Baby You Light Up My World Like Nobody Else

Another celebrity crush of the year

2012-02-05T14:49:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers!

So it's February now! January has been such a longgg month for me to go through though, but I'm somehow glad that it's over now. Why does it feels so long anyway? Perhaps it's because of the tonnes of workloads like assignments and stuffs.

Oh ya btw, I just lost my book. My small note book which I use to write and list down all my to-do list, assignments, presentations, etc apart from lecture's notes. It is a very important book for me as I always bring it everywhere I go. But now I don't know how I lost it. I probably misplaced it somewhere but I don't know where exactly did I misplace it. I've searched everywhere for it in my house but it was nowhere in sight. I think I left the book at the hall where we have the Taklimat Penerapan UiTM last Friday. I think. I am no so sure. =(

I am not really in the mood to do my assignments because of the book. I rely so much on the book but now it is gone, I feel incomplete. Let's just hope I can just get over this thing quickly alright?

And this is another frustrating news I just received from my course mates and also my lecturer which is that we are going to finish our Foundation studies on the last day of final examination, 25th of March, 2012. I am not sure whether this is still a rumor or it already is a news. The sad thing is that, I have booked my flight to go back on the 4th OF APRIL YOU SEE, 4th!!! Which is a long gap from 25th of March!! I was expecting the examination to finish on the 1st of April the least. What am I going to do? How am I going to spend my 10 extra 'holidays' here in Kuantan before going back to Kuching? I have been anticipating to come home as quickly as possible but turned out to be the LAST one who will be going back. Nooooooooo =( Whyyyyy why is this life so unfair, why is my life so fucked up, whyyyy? *dramatic*

But anyway, the good thing is that my Dad is going to be here in Kuantan with me for 4 days before going back to Kuching together! Now this, is great. He will be coming to Kuantan with my Grandma on the 1st of April and will be visiting all my relatives here in Kuantan and Sungai Lembing especially, and we'll be going back together on the 4th. But I don't think i'm going to follow them visiting because I still kind of need to pack my belongings. But I don't know, to think about it I still have like a few days to pack even before the 1st of April, so I might as well have my things packed before the 1st of April and then spend the rest of the first four days of April with my Dad, visiting the elders. ~~April-fooling everyone~~ ~~and stuffs.~~ Whatever it is, I will find some ways on how to work this things out. We'll see how it goes. =)

So, this is my plan for now. And my entry for now. I need to fill in the desire of my stomach which is now jamming for food. But before that, I would like to tell you that I am having a huge celebrity crush on

LIAM JAMES PAYNE FROM ONE DIRECTION!!!!

Most people like Zayn Malik, that dark hot guy. He's good looking though but I am more to this cute, dimpled guy Liam Payne and his British slang, he is so cool like that~ I don't know, I always have a crush on less-favoured guy. Maybe. But rumors held that he has a girlfriend already. Which ~~makes my heart broken into pieces like a fragile crystal~~ Okay I'm being dramatic again.

It's rare to find me having a Western celebrity crush, you see. Except for Micheal Trevino, Chris Zylka and Ian Somerhalder. I can't beat my friends who have deep obsessions over Greyson Chance, Justin Bieber, Robert Pattinson and other Hollywood guys. I rarely have this kind of crush. It's really RARE, I think my closed ones almost get sick listening to me mentioning all the Asian people's names, those Korean celebrities 24/7 instead. =D

Here's his picture;

My Virgo heartthrob, Liam James Payne from One Direction!

His charm is intriguing but his smile gets me overwhelmed!! That's what makes him beautiful OH-OH!!!! :P

Hey, we are of the same age, you see, we might as well elope to somewhere and get married. I'm sure the destiny is somewhere to be found. luls

Isn't he cute and adorable???? He is my knight of shining armor!

Who's your celebrity crush? Don't tell me it's Liam Payne too!!! :P

Who's in the coffin?

2012-01-23T04:31:00.001+08:00

Hello readers!

Well I'm kind of being very curious on TVD Season 3 recently. I don't think I'm the only one who keep thinking about this, well as a fan who actually follows Season 3 of TVD would have the same thing in their minds as mine! :P

I am very curious on WHO is the person that Klaus kept in the coffin? Why can't it be opened?

I think that the person in the coffin is the original petrova doppelganger. I once read from some sources and came into an info regarding the first doppelganger in the Petrova bloodline - Charlotte Petrova.

This original Petrova must be someone important to Klaus and Elijah at that time.. Maybe before they even became vampires.

Maybe Klaus loved Charlotte (the original petrova doppelganger) and Elijah loved her too. And as soon as Klaus became a vampire and also a werewolf, he wanted to break the curse. The witches dislike Klaus (he said so himself, probably because the witches knew for long that he killed his mother, idk) so they put a curse on Klaus and in order to break the curse, he must have the moonstone, he must rip out a werewolf's heart, stake a vampire at the heart and also sacrifice a doppelganger and drink her blood. They thought that Klaus wouldn't want to kill the one that he loved but did not expect that he would go that far, killing Charlotte. And since Klaus believed in the witches that the doppelganger has to die, Klaus failed to become a hybrid even after Charlotte was killed, so he waited for another doppelganger which is Katherine. Elijah who loved Charlotte did not want Katherine to experience the same death as Charlotte did so he wanted to help Katherine escape but in a dilemma because it was his brother's need.

Doesn't this make sense? After Klaus could not succeed in sacrificing Katherine upon knowing that she had turned into a vampire so he gave up, killing all her family members. But when he find out about Elena he wanted to do the ritual. It was lucky for Elena to be alive again and Klaus figured out about everything (about the witches lied to him about the doppelganger curse) then finally could sire his own hybrids using Elena, the doppelganger's blood.

Remember when Katherine first met Elijah and he said "I'm sorry, you remind me of someone" and soon they have sort of a romantic relationship before Katherine escaped. In the same episode, Elijah said that he and Klaus used to fall in love before. It could be that both of them fell in love with the same girl (Charlotte Petrova). Rebekah in the third season said "the Original was much more pretty" and in episode 5 of season 3, Rebekah asked "is that what this is about? You obsession with hybrids, you just don’t want to be alone?" and Klaus replied "what I want, is to take my girl, my hybrid the hell out of this one pony town." That 'my girl' might refer to the one he still keeps in his coffin, and it could be the Original Petrova doppelganger.

However this is not a SPOILER - it is merely my instinct after the somewhat spoilers- reading thing and after I gathered all the relevant clues and made up my own theory. Anyway, let's just wait and see what happen in the upcoming episodes. Gosh, this is getting really exciting with much more of Delena scenes and the appearances of the Originals!

I wish the endings would be like this;

Klaus - Charlotte Petrova (or if she died, I prefer him to be forever alone lol)

Stefan - Rebekah/Katherine

Damon - Elena hehehehe I'm Delena biased!

Elijah - holding a crush on Katherine maybe but keeps it to himself. In other words, a forever loner lol =D

Caroline - Tyler

Bonnie - Matt

Jeremy - Anna? is there any way to make her re-alive again?

Alaric - Dr. Fell

They they would live happily ever after =)

Farewell 2011. Bonjour 2012!

2012-01-12T03:27:00.001+08:00

Hello Readers! =D

Well, actually this is an overdue post. I was supposed to write this last week or before that but I just have the time to write it now.

So, my 2011 ended well. All's well ends well I guess. So what have I accomplished in 2011? Let's see or the memories and accomplishments I've made during this one whole year:

January - Go through a month being a house maid

February - Organized Gathering Dinner for 5 Terbilang classmates. Received compliments from the teachers for the well-organized event. Thanks for the helps, buddies! ^_^

March - Esther's birthday. Got my SPM results on that day too and achieved what I wanted =)

April - Applied UPU, Maktab, Politeknik & Went for Umrah. Which was unforgettable and wonderful. <3

May - Attended Maktab interview, got offer to study Foundation in Law at Kuantan. Got offer from matriks as well. Alhamdulillah what a victorious month I had =)

June - Furthered my studies in Law at Kuantan. Had my interview approved but I have to reject it for my Foundation studies. Celebrated my birthday with housemates <3

July - A month for assignments and mid semester break. Dad visited me in Kuantan and we roamed Kuantan together XD

August - Got to go home to celebrate Raya with friends and families <3

September - Final exams!

October - Semester break for one month plussss =D And sat for MUET speaking test.

November - Got my finals result and I got into DL. Weee <3

December - Pretty lame at first but ended nicely. Visited my parents and Nania in KL <3

So that was how it goes. Somehow I can see that 2011 has been a long year to go through, maybe that was a year where I first experiencing how does it feels like to be distant from people I love. Furthering my studies in Kuantan made me leave my loved ones behind. Maybe distance motivated me so much that I got what I aimed for. I thank Allah for making 2011 a victorious and memorable year for me. =)

So how about 2012? It just started and I could say, it was horrible at first and even now, but something happened today that makes me feel happy and that it makes me feel that January has done something good for me, at least one good thing for the beginning of the year. I started my 2012 by having to say goodbye to my parents at KL Sentral, and accidentally sprained my ankle. Assignments overloaded, short tests, presentations, forum presentations, and I'm still working on these things except for ONE short tests (out of how many I don't know) and also our forum presentation.

And just now, I just got my MUET result and Alhamdulillah, I managed to get Band 4, which is considered a minimum requirement to pursue my Degrees in Law. I thank Allah so much for this. I thank Him so much that I will perform my Nazar soon. Thank you Allah. =)

However I feel sorry for some of my friends who did not managed to get through it. I am happy for myself, but it is not joyful enough because my friends, who are the ones that help me and be with me in going through this ordeal, could not survive in this ordeal themselves. I feel sorry because I don't know how to make them happy. Success is nothing if your loved ones are hurting. Dear Allah, please make them feel better. Make them feel happy. Dear friends, don't be sad. It't just the beginning and like what I always say, you don't know what Allah has decided for you to work on. He knows what's the best for you and your future. Success is on your way, only you don't know when is it going to happen, it's just a matter of time. You've worked hard and you'll reap what you sow soon. Be optimistic, loves. It is not the end of the world, although Mayan's calendars say 2012 as so. 2012 is not the year for the world to end, but it is a year for you to set on victorious new year resolutions <3

Well for my new year resolutions, I would say that I'm going to continue accomplishing my aims and plans so that I can strike through my wishes in my wishlist, indicating that it has been fulfilled. Somehow I do hope that this year will be another victorious year for me. I pray to Allah so that He will provide me strength, high motivations and love for me to carry on this journey of life. =)

And before I end, I hope it's not too late for me to wish you a

Happy New Year

and

Happy Chinese New Year!!

GONG XI FA CHAI!!

Have a nice weekend and have a wonderful 2012 =)

A Day With The Borneos

2011-12-26T13:03:00.005+08:00

Hello Readers!

Remember I told you about me not going back to Kuching for midsem break and I'm not alone? There are few others who stayed in Kuantan together with me and we're all from the East Malaysia - Sabah and Sarawak. So, during this midsem break we couldn't go back because the plane fares were very expensive that we couldn't afford it. So here we are, all by ourselves in Kuantan when everyone has all gone back to celebrate Christmas and New Year together with their families. This is the disadvantage of studying 'overseas' lol =P

Anyway, yesterday my Borneo course mates and I hang out together to celebrate Christmas. So there were 10 of us, namely: Me, Husna, Efa, Suri, Ayeem, Sadiqi, Kabir, Chris, Bada and Ian. We went to KFC at East Coast Mall for lunch first. It was awkward at first because I never hang out with this bunch of guys before except Chris and Ayeem. But I managed to overcome the awkwardness after a while. They were friendly and very easy-going and I get comfortable with them easier than I expected. Then, Chris, as promised, bought us a big Baskins Robin ice cream oreo cake!

Our very own Santa! but the face is already eaten up by Chris right after this pic was taken =(

But the cake was really hard to be sliced that we have to take turns to divide it equally to everyone. Since the cake was made of ice cream, it melted and that made our table turn into a mess. But it was somehow delicious and appetizing! I think I should show this to Esther, so that she won't brag about her homemade cookies in front of me anymore. hahaha

This is Ayeem. He has the nicest name I've ever heard, seriously. Muhd. Izayyeem Azim :D

This is Christopher Enteri :)

Christmas boys - Christopher Enteri & Christopher Bada slicing the cake :D

Bada and I. We MMSed this photo to our friend, Kibin and he said he missed both of us. awww <3

So, after we had our lunch, all of us walked to MegaMall, another grand shopping mall in Kuantan and it was like few metres away but it was not that far actually. We went there to play games. Bada suggested that we should play bowling but the girls refused. As for me, I've never stepped into a bowling alley before, how can I play? I'm really sorry Bada =(

But Bada was okay with it, hahaha. He said so, I hope he meant it. hehehe. Then we went to archade to play games. I played Daytona but I don't know how to handle the machine and my car moved really slow and I don't know why. Hurrrr I defeated my cousins last time, why I did suck this time?!

I played other things as well. The others seem to enjoy themselves. I played basketball with Bada and think I scored more than him heheh ^0^ But he played really well in Boxing! I was like "whoaa!" the moment he punched the boxing bag.

Chris tried all sort of games he could play. Sadiqi and Kabir played counter strike or something along those lines. The shooting2 thing. Efa, Suri and Ayeem were just wandering and Ian could barely be seen. By me. hahah. Husna and I played a game apart from Daytona, which I don't know what was it called. It was like knocking the devils' popped out heads down or something. It was fun, really, although our wrists hurt after that. Well, it was because we didn't do warm-ups. lol

I don't have much pictures of us in the arcade because it was really dark so there's no point posting it here because it can't be seen anyway. So I just posted random pictures of us while waiting for the next plan.

orang tua lol :P

OK i think this is the only 'clear' picture i could capture in the arcade. This was taken when they played basketball.

That was not enough to be called a day. We went to Apple K for karaoke. This was Bada's second idea and I thought of objecting it again but I pitied him that we've rejected his idea on playing bowling once. However now that I think it again, it was a good thing that I didn't object it because it was super duper funnn!!!! We sang our hearts out although I didn't hold the microphone, but seriously it was superrr epic!! Of course, the ones who conquered the microphone were Bada, Efa and Kabir but singing along with them makes the room more happening and merrier! Two thumbs up to Bada for coming up with this idea, I did not regret it at all! XD

Bada!!!!

Maybe it was because I've never gone karaokae-ing with my best friends because all of us were Queens of Monotone so I've never experienced such fun, only with my cousins because my cousins were all Karaoke addicts. lol

Then..... then we took pictures together at the entrance before going back. It was fun, really! To think about it, at least December has done something good for me. And at least I have a bit of memories with other course mates apart from my housemates during this Foundation studies.

Let me introduce you to some of my course mates if you still don't know :D

This is Efa, my ex-groupmate :D

This is Husna the professional DEBATer :D

This is Kabir

And this is Bada :D

This is Sadiqi

US :)

Ian, Bada and Sadiqi

And the thing to ponder is that, I think 2011 seems to be the longest year I've ever gone through in my entire life. I experienced hardships at the same time I created a lot of beautiful memories so I can say that 2011 is a very meaningful year. Well, every year is, right? But anyway, lets keep the rest for my next entry. I'll talk everything about new year and end year in that upcoming post. Do catch up alright!

Anyway, thanks to my Borneo course mates for the amazing day I had yesterday. Thanks for helping me create the memories at least before we all finish our Foundation studies. Love you guys so much, you people are awesome to the max! =D

That ~~awkward~~ epic moment when we the 'tak balik' people hang out together and had fun! :D

Failed snowing process ruined my to-do-list

2011-12-22T01:55:00.003+08:00

Hello readers :D

So, my weekend is still not over yet, but I have gone through half of it. And it was kinda terrible, really. Apart from having to burn midnight oils for the Economics and Islamic Studies tests, we were bombarded with another unwonted Social Psychology short test. And the tests were conducted one after another, without any gap at all. Okay I was exaggerating. Actually there were a few gaps. After the Social Psychology test, we have like 2 hours to study for Islamic studies. Then we had classes all day up till 11pm. It's late I know, but I think our batch is the only batch in UiTM or probably in other universities that have 29 credit hours, which exceeds the maximum matriculation's credit hours, 21 c.h. That explains my tight schedule. And by the time I reached my room which is on the 4th floor without the elevator , I was really exhausted that I have to FORCE myself to stay up for the Economics test on the next day.

I stayed up and woke up early yesterday and went to the class with that unnoticeable panda eyes I always have during high school stayed-up-moment-of-watching-Korean-drama times. And Husna greeted me with her favourite lines of sarcasm: "You would probably excel in this short test" and "You're as good as the lecturer" luls.

And all in all, I suck in all of the tests, seriously. Like effingly suck. If the tests require the failed ones to commit suicide, I would be honoured to ask for a knife and kill myself at that instant.

Not only that, it has been raining continuously for three days and it causes difficulties for me to move around, especially moving back and forth from Sekilau to Padang Lalang for lectures and tutorial classes which were conducted at these two places. This is what you get when you have a campus which is as small as my primary school, without the canteen and the teachers' headquarters. It feels like moving around in a swimming pool for kids or a wading pool. Added by the non-stop rain which makes me want to enjoy a failed flirting attempt of Bella Swan moment for a while: "I don't like the rain; any cold, wet things, I don't really like it." and on the spur of this moment, can I just love Bella and give her two thumbs up for the Twilight quote?

I should not blame the nature. Forgive me Allah. It's my own fault for always forgetting my expensive Angry Birds umbrella. I think that if the birds were alive, they would have really got angry with me for neglecting them. Apart from that, I have set on my 'Maggi diet' due to the rain and difficulties to move around. I just hope that the Maggi won't give me any serious impact on my brain, hopefully.

But to compare my not so dramatic college life with Esther's I think her November could be awarded the best Drama ever and could even win the Hollywood Film Awards. In some way, I do pity her, but I know she's a strong girl who can go through all the drama because she's a born diva.

Anyway, whatever my hectic college life is going to be in the future, I just hope I can endure it and go through it patiently. Yes you can, strong-willed Dayah. Hwaiting! =D Hey, there isn't much time left for the midsem break! Although it's kinda sad that I'm not going back and even my colleagues who are supposed to celebrate Christmas with their families in Sarawak and Sabah will also be staying here in Kuantan, we have planned to hang out together during Christmas! We'll roam Kuantan and shop till we drop! haha just kidding. XD

Midsem break may not bring any difference for us Sarawakians and Sabahans but we're hoping to create a memory of it, to create at least a bit of memories here during my Foundation studies so that I won't whine about my pathetic Foundation life in this campus to my children in the future. But hey, I don;t think it will make any difference towards the other Semenanjung students as well since we all have assignments to be done! hahahaha well at least it's fair and square lol XP

And oh, I'll be going to Kay Elle on the 31st of December to meet my parents. Mum, Dad and Nania will be around in KL to attend a relative's wedding so they'll be in KL until the 2nd of January, 2012. So I'll be travelling to KL all by myself, by bus, and will be staying at a hotel together with my parents. Heyyyy I can't wait to meet them! Let't just hope that I can reach them safe and sound because I will be travelling ALONE by bus, you see. Which is my very first experience. But it's okay though. I've been into flight journeys alone as well, so what's the difference anyway, right?

Anyway, Christmas is coming soon, 2011 is going to end soon. I'm going to make an entry on End Year and New Year so catch up with it soon alright?

And Nazri's PMR result will be announced TODAY at 10.00am. Which reminds me of my 'dunia ini ana yang punya' victorious moments of having only 1 slacked B in my PMR's result slip. Which was something unexpected for a dumbo like me. Good luck, Nazri and all the PMR students! May Allah be by your side. Amin =)

So, before I doze off to dream land, let me just wish you a Happy Christmas and Merry Holidays!

Oh wait no.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

And a very Happy New Year!

I have to pen off now. I have to prepare for tomorrow's BEL332 presentation. Bye!

Conscience killer

2011-12-18T01:50:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers :D

December, like I mentioned previously has been all fine UNTIL my lecturers announced that we're gonna have tests next week. One is CTU082 short test and another one is ECO099~ THE BLOODY ECONOMICS.

die die dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :c

So, my weekend is not gonna be as relaxing as the way I expected it to be. I need to do laundries (just hope that it's not gonna rain tomorrow!) and study. Yeah, study for the bloody economics and Islamic studies. Which is as scary as ~~F**K~~ FIRE! in a straw house, in the woods, on the windy days, with the gasoline everywhere on the straw~

Oh, some people who read my previous post asked me yesterday whether I'm okay or not. Yeah, I daresay. After a long phone conversation with Nisa and Salam, I feel much better now. Thanks, best friends. Which is why I can never hate them, I can't thank them enough for what they have done to bring me back to what I once define as life. They know how to make me happy and give useful advice. I didn't call Esther and Fyraz simply because I don't want to trouble them with my troubles. I'm pretty sure that they have their own burdens to lessen. But I miss them though, really.

I don't know what exactly the thing that makes me feel depressed lately. Not only that, I noticed that my emotions are unstable and I have irregular menstrual cycle lately. I feel paranoid easily and I'm quite sensitive lately. I get sad easily and happy for the next hours. I don't fucking know what the hell is actually wrongg with meee :c

Is it because I'm homesick? Is it because of the rainy season? That it's always raining and it somehow affects my emotion to be as gloomy as the cloudy weather? Is it due to stress? But I'm in a state of a slow recovery now, I guess. I'm not sure if this lasts since I just had the phone conversation like a few hours ago, so I am fine. At least for now. But anyway, let's just hope that this will last, alright?

I google the terms depression, irregular periods, paranoia, unstable emotions and sensitive together and the first result that came out was;

CAUSES AND SYMPTOMS OF SCHIZOPHRENIA

arggghhhhhhhh nuuuuuuuuuuu :c Don't turn me into that! I will fucking kill you without me realizing it!!

Urghhhh my life is seriously fucked up. Should I consult a doctor?

A doctor is too busy to entertain me I think, checking on preggy mothers are more useful rather than checking on me. hurrrr :/

or should i just consult a psychiatrist instead?

I might end up in Tanjung Rambutan - a place for insane retards.

Cruel, ain't I?

KILL ME.

I haven't told my Mum about this yet. I mean, this problem of mine because I just don't know what to say to them. And I bet our conversation might just be a waste because Mum will keep asking "what's wrong?" and I will keep replying "I don't know how to describe it!"

Tell me, what should I do now? Fuck this thing.

Gloomy Day

2011-12-16T12:52:00.005+08:00

I don't know why I'm feeling all gloomy today. I feel like crying but I can't cry. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I can't tell my Mum nor call my friends, I just don't know what to say to them because I don't know why exactly I am feeling like this. I can't cry alone, so I keep it all to myself. And keeping all these things to myself is rather agonizing. At this moment, I miss my family, my best friends, my cousins, my classmates, I miss high school times so much. I miss childhood times. I miss the memories of childhood which most of the time, I spent it with my family, with my parents.

I miss having fun, smile and laugh, taking pictures together, having myself being dressed appropriately by Mum so that I would look pretty in the camera pictures. I miss how my parents asked me to behave and in return of my good deeds I did to them, they would buy me and my siblings balloons with colours of our own choice. I miss going out with my family even though we were just eating Pizza at Waterfront at night when my parents were less busy with work. I miss holding hands with my Mum and my Dad, together with my other siblings when we were about to cross the road. I miss the times when my Mum and Dad did not have to think about working extra hours, think about the house chores, did not have to worry about sickness nor fatigue at old age. I miss those times, really. :'(

Not only that, I also miss the old times when I can freely scream, laugh out loud, sing and gossiping with my classmates.

I miss having Fyraz, Esther and Nisa with me buying ice-creams and when we have extra money, we would buy 'Jelly Kelapa' and sometimes Sundae Cup. And we would peek what type of ice-cream our hermit crab of the school Fitri 'Nakpaya' would buy. I miss stalking and watching every steps of Haha towards the staff room and Prefects Room with my besties. I miss stalking Taecyeon, CDK, Bubo Mamak and the gang, with my besties. I miss those times. I miss the times where I could scream enthusiastically in front of Mdm. Beatris the moment I spotted Haha passing by our classroom. I miss the excitements. Not because of my deep crush on him that ignites the feeling, it's because I was with my best friends who wouldn't mind me sharing all my joys with them.

I always have a dream of having a best buds' sleepover and some sort of slumber party (i know we're grown ups but I always want to do that with my best friends) where we can chat talk sing laugh and dance all night until we're tired and finally dozed off without having to worry about anything that makes our life fucked up. I always want to bring my best friends to shop for stuffs and we would go and buy stuffs together. I always dream of having a vacation with my best friends, picnic, swimming and stuffs. I want to do those things which best friends would do and how I wish I can do it now. I miss my girl friends, seriously. ='(

Let's just wait, girls. We'll be able to do that and rock our own world soon. =)

Dear Allah =)

2011-12-15T00:25:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah,

Ampunilah dosa-dosaku, dosa kedua ibu bapaku, dosa guru-guruku, dosa rakan-rakanku, dan dosa seluruh muslimin dan muslimah di muka Bumi ini.

Ya Allah,

Kau permudahkanlah urusan harianku, lancarkanlah perjalanan hari-hari ku. Andai kau berikan dugaan, kau tabahkanlah hatiku untuk meredhai dan menghadapi dugaan tersebut dengan penuh kesabaran.

Kau fasihkanlah lisanku, kau kuatkanlah ingatanku, kau tambahkanlah ilmuku dan janganlah kau mengurangkannya. Kau kayakanlah aku dengan ilmu pengetahuan, hiasi diriku dengan kesabaran, muliakanlah diriku dengan ketakwaan, jadikanlah aku insan yang berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat.

Kau berikanlah aku kefahaman agar aku dapat memahami apa yang diajarkan oleh guruku.

Ya Allah Ya Rahim,

Kau kurniakanlah kejayaan yang cemerlang dalam peperiksaan MUET yang bakal dikeluarkan tidak lama lagi. Jika kejayaan tersebut tidak menyebelahiku ya Allah, sekurang-kurangnya Engkau kurniakanlah ketabahan dalam hati aku untuk menerima keputusanku seadanya.

Ya Allah Ya Rahman,

Sesungguhnya Engkau maha Pemurah lagi maha Penyayang,

Kau jauhkanlah aku, keluargaku dan rakan-rakanku dari malapetaka,

Jauhkanlah kami dari godaan Syaitan, janganlah kau biarkan kami sesat sehingga ke lembah neraka JahannamMu. Kau berikanlah kejayaan kepada kami semua, kau tabahkanlah hati kami dalam menempuh dugaan dan cabaran dalam hidup kami sebagai seorang penuntut ilmu dan perantau.

Kau buangkanlah sifat keji, buruk sangka, hasad dengki, iri hati dan sifat-sifat lain yang buruk dan hina dari dalam diri kami, bersihkanlah dan sucikanlah hati kami, agar kami dapat beribadah kepadaMu.

Ya Allah,

Jadikanlah kami sebagai hamba yang mulia disisiMu,

Kau kurniakanlah kesihatan yang baik kepada aku, keluargaku dan rakan-rakanku. Jauhkanlah kami dari segala macam penyakit.

Kau kurniakanlah kabahagiaan dan kesejahteraan hidup kepada kami semua dan berkatilah hidup kami sehingga ke hari Akhirat.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Eh Salah!!

2011-12-14T01:50:00.001+08:00

Hello Readers!

The first two weeks of December has been great for me. Although the schedule was super tight, I guess i can handle it already, and adapt myself with the 'busyness' =D

Well, actually I was supposed to be having 2 presentations on last Monday; first one is a group presentation LAW037 and the second one is BEL332- The Art of Public Speaking but our lecturer cancelled the lecture at the last minute so that left me with only one presentation on that day, LAW037 which basically about legal system during Malacca and Dutch administration. The topic sounds an easy task but actually it was rather confusing, especially when you refer to books with different authors and what's worst, they wrote different facts. My colleague and I have to really explore and research deeply so that I can understand, which will make my presentation informative and understandable.

I have planned everything in my mind and even jot down in my note book roughly some points and a few script that can help me to remember while presenting, because you know, sometimes I can easily forget what I want to say when I am distracted, or even not. Esther calls it Brain Hiccup so that is it.

So when it was my turn to present, I did quite smoothly during the whole time of presentation, except that I read the slide very fast that I'm not sure whether the others can get my points or not, but I did explain. This always happen especially when I'm nervous. Whenever I'm nervous I often suffer these 3 things:

1. I stutter a lot while speaking.

2. I talk really fast and read really quickly.

3. I sweat, get stomachache and I might blurt out silly things.

Clumsy much, eh?

And out of these three symptoms, I only did not get sweat and stomachache, probably because I'm used to an audience of 30 to 40 students. I was nervous because that was my first presentation for this semester and it was done in front of my new classmates. The embarrassing moment was that while I was about to finish presenting, I read the wrong point on my script, and when I realized it, I blurted out loudly "eh salah!" which then followed by a laughter from the whole class. But I however notice that my lecturer just pull on that straight face as usual. I hope he didn't have any bad impression on me, and hope it won't affect the evaluation he did towards me.

I was so embarrassed! Not many people know about this habit of mine but I used to do the same thing back when I was in the first semester. I was presenting about Law & Morality and that's when I yelled out "eh salah!" in front of my ex-classmates.

I don't know how to overcome this clumsiness of mineeeee :C

But somehow I'm glad that we did the presentation very well. The lecturer somehow did compliment o=us a little and that's enough though. Thanks to my group mates for the helps. =)

Goodbye first love. Time to move on.

2011-12-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers!

Sorry for not updating this blog for quite a long time. Life's been pretty busy lately. Second semester had just started- another new environment, new classmates, new friends as well as old friends, new housemates, maintained the old ones, well I'm just glad that everything is under control. Although there might be a bit sort of a dramas around me, let's just hope that I didn't get into it. Mom said that I should always bear in mind of the purposes of them sending me here - to study. Dear Allah, please help me remember that. always.

Yesterday I just had my XpressMusic phone repaired at the nearest phone store. The shop owner said that the program in my phone was missing so I need to install a new one. I just followed because I knew nothing. But the moment I switched on my phone, I realized that the newly installed program in my phone has erased all the saved messages and even birthday reminders! I lost all of it! Of course, the good thing is that I managed to get back all the applications and games that I once delete last time. But seriously, saved sweet, memorable messages? =(

My friends would say "takpe laa, mesej je tu, tak penting" but memories are something very important to me. No matter how hurt I am becoming due to the memories, I still treasure it.

Memorable messages of high school times.

Memorable events of high school times.

Memories of my love life.

Memorable messages from my first love I've ever had.

Memories of my first love.

I erased it. Does that mean I should just let it go and move on?

And forget it all? And never return?

I erased it means I'm saying goodbye.

Good bye first love.

Am I that embarrassing to be seen with?

2011-11-12T06:11:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers.

Do you believe that there are still some people in this world who feel ashamed to be seen with us? Without knowing the reason, I witnessed that kind of situation. It happened to me not only once or twice, but a couple of times already. And it was the same person. And I want to emphasize that I am not being paranoid.

I do not wish to mention who, but this acquaintance of mine is from quite a well-known high school. She has a bunch of best friends whose parents aren't ordinary and have wealthy family background. Her lifestyle may be completely different from mine.

Like I said, it happened to me not only once, but a few times in just a year. We have known each other for so long and we were very close. We would talk to each other and share stories of our love lives. She is indeed a good listener and that explains our close relationship. We rarely hangout together but when we did we always hang out together with the others. We always meet at her house or my other acquaintance's house who also happen to know both of us. She taught me a lot and helped me in my studies even though she is one year younger than me, because her academic performance is really excellent. I thought she's just nice and would be nice to me every time and everywhere. I thought maybe we could say hi to each other when we meet on the streets. Just when I thought that she is the nicest acquaintance I've ever met, I was wrong.

I started seeing her early this year in her school when I sent my sister there every morning. I did it because

A) I want to help my Mum taking care for sister who just moved to that school.

B) I want to help my sister adapt herself in the new environment.

C) I have nothing to do after SPM

D) I thought I could meet her and share stories, at least before her lessons started. (Told you she's a year younger)

Out of those four, the only thing I was most disappointed about is D. I did met her with her friends, maybe best friends, and I'm certain enough that she really saw me, because I was with my mother and my sister at that time. Plus my body size, it would be impossible that she could not see me. She said hi to my mother and even pinched my sister's cheek in front of me but then she just walked away with her friends. It was obvious, so obvious that even my mother asked "why do you girls not say hi to each other?" and I had no idea myself. I thought there might be something wrong that I do to her, maybe she was upset with me about something. But then she tweeted me, commented on my status in Facebook and wrote on my Wall like there's nothing happen at the school earlier. The next day I went to school, it was still the same. She didn't talk to me and my mother asked again. I told her I don't know.

Then one afternoon after the school has become solitary with the students going home except for certain students who stayed back for other evening activities, I accompanied my sister having her lunch at the school canteen, together with my mother of course. She came to us and talked to my mum and surprisingly, she talked to me as well! I was puzzled and tried to figure things out and I noticed one thing: she was not with her friends at that time.

And the same thing happen days after that. The thing that I noticed seem to be true, she didn't say hi to me whenever her best friends are around. When we meet at my house or other acquaintance's house, she would treat me just fine. I began to care less about it when I furthered my studies in Kuantan.

Ever since the day I found out about the real way she treated me, I am very disappointed. She's the one I trusted all this while, and turns out she treated me the other way round when she's with her best friends. I am not her best friends but we knew each other for so long already, it's just that I never get into this situation where I meet her on the streets with her best friends. Turn out that she was actually embarrassed that we knew each other or something like that, I presumed.

Told you that was not the first. Recently I met her at the State Library with my friends and yes, her best friends were there too. I accidentally bumped to her and she saw me too and surprised, we even smiled to each other. I was excited to see her there and I thought of talking to her, at least more than just saying hi like "didn't expect to see you here" or "what are you doing here?" Well, that may be a stupid question to ask people who come to the library but as far as I know her, she didn't really do study group. So I was about to start friendly little chat with her when she just looked away and continued talking to her friends and that totally turned me into an idiot, trying to start a conversation with her and she pretended that I wasn't there, or maybe if I was, someone that she didn't know. Or maybe she did know, but just like someone that you met in a seminar once or twice.

The weird thing was that, I went there with my sister cause she was the one who drove me there. I was surprised to see her having tea break together with my sister at the cafe and still, she didn't look at me when I was actually visible enough for her to see.

What did I do so wrong to her? Why does she has to treat me like that? I just don't understand. Is it because of the school I came from? My academic performance isn't as good as hers? Is it because of my appearance? My lifestyle? The way I dressed up? My look? That she couldn't even bear to see me? Am I that embarrassing to go out with? To be seen with? To let everyone know that we were actually close and we knew each other? Am I that embarrassing?

I've endured writing about this thing all this while just because I thought of giving her a chance and there was also a second thought that maybe she is not that bad. But now that I've gone through everything once again, I just couldn't stand it anymore. I just can't stand two-faced people and hypocrites.

I thought that she is the nicest acquaintance that I've ever had in my entire life before. The was the best. The perfect one. I adore her, I salute her, I love her more than anyone else. But then she treated me like that, can't you see how disappointed I am with her? I might do something bad to her in the past, I admit that I was cruel to her back when I was still in Form 2. No doubt that I was even cruel to my best friend before. Last time I was evil towards everybody who turns out to be the ones I'm closed with now. Maybe she did that because of revenge or I don't know, but if she does that out of vengeance, means she is actually not as nice as what I thought. Back when we were so close before, I thought she has forgiven me for the things I did to her in the past. I thought she might be the nicest one to be able to forgive and forget the mistakes I've done to her in the past.

But then again, treating me like that and making me confused is just way too much. If she's embarrassed to be seen with me then just don't be a hypocrite. Don't treat me nicely when there's only us without her best friends around and treat me the other way round when the situation is vice-versa. She can act like she doesn't know me for all I care, but just don't come to me during our 'acquaintances' gathering and asked "are you okay? how's life? got someone new?" and made me give in to her gentleness just because she was always nice in my mind. Don't treat me with that two-faced attitude. I don't like it. In fact, I hate it so much. I don't like people treating me like a fool.

Last but not least, I'm just going to paste this note I used to post in my Facebook for everyone to read.

mun sapa2 rasa nya malu ada kawan/adik/kakak/kazen kdak aku tok pdh terus terang k?xpayah tapok2,i won't eat u.mun asa ada nak xpuas ati ya pdh jak depan2, jgn nk main xmok layan or show muka x merik2 watever ya,aku tok dhla bebal,slow pick up,mun ktk org polah gya sgal da benda nk xpuas ati ngn aku OR ng malu temu org kdk aku,aku xkan dpt tangkap, and it takes time for me to realize/notice it. so daripada ktkorg buang masa tenaga dan usaha bgus padah terus terang ngn aku k? sapa nk asa malu ya,dipersilakan boh contact ngn aku terus.ku xsuka org nk xpat trimak aku the way i am.gik2 sgal lifestyle kta 2 xsama.everybody knows u up,i'm down (Top's inverted rap) and just because of that ktk org xpat trimak aku, aku lagikla x ingin.so jangan jadi hipokrit nk tunjok bait ngan aku tapi lepas ya u treat me differently (in a negative way) just because u're embarassed of being connected to me.sekian harap maklum.

Since we're impressing a bit about the elements of friendship here, I would like to give credits to a few of my friends, Hafiz, Syikin Othman and Chris Enteri. Maybe there's more to remember but let's just call them all in. These people are considered my friends who have so many friends and live a high-profile lifestyle. They are friends with elites and yet they are still friendly towards me. They still treasure our friendship no matter how useless a friend I may be to them. They accept me the way I am and they still bring me along to hang out with their friends from upper-class. I salute them because they treasure the value of friendship.

Honestly, if you and I meet on the streets, are you going to just looked and walked away without even saying hi?

P/s: I don't write this with an intention to humiliate, criticize or talk bad about that girl. If she happens to read this, I hope she knows clearly that I am really upset having her as my best acquaintance. And guess what? Kmk kecik ati ngan ktk. Kecik ati gilak2.

After 6 months journey.

2011-11-05T03:16:00.003+08:00

Hello Readers!

It has been a while since my last rant on my studies - my first experience on being a university student. To be precise, a university law student. I have always been wondering whether I am on the right track and that whether I am really interested in law. The most important is that whether or not I can excel in this professional field.

Now it seems that I can stop wondering about it. I just have some thoughts that Allah has decided this future for me to work on. This is the thing that I prayed almost every single moments I spent at Makkah last time, and now that I have it, I consider this as my real destiny. I believe that getting to this course is not simply a fate, but it is Allah's action that He has opened this path for me.

Today I won't rant about it, cause my exam results were released yesterday morning around 3.30am and it brought me joy and happiness for more than a day... it still hasn't lasted yet.

So, how do we all do? And most importantly, how WELL do I perform in LAW, the one I always being thoughtful about. I nervously opened my email yesterday morning and was very pleased to see three things:

I only got 2 Bs out of 7 subjects.

The rest are all As with 1 subject A-, no A+

My total GPA is 3.64!!!

And that made me get into the non-existent Dean's List for Foundation student. Something that is beyond my expectation!

I thought I would fail. I thought I would achieve below 3.00. I thought I would have to repeat certain subjects. But Alhamdulillah I don't have to do any of those. The only thing that I need to do now is to get back to my track and continue studying and struggling to maintain the Dean's List in order for me to be able to pursue my Degrees in Law. Besides that, I also need to struggle hard to achieve Band 4 for my MUET since it fulfills one of the requirements.

I'm very glad that I can achieve up to this point for the first semester. I managed to get into Dean's List even though I don't really have those awards as a Foundation student. I am happier to find out that I am among a few Sarawakians that have successfully made our way into Dean's List. Call me racist, but I somehow feel glad that I'm able to bring Sarawak to the top with my little achievement, together with my other friends. You might feel the same if you're in my place, studying at other people's place. And what makes me happy the most is that my parents are happy with my results.

And I'm grateful that Allah still give me another chance to survive in law. I really hope that I can succeed in this field and need not have to switch to other courses for Degrees, since it would be kind of embarrassing because I am the only relative in the family who managed to pursue my studies in law and everybody acknowledges it. The reason why I want to study law is also because of this- I want to be the first lawyer in my family.

I want to be a lawyer. I may sound a bit boastful but after I was miraculously be given another chance to continue studying in law, I realized that this might be my destiny if I try hard to work it out. I don't know what Allah has in store for me in the future, but I believe that now that he puts me here, I might as well have to work things out.

Of course, with lots of hard works, prayers and blessings from everyone. So, pray for me guys. Really appreciate it.

I am happy with the others' results as well. Congrats my friends! And for those who are not that lucky, there's always another chance. Fail once doesn't mean fail forever. If there's a will, there's always a way. Remember, every cloud has a silver lining. Be optimistic. =)

When a pathetic mule speaks.

2011-10-30T00:53:00.003+08:00

Hello Readers!

I think it would be unfair to me if I just leave my blog abandoned without any updates about me, especially now that i'm back in town, a place like no others. I'm sorry Bloggie, I just don't know what to say and how to describe my boring-but-better-than-my-life-over-there holidays. So since this is a round up of one-month updates, it will be a looonggg and boring post. Bear with it! XD

I've been in Kuching for one month already and there's nothing much that I have achieved. I mean, things that I planned to do before, the ones I stated in my previous post are not totally accomplished. Let's see how far we've come:-

~~1. Eating Laksa Sarawak~~
~~2. Eating Mee Kolo~~
~~3. Swee Kang~~ ( can I replace it with Lock Ann? It's ice kacang afterall XD)
~~4. Nasi Ayam Penyet~~
5. Hangout with best friends (not totally accomplished without Fyraz around God I miss her!!)
6. Watching movies and series in my laptop (which I copied from my housemates) (Well, maybe some of it)
~~7. Sleepover at my Grandma's~~
8. Hangout with cousins
9. Updating portal and blog (Which is what I'm doing now)
10. Buying new gadgets for my laptop (headphone, external hard disk)
11. Fix my old phone
12. Fix my old watch or just buy a new one
~~13. Celebrate Mom's birthday!~~
14. Buying The Vampire Diaries

You can say that I've eaten almost every Sarawakian cuisines available here within a month. That's a great accomplishment for me though cause I did it in three days straight right after I came back from Kuantan. Too much craving you can say. I did hang out with my cousins but not all of them, and it wasn't like what we usually do. It was unplanned and we ended up having dinner together and did a little bit of window shopping, that's all. I'm looking forward to see them during this Hari Raya Haji so that we can at least get together and chill. But at that time, I think it won't be as exciting as what I hope it could be because the semester break is almost over by that time.

For the portal I've quit. I failed to manage it and due to my other business at hands to be done and also that I'm kind of lost interest so I decided to pass it to someone else to handle. I just realized that I've never stick to one thing at a long period and ends up losing interest in it and getting bored easily. Maybe because I'm too young and clueless. Lack of financial supports, that's one thing too. It's not really disheartening actually because at least I gained experience and I'm still in a good relationship with the rest of the admins and the members. It's not really a burden but at least it can give way for me to do something new. Something else while bear in my mind not to let the history repeats itself and not be stupid over and over unless I'm really determined and have a crystal clear picture on how is it going to work out. I'm glad that it's part of my accomplished aim for this year though although I'm not the one who're able to maintain it. And I'm glad that somehow it's still going on even without me in it.=)

I've gone out and chill with my best friends and even some old classmates before and it was superb although it was just McD and Lock Ann. My best friends also don't mind spending time at my house though it's boring. I'm waiting for Fyraz to come back from Selangor and we'll hang out and have fun! I have pictures of MBO, Steamboat, Kbox and lots of fun waiting ahead of us!

I forgot to ask my Mom about me having to look for the Document of Destiny book again. I still need it for the next semester and maybe for my studies and 1st Degree level. If I'm able to further in this field again. Back to the topic, last time I did search it together with Mom but we couldn't find it and since it was still hari raya, not many bookstores were open on that day. It was a day before I go back to Kuantan. I bought The Vampire Diaries instead but turned out that I actually bought the wrong volume. I was supposed to read The Return: Nightfall,

The first volume of The Return.

Followed by The Return: Shadow Souls

And end up with The Return: Midnight.

The one that I bought.

I bought The Midnight and got confused reading it. Well, I completed reading the previous volumes in order last time (The Awakening, The Struggle, The Fury, Dark Reunion). I can hardly remember what happens at the end of the last volume before The Return: Nightfall. And they started airing The Vampire Diaries Season 1, 2 and currently season 3 which is totally different from the one in the novels, which makes me even more confused. I need to buy The Nightfall before reading the Midnight or else I'll be completely lost and that would be a waste of my time, energy and even my Mom's money that I read it for nothing.

As for watching movies and series, I haven't touched any of my Korean collections except for Heartstrings and Running Man. I watched Heartstrings during the final last time and stopped halfway so I watched it until the final episode when I got home. For Running Man, I've watched certain episodes, not all. I watched it when necessary. You know, when things got complicated and I'm stressed with the house chores which I haven't done for so long and it seems new again to me, and I need to chill. So I watch it. Yes, that is the best way of releasing your stress without having to go out and chill. And apart from that, I'm also watching The Vampire Diaries and having myself updated with the Gossip Girl. It would be pathetic for me to say that I watch Gossip Girl because;

A. I don't subscribe to Astro before and now that I have it, I rarely watch it and Dad always play that lame jokes by hiding the Astro smart card just because my sister is having her final exam in school.

B. In order to fit in because I realized that I'd be completely lost whenever my friends talk about things that I don't know and turns out they talk about Hollywood stuffs which I don't follow much. At least if I know something about one of those, I don't really look like a dimwit.

Pathetic, ain't I? Well, that is what happen if you spend most of your lifetime lazying around and only get yourself updated with Korean stuffs. Well actually I'm not that updated in that particular area as well. Look, maybe I'm just average. Or below average. Ever since I entered university I discovered many things about myself and realized just how ignorant I've been for my entire life. No kidding, and I'm not being pessimistic but it's a fact. I don't know much about politics before and now that I'm pursuing law, I realized that my level of knowledge on that issues are even lower than a layman. And I confidently call myself a K-pop freak but turns out there are lots of other people out there who are more aware of the updates compared to me. What more to say these Hollywood stuffs? I have to listen very attentively to a radio or Google-ing some parts of the lyrics that I remember OR even click on Hot 100 in Billboard one by one just to identify a song when everybody else can tell by just listening to the chorus.

That is where I'm lacking at. I have to struggle just like other students studying hard for exams in order to be in the same rank as the others. Not the elites, just ordinary people.

My best friends knows me the best and they know how I didn't catch up with those kind of stuffs. Sometimes I feel like a total dumb head and completely lost when they have that conversation and I keep silent and when I asked they were like "My God Yottttt how come you don't know omg" (guess whose tone is this?haha). I don't blame them though because that is exactly what I'm facing even when I'm with my friends in Kuantan too. They even have those kind of gossips as the motions for debate! I figured out that now I'm a Uni student, debate is not just about general, it involves everything. See? it's everywhere and it's very common for people to talk about those kind of things and I'm just the only one who had no idea about that. I can't tell them to stop. It's me who needs to catch up. Yes you can't deny the fact that you ought to be yourself in order to fit in, but you can't be yourself if you're stupid and ignorant. Life is all about fitting in. You can be yourself if you've reached average, if you're below average you may need an upgrade.

I'm just like the one in the Diary of A Wimpy Kid!

Cryyyy

GD's caught for smoking marijuana.

2011-10-06T00:27:00.007+08:00

Hello people.

I guess you know what's going on by just reading the title above.

Frankly speaking, I used to fancy GD a lot, but to say that I am a VIP is wrong. I only like some of them and not all of them and plus, I like them just because of their charismatic and unique appearance on stage which makes all the people go crazy over them.

However, I do have my 2 cents on this matter. I am not siding anyone, neither to blame GD nor to defend him. But think about it.

A few tests have been conducted and proves that GD had smoked marijuana. And GD himself has confessed to the media that he did smoke marijuana for 2 or 3 puffs. But of course, a statement is a statement until is is proven.

GD smoked 2 to 3 puffs of marijuana, and marijuana is considered as illicit drugs and is strictly prohibited in Korea. The thing to ponder is that, he smoked it on middle of May at a Japanese club, in a toilet when someone offered him the cigarette and he SMOKED it out of courtesy. No one would expect it to be trivial and controversial until the issue popped out of nowhere and he was arrested and even being asked to undergo a drug and hair test. I have no idea on how this thing is brought up after a few months, and what is the motive of bringing up the issue which was supposed to fill in the headlines back in July instead of now. Perhaps a sabotage, huh? But that's just my piece of thoughts though. You know, Big Bang is the most popular boy band in Korea and even well-known worldwide.

The way I see it, I personally reckon that this issue must be a strategy to bring the whole team down. Some people just could not stand seeing other people's success and happiness.

Some people might argue, why does he has to smoke whether or not he knows that the cigarette is marijuana? First of all, he is a man, a human, above 18 and even exceeds 21 years old. He has the right to do everything on his own, including smoke. Whether or not it will affect his health, it is out of our control. Plus, did he knows that it was marijuana? No. Did he smoke it on purpose? No. Did he continue to smoke after suspecting the smell of the cigarette is not a normal tobacco? No. He immediately flushed it the moment he became suspicious of the smell of the cigarette.

There are some people desperately urging the fans not to be naive on the grounds that if he can smoke marijuana, he might be prone to smoke something more dangerous than that. The thing is that, marijuana is a drug and yes, GD smoked it back in May. To say that he is prone to consume other type of drugs might be wrong. First, a few tests were conducted on him recently and gave a negative result. Means that, right after he flushed the marijuana, he did not smoke. If he is addicted to smoke or consume other drugs, he might have done so and the results of the urine tests would certainly be positive.

Regarding the hair test, I agree that the hair test is one of the prove to submit that he is liable in this case. Hair test is one of the most effective forensical test conducted because it can retrive a stain from a long time ago. And yes, it is proven that GD smoked marijuana a long time ago, which is in May. That was a few months back, you see?

And I just don't understand why people make a fuss over something which has already been decided by the police. The police has decided to warn him, considering that this was his first offence.

Talking about first offence, I don't get it why people have to ditch him, hate him, blame him, ignore him and curse him over one bad deed he has done when he had actually contributed a lot in Korean and even Asian music industry at national level and even worldwide? Analogically, If a gay is capable of doing works better than others, should he be fired just because he is a gay then? Come on, everybody deserves a second chance, and so does him. Plus, he confessed and that is very brave of him, not running away from his problem. Why should he be called a loser, coward and all that? He can face his own problems and even get himself prepared, which I doubt if there is anyone of us could do that if such thing happened to us. Confession, is the first step to repentance. Don't you think that he needs supports from his fans and even fans-turned-to-gullible-antifans as a strength for him to repent and move on?

Yes, I can't deny that all of these would direct us back to the main issue: the bloody marijuana. But isn't every problem has its own solution? I'm pretty sure that GD has learnt his lesson not to do something which would harm himself in the future. He should be grateful by now that he is only being warned and not being charged against the offence he has made. Although there wasn't any legal penalty for him, this issue alone is enough to drop his popularity and credibility as a famous star. People hates him, curse him and blame him over something which is not totally his fault, although there might be some of it. All those things are enough to put him down. The curses are enough for a penalty. Are you satisfied now? A star could not live without supports from his fans, and fans determine the longevity of a star. I'm sure that GD would not want this controversy to affect his career and reputation in the future. GD and even YG Entertainment has already apologized, what is the big fuss then?

STOP HATING GD AND THROWING ALL THOSE BULLSHIT CURSES TO HIM, he's not even a jerk nor a loser, he is just committing a mistake that all human being does. We, human, ARE NOT PERFECT. He has learnt his lesson through this published controversy and even apologized. Why can't we just forgive him? Some might say that they are disappointed that GD let them down. But think about it again. GD might be more disappointed that his fans are not there to support him and all that's left to him is the pessimistic thoughts by the people who only knows how to judge the issue by the cover. How can they say that they are true fans if they can't even accept something like this? To be disappointed is acceptable, but to curse him and hate him is enough to show how gullible those people are. The fans should be there to guide him, to support him going through repentance, not hate him and curse him.

Some might argue that to support him after the humiliating deed he has done are just so wrong and to support him means that we are supporting marijuana consumption, go against the law and others since he was not being charged and just given a warning by the police, and would not be blacklisted from the broadcast appearance by the broadcast stations for the time being. Well, justice is there to stand. If he is found guilty, he may go through sanctions provided by the law in Korea. He may go through disciplinary penalty such as rehabilitation or military. Whatever it is, we have to believe in justice. We are in no place to punish him.

I write this as a wake-up call for those who used to like GD a lot and now has turned out to hate him just because of two puffs of marijuana which he smoked unintentionally.

ENOUGH PEOPLE. JUST STOP WITH THE HATRED COMMENTS ALREADY. HE HAS HAD ENOUGH.

GD might be wrong, but ought he deserve all those criticisms from people who used to admire him head over heels and now hated him? Should he?

An unwanted holidays.

2011-10-04T14:25:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers!

I am now having my semester break, which I have been waiting for all this time. And yeah I'm back to Kuching. Hurrayyy!

But unfortunately I am not feeling well the moment I came back from Kuantan. Perhaps, change of environment? Kuching is so hot compared to Kuantan and since my house is located just in front of the new SM Sains 2 construction site, my house is always dusty as ever, and it makes me feel sick. No, I AM sick now. I'm having a bad sore throat, cough, flu, headache and severe stomachache as well. This is not the kind of holidays that I dreamt of =(

Anyway, I made a wishlist of what I am going to do during this semester break before coming back to Kuching last time, and I think I've just started a little. Here it is;

1. Eating Laksa Sarawak
2. Eating Mee Kolo
3. Swee Kang
4. Nasi Ayam Penyet
5. Hangout with best friends
6. Watching movies and series in my laptop (which I copied from my housemates)
7. Sleepover at my Grandma's
8. Hangout with cousins
9. Updating portal and blog
10. Buying new gadgets for my laptop (headphone, external hard disk)
11. Fix my old phone
12. Fix my old watch or just buy a new one
13. Celebrate Mom's birthday!
14. Buying The Vampire Diaries

Actually there's more, but if I were to list it here I bet it won't be enough. lol.

Can't wait for Fyraz, Esther and Hafiz to finish their final exam. We should really go and hangout together!

That's all people. I'm out.

Wake me up when September ends?

2011-09-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers :D

The first week of September had been fantastic to me, and here comes the middle of September and that simply indicates that the final is JUST around the corner, I can feel, smell, touch, see and hear it comes very soonnnnn. I'm so nervous! Well, not that nervous actually and I wonder why. Everybody seem so busy going to study at our mini library and I guess I'm the only one who is still calm and relax. Oh come on, can't you guys give me space to breathe?? I just finished with my LAW016 test! ='(

I actually do not have much things to say, since whenever I want to update I will always end up being lost for ideas and words, as usual. I just want to make an entry at least before the final exam starts which is like freaking next week damn it, it's next week!

So, we're going to have our final exam next week and lasted for 2 weeks. I only have to cram my head to the maximum level I can reach for 2 weeks and that's it. I can go back to a place like no other at the Land of Hornbill and you know, enjoy myself and party and party and YEAH! *party la sgt kan* :D At least for one month before I'm going back here to this campus again, and be prepared to face probably new environments.

Talking about the new environments, I am still not sure whether I can still be in the same room and house with my current roomies and housemates. I heard that for the next semester, we'll going to have reshuffling of housemates and roomates for that. I am so disappointed upon hearing that. I mean, why? Why should they change everything again when we have been together and even closer just like siblings for more than 4 months? They (the administration body) were the ones who decide our roomates and housemates when we first came here last time. Despite feeling reluctant to do so, we did so. But now when we finally can get along with each other, why must they change it again? I just don't understand.

I love my housemates so much that I think my heart will be burdened so much if I were to leave them. I am so grateful that I found such amazing housemates whom I can laugh my ass off with them and they won't give a damn about it, even though I might sound suck and scary especially during midnight jokes. I really really love being with them. I am grateful for I have housemates whom I can be myself, and I'm feeling very comfortable. I feel like I'm belonged here because of their existence in my life. Who needs the world when I have them? I just hope and pray that I can still be with them again for the next semester.

For my group, my classmates are fun and I'm slowly getting along with them now. No doubt that this class is so much fun and enjoyable. :)

But I can feel that last night's statement was a fallacy. Half-hearted dilemma leads to fallacious heartwarming quotes.

That's all people. I'm out.

I let it all out, but some are still buried inside.

2011-08-20T02:15:00.001+08:00

Hello Readers :D

Ramadhan's going to end soon, and Syawal is coming soon. Just very soon. Which means my homecoming to Kuching will be approaching very very soon!!! Oyeahh Raya I've been waiting for you to comeeee baybeh! =D

And just so you know, I will be back on the 27th of August, 2011 and my flight is on 8.45pm. I know it's late but since I've announced it here, I am expecting to see you people come and fetch me with a huge "WELCOME BACK" placard held in your hands. LOLJK

I am sooo envious with Fyraz and Azwan. heishhh they're going to Kuching tomorrow!!! I am sooooo envious. Jealous. Whyyyyy, why UiTM does not carry forward our midsem break and combine it with Raya holidays? Whyyy?? At least I can spend more time in Kuching with my friends if you do that. hurrr =(

But it's okay. All that's left for me to do now is just be patient. It is almost ended. The time is coming soon. I just need to count the days and keep going on with the countdown. Within that time, I have to complete my assignments and also prepare of the tasks that are going to be claimed right after the Raya holidays. Which makes the work double. But it's okay, I'm going to finish it off before I come to Kuching! fighting!!!

My sister and I have already created an event on Facebook to invite all of our friends and relatives to our house on the 2nd day of Raya. If you wish to come, you are mostly welcomed to do so! =)

These are the people that I MUST meet!

- My family (including my three cats at home, Simba, Miko and Komeng)

- My cousins

- My best friends

- My classmates

- My secondary school teachers

So, within four days I'm going to spend in Kuching, I must be able to meet these people, regardless of where they are. lol =D

I have so many things to talk about! I'm sure it's going to be a pleasant conversation! =)

Urm, what else huh?

Oya, since Ramadhan, Syawal and even Merdeka is getting nearer, it indicates that we are going to leave 2011 very soon. Right? Talking about 2011, what have you achieved in this one whole year? Well, I think this year has been kinda a successful year for me since I have accomplished a few things in life:

1. I passed my SPM result and achieved what I have targeted for.

2. I succeed in enrolling to UiTM Pahang and taking Foundation in Law.

3. Went for Umrah at Mecca & Madinah =)

4. Having seldom fight with my siblings, especially my sister? lol

5. Made new friends

6. Met awesome housemates!

7. Have my own 'debit' card. lol

There's another thing that I wanna add up, which is establishing a portal site for Jang Keun Suk's fans, the Eels. But I guess for some of you who is an avid reader of my blog, you must have read my blog post regarding that matter. Even up to now, I can still feel the impact deep in my heart and things are not the same anymore. Added that I am now busy with my uni life, my studies, etc. and my own 'problems' over here, it seems impossible for me to carry on with that site. I am irresponsible, ain't I?

I'm thinking of catching up with that once I have finished my foundation studies, but then I thought again, things change. What if I have lost my interest in managing the site? What if the PEOPLE, the viewers lost their interest due to the delay updates and do not wish to return there anymore? Haihhhh

But you know what? Let's not talk about this anymore. Hahaha

You know, I actually have loads of things to share. But under certain circumstances, I can't. Perhaps I will if my courage beat the others, then you will see my next posts on the bullshits and rants that I have been uttering all this while. My best friends know the best. :)

If you leave something wonderful with those who come to your life, they will find it hard to erase you from their hearts.

How I wish this quote is true. At least for now. Or future. I don't know.

A gift from a friend to a friend for a friend

2011-08-17T06:10:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers :D

So I've been busy with my university life lately and yeah, it's somehow pretty awesome (except for all the lectures, assignments and presentation, etc) I am happy that I made friends from different parts of my country. The most exciting part is that I am very very grateful that I have such kind housemates!

Not only they prepare a little surprise birthday celebration for me despite knowing me for just a few days at that time, they are always with me and help me go through the hectic and exhausting times, so yeah.. I am really grateful.

And yeah, would you expect your friends to be concerned about your interest when they just get to know your for like, 3 to 4 months? Well, my housemates do. They are concern about my interest i.e. my relationship with my Suk *slaps* okay I need a wake up call for this. Ngahahaha :P

So last night after I finished my lecture I went to my hostel and they approached me and give me a square stuff wrapped with newspaper. I thought it was a prank from them, so I opened it slowly (since they instructed me to do so IN FRONT of them) and even threw it once in a while when they scare me by saying that I was going to jump if I find out about the stuff inside. I thought it was something bouncy - like a frog replica or something along the line? I don't know. Weird stuffs lingered your mind the moment you start to become paranoid, don't you think?

But then I continued unwrap the pack and find out....

tadaa!!!!

a DVD set of Jang Keun Suk's 2010 Asia Tour inside!!!!

I was extremely in cloud nine the moment I saw Jang Keun Suk's name on it. Mind you., I thought it was a book of Jang Keun Suk so like what they expected, I leaped up high in joy and then when I find out that it was actually a DVD, I became happier!!!

But whatever it is, whether it was a book or a DVD, I would still appreciate it since it is a gift from a friend of course, and another reason is because of Jang Keun Suk. :D

My housemates have known for long how much passion I have for Jang Keun Suk that whenever they saw Suk on TV or anywhere, even while listening to people's conversation about Suk, they will think of me. And that's how they came out with this thing. They went to shopping mall for window shopping purposes and to break fast in the first place, but seeing the DVD has made them think of me and that they bought one for me to make up the day when they celebrated my birthday without a present last time.

I know maybe a lot of you people out there have own more than this thing. But the thing that makes it special to me is that how the DVD has some values in it. First and foremost it proves me the value of friendship. Not many of our friends are willing to buy something like this for us, right? Especially those who have different interest from ours. These girls, they don't really like Suk, but they are willing to spend their money just to buy this for me. Isn't it shows how strong the value of friendship are?

Of course we can't judge the strength of friendship through money. Friendship is so vast that it can never be measured by using anything including money. But come on, let me just as you again, who are willing to spend money on this kind of stuff for a friend? You would rather bring your friend to have a barbeque party, or bring them to a vacation or something else that are memorable, but how about a thing which they are not interested but we're interested? It's rare, right?

Added that they just know you, just be with you for a short while, just share stories for a short period, in other words, they just know you for a few months and become close with you, GIVE you a stuff which is very valuable to you?

Again, it's rare, right?

And just tell me, who'd got any of Suk's stuffs from a friend? Not much right?

I am very very thankful to have such a kind and loving housemates. Not because of this gift, it's because of their sincerity. The don't mind spending money on stuffs that people always consider as 'wasting money and time' or 'useless' or 'do not give you any benefit' or 'can not determine your future'. You see?

I am not worshipping them more than my best friends, but somehow I am really thankful to be placed in this house here in this campus, with those lovely housemates being with me throughout my journey to a indefinite destination. Well, I found where I belong in this campus, at least in the house, if not somewhere else.

Their presence make me feel like this second home of mine is my 'home sweet home' paradise, apart from my hometown.

I think that's it.

But let me just ask you again. Would you mind spending money to buy a huge, the cutest Garfield for a friend who favored Garfield very much, when you yourself do not have much interest in that big-eyed cute monster?

Happy Birthday Adorable Aifa :)

2011-07-30T02:58:00.001+08:00

Hello Readers!!

So yesterday was my housemate's birthday, the adorable Aifa. All of us planned to pull a prank on her and yeah, as what we all planned, it went on succesfully without having her to suspect anything. We planned to not wish her during one whole day of her birthday, just to make her feel sad as if we totally forgot her birthday. So we arranged everything in order to come out with a perfect surprise and hell yeah it worked!

She looked very sad yesterday and I felt so cruel, treating her like that... but what shall I say? I'm sorry, I have to be cruel to be kind. lol... So we pretend not to know anything about her birthday. Must be painful for her... even though she was fine in front of heart, I can tell that she's really hurt inside because she's so adorable and cute, indulgent little girl. She's fragile and can cry easily. I could see her kind of like holding back her tears when she tried to make a joke to us and we teased her saying that it was not funny at all.

We prepared a slide show presentation (it's one of my housemate actually, I didn't contribute a single thing, the next thing I know, I ate the cake.lol) which has memorable pictures of outing during Saidah's birthday celebration at Mail Ikan Bakar :D. With a touching friendship love song as a background, that slide was prepared to show how much we care about her an love her :)

So when her birthday almost ended, we came up with the surprise.The cake which was bought by Shima and Sabrina on that afternoon were kept up to that moment. Aifa was watching a movie on my roomate's laptop and suddenly my roomate turned off the lappy and everyone shut off their laptops and paused doing assignments. The lights are all switched off and she was kinda shocked.

Then she looked at the slide played in one of my housemate's laptop screen. She was touched then I started to sing the Happy Birthday song (well, at least I actually 'did' something ehehe :D) and everyone sang along. Sabrina brought the cake over with the candles lighted on and we continued to sing while watching the slide show presentation. I was standing next to her and I could see her crying, touched. I couldn't help it but to cry at the touching moment as well (nyaruk indah eh.haha) :')

After we're done with all the singing and cutting of the chocolate cake, Farah played her a beautiful keyboard piece as her birthday gift. The song played was 'Perfect Two' by Auburn and so we sang along although I only knew a little bit of the whole song, hahaha.

The birthday girl!!!

Aifa sliced the cake into smaller pieces an distribute it to us. She was very happy and hugged each and everyone of us, and we could see the happiness on her face, She couldn't stop smiling even up till now. We even played with the cake by placing it on each other's faces and I got one on my cheek too. But Noha got the most cake pieces all over her face. So cuteeeee lol XD

Overall, it was the most enjoyable birthday moment that I've ever seen. We planned it so well that she didn't even suspect anything. It was sooo perfect and I seriously like it. I hope that Aifa will have the best sweet eighteen birthday moment with us, at least can make her remember our foundation times together. :')

Dear Aifa, we love you so much and you know that it will always be true. You're eighteen now and you're old enough to be our Mommyyyy :D May Allah bless you with good life, good health and eternal happiness and success. Hope you enjoy your eighteenth birthday and keep in in your heart, mind and soul forever :) Although we were the last one to celebrate your birthday, I hope you can remember that final event and treasure it every moment. Take care, 'less than 3' you! =)

From Hidayah, Saidah, Mel, Fatin, Noha, Syahirah, Farah, Kama, Shima, Sabrina, Nany, Syatiqah, Hanna, and Aisyah <3

Isn't she adorable? :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIFA AZMI! :)

And that's all about it people. Anyone had a birthday prank like this before? Share with me ^^

Thoughts On LGBT People.

2011-07-23T03:59:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers :D

As the saying goes "nobody is perfect", no one is perfect, human being is not perfect. And hell yeah it really is. People tend to make mistakes, people tend to do wrong, and that's how we humans are imperfect. And sometimes the imperfection comes from our own nature. For example, being a handicapped child is enough for everyone to see that child as someone imperfect. However, imperfection does not make us a useless or worthless person. If that is so, does that mean every human being in this world is useless then? No. Imperfection is actually a beauty, if you discover it. But how about gay, lesbian and bisexual people? I know this could be kind of a sensitive issue to rant about in here but I just wish to give my two cents here about this matter, since it's a matter concerning one of my colleagues here...

Some people are just making things hard on those kind of people (LGBT) and put them down just because they are considered immoral or even abnormal in our society. Just because we're too eastern, we do not accept that kind of acts in our society. But do you actually need to ditch them? Do we have to talk behind their back and tell the others how disgusting they are? Do you actually have to hate them? Or dislike them? Or stop being their friend?

Well, that was my thought before I get to know a bisexual friend of mine deeply. At first, it was awkward to see her touching people, making body contact with other girls purposely and for no reason, pokes your waist. However, can we say that they're already 'into' us by touching us like that? I do that to almost all of my girl friends. The thing that makes it seem awkward and unacceptable to us is because of the way they look. This friend of mine, is sort of a 'handsome' girl. So of course, when people watch her dresses up that way, it would seem awkward to see her going around touching people when the truth is that it is common for us to go around touching and poking and sometimes hugging your best girl friends from behind right? So, we can not jump up to a ridiculous conclusion that by touching us, means that they are in love with us, no.

I admit that unexceptionally, I was being touched and poked as well. However, she did not go overboard in a way that she tried to touch other sensitive parts, which I do not wish to mention it here. It was awkward at first but then when I began to study her properly, it was simple: that girl only has a habit of touching and making body contact with everyone, regardless of gender. Since I heard that she did the same things to the guys as well. Then I thought: if that girl was Fyraz, Esther or even Nisa, it won't be that awkward because we apparently do similar things like what the girl did. It's just her physical appearance that make us stay away from her when she does that kind of little thing to us.

I do not say that we do not have to be careful with those kind of people. There are limitations in confronting and interacting with that kind of people. But I do not like the idea of certain people who thinks that those kind of people should be ditched. And I do not like to see people talking bad about those people as if they're really useless and does not worth a living on this Earth. Telling everyone how much you are disgusted by just a single touch when you can freely do such things to your own friends. It's not like they're trying to harass you sexually, right?

And the most important issue is that, do we really have to ditch them just because they are LGBT? They are human being, and they are not aliens, people. They have their own abilities, talents and knowledge in something. When a gay worker does his works excellently, don't you think he should be awarded or be given compliments over his hardworks? Do we really have to ditch him from the society just because of one immoral act that he does? When he is capable of doing many other tasks efficiently?

The same analogy applies to this girl's case. She might be bisexual, but if she is just touching you BECAUSE of her habits, can you jump up to a conclusion that she really likes you? Should you go on thinking "OMG I should stay away from her, I'm going to be the next victim!" And the best part is that, what if that girl has helped you a lot? Although I didn't know her much but hey, she has helped me in doing my assignments! she has been much of a big help to me and I can't thank her enough for that. The way I studied her, she is really a bright, brilliant and an intelligent girl. So do you think they deserved to be treated that way by us?

If she touch certain spots which can be considered as 'trespassing' or over the limit, I believe that an action should be taken then. But if it is just touching normal parts of the body, you can't just simply say that you're victimized. This post may seem pointless, but my actual point here is that you can't make ridiculous assumptions without discovering it first.

Plus, ditching those type of people due to a reason of self-awareness is simply unfair in my judgment. They have the right to live, they have the right to feel how wonderful the world can be. They have the right to talk and going around with other people. They have the right to look for friends, but here we are, ditching them in a manner that they do not deserve to live at all. We are actually the ones who should be giving them encouragements, faith, moral supports and guidance in order to bring them back to the way they originally are. We may not know the right way to do such things but there are always other people who can help them. We can just support them from behind. Isn't that what a human being supposed to do? We are born to help each other, to love and be loved, to treat other the way we want to be treated, not ditching and simply make them targets of ridicule and humiliation that can simply bring them down or if worse, can make them become aggressive.

Do you think the LGBT people ask for them to become like that? They're helpless, and here we are, letting them down, making them feel more hopeless and helpless to change themselves again.

You know, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender - people are people. -Judith Light

Parents Wish- Must Read Till End :')

2011-07-19T13:07:00.003+08:00

Umrah part 2.

2011-07-18T17:23:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers!

Here's another album of pictures of our Umrah trip. Enjoy!! ^^

A trip to remember. Umrah 2011

2011-07-18T17:04:00.003+08:00

Hello Readers!

Okay, I know it's like a really really reallyyy an overdue post, but I still want to share the moments here with you guys. Enjoy!!

At the Magnetic Hill.

At the Quba Mosque

At the entrance of An-Nabawi Mosque

The mahram lol XD

The beauty of the night =)

This is so wonderful =)

BASKIN ROBIN! =D

It was really an enjoyable and a peaceful trip for me. You can never find such calm and wonderful place like this. I won't forget those moments when I prayed in front of the beautiful Ka'ba. Although I wasn't be able to enter the interior of the An-Nabawi mosque, I'm happy enough to be able to send my Salam to the Prophet Muhammad saw. :)

Let's see how far we've come.

2011-07-18T16:21:00.005+08:00

Hello Readers!

Sorry for not posting for a really really really really reaaalllyyyyy long time!! I have my own reason for not posting, ~~IT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO~~ JUST KIDDIN! It's because I was very busy with my uni life and now it's midterm break so yeahhh, I'm A BIT free when I actually have like tonnes of assignments waiting for me to finish them off! -sigh-

My Dad must have come home already. He went to Kuantan to visit me 2 days ago, and I spent my 2 days hang out with him and my Grandma as well as my aunts. I miss my Dad so much already!!! ='( It's okay Dayah, you can see them on Raya later on. Can't wait for Raya to comeeeee!!!

Sorry people, even though I'm here to post but there's nothing much that I can say, life has been pretty hectic nowadays but friends and families keep me going. So yeah, thanks a lot my darlings. Hopefully I can go through this 1 whole semester very well and finish it cleanly. Cleanly? *roll eyes*

And yeah, like what some people always say, uni life is different, and yeah, it is indeed different from secondary and primary school life. Kindergarten even. You have to deal with different sorts of people from different backgrounds and it's kinda hard to find someone that suits you perfectly. That is why most people agree that best friends are usually found during high school times. And somehow, I agree with the statement.

I'm not saying that uni friends are all bad. It's just that everyone have their own characteristics and they match with people who are of the same characteristics as them and even have common interests. But one thing that I find in common is that our academical interests and our knowledge about certain issues that are related with what we are studying. Birds of the same feathers flock together, and that's how we are similar, compared to during high schools when you and your friends have different knowledge on something, different points of view, different ambitions and lots more. But the thing that brings you guys closer is that you have been together for years, and you know each other very well. Some have even adapted themselves to that kind of situations. Some can even accept their friends the way they are.

You will rarely face these kinds of situations in university as you see, meet and deal with different types of people every semesters as it keeps on changing. But as long as you know how to adapt yourself to the new situation, you know that you're going to be just fine. Friends are meant to be loved forever, no matter where and when we know them; regardless in university, high schools ~~and even before you came to live.~~

I'm just crapping and rambling about random stuffs. I'll have to get back to my assignments so.. That's all people. I'm out!

There is no point in wishing things can be different. We cannot change the past. We can only accept the change and move forward. - ohteenquotes.

New Life.

2011-06-18T17:13:00.007+08:00

Hello Readers :D

It has been a month since I am away from my hometown, away from my family, my lovely cats and my home sweet home. How I wish I can spend more time doing useful things during 6 months of my so-called boring holidays. I should cherish the holidays well before I leave to a new world full of business.

I have gotten used to the new environment. It would be a lie if I tell you that I do not miss my family at all. I do, I really do. But I have so many companions and friends over here, it was so much fun that I do not feel homesick at all. Talking about the new life as a university student, I have started with my lessons last 2 weeks.

It was kinda tough, really. I do not mean the schedule, I'm referring to the lectures. First week was all fine, but starting from the second week, I can feel the pressure. Assignments were increasing day by day and yes, it really reminds me of my school times. But I'm thankful enough to have such intelligent, experienced, and versatile lecturers. Even though sometimes people are just not satisfied over a small matter, I personally think that it was due to indulgence and upbringing influences. I might have never completed my school works when I was in school, so it might be kinda hard for me to complete the assignments which are given to me at one time. However, I believe that all lecturers and teachers do that and it is part of their jobs to give us extra works to do by ourselves. Without the assignments, we're not university students, right? This is just like what my teacher used to say:

The life of a university student begins at 12.

And I think I've got the meaning now. If you still can't get it, ask my teacher, lol XD

Regarding the class, there are 31 of us in a classroom. I could say, it was fine, but I somehow feel like I still need more time to get to know them more. And I think they also feel the same thing. The class somehow has made me missing my school times.

I realized that I am now in a new world, in an entirely different world. I'm no longer living in my own world, but in other's, which, I have to get myself used to the new environment. I have to be able to adapt myself to the new surroundings, learn to live and learn to accept new things and accept challenges. All of my friends are now away too, and they live happily now. So I have to be just like them too. I believe that sooner or later, I will get used to the new classmates and mingle around with them. They are not that bad. In fact, they have their own interesting sides in them too! It is still a new thing to me so I'm kinda surprised, but I like it. They get along easily despite living in different states in Malaysia. They are nice to each other too. It was just me who still can't bring myself close to them. Like I said, I'm not good at making new friends and I need more time, even longer than the others. So, I believe that I will be able to be friend with them sooner or later.

As for the facilities and hostel, I'm satisfied with it. I live in an apartment-like hostel and there are 3 rooms in a house, and a room can fill in 5 people. So, there are 15 of us altogether in the house. They are all fine and funny. I'm grateful to have such kind, sporting, happy go lucky and funny housemates. We would talk together in a living room and laugh, even though time would strike 12 at midnight. We would ask for each other's opinion, and they are all helpful. I love being with my housemates and I hope they're happy to have me as their housemate even though I'm not being much of help to them. They are from different states in Malaysia, some are from Sabah, Kuantan, Temerloh, Negeri Sembilan, Shah Alam, Terengganu and Kelantan. But please, don't judge the book by its cover. Both of my Kelantanese and Terengganu housemates are not racist. They are also Korean addicts! lol and they're funny, seriously. They always make me laugh, which reminds me of the time I used to laugh my heart out together with my best friends. The only thing is that, they are not used to see people laughing with all their heart content just like what I did. I know it's not good for a girl to laugh like that, and that's what they thought. But sorry, I just can't resist that. =D

I wish to write more, but it seems like I have to go now. My assignments are calling me...again.

Buy hey, don't you feel grateful with what you have in your life?