The Bowlers Bowling Through Life

Sledding in Saint George

2011-02-27T16:40:00.000-08:00

Emma Rose so brave first one down

Mom and J.J

Uncle Chuck and J.J so cute

Final talked him in to doing it a lone

My brave J.J final going down a lone

Emma and Mom (Me)

SO sledding there not much I can add to this only it has been year from the time I lift for school let only been married that I had been sledding. I didn't realize how I missed it till got invited to sledding that day. By the way Thomas was there in his only little snow suit. Should got picture of him in that he couldn't move at all. But sad to say we were having to much fun with all of this, going down hill our selves. It sure helped with the home sickness I felt that day.

moister snow what ever you call all that white stuff it can be fun somethings

2011-02-27T15:39:00.000-08:00

home in Saint George

Grandparents in Boston

Moister That word makes me laugh giggle snicker whatever you want to call it when your trying hard to not to laugh during someone opening or closing prayer in a meeting at church. Be from Boston we call it what it is Rain, Sleet, Snow, Hail it all has it own fun name because some it worse the other to us. But whatever it is coming from heaven ye it is moister but please call it what it is man it's got different name for good reason. I mean you say so now at home ok how much depends on weather there is school. Some not all but a lot of native don't know how to drive in a inches or less so if we got more on man they would there would be massive confuse n. Also if does stick there the need to play in it with as long as it's here like you seen with our snow men. So moister weather it's all that white stuff or rain it can be trouble if get to warm to fast here. We have bad flooding that just a short five and half year ago almost took out my in laws house. Not to meant those who sadly did lose there homes. Even so when it he creek or river whatever you call the water running though the area before the flood. After it's been rain like does at home for just a day or even a couple have a raging river that for whatever reason people have seen before have to stop and look at still on the high way no less. I sorry drive me crazy if I was behind you on the high way I am sorry but I started scream yelling to move out my way. At which my five year daughter asked me what wrong mom are you ok. Yea I am ok it's must the rain making everyone think they have to stray at it. I like the smell of rain and snow they smell different here then they do at home don't believe. Live here and there ( Boston) you will know the differences. Either way I like both but please call it what it is.. :0)

Where my heart want to be for the moment

2011-02-18T08:41:00.000-08:00

I have been a little home sick lately and not so much home sick as I am family sick. Wanting and needing some time with the girls. Time with my Mom and Aunt Edie, My Emma and Alicia my sister. I miss each of these women so much Emma is with everyday but there are days I fight to send her to school. When I rather keep her home with me. Why do I miss these women out everyone in the world they know me in way that sometime I wonder if I know my self that good. Kind of how the lord know us and we think we know our selves really well till he give us a calling and shows he know us better then we know ourselves. That is these women and my daughter. We have have not had any girls time for a bit and so I wanting to go home it's a year from the time I was last there. An I just want to be in a home were most a best time were spent together laughing. An it will not matter really what we do as long as we are together. We have taught each other some life lesson that have changed us forever. I am expecting such learning to take place every time we get together it just happens when we together all on it's own. Out all the women in my life I have learned so much from each of this girls wonderful daughter of God. I have learned to love way beyond my self and right now needing a lesson in that. Lately I have been feeling selfish and not as giving. When we were together it just happened on it own and loved that we just felt it and went with it together. We are all still together on the phone a lot but in some way that isn't enough I feel so far a way from them. I hope that we can be together when money and lords see is best. I so much just want to be spiritual up lifted and laugh with them there laughs are the best sounds in the world it make me laugh and feel light and want laugh all the time. Which I haven't been doing enough of lately. Plus there is a special power that comes from Heavenly Father daughter getting together to be with each other that you can't get anywhere else it's amazing and testimony to how important it is we are there for each other everyday if can be. So that it with this long weekend a head I want a girls weekend to go play together. But it will have to wait may be I post all the other enter I have in the works by Monday may be if I am that bored ha ha not likely my family will keep me hoping. I love my family and love the Women in my family that help me stay grounded when I feel like just flying a way some days .

Saturday is the day to get ready for Sunday

2011-02-17T08:43:00.000-08:00

Welcome, Welcome, Sabbath Morning, Now we rest from ever care Welcome, Welcome, is thy Dawning Holy Sabbath Day of Prayer.

I love my dad :0)

This January 23, 2011 Sunday I gave a lesson on keeping the sabbath day holy and it took me back to the Saturdays that we worked hard to get ready for the sabbath day. So we were on time and keeping the day holy as best we can. It was a Summer day on Saturday and we were out working in the garden weeding and cleaning the house to get ready for Sunday. We my brother and I didn't feel like working that day but with the promise of dance that night we were willing to do what we had to do. So as grumbled about our work my daddy happily sang Saturday is a special day it's the day we get ready for Sunday we clean the house and shop at the store and weeded the garden and don't do again till Monday. This we know, but man we did not feel in the mood. But my dad so positive and up beat he was so good getting me at least excited about working to get ready for the sabbath. So as he made us laugh working hard and when we wouldn't stop complain he would do the little red hen thing putting his hand high up on his ribs saying he would do all by him self and get the reward him self. Seeing him do that and waiting for him to start strutting down one the rows like a chicken. It was funny to watch. It was really important to him and he wanted us to know it. When Sunday morning would roll around if we were at a dances or fireside late you could never till . He was up before any of us singing us a wake with Welcome Welcome Sabbath Morning Now,We Rest From Ever Care!! When we all could keep our eyes open even if was with out growling at him or each other. We would then ask both parent and dad would always say Jason " Is it fast Sunday ?" Dad and would always say no it a SLOW Sunday so get ready. Mom would just say no. The there way you always know it was Sunday was that my dad took the time to make eggs. He would do it some week day morning but on Sunday if he wasn't sick he always made Eggs& toast. It was so nice and something we could count to fill you up and keep you full though church. I loved and Sunday morning something they were the most stressful even now. But my dad attitude made the difference for me. One last thing that made us all laugh was one morning we were late by my dad standard would just walk in five minute before normal we were there a half hour early. So we were stuck behind someone going slow and dad would say come on people we not going to church for a funeral and we thought was funny because we were head to church but not for that reason. Sunday now aren't quit the same at our house a little more stress I think for me this time because I am the parent and we just have to walk around are fence to get to church. But being late still bugs me so bad. An if we were late we sit out in hall. Odd I know but like my dad had habit or ways doing things that made him my dad so it is with my husband. An as I learn to never forget the things that my dad taught me and adds those to our everyday work and life. I am writing down my husband and my way of raising our family and adding a little bit of both our dad's and idea's and making them our own and changing what want for us and what best. But I will never forget that my dad attitude I try so hard to have the same wonderful attitude.

Muppet Treasure Island: Cabin Fever!

2011-02-04T09:58:00.000-08:00

I am total copying Ginny blog about the whole cabin fever, but I wanted to share with you all how things been at my parents house. Every time I call this what it sounds like to me. An I am not joking I remember what was like to be stuck in the house because snow so glad I don't have to do this anymore but I know this tune all to well. Happy Early Spring Everyone :0)

Melissa

Happy Wort hog day !!!!

2011-02-01T18:16:00.000-08:00

Happy Wort hog day Tomorrow Everyone
Yes, that was I said and why well this why
Emma" Mom tomorrow it Wort hog day and we, the whole school and my class are going to see it."

Me " Really what is Wort hog day, or you mean Ground Hog day, (Laugh) O your cute."
Me " Emma I don't know how you will see it you have dentist appointment tomorrow."
Emma " Mom I have to see why is that tomorrow...everyone will see it and not me, start crying and ran to her room.

I got her to claim down and dry her tears I told her we could do something special for it tomorrow if she wouldn't cry. So I am hoping they post what the Ground Hog ( Wort Hog) has to say early afternoon so she can see him and know that we are having a early spring I pray. Why well when you know that your dad and brother get extra work when it snow great. But that much snow that much extra work my family never see's, each other. I am not even there and pray that it stops now this Ground Hog see his shadow means nothing to me really. But being raised in England they are superstitious and they believe it all the way, so whatever comes I am going to love it and know that the Wort Hog I mean Ground Hog means well. I just had to share my daughter excitement and total cuteness for all to know I have the best Miss Emma Rose in the world she is one of a kind.

Love Melissa :0)

What do I want????

2011-01-21T08:33:00.000-08:00

Dear Friends Follower and Who ever visit. What do I want for this little blog well to share with family and friends my life and also my testimony. Granted there are some of the blog I been follow that have way more talent in writing idea's etc. But I hope to up lift them as they have me and point it out and send other friend to go and see there wonderful works. I started this out because I wanted a way to get out and be social on a level I don't always get as a stay out home mom. Which rocks but can be lonely when your children are sick with the flu and the chicken pox and all the other things we have gotten one after another. An the biggest reason to write so when I am old and don't remember all the things I said or did or don't remember everything about my family I came from traditions I have some where I can go to show them what there all about. An who some these people were. Because my brother's and my dad really don't keep journal neither does my husband someone has to write about them if I don't who will. An then there is the hopes to link this with those of my past I don't know great great great grandparents I want to learn about and hopeful write about and find out about so I can learn how it all got to me here and now. SO that is it there you go come and go as you please and let me know if you like or not whatever but that's why like it doing and what I want for this blog :0)

Read the B.O.M before Easter

2011-01-20T10:37:00.000-08:00

Here I am trying to measure up again, but if I fall short of what I want the lord will help me make up difference one day I will be perfect like him but for now I like learning from mistake there good for me whatever they may be :0)

So the more time I spend journal online and blogging I am find all these cool blog that have been giving me great idea's, laughs and just make me smile though out the day. Well one of these blog gave challenge of reading the Book of Mormon by Easter. I have been focusing on trying to read the Conference Ensign one each day if possible that and the New Testament trying to stay on track with Sunday school. But also because it was my favorite year in seminary and it's a been a long that have gotten all the though. Plus Sunday we get talk about and enlighten one another I always love that part. So why am I sharing this here well for all of you who would like to try this with are welcome. I really loved doing when prophet asked not to long a go to read though it and with fourth ward Relief Society. An I find my self staying on task when I have starting and ending time. Other wise I get lost in pondering and sometime with everything that going on lose time to do it at all. But this helps me get done and make a must just like my goals I put up here on my blog and so far they are sticking. Well as best as can with life just being what it is always one advantage after another.
Any who, join in the fun and read with me I know that life is always getting in the way with these kind of thing but this make life, my life sweeter it will do the same for you if you let.

Love Melissa

My little Super hero's

2011-01-11T06:10:00.000-08:00

Emma's Cape is one her baby dolls blanket. An the laundry like said they make all the work we get done or not done worth it. We had been doing laundry all day.

J.J Cape is a pillow case, that was till he found an old baby blanket Thomas out grow to use for a cape.

Poor Thomas his great super power for me is sleep so we both get it more then we do right now . Or when these picture were taken this was right before the chicken pox started to show.

My Little Super Hero as they race around trying to help clean and make the baby laugh the brighten my day and make hard times so much easier. Super Emma & Awesome J.J & Fanatic Thomas there the ones that make all the work we do or don't do worth it. I so glad that heavenly father would give me such wonderful children to call my own.

Chicken Pox really it's the Chicken Pox

2011-01-06T08:21:00.000-08:00

Well here we are a new year and already going in to an area some Doctor's haven't seen in so long they don't know what it is. I had some how not something I really want to tell everyone but got Impetigo and well from where not sure. But with all the children I have been around for the holiday who know where. I had done quit well not giving to any of my children but a special Thomas who is nursing and teething well, I thought about Sunday I may have given it to him. So called his Doctor first thing Monday and got him a well child check for six month crazy it been that long from the time I had him. So got appointment but was not till Tuesday worry of him itching and spreading it I asked if they could call in something for him to help with the rash. That was until about noon I saw more and they were spreading so fast it look like chicken pox. So ok made a choice not waiting till tomorrow we are going to the Inst-care and getting him look at to see if it is Chicken Pox. Low and behold after being told a half hour was all it would take to see the doc. Well an hour later waiting out in waiting room a half hour the in the room in walks the Doc and he looks at him and says it could be from a verse or what you have. After looking at mine that what he deiced but before he said that the words that came out his mouth made him look and sound like a bone head. "I am not sure what it is". Wow think that don't say it when your a Doc he said he wasn't good at his rash. Well the study up. He sent us home with something for impetigo and said that if not this call me I would like to know what his Doctor has to say. Well took him in the next day to our family Doctor o yeah that is chicken pox. An well we can't take him out anywhere really because he is contagious till the last pox is scab over and there a lot. An he is still getting new ones or I find one have not seen yet. Then this morning Emma woke up with a spot on her cheek she had little cold the last three days. so she didn't go to school because I have a feeling she will get a mild case of them but she is getting it. But today will tell us, sadly she has a birthday she wants to go to this weekend. I don't think so. That it there are fun advantage to start the New Year.

Snow men in Saint George and snow in the house

2011-01-04T21:19:00.000-08:00

The day I thought Emma was meant to go back to school we woke to the coolest thing in the world snow. An to be honesty when you shovel it and work in it and freeze in it you don't like it. But after living here for seven years man you miss playing it . So you get the best of both worlds but living her. It snowed enough so we went sledding in Gunlock it was really fun. Beck my mother in-law got picture of that I didn't can't wait till she post those on face book they were so cute. Then there was my wish when Emma wanted to make a snow man and the snow out there wasn't the right kind of snow. I would know coming from Boston. So Snow no school good breakfast then out to build the first snow man as family. Kern didn't have gloves so he took the first pictures then the other two in front of the house I help build with Emma and J.J because Kern was inside with Thomas who was napping. The snow in the house well that was from the Styrofoam that j.j and Emma got in and made look like snow in the toy room. So not as fun as the real thing.

just two inches not much already melting

we named him thomas


Emma& J.J. these are more saint george snow no complete white	because there so little snow they were named after them

Toy room and snow inside

2010 Christmas was so much fun the best day of the year

2011-01-04T20:49:00.000-08:00

The Kern and Melissa Bowler Family Christmas was the best day of the month spending the month reminding each other way we celebrate the holiday to simple things that corals and wanting it to snow so it would all be the perfect day it was wonderful. The help of our family from there gifts to the family actives together and sharing our testimony with our children made it the holiday everything it was. I love my three little ones there faces faces as they saw the tree and the gift is unforgettable. I got a surprise of my own. An I got to enjoy and remember the gift of how Jesus Christ came in to the world and how that changes how I want to be or choose to be each day.

our little Santa baby, yea hat doesn't fit

New P.J.

our sad little ginger bread house

stocking first yahoo

waiting to get the web cam up for grandma Sharie to watch present opening

gifts from the Santa Gunlock traditions

Emma favorite gift a pillow pet from Uncle Spencer

JJ favorite gift the fire truck from uncle Spencer

My surprise lee Sophie jeweler

my lovely earrings

Merry Christmas!!!!

What to do for the new year

2010-12-31T09:45:00.000-08:00

New year what do with it and in it? Well take it one day at time of course each day is a new day no mistake in it and we have had a good Christmas that we need to show off how good. We were so blessed to have a web cam so we could let our family in Boston see the gift we got with there $$$ help and the ones the Uncles got when they were here with us. We also need to show your fun with Uncle Chris why we don't have picture with Uncle Spencer I don't know but he was here also and sad. I didn't get any picture of us all playing the wii that was the biggest hit... So this what I will do tell that I hope for this blog and then I will go on to my personal New Year goals. I hope for this blog to write at least once a week if not twice a week and show all event I talk about above and the ones I didn't such as the few Thanksgiving day picture I got. Some of the snow none of my children playing in so the snow silly I know. Then there the snow in the house whole neither story to that. An we have the Gunlock pageant and gift from Santa and we have never keep the picture from that because they have not very turned out good. This year they did so yea there coming also but now to get on to the reason for this post.

. Hit the ground running, I want to get back to running so bad. But the trouble is there not enough time when Kern gets home to run three miles right now so. I will start with running the four or five blocks to the store ( Lin's) and back again for a start and work up to my three miles again by hopeful March. If not sooner.
. Spend some girl time with Emma every day. Doing something that remind me I am not just a mom but a Girl also and let Emma have Mommy and her time.

. J.J and Mommy time he is in the middle of the three of them and I remember what that was like so that middle time with mommy is key.

. Thomas time will be spent taking him for a walk with me if I don't go running ( he get almost all my time with feeding and such right now)

. Read the New Testament and B.O.M. in 60 days and the New Testament a long with the Sunday school class.
. Time to write in this blog and my Journal. Journal everyday blog twice a week.
. Cut out and give the amount time I spend with the T.V when I could be doing something better just wait for it to come out a hulu or the web and watch when if I have a free hour.
. Knitting plastic bags in to make new bags, started it never finished and finish Thomas baby blanket.
. Food Budget stick to and try new things at least once a week. That means no extra trip so the store if we run out make due till shopping day

. Date Night with my husband. It has disappear and reappeared though out our whole marriage but with three children it has only happened a total of three times this year a lone. Craziness so we need to find a good babysitter for all three and go just us.

. Last but not least The Temple I have been to the temple less and less. We just live across town from it now but still we see less so I go even less. An well three little ones nursing yea. I went we walked around but did we my husband and I go in together no and by ourselves not very much this year will be different.

People or Things that been lost have been found by my Savior

2010-12-28T20:34:00.000-08:00

Dear Little one, Friends and Family~ I have lost things chap stick, keys, a wallet, shoes and Binky and blankets, sippy. I lost paper for school and sleep I have lost pets and friend I have lost close adopted family and have lost parts of my self to find something better. But with all that lost I have yet to lose a few key people have always know or have that is, my parents, my heavenly father and for a short time my husband and wonderful children and Bowler family. Yes I have felt and had lost on this side. Nana our dear Nana who I felt the most like lift when found out we were going to have J.J. and that was hard. It was really hard it happened on Kern birthday 26 years old happy birthday by the way your Nana died we were in Boston at the time. Yet that was still different yet comforting to me after all the voice of sorry for your lost and tear of shock and first lost and sadness of the day were done. Came the peace of the gospel and it let me know that when,where who or how I lose people most dear to me. That I will be able to have them back. Even if they run not walk a way from the Lord in the arms of the world and want nothing to do with me. I can one day see them again hug them say I love you. I always have loved you and forever will. It gives me the gift of forever and some day are easier to look though those glasses of how eternal we as children of the King of all our and some are not. I don't know how hard it will be to lose my parents when they leave this life or my husband if he goes before or one my children go before when there young full grown married whatever. It will still hurt yet I choose faith and know that when all thing claim and I am still. I will feel them close and the lord close and know it was the right time. It may not feel right to me not yet and not for a long time and will miss and go missing them. But they are where they are needed and forever is what we can look forward to if we are faithful and if choose to run to the lord with all my tear anger and hurt not to the world. People don't just end there time on earth does and sadly some peoples lives as we know them end in there bodies. Dottie an adopted Great Grandma to my little ones had all timers and is lost to us in her own time. Not all time but a lot of it and so soon so bad. There other I know who know what that is like and it' hard but she is still here and we have had wonderful times together. I have seen and have comforted those who have lost other to sickness almost so much harder. Yet don't give up have faith let the holy ghost in when you can a little at time. But as you hurt get mad ask the lord why if you have to I sure if in a case like a child or a husband or wife young you would ask. But when your done with question listen don't run other places with loader answer. Sure they sound right a bit but there quit and false peace will not last the lord peace does go to him turn to him who know you and the one he took home best . He has the answer let him be there for you.

One and Two My Husband and the Lord complete me

2010-12-28T09:23:00.000-08:00

Kern playing with thomas and below all three of our little ones. I love these moments they are the best.

Two My Husband, Mr. Bowler holds my heart and beyond the lord my trust in way no one has before him. He makes me laugh and stand by me no matter what. He not perfect but his mine and we are sealed in the temple so have heavenly father helps us in all of thing. Kern has help with my goals and my testimony I love him. Kern is so smart and in my mind there is nothing he can't read how to do it and work at a bit and master it. He has a mind for those great things. But the hardest thing about all that is when he doesn't get it he feels dumb and that because he gets most thing he should get it all. So he pick on himself when he can't get right it all; right a way. Like our car that I thought we might not get to have well him and Chuck got it started and he told me that there was something they did he had no clue. That was ok if he wants to know more about the car he has to keep plugging at it and not be afraid to ask Chuck ot help out some more. He tried today to do some of what needs to be done to Luna our new car that is her name. Emma wanted it to be girl car because it is my car. An well he didn't get Luna the right wireing to make the started easy and to get the tires etc. I love what he did to get in to town and that he is always willing to try. He put's his all in to his working hard so I can stay home but he also know that I am raising three little ones not a clean house so he looks for what I have gotten done. An he is so kind when I burn something or my meal doesn't turn out as I would like. He honor his priesthood and has given me some wonderful blessing that have changed our lives. Kern is my best friend he helps me be the best I can be I hope that I do the same for him. But most all I want to hopeful help be happy now. So when it's just us again he will like being with just me like he did before we had children. An the goal is we both come out better people when it's just us again but we know each other better then we do now. Even more then that I know love he more now then did when we got married and I am looking forward to doing everything I can to make that love grow so much more greater then it is now. Kern is mine forever and I hope to enjoy ever minute of that forever here and the here to come.

Saint George Temple from Grandpa Burton house.

One My Heavenly Father and My Testimony if had to give it all to be with heavenly father, I feel I would do so. Heavenly Father has given me everything I have my family my life and my chance to use my agency to get back to him or not. My testimony is my way of getting though everything the things the holy ghost has witnessed to me remind me of where I came from and where I plan to return one day. I hope and pray I never have to choice between family and or something just as dear as the lord. Because it may almost kill me but I will choose the my God. He gave his only begotten son and Savior Jesus Christ for me and even it was just me I know he would do it again. An that Savior would do what he promised to do for me also. Because of my Heavenly Father plan all these things on this list our mine. An the most important things are mine forever. I want so much to be with him and I hope will never turn to the world for answer or need. But if I step off the path that I will see the right way soon and get back on right a way. I know no matter what he is there for me he answered my prayer in the way I need not always the way I want. Which always works out just as it should.

Six, Five, Four Three Only a few of my favorite people and holidays

2010-12-27T08:30:00.000-08:00

Just a few of the tree I love at the Jubilee of trees this year. Kicking off the Thanksgiving and Christmas fun.

Six, The Holidays like them or not when things go wrong or right I am glad I have them with my family here, Boston or wherever. I would not have some thing best and silly moment with out such holidays but if we could have less drama that would be great. Then again I think it will only prepare me for my own teen drama my children will have at that time with boys, girls or life all together. It's only going to be better from here more fun and also more a bout what matter most he true meaning, behind the holiday and those I love again testimony and wonderful moments. One of those moment I again a great testimony is the simple act of just being still. During the Gunlock Christmas pageant they have the children quote from the scripture and then they sing song about the different key people but mostly the savior. An as I sat and just though of what it would really would been like to be there and quit my mind of all the worldly worries that I focus on way to often and way to much. That when I felt the spirit in only a most personal way I have in the temple and in pray it was amazing like having those moments all over again. I also felt that way in teaching and sharing with my children about the lords birth and letting them know Santa is great fun but no really and the savior is real and he is way we have Christmas in our house. Then I thought well what did I give this year to my savior. Well I tried to give him a more open heart and that is quicker to respond to the holy ghost and do as he would if he was here.

Five, The Holy Ghost He brought my husband and together he told us to start our family. He has guided me though school what to do with my little ones when I worry. He is one my best friend and I am so glad that he was given to me as gift at eight I hope only to teach my children better then, I was taught how to use him from start. How to feel him close and why you or anyone would want him as there best friend. He has witness to me that my Heavenly Father has a plan just for me and has given me this gift so can do what he would have me do. He also has taught me to tell my children right up front that I know this because of his help It let them know that they can have that some day and that if there in trouble the lord will let me know if I am listening how to help them and keep my self on the straight and narrow.

Four,My Boys, I have two boys now JJ and Thomas are my little men there so sweet JJ is the one who loves hair he want to just play with. He was my biggest worry when I cut my hair, don't worry he still plays with it. He smiled from the minute he was born till now. Thomas is my big boy ready to go a week early and looks just like daddy jj a good mix of both Thomas is his daddy double. He loves to talk the minute he started screaming to ever little sound he loves to let you know he is here to be held or listened too. He is his dad in everything but his eye's. But that goes for all three of our children they are all blue eyed how well we blaim on the grandpa they both have blue eyes. So my Thomas he love shiny things his favorite his the brass handles on the draw on his daddy's disk. If I am reading online or looking at face book that is what he plays with. He leans forward if he see something he really like and tries and touch he does everything in power to get to it even if your holding and he will almost fall he still does because he wants it. J.J He is so honest he showed that today, when he was caught kicking the down stair door at grandpa's and well him and Emma together and when I asked them if they did it. Emma smiled her smile and he said well a yea mom. We all started laughing about it. He also loves to run all over the place and right now running is not working because he is growing and with that he is tripping a lot but he get up and keep going. He also tells me when he is done throw a fit crying and yelling , at the end he says I am done mom I am done. Thomas has dimples that you just want to put in your pocket to keep and he love to be sang to he is the baby. But as soon he start moving around more then rolling J.J and him are going to have a blast together.

Three, My Girl Emma is so like me the little girl in dress climbing the tree and getting dirty.She loves her hair long, hate doing anything with it. She also is the biggest help with her brother being a little mother to them but also being willing to let them know when they bug her or step out of line. She has here dad mind when come to learning things and she loves to sing. She has her daddy smile when you tell her to smile for picture but when she just playing or smiling to be friendly that is the really Emma Rose smile. She know what she want to do and most of time does it even if she get in trouble. She has such a strong will, but most all a sweet heart she love girl time and when we don't get it she let's me know. She love to creator and my things like our snow flack on the window for Christmas and also making my job as mom easier. But only when you tell her the whole truth even if she doesn't understand it because of her age she still want to know and see if a hug will help. Like with Santa who she loves but know he and some our favorite books aren't true. But that good feeling she gets when she prays is really and she know she is a daughter of god and she let me know that as daughter of good there is a way should act and not act. She is amazing and if don't get anymore daughter till we adopt when that happens or if happens. I know I was given the chance to be the mother to one of my best friends in heaven and we are going to spend forever together.

Ps. I am final almost at the end of thirty thing list and will be writing about Christmas and other things. But also sharing with you all the trails and fun of being one person and being out number one to three most the day and how I do and keep smiling.

My Parents and the example of men & women who helped me be a fun and good paren t#8&7

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Eight, My Dad 's I say Dad's because there is first and for most my dad who raised me and then my father in law who are both a lot a like in that they are hard workers. I have learned from my dad that you talk with heavenly father every morning and night if have to read something when your going to be spending time in the bathroom the scripture are a good one. An Holiday's are not play days there are work days. My other dad let me know how not to talk to my husband and how if I need anything he is there. The dad who trust me to make it back with my family and his trust well placed shows me I am the most important thing he will ever have in this world and he want me home with honor. These men who taught me things are also my bishop father of the ward who been there for me in a way Heavenly Father himself would do if he was here. What I know most about is that my dad is he will do anything for me. I am so dear to him. My father in law is so much like him but in teaching me not to order Kern but to entreat him be patient with him because is stubborn like my Kern and he know that part of my husband better then I did. I getting to know him better every day. I have also learned that trusting him helped me trust in the lord who's love was and is still greater and that hard to think my dad is there for me always just like heavenly father. I learned that from his example.

Seven, My Mom's I say Mom's also because my Mom is the one I want to be most like but there is also the way my teacher Lori, showed a to teach in a way I wanted to teach as Mom she was a Mom to me in that moment. There is my Mom laughing at me when she know I did something bad but finding it funny. Teaching me sometimes it better to laugh. There is Edie to teaching me to let my children of have agency but help understand there agency. My Mom showing how to bake and cook and Becky teaching me how to cook some of my husband favorite. My young women leader Lydia helping me see that being a mom is the greatest thing you can very experience but it is always worth waiting for. All the example I had and took from the best one I hope to be most like. Is my Heavenly Mother her help in Heavenly Father work is there if we look but he protects her because she is his eternal companine and I hope that I can be value like that one day. But to also to bring the best out of all my children in the little things and moments we get to be together that what I remember most about all these women but especial my Mom.

From buddie walks to not being able to walk. 11, 10, &9

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boat making together.

face painting

All the fun at the buddy walk.

Eleven, Buddy walk My little hero's and I went to show support for families with children who have special needs. It was a wonderful and we had funny helping others so walking and playing it was great. The walk was one mile so I though it was a good way to get back in shape, and spend time with my children. It was going to be a family outing till kern got sick. But from the walk to the face painting and game it was a great day. I wanted to do this to teach my children that all of Heavenly Father children are different and that we need to show are love for them. I believe from having the brother I have they are the some of the most choice children in the world and I want my little ones to know how blessed we are to show love to them. If the savior was here that is what he would have done.

my j.j playing with my long hair, three months before my hair cut.

i loved my long hair but i didn't want another little playing with it when i needed to work, but his playing is one of my favorite moments.

Thanksgiving day, Emma took this one

Thanksgiving day, J.J trying to take this one and almost cut our heads off so I had to help him. Emma wanting to watch the tv not take a picture.

Ten, Locks of love I final went in to just get my hair termed, but when they asked what I wanted to do I really wasn't sure. So told the hair stylist of my want to cut my hair and give to lock of love but didn't know if I had enough. So I asked and she said you have 12 and she showed me with her comb how short it would be if I did it. An I have been growing my hair for our whole marriage I have cut one or two inches off before but not this short ever. So I did, and because it was going to locks of love I didn't pay a thing for the hair cut that was kind of nice. So having short hair now after year of really long hair is nice I can blow dry it fast if I wish and curling it with hot roller or curlers is that much quicker and dry faster it's been nice and much need change with Thomas now grabbing at everything I didn't want him play with my hair like j.j does even now with it short.

Nine, Wisdom teeth pulled check falling with baby check, fractured ankle priceless Kern went in for a clean one day, came back needing the rest the wisdom teeth pulled. The first two were pulled when we were first married now he need the other done. Ok no be deal took him over dropped him off got lunch went back. Went home took the Thomas up stairs to change him and well tripped over JJ truck and fell twisted my ankle really bad, I was more worried about the baby who started screaming he was fine me not so much. So before the weekend was over I got a walking cast and we all got to stay home from church together so fun. Unforgettable weekend. The hardest part about it was I needed to stay off it for the weekend. Kern wasn't meant to do any heavy lifting yet getting up and down the stair what little of that I need to do was impossible. So he was lifting me. Now I am not huge but I just had Thomas a month ago so yeah I am not 98 pounds either. So yeah it was a worry for him lifting me and the two making up the stairs. I joked with him a lot that weekend asking why can't little simple things like getting teeth out be the only thing we have to deal with why do we get more. We must be really love by the lord trying to bring us as family together to work hard to take care of each other. An to see what can hand with just five in our family. It make me wonder who we got coming to this family when time come what they bring for all of us.

My Parent are Grandparents and the best one too #12

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Grand Parents The 12 of Oct is grandparents day and I never felt like I had a grandparent who I enjoyed the most but there were moment growing up and now that will never forget that make me laugh even today. One of them is grandma Dowdle having a fit about something to do with there mission they were going on in Africa. Don't remember the reason only that it was funny to watch a sixty something year act like a two year old. Then there is the love my parent for there grandchildren that is one best things in the world like the gift of a lobster for Emma. So the gift of a lobster is a store worth telling. We were shopping with my Mom and it was Easter Time. Emma was a bit ants and wanted out the cart to keep her happy I took her to see the lobster and well she loved it. My dad happen to call ask how we were and what Emma was doing. Told about her love of watching the lobster. When she was about seven month she saw one for the first time at my Mom's birthday party and well she liked it so much tried to teeth on it at the time. That when the love of lobster started so watching them live and moving around in the store was a big treat. Well when grandpa found out what she was doing he said hey if she like them so much buy her a lobster. No way dad was my response, they were 12 dollars a pound at that time. Way to much for something so small and not worth there money. Then he says because it is Easter soon , get her a bunny then. No way, I will let them spoil her but that was to much so. We agreed on a balloon. He would give her the world if he could. An that was when she was the only one now that there are three of them my parents have helped take great care there grandchildren. They gave us little bit extra we need to buy our house. An they gave us money for Christmas last year and this year. Which money is easier to send then trying to shop present, but still wow they good to there grandchildren that are far a way. There Grand Ma Becky and Papa Kalvin are pretty awesome also they let them come for a sleep over that there house one weekend just them. An they also let them come and sleep over during the Rode in July. They also have taken them hoarse back riding in the spring between the season of April Conference on Saturday. They each have help and done things with them that are unforgettable. I am so glad they are getting to know both grandparents better then I got to know mine and that they know that there is such a value in having such a good relation with them. I hope it will help keep them going on the right path I know those who were adopted grandparents and family keep me going were I should. So hopeful blood related can do just as good for them if not better.

My Emma Rose made me a mom first #13

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fifth birthday party

six month

At the Saint George water park

daddy and Emma six month old 2005

First day of school

First Bus ride to school

what a good big sister watch Thomas and TV

All her little friends

First week of school still and JJ wanting to be like his sister with the back pack tried to even get on the bus

Five years old EMMA IS FIVE My little girl is old enough now to let her go to school note that I didn't say send I let her go. I was planing on home school but I felt she need this as well to go and learn from other good teacher then her parents. She has become quit a a little tomboy in a dress is the best way to put it. She so much like me but so her own little person who want to be a part but have her own part. She is so caring helpful and creative. My days moments and year she has been in my life have never been the same. She bring her light and love of life in to mine. I remember the day she was born and how she had to be a way from me for so long because of the water in her lungs. I was so scared for her and wanted my baby back. Who I only got to see for five minutes. I never wanted to let her out my site a gain. But I did a little at time but when she turned five. Somewhere deep in side I wanted to scream no world you can't have her she mine, I want to raise my daughter and keep her to my self. WHY did I feel this way because I know how hard it was going to be the only girl in the family and the oldest. Now, I am not the oldest but I have done a lot thing first in my family and being the only girl in a lot of way treat the oldest and I am in the middle of my three brothers. So when I know this fact and she had her birthday party. Which was such fun day so much like I was a lover of water no sure how to swim yet working on that with her but she loves the water. An at that party with all those people and that summer to go I know it would be best to send her to school she has so much to give and she had a lot to learn. An she know if she is lost of scared to pray even if just lost her blanket for a time she prayed about she has a great deal of faith. An wants to know it all yet I don't have all the answer so I let her go to school and she growing more and more in to who the lord would have her become. Out all things I love most about her is how she loves my time with me to sing make things with me to have girl time together. We hope one day to add a sister but if not we will have girl time with our Aunt's and Grandma's and play. More then anything she is just what I need a lot like me, but so much better even from the start she is an amazing example of love and forgiveness she has and does give me something everyday of my life.

A name and a blessing for the third time # 14

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Aug 1, 2010 The day my husband gave our third child a name and a blessing and the hardest thing was there no mic. But he was blessed to follow the priesthood bear before him and to be like his name sake. Both them, and we didn't take enough picture of that weekend but it was a wonderful time to be together with all our family. Not all the Uncles ( my brothers) could be there but they were there in spirit. It was a very special day for me. It was Kern third name and blessing in our family but yet every time he goes to give the blessing he told me that he feels worried he will not say the right thing or is he the right person to be trusted with this little spirit that has so much greatness. Can he help him know that and will he able to remember what is said in the blessing so lead all our children the right way. I love that he told me that how he feels when giving them a blessing but raising everything he just wants to do it right. Just like me. I love our new little boy and when Kern blessed him to follow his name sake I hope to remind him of that and hope he does it. That weekend was the first time my dad had meet him and how cute they were together I loved it. I know that as he has grown and be given such a good start, we will do all we can to help full fill that blessing.

This is the best of two picture I know my eyes are close and Kern looks mad but everyone else is wonderful.

Six years for the here and now, forever to go #15

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June 19, 2004 Six year ago So six year go by in a blink and I wouldn't change a thing but to remember to bring our cake knife. Rent a tux for Kern for my bridle pictures and try and will someday make a point to go to the temple each year and do sealing. Something always has come up, so this next year we aren't going to let anything stop us. An if I could choose which temple we did sealing in I would love to do them in the Boston Temple. That is if we have money to fly home to do it. If not here will be just fine also. I remember how claim I felt that morning they say most brides are nerve's, not me not after I got shower ready to go and I felt light headed to think I was the one getting married that day the 19 of June. So I prayed for peaces and to not be worry or scared to know everything would be just fine and it was just fine. It wasn't a perfect day but if our sealing had not been pushed up then I photographer would have been late. He would have been there when we lift the temple and I wouldn't have learned a very key thing from my husband that we were married forever, everything else could go as wrong as it wanted to we were married forever. Wow when that sunk in the other little things that went wrong and sometime happen on days like didn't matter. I had him he had me and we started it all out right. Now we are trying to make though this life happily which someday are better then other when it comes to rat races of life. But to have him to do with is the best thing that could happen to me. No one has helped me or taught me more and the spirit has taught me a lot of how to do things right when I want to let my temper get the better of me. It has helped me see the best way to talk with Kern to share my feeling my testimony and my heart with him. We made this far another blink and it will be ten years then it will be fifty. I hope to slow down ever moment stressful or not to give more then I get and come what may and love it. Even the trail which is why right now writing of what I am most grateful for makes such a difference in how look at my blessing this Christmas.

28th of June 2010 three can I really divded my self in to three or more??? #16

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Just waiting for the doctor to and see if it's time yet

Here we our first snuggle time together, you can see the computer in back ground for my family to see him.

There is my baby boy looks just like daddy. Grandma Becky holding him.

Meeting Grandma Becky and Grandpa Kalvin. They were so blessed to be there that day

My baby not one for picture just like his daddy.

28 of June 2010 Well it was a week to the due date of our third child. We didn't have a first name for him then, yet. An I had been in the day before thinking it was the real thing. But when it wasn't and woke with same pain I though no this can't be it he would be a week early but sure enough it was. Our little Thomas after the prophet Kern after his daddy got here at 5:06pm wow it was and is one the best days of my life. He was 8 pound and 15 oz 20 1/2 inches. So my other two little ones were born on Sunday it seemed to be the day to welcome in our newest member of our family. Emma was born at 3:13am and J.J was born at 4:15 am so I thought that the 27th of June was it and I was going to have another Sunday baby. Missed church had them check me no not yet go home and wait for grandma. Which that was my wish for him to wait. So the next morning when I started getting woken up by some back pain. Though nothing of it went back to sleep about 5am I couldn't sleep any longer. Got up wrote in my journal eat and still going on the pain in my back keep up. I didn't think it was it but then it keep so called my sister in law again. Asked her to watch my Emma and J.J then we got ever thing together which was grab my bag and there things and go. Well this whole time on off about till eleven in then morning I was talking with my Mom who just like me didn't want it to be today. Said are sure O I was sure not being able to talk it was so bad. So we got in car head to my sister in laws. Huge mistake, driving to her house then the hospital I though I would die. When I got there the nurse could see my pain so she just checked me and took me to a room I was to a five and 1/2. The pain was bad I couldn't stand it already so she asked if wanted do natural and I thought about it till my back felt it was ready to crack in half. Well they got my I.V. and hour later I was to a seven. Still they the pain doesn't get any worse from there but I could not stand it any long so I gave in got pain Meds. Then it was so much easier to relax and enjoy my time with my husband my mother and law and my mom on the phone and my wonderful husband made it possible for my mom to see the birth with the web cam. Now before you get a all grossed out she was the only on in the computer room at home and she really wanted to be there. I am only one having Grand children right now. Well with all time and talking we were trying to come up with a name so when came down right to it and he was born. He didn't have trouble breathing like his brother or sister so after they cleaned him up just a little they gave him right back and lift him with me . I was in shock and it was so wonderful to have him close me skin to skin they call and did a second time. Three pushes and he was here then as I held him and though about it I asked Kern what do you think of Thomas. He liked it and well when came down to it we all did Thomas Kern a week early. Big boy with blue, blue eyes and dimples two of them that are to die for. His older brother has one but he has two and man is he cute. His cry is strong he is so much like his dad, just like him to me a blond version I should say. He makes my life full and complete my third child second son. It was so wonderful to name for two great men his daddy and the prophet. Two men I love and look up to in some in different ways.I hope he will also. Now that his here I couldn't think of my life before. Trying to make time for four other and my self is hard but it's what life is all about family and I still get me time. Some times I have to push a stroller to get but I get. So this day will never be the same in our house it will be better because he came in to our family on this day. Now the trick is to not have any one else be born in the month of June or summer it's way to hot here for that. Either way I wouldn't change having my summer babies for any other babies in the world.

20 through 17 are books, scripture a new car and G.C.

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Good books I love to read and I have loved living in Utah to get LDS author that are unbelievably good. But when you have to buy each book and it's in a set of 8 or more for ten dollars a pieces it really stinks. However living here I have read so many great books that if I very move a way from Utah I will have to buy so many, so can share them with my little ones. I love to read but in school they asked to read thing that were to what get us ready for adult life. Put us face to face with depression and other things of hardship in such a depressing way. So when I was looking for a good moral book and not know being from outside Utah, that I could get great LDS author at the Library and not pay thing was wonderful. How refreshing to read great story where the creator have morals and clean language and having faith in our heavenly father was felt in just the story basic even if the story made up they weren't member of the church it was so much cleaner then some books for school. I would get in to those and ask the teacher if there was something better to read because I would take F if had too. Just wouldn't have to read the book. An some the other they had me read were only a bit better. But I am so glad now I get to choose what I can read for fun I hope when it comes down to it my children will let me know what they are reading because I will be reading with them so I know what teacher think is good books for children of any age.

The scriptures are the best part of my day. I feel like heavenly father has handed me the personal journal of some the greatest men and some women in the world. From his own life to the Nephites and Joseph Smith. I come to see how much I need to change and work on thing but also how much heavenly father loves me. I feel my understand of the gospel grows. Because there is nothing like the witness of the spirit, when it speaks to your own spirit it's a witness that you will never for get. I loved the year I study the New Testament with Lori and how there were a lot of us in the beginning then it was just the two of us. My testimony of the savior grow as I learned from her lesson and personal testimony who the savior was and came to know him as my savior not just the savior. I have come to know that there are things written in there just for me or so it seems. But with every day I read the Holy Ghost teaches me something new of who I am and who should want to be most like in those pages.

New car, not brand new but new to us. My In-laws are selling us there old one for hundred dollars and we will soon have two cars. It need some work but we will have it when Kern takes Bob our other car to work. Plus we still have to name it and I haven't gotten any idea from my children but this will be my car to use whenever, such a blessing. An even more blessing we got the car put on our Insurance earlier in the months in hopes to have it up and running by Christmas. Well that was before a couple of children 13&8 hit our parked car head on with a three wheeler. They made out ok but the car well that is a whole another matter to worry about. But has been nice to think of having two car we may still have two cars. By the way this happen Thanksgiving day so we will see on Monday what really going to happen with that car. We didn't even name it yet, at least the children are ok.

General Conferences Was amazing this year both in April and Oct the things we were told to do and given up lift-meant on were just what I needed. I got to read all the talk from April and set goals plan to do the same with this month Ensign also, can't wait. The wait is over but, I have not gotten far into it. I am stuck and Elder Holland talk, right now. With all my little trails and set back or things I let set me back. When I heard his talk it hit home now reading it remind me of a blessing I got from him personal and I try and do that more and more. Which is to slow down and smell the roses enjoy life. So I am trying to get though his talk with a box of tissues and hope to let those I love more though this blog or in other way how grateful I am for them and how I would not want to set such high goal out the Ensign with out there example in my life they help me want to be better.

By small and simple things are great things brought to pass ,24,23, 22,21

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Living in West Bridgewater didn't matter which house we lived in, we could always hear the train.

Growing up in a small town and growing up outside of Utah. I love Utah and I am glad that live here now but I would not be who I am if I didn't go to school where I did. Live in the small town and living in New England were people are so strong about what they know made me want to be sure what I wanted out of life and also to help me know who I was. I wen to school where Everyone know everyone and as I stumbled and struggled a little I prayed for helped chose to stand out and be someone the lord could as a example for other. But I never wanted to be cool or fit in I wanted to be me so I know by follow the lord and believing and seeking out answer from him first and then my study at school everything would fall in to place and it did. I also learned that because we believed as we did we didn't have many neighbor who liked us. We would do thing on Sunday so that made us outsider looking in. So with that in mind I try not to do that with other here as I go about doing church things I try and include our neighbors in things and let them know I am glad of our differences it makes life so fun.

The beauty of the world around me. No matter where I have stayed or lived in my life there is always something to look at and wonder in, that is beauty created for me. I love all the season for all the different wonders it hold and that I get to see each day. Like waking up this morning and having it snow all around us and being able to smell it see it in the mountains and to go play in it sliding is fun. But to not clear is super. I love the sun rise I have seen here and at home over the ocean they are both so different and amazing. Then there is the beauty of watching my daughter fall in love with flowers and wanting to know the name and I glad when I do know it. The love of rocks and sticks of all size and making hiking stick for my two older one so we can go hike dixie rock this summer. Also the red dirty I love it even when all over my children pants. Then the red of the fall trees at home and sea of trees and the wonderful colors we get there in fall. We are just hitting fall here and it's not the same. But the star at night are so wonderful here there are less trees and if get a way from the lights of city it's amazing how many more you can see here then at home and how I love the stars.

Losing my wallet when we moved after losing it twice before once for a year at store in town. Then once at the Las Vegas airport. But when we moved to our new home it was gone. So no more wallet so had to get a new recommend and few other things. Best thing I EVER lost I gain so much more. How could I gain from losing it twice and a third time for good. Well I lost in the store praying for people to be honest sad because letters and a recommend holder I made in young was in there. That is why I wanted to back most. I got back a year later so cool. Then lost in the Las Vegas and really thought I would never get it back ever again. But no it came back with cash I had in it and my credit card ( I did cancel it but to have still in there was shock with where I lost it) I was grateful beyond words to get it back. Then the move to this house made it final disappear. We looked in all the boxes and everywhere we could think of . It had to have been thrown away sadly. But from that I had to go get a new recommend from my new bishop and stake president who happens to live in my ward. So it was great gain a testimony of men. I needed it to, it pulled me right in to our new ward. After living an old ward we loved so it was nice to feel so at home and knowing that where we got our house was good place to choose.

Hand me down cloths are so wonderful after having Thomas being able to have his older brother clothes put him in, it was great. Same goes for having cloths at all they are pain to fold but to be able to wash them and take care of them in my own home is so wonderful To have so many at times a pain, but we never go naked that kind of nice. Also for the hand me downs I got for Emma from Aron most and some from Micheal saved us a lot. I never got a shower for her so that was really nice. As for me I have brought some of my favorite old dresses and shoes from DI and they are been the best buy ever had for half the prices. So with all the things we can wear or get new it's great to be first to wear it but if not the broken in one, can help you not break the bank like in this family.