The Crux of My Mind

The Day

2012-01-27T10:19:00.000+08:00

Its been a while, kan? Almost two weeks since my last post. Actually there was one major thing happened on the day that I updated about Nazif's kindy progress. The day I thought I almost lost my son. It was the time that I felt time moved so slow...Only now I felt about writing it and this I dedicated to my beloved Nazif Irfan.

Nazif,

I can't described how I felt the moment I knew you were not at the nursery when I picked you up. Your caretaker told me you were not there the whole afternoon when I asked them. They thought you were with me. I knew you were at the kindy in the morning because I sent you there. "Ya Allah, where is my son?" that was all I could say. I was imagining all sorts of worst thing that could happen to you. My heart felt heavy, but I don't know where my strength came from, I could still think rationally. I called daddy then I tried calling your kindy.

At that time, I don't have your teacher's mobile number, only the school number.I tried calling but no one picked up. But Alhamdulilah I remember, there was a mobile number on your kindy's banner. So I drove there with Adik Naqib. Thankfully Adik sort of understood the situation at the moment, he just kept quiet. And also thankful that daddy has the transporter number, so he also tried locating you through the transporter.

I called your kindy's teacher, she told me she personally sent you to the transporter that afternoon. After a few calls here and there Mummy finally able to locate you through your teacher and daddy. The transporter has sent you to other nursery which has almost same name and in the same area. The teacher told me she will guide me to the nursery. But when I get the direction from daddy, I wasted no time, I drove myself there.

When I reached the nursery, I saw you in the front lawn, watching other children playing. You must me wondering why Mummy sent you there. When I picked you and hugged you I can't help it but I cried. And you just said, "Mummy, orang besar mana boleh nangis". You look so pure, naive and I just can't stop myself from kissing you all over with my tears.

I asked the caretaker, why don't they contact me when they receive Nazif. He was wearing the school tag with my number and his real nursery address for God's sake! The least they could do was call me! However I just thanked them for taking care of him in that short time. I am in no state to blame who's right or wrong at that time. All I care was my son is finally safe and for that I'm thankful Ya Allah.

So Nazif, you may not understand why you were there that day. You may think Mummy has sent you there purposely. But it was the most terrible 30 minutes of my entire motherhood life. I am thankful in part because you safe from any harm and you were protected by Allah. I always pray now, and forever for Allah to always protect you dear.

A Visit To Zoo Negara

2012-01-11T10:49:00.077+08:00

After Bird Park a few months ago, we've decided that its time for zoo! I'm the one who's excited for the visit. The last I've been to the zoo was 17 years ago. And this is the first visit for my boys..yeay hubby too included.

So, to commemorate the historical moment for these first timers, this picture is a must! We arrived there around 10.00 a.m..and the sun was so bright!

I went there with an open mind, I knew the ticket price was considered not cheap, meaning don't expect value for money kinda thing. The zoo was operated by non-government body, so funding was a problem. I've been to the zoo 17 years ago and luckily I can't remember much.

Upon entering, we bought the map..RM2.00 and yes you have to pay for the map. Then prepare for the smell of the animals..yeah it stinks a bit at first but eventually later the smell will pass once your senses blend in, hehe. There's an animal show at 11.00 am and we managed to catch up with it. The stars of the show also remains; the sea lions, parrots and i-forgot-what-animal-that-hang-with-its-tail.

The animal show

We covered most of the animals on foot, except the reptiles and insects. So, it was a form of exercise for me. Sweating like I'm on marathon, even though I'm just pushing the stoller..well with 15kg toddler in it! Naqib plak, managed to do his 'big business' while touring, memang meninggalkan khazanah sungguh.

This toddler that kept 'ordering' Mummy to push here and there..cepatla Mummy!

The giant tortoise, the camel, the lonely monkey and animals in savannah..

Miss Elephant, Mr Giraffe and Rabbits!

From my observation, the animals' cages were very old and not very well maintenained. These must be due to the cost of operating too, from what I've been told when we bought sugarcane for Miss Elephant, they ate around 300 kilos of plants per day..and that was for one elephant. Not counting other animals! I saw volunteers too who came and their job was cleaning the animals cage. So really salute them, the volunteers!

We finally wrapped out our visit around 2.00 p.m. It was scorcing hot by that time and we were pretty hungry from all those physical activities. I just bought the fridge magnet as souvenir and one bottle of honey (from bee zoo).

5th Day

2012-01-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

I've been meaning to blog our zoo visit last week but then, I think I'll make it as a raincheck first.

Today will be updates on Nazif's kindy progress.

Today is his 5th day at school. Out of five days, only two days that he wore his kindy uniform. He started the mantra ' Takmo pegi sekolah'..every morning this week. Cried when I sent him to school. In the evening when I fetched him from nursery he looked pretty excited, showing me his activities at school but comes with question," Esok sekolah lagi ke Mummy?"

Haih..some part of me kept thinking am I doing the right thing? Did I choose the wrong school? Is he too young?Or is this a normal reaction from children who started schooling?

Now I can only pray that he will pass this crying period. Every night before he sleep I kept reminding him that he is a good boy, a clever boy and in order to be MORE clever he would have to go to school. May Allah bless him and protect him. Amin.

The End of Masterchef Malaysia

2012-01-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to Ezani who won the first Malaysian Masterchef last night. To tell you the truth I'm a fan of this series, be it US version, Australian version and also the Junior version. I don't know but I think these days the most 'safe' television program is cooking related. Free from crime, and unwanted sex scene and the most appropriate clothing.

My favourite channel now is the AFC..hehe..well...maybe the'age' is cathing up on me. I cringe now at the sight of series like 90210, Bachelorette, and all teen related series. Very mak mak indeed...

Nazif Went To Kindy

2012-01-06T10:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a history. It marked another important milestone in Nazif's life and my mummyhood diary; which is Nazif attending his kindergarten! Alhamdullilah Ya Allah, for giving me this chance to see my son finally making this big step in his life.

Waking him up in the morning, definitely comes with challenge yesterday and today. At the kindy yesterday he managed to stay cool, not a single tears coming from him until the last hour which was when he needs to take the transport home. So Mummy had to come to rescue him, which at first I planned to watched him from afar.

But today, in the morning he resisted wearing his uniform, which I just complied. And the moment we sent him in, he started to cry. Well I might say most of his classmates cried today compared to yesterday..hehehe..kids! Maybe they had just realized its school after all and mummies and daddies won't be around to join them. But today, this Mummy had to be 'hati keras'..and leaved him. Well I hope today he'll manage to take the transport back to the nursery.Oh I hope I didn't sound to harsh..

Ok now its piccas time..

Anak teruna Mummy, when he first arrived yesterday.

School bag and water bottle

Tengah tukar baju, the moment dpt uniform

Warming up session..dok melekat kat Teacher Atiqah

Remain calm and cool...Alhamdulilah

Nazif's class and his classmates.

I really hope that I had made the right the decision for sending him to playschool. Its time to loose my strings a bit around him though its hard. When I told my mom about this, she just chuckled and said..haa now you know how it feels like when sending your kids to school. Its tough..well actually time will heal..just like when I first sent him to the nursery ( which I cried buckets at office just thinking about him).

Naqib Turns 16 Months

2012-01-03T15:16:00.003+08:00

Adik Naqib turns 16 months today!

Wahhh..he's sort of big boy now..he played very well now e.g. arranging and keeping toys like cars, legos. He knows when I took out his clothes, it is bath time..so in short he understands simple instructions...

His favourite word definitely 'Nak..nak', for almost everything! And 'Nanak' for things that he doesn't want.

If he wants milk(boobies) it will be Nak with a pat to his chest.

If he wants milk(bottle) it will be Nak and show bottle.

When he finished eating and drinking from his bottle..also Nak..(i think he means 'Nah' actually).

Naqib also Mummy could say a 'gadget boy'. He loves remote control, phones, ipad and computers. Pretty much knows how to unlock ipad and open some of the applications. And its also the start of sibling rivalry. Dah pandai berebut toys and gadget from his brother.

Naqib the curly haired boy, people keep saying he looks like a girl..

Buat muka cheeky..

Another significant thing about this little boy of mine is I should say, he's very very very clingy to me! Yes..clingy to the max! Always wanted to be carried, followed me every where, and doesn't want other people at all. Well no 2 is daddy, then ucu and tok abah. That's it. Other than that, sorry. What ever lah adik..lucky that you doesn't weigh much. If not it would be very very tiring for Mummy to carry you.

Goodbye 2011!

2011-12-31T07:29:00.002+08:00

So today is the last day if 2011. And tomorrow we'll enter the 2012. Alhamdullilah, praise to Allah the Almighty for giving me the chance to still breathe and live in this world.

To recap on the significant events this year, well for me I'm grateful for the greatest gifts that Allah bestowed upon me,my health and my family. Not to forget the demise of dear Grandmother fondly we call Tok in July. And early this month Tokwan fell down and broke his leg. He's still recovering.

In May, I made a decision on my career path which is to change to a new division. Greater challenge and responsibility but I learned every day. And three days ago I finally passed the certification exam. Alhamdullilah.

Both my sons turned 3 and 1 this year. And my wedding anniversary with hubby has reached 9th Year. And for me that's the most important milestones this year. I'm grateful that I'm still here for them and them for me.

So, goodbye 2011.

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Ombak Rindu OST

2011-12-16T10:26:00.000+08:00

The current song which invades my ear..aduihlaa..asek terngiang2..

Ombak Rindu–Hafiz/Adira

Adira :
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Hafiz :
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Adira :
Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hafiz :
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hafiz & Adira :
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Hafiz:
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Adira:
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

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9th Anniversary

2011-12-14T11:48:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah yesterday 13-12-11 was our 9th Wedding Anniversary ,and like yesteryears, the day was celebrated with us being on 'date'. Managed to catch up Ombak Rindu movie...our movie date well after a few years I might say.

Again a big thankful to Allah Almighty for giving us chance to live together all this while. May our ties will live till the end of our lives.

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Another Test

2011-12-08T11:06:00.002+08:00

What happened to my late grandma, happened to my grandpa last weekend. Arwah Tok, fell and broke her femur, and now Tokwan also fell and broke his femur while climbing down the staircase at the mosque..

Yesterday, Tokwan already undergone an operation to repair his femur. Ya Allah please give patience to my family members in dealing with this matter.

Naqib Turns 15 Months!

2011-12-07T10:34:00.001+08:00

Alhamdullilah, my little Naqib is now 15 months young. Altho this is rather late entry, but then its better late than never kan. He turns 15 months last Saturday..haaaiihhh...how time flies.

So, being the 15 months toddler, Naqib now has four teeth, with two more buds coming out. But despite that, he likes eating so much! His appetite I might say is much better compared to his abang now. And he's very much still the clinging boy especially when he wants his 'candu' aka the boobies. Now, when he wants his 'candu' he'll just come to me and lay down on my lap , saying 'Nak!'. And he also likes to imitate his abang playing and jumping..being the perasan big boy.

And he also pretty much a screamer and he would roll down on the floor if his wants and needs were rejected. Like in the pic..hehehe..

In short, Mummy and Daddy are very grateful with this precious gift from Allah. May Allah bless you dear.

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433

2011-11-30T09:28:00.000+08:00

I hope its not too late to wish Maal Hijrah to all..may this new year brings you a lot more barakah and I wish to improve my 'amal' and 'ibadah' for this year. Insya-Allah.

A lot of things have happened, but yet I'm too lazy to write it down..and one thing for sure it will be the same topic, my kids hehehe..but well as a Mummy they are my world!

In another month's time, Nazif will start his kindergarten, next month will be our 9th Year Wedding Anniversary..Alhamdullilah.

My Little Soldiers

2011-11-16T15:03:00.002+08:00

At their best skills, ransacking toys! Tired? Definitely laa..sometimes i feel like throwing away those toys. But then its my 'investment' in the first place. So haruslah tak jadik kan. So long they can left me sometime..eg to write this post,jadikla. Ok gotta go. Another basket is about to be ransacked!!!

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11-11-11

2011-11-11T14:41:00.000+08:00

What a beautiful date today. And I bet there will lots of weddings and planned births today.

As for me life goes on as usual. Hehe..see so boring of me. Had training for the last two days and only today I'm in the office.

Arrghh..dah tak tau nak tulis apa..chiow!

Naqib Turns 14 Months!

2011-11-03T10:00:00.002+08:00

Keywords for describing this little fella so far:

Likes eating :: screamer in the house :: walks like a pro:: pass in climbing down the bed:: knows how to ride the push car:: everyone's sweetheart:: words cats, nak,beerd for bird::loves water::books::still bf::

Siri Bercakap Dgn Nazif #3

2011-10-31T10:21:00.001+08:00

One: Of Male and Female
We saw a cat one day and I asked him about the cat.

Mummy : Nazif, see..ada cat. Can you tell mummy what's the color of the cat?
Nazif : Oh..cat tu byk2 color, hitam, coklat...putih..
Mummy : Oh..pandainya!!
Nazif : A'ah..cat tu macam Daddy dia.. tak macam mummy dia..
Mummy: Eh mana Nazif tau??
Nazif : Betul..cat tu macam Daddy cat, macam Baby Naqib cat...bla..bla..

Maybe what he's trying to say..its a male cat!! Hahaha...adeh Nazif..Nazif...

Two : Of Saying Good Bye

Mummy : Nazif, dah bye bye Daddy..
Nazif : Ish..Mummy ni, bawak laju..mana sempat nak babai Daddy...
(Hakikatnya Mummy bwk mcm kura-kura...hish..)

Three: Of Obeying Mummy's command..
Mummy : Nazif, duduk elok-elok..kang Mummy break keter Nazif jatuh..
Nazif : Baik la Intan Payung..!!! ( Bak kata Fizi dlm Upin Ipin)

A Visit To KL Bird Park

2011-10-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

Alhamdullilah, on last Deepavali holiday we managed to set our foot on KL Bird Park. Thanks to the good weather in the morning till afternoon. The crowd was quite huge I might say, but we managed, hehehe. Alhamdulilah too, my sons were on their best behaviour that day.

We arrived there quite late, around 11.30 a.m. where the sun started to shine the most. But since the place was surrounded with trees, the heat was bearable. Adik Naqib thankfully sat on his stroller at most times we were there. Maybe he too was excited looking at the birds that flew and roam freely, though he kept pointing and said cat instead of birds..hehehe..

Oh, the admission fees were RM 20 for adults ( Mykad) and RM for kids (3-12 years). My sister tagged along that day so we had 3 adults and 1 kid for the fees. You do the maths! :)

Next..pictures in random order...

Nazif had fun feeding the fishes, and Mummy on the peacock..

See Nazif? He was totally excited..! And he enjoyed the trip!


The birds ..

Here are some that we managed to capture that day, the owl which I doubt he's sleeping, the scarlet bird which names I have forgotten, the emus that 'fart'..(hahaha), the smelly ostrich and peacocks the most shy creatures of all. On head counts I think the peacocks were a lot. There were every where!

Next were the flamingos and its relatives...aiyoo..I failed miserably at remembering those birds name. We didn't have the pictures of hornbills and red eagle came to think of it..nvm its ok.

Various birds at the park that roams freely..

However we didn't managed to catch the bird show that day which was scheduled at 2.30 p.m. We were totally hungry by that time..plus all our energy was lost to all those walking and hiking, plus carrying the toddler and pushing the stroller...hahaha..sungguh tak atlethic..But we did have the most enjoyable time..and Nazif brought back and angry bird back pack for a souvenir!

Naqib's First Year Photobook

2011-10-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

I had received the finished product sometime back. Luckily I finished it before my digicam got lost. So, now both my sons had their own first year's photobook. Equal? Definitely !!

Again, I just can't believe this little baby of mine has grown so much!

Random Updates

2011-10-25T12:13:00.000+08:00

First, adik Naqib is not in the pink of health. It has been a week that the flu bug caught him. Luckily there was no fever, just a series of cough and running nose. So his sleep usually got interrupted due to his blocked nose.

At last I managed to get myself to the Big Bad Wolf Sale! Yeay me!! This was the 'damaged' that we've got into, only for RM 168! I thought of going again on the last day but scrapped the idea luckily. Next year I'll definitely be more prepared!!

Last weekend was my sister's birthday. Happy Birthday dear! On Saturday, we had Nasi Arab Damsyik courtesy of youngest sister , its her first salary treat! So, to my dearest sisters, Ahkak doakan you all berdua sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki dan mendapat keberkatan di dunia dan akhirat..AMIN.

On the work front, its been busy. Nothing new but challenges were always there. I still haven't got myself to allocate time to study for upcoming certification. I thought my study days were over, but I was wronged!

Tomorrow is a public holiday! So yeay! Happy Deepavali to those celebrating. Our plan so far, emm..if there's nothing coming up, I thought of bringing the kids to KL Bird Park. Well better check the weather forecast..

I finally got myself a new gadget, hand phone. Well to replace my missing hand-phone that is. I'm finally into the smartphones era...hahaha..so late of me. Well better late than never!

The Toddler-Yuyu

2011-10-18T08:39:00.000+08:00

This morning, the whole country was talking about the bleeding toddler in China which was ignored by several passersby after being hit and run. I managed to watch the video last night when Buletin Utama aired it. It was horrible! I was literally screaming when I saw that girl being hit by the van and then a lorry! So scary!

And she was heavily injured on her face, her body somehow doesn't give the much needed response. I doubt she will survive. Looking at her condition, I think the best would be to let her go. Had she lived, she would be in very much pain.

Update..finally

2011-10-17T19:00:00.001+08:00

After such long silence, i'm back! Hopefully I ve got my vibes again.

Ok.gotta.go anak-anakku tak bg can mummy berblog.

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Naqib turns 13 Months!

2011-10-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

Today Naqib turns 13 Months!! Alahai why la so fast? He's now walking with license 'P'. When it comes to split level, he will get down to crawl and them get up to continue walking. So comells la seeing this little fella walks, sort of kangkang..He is so into talking cats and birds now..siap pointing lagi.

What else..everything about him is so cute in my eyes now. He's slowly developing his personality. He would laugh heartily when playing with Nazif but sometimes he sort of berebut things with his Abang. He also likes to play peek-a-boo. And finally I managed to finish his first year photobook!

Oh I almost forget, finally he's teething! Kudos to adik!

PMS is back!

2011-10-01T17:07:00.001+08:00

Yeah, finally my BFF a.k.a flo jo or easy said my period is back! It has been a year ago that I had them.

October is already here, oh my in just a few months its going to be another year. Time really flies, ya Allah.

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Mishap Happens

2011-09-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

Wow..I have been neglecting this little space of mine for quite some time. I had no other reason other than being totally busy from the last post.

Last Monday, my handbag was stolen from my car when I sent my kids to the nursery. Well you know the hassle when we lost our belongings...had to make all the necessary arrangements to replace all the important documents. Phewwww...such a big-hard lesson for me. I've lost most of my precious items..huhu..redha ajelah.

Syawal So Far

2011-09-20T11:45:00.000+08:00

Oh my, since it is still Syawal, as we all expected is full of gastronomic adventures!

Last week, with the extended weekend there were a lot of open houses. On Friday, hubby invited some of his close friends for dinner and I had whipped up a simple mee kuah for the guests. Alhamdullilah it turned out great for my first attempt. And we also had sate, yummy!

Then Saturday was the 'EAT' day! Our route for that day BB Bangi- Kota Damansara- Shah Alam Sek 18-Shah Alam Sek 19 - Damansara Damai - BB Bangi..Hectic I tell you! My son kept asking when we would be heading back..kesian anakku!

And on Sunday, I was busy preparing stuff for office potluck. I was assigned with sambal ikan bilis and pengat pisang. Sound easy huh? But to tell the truth it took me almost a day to prepare those two dishes. There's a lot of interruption in between, i.e Putting down the adik to sleep, adik made his 'business', send adik to the front (countless times), eat, pray, wash clothes, supervising the cleaner, etc...

Yesterday, was my office 'open day'..I was literally on heels all the time yesterday. Thought of landing down once I reached home but hubby's uncle invited for his open house in Kelana Jaya...*lap peluh*...

And the result of yesterday's hard work-- I woke up late this morning!!