The Curiosity in April-May

It's Choppin!!! GET ALL THE BEERS, IT'S 2012!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 17:39:00 +0000

What the F is the relation between Choppin and all the beers for 2012?! NOTHING. I'm just simply being a cunt posting this because I think I have to. It has been a long long time ago since I posted my last post. And hopefully my grammar is not that bad. Man.

My fingernails.. I think I really have to cut it.. (Not all of course)-- WTF am I writing..

Things have never been this better

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Sun, 05 Jun 2011 19:05:00 +0000

Things have never been this better. April and May are 2 of 12 best months I ever have in a year---why? I learnt many great things about how to face stuffs like problems, inner struggle upon something which sometimes you don't know how to handle with your tiny hands--alone, and those two months always enlighten my soul and my brain and my body for the upcoming months on the main line of the year! I'm online, and I'm going to post at least 100 posts this year, no matter what. Conclusion, I just got my life back after fighting a mysterious witches and wizards who were casting their lame spells to kill me right on my brain, I fought them with a White Angel's help and guess what, we did it, and now I feel so much better and ready to continue my life, Yay!

And, why do you care about this? What's your purpose reading this post? Wanna find something which might be useful or helping you to find the answer you wish you could get when you typed keywords on google search? Or do you actually wanna know what the White Angel did when She defeated the witches and wizards on my brain? If that's the question, this might be the answer. Ehm, I just finished watching Motherhood, because I was so stressful, I biked my bicycle to movie rental and rented some movies, I was hoping to get some inspiration from the movie to face messes I was dealing with, and Motherhood is one of that movies I rented. Thank God, I don't know why but I just feel better without any elaboration or simple explanation of why these Heaven things be pierced on my heart, my soul, my brain, and everything in my body. I feel Good.

"Motherhood is about accepting the limitations of time and energy, which stretch beyond you, even if sometimes it feels they could consume you. Search for and hold on to your own true self. If you lose that, what kind of mother can you be? Things are always changing, no matter how much we might want things to stay the same. You could take a picture of your kids every single day, and every single day, they'd just be getting older. That's a fact. A heartbreaking fact. But still a fact. So seize your days and dwell in them fully. Look to your children because they know how to inhabit brief periods of time with extreme passion. And for nothing more, really, than the sake of those moments. They can help you remember that, if you only slow down and let them. Feel fortunate because chances are good you actually might be."

I love that quote so much---in an extreme way of saying!! It's so heartwarming and I can't stop to thank God that finally I realized that things have never been this better :') It feels like at Heaven, when Jesus greets me to see The Mighty Lord, The Father!!

Thinking Small (Diary Blog)--Don't know where to throw away these messes.

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Mon, 25 Apr 2011 13:13:00 +0000

Thinking small, all I want is to write something good on this blog. I just wrote a bad joke on Pet Society and i feel so labile now. . What should I do? Why am I asking myself? Can I get the answer? This life is somehow a mess I never be able to clean up alone. Yeah, God will help you, where is God? Beside you? Okay, Yes. Happy Easter.

It's April, and this is my first post this month. sounds really bad, and I quite hate it. I'm not motivated to write something inspiring or whatever. My self esteem needs some boost. . get me some fuel of life, and my engine will show you the performance. Okay. It's all about love and debating (I told you this is a diary, stop reading if you don't like it. I NEED A PLACE TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS!! FACEBOOK IS NOT A PLACE, SO I'LL DO IT HERE). What the hell I did with those capital letters. . This is not me. . I use to be common (biasa wae).

NUEDC (National Universities English Debating Championship)-------> MOST WANTED ENGLISH DEBATE CHAMPIONSHIP. It will be held on May 9 and 10th 2011, which is annoying. I have my Field trip to Gramedia and a chance to watch Kick Andy LIVE on the same date with the championship. Great, I even prepared myself with a 34 pages readings about nuclear and 32 pages readings about Arab Revolutions to supply my knowledge about current issues. And now I am being pushed to let go one of these events. NUEDC or Field Trip? I have paid a large amount of money for the field trip--685,000IDR!! And I might not get it back unless I find a person to replace my position for the field trip!! Fuck. And I'll never give NUEDC up, I've been practicing a lot for this competition, and my team-mate will be so furious if I choose the field trip over NUEDC!! fuck, right?? And I don't want to lose my 685,000IDR, it values almost 60% for a level of my Chinese Course!! I don't want to burden my parents, fuck. fuccckkkk, Im so angry nowww.

If My Lover Was an Alien

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 15:15:00 +0000

If my lover was an alien,
What kind of date would we go on ?
I wonder swimming in the cold water of Mercury for a while,
Going round the loop of Saturn together,

Words wouldn't be needed,
It would definitely be so fun that we even forget about time,
Beautiful Venus which is made of gold,
The most beautiful place you would lead me to,

If my lover was an alien,
Mom and dad would be surprised,
If there is a voyage to attempt to ambush Jupiter,
At Mars we would find friends,

One day my dream will come true,
Heart will unite,
It will definitely do a warp,

The Earth is blue, beautiful,
Everyone speaks of wanting to fly,

If my lover was an alien,
I would be acquainted with the wide universe,
Mercury,Venus,Earth,Mars,Jupiter to the heavenly realm Pluto,
Fly away in the universe,
Lead me to a beautiful star

OST Mojacko (translation)
Credit: http://dreamyh.blogspot.com/2009/04/if-my-lover-was-alien.html

The Sunken Ship

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 18:12:00 +0000

Yes, I have something to tell. This week has been a devastating week. Some goals I decided to achieve this month are threatened to be achieved!! No wonder, this week I was being so lazy in almost every aspect of my life, but, to tell the truth, I was really diligent last month!! Due to the increasing numbers of assignments and their difficulties as usual, I have to tell myself again and again that I have to work harder no matter what. To write something is a way out. But wait, I think I know the problem. . It must be all caused by the in-supportive learning environment!! It's my room. What?!

For curious people, be prepared for an adventure to a lost sunken ship!!

Near my computer table (a small flexible simple wooden table that can be carried to almost anywhere when you flip its legs, it also featured a quite artistic crafted holder to carry the table) lies a puzzle of cables. How to say that, it's so messy. Laptop charger cables, fan cables, phone charger cables, they are all united in complicated union to form something like. . republic?!

On the audio speakers. On the left one lies some of "never-be-read" books my mother gave me before I went to Yogyakarta to study English Letters. Hard Times by Charles Dickens, Measure for Measure by William Shakespeare, Dictionary of Idioms by W.S. Fowler, Brighter Grammar Book One by Margaret Macaulay and C.E.Eckersley, and Conversation With God by Neale Donald Walsch. Well, I read Shakespeare's Measure for Measure but I gave up pathetically on the early pages. Difficult, and torturing, fail to see the beauty.

On the right one lies my debating bibles, 2 mandarin Chinese textbooks, (the old textbooks I brought from my home when I was on holiday. I remember reading them when I was an elementary boy), a red coloring pencil, and CDs of The Phantom of The Opera I borrowed from the CD rental. They are important, and I use them more often compared to the things (books) on the left audio speaker. Sorry mom. .

And near the republic of complicated cables lies a plastic contains another plastic trashes. Damn, too many layers for trashes, I'm sick of myself for not having any initiative to clean it. What a damn lazy bones. Keep going, next to the trash layers there lies a present warped in simple gift wrapper, for my sister. My sister's birthday was 2 weeks ago, but due to some financial difficulties, I was late to give her a gift. I'll give this one for her tomorrow. Next, next, next. .

MY BED, IT LOOKS SO BAD. There is a barbel, The first chronicle of Narnia,"The Magician's Nephew", Longman's English dictionary (I found some difficult words in it), scattered stationaries, Literature Research Methodology handout (Which I fail to read), and of course, a pillow and a bolster. I haven't change my bed linen for almost a month, and seriously thinking, I think tomorrow is the right time to change it with cleaner one. And the worst part, dust! And some personal hairs scattered around the room!! Ha!! What a frowzy man I am!! I feel so dirty!! One more, near my door there are dirty clothes, have to get them to a laundry house soon!! What a bomb.

To end the sunken ship tour, my wall. The writing on my wall is somehow special. I wrote some spoil writings in Chinese to express how much I missed that someone. I'm a damn stupido, but, somehow I don't know how to thank my self for letting it go out through the wall rather that keeping it in this heart. Don't know when I will let this feeling go. . Anyway, look forward for a yacht tour soon, I'll be cleaning my room tomorrow ;) this sentence ends the tour!!

Writing on The Wall

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Sat, 12 Mar 2011 19:40:00 +0000

It's crazy to wake up this early (3 AM) just because I can't close my eyes, and yeah, I'll be waking up really late for sure tomorrow. As some of you might know (pretending that there are readers, I know no one reads), I'm learning Chinese intensively and so excited about everything related with learning Chinese. Well, this morning I found the relation between learning language and falling in love. You knew few words about love and then you'll keep on writing it again and again until you feel really satisfied with what you have written and be happy with it. The difference doesn't take miles to make me do the same, but I'm a bit different. Not satisfied with the love flatters I wrote on papers, I start to write them, on my wall. Not on my facebook wall of course, It's written on my real wall, the white ceramic wall on my bedroom.

Well, I wrote my sentences in HanZhi (Chinese characters). I don't have any camera to take the picture, I really wish I had one that you can see what did I do to my wall. Somehow I really and seriously thought that they're disgusting. But, from the other telescope I have, those writings on the wall shows my lost frustration, frustrations I can no longer feel, frustrations of how much I love that somebody, frustrations of how much I miss that somebody.

I found this picture randomly when I browse google with keywords, "Writing on Wall".

"That which is out of sight, is out of mind?"

I know how it feels to miss someone that out of our sight and this question is just so about me. Certainly, my answer would be,"That which is out of sight, is always in our mind."

The Image is taken here

PS: I love this picture, absolutely brilliant :)

A Personal Song Review: Ti Amo (I Love You) by: Arron Yan (炎亞綸) and Liu Li Yang (劉力揚)

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Wed, 09 Mar 2011 16:29:00 +0000

Liu Li Yang and Arron Yan

I know, I know. I have to write a post every few days or maybe everyday. After grumbling with my self for few moments finally an idea came to knock at my brain, it said,"let me in!!"

Few days ago, I found this song sang by Arron Yan from Fahrenheit and Liu Li Yang, it titled as you can see, Ti Amo (I Love You). It's a love song, everyone knows it. Now, the question is what's so special about this song? The first time i listened to it, I like the melodies, and the beautiful voice of the singers. Next, I tried to search the HanZhi lyrics and the Romanji lyrics + the translation. I found it here, and I really fell into something that crazy people called as Love. I fell in to love with the song, completely. The Melodies, Lyrics, Translation, OH I LOVE THEM!! <3

The lyrics are common, but some lyrics are just too touchy.

一張眼一清醒第一個想到又是你 (Even sober, the first thing that I think of is you.)

Crazy. That's the first word for people falling in love. I myself was crazy. The one I love said that. Crazy. Love makes madness for people who fall into it. But they (we) love madness, it makes live become more lively, it makes life seems like such an adorable little teddy bear in unimaginable-complicated artistic ways. Love is just hard to describe that I used crazy words for describing that one little crazy thing (love). But it's true, when I sobered the first person came up to my mind was the one I loved the most. Love is the most mysterious cure for sadness, and I don't know why. To think about the one you love so much can deliver a warmth thoughts and ideas that we are going to be okay. Crazy.

每一天都要愛上你想著你沉入夢境 (Every day (I) want to love you. I am missing you in my dreams.)

The power of this verse made me want to typed this: "Missing you (somebody) in my dreams---always. Every time I go to bed the first person that comes into my brainless skull is YOU. Sometimes I just feel so stupid that I can't forget any single thing about you, I mean the one that I feel in love with for 4 years now. The feeling was strange, there are periods when I was somehow forgot that I fell in love to that somebody. And I was, well, yes, fell in love with another somebody in that lonely period, but to tell the truth, that somebody was the one who kept on coming back. I don't want to love another somebody, all I want to love is that somebody, all I want to dream about is also that somebody, but, unluckily, when I dreamed meeting that somebody, that somebody will never looked back at me. I know that somebody noticed me, but that somebody just won't. That somebody thought I was Crazy. And the same scenario happens each time I'm dreaming about that somebody."

因為有妳讓一切都變成不平凡( Because of you everything strangely changed.)

Strangely changed, Everything. This part is the most dramatic expressed feeling in the song in my point of view. Such love can changed everything in strange ways, that's why it's so hard to know whether we're falling in love at the right time and with the right person or not. Such feeling is strange, love is strange, but it has the best aesthetic value among the other feelings human can feel. Love changes and changed everything, strangely. Still, we consider it as the most beautiful feeling yet mysterious that one can feel.

This song is just great, I love it so much that I typed this personal song review for hours at the bottom of my strong little heart with one great willingness.

Complete HanZhi & Romanji Lyrics + Translation, click here.

To download this song click here.

Watch the video on You Tube: Arron Yan and Jade Liu - Ti Amo (I Love You)

Credits belong to the singers and those sites, I didn't claim anything except my writing.

Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Wed, 09 Mar 2011 16:14:00 +0000

Somebody's Me lyrics

Songwriters: Shanks, John; Dioguardi, Kara; Iglesias, Enrique M;

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

Cause I, I walk the streets alone

I hate being on my own

And everyone can see that I really fell

And I?m going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you, somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can?t breathe, without you it?s lonely

Somebody hopes that one day you will see

That somebody's me, that somebody's me, yeah

How, how did we go wrong?

It was so good and now it?s gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we hide isn't lost

Somebody wants you, somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can?t breathe, without you it?s lonely

Somebody hopes that one day you will see

That somebody's me, oh, yeah

You will always be in my life even if I?m not in your life?

Cause you're in my memory

You, will you remember me?

And before you set me free, oh, listen please

Somebody wants you, somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can?t breathe, without you it?s lonely

Somebody hopes that someday you will see

Somebody's me, that somebody's me

That somebody's me, that somebody's me, oh, yeah

Credits: http://www.elyrics.net/read/e/enrique-iglesias-lyrics/somebody_s-me-lyrics.html

100

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 08 Mar 2011 16:02:00 +0000

I got 100 for my written Chinese Mid-Test!! I study really hard like never before, memorizing many words and really serious when studying it, and it was finally resulted in a proud feeling. I studied Chinese when I was really young. 8 years old. Damn, I was so young!! And I continued learning it until I was 16. I stopped because I had no interest in learning Chinese because it was so hard for me.

8 years learning Chinese because of the urgency urged by my parents, I learnt almost nothing. I didn't remember the words, and I never wanted to remember any of them. The only thing I love when studying Chinese was to write Han Zhi (Chinese Characters). Han Zhi seems really cool that it became the only thing I was interested in when learning Chinese. I regretted it now, and I learn so much important lessons that to master and learn Chinese is quite fun, I'm starting to love it :D Anyway, it's one of the most important language to study if we want a wider International communication in global society. It's the age of interdependency!!

Thanks God I have this chance, it's because of my parents willingness to pay quite expensive for my intensive Chinese course tuition fee. I really regret why on earth I didn't realize how important to study Chinese is when I was younger, I wasted those tuition fee for 8 years!! Now that I feel the importance, again, Thanks to God that I still have the chance to study Chinese, and I will be really serious this time, absolutely.

More challenges to overcome, I should not be too satisfies with this current result!!

Tuar Cheatha, God is Great!!

The Phantom of The Opera -- a hidden obsession, of me.

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Sun, 06 Mar 2011 15:39:00 +0000

Yay!! I'm writing again!! This time is about. . taratereng~ The Phantom of The Opera, it's my hidden obsession to play the character of Erik the Phantom since I watched it 2 years ago!! Well, now the questions are (Self Interview):

1. Are you a good actor, Mr. Lawis?

- Honestly, I don't know. Some people said that I was really good acting as Eugene Florcyzk in Grease The Musical. But, to act as Erik The Phantom is a different case. I'm not sure about this, but I decided to play a monologue as Erik The Phantom in my play performance class for the mid semester test.

2. Are you a good singer? The Phantom of The Opera is a musical, you know.

- Well, to tell the truth, I love singing. But I have no techniques, so I consider myself as a. . well, an average singer. I'm not that bad actually, but I'm so curious to act as Phantom that I will do my best to learn the song.

3. So what scene will you choose? What song will you sing?

- The scene where Phantom came after Christine and brought her to his secret space, secretly ;) I'll sing "The Music of The Night" to Christine~ Well, no one will act as Christine, It's just a monologue, so, I'll just pretend that there is Christine. :P

What an obsession!! My hand shakes, I wrote it, I have to fulfill this hidden obsession!!

Wish me luck

Credit: http://www.realmovienews.com/movieimages/2944/3035/3035_425_poster_3_f.jpg

The Promise

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Wed, 02 Mar 2011 15:08:00 +0000

Actually, I wanted to post this yesterday, but whatever lah. Yup. I promise myself to write a post today, though I don’t know what to write. Yeah you know, I’m writing this post because I have to fulfill my target this year to post 100 posts!! It sounds crazy when this is the 3rd month of the year already and I only posted 4 posts!! 96 posts to go!! While I promised myself to post 15 posts on February, I was busy with my superb plans to reach my goals in 2011!! *making no sense excuses* XD And guess what, I'm going to post more often this month!! maybe every 2 days, every 3 days or maybe everyday!! XD

Okay, I’ll just tell you a story of my first week in the 6th semester at the Department of English Letters.

Be prepared, it might be boring for you, so get yourself some snack or you’ll be ended up leaving this blog without reading my story first. Whatever.

Great. Great. Great. The first week was super!! I don’t know from where I got this motivation, to study harder, to play less, and back to study harder and harder!! My room is tidy, not like it used to be, and I have kept it tidy since the last month, and I feel happier because it influences my mood in studying!! Well, not only the tidy room which increases my study mood, the classical music also helps me to understand the materials faster, those legendary composers, Bach, Mozart, Vivaldi, and Pachbel, they’re genuinely genius!! That’s why my first week was so super and I really hope that this week will also be a super week, a more super week!! XD

Okay (again), that was about how I motivate myself to study harder, now, I want to tell you about super things that were happening last week. Remember, this is the detail, I mean the elaboration from the previous paragraph. Please don’t feel bored. I’m trying my best to be a good writer you know, I’m still typing although I have no idea what to tell now. Oh yeah, about the super week. The week was super because I learnt a new way of studying!! From a book written by Bobbi DePorter and her friends, “Quantum Learning”!! I’ve tried her tips for a week and it resulted in a very super result!!

I think you have to read it more, by yourself, because I have to read the “The Book of Job” for my History of Modern Thoughts class with our beloved professor, Mr. Siswadi tomorrow. Ok, it seems I have to stop my story for now. Sorry for letting you to read such an honest (or maybe you want to call it boring, it’s up to you) writing like this. Really, this post looks like draft, but I really hope you enjoyed reading it!! A promise is a promise, see you later!! God is Great, Tuar Cheatha!!

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Between Love and Guts

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 01 Feb 2011 07:59:00 +0000

People fall in love, that's normal. I know it and you know it. right? Tonight, I just feel that I have to write this topic to share what's on my mind and what on earth I'm thinking about love and guts.

To love needs guts, many guts. And sometimes we just get many guts from love. These 2 values are mutually exclusive, and closely related to each other, once you get love you get guts, once you get guts you get love.

Without guts you may not get love you want, without love, you may not get guts you want. In this post I will be specifically talking about these 2 values and why it is really important to get these values into our live.

Recently, I fell in love. Yay! Congratulations to me! Finally I fall in love again! It's felt greater than anything I have ever mentioned and I felt before this, It can't be compared with any other good feeling I had ever experienced and it was completely GREAT! (Am I mentioning too many 'and'?) I bike to campus everyday, singing my favorite song while on the way, I eat good food, I smile a lot, and my emotion is more controllable and more stable than usual. Thank God I fall in love, but. . , wait. To fall in love is good and great, but one thing makes me depressed, I can't find my guts to make me struggle. Well, I know I've got the got the guts in me, I just need to find it, ain't it right? YES OF COURSE. I found it. I got guts. Tons of guts to do everything, tons of guts to make the love I have in me to be more wonderful.

I FEEL SO ALIVE, and I'M READY FOR EVERY CHALLENGES, and I WON'T GIVE IT UP THIS TIME. :D

Tuar Cheatha, God is GREAT!!

Hope is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep - OST King of Bakery

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 14:08:00 +0000

나 외로워도 되 널 생각할 땐
미소가 나의 얼굴에 번져
나 힘들어도 되 니가 행복할 땐
사랑이 내 맘 가득히 채워
오늘도 난 거친 세상속에 살지만
힘들어도 눈감으면 니 모습뿐
아직도 귓가에 들려오는 꿈들이
나의 곁에서 널 향해 가고 있잖아
내 삶이 하루하루 꿈을 꾸는 것처럼
너와 함께 마주보며 사랑할 수 있다면
다시 일어설 거야
나에게 소중했던 기억속의 행복들
힘든 시간 속에서도 더욱 따스했던
희망은 내겐 잠들지 않는 꿈
늘 나의 곁에서 그림자처럼
조용히 너는 내게로 와서
나 아파하는지 매일 외로운지
그리움으로 너는 내게 다녀가
세상이 날 울게 해도 나는 괜찮아
항상 니가 나의 곁에 있으니까
먼지처럼 추억이 변해서 떠날까
그저 웃으며 마음을 달래어 봐도
내 삶이 하루하루 꿈을 꾸는 것처럼
너와 함께 마주보며 사랑할 수 있다면
다시 일어설 거야
나에게 소중했던 기억속의 행복들
힘든 시간 속에서도 더욱 따스했던
희망은 내겐 잠들지 않는 꿈
수없이 넘어져 비틀대도
나는 이렇게 서 있잖아
내 맘 하나뿐인데
힘들 때면 니가 이렇게 힘이 돼 줄래
너를 향해 영원히
이렇게 상처 속에 슬픔들을 삼킨 채
미소 짓는 내 모습을 너에게 보여 줄게
이제는 아프지 않아
언제나 너와 함께 이루고픈 꿈 안고
갈 수 없던 저편에서 너를 불러볼께
내 마음 다해 사랑하는 너를
[R]
na oerowododoe neol saenggakhalddaen
misoga naui eolgule beonjyeo
na himdeuleododoe niga haengbokhalddaen
sarangi nae mam gadeukhi chaewo
oneuldo nan geochin sesangsoke saljiman
himdeuleodo nungameumyeon ni moseubbun
ajikgo gwitgae deulryeooneun kkumdeuli
naui gyeoteseo neol hyanghae gago itjana
nae salmi haruharu kkumeul kkuneun geotcheoreom
neowa hamgge majubomyeo saranghalsu itdamyeon
dasi ileoseol geoya
naege sojunghaetdeon gieoksokui haengbokdeul
himdeun sigan sokeseodo deouk ddaseuhaetdeon
huimangeun naegen jamdeulji aneun kkum
neul naui gyeoteseo geurimjacheoreom
joyonghi neoneun naegero waseo
na apahaneunji maeil oerounji
geuriumeuro neoneun naege danyeoga
sesangi nal ulge haedo naneun gwaenchana
hangsang niga naui gyeote isseunigga
meonjicheoreom chueoki byeonhaeseo ddeonalgga
geujeo useumyeo maeumeul dalraeeo bwado
nae salmi haruharu kkumeul kkuneun geotcheoreom
neowa hamgge majubomyeo saranghalsu itdamyeon
dasi ileoseol geoya
naege sojunghaetdeon gieoksokui haengbokdeul
himdeun sigan sokeseodo deouk ddaseuhaetdeon
huimangeun naegen jamdeulji aneun kkum
sueobsi neomeojyeo biteuldaedo
naneun ireohgeseo itjana
nae mam hanabbuninde
himdeul ddaemyeon niga ireohge himi dwaejulrae
neoreul hyanghae yeongwonhi
ireohge sangcheo soke seulpeumdeuleul samkinchae
miso jitneun nae moseubeul neoege boyeo julge
ijeneun apeuji ana
eonjena neowa hamgge irugopeun kkum ango
galsu eobdeon jeopyeoneseo neoreul bulreobolgge
nae maeum dahae saranghaneun neoreul
It doesn’t matter if I’m lonely. Whenever I think of you
A smile spreads across my face.
It doesn’t matter if I’m tired. Whenever you are happy
My heart is filled with love.
Today I might live in a harsh world again.
Even if I’m tired, when I close my eyes, I only see your image.
The dreams that are still ringing in my ears
Are leaving my side towards you.
Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.
To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.
Like a shadow by my side you always
Quietly come to me.
To see if I’m hurt, to see if I’m lonely everyday
With feelings of yearning, you come to me.
Even if the world makes me cry, I’m okay.
Because you are always by my side.
Like dust, will those memories change and leave?
I’ll keep smiling to ease my heart.
Everyday my life is like a dream.
If we can look at each other and love each other
I’ll stand up again.
To me, the happiness of those precious memories
Will be warmer during hard times.
For me, hope is a dream that never sleeps.
No matter how many times I stumble and fall
I’m still standing like this.
I only have one heart.
When I’m tired you become my strength.
My heart is towards you forever.
So I swallowed the hurt and grief.
I’ll only show you my smiling form.
It doesn’t even hurt now.
I’ll always hold on to the dreams I want to fulfill with you
I’ll try to call for you at the place I cannot reach
I love you with all my heart.

Credits:http://koreansplash.blogspot.com/2010/08/lyricstranslation-kyuhyun-hope-is-dream.html

Being Ambitious

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 18 Jan 2011 07:06:00 +0000

(This is my personal experience, we might be different, however I'll be really glad to hear something from you :-) )

The Ambitious Cat

And I really think that this is the righteous time to write something about being ambitious. Yes, many people said that I have no ambitions and I tend to let everything flows as it is, I was just believing that everything is going to be okay. Yes, everything is going to be okay only if you make it okay. Just sit nicely and do nothing will not make any improvement towards the condition in present, If we want to change and to be in the okay condition we want, we have to strive for it, and take first step make it become a realization.

The hardest thing for me is to fight the tendency of being lazy and delaying almost everything. And I know this is bad, and I'm trying my best to change it, and I've got one way to sweep away those bad habits, I think being ambitious is one way out to face this issue. Why do I call it as one of the best way out is because I was a person, a man, without any ambition in my life. I didn't set goals, and I did not know what I want for my future. But later on, before being ambitious, I found out what I really want, love and enjoy to do.

To be honest, I LOVE ENGLISH. I love almost everything about English language, I love to read English books, I like to write anything in English, I love to speak English, and I love singing English songs, whatever it's I just can't express how much I enjoy and love English. Not only English, I also love to learn other languages! Currently I'm studying Chinese and Korean. And later on I still want to learn Japanese and French. Yeah I love languages, but I really think that just by loving them will not make any improvement. Because when I love I tend to just loving it without doing anything to it. I just say I love it, that's it. Whenever I want to add more new vocabs, my personality or whatever it is tend to be lazy or not motivated to learn those languages. Based on my personal analysis towards myself, that always happens because I do not have what people called as "Ambitions" or to be "Ambitious".

Based on Cambridge Advanced Learner's Dictionary, Ambition has meaning,"a strong wish to be successful, powerful, rich, etc." And Ambitious means,"having a strong wish to be successful, powerful or rich." A strong wish is the most essential value of having ambitions and to be ambitious which I seriously aware of, because I never have a really strong wish. Well, sometimes things can get worst, friends can be enemies, lovers can betray, and doctors might making wrong diagnoses, and the worst thing I ever experienced was to have no motivation on this kind of strong wish. Whenever those bad things came, I tend to just let it be instead of rising up my guts and change the condition. I got fcked up with those let it be conditions, and this time I won't let it get me again cause I've got guts and ambitions to be AMBITIOUS. Do what you do, love what you do, and be ambitious, because to do and to love are not enough, we need ambitions to be ambitious!

I've set some goals this year and I won't let those let it be conditions invading me again. Surely, things will be better this year, I'll strive for it and I'm sure of it! Tuar Cheatha, God is great! :-D

Credits: Cambridge Advanced Learner's Dictionary,

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One of my new year's resolution! 100 posts!

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 04 Jan 2011 18:04:00 +0000

yeah, I have just finished my new year's resolution and I feel so pumped up to reach them all! This is the best momentum I got, I've just recovered from a big recession and it's just the righteous and the best time to set goals in this new year! Haha!

And what's so good is that i set a goal for my blogging life also! yeah, Im going to post 100 posts this year and im going to make sure to make good ones! I have taken back my own life with my own hands and with God's blesses of course, and that makes me feel totally optimist! Well, it sounds like a big talk, but im not talking, im typing, and im going to type 100 posts!! am I being too optimist? really, I want to become a good writer whatever it takes!

So, maybe some of you are curious about what im writing, well, basically, i write almost everything. I write short stories, I write poems, I write reports, I write academical essays (my assignments), and I love write to write fictions the most. But, this year, on this blog I want to specify my writing, my writing will be criticism towards some issues happening at the time, and I'll try my best to do it~!!

I want to make writing as one my habit, I want to write, I want to let people hear my opinion, and I really want to hear what people think about my writing! To see people make cool blogs with cool topics, and yeah, cool writings, I'm pumped up!! And as a student in English Department, I seriously think that this writing habit will help me to face those guts on the way!! Actually, I'm not used to write a long writing like this, but I'm trying my best. :)

Oh yeah, somebody told me that. . How long your writing is not a big matter, what matter is whether it is beneficial (can be in anyway you can imagine) or not for the readers! That's it! haha. .

I must be a loser if I can't post 100 post this year, so i have to make sure that im going to set everything on its way!

check out the savage chickens! http://www.savagechickens.com/images/chickenoptimist.jpg

Tuar Cheatha, Happy New Year!!

Love is Real - Jason Mraz

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 17:34:00 +0000

Love is real it is not just in novels or the movies
It is fact and it is standing here right in front of you
So if you just open your eyes, oh what a sweet discovery
There is hope, and there is joy and there is acceptance

So now let all the light that collects on your plants keep you warm, make you
smile
And I will be there with this pen in my hand to record all the while
You'll be laughing so loud that the house will shake with sound
And everything will be as new as the day it was found

Oh, love is real it is not just in long-distance commercials
Or something that you thought you felt back in high school
So I will turn black and white become that horoscope you're reading
It predicts that something good is on its way

And I'll send you all the world green and blue in a box through the mail
You can open it up, hold it right in your hand and be glad that it's there
And be glad that you're there

Now you can feel all the knots in your stomach they start to untie
And suddenly it's not so hard to say you're alright

Oh, love is real it is not just in poetry and stories
It is truth and it will follow you everywhere you go from now on
So if you just cast all off your doubts then your lips would answer for you
Oh, my darling when you smile it is like a song
I can hear it now
And I can hear it now...

Miraculousness

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 18:51:00 +0000

"What heights of love, what depths of peace, Here in the power of Christ, i stand"

I really can't stop listening to this song, really damn can't do that. for these 2 days, this song is not removed from the playlist, i keep on playing it!!

What song is that? ta-daaa~ It's a song titled "In Christ Alone (I Stand)" by Owl City!! *damn, what a very bad way to describe a very good song* but these few days i really think that i've lost my writing abilities. . WHY? because i saw many people wrote better things that i feel like want to give up TnT

forget about that, back to the topic,"Miraculousness". . what to say is that, hmm! I'M SO HAPPY.

that's all, THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR MIRACLE, YOU'RE GREAT!!

This post may have no meaning unless you know what happiness comes to me!!

Thanks for wasting your time, drop by and read this piece of me, All the best for you!!

And it's gonna be December, GREAT, EVERYTHING IS JUST GREAT >u<

The Carnival

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 14:51:00 +0000

Looking at your smile through my old glasses,

Your rainbow smile shines my world,

The echoes of your sweet tender voice,

Those blissful memories about you will never die.

The droplets we shared on that rainy day,

A hamburger we ate on a late mid-night,

Your holds when I was down,

Oh my Love, you’re my everything.

The Heaven marks its music festival,

On a carnival when you kissed me,

I don’t care what upheavals the world brought me,

When all I know that there’s an Angel besides me.

Gustin Lawis

Carnival (http://wavemagazine.net/arhiva/16/ent/carnival1.jpg

To the sky, a Song for Jane

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 05 Oct 2010 12:10:00 +0000

"Jump higher, Jane! Jump higher!", shouts Miranda to her best friend, Jane. Both Miranda and Jane are 19 years old and now they are playing for once again at the playground they used to visit when they were 5. Jane is not shouting now, she is just laughing out loud while jumping on the sand box, she jumps high but never gets higher. And finally she shouts out louder to Miranda while laughing," Hey Miranda! Help me reach the sky! Give me a wing so I can jump higher!", and then she laughs freely, and she closes her eyes to feel the wind breezing softly more intensely through her long black hair.

Miranda is just watching her, and letting Jane jumps as free as she wants while she is supporting Jane with simple cheers like," Jump higher! Jump higher, you can do it Jane!". She keeps on watching Jane, with a little sad smile on her face. Jane keeps on laughing like a little girl and finally shouts again," Come on here, Miranda! This time you should jump together with me!", Jane stops jumping, and she goes out from the sand box. She walks to Miranda, grabbing her hand softly to the sand box. Jane starts to jump while holding Miranda's hand, but, Miranda doesn't jump.

Jane makes an upset face and this time she asks Miranda with a teasing tone," Where are your feet, girl? Let's jump!!" Miranda doesn't jump, and now she is in silence. She speaks no word, and her face turns sad. Jane smiles softly now and she begs Miranda," I always want you to jump with me, come on, I promise that this will be the only one! Please!" Miranda is now holding Jane's hand stronger than she ever did before. She asks Jane a question, a question that she always give to Jane with naughty satire tone whenever Jane asks her to jump in the sand box," Why should I jump with you? It creates no different, you will never get higher!" But this time is different, Miranda is not asking Jane with that kind of tone, She asks Jane this question with the inability to control her tears, she is crying.

14 years ago, Jane and Miranda met each other at the town's kindergarten. Jane had short black hair and beautiful blue-sea eyes. She loves to play at the the playground near the kindergarten, the sand box is her favorite. In the other words, she loves outdoor games. Miranda was the another beautiful girl at the kindergarten, she had long curly blonde hair and gifted with beautiful green-forest eyes. Her fingers are magical for those who ever saw her playing piano, and like you might have guessed, she loved to spend her time playing piano at her home.

Jane is Jane and Miranda is Miranda, they are different and they didn't get along well the first time they met. The first day they met at the kindergarten, they were playing at the playground with the other kids. Miranda was building a castle on the sand box, and Jane was jumping in the sand box. Other kids, including Miranda was mad with Jane for jumping in the box, she was destroying not only the castles but also the mountains in the sand box. They had a fight that day, Miranda is the only kid who was brave enough to challenge Jane, because the other kids thought that Jane was a real mad girl. Miranda grabbed some sand and threw it to Jane, "It's a lesson for you, sand destroyer!", and Jane just laughed and replied," You can reach the sky if you jump on sands you know!" Other kids laughed out loud together with Miranda, and named her as "The Sand Monster" after that. Yeah, everyone hated Jane after that, and never wanted to play in the sand box since that day.

Unlike Jane who was infamous that time, Miranda was really famous with her ability in playing piano. Everyone won't go anywhere when her magical fingers playing the piano. Jane admired Miranda, although she never told her until one afternoon at the playground. Miranda was really bored that day that she went to the playground hoping for building a castle in the sand box without Jane. She went to the playground alone after telling her mother, and finally was upset seeing Jane jumping in the sand box. She was so upset that she can did nothing but to leave. She intended to leave but she change her decision after hearing Jane's singing while jumping on the sand box. Jane was singing beautifully. Miranda loved it, and decided to stay for a while, listening to the song Jane was singing until Jane called her from the sand box," Hey! Are you coming here to build castles?"Miranda walked closer to the sand box and said," Not until you stop jumping and singing. I really hate the way you jump in the box, but. . You sing very well", said Miranda. Jane was blushing and she can only said," Thanks".

After that Miranda invited Jane to sing at her home, and like Miranda was expecting, Jane was singing beautifully along with her piano playing. Simply, they become a good friend for each other since that day. Miranda was able to build castles after having some negotiation with Jane, other kids also started to play in the sand box again, without Jane jumping in it. But, Jane was always coming to the playground at the late afternoon with Miranda. No one was playing at the sand box, so Jane can jump until she felt enough. Jane used to asked Miranda to jump with her, but Miranda only ask a question with a naughty satire tone," Why should I jump with you? It creates no different, you will never get higher!" , after hearing that, Jane will just laugh out loud, and Miranda will be just waiting until Jane finished, and after that they went home and singing a song together on their way to home.

One day, when they were 15, Jane didn't go to school for a quite long time. Miranda went to visit Jane every day, and they always sang a song together before Miranda leaved. Week after week, Jane's condition is not getting better, and Miranda was starting to wonder what's going on with Jane. Not so long after that, Miranda was told by Jane's mother that Jane has a terrible disease, blood cancer, and there is no cure for that disease. Miranda didn't feel anything, she was really surprised and don't know what to do. That night when she was thinking about Jane on her bed, she finally cried, she cried out loud for she knew that one day her best friend will leave her.

Miranda was depressed with the reality and she stopped to have a visit to Jane's home for few days. She kept on playing the piano all day, and sometimes she cried when she remembered the moments she had with Jane. The one that was keep on visiting Miranda's mind is Jane's jumping in the sand box. So she went to the playground with an intention on jumping in the sand box also, in order to know what's so good with jumping on sand. But she found Jane, and like usual, Jane was jumping in the sand box. Miranda left her intention and started to create simple cheers to make Jane's jumping become more energy. Like usual, Jane wanted Miranda to jump with her, but you know what Miranda was going to do. On the way to Jane's home that day, they sang a new song they never sang before, the song is about a journey to the sky, and both of them laughed as their eyes caught each other.

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,

Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,

Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery,

Because after all those wings will take you, up so high,

So bid the forest floor goodbye, as you brace the wind and,

Take to the sky!

They sing the song every time they're together, they sing the song for they longing of eternal friendship. Day after day, week after week, and finally 4 years passed and back to the present when they're 19. "You jump first, and then I'll follow you!", said Miranda to Jane, and she is still crying. Jane without hesitation, starting to jump up high holding Miranda's hand, Miranda follows in the end, and they start to sing the song together while jumping in the sand box like little girls, and on that day, they just reached up to the sky, higher than ever before.

Touch your feathers to the breeze,

And leave the ground,

To The Sky!

*The song lyrics is taken from the song “To The Sky” by Owl City

I wrote this 2 hours before the deadline! haha! what do you think? is it good enough?

To The Sky - Owl City OST The Legends Of The Guardians

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 05 Oct 2010 12:00:00 +0000

Song Writer: Adam Young

Da-da, da-da

Da-da-da, da-da-da-da...

Da-da, da-da

Da-da-da, da-da-da-da...

Shipwreck in a sea of faces;

There's a dreamy world up there

Dear friends in higher places,

Carry me away from here

Travel light, let the sun eclipse you

'Cause your flight's about to leave

And there's more to this brave adventure

Than you'd ever believe...

Bird's-eye view;

Awake the stars 'cause they're all around you

Wide eyes will always brighten the blue

Chase your dreams

And remember me, sweet bravery

'Cause after all those wings will take you up so high...

So bid the forest floor good-bye as you race the wind and

Take to the sky...

(You take to the sky)

Da-da, da-da

Da-da-da, da-da-da-da...

On the heels of war and wonder,

There's a stormy world up there

You can't whisper above the thunder,

But you can fly anywhere

Purple burst of paper birds

This picture paints a thousand words

So take a breathe of myth and mystery

And don't look back

Bird's-eye view;

Awake the stars 'cause they're all around you

Wide eyes will always brighten the blue

Chase your dreams

And remember me, sweet bravery

'Cause after all those wings will take you up so high...

So bid the forest floor good-bye as you race the wind and

Take to the sky...

(Take to the sky...)

There's a world above the trees

(Where the lost are finally found)

So touch your feathers to the breeze...

(And leave the ground)

Bird's-eye view;

Awake the stars 'cause they're all around you

Wide eyes will always brighten the blue

Chase your dreams

And remember me, sweet bravery

'Cause after all those wings will take you up so high...

So bid the forest floor good-bye as you race the wind and

Take to the sky...

You take to the sky...

(You take to the sky...)

Da-da, da-da

Da-da-da, da-da-da-da...

You take to the sky...

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/owl_city/#share

Call Your Name - Daughtry

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Mon, 27 Sep 2010 16:04:00 +0000

Call Your Name lyrics
Songwriters: Barnes, Joey; Daughtry, Chris;

You never said, you never said, you never said that it would be this hard
Love is meant to be forever, now or never seems to discard
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars
So can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said
And with a broken heart your walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?
When I call your name

Complicated situations are the makings of all that's wrong
And I've been standing in the river of deliverance way too long
There's gotta be a better way for me to say
What's on my heart without leaving scars
So can you hear me when I call your name?
So can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said
And with a broken heart your walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?

You never said, you never said, you never said, you never said
When I call your name
You never said, you never said, you never said, you never said
When I call your name

And when you fall apart am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said
And with a broken heart your walls can only go down but so low
Can you hear me when I call your name?

And when you fall apart am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
There's so much to be said
And with a broken heart your walls can only go down but so low

Can you hear me when I call your name?

http://www.elyrics.com

我很抱歉，这已经是别人的心的。

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Thu, 23 Sep 2010 01:55:00 +0000

If you read this, you'll understand what I mean, girl. My heart is someone's already. Whoever you are, I can give you nothing, but Thank You So Much for the strawberries you gave unanimously at the parking park, i enjoyed them so much, They're good! Live your life and find a good Man, because I'm not a good one for you, You deserved a good one, because you're precious! God bless you always, because God is great, Tuar Cheatha! :D

Claudius

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 15:42:00 +0000

I wrote this in my writing class, we have to create a character, which I think is pretty difficult. If anyone reads this, please give me a comment, your suggestion will be very appreciated. Thank You, Enjoy!

Claudius

Claudius is 12 years old, living in a village called Grendel. Claudius has short yellow shagged hair, and he loves using hat. Claudius is quite tall that makes him become an expert in climbing trees and that’s because he is a very curious boy. Not only climbing every tree in the village, He is always being curious in everything, especially, when he found a book in his mother’s room when he was 6. In his 12 age, Claudius has been able to read story books, but He doesn’t go to school because he has to help his parents to run the farm. His mother taught him how to read.

Claudius is very cheerful boy. He has a lot of friends in the village, and every kid in the village loves to play with him. Claudius is the oldest among them and that makes him become the big boss of the children’s gang in the village. As the big boss, Claudius always makes sure that everyone is safe when they are on adventures. He is a good leader for his age, but one thing, he can not swim and never want to be curious in swimming because of just one simple reason, he hates swimming.

He has a room for his hat collections created by his father in his request, and that is his favorite place. He loves to use hat so much. Most of his hats are gifts given by travelers who were visiting his village, and the others are gifts from his Auntie who is working at the city. Every time his auntie comes to the village, she always brings a unique hat for Claudius, which is making him become very happy and loves his auntie so much. For him every hat is unique, and he wears them he will feel different atmosphere, adventure, and curiosity. He believes every hat has its own uniqueness.

Peel and Attach

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Fri, 17 Sep 2010 18:29:00 +0000

I give to much prudence for a problem I can't solve, yes, I really hope that the prudence I gave will somehow be resulted in something i can enjoy one day. haha, so this is the reality, you won't ever know how much prudence you should give to make the problem be solved, to finally being able to see the bright sunshine for once again.

Peel and Attach. I hope this is life is just like stickers. You can choose the only nice ones, peel them up and attach them to your life firmly, and there will be no problems, isn't it? because all stickers you put are the nice ones, you have nothing to worry about.

But this life is more complicated, We are not the one who undertake the "Peel and Attach" job. God does it for the sake of our life. There are only 2 options left to respond those stickers attached to our life: Live it gratefully, enjoy every beauty, including the ones that are actually pretty damn difficult for you to grate--Live a better life! Or, you can simply curse it and do nothing--live the life with no meaning. And thanks to God, now I'm living the first option. :)

Hope, For the Best!
http://gibraltargothic.blogspot.com/2010/06/hope.html

Hoamh *sleepy*, this life is somehow complicated but I'm just enjoying it while there are still so many problems I haven't solve yet. What I do everyday is just be grateful for good and bad things that God destined to me. Yeah, it sounds crazy, but, I believe, In problems and bad things there is beauty that we can't see. Hahaha, but these few months I'm starting to see the beauty of problem and found out that actually the beauty of problem is somehow related to more meaningful life after it! Keep on hoping for the best, and understand that everything happens for thousands of good reasons for your life! Thanks to God for today!

God is GREAT, Tuar Cheatha! :D

Josh Groban - Hidden Away

noreply@blogger.com (Gustin Lawis) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 18:45:00 +0000

Hidden Away is Josh Groban's newest single. I just download it for free from a link given by Josh himself.

This song indicates a belief that actually someone is loving us secretly. This song makes me roaring really loud deep inside my heart, roaring to someone I don't know! "Hey!! Don't keep your love hidden away, show it to me, if you please!!" :D XD Nice song!! Go Josh!!

http://joshgrobanvolod.wordpress.com/
Hidden Away

Over mountains and sky blue seas

On great circles will you watch for me

The sweetest feeling I've got inside

I just can't wait to get lost in your eyes

And all these words that you meant to say

Held in silence day after day

Words of kindness than our poor hearts crave

Please don't keep them

Hidden Away

Sing it out so I can finally breathe

And I can take in all the same

Holding out for something i believe in

All I really need today

I want to free your heart

I want to see your heart

Please don't keep your heart

Hidden Away

You're a wonder, how bright you shine

A flickering candle in a short lifetime

A secret dreamer that never shows

If no one sees you then nobody knows

And all these words you were meant to say

Held in silence day after day

Words of kindness that our poor hearts crave

Please don't keep them

Hidden Away

Sing it out so I can finally breathe

And I can take in all the same

Reaching out for someone I believe in

All I really need today

I want to feel your love

Will you reveal your love

Please don't keep your love

Hidden Away

I want to free your heart

I want to see your heart

Please don't keep your heart

Hidden Away

Credit:http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/josh-groban-lyrics/hidden-away-lyrics.html