monday (28th Feb) i will be having an appointment with a dermatologist at the hospital. I am kind of worried for what the verdict will be but at the same time, i am happy that i finally took action on this 'thing' i'm having. Sorry guys, i won't be revealing what 'thing' i'm having just yet :D I'll talk about it post-appointment hehehe.

Day 21 (21.02.11) : – A Photo of Something That Makes You Happy.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 02:44:00 +0000

It's my baby nephew, Joshua that makes me happy. He's now 4 months plus and is now slowly learning to eat other foods besides milk.

Big eyes..

Being carried by grandma.

Spending time with this baby sometimes makes my maternal instinct inside of me to jump up. It makes me want to have a baby. Hmmmmnn.

Day 20 (20.02.11) : The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 02:34:00 +0000

THE B-SIDE OF PAMMIE'S MIND.

I consider whatever i write on my blog (which comes from my mind) is the B-Side of my mind.

So what is the A-Side? The A-Side is everything that i say (which also comes from mind, obviously) in real life.

Simple, eh? :)

Day 19 (19.02.11) : Another Picture of Yourself.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 02:23:00 +0000

Pictures were taken recently (12.02.11) i was going out to have Yoyo session with my girl friends.

Without flash

With flash.

I haven't applied lipstick yet. That explains the pale look :)

Day 18 (18.02.11) : Something You Crave A Lot.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 02:00:00 +0000

I crave these foods! SO much!!

Combos snacks. So sad they're not available in KK. Gonna get some stock when i go to Singapore this weekend :) I heard it's available there.

Lasagna!

Sadly i don't know how to make lasagna :( so how the hell can i crave for lasagna if i don't know how to make it? hehe.. i've got my cousin to make lasagna but she's been so lazy slaving for me. Hmm. I guess sooner or later i will have to learn to make my own lasagna.

Day 17 (17.02.11) : A Photo of You and Your Family.

noreply@blogger.com (Pammie) — Mon, 21 Feb 2011 01:50:00 +0000

This photo was taken in 2007. We even had to take 2 photos of us together because there were no one available at church (this photo was taken at church) to help us.

But it's the people who are in the picture what mattes :) Now, you know who are in my family.