The Brattychick

little update

2024-07-28T00:49:00.001-04:00

The doctor that found the growth in my bladder happened to have a fiance that is a uro-oncologist at NIH. I have received VIP treatment there. While I'm still cautiously optimistic, I'm certain I'm in good hands. On Wednesday my sister Jennifer took me. I had an ekg, labs and met with him. My oncology team believes this is very early and feels they will be able to remove everything on Tuesday. They think that is probably the only treatment I'll need. This was a huge relief.

Thursday and Friday I returned to NIH for pre-anesthesia clinic and CT scan. I don't know if it was the driving or the appointments or my headspace but this took a lot out of me.

I'm okayish in the daytime, but when I wake up at night, I immediately think "Oh my God, I have cancer!" And then I cannot get back to sleep.

Did I mention that Adam and Benicio got hand foot and mouth disease this week? The universe is being so rude to me these days.

If you'd like to help please sign up to bring us a meal in the week post surgery.

Thank you for your prayers and messages and phone calls and good vibes.

We're hanging in there.

Beautiful lunch Jennifer made for us.

F U Cancer, You Can Suck My D.

2024-07-19T17:12:00.003-04:00

On Tuesday I had a cystoscopy for pelvic floor issues (I have five children). It was meant as a precaution along with many other measures we were doing diagnose why I am having so many issues. A cystoscopy is when they put a camera into your bladder. It feels like a catheter and they don't have to knock you out.

Surprisingly, the Dr. found a growth that she estimates to be 1cm x 1cm. She called later that afternoon to say that the urologist that saw the images said they looked cancerous.

That sucked and I had a meltdown.

I am feeling much better now.

I have an appointment on Wednesday at NIH's uro-oncology department. This is a consult and bloodwork.

They are hoping to do a biopsy (where they hope to remove the whole growth, if they're able, on 7/30. This is all extremely fast and I am very fortunate to have had some doctors pull some strings for me. I also have an appointment for a second opinion with another doctor at VHC.

Of course, we are reeling and frightened, but hopeful. Bladder cancer when caught early is very treatable.

Thank you all for caring about me. I would love to accept any and all hugs (virtual or real) prayers to Gods or Goddesses, good vibes, and loving kindnesses sent into the universe.

The growth is the size of a pea. He kinda looks like a blobfish and I have named him Fred. His hobbies include playing minesweeper and collecting earwax. I will fucking kill Fred dead.

Dexter Says

2021-09-21T10:06:00.001-04:00

To his ex- girlfriend

"How does it feel to be demoted to family friend?"

Paloma Says

2021-09-21T10:05:00.001-04:00

When some people are gone you have to cry a lot.

Miles says

2021-07-04T23:40:00.001-04:00

"I'm fat full of babies. I'm fat full of babes. How many babies can I fit? Just four. No more."

Dexter Says

2021-05-26T17:55:00.001-04:00

I don't like corn off the cob. I don't know why they took it off. It was fine where it was. Very problematic.

Biden Interview

2021-03-08T20:01:00.001-05:00

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_6xrhhhBh8DHXc0dx5eDyIa5AZkRI7PK/view?usp=drivesdk

Adam Says

2019-08-14T22:50:00.001-04:00

"I'm going to go walk the dog. When I get back, don't still be looking at Mike Vitar."

Dexter Says

2018-11-14T21:11:00.001-05:00

"Humperdink. I hardly know her dink."

Adam On Why He Doesn't Want Popcorn

2018-08-27T22:30:00.002-04:00

"Because they get stuck in my teeth! It's like chewing air! It's a waste of time!"

"It's like 'Here! Do this exercise. You'll still be hungry, but you'll have shit in your mouth..."

"...Keep Chompin!"

I Live On A Lake

2018-08-26T12:20:00.001-04:00

Whenever I feel sad, I remind myself that I live on a lake right now. At this moment in my life, I have this simple luxury of living on a body of water that the majority of people (even very rich people!) do not. I likely won't have it forever. I can see a huge expanse of lake from my kitchen window! Right now I am sitting on my lake facing patio, reading a book about a like minded girl, drinking a cup of coffee, holding my sleeping happy newborn baby, with my doggy at my feet. Life is perfect in this moment.

Shatter The Glass on Turn the Page

2018-08-11T19:59:00.001-04:00

About the song Turn the Page by Bob Seger
Gale: I love this song because it's just about a guy who goes around. He's just dissociating and passively watching himself go everywhere. Here I am, there I go... what am I up to now? He's like, riding one of those long animal balloons that popped and it's just zoomin' around the room. Here I am. I'm in the ceiling fan.

Heidi: There I go...
Gale: ...
Heidi: ...
Gale: I don't know.
Heidi: I don't either. I thought I'd have something.
Gale: It's okay.
You'll never hear that song the same again. You'll be like look at this boisterous little man.

Cee Says

2017-08-31T10:02:00.001-04:00

"I have a trick quest-I have a question...I'll wait till you forget about this."

Heidi Says

2017-08-31T09:15:00.001-04:00

"I think I'm going straight to hell...or I'm going to be reincarnated as a blade of grass that gets pooped on every day by a dog."

This Is How We Talk Like

2016-12-14T23:48:00.001-05:00

Adam: Who's that burbling?
Heidi: I dunno. Some asshole driving like an asshole.
Adam: Burble?

About Pokémon Go

2016-08-18T10:41:00.001-04:00

Dexter: Are you happy that you're catching fake little animals and enslaving them?

Miles: They're real and it's okay.

Adam Says 002

2016-03-26T01:15:00.001-04:00

"Baby, I'll buy the crap outta some jewelry. I buy some right, tomorrow."

BBF

2016-03-16T10:41:00.001-04:00

Heidi: I had a bi boyfriend once.
Miles: That's nice. That means you were plucked from a larger group.

Adam Says 001

2016-03-13T16:15:00.002-04:00

"You smell delicious! What happened?"

10/11/2015

2015-11-08T05:56:00.001-05:00

I believe it's none of anyone's business who you love or how you experience love. When someone asks you if you are male or female, they're actually asking what your genitals look like. And what you do with said genitals with other consenting adults should be as private as you like. What kind of clothes you wear, or where you feel you fall on a socially constructed gender continuum is at baseline, so irrelevant to anyone that isn't you, that it shouldn't even cause a ripple in someone else's dream pool. So happy coming out day to my fellow weirdos, freaks, outcasts. I'm sorry that the whole world is so slow to accept that we are souls capable of love for other souls. When people don't have to come out anymore...that? THAT is when we'll know we've really gotten somewhere. I hope to live to see that extraordinary day.

I.M. Hilarious

2015-11-07T09:20:00.001-05:00

Please Stop Hashtagging. Please Please Please.

2015-10-24T10:59:00.001-04:00

To My Children

2015-08-24T15:30:00.001-04:00

Don't ever forget that I love you. No matter where you are, no matter what you do, no matter who you love. I love you. I will never hold you down and you can always, always come home. You are all beautiful and amazing. You are the most delightful people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Being your mother has been an honor.

The Magpie and The Sparrow

2015-08-08T23:24:00.002-04:00

Una urraca y una gorrión estaban construyendo sus nidos para la primavera. En una hora, la gorrión encuentró un lugar suficiente cerca de la agua y protegido del viento. ¨Bueno¨ ella dijo. La urraca pasó muchas horas buscando el perfecto lugar.
Mientras la gorrión recogía palos y ramas para empezar su hogar.
La urraca acaba de encontrar el lugar perfecto. Pues podría empezar a recoger varios cosas atractivos, vívido y brillo para hacer la más bonita casa en el bosque. Cuando se terminó, ella miró a la gorrión. Ella ya había construido todo su nido.
Dijo la urraca, ¨No me importa. El hogar mío va a ser el más mejor.¨
La gorrión puso sus huevos, se relajó, y cantó una canción bonita.
La urraca pasó semanas recogido los materiales perfectos y finalmente empiezó su nido perfecto. ¡Pero, que lástima! ¿Donde se fue el tiempo? La primavera se fue y no había más tiempo para poner huevos, relajarse o cantar.
La sabia gorrión aconsejó, ¨Amiga, tú debes aprender, los quehaceres no tienen que ser perfectos, solamente terminado.¨

Thomas Says

2015-07-15T22:46:00.002-04:00

on Minecraft...
"It's second life. Why do I need another mindless, objectiveless, endless thing to confuse me?"
-Christmas 2013