the less i eat... the less i weigh

old pics

2007-08-15T20:36:38Z

heres some old pictures of me... this is my goal... i think i weighed around 98lbs. in all of these

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-31T19:33:00

2007-08-01T01:36:33Z

i ate with my mom... had some baby corn, tortila chips, and some whole wheat crackers.... i am STUFFED i could explode seriously... since i didnt get to go throw with the second day of my fast today am just going to start over and fast tomorrow...

i have a freakin final tomorrow and havent studied yet... haha whateverrrrrrr... im so done with this school bullshit... i just want my last 4 weeks of freedom to be here before i have to start with school all over again... blah

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-31T10:11:00

2007-07-31T16:13:18Z

ok loves... im off to icky class!!! then i need to go the eye doctor YUCK! i hate going there... its juts like YES i know my eyes suck... dont gotta keep on telling me... im the one that knows i cant see! haha

stay strong
xoxo

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-30T02:34:00

2007-07-30T08:38:14Z

just spent a few hours cleaning and creating a new thinspiration journal, it looks great so far! i love it :)

a little annoyed with people asking if they should become ana or not... i didnt have that choice... this is something that has been with me for 7 years, and when i was 13 i didnt even realize that i had an ED... it wasnt till i went to the hospital that i then knew...

cant believe its already 330 am here... and i have class in the morning :( booooooo

gotta try and go to sleep
ick i hate mornings

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-19T12:23:00

2007-07-19T18:25:05Z

I FUCKING HATE GUYS dammit seriously

I FUCKING HATE that the scale is not moving

I FUCKING HATE everything right now

and that pretty much sums it up

anyone know the name of this song???

2007-07-18T05:39:21Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7il_HgAgYE

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-17T21:58:00

2007-07-18T03:59:46Z

so its decided im going to go purge... be back in a few

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-16T00:13:00

2007-07-16T06:18:50Z

i changed my user pic... i wanted to us this one of me dancing but it wont work... ill show you guys anyways...

new pics

2007-07-15T23:47:22Z

so people are commenting on some pictures of me from a few months ago... so here are some new ones... tell me what you think

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-11T14:02:00

2007-07-11T20:07:30Z

HORRAY I lost the 3 lbs that I gained while I was in Oklahoma! Ahhh! soo happy!!! now I just have to loose 9lbs before august 4th. I think that sounds pretty reasonable. And then from there loose another 5 lbs by august 27th (when school starts) and then i will be down to 115 and then i want to lose another 15 lbs by i dunno when, just soon! haha I cant wait till im 100lbs. I seriously cant wait until that day... i will be so happy :)

haven't eaten anything yet today :) will probably have an apple and sugar free redbull because i want to go work out... i hope these 9 lbs come off easily

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-05T03:22:00

2007-07-05T09:24:34Z

i seriously hate myself... everything about me disgusts me... i hate my body, i hate my personality, i hate how im a bitch and dont mean to be, i hate how everyone else hates me, i hate how ive fucked over so many good things in my life, yeah i basically hate myself, end of story

tlc05487 @ 2007-07-01T15:03:00

2007-07-01T21:05:54Z

just to avoid writing this paper i think i might take a nap i dunno though ughhh i need motivation to get this shit done!!!! maybe i should go for a walk just to get my mind off things and start fresh... hmmm i dunno

fast is going fantastic! only water today!! :)
i hope the rest of the week goes this easy... probably not but i can be hopeful right?!?

feeling determined

2007-06-28T09:01:25Z

sooo excited to start fasting tomorrow... i really wanna get down to 115 ASAP then down to around 105... I'm gonna try and not eat over 1,000 calories at all... and just do 2468 and work out lots... I know its gonna be hard because everyone im with always just wants to EAT TONS

My mom is driving me crazy... a few weeks ago i drank way too much and started throwing up in my sleep... my best friend was there to take care of me but my mom and i for the most part have a pretty open relationship so i figured id tell her, well that was a huge mistake... now all she ever says is how im a binge drinker and that im going to kill myself... and truth be told i will never drink taht much ever again because i had the shit scared out of me... And yeah i did drink a whole bunch this past year but thats because i was trying to find another way to relieve myself of pain... i used to cut well instead of cutting i figured id just drink, well now im finally realizing that neither is good for you... but i look at as at least i didnt get into any hardcore drugs... i know that id get addicted and that would just not be good...

anyways gonna go read and try and sleep

tlc05487 @ 2007-03-05T17:48:00

2007-03-06T00:51:40Z

here are some pictures i know they are horrible tell me what you think and be brutal please i seriously need it

tlc05487 @ 2007-03-05T17:41:00

2007-03-06T00:46:45Z

Heres some pictures i know they are horrible but i need other people to tell me to inspire me... be brutal i need it
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tlc05487 @ 2007-03-05T17:41:00

2007-03-06T00:45:41Z

Heres some pictures i know they are horrible but i need other people to tell me to inspire me... be brutal i need it

tlc05487 @ 2006-11-10T12:05:00

2006-11-10T18:05:30Z

off to a good start today. I decided that I'm going to start the raw-vegan diet. Nothing but frutis and veggies. For breakfast i had less than half of a grapefruit, somewhere around 70 calories? Then today after my classes im gonna go to the grocery store and buy lots of fruits and veggies! Hopefully this will work and I will lose lots of weight! I hope all of your days are going well. Just remember to stay strong, we can do it!!! GOOD LUCK AND STAY STRONG!
xoxo

tlc05487 @ 2006-11-08T11:53:00

2006-11-08T17:53:23Z

so im feeling really fat and really ugly. I see all these fat girls and i feel as if i look exactly like them :( so i decided that im starting a fast today. Anyone want to join? It would be nice to have some support i wanna lose 15 pounds by christmas at least.. hopefully 20. that would be perfect but i gotta stop thinking about it and actually DO something about. let me know if anyone wants to join my aim is tlc05487 and email tipytoes02@yahoo.com

*think thin*

tlc05487 @ 2006-10-08T17:15:00

2006-10-08T23:17:04Z

so i just wanna complain real quick... so i wanted to go eat sooo badly but overcame it but now all the girls on my hall (i live in a dorm) where just screaming at me to go eat...cant they just leave me alone... obviously i cant just eat whatever i want like they can, they piss me off so bad sometimes, i wish no one would ever mention going out to eat to me again...

tlc05487 @ 2006-10-04T15:33:00

2006-10-04T21:33:07Z

I am so freakin tired... I do not know what is wrong with me, maybe because I haven't eatin? Perhaps. But I just took one of the longest naps that I have ever had lol, Slept for almost 2 hours lol. Oh And my dreams have been sooo weird, I keep dreaming that I am in fights with people... its strange but oh well. I really need to start studying because I have a mid-term tomorrow.. it sucks

tlc05487 @ 2006-10-04T11:27:00

2006-10-04T17:27:34Z

So I kind of did bad yesterday... I did really really good all day but then I got totaly wasted and felt really sick so my friends kept practically forcing me to eat... mind you I threw up most of it, but still yesterday was supposed to be my first day of fasting, now I feel as if I need to start my frist day over today, yet I still feel sooo sick because I'm so hungover. I dunno I might need to eat a little something. Maybe just some fruit or something. But so far I haven't had anything but water and tyelnol lol... hopefully the rest of the day goes well :-)

WTF

2006-10-04T17:07:24Z

Im so tired what the fuck is wrong with me?????