tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56082104512255728402026-02-14T19:02:14.003-05:00Is a little spot situated between two treesTGDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01787370282987477869noreply@blogger.comBlogger88125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5608210451225572840.post-15325669477117690112021-02-18T13:54:00.001-05:002021-02-23T12:37:59.207-05:00

 A quick show of hands.  Who is still following this blog?   (leave a comment)I know it's a weird question since  the last time I posted was just over 5 years ago.  Now that Facebook, Twitter and other social networks have taken over and people are not likely to get any notification when I do post here, I'm just wondering who actually swings buy here to check up

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Well, needless to say...wait, if it's needless to say then why say it? I'm going to ramble on with a few things.  For people who are interested in where I'm at, read on.  The rest of you who don't know me will probably not care.  It's one of those types of posts where I'm not writing anything thought provoking.  This is more of a journal entry.  So, with that being said.

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Hello, blog.  It's been a while.  Many things have happened, many changes, and many things still the same.I've found a huge level of happiness over the years since coming out of the closet, leaving the LDS church, and essentially taking control over my own life.  I feel like I've grown up a lot, especially in the past year.  I started and ended one of the worst relationships

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I can't ever seem to shake the feeling that I'm always late to the party.  Whenever I show up, it seems everyone has had their fun and on their way home.  This isn't fully literal in the sense that I'm going to a physical party, it's just a way for me to express how I feel about coming out so late in life.  Not just coming out to the world, but coming out to myself.  And not

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After over 4 years and 4 Christmas holidays not setting foot in Utah, I went back to Utah to visit this year, and become reacquainted with family and the changes that have taken place with everyone and myself.  That being said, I ended up at Starbucks for at least one day.   I actually like Starbucks, I was just hoping for something of a local flavor.  Fat chance it seemed in

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Q: So, do you think God created us or did we create God? A: We created the god who created us.

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It does go without saying that it has been a while since I've written anything on this blog.  My last post doesn't count because I was reposting something I originally wrote for Facebook.  But, it was something that should have been posted here. Things in life have a way of changing.  I haven't been all that busy, but I have been remarkably lost in activities of distraction, which

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I originally posted this on Facebook on December 21, 2012.  Happy Winter Solstice everyone. Today marks the dawning of a new year.  For me, it's a time to re-evaluate what is important to me and work toward better awareness and alignment of what I believe vs. what I truly value. Each day is a step in a direction.  Not necessarily forward, but a step nonetheless.  And when

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It's my nemesis. 

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Even so, I still don't like to cook.

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2012 has been kicking my ass.  And yet, I feel stronger now.  At least I feel strong when I'm not actually feeling hopeless.     I started off 2012 just diving right in to some of the most intense social situations I've ever had.  I wanted to push myself to get out there, overcome my shyness, meet people, and make new friends, get connected to others and be

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Lots of discussion going around on Facebook, on blogs, amongst distant friends in distant cites and elsewhere, all talking about all the great people in their lives, all of the wonderful dates they have been on all the wonderful support and sex they have with their dates, partners and spouses. The envy, the jealousy, is difficult.  I do not like being alone,  I do not like going

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At the second coming of Christ, when all are resurrected, I imagine there will be great justice when Jesus walks up to Joseph Smith, restored in flesh and blood, and kicks him in the crotch. At which point, Christ will show his great love and mercy by allowing the rest of us to do the same.

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In paraphrase: SG: "So if gay marriage is legal, what's next?  People are going to want to marry their horse?"    OG: "Why in the hell would I marry my horse?  I already own the god damn thing?"  

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This.

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A sure fire way to affect change in a difficult emotional thinking pattern is to state it.  Give it voice. Put it into words, whether spoken or written.  And sure enough, whatever beliefs that arise out of that exercise will suddenly dissolve; especially if that belief was not formed from a rational headspace.    I don't know why that is.  But it is why I write in

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I would love to say that my story with horses has come to a wonderful conclusion.  I dearly love them as I love all animals, but I haven't been able to reconcile my past experiences as well as my new found ones.  I still feel at times ignorant and undeserving of the knowledge and still a bit frustrated that I'm not as good of a horsemen that my fellow riders are.  I'm also insanely

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My older brother affectionately called them Dumbass and Shithead.  Euphemistic terms of endearment I'm sure.  And in many ways, a direct reflection of how our dad thought of us as kids.  But the horses' real names were Stormy and Lancer.  Stormy was whitish in color. Lancer, a much younger sibling to Stormy, was black.  I wasn't a fan of most horse names.  I usually

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I haven't posted in a long time.  I've been stuck in a sort of a midway point between, "It's too esoteric to post, besides who am I that anyone would care about the strange things in my mind?"  to  "I wish there were people out there who could understand me in all the forms that I inhabit." It's self defeating in that I'll never find those people because I just can't bring myself

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So, the Internet is all a buzz over the 9th Circuit Court ruling overturning Prop 8 in California.   So much is being written about its details and specifics that I don’t think I need to add anything to it.  This is such a bittersweet moment.  I'm happy and I'm sad at the same time. The talks, discussions, arguments and yes, even the insane, bigoted, demonizing rants from

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Well, controversy!  It appears that Cynthia Nixon has been saying things that have gotten a few people in a tizzy in the past about the concepts of choice and homosexuality.  And now, this recent article has brought that all back in to the discussion again.  (The money quote can be found in context on page 3 of the article.) I gave a speech recently, an empowerment speech to a

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The first version of results regarding the LGBT Mormon Survey has been released. Contains explanations about the charts released in the prelim results. Please click here: Version 1 of LDS SSA study newsletter now available (Previous reference: Prelim Results of LGBT Mormon Survey )

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This post is about my anger, frustration, pain, anxiety, fear and all that baggage that is associated with my inability to know what to say about my dear sweet friend who attempted suicide yesterday.  But before I get into my shit, I want to direct you to Mr. Doodle's: Top 10 Reasons Why I Left the Church Top 10 Reasons Why I Came Back to the Church Feel free to leave Mr. Doodle a comment

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UPDATE (Jan 7, 2012): Version 1 of LDS SSA study newsletter now available Some preliminary results are in for the Utah State University conducted LGBT Mormon Survey. Please click here: Preliminary Results of LDS-SSA Survey Now Available (Previous reference:  LGBT Mormon Survey)

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Why don't I write here anymore?  I think a part of me doesn't want to answer that question here.  It's not safe anymore.  After all this time, all these months, I've realized that I've been bullied to keeping my mouth shut about some aspects of my life.  The realm of my mind that needs a voice doesn't have an understanding ear.   And I'm sick and tired of trying to

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