The cristal jar _ and things

Doing, just doing and doing again

2009-07-18T13:50:00.003+02:00

And it's not me saying, it's The Joss:

I mean, ultimately, you know, the profit that this show [Dr. Horrible's sing along blog] has generated might not excite News Corp. or Time Warner, but it's not terrible. It's fairly impressive. And we all know that the mediums are shifting and that television is struggling to figure out how the rise of the computer is going to affect it. And the Guilds are struggling, and I really feel the best way to deal with that is just to get out there ... and to make stuff.
[...]

I've seen the bigger entities sort of sniffing around it, and in some cases, like The Office and Battlestar, doing great work there. But I'm looking for more people to do it.

(Joss Whedon)

Me too, master. Me too.

The first time I suggested my Masters partners to launch a Web TV comedy, the answer was "I feel more in the mood for shorts". The second answer was "but if you produce for the Internet you can't get the Government Funds, and you cannot attend festivals [which in Spain is outrageously true]".

So here I am, finishing the writings for a feauture short film which will take still a year to be premiered. And waiting _and praying for another believer.

It is so frustrating.

Against hate crimes

2009-01-02T16:02:00.003+01:00

Yes, I do support the global protests against the excessive, criminal repression from a democratic Government, from a Western Nation which has not ratified yet the Geneva Convention and its descendants.

But today _ days ago actually, I chose something else to do.

Along the time, I've happened to meet four jewish bloggers, whether israeli or not [links in spanish]: Mobius, Aharoni (sí, aquel), and Rena from Bookmooch.com. Rena lives in Miami, USA. When she saw my profile picture _with a mauve&green scarf dangling at my back she wrote me to say she also was orthodox jewish and apologised when I explained I am spanish muslimah. I also read Michelle's blog, sefardi in Argentina.

Today I feel like Rena. I have to think of them too. Maybe in the same room we would ended arguing strongly and endlessly about Teology or Geopolitics _as my origins are actually Sefardi jewish. I won't stop protesting against Israeli Government and its Defense illegal politics. And I refuse to its ideological contamination. I won't forget the Sderoti victims of roquets neither people of Israel. They are not the terrorists, their Army is.

So I chose the e-card above to greet them _late Hanukah. May Allah, Exlted Be, be merciful and compassionate with all of us.

So I ask you to greet each other. When you're back from a prostest for the people of Gaza send a warm wish to someone opposing you. If you never thought what happens behind the security checkpoints and the Wall of Shame, send an e-mail to a palestinian blogger.

Those who terrified in 1988 and still feel pain, think about Rena. All the Renas that apologise to a muslim woman for considering her a hassidic jewish. And send a warm wish to them.

We do that anyway at Facebook every day, and very much nonsenseless ;)

The real feminism and the Hood Jihad

2008-10-28T11:33:00.003+01:00

Every day I'm less and less interested in big events with big characters speaking, and more and more in the mood for little acts of living, meeting and _you know, acting.

So, as I'm writing these lines my brothers and Sisters of Junta Islamica make an exhausting effort launching the Third Congress on Islamic Feminism _may Allah reward them for it, despite its boringness and tendence to speak less and less about feminism, even less on Islam. On daily, actual feminism and Islam, I mean.

In the meanwhile, in Cairo, the first mazuna (notary) in several centuries has certified her first Nikah _muslim marriage.

Amal Soliman joins as mazuna to 30 women judges, starting past April in Egyptian Law System. She recovers a tradition very recently vindicated by muslim women, as in many Western Countries, we muslimaati have to struggle to be allowed to just pray in a neighborhood mosque.

_and pity I didn't read about Ms. Soliman at my dear Webislam.com, those past days very busy portrating men conferencing about Islamic Feminism.

Welcome to the Bizarro Ummah, God forgives me.

Sometimes, you just look at their eyes and understand what hope means

2008-09-19T02:44:00.004+02:00

I've just got this e-mail less than a minute ago:

In Response to Center Suit, Feds Put Wolf Back on Endangered Species List, Abandon Plan to Kill Hundreds of Wolves in Montana, Idaho, and Wyoming

Breaking news! The Bush administration today announced it will abandon its defense of an ill-fated decision to remove the gray wolf in the northern Rockies from the endangered species list, which would allow hundreds of wolves to be killed by hunters and state agencies.
To stop the killings, the Center for Biological Diversity and allies sued the administration, winning a temporary ruling stopping the killing in July. But rather than continue to fight us in court, the administration just announced that it will formally revoke its previous decision and return the wolf to the endangered species list as a fully protected species.

We're ecstatic about the victory -- but our hearts go out to the nearly 100 wolves that were gunned down before we were able to secure the initial legal injunction.

Thanks for your support. This victory could not have been achieved without the help of thousands of Center members who donated their time, money, and voices to save the Northern Rockies' wolves. And thanks to our litigation allies at Earthjustice, NRDC, and Defenders of Wildlife.

Kierán Suckling
Executive Director
Center for Biological Diversity

Sometimes things just get straight and good. Even things like this, little great inmense things.

Must confess, I've always been empathetic with wolves. Also in my country they have been mass-killed, prosecuted, tortured and diffamated with fake legends. Thanks to Dr. Félix Rodríguez de la Fuente's work, I discovered them as they are, familiar, coupled, mothers, fathers, a little shy even _they're not so big as american grey wolves. They've been found caring their disabled siblings. Anyway, wolves still are The Big Bad in spanish countryside. Even with our national Protection Act, people calls TV to show the one they captured and let starve till death.

I liked them and loved them because they were loosers. It's funny, I often thought about them when I inmersed myself in Islam 2 years ago. I thought about them the day I embraced Islam as my path. As a believer, their picture always comes to me.

I look into their eyes and I see majesty, innocence _even as hunters they just do what wildlife needs them to. No animal kills as a sport, neither more than they need to fed. I see wisdom. I think I see Allah.

Quickpost this image

Training in Ramadan

2008-09-06T20:35:00.003+02:00

Although I'm quite sure I'm the only muslimah kenshi _at least at old Europe, I'm hoping some sis read this.

Two days ago I had my first training day during Ramadan _technically it's my first Ramadan, as suffering a cronical illness and being under medication, I've been excused for years.

And I have to say, it wasn't as hard as I expected. You only have to ensure hidrating yourself enough the day before and choosing the most proper time to attend trainings. I belong to a morning group at my local dojo, but this special month I asked for a change to a later time.

I kept the form _more or less ;) for 2 hours and a half, even joining gi geiko, and finished just a moment before sunset to break my fasting with dates, almond nuts and orange juice. Needless to say, I jumped onto them ;DDDDD

Moments like that make my kendo practice worthy of the effort. I'm perhaps the worst kenshi all over the world, but, you know, if I can hold the shinai even fasting, then tehre's no limit at all to keep breathing under the men gane.

Kami no Akbar! :D

Posted originally at the Facebook group Kendo Chicks Rock!

A benefit from Ramadan

2008-09-02T15:08:00.003+02:00

The lot of time you save just for thinking.

- although sometimes that couldn't be actually a benefit ;)

Bizarro Sunday: Spain loves Westboro

2008-08-31T21:28:00.003+02:00

Among the hilarious discoveries inside the Spanish Websphere, this one is international _and tragically funny.

Many of you would probably already know the Westboro Baptist Church, leaded by Pastor Phelps... and crowded by his own family and a couple of neighbours.

Yes, these guys are famous for piqueting american soldiers funerals and celebrating everyone else's deaths _as being sinners. That kind of people who see a sinner promoter wherever there's someone who just lives and lets live.

Recently, my country has been celebrated and mentioned by the Phelps. We had been punished by God.

Because my country respects civil rights for homosexual men and women.

Well, why could this be hilarious? Because from every point you look at it, it's ridiculous.

This is not about what I or you or they consider moral on homosexuality. Neither with the difference between morality and Law _ just like me, a gay couple can't just have sex on the street in Spain either. You already know, I have gay friends, and I'm pro _can't help it. At the same time the girl I most respect and love all over the world is not, but she lets people live because she's aware she's NOT God ;)

And anyway, Reverend Phelps...

You really think that Allah the Almighty, the Ruler of the Universe, who actually does have the Power to drop down not a plane but the entire skies, would make such a crap of Divine Justice if He decided to punish us all? [PDF] You can believe or not in God, but sure He is NOT a lame.

Or well, maybe He is just punishing all of us humans with people like you. Which is far worse than losing 150 lives. 'Cause Pastor Phelps looks like... you know, O-L-D. Eternal.

So. I belong to a multi-religious group for mutual understanding of LGTB reality. And I must say, their answer has been this. And I can't say I'm not proud of them.

We live in Bizarro World, never forget.

Wa Allahu Ahlan. And God knows best.

Ramadan counting down 4: Fajr marriage

2008-08-29T09:21:00.003+02:00

The radio alarm hasn't sound yet. It's time to wake up, and drive herberwest work. It's almost sunrising.

- Ah, honey, are you taking a showe... no, you're going to pray
- Hell yes, I'll take advantage we're getting up early!!
- OK, so I will take the shower.

From every issue, maybe we'll find some good

Ramadan counting down 3: da botch

2008-08-28T18:35:00.003+02:00

When Adhan Firefox alert sounds, this, the worst muslimah all over the worl _well, at least the laziest one, just gets up and does what she's able to.

Uki, the pigeon slayer

2008-08-26T12:49:00.004+02:00

Into each generation, a cat is born.
One kitty in all the neighborhood.
She alone will stand,
against the pigeons, the cockroaches and the mosquitoes of darkness.

She is the Slayer.

Hello, you've been elected to be spammed by hi5, ain't it great?

2008-08-18T10:52:00.004+02:00

I happened to join hi5 on a friend's request who was already a member _it's a sort of cheap Facebook social network.

I happened to be invited to join a group by e-mail through a good friend of my spanish blog's, who is also a member _and has nothing to do with the rest of this story.

And hi5 happened to invite ALL my Gmail contacts to join the thing, without my permission and by no warning at all.

So. If this is not irregular personal data dealing at least, I don't know what else it is.

Anyway. My apolgies to everyone who has got an invitation in my name. Of course they're free to contact me at Facebook and via this way whenever you want.

When you get an alert

2008-07-06T19:42:00.002+02:00

As many of you already know, I mostly write this blog to speak about my mental health problems and how I deal with them everyday.

This late night, one of my readers, at the original spanish version, has commented he was taking a lot of pills after one month at his referenced mental hospital.

As I guessed who could it be, I immediately put myself on wheels to contact the community of mental sicks I belong to help the guy in question.

Now, I'm in hiatus _there is almost nothing else to do. I just hope this blog could have been a good alarm to go to rescue.

Kongahiku

2008-06-06T10:48:00.003+02:00

- But hey Blue, you should be writing your friday islamic post, shouldn't you?

- I am.

Kongahiku, the famous Humpback whale with only one fluke, descends into the calm Tongan waters. She visits Tonga each year despite her obvious disability.

Praised be Allah, Lord and Lady and Ruler of the Universes. The Most Merciful, The Most Compassionate with all creatures on the Earth.

To sign IFAW's petition to Iceland joining the stop whalehunting from this year, just click.

"That's the way our parents used"

2008-06-05T23:24:00.002+02:00

(in the name of God, the Most Merciful, the Most Compassionate)

Here's a link to my last ~~crap~~article at Webislam.com. It's not been translated to English, and it's L-A-T-E, I feel a little sick and I'm affraid my English is not as accurate to define what's spanish muslims controversy about meat considered Halal _"good to eat", "fair", "allowed".

The question is that it doesn't matter if I eat meat or not _the answer used to be "not" until... well, I'm making occasional exceptions, but there's another story to tell about it.

The question is that Halal just can't mean a way of sacrificing cattle. As consumers, muslims, jewish, christians and everyone else should take note on our responsibility to animals. It is in the Torah, and it's commanded in the Noble Quran to us being humble and grateful to every being on the Earth.

How could I consider Halal the meat of a cow starved through thousand kilometres in a truck, without air, without water or food. Raised in a one-metter-cage being feed day and night for sixth months and never seeing sunlight? What would the Prophet (Peace and Blessings upon him) say about it?

So the article focuses at a Halal Live for cattle instead a Halal Death. A conscious consum versus an obsession for rituals and traditions. Traditions which can fall off sense and become empty if we don't reflect on them and look for the Truth behind.

If anyone can read spanish you can read the full article.

And if you want me to translate certain parts, I'll happily do it for you.

Giving birth _one more time

2008-06-03T20:24:00.002+02:00

Once more. Fifth version. The National Registration Office for Authors and Writers is making a profit of me.

And, adding I've not been feeling too much good lately, this one's been nearly to cost me my health. Literally.

And this is only the scenario sketch.
Argh.

editing at 20:00: ... I've just been asked for a 6th one right now.

Farewell, mr. Pollack

2008-05-29T09:54:00.000+02:00

Farewell, mr. Pollack. Wait for us in a paceful mountain in The Garden, playing with a couple of lions, Inshallah.

These are spaniards too

2008-05-05T22:09:00.000+02:00

_and we say no to bullfighting.

2008-04-22T11:51:00.001+02:00

Earth Day Flash Greetings

Obituaries

2008-03-27T11:51:00.003+01:00

Today have passed away two brilliant movies prof. In Spain, Rafael Azcona,THE scriptwriter in the after-war, leading against Fraco's censorship. And Richard Widmark. Sadly, because I admired both of them very much, I couldn't make a proper tribute post, because I attended therapy yesterday and I'm still exhausted.

But, fortunately, with these people making movies, you always can count on their words, their smiles, their stares, their pictures. They are the tribute.

Mr. Azcona (in spanish)
En Escolar:

Mr. Widmark (yes, ma'm):

Save Troy Davis

2008-03-18T11:47:00.005+01:00

Some of you surely will remember my first Youtube video, or know the story from any other media.

I received yesterday the Amnesty International report of Troy's execution arrangement. Amnesty asks for a pledge to the Georgia Board of Pardon and Parole to stop the execution in order to examinate this case.

One of my reasons to vote Zapatero

2008-03-06T18:34:00.002+01:00

As Russia and the USA, we have National Elections now, just next sunday.

Here's one of my reasons to re-elect Presidente Zapatero and the Sociallist Party.

Scientists world wide support a UN moratorium on high seas bottom trawling as a stop gap measure allowing time to do the research needed to ensure sustainable fishing. And thanks in part to thousands of letters from Ocean Defenders, many governments now also support the moratorium. Canada and Spain were among the veteran negationists.

Eventually, Iceland never changed its mind, so the efforts were in vain. Oceans still are getting empty.

So, the work has to go on ;)

Wanted

2008-03-06T13:13:00.002+01:00

Muslimah by ~Kisarune on deviant ART

Please, artist Kisarune from Devianart, can you show up and have a talk? ;)
(I don't like to use images without permission)

On love

2008-02-14T13:01:00.004+01:00

Come!
by Dr. Javad Nurbakhsh, Sufi Master

I have collapsed at the start of your lane - come!
I've lost the valley of 'i and You' - come!

A lifetime I have consigned my head to the sanctum of
Your forecourt. O you the companion of those who are liberated from self, come!

I've let go all I had on the path of Union with You.
O the true existence behind each manifestation, come!

I've thrown existence to the winds in the way of love for You.
Come, devil-may-care lover, so hard to get to know!

I have lost knowledge of self in longing for You.
O cognizant One who has caused so much trouble, come!

I have taken leave of myself in desiring Your face.
The moment has come for You to reveal Your Face; so, come!

Nurbakhsh has become lost, in order to find You.
Enough of infidelity! Come in fidelity!
----

Mi heart bursts red roses:
from Allah they're borned
and will return to Allah
after scenting the hand
of my beloved.

Happy Valentine's ;)

Where I should have been

2008-02-01T11:35:00.000+01:00

This video reports the national boicot to the National Fox Hunting Trophy in Galicia, Northwest Spain. Activists play music and shout to make the animals runaway, and so avoid the hundreds of hunters from all over the country gathered to kill them.

Foxes are not officially protected in my country, nevertheless are one of the most endangered species, and play an important role in nature's balance, avoiding bunnies' illnesses spreading and contaging. But that decreases the number of bunnies to hunt _sick or sane is indifferent, and that's why hunters simply hate them for generations.

I am under a heavy depression, and was no sure of having been here. Now I know I should have.

Enlighten Gaza

2008-01-23T20:43:00.001+01:00

"Ilumina Gaza" (enlighten Gaza) is an iniative from Spanish bloggers to ask to the Government of Israel the inmediate suppression of the energy block on Gaza.

More than a million of palestines lack of essential energy, light, which allows the maintenance of hospitals, schools and survival inside that giantic prison which Gaza has become.

The closing of the last frontier checkpoint has let out Gaza in darkness and cold, handtied hospitals, ambulances detained. There's no doubt that Hamas militants _those called 'terrorists' by Israel Government, are suffering from this. As there's no doubt either that many more civilians are too, suffering. Dying.

If there is anything worse than closing Karen Shalom is the lack of reporters in Gaza to tell the world what is actually happening there.

So, it is our moral duty to protest for the conscious lack of humanity _not even justice, of Israel's Government, allowing this kind of torture to more than a million people. And for this I'm joining Enlighten Gaza, for the blogsphere shows its repulse to this situation.

(Alberto Sotillos)