The Grumpy and Sleepyhead

Latest Make Up Try

2012-01-19T16:09:00.001+01:00

No one wants to be defeated -Jacko

2012-01-06T08:30:00.002+01:00

Sneak Peek for the latest photoshoot

2011-12-22T14:04:00.001+01:00

Another Selca :p

2011-12-12T04:33:00.004+01:00

Pardon me for my narcissm.

Getting Better

2011-12-12T03:41:00.000+01:00

Getting better in putting on make up for myself. Yippieee :)

Before The Sun Sets In

2011-12-05T12:53:00.003+01:00

Got much sun-tanned but, it was pretty okay. Getting fatty belly? That was also fine. The pictures indicate that the person in it was pretty happy back there..

SUMMER in SPAIN, YEAR 2010.

Blue as a Sky, Fly like a Bird

2011-12-05T12:32:00.002+01:00

If only I did came over to Listz's Museum while having Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix's whole album on my iPod that time. I was riding a boat that crosses a beautiful tiny river in the middle of busy city that time in France. But having them in my ear, was a perfect, relaxing, moment of all time :)

I was..

2011-12-02T08:22:00.000+01:00

a little happier ..back there :(

The Song That Once Was Really Beautiful

2011-12-01T11:35:00.003+01:00

Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26, 000 feet, moving
Up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
All the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringing you some in-flight
Entertainment. One of our first-class passengers would like to sing you a song
Inspired by one of our coach passengers, and since we let our first-class
Passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

This song was once really beautiful that day, when you sang it to me in your little kosan in a rainy day, it was us and your guitar. I knew you meant it to me, though now it seems pretty........

MEINE HAARE :'(

2011-11-18T15:33:00.001+01:00

I want my long hair back :(

Berlin

2011-11-01T05:43:00.002+01:00

I listened to Akira Kosemura's album while walked down the street in the central city district of Berlin city.

Going Where The Wind Blows

2011-11-01T04:30:00.004+01:00

The most original thing I experienced while living abroad was the public transportation. I can bear to miss everything but the trains, the buses, the streets, the Fußgängerzone for pedestrian. I can't just forget the sensation of breezy air in Autumn, crystal snow that fell down in Winter, beautiful flowers that bloom in Spring and the clear blue sky and the cotton clouds in Summer while looking out of the window's train. I always enjoyed the moment back when I was busy with school and my so-called-part time work, and the only me-time I could enjoy was when I walk home after school and walk through the stairs up that took me 10 minutes to get to finally home. Actually I lived in a really beautiful place, up hill. And I will never forget the view that Wiesloch had been represented for me through Juliusblick 40.

These 4 pictures are those that best describe them :)

I WANNA GET OUT OF HERE

2011-10-11T05:09:00.001+02:00

Things get crumpled. And I suddenly miss being a single-living-person. I want to go to a place only God knows. I ...dont feel happy.

brainless

2011-09-25T20:06:00.000+02:00

I don't wanna think anymore.

I can barely close my eyes, but still, sleepless.

2011-09-25T19:57:00.003+02:00

It hurts myself, seeing you're hurting like this, I am literally drowned in an endless pain. I really hope things will turn out fine.

2011-09-25T19:46:00.002+02:00

In My Life

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

This song represents anything that I wanna feel or say. To the one, I only can wish right now. May God leads the way for us to be again happy, someday.
I miss you so much, I can only barely breath.

Domino Effect

2011-09-23T07:19:00.005+02:00

Yesterday I spent a day full at my campus, so I went back home quite at late. I drive everyday to my campus for about 20km (x2) a day, but it's not a tiring thing since I'm always driving through the highway.

And then yesterday, I was just driving out from the toll gate, and there it was a very long queue, and I might have to inform you that my house, well I live just not far from the gate, it's like 3 minutes more driving then voila, there it is, ma maison. It wasn't surprising tho, because the district where I live in, is really famous with its road-jammed everywhere. But there was something that caught in mind, unexpectedly, I thought about those 'abang - abang asongan' who sell several kinds of snacks, ciggies, and drinks.That very time was prolly the best time out of the day, for them, apparently. I came in to a thinking where I wasn't able to curse, and complain how tired I was and how badly I long for home after a long tiring day at campus. It's not that I was just becoming a highly religious person by thanking God how lucky I am, well that was something I thought about, too ( a little ). But the most interesting part is when I thought, how difficult is earning money nowadays. I'm gonna tell you a little detail, where I let 'pak ogah jadi - jadian' who are in an instance dividing, duplicating whatsoever into a new found clan of 'mang mang ogah', and they were irresistibly MUCH, they're like 10 or something, well the road was exceedingly jammed by the very minimum road capacity that is not enough suitable for the vehicle growth that is annoyingly high in Bandung, city where I live.

Well, back again into the view that I was telling you about, as you know, people in Indonesia, mostly don't know anything about queueing, by the time I was just getting out from the toll gate and led out my way to get behind the (very) long car queue, I saw plenty cars behind me were trying (forcing) to cut off few cars in front of me. At first I was like, what the hell! Get in the fucking line, will you?! But then I saw them unsuccesfully tucked their car in to my line. Eat that. I thought I'm going to see them waiting or take another road, turn to the left and make a detour afterwards, and then maybe cut another queue from the other side of the road and be good drivers by getting in to the queue (btw, I forgot to tell you it was kind of a 3 way intersection, will let you know the details by posting up sum explanation pictures).

But then they were trying to get in the forbidden road that was blocked by the police, a funny view then came in a glimpse, those 'mang mang ogah' were trying them by removing the barrier (Idk how heavy it was), and then let the uncountable naughty cars to get in the road, and just CUT OFF the whole 3 other lines those were queueing patiently before the intersection, I was like speechless, and it was just before my eyes.

And then, I came into a thinking that, nowadays it's supposedly hard for the midlow-class-people in my country just to earn money to fulfill their daily needs. Some said, rules are made to be broke off. But for even trying to obey the traffic rules by helping to diminish the traffic jam and earn the money they need from the vehicle users..., they were instead 'menghalalkan segala cara' for just a little amount of money they earned.

As I have tweeted before, I think my country has every single thing that everyone around the world needs. We are very rich, ridiculously rich ......actually. Until God (who was in a good joking mood when He created this country), put only IDIOTS in our government. I became a bit critical about this whole damn thing. Never-ending- bribery cases, forever lasting CORRUPTIONS, fraud, embezzlement of funds, illegal gratuities, and economic extortion and so on, who are everyday being informed by the media, are things that WE ARE TIRED TO HEAR ABOUT!! I am scared of being skeptical about my country, I never want to get drowned in the valley of pessimistic thinking. I might be no one who ever contributed something to my dear country, but I'm also scared of losing the hope, of 'seeing the sunshine after this whole storm' in my country. Corruptors in my country are being spoiled very much, they can go wherever they want to escape the law, well, our law isn't something that I could say dependable. You can bribe the judge if you want to. Those fraud fugitives, are getting caught happily spending their time in Columbia, after managing to spread things about disability from the performance of one of the most famoust party in Indonesia.

Those money were wasted on these kind of stupid things, while our midlow class people are everyday and night trying to struggle with their lives. It's just funny seeing those idiots are still occupy the whole power in Indonesia. This whole pandemic is seemingly hard to resist, yet I myself can do nothing about it. The theory behind those motives of corruptions, fraud, etc are the consumerism in Indonesia, which is believe to promote greed, may cause the offenders to live beyond their means. The fraudulent are being resorted to boost their income, and looking proud in front of others.

These perceptions, are beyond helpless (there again I'm being sceptic). There is no more consciences from the leaders of this country left. Those people will only concern about their personal interests rather than making this country a better place for its people. All of these things I have been babbled about, are the main cause of the domino effect that is happening in this country.

Malicious Leader > Helpless People (who will try anything to continue their lives, even if they're going to involve themselves in crime, and other things)
All of these, will only lead into one point someday, being defeated by the desire of fulfilling personal interest for the moment..

Hopefully you guys understand what I am talking about, it's just, me, a simple person who's getting tired day by day, seeing things that are just not supposed to be that way.

A Little Touch in Here and There

2011-09-18T17:53:00.002+02:00

So I went to my fiance's cousin's wedding, who happened to be a senior in my highschool. I just love how Resa took me in these picture, and the bouquet was very pretty. Can't help taking pictures! Lol.

Keeping in mind

2011-08-22T15:51:00.001+02:00

Love how he was taken in this photo :)

2011-08-19T07:03:00.000+02:00

Snap!

2011-08-19T05:57:00.003+02:00

It was almost 2 years ago, I spent almost everyday blogging and stay in this lovely room in Juliusblick 40, Wiesloch - Heidelberg, Germany. It has always been a cup of Indonesian instant coffee and me alone in the room trying to figure out what I am through writing. And it is becos I've finally arrived in my final year of my bachelor program just NOW, think I might have enough time to take care of my blog again. Thru this, I know what I am passionate at, and I'm satisfied with it.

Snobbish Attitude

2011-08-18T17:14:00.004+02:00

I think I might just got annoyed by people who tend to classifically write things about other people. I don't like the way they judge others just based on what they do, or what they don't do. Just because they got praised by a lot of people for doing such cool, or noble things, I don't think that they have the rights to not to keep their head down. Snobbish, and over-confident, and all, I just don't like the idea of bragging themselves while looking down to others. Being proud is not the same thing as being snob, clearly. You might have everything that almost everyone wants, but still, don't look down to other people just because you have more. It's getting more tiring looking at yourself talking how ridiculously good you are yet people like me still have to deal with your attitude. Your snobbish personality comes in all shapes, colors, size, and backgrounds. Snobbish people can be uppity about any number of things, from wealth and material items to music and movies, even to things like brands of wine and types of food. The most deluded person I've ever found on twitter, was one who wrote the head-to-toe brands that (s)he uses everyday, just to make us figure out how filthy rich (s)he is.

Well, getting more annoyed by reading such things, I think I might found one way of dealing with snobs. It is to speak with them about their snobbish behavior and let them know how obnoxious it can be. But if the confrontational route isn't for them, there are other methods you can try, such as avoiding snobby people altogether. Like I did, I did unfollow that person long time ago, and it turns out better for me, not to have to read those deluded stuffs on my twitter timeline. Or, if they're purposefully being a snob, question some of their more egregious comments in an attempt to understand the snob's point of view. Counter with your own viewpoint to create an ongoing dialogue (if it's necessary).

Why do I have to put this on my blog?
Confront the snob by announcing how much I dislike snobbery, I would like to speak here clearly, calmly and articulately about how ugly and obnoxious snobbery can be, and how those who engage in such behavior tend to be insecure. This approach may cause snobs some embarrassment and could cause a few uncomfortable moments, particularly if others are also involved in this articles or to those who are paying attention of this person (or know who might this person be). :P

Snobs are people who need to inflate their own egos in order to feel successful and look beautiful. Do not give into their ego.

It's okay to brag things once in a while, especially those proudful things you did, and you'd like it to be announced to the whole world, it is totally okay. It's also okay to brag your new cars, once in a while, because buying cars is not like buying peanuts (clearly). It is also okay to brag your good notes, because you earned it! It's totally okay to sometimes brag about your sweet boyfriend/ girlfriend, because you love them. But it is not appropriate when you intend to brag things you have, just look down to other people. It is not okay to under-estimate other people, esp people who don't know you, both ways.

Thought that this one would be helpful for you who are dealing with snobs, and for snobs who are dealing with other people.

Get offend if you are one of the snobs! :)

Last Photoshoot

2011-08-18T16:26:00.003+02:00

Photographer : Bayu Seno @baybyebuy

The end of the MRT

2011-08-18T16:04:00.003+02:00

We went to sumwhere quite beautiful, although we only spent 10 minutes there :p don't blame us, we were totally tired caused by excessive walking for the past day. (and excessive playing at the park, too) :p :p :p

When 2 Become 1

2011-08-18T15:47:00.004+02:00

Well, Petronas Twin- Tower was kind of interesting. Because we don't have it yet in Indonesia, I feel kind of envy with Malaysian. But it wasn't worth the queue, you gotta get there literally early to get in the almost 3hours queue. I don't know, I feel like it was such a waste of time. But the tower was really modern-looking-sophisticated.