The David Wesley Illusion

Almost Worth the Pain

2012-02-26T16:19:00.010-08:00

Ain't it almost worth the sorrow?

Ain't it almost worth the shame?

If the sun don't rise tomorrow

Ain't it almost worth the pain?

She comes tearin' out that old screen door

As he sits there on the couch

He don't think she's been this mad before

And he don't know what it's about

She jumps in the front of his new Ford

Slams that bitch in drive

She ain't dyin', she's been dead before

And she's leaving here alive

Ain't it almost worth the sorrow?

Ain't it almost worth the shame?

If the sun don't rise tomorrow

Ain't it almost worth the pain?

He could chase her if he had her keys;

Would it matter if he did?

She just left him, pretty as you please

With the dog and cat and kid

He calls his mama, 'cause she won't judge

And every other woman lies

She says, “Honey, thank the lord above that you made it out alive."

Ain't it almost worth the sorrow?

Ain't it almost worth the shame?

If the sun don't rise tomorrow

Ain't it almost worth the pain?

He believes she'll turn that truck around

Before she hits the county line

It isn't that she doesn't love him now

She just needs to feel alive

Ain't it almost worth the sorrow?

Ain't it almost worth the shame?

If the sun don't rise tomorrow

Ain't it almost worth the pain?

Instinctively Reactive

2012-02-13T16:54:00.000-08:00

This mountain seems a little higher than it used to

This fountain seems a little dryer as well

You might not dream as much as you used to

You wanna scream, but you're tired as hell

Just because they said good night doesn't mean they meant it

Just because they said sweet dreams doesn't mean they wanted them to come true

Time moves slow when you're at the bottom

You wanna go any where else

You think you know, but they say thinking's the problem

Thinking don't put food on your shelves

Just because they said good night doesn't mean they meant it

Just because they said sweet dreams doesn't mean they wanted them to come true

I woke up somewhere in the middle

Of right and wrong and everything else

It seems like life is just some sort of riddle

But each answer leads me back to myself

Just because they said good night doesn't mean they meant it

Just because they said sweet dreams doesn't mean they wanted them to come true

Low Country

2012-02-07T18:37:00.000-08:00

Carolina, where you been?

On a Sunday afternoon with the rain pooring down

I can remember, but I couldn't hear a word

This old tin roof drowns out the sound

Stay here with me

and let's begin

Lay here with me

And play pretend

This could all be real...

Love, if the stars shine bright and the moon is above

Or we could both fall

And shatter into a million peices

or nothing at all

Stay here with me
and let's begin
Lay here with me
And play pretend

This could all be real...

Not just some lullaby or fairy tale

You know I feel a little more and more each time

Each time you lay with me

Lay here with me

and let's begin

Stay here with me (stay with me)

And play pretend

This could all be real...

On a Sunday Morning in Valdosta Long Ago

2011-03-30T18:15:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning...

I stepped outside

I woke up this morning...

I'm still alive

I woke up this morning...

I feel alright

Oh, you should have seen me Saturday night.

I drank a long, tall, cold one...

We tossed a bottle of wine

We smoked a big, old, fat one...

Just to pass the time

And when I woke up this morning...

Everything was alright

But oh, you should have see me Saturday night...

It's Saturday night

Everything ought to turn out alright

It's Saturday night

And the world ought to get by just fine just like me...I'm fine

I woke up this morning...

At half past nine

I woke up this morning...

And then I changed my mind

I woke up this morning...

I guess I'll be alright

But oh, you should have been there Saturday

Oh, we had a good time Saturday

Yeah, you missed a good one Saturday night...

A July Kind of Love

2010-07-20T20:13:00.000-07:00

You waited for a week or so

To walk in to the fire, back into the show

This July air is thick enough to suffocate

You broke down on the side of the road

Your car was fine. Your heart, who knows?

These July nights are hot enough to incinerate

Maybe in Autumn?

Maybe you'll fall?

Maybe he's hoping you're hoping he'll call?

It's a little different tonight

It doesn't feel the same

You're a little distant this time

Darling, it's a shame

This is a July kind of love,

hotter than hell. Dear Lord above,

Why do summer flings last long enough to hurt?

Maybe in Winter?

Maybe next Spring?

Maybe he hopes you hope your phone rings?

Atlantis

2010-07-20T19:36:00.001-07:00

On an island in the sea

Full of hope for you and me

I once imagined I should be

With you in Atlantis

Hearts filled with love and song

You make me feel like I belong

And I knew I'd not go wrong

With my heart in Atlantis

As light fades some love does too

With you and I it seemed untrue

I knew that I would stay with you

Forever in Atlantis

But as tides rose and our hearts sank

From an empty cup of life we drank

And all my thoughts of you are blank

Gone down with Atlantis

Into These Dark Places...

2010-07-20T19:20:00.000-07:00

If I poured my soul into a cup

Would it even fill it up?

Sometimes I feel like life

Is just a little less than not enough

So I bleed these words on this page

jotting little bits of rage

If that's not good enough

I'll set myself on fire up on stage

And burn this whole world to the ground

Waiting on you to make a sound

I search for something good,

But nothing is all I've found

While I watch my shadow on the wall

Hoping I never get that call

1:38 a.m.

Wonder if I'll sleep at all

Right now I'm even scared of dreams

Wound tight and bursting at the seems

I close my eyes but in the silence

I can almost hear the screams...

Monday Through Friday

2010-07-20T15:42:00.000-07:00

The sky is all but melting

As light breaks free from prison

Reflecting fractions distort

Like they're bending through a prism

I am staring at a mirror

It's a window to a man

That I don't think I really know,

But try to understand

Somewhere back behind him

A voice whispers "Remember"

And fear grips cold, like raindrops

Falling down in mid-December

But it's summer where I'm standing

Hearts are light though air is not

There's a weight to the humidity

Pressing down as it gets hot

Now I look out of my window

As the morning passes by

The trees all seem to mock me

While the clouds all start to cry

Somewhere in the distance

A voice whispers "Forget"

And for the life of me

I don't know what it meant

The sun is at it's highest point

Polar opposite of me

I am only half of

What this day demands of me

A puncher's chance this could be beautiful

Smallest hope or largest dare?

No matter who we try to fool

We are the ones who are still there

Somewhere deep inside me

A voice screams "Run and hide!"

I say I will, but then I don't

I think it knows I lied

Disappearing out of sight

The way that I should go

Do all the things I'm sure are right

Limit what I know?

I made it out alive and well

Running for my life

The hands now slice the clock in two

Cut my day with a knife

Standing right in front of me

A voice say "Welcome home"

And I know where I'm at is

Better than where I am from

Little Koala

2010-07-20T15:31:00.000-07:00

I hope this finds you when you're sleeping

And sunlight's creeping in and filling up your room.

I hope you need this a little more when

You're starting to feel lonely, because I don't want you to.

I hope this finds you when you're crying

And brings a little smile to lighten up your mood.

'Cause I'll be with you in a while and until I am

You know I'm missing you.

I love the worst and the best of you

I don't want anything less than you

I want it all or whatever's left of you

I'm in love with the worst and the best of you

I hope you know that when I'm sleeping

I don't want to dream of anyone but you.

I want to show you what I'm thinking

When I'm thinking of forever, I always think of you.

And I mean every word I say when I tell you

That I love you and I pray you love me too.

I am grateful everyday, because I know I don't deserve you,

I pray you don't learn it too.

I love the worst and the best of you

I don't want anything less than you

I want it all or whatever's left of you

I'm in love with the worst and the best of you

(I know that

I may be the luckiest man

And I hope

My luck don't ever change.)

I love the worst and the best of you

I don't want anything less than you

I want it all or whatever's left of you

I'm in love with the worst and the best of you

Hollywood

2010-07-20T15:22:00.000-07:00

If I ever get out of here,

I ain't ever comin' back.

I will go so far so fast,

you'll wonder where I'm at.

If I listed the things I've lost,

I'd probably miss my mind the most.

But once I'm out in Hollywood,

I am never going to leave the coast.

You say,

"Life is but a dream."

I pray

It's better than it seems,

Today

'cause I just want to scream

Wake me up!

If you were my hero,

Would you always save the day.

Or would you be a shooting star,

Flash and fade away.

If I wasn't a zero,

You'd probably hear the words I say.

But once I'm out in Hollywood,

It won't matter anyway.

You say,

"Life is but a dream."

I pray

It's better than it seems,

Today

'cause I just want to scream

Wake me up!

Shipwreck

2010-07-20T07:42:00.001-07:00

I know

You're navigating

Do you know where we are?

I've been

Patiently waiting

While you follow your star

(and as time passes by

tell me what do you see

when you look in my eyes

hate me now)

I will follow you down

You can take me, but you can't push me around.

You may break me, but just don't leave me to drown.

Don't you

Think we should turn back

Before we can't find our way?

If we've

Hit the rocks you should know that

I always wanted to stay

(And as time passes by

tell me how will it be

will I sink while you fly

Hate me now)

I will follow you down

You can take me, but you can't push me around.

You may break me, but just don't leave me to drown.

Bar Nights

2010-07-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

sober silence scares us

so we walk into the ever

eager doors and arms

windows of opportunity

open and close with

each passing phrase or

clever quip as afterthoughts

mount and lights flash

and hearts pound out

rhythms killing silence

night defining day blending

each together inebriated

masquerades as encounters

fly and fall shine and fade

turn away each and all in turn

as the midnight oil burns and

bursts the room in flames

find each other lose ourselves

and our minds not that it matters not now

we just beg that time slows down

friends created lost sedated

never scared to buy that

which is not freely given

sacrifice on the alter of obsession

depressed but not depressing

empty never hollow

promises made lives enhanced

briefly dim lights providing shade

'til the sounds end lights steady

room slows empties sighs releases

into silence which is

no longer sober

Birmingham

2010-07-20T07:22:00.000-07:00

I was Eastern Time Zone bound

Headed back from the lost and found

When some man on the radio said, "Son, you need to learn to stand your ground."

And I'll learn to stand my ground.

I've done gone and lost my way.

I hope it'll show back up someday.

Before some man in the sky says, "Son, You need to learn to fly away."

And I'll learn to fly away.

It's some time late on Tuesday night-

Everything wrong could have turned out right

A man on the television says, "Son, you need to learn to see the light."

And I'll learn to see the light.

I make my way back home to you.

The going is slow, but I push on through.

While some man is telling me now, "Son, you need to learn to sing the blues."

And I'll learn to sing the blues.

Lullaby

2010-07-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

A ghost of you

Rises up and scares me

And sends me spinning into

The darkness of outer space

And worst of all

The thought that terrifies me

Is the certainty I have

That I can never see your face

So tuck me in

Tell me everything's gonna be alright

Won't you sing

Me a lullaby tonight?

Now you're missin'

And I can't listen

To a single song playing

On my radio

The fact you're leaving

Keeps me from breathing

And I don't really think

I don't really think

It's safe for me to be left alone

So tuck me in

Tell me everything's gonna be alright

Won't you sing

Me a lullaby tonight?

Shadows creep up

The corners of my room

And I am left here wondering

Is this happening to you?

So tuck me in

Tell me everything's gonna be alright

Won't you sing

Me a lullaby tonight?