The Daily Zeke

Eating Disorders and the family

2013-06-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

When I met my wife 20 years ago I knew I was in love with her immediately, I was done. We dated for a very short time ( 2 weeks ) and then we eloped to Mexico and we got married. It was about 3 months after we met and it was great, we were meant to be together. Of course we really didn't know each other and there were things that would come out about each of us that wasn't good for a newly married couple. I had a daughter from high school she never knew about , boy that was a tough one. And the beautiful wife that made my stomach drop was sick, very sick. I guess I always suspected something was wrong but never really asked took my thoughts any further. It was about 3 months into our marriage that I realized just how sick she was. The beautiful woman that I married thought she was fat and was killing herself to be thin ( which she was already ). She was suffering from and eating disorder called restrictive Bulimia , she only ate a little a certain thing and then she would vomit them up. Of course like all Bulimics she would also binge and purge quit frequently but when she did manage to eat it was very limited, almost like a bird. It drove me insane with worry, I would leave work and try to get her out of the bathroom. I would stand outside the door begging her to stop all the while being drowned out by the most violent and forceful vomiting you can imagine. I was devastated but still very much in love with her and always trying to make her stop. I guess this went on for a couple of years until one day I just said to myself that there was nothing I could do, I was not going to save her and I knew then that I would one day watch her die. Over our 20 year marriage we have been in 6 of the best treatment facilities and seen some of the best counselors there are when it comes to her addiction. With every day passing the thought of her still being alive tomorrow has haunted me. We now have 5 children and have battled together for 20 years to make sense of what is killing her. My children now hear there mother do what I have for 2o years and I know they are young but something makes me think they know she is killing herself. You know eating disorders often have other addictions attached to them and hers has been no different. Some people suffer from OCD some from Alcoholism some form or another of a variant of the disease . it never seems to be alone in its quest to kill them. I plan to write more on this because my wife has asked me to, although it doesn't seem to help her to know the pain it causes to the family , she thinks by me telling what it is like it may help someone else.

Gun Control

2013-04-12T13:43:00.001-07:00

In the last several months this has been a topic that is as heated as it can get. I really do see both sides and can honestly say that there are good points both ways. But one thing I have to say is that what ever side you fall on you must admit that yor si is full of lying douche bags that will lie their ass off to get what they want. I am a conservative and can admit that I see them everyday in my party. The head of the NRA is the biggest of them all for example. But last night while I was watching Rachel Maddow I was just plain dumbfounded at how she will distort and lie to make her point. Then when you couple her with the male Rachel Maddow ( Chris the doucher Hayes) you get the equal of LaPierre from the NRA. I mean do any of the idiots really know what the truth is? First of all , there is absolutely zero documentation that limiting ammo or clip size will save one life. On the other hand to say that every single person that buys a gun of any kind should not have to submit to a background check is just as ludicrous. Mentally ill people and criminals will still kill just as many people as they do now no matter what kind of controls you try to on guns. By limiting the access law abiding citizens have to guns you are actually making it easier to kill for the mentaly ill and criminal element. And by refusing to make background checks mandatory you are just making it look like you have something to hide, period!!!! Here is my suggestion , if you have a gun that is not registered and you have not submitted to the background check you go to jail. If yo have done so you should be able to own whatever gun you want with a safety course every 3 years and maditory range time to stay current. Mentaly ill and criminals should be put in homes or jail for possessing or attempting to possess any type of weapon.

2013-04-10T10:46:00.001-07:00

I haven't written in a very long time , I usually write to get anger out. Today I want to write about something that I have been avoiding for too long. Religion . I grew up in a wonderful church , well actually two of them. As a by young child my family attended Garland Road Church of Christ and in my young adult life we attended Lake Highlands Church of Christ. I all I have fantastic memories of both churches and really don't think there were any two churches that would have been better places to learn. As I grew up I strayed from the church and my life as a result became very hard to manage and soon become impossible to control at all. My point in saying this is that whether you believe or not the environment of church when you are in a good one, is a good nurturing one. That environment promotes a loving caring life and puts you on a good path, one I try to live today. Now are all churches that way ? No , they aren't and it is a shame that what I call "fake churches" are allowed to even exist at all. I have been to several of them and believe that going to those churches was in a small way responsible for my straying from the path I had always been taught. I guess that is why it puzzles me so when I hear the vitriol and hatred spewed around the world about having God in schools or at least having a theme of religion in schools even if it is a non denominational one. What is so wrong with God? What is it that makes people so angry about people wanting to pray to him? 95% of the world believes in God but the 5% that don't get to make the rules because it isn't fair. I truly believe that this is a major reason that this country is in a downward spiral right now, not that we don't all pray but that we teach our children to whine and cry to get their way every time they don't like the outcome. If 1000 people are in a room and 950 want to pray should they not because 50 don't? Or should they say we are going to pray and you can choose not to? Why is it always the minority that gets to push their views on the rest of us and not the other way around. A democracy is set up for the majority to vote on what they want and everyone to go by the rights of the many not the feelings of the few. I for one am tired of watching the rights of the many occupied by the feeling of the few. I want my kids to have what I did not be forced into not having it because someone got their feelings hurt or felt uncomfortable because they were in the minority.

The way I see it.

2012-07-07T07:59:00.000-07:00

When I look around and see what is going on and see the state of affairs we face as a people and a nation, I am shocked ans amazed. Being a super conservative , with the exception that I think pot should be legal. I have to wonder what people are thinking as they look at the news,,, is it real , is it fake ????? I can't answer that,, do we get the news as reality or as perception of the conveyor. I can only speak for what I see... I am no writer and will never be the President, but I am a caring intelligent person that knows bullshit when I see it. I first and foremost am concerned for my children and the peril that I see in the years that are ahead of us. But after that I am concerned that we have allowed ourselves to but lulled into sleep by complacent laziness!!!! I don't mean all you work out nuts are the new leaders of the nation , but that being lazy is more than just a person that doesn't workout. We have allowed ourselves to be lazy mentally, and that is more dangerous than being physically lazy. No matter how dumb my actions have been , I have never allowed myself to brain lazy. I always made a conscious decision to F up, no one goaded me.... I was always aware what I did was wrong. When I see the world leaders , I believe that they are the same,,,the no what they do is wrong and do it anyway.

Just the facts!!

2012-07-07T07:56:00.003-07:00

I am so sick of the bullsh going on with the politico scene right now. It seems that there are so many lies being told that no one can tell the truth anymore. Every time there is an election the guy who lies the most wins, without fail. Four years ago it was all the change Obama was going to make happen when he was elected... Now it is Obama and Romney doing it again. Here is the deal just so you know, the promises are only words and will not be and cannot be lived up to. They are only lies told to get votes and then it all changes to the real deal, if you gave loads of cash the the elected party you get your wish. There are literally thousands of jobs that are useless given out to supporters of the elected. Obama alone gave over 200 jobs to supporters that are in the top 1% of pay in the country, useless jobs (czars) mind you. Hell Bush in his last 2 years wouldn't even make a decision because of the monetary effect on his after POTUS life. There are really only a few issues that will get any attention during the tenure of any POTUS, and no more. And those do not pertain to the working folks... they pertain to repaying the debt to the Pelosi's of Washington. Look at the local Senators from your area, what have they even put forward since election??? Most do nothing but Fat Cat it,,,,,!!!!! And if they ever vote it is on non crucial areas that won't ruffle feathers and interfere with re-election bids.

Rangel
Pelosi
Huntsman
Paul

They are all big talkers that do zero when the rubber meets the road, especially Paul who divides his own party to soap box ridiculous ideas. Pelosi is just a vain old lady with zero intentions of doing anything but serving her political career. My take is this , read the facts just the facts, don't listen to anyone who has a dog in the fight... They will lie to you for a vote even if it kills you!!!!!

Summertime

2011-04-05T12:07:00.000-07:00

This time of year always brings back special memories for me. Growing up in Dallas, I can't help but think back to hanging out at White Rock Lake and cruising Forest Lane at night. When the Sun starts to come out and the wind gets hot, I want to throw the Frisbee and drink cold ones. I want to wear flip flops and get a sunburn no matter what the consequence. I want to head to San Marcos and guard the river rice!! LMAO! Lots of you will get that some will not,,, not important. The word San Marcos and river should be enough for most of you. Then I want to head to San Antonio and drink margs in little Mexico till I drop... After the Tequila wears down I want to drive South to Padre Island and soak up the whitest beach in Texas till my skin is as brown as the water. This is the time I find it hardest to work and the easiest to coast in to the driveway at night.. I have had a lot of good times and have a lot of good friends that will appreciate this... Frisbee golf anyone????

When life get's hard what do you do? Who do you blame?

2011-02-21T13:30:00.000-08:00

I have to admit that life has had it's ups and downs for me. and although a lot of the downs were self induced, so were the ups. I came from a great family , well for the most part. Parents divorced several times, I was into drugs , booze ,,,you name it I had to do it. I always hear people blaming their past on upbringing and blaming the current state of their lives on the same. I just have to say that after a certain point in your life that is bullshit. Some of you who will read this know my past, wealthy family ,dad and mom loved me very much , brothers and sisters were well adjusted. But for some reason I blew apart at about 14 and but for the grace of God there go I. I have been to prison , I have had a terrible drug problem, I have hurt so many of the ones that love me. I have quit jobs, been fired , had stuff thrown at me that will always be a part of my life. I am 44 today , I have 5 children and have been married to my wife for 17 years. So why have I been able to do this but so many people seem to continue to destroy themselves over the past that haunts them? Simple, at 26 I figured out that there was only one common denominator in all of the ups and all of the downs....Me. I was to blame for it all, not my mom not my dad not my friends not where I lived. Me!! Barring mental health issues that would prevent it, people do and can change. I get up everyday wondering what I can do to put food and security in my families hands. I live in fear of being the guy with the sign under the bridge. Do I get depressed ,,,hell yes... is life just rosy ,,,hell no. But I control my reaction to these things, I control the things that used to control me. I have seen so many people die, the number is staggering. I have lost some of my closest friends to these same things...Bottom line is take responsibility for your own actions , believe in yourself and dont blame others for your failures if your not willing to give them credit for your success. Look at yourself in the mirror everyday and ask God to give you that one deal, that one smile , that one smell...just the one thing that makes you know it is all worth it...grind it out everyday and you will get it from him...get over your self and get on with it.......this is a beautiful place to be ,,,don't be in too much of a rush to leave it... RANT OVER!!!

What gives anyone the right?

2010-10-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

When you think about the things that gripe your ass the most , what are they? Me , I am sure that most of my friends know what they are. One major issue I am having right now is with people that think that they should interfere with other peoples life based on THEIR belief system. I am a religious person , I have my belief system. I was always taught to worship GOD in my heart a and believe that Jesus is my savior and I do. I was never taught to make other people conform to my view or judge them based on the different system. When someone uses GOD to interfere in someone else's life just to feel better about themselves, it is wrong. The church face is worn by many people who go home and beat their children and abuse their spouse on a daily basis. The notorious Killer in the 1970's , BTK was an Deacon at his church and a person who preached on every corner. Yet he also used the church computer to write notes to the police taunting them about his heinous acts of murder. I have known many people from all walks of life in my 44 years of life, some good lots bad. many of the worst of the worst have gained late life Christianity and are now big time bible thumpers. Others, have always been on a walk with GOD and are very silent in their worship and beliefs. Then there are the ones that have always been religious and no matter what you do they have a reason to call you less faithful than they are. I for one do not get fooled by the church face, I see people for who and what they are. When someone meddles in others lives, that does not make them a Christian. It makes them a meddler plain and simple. When you sit in your own house that is full of horrors unspeakable and tell others how to live, you are not a Christian. You are simply using GOD to cast your eyes from your own shortcomings and focus them somewhere else. You do not have the right and it does not say in the bible to interfere because it is your duty, especially if your house is not in order. Keep your opinion ( and that is all it is ) to yourself. Zealots have used the Bible for thousands of years for personal gain and manipulated it's context to adhere to their beliefs no matter how heinous they may be. Eric Rudolph murdered and abortion doctor and blew up an innocent lady at the Olympics because of how HE interpreted the Bible. I guess because of his interpretation he should walk freely and have no consequences. Bullshit!!! his ass should never get out of jail, and people should keep THEIR interpretations to themselves unless they are asked for it. When you preach on the corner you have your reward here on Earth, I think it actually does say that in the Bible. Don't you dare think that you can tell me how to live my life based on what YOU believe,,, I don't care what YOU believe. Just because you walk around spouting about GOD all day does not make you one bit more Christian than I am, not one bit!!!! In fact , it makes you less. But then again that's just my opinion!!!! Just know that there is a Michael Lohan on every corner that has gotten jailhouse religion and you look just as stupid as he does. Get your own house in order before you tell me how to run mine Jimmy Swaggert , Jim Baker , Jerry Fallwell. and just know in your heart that if this pisses you off,,, you are probably one of the people it's meant for.

IS this a joke?

2010-10-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

What in the world was Bob Beckle thinking last night on Hannity? I have seen it all now, and now have seen it with fire red colored hair. I am a reasonable person, I have a job a family of 7 and am reasonably smart. I have to wonder what planet these left wing nuts are on,,, do they see what is really happening? Bob Beckle said last night that if we that 9.5% unemployment was bad that the 16.5% that it would have climbed to under Bush would make us feel good about it!!!!! WHAT????? Am I missing something ? What crystal ball are these clowns looking at that would make them so bold and asinine to say these things. At one point I looked at him and thought he was drinking again! He says,,, you Obama critics keep using all these numbers to take pot shots at the President and you need to stop. Then he says , I know we are going to lose control of the Senate ,, let's see how good you do! The decision by many Americans to elect a President based on race is back firing people. And YES , many of you did vote for Obama because he is African American only. Not based on what he brought to the table or his qualifications, just because of race. Talk about racism!!!! Or you just simply voted straight line Democratic ticket , another major F-up!!! Today as you look at your children and know that the decisions of this administration have given them debt they will never see gone , pat your back for a job well done. When your health care costs triple next year , pat yourself on the back. when you get to 69 and can't move very well but have one more year before you can get your social security, pat yourself again. When the Koran is taught in our schools and prayer rugs are provided free of charge but you can't pray to GOD, pat yourself on the back. When your tax rate gets to the 70% it was before Reagan give yourself some love!!! It is time to wake up and see reality and make a difference. Look at the issues or just don't vote!!!!!!

Buying a New or Used car????

2010-10-18T11:08:00.000-07:00

After 20 years in the automobile business and having sold thousands upon thousands of cars, please read this if you are looking. No matter what your gram pa told you and no matter what your dad did when he went to the lot an embarrassed you. You are not prepared to car shop!!! There is a fine line to getting a great deal and getting your head caved in!! First pointer is this,,, DO NOT get multiple bids!!! that's right,,, it does nothing other that make the guy you are working with try harder to get your wallet, and he can believe me ( even if you think he can't he can ). You will buy 5 to 6 cars your whole life,,, even the most inexperienced sales person sells more than that in a month,,, they are the expert in this area you are not. Pick a store that is convenient to you and go there in person,,, have 2 to 3 hours to sit and do your deal. When you show up and say ,,, "you have 5 minutes to get me a price" all you do is set the stage for frustration and disappointment... you need time to get the right deal. When you meet your sales person ,, ask to speak to the desk manager right away... not to get past your guy but to get your face in front of him so when your deal stalls he feels good coming out to save the day!! On a used car ,, DO NOT compare cars against each other,, there is only one car like the one you are looking at. Even if there is 100 of the same model they are all different like snowflakes!!! pick the one you want and zero in on that car only, you will be much happier. Never talk rate at the desk, they can't tell you the rate unless it is set by the manufacturer. Always talk rate in the business office, concentrate on the price of the car only and handle your financing in the finance office. If you are concerned over payment , you are on the wrong car...buy only what you can afford not what you want.... you are setting the stage for disaster if you over buy!! Always ask for a copy of the invoice while you are negotiating... if they wont show you ,, leave! Always remember , when you think you went in and got in the dealers pocket ,,, you didn't!!! When you treat a salesman and a dealer with respect you will get a good deal, when you act like a know it all and try to push them around you will surely pay more for your car! It is all about a relationship , and that means you need to build one not just them,,, just a few thoughts.... Disclosure::::: I am no longer in the car business....And if you need a good place to shop I can point you there, there are a lot of good places to shop,,, and a lot of bad ones!!!!! I am not beholding to any of them and will always shoot you straight!!!

Driving

2010-10-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

This post is for all the idiots that don't know how to drive. First let me say that there is a minimum speed limit, as I am sure most of you don't know this. Secondly, the left lane in for passing cars not passing time!!! Also , when turning into a driveway or entrance to your destinatation, stopping is not supposed to be your first action!!! Get into the damn entrance and off the road!! And if you own a Smart car , you are stupid!!! Just so you know!!! And for the record, if you aren't allowed to drive in your home country, don't take it up here... you can't f'ing drive!!!!! A Burka is not protective wear, take the damn thing off when driving!!! If you don't speak english,,,, don't get behind the wheel.... why would you even think that is okay? Your brakes are not a steering tool (this in not a NASCAR oval), they are to stop with so using them in the middle of George Bush is not okay!!! When you enter a ramp ,,, enter the damn ramp!!!! I really don't think I need to mention make-up and cell phone use do I? Let's just say if you do your a moron!!! Passing a school bus???? don't let me catch you a**w****!!!!

The Dallas Cowboys

2010-10-18T07:23:00.000-07:00

Now , I will give full disclosure..... I am a Cowboy fan from the bottom of my soul. I grew up less than a mile from the real Dallas Cowboys practice field... No it is not Valley Ranch band wagoners!! It was at the corner of Forest and Abrams just off of LBJ and it was incredible. There as a kid I watched seffless men give thier heart to a team and a city,,, the thought of them ( any player on the roster ) playing somewhere else was unheard of... And all of the players were human and had feelings for the fans as we did for them. After practice the players would come out in shorts and half shirts,, climb into thier beat up 1975 Chevy Blazers and go home to shower. But when they saw us fresh from Junior High football practice,,, they all stopped and gave us the time to become fans. From Roger Stabauch to Ed Jones....they loved us and they loved this city.... And they were winners,,,even when they lost!!!!!

Now that my sentimental journey is over , I will get to the point. I realize that the game has changed and we are no longer in 1979,, but the Cowboys (players) don't have the same feelings for the legacy of their team that we do. To watch that game end yesterday with a trick play out of desperation sealed it for me.. I think it is gone. The magic of Clint Longley and the Ghost of the man in the Fedora are no longer with the Cowboys. Our team to a man would leave tomorrow if the money was right and they could get way with it!! The only ones that would stay can't play anywhere else ( AND WE HAVE A LOT OF THOSE) no matter what the talent level is , they lack one ingredient,,,,,passion for our city. When we can get it into our heads that we are no ones rival anymore we can start to heal this franchise... when the Redskins came to town in the 1970's it was a fist fight for 60 minutes,... now it's just a game and as our prize QB according to a hammered owner says it's no big deal!!! You would never hear Danny White say that if a loss was the worst thing that ever happened to him he had a pretty good life!!! There is no discipline on this team , there is no leader of this team, there is just confusion as to how to spin the next loss. It is a sad day for our city!!!!!!

The Vote

2010-10-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been 2 years and we are at the mid-term elections. I for one have grown weary of watching the greatest country in the world circle the drain. We have seen all the mafia type pay-offs to the Obama supporters, the only ones who haven't been paid are the American people. With all the Pork that the Obama administration has given out it is no wonder that the Muslims hate us. I just want one person to explain how this has been good,,,, The real unemployment number is around 15%. When all the fake manufactured jobs dry up and we start to look at jobs that were created in the non-government sector, we are failing miserably at recovery. And yet you watch the far left wing get on TV and say it is not true,,, it is like a delusional Meth addict!!!!! And there is Obama handing out the brother handshake like everything is just great!! It is a sad state when the American public is shouting at the top of their lungs and being told we just don't know what is good for us. I for one will vote for REAL CHANGE in the mid-terms and encourage you to do the same!!!!!!

Opening post

2010-10-18T06:22:00.000-07:00

For the first time ever I am going to share my thoughts about life and the goings on around us. I hope you enjoy and comment, I love to look at all side of everything.