BIRD'S EYE VIEW

MY life My problems Not yours!

2019-02-11T11:35:00.000-06:00

Recently I was accused of using someone else's problems for my own personal gain.

I have been thinking and thinking and thinking about that. Recently I hit rock bottom emotionally and wanted to commit suicide. I took a few extra blood pressure pills. I knew when I took them it wasn't likely enough to do the job but I tried. Because of that attempt my primary wanted me to have a psych eval.

This person also tried to commit suicide twice. They were rescued thank God.

I am sorry that that is our comparison between us. But I can also say my reasons had nothing to do with that person. I am hurting for totally different reasons and have been for a few years. It just happened that I hit rock bottom last recently.

You see I am alone. I sit here day in and day out and never have company that just comes to visit. Rarely get a phone call either. I don't have a lot of friends to go visit and those I have are a long drive away that I can't afford to go. Even my family is a long drive that I can't afford to take. I am lonely.

I have spent my entire life with other people in the house. People I can talk to and share with and laugh with. But now I am alone. I can't do alone well but I am having to do so.

I long for my phone to ring. I long for the knock at the door for a friend. I long for a conversation to expand my mind out of this feeling of loneliness.

My problems are not this persons nor is it because of this person. The only involvement with this person if I was using anything was I was holding on to them as my support system. As someone who was saving me. I am lonely.

No I don't think suicide is the answer. No I am not suicidal. If I was I have enough pills here I could end things and no one would know for days or even weeks because I am alone.

Death isn't my wish. Life is.

But not this life of loneliness.

Loving Her

2019-02-02T10:14:00.000-06:00

Late last year my girlfriend broke up with me. To say I was devastated would be an understatement. I loved her. She had stolen my heart. She was so giving, caring, compassionate and deserved to much in return.

Recently, she reconnected with me. We're just friends at this time. Will we get back together? I don't know. I hope and pray we will. I still love her so very much. I long to hold her. I long to feel her touch. I so valued her companionship and love.

AND.....I FAILED HER.

If you love someone tell them. Don't just say I love you a hundred times a day. Don't just make love to them. Don't just hold them and spend time with them.

Take the time to say Thank You. Say it expecting nothing in return. Say Thank You for all the little things they do and express how you feel because of it. Value them as treasure you can't live without. Make them feel how you feel when they go out of their way for you.

So to the person who holds my heart I say I love you and thank you for all you've ever done. You deserve more than I ever gave in return and for that I am sorry.

Here is my promise - I promise from now on to take the time to give back to you all you give me. I will carry your heart tenderly and softly with love and compassion like you did mine. I promise to always take the time to express my feelings to you fully.

I love you

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2018-01-24T08:58:00.002-06:00

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Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt. 19

2017-04-15T16:16:00.000-05:00

Amputation isn't a small thing. Oh sure it is a common thing that many people face. But it isn't small. There are a lot of changes with how you do things, how you handle physical things and figuring out how to still do most or all you used to do.

There are many things about living as an amputee that I have no clue about. Apprehension has a way of creeping in and trying to steal my excitement. Yet, I am not not weak minded or easily swayed from paths that I set myself on. One I make up my mind on something it is pretty much a done deal. Sometimes I procrastinate and sometimes I am full steam ahead. But either way I get it done.

As I am typing this my leg is throbbing, it smells because I need to change the bandaging and hurts for many reasons. I haven't taken my pain pills yet but will shortly. It is those reasons above that help keep me focused on wanting this amputation. And too, I have received nothing but kind, supportive words from all of you reading my many post. Thank you for those.

I look at this amputation as a way of moving forward but also to eliminate pain, discomfort and smell. Many of you who struggle with back pain, Fibo, or some other form of painful struggles daily have said on Facebook over the years - wish I could get a new back or body. Sadly that isn't an option for you. Lord knows I wish it was.

For me I have an option. Only two things stood in my way - finding a doctor who agreed to my wishes and being brave enough to go through with it.

A lot of what I am saying in this post I have said before. I guess the point of this post would have to be this. No matter what you are struggling with, no matter how bad things get or how much pain you face never give up. If you are offered a form of treatment that can give you release find the strength to go through with your option.

And no matter what you face in life. No matter how big the hurdle remember there are others out there facing the same hurdles. Dealing with the same kind of pain. YOU ARE NOT ALONE in your struggles.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt. 18

2017-04-15T16:15:00.004-05:00

Another WOW moment. After the amputation I'll be foot loose and fancy free. 🤣

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt. 17

2017-04-15T16:15:00.001-05:00

WOW moment. After the amputation I will be able to join a three legged race competition as the third leg.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt. 16

2017-04-15T16:14:00.002-05:00

A while back I complained about the nurse practitioner I see at the clinic and that I never see a doctor. I have asked and asked and asked for pain pills because of my leg. The only pain killers that work is Hydrocodone. She gave me everything but those.

Finally after meeting with the surgeon who will do the amputation on May 5th I called him back yesterday. Keep in mind I only saw him once so far. I asked if there was anyway I could get some pain pills for my leg. Without hesitation he prescribed me Hydrocodone. Granted it was only enough to get me through to the amputation but at least he gave them to me.

This is exactly why I prefer seeing doctors over nurse practitioners. I knew if I ever saw a doctor I would get what I needed. Because of this I slept wonderfully last night.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt. 15

2017-04-15T16:13:00.002-05:00

Hope this works like I want it to. But even if it doesn't I am comfortable doing it this way. If you wish to view my leg wounds to get a better understanding why I am having this amputation I have posted these for you. But please be aware that these pictures are not for everyone.

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Left Leg Wound Pictures -

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 14

2017-04-15T16:11:00.003-05:00

The upcoming amputation of my leg and the post I have shared openly and willing about my life has been fulfilling to say the least. There will be more to come. I promise you that. But I need to take a few moment and get this off my chest.

Since I have started sharing so much about my life on here I have had a large number of people, both close to me and those I only know through Facebook or the writers forum I am blessed to be a founding member of, suggest I write a book about my life. I at first laughed about it and blew it off. However my life has always been about giving and helping if and where I can. So I am going to put this out there and see if there are any takers.

I am looking for a co-author/ghost writer to help me write this book. I need someone fairly close to me and willing to be in contact with me for regular and at times long periods of time. Someone who can help keep me writing, focused and to also help draw out of my portions of my life that would be good additions to the book.

There is one catch I can't afford to pay anything at this time. What I can and will agree to do is offer a payment percentage per sale of each book if we can get it published or what ever kind of agreement we can work out together.

This is life not reality TV crap.
You can message me here for my email address and phone number.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 13

2017-04-15T16:11:00.000-05:00

Recently I started posting about my upcoming amputation surgery and shared the why I chose this - complications from burns. I am humbled by the outpouring of views, likes, and kind and inspiring uplifting comments.

After about three days of posting I told George Kramer, author of Blind to Blood and the Arcadis series, that the reason I am posting all this about the surgery and my struggles on Facebook was I feel doing so is really what Facebook was intended for. Oh sure I could post on my blog too and get a lot more page-views there, maybe.

Since starting these post I have had at least one post shared with a wonderfully humbling caption added by Alyssa Murray. Thank again Alyssa. Her sharing my post has brought on comments from people on her friends list. At least one of them had read my post to their family and friends. I am blessed that people have found something of value in my posts.

I am not a good man, though I am trying to be a better person. I don't feel I deserve the praise and kind words I am receiving from so many but am truly honored and humbled because of it.

Any thing of value I have within me is not of my own doing. Their are hundreds if not thousands of people that have come and gone in my life that shaped, formed, beat and criticized me over the years to make me who I am. Their value as human beings is far greater than I will ever feel I can measure up to being. I have two sets of parents who I was blessed with. Friends who questioned my decisions and encouraged me on others. I have a brother who I look up to more than he will ever know or understand. But more important to me is God. With my faith in God I would have been lost long ago.

I can't change or undo my past mistakes in life. All I or any of us can do is work harder to be better people each day. Each time we wake and see the sunrise we have a chance to do better, to be better. That is what I am trying to do. That is my life mission.

If I fail to say this later I want to say it now. THANK YOU.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 12

2017-04-15T16:10:00.003-05:00

On April 6th I said I would return with more concerning my burns. The reason I am sharing this is because my upcoming surgery is largely due to complications of my burns.

As previously stated I am burned 85% of my body all 3rd degree. If we met in person you might not even notice. You may see my right arm is severely burned and think that was all. But you would be surprised to see the rest of my body is also.

Lets answer a few questions first before I go further. How was I burned? I was accidentally set on fire by gas. An eight year old boy and myself (age four at the time) were in the garage. He light a small pool of gas. The flames caught my left pants leg, went up to my torso and over to my right arm. When and where did this happen? This happened January 13th, 1970 in the garage on the concrete floor. No damage to the garage or house.

Now if you've been following along you know that the upcoming surgery is amputation to my left leg. The damage to my left leg because of this fire is the biggest complication I have had to deal with due to burns. But it isn't the only thing.

For those of us who are burn survivors we have an invisible disability in much the same way as many of you have. There are complications about being burned that no matter how long you spend around me you may never see, know or understand. I have physical limitations that everyone else pretty much takes for granted - bending, stretching, ability to handle heat or sunny days, etc.

A burn victims skin becomes almost like leather. Bending and stretching as others do is restricted or limited. In my case I can not reach my feet with both hands. I can reach my feet with my left hand. But can only reach the right foot with my right hand but not the left foot.

The inability to handle and enjoy a warm summer day is the worse but there are so many variables with this. I once worked in a doughnut shop where the back room temp was 135 degrees in the winter with the windows open and hotter in the summer. Yet I had no problems working there. But I can not and will not try to go fishing during sunny days when temps reach 80+ degrees. Yet I have been fishing in temps over 80 degrees with out complications.

So what are the variables? There are many and yet in come cases they don't help. A breeze, clouds, shade all are part of those variables but so is constant supply of water, tea, or something cool to drink. Will I be moving around a lot? Will there be some kind of fan available or air blowing system? Any, all and none of these can play a part in the ability to handle the heat. You see the burns damaged the sweat glands in my torso. I only sweat from my shoulders up and my hips down. There is a real risk of heat stroke, heat exhaustion, fainting, etc while being outside or even inside hot or warm areas.

One side note about my leg and the wounds - When you put garage outside in the summer you likely notice the flies, gnats and other things flying around it. That is what happens when I am outside to me due to the wounds on my leg. I have at least three times changed bandages on my leg only to find maggots crawling on the wounds due to the flies. The amputation with help eliminate this very embarrassing issue for me.

The moral of this post is - Never under estimate the complications others might be going through due to their unforeseen disabilities. It could very well be a matter of life or death for them.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 11

2017-04-15T16:09:00.001-05:00

For those keeping track of my upcoming amputation/surgery -

Apparently my pretesting for lab and EKG are the 28th of April. Oops...Already done both. :) All my lab work came back good. EKG I am not sure of at this moment since I haven't received results yet to my knowledge.

I am a tad surprised that the morning of the surgery the only medication I can take is my Amlodipine for blood pressure. But suits me just fine.

I think the most surprising thing I read was on the Post Operative Instructions page. It says can shower the day after surgery. Hmm...I have had 92 skin graft operations and a couple other operations in my life time. Showering or bathing other than a sponge bath wasn't something that would happen until two to three days after surgery at the earliest. Now I am not complaining. If I can take a shower the day after surgery you can bet that is what I will do.

Anyway give me a leg up if you know of anything else I might want to be aware of. Ummm...I mean a heads up. :)

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 10

2017-04-15T16:08:00.003-05:00

Why I chose an amputation verses continued wound care.

The simplest answer to that would be I'm tired. I am tired of all things related to dealing with open wounds (pain, smell, etc). I am tired of bandaging and not seeing permanent healing over a long period of time. And I am tired of the wounds themselves. This has been a forty year battle for me. One that I have had through two marriages, college, twenty five year of working and just trying to enjoy life.

But there are other things that contribute into my decision for the amputation as well. Things far worse than being tired - possibility of cancer! The fear and concern of developing cancer in my legs is very real. Forties years I have been risking the possibility of getting cancer.

Cancer, any cancer is scary enough. But according to the doctors I have spoken with, none of whom agreed to amputate, cancer in the leg due to acute ulcers is hard to treat and generally lead to amputation and possibly death.

Some people would say - OH MY GOD! Not amputation. My logic said - Hmm...permanently deal with the wounds and totally eliminate risk of cancer vs spending rest of my life battling and risking? Yeah... lets get it amputated. It was truly and honestly in my mind the best possible choice of any I had ever had offered.

For the last fifteen years or so I have been asking for, pushing for and praying for one doctor to agree to my desire of an amputation. Thankfully (and unfortunately for those who have dealt with me) I am bullheaded and stubborn. So every time I saw the nurses, wound care specialist and doctors I mentioned amputation of my leg. Every time they either said it wasn't their call, wasn't needed or that no doctor would ever agree to amputate since my leg is still usable. Thankfully Dr. Benjamin Garber agreed with me.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 9

2017-04-15T16:07:00.002-05:00

When I was 4 yrs old (almost 5 ) I was burned 85% of my body all 3rd degree. I have had 92 skin graft operations since than with my last one being April 2015. I have been through so many other things since than. Now I am preparing to go through an Above the Knee amputation. Some people say I am brave. Others say I am lucky to be alive.

I offer you proof that I am neither brave, nor lucky. I am just a human. You want to see brave? Lucky? Blessed? Watch this video. This is the real hero that I can look up to.

https://youtu.be/wwDNV3IMygg

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 8

2017-04-15T16:06:00.002-05:00

This isn't for the all to view but this is what I will be having done on May 5th. Very interesting video how the procedure of AKA (Above Knee Amputation) is done.

https://youtu.be/hDjUHxN14KA

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 7

2017-04-15T16:04:00.000-05:00

The Amputation might be my desire and I very well may be looking forward to it. But this does not and has not stopped the apprehension from creeping up.

Yesterday morning I went in for lab and EKG that is required before surgery. This for some reason caused a bit of negative thoughts, concern and fear to creep up on me. I got thinking about the "what ifs"

What if something goes wrong? What if I died during surgery? What if for some reason I can't handle a prosthetic?

Of those dying is the one that got me the most. The thought, though not likely, realization that it could happen. People have died having routine surgery far less invasive than an amputation before. So yeah the concern or fear is legitimate and real. It is not however one that will stop me from this. Again this is my choice.

However in spite of any fear I may have and in spite of my refusal to allow it from stopping the amputation I am considering a Will and Advance Directive just to be on the safe side. At the very least I am considering writing a few letters to a few family who I wish to share any unsaid thought with.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 6

2017-04-15T16:03:00.002-05:00

As many of you can tell my upcoming surgery hasn't hindered my sense of humor. Almost good enough to be a stand up comic but would likely have to become a sit down comic with only one leg. :)

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 5

2017-04-15T16:02:00.001-05:00

For those keeping up on my up coming surgery - May 5th I will be checking into OSF St. Francis Hospital in Peoria at 7:30am with surgery scheduled aroun 9:30am.

After receiving the call I about this date and time my nerves were going wild, which I expected. Had to stop for a little bit and just move around and relax.

In spite of the nerves there is one thing for sure - nothing short of a medical reason is going to get me to cancel, back out of or otherwise put off having this done. All and all I feel good about it.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 4

2017-04-15T16:01:00.002-05:00

Answers to questions asked about my upcoming leg amputation.

I do not know the exact date yet of the surgery. I am calling them today to set that up.

The amputation will be above the knee amputation. Doctor explained that I will be in the hospital about five days. After that I will spend about two weeks in amputee rehab learning how to function with only one leg.

Yes, I am or suppose to be getting a prosthetic. That will be between three to six months down the line according to the doctor.

I am assuming I will be at the O.S.F. St. Francis hospital in Peoria, IL for the amputation. After that I am not sure where the rehab facility is located. If I'm lucky it is in Hawaii and they fly me there free. (yeah, not holding my breath on that)

Yes, I am scared. Not of the amputation. I am scared about all the unknowns at this moment. But really aren't we all?

Yes, I know with out any doubt this is what I want to do. I can not see any thing bad coming from this. However if I am wrong I won't have a leg to stand on in an argument.

OK you all I am stumped (pun) about what other questions I had at this time. If I remember or get more I will answer them.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 3

2017-04-15T16:00:00.001-05:00

Amputation isn't something I decided yesterday or last week I wanted done. It is something I have been giving a lot of thought, research and study into. I first started talking about having my leg amputated almost fifteen years ago while Diana and I were together. But at the time it wasn't an option for a number of reasons. Mostly because I wasn't and couldn't because Diana needed my help. But also because every doctor and specialist I spoke with said no. That wasn't an option they would agree with.

To me it was an option and the most logical choice of any treatment offered to me. You see here's the thing, my wounds are on my left lower leg from the knee down to the foot. Over the years they have been various sizes, shapes and conditions of severity. But the reason for these wounds was due to poor circulation coming out of my foot. This circulation problem allowed pooling of used fluids in my leg with no way to escape except through the form of drainage. That drainage came in the form of wounds.

There was an early onset of signs that there was a problem long before the wounds got a big as they had become. As I look back over the last forty years I see them now. But at the time I really never gave it much thought. These signs were little things like unexplained pain, swelling, redness, and fatigue after walking or working. I attributed these signs to aging, long hours at work and just plan common, every day problems that everyone deals with. And so did everyone else.

You see I am burned. Like a number of medical disabilities out there burns are or can be a silent disability. Most people who meet me don't know I am burned. Many assuming that these burns don't have any side effects or give me any problems. That I can do everything everyone else can. But that isn't the case - at least not the whole story.

My burns prevent me from tolerating heat. Now we're not talking 100 degrees or more. We're talking 75 degrees and above in many cases. And there are variables to that that may or may not make it better or worse. Also my body just won't bend curtain ways like everyone else's. For example I can't bend down and touch my toes or raise my arms very high above my head. (more on all this later - for now back to my leg and the amputation)

Along with open wounds comes the most embarrassing aspect of all this - the smell. Wounds by themselves isn't and never was the only factor I looked at when deciding to opt for amputation. It was the smell. How bad is the smell from this? Imaging being in a car with all the windows up after you and four others riding with you finished eating spicy, greasy food and one of you farts. Now that is bad enough but multiply that by five. The smell of my wounds comes and goes. Sometimes it isn't noticeable but when it is it is bad. One time I was at Karaoke at a bar. I didn't smell my leg nor did my buddy. But the bartender did. She didn't know about my leg and thought there was something behind the bar causing it. Once she started complaining (loudly) I realized it much be me. So I left, drove the hour and fifteen minutes home, cleaned, and bandaged my leg, than drove the hour and fifteen minutes back to the bar.

My next post will be answering a couple of questions I have been asked both on here and personally. I hope this post at least explains and shows why I have wanted and honestly feel honestly feel I need this amputation. If you have questions, comments or thoughts please ask.

Forty Years of waiting Coming to a Close pt 2

2017-04-15T15:59:00.003-05:00

So as I mentioned earlier today I am going in to have my left leg amputated. This was my desire and choice. One that I had given much thought, research by talking with those who have gone through amputation(s).

Here are my reasons for wanting this. First you need to understand this is my choice. What I want. I am excited, scared, apprehensive and looking forward to this. Besides that this is a solution to a medical problem I have dealt with for over 40 years. I have gone to wound care 3 days a week for over a year here in Illinois, 2 to 3 days a week in Michigan and Iowa and have taken more pain pills than I can remember.

There is a lot of pluses to having my leg amputated. For one thing I won't have to worry about always bandaging my leg. Won't have to worry about the smell from the wound drainage and infection. I also won't have to buy shoes that are too big because my bad leg is always swollen.

Now if I could just find someone who wears the same size shoes I wear and who is missing their right leg. Him and I could go half and half on new shoes. LOL

Forty Years of waiting is Coming to a Close pt 1

2017-04-15T15:59:00.000-05:00

Well I have good news (to me at least). I am nervous, scared and also excited. I am going to be having my leg amputated in May.

For those that don't know I have been dealing with chronic ulcers on my left leg for 40 + years. You can see and read about some of this on my blog post here - http://jeffshomeblog.blogspot.com/…/my-burns-and-struggles-…

I have plans, goals and dreams for after the amputation. I want to learn to swim or at least experience the joy of just being in a pool is one of my left long dreams/goals.

I will keep you all posted as things get going and share what was talked about with surgeon today. Be back later today with more.

My burns and the struggles I"ve faced with my leg - Pt.6

2015-12-27T15:51:00.002-06:00

It has been a while since I last posted concerning my leg. I wanted to postpone anything about my leg until the pictures showed clear improvement from almost a 8 months ago.

Finally, I can post these pictures and believe they will clearly show just how much healing has taken place. I still have to wonder if having my leg amputated would have been the better course of action. I fear that even if these wounds heal completely it will only be a matter of time before they reopen.

The only thing that has changed over the years is I now have medical coverage to get treatment if and when I need it. I can hope and pray that some day in the future there is a treatment where vain replacement is possible. Until that time I hold no hopes in permanent healing of my leg. I will however hold hope that I continue getting the release from the smell, pain and discomfort that has plagued me for so many years. That in and of itself is worth more then anything to me.

I will be posting more pictures some time but I make no promises as to when. Please if you read my post let me know. Leave a comment or send me a half million dollars so I can buy myself some property to raise abandoned cats, dogs and other wild animals. Comment or money - I'm not picky. LOL

I will give once again this warning but make no apologies - these pictures are not for the faint of heart. So view at your own discretion.

Windows 10 Review

2015-08-06T09:30:00.000-05:00

Like most of people I have talked to over the last few years I liked Windows 7. I also liked Windows XP and had a love/hate relationship with Vista. Biggest problem with Vista were the constant updates. Microsoft seemed to be failing at giving Windows users a good quality, working operating system. Seemed they were lost in their own illusions of what people liked and didn’t like, want or didn’t want.

On July 29^th, 2015 Microsoft might have finally found redemption with Windows 10. Windows 8 and 8.1 were hated by so many people that many people chose not to upgrade from XP or Windows 7. People had no use or need for the Live Tile interface. Finding common things like control panel, computer, and the removal of the iconic start button was insane, to say the least.

When it was announced that Microsoft was giving free upgrade to Windows 10 I was skeptical. I scoured the internet looking for the catch. I couldn’t believe they would give away a free upgrade. To me that was unheard of any major company.

My time searching for the catch came back to one simple conclusion. There was none. It was indeed a free upgrade. So I clicked on the little window icon and reserved my copy for my desktop. I decided to do the same with my laptop. Then I sat and anxiously waited for July 29^th to roll around. Yes, I was worried I was going to hate Windows 10. I had my doubts that Microsoft would be able to successfully top Window 7.

July 29^th finally arrived and I found myself awake early so I clicked on the windows icon to see if Windows 10 was ready to install. It was, so I started the upgrade. For me the total time of download and install took about an hour on my desktop. A bit longer on my laptop, which I did about three days later after familiarizing myself with Windows 10 on my desktop.

Windows 10 has a crisp, clean, and easy feel look and style which is why I liked Windows 7. Start button had been returned after being removed in the Windows 8 OS. All my icons were there and upon clicking on a few I noted that everything was still working.

It was time to check out the start button layout. I clicked on it and right away I noticed a few changes - no bad one either. Rather than just showing me a list of programs I have or recently used or a bunch of folders they added or changed a few things.

The start button opens with a list of all apps and programs you have but they also added things like – settings, file explorer, power, downloads, all apps. First thing I looked for was the control panel. I couldn’t find it at first but finally after a bit more research it was there. We’ll come back to that in a moment. First let’s talk about those items I mentioned.

Under the Settings you can find – system, devices, network & internet, personalization, accounts, time & language, ease of access, privacy and update & security. Each of these have sub-items that you can adjust or change based on your likes, need or desires. Just like in previous versions of Windows. Since this article is a Windows 10 review I won’t be covering each item within that list.

To the right of the start button popup box you will find a useful list of tiles. These tiles can be moved, resized, removed and added to per your liking. Windows 10 also comes with a neat little help feature called Cortana. Using Cortana you can search for things within your computer or the web.

Microsoft also did something I really like with the start button. In earlier versions when you right click on the start button you could make changes to suit your desires – this is now done in settings mentioned above. If you right click the start button list of useful items come up –

This is where you will find control panel, run, disk management, system and other useful items. If you note the picture below you will also notice another very useful item on that list – Task Manager. Anyone who has used a computer for a few years has likely used Task manager for one reason or another. In earlier versions the most common way to bring Task Manager up was pressing control, alt, delete at the same time. Now all you need to do is right click the start button and there it is.

A friend of mine on Facebook commented this morning that she was waiting for all the kinks, bugs and other stuff to be taken care of before upgrading to Windows 10. I totally understand and appreciate that sentiment. However I must say that in the week since I upgraded from Windows 7 to Windows 10 I have found no kinks, no bugs and have had no problems.

As with all things new it takes time to get use to changes within. Windows 10 is just that – new. Yet it is also old. Thankfully Microsoft might have finally got it right. I know I have no regrets so far.

My burns and the struggles I"ve faced with my leg - Pt.5

2015-07-14T21:34:00.002-05:00

I have put off posting any further updates concerning my burns and the struggles I have faced with my leg for a few reasons. Mostly I wanted to give the surgery in April a chance to work. In addition I wanted to see if there would be progress with healing.

Well my waiting has paid off. I know these pictures can be hard to look at however if you have seen other pictures of my leg you can notice a difference.

In the above picture if you look near the ankle you will notice some white and brownish area. That is new skin growth. You can also notice the same results in the picture below.

I want to stress here that even though I am seeing signs of healing I am still not totally convinced that skin graft was the best choice. It is however a fix for a problem just not the main problem.