The Key Files

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Thu, 21 Mar 2013 06:06:00 +0000

I'm going to dream

In that dream I will invent

Invent a world for our love

Not drenched with impurity

But blessed just for you & Key

This world remains nameless

Our souls stainless

Basking in the glory of love

The tainted shall not enter

The nay Sayers cannot splinter

No fractured factors

Or bullshit niggas

Running game like bad actors

We ease on down the road

No room for the Ratchet

Our virtual dream catcher

Just love, no hangover

For your love I stay sober

Each moment we grow closer...

Written By: ~Keyan 01/15/13

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Thu, 21 Mar 2013 05:52:00 +0000

"I will experience everything in life so on the final journey to my death the nights will not be haunted by regrest." ~ Unknown

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Sat, 19 Jan 2013 17:50:00 +0000

It was like a cold Winter night
Strolling alone in the dark
Laying there beside you
Lifeless, with little or no spark
You told me times before
That life seemed so dark
Little did I realize
The magnitude of our demise
Let small words anish
In all my mannishness
Turned glaucomic & later phobic
Denial set in...
Lost touch of my best friend

Composed by Keyan - April 8th, 2012

Quote of the Day

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 11 Jul 2012 17:24:00 +0000

All Men's souls are immortal. But only the souls of the righteous are Immortal and Devine. ~Socrates

Quote of the Day

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Tue, 10 Jul 2012 17:11:00 +0000

"Because a leader knows, it's not so hard to die for your people. It's hard to order your people to die for you. And leading with certainty into an uncertain future doesn't require sight." ~ Unknown

Denial

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 09 Nov 2011 09:36:00 +0000

She said she missed me
In painful ways
Made every attempt
To dis me
Late night in her dreams
She kissed me
Put up a front
Like she didn't need me
Lied to herself & friends
Of my existence
Treated me like figment
Of a sick imagination
An intense infatuation
Convinced herself that
The sex & passion
Was just a dream everlasting
A love hangover
Envisioned on graphic novels
Yet still she struggles
With reality

Composed by Keyan Scott

Love Injection

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Tue, 01 Nov 2011 02:48:00 +0000

I want to engage you...
Ask the pertinent questions
That stimulate the realness in you.
I'm gonna get to the core of you
Hold a town call
To measure the love
That would be laid upon you.
I'm gonna impress you,
Reinforce the tickle in your heart,
Make it a burning light
A tuning fork to lead you home to key...
The beacon, shining bright

That nebula, guiding light
That feeling that lets you know that IT'S alright....
My girl, My wife!

Created by Keyan Scott

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 02:44:00 +0000

Would’ve came back for you
I just needed time
To do what I had to do
Caught in the life
I can’t let it go

Whether that’s right
I will never know
Hope you forgive me
Never meant wrong
Tried to be patient
Waited too long

But I woulda came back
But I woulda came back
woulda came back
woulda came back

Final Goodbye

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 22 Jun 2011 01:34:00 +0000

She stole kisses
As I knelt
At my lowest point
Hung my head in shame
Took the blame for the past
Bled my soul, played no games
Butterfly kisses
Led to deep emotional bliss
But no further it went
Pushed away in guilt
Like a red eye flight
In the night she bolted
Left nothing but a faint scent
Of cucumber & green tea
I faded to scene 3
No longer could we be
I remain in defeat
Fell deep into broken hearted sleep

composed by Keyan

From Dust The Devil Comes

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Thu, 09 Jun 2011 03:42:00 +0000

A presence of ill repute has awakened.
I find myself shaken
Tried to resist & never faking
Try to tear me down
But I don't hasten
The charge meant for God
I stand tall for the taken
Wish you could clear your mind
Reflect the hearts that you breaking
Understand the depth to which
Lives might be taken
Case of mistaken identity
Could end ones eternity
Essentially divert ones
Passion for diversity
Come hither, got a poem to share
In the rear, hopefully we can then end everything.

Fade to Obsidian

Composed by Keyan

Painted

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 18 May 2011 05:23:00 +0000

My fingers itch
Can't resist the urge
Just push through my wrists
As my pen & pad
Enjoy your kiss
From morning unto night
I been penning this

Because it is
Often hard not to write
A song about her
Seems she's painted
On my brain
I try hard to fight
Can't speak without
Mentioning her name
Can't you see her painted
On my brain

I have other plans
She has made me an
Instant slave to my hands
Not invited but
There she stands
On top of my mind
Painting all these designs

Often hard not to write
A song about her
Seems she's painted
On my brain
I try hard to fight
Can't speak without
Mentioning her name
Can’t you see her painted
On my brain

Give me a paint brush
Do me a favor
And don't touch me
Cause I can't stop
The art of you
Breaking my heart

Often hard
Not to write
A song about her
Seems she's painted
On my brain
Baby Girl....
I tried hard to fight
Can't speak without
Mentioning her name
Baby...
Can't you see her painted
On my brain

By Peter Hadar

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Mon, 16 May 2011 05:47:00 +0000

Lover you brought me love
Gave me piece of mind
And I'll be there for you
As you've been there for me a 1,000 times...

I'll do just as you've done
For you that brought me love
It's you who brought me love
How many times in your life can you find
A lover who's loving forever
Never asking for anything more
Who's there in the end

Now I touch your face
Holding you tonight
Knowing we've got tomorrow
And for all we've come through
We'll get by...

These words won't say enough
For you who brought me love
It's you who brought me love
It's you that brought me love
Cause you, you brought me love...........

Love Not Myth

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Fri, 18 Mar 2011 19:43:00 +0000

Making Love to you
Is like a million butterflies fluttering
In rhythmic cadence
A pace so intense
I loose control of my senses
I drift off to worlds uncharted
Visions of mythology, Greek in nature
I feel like a Titan in a new Era
Putting on shows in the Pantheon
Engrossed in the path we on
Climatic conclusions fill all voids
It's like my hearts restored
What's ya pleasure
Tonight I'm your toy
Like a Minotaur
Playing a Sitar
I ram you right
Not just your body
But your soul right...
Sending you into uncontroled
Convultions & visions
A mythological Heaven...

Composed by Keyan

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Tue, 01 Mar 2011 05:46:00 +0000

I think I hurt her feelings, but she hurt mine first...

I sent a scathing email, won't tell you all the details
But we won't be picking sea shells
By the sea shore, no longer no more.
I'm sure I'll miss her for sure... & right now I'm so bored...
No more dynamic duo as she's single once more.

Quote of the Day

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Mon, 06 Dec 2010 07:09:00 +0000

Popped a bottle of Moscato... Mahalo, yet it still feels hollow, home alone without you...

Plot Thickens

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 02:57:00 +0000

Sitting here alone
A by myself meeting
Contemplating & plotting
Strategizing & formulating
Ulterior motives & ways
To get hold of
Your heart
A broken system
Like static cling hits them
Time to step back
Rearrange my thinking
I lost you many times
Along with pieces of me
The design is simple
Enter your soul
From your temple
Presence felt
Prominent like a pimple
More enticing then your dimples
Lord knows I'm wrong
For the way that I dig you
My clementine
More than a friend of mine
I often lag behind
To stay familiar
I watch you from behind
All mine...
A moment lost in time
Loves a crime
I'm guilty as charged
Embezzled emotions & trust
Fortified it with lust
Crimes of passion unjust
Greeted your advances
With passionate kisses
More than a misdemeanor
Those thighs, get in between'em
I'm dreaming...

Written by Keyan 11/24/10

Discarded

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 10 Nov 2010 13:44:00 +0000

Please tell me you hate me so I can move on...
Tell me I'm nothing, I don't turn you on...
Tell me I'm worthless, I can't take you home...
With me, for me, my love don't keep you warm...
If I was a slave, sex wouldn't be my trade...
I couldn't please you if I was all you knew...
Crush me, beat me, tear me in two...
Tell me your woman's worth exceeds the width of my plate...
Not even in God's vision, could I be your fate...
Incompatible nature polar opposites at best...
My love for you isn't even 2nd best...
It's not fear, is detest-ation...
I'm a worthless specimen...
If you were on your death bed I'd be the worst medicine...
Get gone, get ghost, arrivadirche...
Get the F*** away from me...
Tell it like it is cuz I was never worth THEE!!

Written by Keyan 11/9/10 @9:15pm

Outer Limits

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 05:27:00 +0000

I explored you, adored you, beneath & above the sheets
Hovered above you in mornings
Watching you sleep

It was out of body
Went from beneath to above you hottie
Celestial, I swam through your essence
A mid morning blessing
My eyes still undressing
Not your body but your soul
Explored & mastered your outer core
Now your soul I'm in fore
Heart possession is my strongest weapon
Trying to get you closer to Heaven
I'm not a cherubim, but I think of together, when
We can be Souls of Mischief
Operation take control before you wake up
Take hold of your inner soul
Rearrange your outer mold (with out makeup)
Design you just for me

All of this love for free
The sacrifice, merely a dream
Erased past lives
Condensed ya memories to faint dreams
All that remains is, WE

Composed by Keyan Scott 07/01/10 @11am

The Great Heat Excape: REVISITED - All Settled In

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 23:41:00 +0000

Operation Relocation is complete...

It only took 1 year to actually pull the trigger on the move out of the valley but at least I got it done before the real summer heat rolled in this time around! Although I can be a bit picky & have changed my mind on what I'm willing to pay for rent... I feel good because I seem to have chosen the right place for my needs at this time. My plan last year was to get just south of the valley & be in the cool climate of Santa Monica, but the ultimate goal was to be closer to my lil'mama & I was finally able to do that. So now its time to get familiar with my surroundings and prepare myself for the routine of packing lunches & cooking dinner for the little one for more than just the weekend and getting her to & from summer camp and soon school... I'm up for he challenge and praise God for the opportunity.

Missing lil'mama

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Sat, 10 Jul 2010 14:01:00 +0000

She's with her mommy for the next two weeks & is gonna visit Mexico. I had to send her to Fresno for 2 weeks while I found us a new place to live & traveled for business... It broke my heart when she just got here yesterday, I told her I was taking her back to mommy & she didn't want to go & said to me with the saddest eyes/face & voice, "But Daddy, I don't want to go, I haven't spent any time with you!"

Aaaggh... I literally wanted to cry :-(

Self-Esteem

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Fri, 07 May 2010 19:07:00 +0000

Since I decided to post the one about sex, I took the one on Self Esteem also. The questions were kind of odd, but I guess.

Self-Esteem Inventory Your Score is 92 Percent
		This inventory has statements built into it to detect how honest your responses are. Is it possible that in your effort to appear to have a high self-esteem level you did not anwser all the questions acurrately? If so you might want to take the assessment again to get a more realistic picture of your self-esteem level. Indications are you are very comfortable with who you are. Indeed your self-esteem level is so high you usually exude confidence in yourself. However, there appear to be two types of people who score this high on the self-esteem inventory: those who are truly happy with themselves, and those who cover their shortcomings by refusing to accept their existence. People who appear to have unlimited confidence are sometimes hiding their frailties and self-doubt behind a wall of arrogance. They are very critical of others and always eager to show everyone just how perfect they are. Indeed, they will go to almost any length to appear perfect, and have no tolerance for appearing as anything less than perfect. People with genuinely high self-esteem are quite different. They are aware they are not perfect, but feel so good about themselves that they rarely dwell on their frailties. They accept themselves as they are, which makes them feel good about themselves. Just as important, they accept others as they are, which makes those around them feel good about themselves. Those with high self-esteem have the ability to bring out the very best in themselves. Often they give those around them the gift of bringing the very best out in them as well.

How Do You Feel About Sex?

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Fri, 07 May 2010 18:14:00 +0000

So, I ran across this Human Sexuality Test while perusing different blogs online. I thought the questions were very interesting and the results as well. I decided to provide a link to where I took it just in case someone might be interested.

Although it contained a bunch of other rubbish like Terot card reading and phychic babal, I thought this decent Psych test.

http://www.freepsychicnetwork.com/Sexuality_Test/index.htm

Sexual Attitude Assessment

Permissiveness

With a permissive scale score of 19, you appear to have a very strict sense of what is proper sexual behavior. Wild flings, the pursuit of sex for the sake of sex, and multiple partners are definitely not for you. You are not seeking new sexual experiences, and are probably very content with your current sexual situation. Some people might consider you a prude. However, there are a number of reasons that might explain your conservative attitude. First, you may be in a very fulfilling relationship that would be threatened by a more permissive attitude. Secondly, you may have low self-esteem, which makes you shy away from sexual adventures. Thirdly, you may believe sex that is not tied to love is unacceptable. Also, as we get older we tend to become more traditional in our attitude towards what is and isn't proper sexual behavior.

Practices

With an practices scale score of 88, you are on the high end of the scale. You may have a very permissive attitude towards sex, but you go to great lengths to make sure there are no unwanted consequences. You communicate well with your partner, and if they are like you it is unlikely your sexual encounters will produce any unwelcome surprises.

Emotional

With a emotional scale score of 83, indications are your sexual self has a very strong connection with your emotional self. Usually, if ever, you do not want to have sex. You want to make love. For sex to fulfilling to you there must be an emotional connection. For you sex is about forming a deep, spiritual bond. For you sex without a strong emotional connection may leave you feeling empty, even lonely.

Selfishness

With an selfishness scale score of 31, you fall into the midrange of respondents. While you are not egocentric in your approach to sex, you are not about to become so consumed with your partner that you forget yourself. You may see sex as a bit of game, and not be above resorting to less than honest tactics to get what you want at times. A sexual encounter with a new partner may stroke your ego as well. However, generally you are honest, caring, and not so wrapped up in yourself that you forget your partner's needs.

Dangerous Liasons

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 05 May 2010 22:10:00 +0000

You ran to him
When you shoulda been with me
Seeking love you most desired from me
He loves you more Than life itself
Like you hoped you'd get from me

An empty passion, ecstasy momentarily
Partial joy from a weekend toy
That closeness & safety
Emotional protection, it ain't me

I'm so real, a thrill, excited but scary
For a moment you lost me
Reverted back to half a decade of normalcy

At the end there still these
Innate passion filled desires of me
Visions of a future & babies by Key
Today's a good day till the lie comes free
Sloppy play & accidental notifications
Brought vision to hidden conspiracies

Theories of you playing me
I'm not perfect, yet never lied to thee
Crushed, confused, sad & used
All you do is refuse...
To honor the truth

I don't judge
cause you don't belong to key
Heart breaks cause I've given so much physically
Future unclear but you mean soooo much to me
I'm in love with this thing called uncertainty

Hard to function
I held you close to Key physically
Not enough for you
Cause distance you kept from me

Quite seclusion, life meant for me
I hold our last breath
To my chest so intimately
Goodbye my love as you weren't meant for Key.

As texted by Keyan Scott 5/1/10

24hr Burn Notice

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Wed, 05 May 2010 22:02:00 +0000

Internally, I shed... my soul feels dead
Fell deep for love & lost my soul instead
Cute & innocent is what they said
I trusted, but yet again I'm burned
Wisdom conventional, I say intentional
This mess is mental cuz these tears I shed
Tears of a clown, a painted frown
Permanently like tattooed tears
Held back & waited for all these years
Broke codes & bylaws, rules & regulations
With some, but not much hesitation
I went forward protecting 3 hearts, not just mine
Now this love/life in shambles
The broken heart, just mine!

You ran to him
When you shoulda been with me
Seeking love you most desired from me
He loves you more than life itself
Like you hoped you'd get from me
An empty passion, ecstasy momentarily
Partial joy from a weekend toy
That closeness & safety
Emotional protection, it ain't me
I'm so real, a thrill, excited but scary
For a moment you lost me
Reverted back to half a decade of normalcy
At the end there still these
Innate passion filled desires of me
Visions of a future & babies by Key
Today's a good day till the lie comes free
Sloppy play & accidental notifications
Brought vision to hidden conspiracies
Theories of you playing me
I'm not perfect, yet never lied to thee
Crushed, confused, sad & used
All you do is refuse...
To honor the truth
I don't judge
Cause you don't belong to Key
Heart breaks cuz I've given so much physically
Future unclear but you mean soooo much to me
I'm in love with this thing called uncertainty
Hard to function
I held you close to me physically
Not enough for you
Cause distance you kept from me
Quiet seclusion, life meant for me
I hold our last breath
To my chest so intimately
Goodbye my love as you weren't meant for Key.

Burnt Offerings

noreply@blogger.com (Key) — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 02:50:00 +0000

Soul drifts in deep surf
In search of dry land
Dried out bitterness
Sunshine, salty trails left behind
A bit worn, torn
Drift wood comes to mind
Tossed out useful to no one
Island drifters
Used for kindling & whispers
Match lit
Smoked out fools & dumb sh*t
No sustenance, BBQ's or warmness
Pity parties, drunk fools & whoreness
Kerosene lit & embers burn this
My reign ended once the Tree of Life & I split
My soul writes this cuz limbs no longer exist
Read the rings, many circles my life spent
I'm bent... Now ashes my soul went.