tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123116362023-07-13T06:01:10.366-04:00The Joys of CaffeineJust a random series of thoughts and musings most of which will be written under the influence of caffeine (or alcohol).Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.comBlogger386125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-73658085195335634402012-06-28T09:34:00.000-04:002012-06-28T09:34:48.649-04:00Wow - CD's still exist!!<span style="background-color: white;">Yesterday I did something that I haven't done in literally about 4 or 5 years and that is buying a CD. I debated buying the album on iTunes but decided that I'd like to have a physical copy of the CD. I guess I was feeling a little nostalgic and I really like the band so I wanted to support them. The band in case you're curious is the Offspring and this is their latest album Days go by.</span><br />
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Walking into the HMV was quite surreal because I haven't been in one in a couple years and I was surprised how different it was, there were DVDs (which didn't surprise me) and CDs (duh) but there was so much other stuff. T-shirts, books, and even Angry Birds mugs. Really? <br />
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This will probably be the last CD I ever buy (unless someone wants one as a gift). The technology is dead and gone. Apple has made sure that we never need to buy a CD ever again and other than the cover art I totally get it.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-86287672816405743842012-06-11T14:02:00.000-04:002012-06-11T14:03:59.575-04:00Three years of silence!<p>I was taking a look at all of my sites (I have a couple) reviewing what's there and what to do with everything essentially I was just trying to figure out if I wanted to continue them and I found this site my very first blog. Yes this little personal site is my first foray into blogging and its thrilling and exciting that I'm surprised it hasn't blossomed further. Before anyone comments on the self deprecating nature of my comments this is a sad little blog though it definitely doesn't need to be. </p>
<p>I realized that it's been about three years since I last wrote on here. Wow has a lot changed since I first wrote on this blog and even since I wrote my last post. This site is also over 7 years old which is long; the world was so different when i started it. </p>
<p>Its strange when a simple blog can spur a whole litany of thoughts and musings about what has and what hasn't happened. Three years ago I was a new father just barely getting any sleep with a newborn in the house (well mostly newborn). Now she's running around like a maniac driving us to distraction. I miss having this venting spot... and the reality is I never lost it I just got absorbed in everything else in my life.</p>
<p>I'm not sure what to do with this little site because I want to keep it but I'm not sure what to write; though I'm sure if I started writing again I could definitely come up with things. Its just not really the same site as before. Maybe the idea will be to just start writing? </p>
<p>I don't get a lot of traffic on here (for obvious reasons) and maybe I should take advantage of that and just write what comes to mind? Most of it won't be exciting but at least it will get me writing again.</p>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-45233554516884479732009-06-14T22:48:00.002-04:002009-06-14T23:08:47.318-04:00Random Thoughts and MusingsMany moons ago I started writing on this blog, back in April of 2005 to be exact which makes this blog a little over 4 years old. A lot has happened since I started writing here and a lot has changed. Now don't worry I'm not about to go into a big monolog about what has and what has not happened since then (mostly because that would take me too long to write and frankly I'm being lazy at the moment). <br /><br />The net result is I am no longer the same person I was when I started writing here and my goals and thoughts are a lot different. One constant is I am still me. I still have goals, I still work, and I still function as part of society. I guess I have undergone a lot of change since I started writing this blog and I think I am slowly starting to get a better grip on who I am and what I want to do. <br /><br />If you're reading this question a very simple question probably popped into your mind: why the fuck would I care? Well having a good understanding of yourself and where you want to go can mean the difference between being successful and just getting along. I'm still in the latter but less so day by day and year by year. <br /><br />I've always liked having this site around, mostly because it was my first blog and like the first person you sleep with there is some weird twisted attachement that has formed. I just don't want to get rid of it and I have never pretended that it is anything other than a personal blog so I can vent and rant and just go off on random topics kind of like this one. This site is my own personal soap box unassociated from well pretty much anything else I do. <br /><br />I am not sure yet what if anything this means for this little blog other than I'm not about to delete it... yet... I have contemplated deleting the posts and starting fresh and linking to everything else I do online. Still up in the air about that. I guess in a strange sort of way I'm just asserting that this is my own little space that no one can get at and its important to have. <br /><br /></step off soapbox>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-46858822636216527772009-03-15T18:00:00.001-04:002009-03-15T18:00:17.879-04:00Changes and balance<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Over the past couple weeks... actually I would even say over the past couple months I have really be noticing change. And I am not speaking about myself but change in general. I drive past places that I have driven past for years and things just look different. Change is probably one of the few constants in life yet we all cling to the things that are static. <br/><br/>I see people who do the same things over and over again living their lives in almost a bubble. They don't care about the world they don't care about anything (at least this is what it seems like). They spend years going to work coming home, watching TV and then doing it all over again. Their lives are spend doing virtually nothing yet all around us change happens. <br/><br/>Unless you live in a sleepy town in the middle of nowhere its hard not to notice changes. The face of the city I live in has changed. There are more buildings around now than there were even 10 years ago. I see all of this change and think about that proverbial person who sits at home night in night out watching TV doing nothing. I don't want to be that person. <br/><br/>At times I feel like I have wasted tons of time doing meaningless things and then at others I see that I have accomplished a fair bit. The reality is probably somewhere in the middle. Could I have done more with my life up until now? Of course I could have but I can also say I've accomplished a few things and enjoyed life and experienced it. <br/><br/>Being very cognizant of change makes me want to accomplish more; there are ideas that pop into my head yet when it comes time to doing something about them the scope of the idea and the effort involved seems like too much and in the end not much gets done. Breaking the ideas down and keeping at them for a while will work but again its making that effort. Its hard finding that balance but then again to really accomplish change should there really be any balance? I'm starting to think that from time to time you need to forgo the balance and take the chance for change. <br/><br/>I think its time to take some of these ideas and make some changes. Keeping everything balanced is fine but if it means you come home and sit down watching the TV night in, night out might not be worth it. The reality of the effort and change doesn't have to be profound. To take an hour out of each day to work on a project might be a lot so for arguments sake say you only spend 30 minutes a day. At the end of the year you'll have spent 182.5 hours working on that project (its the equivalent of almost 5 work weeks). Unless you're trying to build a house that time can really add up to some thing. You can keep the balance to some degree but don't forsake change. <br/><br/><div class='zemanta-pixie'><img src='http://img.zemanta.com/pixy.gif?x-id=b4093388-0d07-448c-bd8b-dc348db483ce' class='zemanta-pixie-img'/></div></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-16263331063983074782009-02-08T17:35:00.001-05:002009-02-08T17:35:53.657-05:00Quiet<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I don't remember the last time I sat quietly and did pretty much nothing. For the last half an hour I've been sitting with the baby napping in her swing. The humidifier is going in the background and a train just went by. I haven't had this much quiet in a while. I normally don't notice the fact that the humidifier is going other than to put some water into it. <br/><br/>There is too much hussle and bussle in life its nice to occasionally get a reminder to stop and pause. This type of pause really forces me to realize that a lot of the stresses and seriousness of life is imagined or imposed. How important are all of those emails you spent all day procrastinating about? <br/><br/>I have enjoyed my moment of silence and I'm going to try including them more often in my days. <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-16229323980935054342009-01-28T19:55:00.001-05:002009-01-28T19:55:05.454-05:00I'm bored of winter already<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Normally you'd never hear me say something like that but I'm getting a tad bored of the cold weather and lots of snow. I know this is something I should be used to but over the past couple winters there has been a lot more snow that normal and I think I'm starting to feel the winter blahs. I've never given it much creedence but this year I'm really looking forward to some warmer weather. <br/><br/>Maybe it has something to do with the fact that the baby has really kept us at home and not doing much, other than looking after her. Maybe it's something else but I am definitely ready to shed the winter jacket. I still think the snow is pretty and I think I will always like winter but for whatever reason this year I just need a warm break - too bad that's not planned till next winter. <br/><br/>Do you get the winter blahs? What do you do about them? <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-10726208908668875902009-01-04T12:11:00.001-05:002009-01-04T12:11:38.791-05:00Happy New Years!!!!!<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Happy 2009 everyone I know almost no one comes to this blog anymore but I don't write much so that doesn't surprise me. If you do happen to stumble on this blog or happen to be one of the few people that have keep me on your RSS list I hope you have a great 2009. I'm hoping that this year isn't as fucking crazy as last year for me. 2 Jobs, a new house, and most importantly a baby make for a really busy year. I just want this year to slow down a bit so I can enjoy it. <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-41281286326245977722008-10-10T10:47:00.001-04:002008-10-10T10:47:12.718-04:00It's a Girl!!<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I know I haven't been posting much on here over the past little while and lately I haven't been posting on any of my sites because things have been so incredibly busy. Well most of this was surrounding one event in my life - the fact my wife was pregnant. Well I've got great news, she's no longer pregnant. We are now the proud parents of a baby girl that was born this past weekend. I'm brimming with pride and essentially telling everyone I know or encounter that I'm a dad now.<br/><br/>Its a very profound event in a persons life. I'll never get over that and never forget it. This little life is so dependent on me and especially my wife. <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-48216356225538305982008-08-25T12:59:00.001-04:002008-08-25T12:59:20.211-04:00A Coffee and some Emails<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>Right now I'm sitting in a Starbucks having a cappuccino and checking my emails - some work some not. I think this is the coolest thing that I'm no longer tied to being in an office to be able to do some work. Shit being able to sit in a different environment every day to do some work or even some blogging is very neat. <br/><br/>The thing that I'm curious about is why so many employers have an issue with allowing something like this. Today happens to be a bit of an anomaly since I'm waiting for a meeting but normally he doesn't like me working off site. My productivity would be so much better if I could work independent of an office. <br/><br/>Now I think its time to get something to eat and go to my meeting. <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-33292717360543017892008-08-21T12:41:00.001-04:002008-08-21T12:41:39.036-04:00An Introspective Day<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'><div align='center'><a href='http://www.flickr.com/photos/7833714@N03/2784662160'><img src='http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3066/2784662160_2f41057fc2.jpg'/></a><br/></div><div align='left'>Some days you get up and you're full of energy and ready to take on the world and other days you're tired and lethargic. For me the past few days have been somewhat introspective days. I'm not entirely sure why but I've been thinking about where I am in life and what will be coming up. I've had decent year so far and I'm happy with where I am at the moment. Not everything is perfect my finances are still pretty fucked up but I know I'm making the changes that I need to improve them and that it will take a while. <br/></div><br/>I've been thinking about goals lately - I don't have a lot of them at the moment. Maybe this is a good thing. Having too many goals can translate to not accomplishing any of them. On the other hand having none can be just as bad because you're floating around doing nothing. The main goal for me right now is to get a few things back on track: <br/><br/><ul><li>Writing</li><li>Finances</li><li>Prepping for the Baby (House preparations)</li></ul>The past couple months have been busy and I just haven't been making the time to write as much as I would have liked. The thing is that I've been lazy and the first thing that's fallen off has been the writing. But I find that when this happens I really miss it. I write on a couple blogs and I just haven't been giving them their due attention; even this one. I think its time to start making a bit more of an effort on this front. <br/><br/>My finances - well they're getting back on track. I'm now paying my bills on time and spending close to the same amount of money that I'm bringing in. This is nice but its not going to pay down my debt any faster. This one is more of an active goal/project<br/><br/>The baby is due in a couple months and there's still a bunch of stuff that needs to be done before the arrival. Most of tasks associated with this are physical in that the house needs to be ready for the baby's arrival. The biggest problem with this goal/project is that the list of items to do around the house seems to be never ending and its daunting. For some reason that alone makes me not want to get going on it. I think a bit more proactivity will help here. <br/><br/>Now those are the active goals or projects that I'm working on. They're all very immediate and ongoing. Even after the baby arrives there will be a lot of stuff that needs to be done around the house and I need to just keep plugging at this. But what about the bigger goals? I can't just have a handful of small goals that I'm working towards what about the bigger goals? What do I want to do? Well the finances goal does partially lend itself to the bigger and longer term goals. The things I want to do take time and money and with a lot of money I could take time to accomplish them. <br/><br/>But what are these goals? If I had the time to do anything I wanted what would I do? I'm not sure but I think its time to just put some ideas down on paper and see where they take me. Here are some that popped into my mind recently:<br/><br/><ul><li>Climb mount everest</li><li>Summer in France - or at the least learn French</li><li>Visit Japan</li><li>Sail the Caribbean </li><li>Get a Masters Degree<br/></li><li>Be worth 100 Million Dollars</li></ul>Ok so the last one isn't overly realistic - who cares. Some of these are merely ideas and I'm not even sure if they're all valid. Now on top of the big grandious ideas I've also been thinking about what to do next. What my work goals are, where I want to be in a few years and more importantly who I want to be in a few years. Some of this thinking also involves the little one thats on the way how does that come into the picture. <br/><br/>Lots of questions... few solid answers but the lack of these answers is a problem I think. Maybe I need to take a day or two off and just chill and ponder these big questions. <br/><br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-21359620523481728002008-08-18T14:23:00.001-04:002008-08-18T14:23:20.426-04:00Sick as a dog<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'><a href='http://www.flickr.com/photos/90537344@N00/2532363022'><img src='http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3058/2532363022_56502a97f7.jpg'/></a><br/>In my last post I was debating about what to do with this site and the thoughts are still bumping around in my head. This was always meant to be a personal blog but now that statement doesn't conjure exciting images in my head. My life has calmed down and settled down quite considerably - I've even got a kid on the way. With that said will there still be people interested in what I have to say or do I change/expand what I write about here? <br/><br/>I already have two other blogs and I've experimented with others over the years they've all been very niche and a couple have made me a little money (I stress little). How do I expand what I write about here? With a name like the joys of caffeine and smoking and alcohol as images in the header one would think this was more about partying than anything else. I'm still not sure about the site - I think I'll keep it for a while and maybe even write once in a while. The next order of business will be to remove that header since I'm not about the smoking and drinking anymore (I still do both but on a smaller scale) and there aren't likely to be exciting stories coming out of it. <br/><br/>This is a bit of a mute question since I don't have many readers left - How would you change a personal blog to reflect your life changes? How would you introduce more interesting topics? <br/><br/>Final Note: Yes I am sick - managed to get a cold. <br/><br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-56097434576068584652008-08-14T08:57:00.001-04:002008-08-14T08:57:55.046-04:00Torn about this space<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'><div align='center'><a href='http://www.flickr.com/photos/77371991@N00/2757160729'><img src='http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3282/2757160729_9f55d1f711.jpg'/></a><br/></div><br/>I've had this site up for literally years but over the past year or almost two I haven't been posting. This site was my initial foray into blogging but unfortunately the site wasn't structured in any way shape or form. Topics were all over the place and it was often nothing more than a place for me to vent. <br/><br/>Its nice to be able to just go off about something or someone just because... but it doesn't work when you want to talk about a couple topics and not much more. A lot has changed for me since I first started this thing up and now I'm wondering if it even makes sense to keep it around. I guess I could shift a few things around and simply modify the site... I don't know. <br/><br/>Should I just delete it? Keep the content in some archive? <br/><br/>*sigh* I'm not certain and I don't really know what to do about it. I guess it doesn't hurt to just leave it where it is for the time being. Maybe if I play around with the design it'll get me going again on this site.</div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-19824091491344163382008-04-15T09:02:00.001-04:002008-04-15T09:02:03.224-04:00One thing at a time!<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I'm really frustrated this morning and trying to get to too many things at once. I have to keep reminding myself that I can only do one thing at a time. Start one task and see it through till its finished rather than trying to multitask on too many silly things at the same time. I've discovered that when I try to multitask one thing happens - nothing gets done well and all of the tasks take longer than if I were to do them sequentially but individually. <br/><br/>We live in this hurry up and give me that brain-fart faster than you did yesterday. Unfortunately most of those brainfarts are really just that brainfarts that don't really mean anything in the long run. I am really on this big simplicity kick lately and doing one thing at a time is part of that. It's been a bit of a struggle lately since I keep trying to pull myself into three or four directions at once which doesn't help. A perfect example of this is this post - I got distracted twice and almost started something else once. <br/><br/>ONE THING AT A TIME - you'll be surprised what you might be able to accomplish. <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-71778572031689877822008-04-11T15:50:00.001-04:002008-04-11T15:50:58.452-04:00I'm alive! <div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I know I haven't written on here in ages - I've been busy and when I'm busy I have to stop spreading myself too thin. This blog is unfortunately one of the things that ends up dropping off the list really fast. Its not that I don't want to write, I do, but this blog is a personal blog for me and I've come to the realization that I'm something of a private person. Because of that I end up not writing here as much as I used to... the weird thing is this blog is an annonymous blog so I should be able to write a boatload more than I feel like I should/can. <br/><br/>I'm still up in the air about this site - I keep it anonymous yet I still don't want to write too much that's personal. I guess I know how easily someone could figure out what I write. The amusing thing is nothing I would write here would be damaging in any way shape or form. So I struggle with this site... its my personal blog but I don't want to write too much thats personal which doesn't leave me with much. The net result is rather than think about it this site just does nothing. Add to that a busy schedule and *poof* I barely remember it exists. <br/><br/>I installed this cool plugin for firefox that might let me write a bit more called <a href='http://www.scribefire.com/'>Scribefire</a>. This app lets me start and write a post out of my browser wherever I might be and pushes it to blogger. I guess I'll see if it has any bearing on frequency of posts. Other than that I'm alive doing alright... keeping myself out of trouble for the most part. <br/><br/>Are there any readers left out there? <br/></div>Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-24869743462474269102008-01-07T10:58:00.000-05:002008-01-07T11:02:28.928-05:00Day 7 - 3 days dry, 3 wet (today is pending)So we're 7 days into the new year and I'm quite impressed by the fact that I've managed to keep the drinking down a fair bit. Its a lot harder than I thought it would be but at the same time its been a lot easier than I thought it would be too. I was expecting headaches and withdrawal symptoms but they're not happening.<br /><br />Last year drinking became a hobby for me more than anything else. It was a way of escaping. In the past I would see 200 movies a year as way to escape from reality. Recently its been drinking. I think its time to grow up and start acting normal - I don't recognize myself anymore.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-91799958161380110832007-12-10T10:24:00.000-05:002007-12-10T10:32:12.636-05:00Bent RealityI haven't written here in so long I'm amazed that the site still exists. I used to write here when I was bored at a job I didn't really like. They didn't like something and gave me a nice package to go away. I'm onto job number 2 since and its been going well I guess. I cannot imagine how much I've changed since that boring waste of time. <br /><br />Its amazing when things do change and you look back and realize holy fuck I spent 6 years doing nothing! I could have done so much more!<br /><br />Ahh but hind site is 20/20. Needless to say I've missed writing on here. I would vent creatively about the woes in my life and just shoot the shit. I even made a couple friends as a result of this blog. I never made any money off of it which was I think part of the idea when I started. Funny the reasons we do things sometimes. <br /><br />I think I would like to start writing again on this site. I honestly think it might make me a bit happier to vent creatively an mostly anonymously on this blog. Right now about the only person that hears my venting is my wife... why should she have all the fun? Actually it would be nice to have a general personal soapbox to just write. <br /><br />When I first started this site I really cared about how many people were coming to the site and the comments they left. I even put some monetization on it. I think its time to just write and if people come and leave comments then all the better but I think its just time to write.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-7070243321265118652007-07-23T10:00:00.000-04:002007-07-23T10:43:46.333-04:00I am AliveI've had an incredibly busy summer so far and I had to drop certain things from my plate... this was one of them. I really enjoyed writing on here and I plan to get back to it at some point in the future... heck this might be the post that does it. I'm not quite there yet though and I wanted to make sure all the 2 or 3 people left that come back here know I'm alive... married, and enjoying life at the moment.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-31356390325770405732007-03-09T09:44:00.000-05:002007-03-09T09:52:22.390-05:00Fallen leaves on the ground!Woo hoo! working from home on a friday! Doesn't get fucking much better than that... wait sure it does but its pretty sweet either way. I can finally get caught up on some of that work stuff. <br /><br />I know I haven't been posting, mostly because I've been busy with work and planning for the wedding and that kinda fun stuff. The worst part is I have lots of shit to write about but by the time I get to a comp its gone. Think about it, I take a subway every single day. This is cannon foder for so many different posts its unbelievable. But like I said... this work thing gets in the way (at least mentally)<br /><br />Here's a couple vids that I thought were cool: <br />Video 1 - <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMUwJkaKTdY&mode=related&search=">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMUwJkaKTdY&mode=related&search=</a><br />Video 2 - <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hakhbINcoXU">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hakhbINcoXU</a><br /><br />Enjoy... I'll post at some point in the not too distant pastMatthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-61051701869889452132007-02-12T08:17:00.000-05:002007-01-29T08:32:38.984-05:00Another ExperimentI've noticed that since I've started working my new job a couple things have been happening with this blog: <br /><br /><ul><br /><li>I post on Mondays</li><br /><li>I seem to write about little experiments I try</li><br /><li>All of the things I would write about I forget before I get a chance to write about them</li><br /></ul><br /><br />So this week is time to start another little experiment! This might mean that I actually post a couple times this week; imagine that. Yes that was sarcasm. <br /><br />Now onto the idea for this little experiment: Try to not drink every day this week. I would have said try not to drink at all during the week but we've got Valentines in the middle of the week so lets not be silly there will be drinking on that day. But the goal for me is to try not to drink as much as I have in the past. Money is one consideration but I've started to think I drink too much. <br /><br />Take yesterday for example, I didn't drink but I met up with a friend for an early dinner and the first thing I wanted to do is buy a beer. Now there's nothing wrong with buying a beer when out with friends. But I've been drinking a bit too much lately and I'm starting to feel like I'm not being healthy at all. I've just been feeling like its too much and yesterday was a bit of an example when not buying a beer caused me some trepidation and angst. <br /><br />This experiment is just more of an effort to cut back rather than a true experiment; I just don't want to feel like alcohol is my crutch and my bane due to the costs. <br /><br />Ok; Monday post done. Time to get ready for work.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-22674213773202277772007-01-29T08:28:00.000-05:002007-01-29T08:32:39.118-05:00TiredI'm still playing hockey on sunday nights and last nights game was a late one; needless to say I got into bed close to 1:30 am with the full knowledge that I was getting up in 5 hours. I knew I'd be tired but holy fuck am I exhausted. Seriously I used to live on 5 hours of sleep today I think I might end up pouring an obsene amount of coffee and caffeine into my system just so I can stumble through the day. Fuck being coherent today, I'm just aiming for upright. <br /><br />It makes you wonder why people will tire themselves out to the point of exhaustion like this, in my case I do really like the hockey but i used to do it just for fun. I don't need a great deal of sleep and had I gotten maybe another hour or two more I'd be right as rain but I didn't. Anyhow I should quit my bitching and start getting ready for work like I should have about 20 minutes ago. <br /><br />I'll try to post about an experiment that we're trying tomorrow - Assuming we can get it started.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-75079539251439777492007-01-22T08:38:00.000-05:002007-01-22T08:44:18.655-05:00The silence on this blogYou know originally I wrote on this blog as an excuse not to do work and I did this for close to two years. It was a great way to vent and kill time at the same time. Now with my new job there's no time for this and even if there was I wouldn't want to do it. I've actually managed to find a job that gives me a challenge and an opportunity so I won't fuck with it. Unfortunately that doesn't leave much time for writing on this blog. <br /><br />What you ask? You've got tons of time... ah but if this were my only blog then I would be in complete agreement with you but it's not. I've got another and surprisingly it's already gotten more traffic than this one has in a couple years. <br /><br />Now before anyone thinks I'm going to drop this site, rest assured I'm not! I like this site because it lets me write about whatever the fuck I please like and swear and all that fun stuff. I can write about hockey one day and then drinking the next and the fact that Hillary Clinton would get my vote on the third without anyone batting an eyelash. I've wanted to change the template for a while... maybe that's what this place needs for me to write more? I don't know but this is going to be my personal place to bitch and rant about shit how I want and when I want. So I'm not going away but there maybe spots of silence.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-39248636802600143552007-01-15T07:52:00.000-05:002007-01-15T07:55:27.849-05:00Happy New YearWow it's been almost a whole month since I last posted; that's a long time. I've just kind of been in my own little bubble. I missed the whole new years post so happy new years everyone. There's no real resolutions this year, mostly because I didn't keep any of them last year. <br /><br />The new job is great! I'm totally loving it but if I thought I had little time before I've got even less now (at least from a posting point of view). I just wanted to write a quick note; still alive just busy.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-25183377574828571302006-12-18T08:31:00.000-05:002006-12-18T08:33:27.960-05:00Resignation DaySo I managed to find myself a new position that pays a whole hell of a lot less than my current one but I'm excited about starting there and I know that I'll have an instant impact to the company. It's small and in an area of work that I'm very familiar with. So that just leaves one thing to do... resign. I've only resigned a handful of times in my life and each time I did I had to deal with a negative reaction from my bosses... they were all distraught that I left and some of them got all defensive trying to get me to give them a good reason for leaving. <br /><br />I'm not looking forward to actually resigning, here's hoping it goes smoothly.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-46586853680477389832006-12-12T15:11:00.001-05:002006-12-12T15:11:53.890-05:00Good Ol' Bob - Some humourBob works hard at the plant and spends two nights each week bowling and<br />plays golf every Saturday.<br /><br />His wife thinks he's pushing himself too hard, so for his birthday she<br />takes him to the local strip club for some fun.<br /><br />The doorman greets them and says "Hey Bob, how ya doin?".<br /><br />Bob's wife is puzzled and asks if he's been to this club before.<br /><br />"Oh no" replied Bob. "He's on my bowling team".<br /><br />When they are seated, a waitress asks Bob if he'd like his usual and<br />brings over a Budweiser.<br /><br />His wife is becoming increasingly more uncomfortable and says "How did<br />she know you drink Budweiser?"<br /><br />"I recognize her, she's the waitress at the golf club and I always have<br />a Bud at the turn Honey."<br /><br />A stripper then come over to the table and throws her arms around Bob<br />and says "Hi Bobby. Want your usual table dance big boy?"<br /><br />Bob's wife, now furious, grabs her purse and storms out of the club.<br /><br />Bob follows her and spots her getting into a cab.<br /><br />Before she can slam the door, he jumps in beside her.<br /><br />Bob desperately tries to explain how the stripper must have mistaken him<br />for someone else, but his wife is having none of it.<br /><br />She is screaming at him at the top of her voice calling him every four<br />letter word in the book.<br /><br />The cabby turns around and says, "Geez, Bob you picked up a real bitch<br />this time!"Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12311636.post-33826013914973698992006-12-04T10:31:00.000-05:002006-12-04T10:33:41.727-05:00Happiness Experiment: Some ThoughsYou know I've got to say this little experiment really did make a difference, I know that I didn't post anything over the weekend but I continued the experiment. So it's been a week since I started it and I'm overall in a bit of a better mood. I think I'll try to continue this for another week and see if any additional benefits come out of it. <br /><br />OK back to pretending to work for a little bit - post later.Matthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13676159924120076975noreply@blogger.com0