The life of Lyra

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2013-06-12T14:41:00.001+02:00

I consider a name change with a name that resembles Elizabeth. So ... Lyra Elowen Addams? I don't just want to jumo out and claim it my name, just yet.

Alice!!!!!!

2013-06-10T23:50:00.002+02:00

This was the quickest way to get in contact with you. Sorry. >.>

Nestea time!

2013-05-08T13:31:00.001+02:00

I had to keep a break for a while, but this doesn't mean I'll be back permanent, okay? And sorry for not being really good at updating this freaking blog, but .. tumblr is easier to update and so is Facebook. Sorry.
This weekend, there has been SVS-con, which meant cosplay! Yaaay! But .. ugh, my boss tried to nag a work day on me, but I couldn't so.. yeah .. I've been a real nice girl and taken other people work days, but they hardly take anyone for me... Isn't that sad? I can't tell you where I work, at least I don't feel like telling you guys that yet, since I'm not even sure I'll stick around that long. And it's exam time, which means Nestea time! Woho!
Dammit I don't have alot to tell right now, so ... I hope I can share more some other day, mkay?

Seriously?

2013-02-07T11:31:00.001+01:00

I am talking - on vampirefreaks.com - with a muslim and I don't want to be a racists, but she is seriously a jerk towards me. I don't feel like hanging her out, so I'll just write girl when she talks to me. So you can see how this talk changed. I think I'll like to change her writing since I can't understand it my self. I know some of my facts aren't the perfectly real ones as well. None less, I want you to understand that I don't want to disrespect people from Islam. I just don't want it to be shoved in my throat.

Girl: So my name is *** and I was born in Tennessee but I am living in Tunis what about you?

Me: I'm Lyra and I live in Denmark. ^^

Girl: And how old are you? )

Girl: Sorry, I mean how old are you ? I am 16 ) And I am a muslim girl Are you Christian?

Me: I'm sixteen as well an no, I'm not Christian, I'm Wiccan. ^^

Girl: Ok nice to meet you. So tell me about your school ; your friends and the way you live in Denmark, because you know, it's different between here in Tunisia and there in your country. For me I study pilot school, I haven't got a lot of friends, I love reading and listening to music. I also like watching Horror movies such as saw or Scream, I love the,. What about you. I want to know things about you. You seems to be nice girl for me, besides you are as old as me so we can understand each other. ) That's what I thought honestly )

Girl: No answer I think that means no friendship? )=

Me: I don't always have time to answer. I have a life beside my computer and I don't really want to talk about my life. >.<

Girl: As you like, I also have a busy life beside, I don't want to speak about my life, but it's nice to talk about hobbies or friends. ) As you like ) and I want to ask you what Wiccan means ? I didn't understand it.

Me: It's a religion; you can look it up if you like. It's nothing more than Witchcraft.

Girl: So you like a Witch or something like that ? And what do you believe in? I mean, I believe in Mohammed, that is our Prophet, and only God creates the whole World and we also have the Quran, that is a sacred book from God (Note, Mohammed wrote this book, when he died, his Nephew took over Lyra Fact) In which God says to us what we must do or what we can't do, because it's forbidden. ) That's how we can go to Heaven and stay away from hell. We must also fight the devil because he wants us to go to hell. And be certain that everything in our lives has many dangers, such as we can't drink alcohol, because us Oblivious about what we do. ) So what do you do in your religion ? What is so special about it ? And did you once try and search about Islam?

Me: I know about Islam. I had about for 3 years in school and I hate to say it, but I don't want to hear more about it. Nor about Christianity, because that what we are bombarded with everyday. Even Hinduism is a big talk. And I believe that the Moon represents Goddess and the Sun represents our God, plus I believe in spells. I've written a love spell for example. And yes, I'm a witch. Not a high priestess or priest, I'm in a little coven with my sister and me. You can find more about it, on the Internet or in books.

Girl: So you think that the sun is our God? No the sun is one of the Creatures that God created. In fact the sun can't harm you, or benefit you, but God can do that ! Besides if the sun is the God, why does it Disappears at night ; the God can'tt Disappear, he must watch his Creatures and protect them, can the sun protect you ? No but God can do it ! Besides God is the only one who can Create things, can the sun do it ? Of course not ! And Muslims didn't bomb you because they hate you, no of course no, but because they wanted to Publish Islam in the whole world ! Just with Islam you can go to the Heaven try to read in the internet about Islam and you will see that it's the only right way to go to Heaven

Me: I don't think you understood me. The sun represents the God, he who is the warmth and he is red. If you read about the tale of the God and Goddess you will see the Goddess has more power than the God, she is the moon since she is the one who keeps us in balance. I don't see why I should be watched over by some God, but I believe in a spiritual ritual, where I can call upon these Gods and Goddess there may exist and ask for help. I mean I hear about Islam everyday and I do not believe a shit of how the Media portrays them, but I must say most Muslims do not even try and show us it's a calm religion and until you are over the idea of making everyone a Muslim people won't see you as good people. I have had of Islam in school so many years, that I know pretty much everything I has to know as an outsider. And one other thing, I don't believe in "Heaven", only Limbo - the spirits world - and in at I will be reincarnation into another person when my physical body dies. Please don't discuss religion with me, if you only want to convert me into a person I'm NOT.
And yes I respect Islam, but I don't want to be a part of it.

Girl: ok sorry about that ) but seriously I am shocked when I hear that you don't believe in heaven or hell ! Sorry again ! !! And if the "goddess" helped you once, please tell me I want to know how it did that ! For me God is always with me and I need his help, and if he didn't protect me I couldn't live, and by the way God is the stranger than any one in this world ! And if you don't believe me you can wait till when the world is ending, and God Combines all creation and asks us ; what did you do in your life ! You will see than the you was wrong and you will wish that you could listen to Islam !

Me: It happens often. I make an altar; put up a candle - it has to be green, silver, or purple - you light it, put up a picture of example Iris and an offering gift. Then you light up incense so you can pray in complete spiritual. The Goddess has helped me when I've been sad, stressed or even when I needed guidance. She has given me it, when I most needed it, when I was hurt everyday and when my family was unfriendly with each other. I speak for my self, as a Seer and a Wiccan, but I don't want to try and make people come in to my coven. I like it as it is, but I don't try and convert people. I do not believe in Hell or Heaven since it's not something there comes into Paganism and Wiccan/witchcraft.
My God and Goddess are always with me, but there are more than one God and one Goddess. The world will not finish anytime soon, unless someone tries to fire an atomic bomb and when the time comes - and Allah is there - I will prove you right. Until then I don't think you have the right to choke me with a religion, because that just makes more and more people disrespectful of it.
And I'll tell you this, not to be mean to you, but to show you how the world really is. Muslim is just like the Christian people, when they drove on crusades to convert people and that is years ago. You are at the state now, but with deadlier weapon, so please. Don't even bother talking about religion with me.

Girl: Ok you are free, but remember that the word can't be organized by two Gods , you know that the God wants to be the stranger and he wants to have all the world, without a partner, this is normal, so how we can live with 2 Gods? It's impossible ok ; and I promise you that u will say one day, she was right . And I want to ask you something. Why are you living ? For me I live and work hard to go to Heaven that is a gift for God to all who listened to him and did what God wants so u don't believe in Heaven why do you live ?

Me: I live because I like to live. So you mean that everyone who doesn't believe in Islam, should go and die? I want to live, I like life, I have tried to have girlfriends, boyfriends. I want to live my life to the fullest. I have a sister I live for and when time comes; for my children and my WIFE.
But God is the child of the Goddess AND her lover. Want to hear the story? Okay, here goes;
There once was a young and beautiful woman, she met a man who was strong and great. They had sex and he died, she gave birth to the God, and she became older he became stronger. Then the cycle repeats.
And I don't think I'll say you are right one day.

Girl: A prophet, Please respect me and don't speak about God like that, ok !! God isn't a lover or a child ok , he is one ; one God
I like life too, everyone likes life , who hates to live , no one ! But you must have a good reason to live ok , by the way we don't believe in "Goddess " because for us it doesn't exist, there are only one God , for him we live , God shows us how to live correctly and he says to us in Quran everything we need, we have rules for living do u have rules ? Did the Goddess gives you rules or did it tell you about forbidden things too ! Ok after dying what happens, what do you think ? For me after dying the human will go to heaven if he listen to God, and do what God wants ! Our and your God tells us that, in the Heaven you can find what ever you want, everything you can imagine . For me I want to have in heaven is ; seas of chocolate or fruit. It's great you know, and the others go to hell if they didn't even believe in God, and even Muslims can go to hell, if they do forbidden things ; besides we have our prophet, Mohamed, the greatest man in the word do u have ?

Me: Sweetie that was my belief, so now you're mocking my belief.
Not ALL people want to live, I had been suicidal and I have lost family by them killing themselves. I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN THE GODDESS, bus I do. Yes, we have 13 rules:
1. Know yourself.
2. Know your power.
3. Learn.
4. Use knowledge with wisdom.
5. Be in Balance.
6. Use your words with wisdom.
7. Keep track of your thought.
8. Praise life.
9. Live in Harmony with the worlds Cycle
10. Breathe correct and eat correct.
11. Exercise and take good care of your body.
12. Meditate.
13. Honor YOUR Goddess and God.

And when I die, I'll be reborn into a new body, and then I have to search after my soul siblings and my soul mate for the rest of that life too. The Goddess and God forbid us to practice black magic and to kill. We can smoke, take drugs, consume, and have sex outside of marriage. We don't have boundaries like the Christianity and Islam. We don't have a prophet, unless the four elements count.

Girl: We have also have most of those rules, but we have also another rules special than yours . We can't smoke, take drugs, consume, and have sex outside of marriage . All of those things are forbidden for us, you know why ? Because they are danger for us, and God cares about us, he wants us to be healthy and live happy ; he says to us that those things are forbidden because they will kill us and make us so ill, for example drugs will kill without count or sex can make you suffer from Serious diseases such as AIDS , this is Discovered by scientists, ok and you know that ! so like you, see God Keen on our safety so he tells us, don't do this things ; what about you why the " Goddess " didn't tell you don't do it because it is danger , didn't it care about your safety ? And your rules are general rules that everyone do it.

Me: Wait? We get AIDS from having sex OUTSIDE marriage? Damn … I thought it was because men and women were jerks, who are unfaithful. But um.. Wait.. How did they have sex in the Stone Age? We don't know if they had any kind of religion from that time.
Out Goddess let us do whatever pleases us, because she knows that it is out body. Uh.. By the way, our Goddess is the four elements, so... yeah.. I believe in Nature basically.
Yep, that is general rules, but those are the rules we have been told to live by. Shocking, huh? I'm sorry, but what do we even bother discussing this. I don't think any of us get anything out of this.
I want to end the conversation, saying; I don't care whether your religion is the right one or not. All of us have the "right" religion for us.

Update

2013-02-04T15:48:00.001+01:00

Bah.. I'm sick, so now I'll show you that I've lost my nosering *whimper*.
And I'm going to have contacts soon!

Empty

2013-01-28T19:40:00.000+01:00

This song gives me the chills. I adore it!

Lyra's to do list

2013-01-03T18:53:00.003+01:00

January:

1 - Get my things sorted out, in my closet.

2 - Win over the girl I like.

3. Try and exercise more.

4. Scream at my hair, as I'm getting blonde again.

5. Find out if I can buy a chestbinder.

6. Getting a better skin.

7. Trying to find a job.

February:

1. Have Hayley's birthday.

2. Have dad's birthday.

3. Do something in the vacation (secret~).

4. Write my application for IB in Ikast.

5. Control the economy in my home.

March:

1. Aunt Sara's birthday.

2. Grandma Birthe's birthday.

3. Getting stressed over Vampire Feast.

4. Hopefully be in a relationship.

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There was snow in Denmark - but it's over now.. Damn.. I'm happy it's over. And b.t.w. I like someone!

The reason I use omegle

2012-12-09T19:10:00.003+01:00

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You and the stranger both like Yaoi.

You: Hi.

You: I think we should sit and eat cake. Do you agree?

Stranger: oh indeed

Stranger: I shall bring the tea and coffee

You: Would you like tea or coffee? I even have a little hot chocolate, if you're lucky.

You: Oh. Why thank you, that's so nice.

You: I've made some scones.

Stranger: coffee shall do it for me. a scone would go delightfully with that

Stranger: shall I pull your chair our?

Stranger: out*

You: No need for that, I can do that my self. But thank you for your kindness.

Stranger: *sip* so my good fellow. what brings you to this side of omegle?

You: Oh, just boredom and math I can't solve. So I thought, why not a have talk with someone smart. And you? *sips tea*

Stranger: ah, just a lazy Sunday. I have no more need for math in adult world so I enjoy wasting my time here on my days off.

You: I'm rather jealous of you, being able not to do math. It's a bother for many pupils, such as me.

Stranger: what level of education have you already acquired?

You: I'm in 10th grade, last aquired before I go off to gym or what most people in the US or England call High School.

Stranger: ah so you're about 16?

You: Yes, I'm 16.

Stranger: im 23 so you got lucky finding someone smart here.

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Can you end this shit?

2012-12-03T21:18:00.000+01:00

Dear someone, of the web or anywhere in this freaking universe - might even in a parallel universe! Can you help me? I need a break, from it all. I'm constantly stressed, tired, worn out and I have to every. freaking. thing that mom can think of (or so it feels). I would wish for someone there looks like me, to cover up for me the next three months - someone to do my homework, cleaning, take care of an angry mm and so on. I can't, 'cause I'm breaking down here!?! .. I should atleast have some time for myself, right? And you know when that is? When she's not here! Or when my homework is over (around 21).. Today I've played sims, it was great, really. I needed some time off so I kida "forgot" to do everything I should and now I have to do them tomorrow~.. Weeeee.... I need a break, can you hear that?
It's gotten so far, my doctor is even worried of my health, 'cause I don't really eat, nor sleep very much. I drink a whole bunch of water and exercise (please don't start talking abour an eating disorder, because it's not. I got too much stomach acid, which make me vomit).. My head hurts like hell, I really wish I could cry, but I can't. I don't know why, but my eyes are not watery, nor are they dry... My whole body is aching.
I find it quite surprising through all f this, I still try and get a job (so I don't spend much tie at home), but I'm too freaking nervous, so.. At least I await for calls now.
And I'm getting tired of all of those lovey dovey couples on facebook "Oooh Simon, I love you so much. Thanks for three adorable months together, we are so cute!! :***<33 I hope our love will never die :*<3<3<3 Yours Princess". It makes me sick, and even worse.. My x-bestfriend is doing it. I know it sounds weird, but I cn't stand it! and the only reason why we're still friends on facebook its because I'm obligated to - her parents and mine are great friends... hurrray... And then there's me.. Sad, little, depressed me, with a warm spirithood - no friends in school and a sidebuddy there is in a realtionsship with a guy there has been totally in love with me since 7th grade. And I don't even think he is really that much in love with her. But this is only a guess.
I'm tired of being everyone's happy face and going around trying to make the world greater for them all, I want to be me and get rest. I want tot be with my sister, 'cause I'm not going to see her untill Feburary and I really want to scream and kick and cry. I want to sleep without nigtmares, were I wake up and trembles as I was an earthquake.
Most of all ... I want to be relaxed.
I think I'll go clean the rest of my freaking room and then die in the bed. It seems a hole lot easier than crying.
Goodnight

I'm sorry

2012-11-20T12:46:00.002+01:00

I'm so sorry I haven't posted anything, but... I'm really stressed and I need some time off. I'm sorry, but I need to lay off my blog for a while..

Blond

2012-11-08T13:28:00.000+01:00

Here's me being blond. Random. X3 - I'm 13 here.

I want this kind and review

2012-11-06T09:55:00.001+01:00

When I fall in love, I want her to be prettier than everyone else, so I can show her around and be proud. I want her and I have the perfect relationship, without being afraid of anything. I want her to believe in me and I will repay it, by believing in her. I want her with a great personality. But to find this girl, I might need to get over Tanya... Oh well.. It happens with time, right? And you can't decide when you fall in love, because it's suddenly there. Beautiful and everything you want. She'll be like that too, so I hope I find this pure love some day.

And I hope people don't stop watching my blog, I've merely been out of myself - sick and stressed - and still is... Gah, it's really trying to get me and it won't. I think in about a week or so, I'll have a review on the Novel "Glass Houses" by Rachel Caine and I really hope someone know another book I should try and read afterwards. And hopefully... It's a darn great book I've find! And people? Stay positive and don't forget about me, I'm only human and it's not everything I can, neither can you. So just don't get mad for me not updating every five day.

I think I'm going to post every week and that might be a long post then, so I can give a review, tell what has happened and maybe tell you which book I'm going to read afterwards (I want you to know, I might going to read a Danish book and then make a review on my Native language, but it's only if I had the book getting recommend).
I will now call it for the morning and start making my homework, ne? AND get starting reading the book. I will take a few pictures of the copy I have, so you can see which one I got (they can get made over and over, where the author decide whether there needs new material in the book).

So long and goodbye! Have a nice day~!

Sombreo Riding a Taco

2012-10-30T07:25:00.000+01:00

I think the best about blogging is that when you start blogging, you can start with anything, even with a sombreo, riding a taco (get it? No?) or saying hey on the awkward, yet awesome, way Communitychannel does it. But You could also start out with telling about you self, rather than a sombreo riding taco. And even if you don't like it, you can film yourself telling about rainbows and unicorns.
I will now get ready for school. I'm a brigdebuilder this week.

2012-10-28T19:38:00.000+01:00

I was bored and here are my pictures. Enjoy~!

I've thought about it and how will you guys have it with me making book reviews, telling about my opion? I think it would help my reading AND my blog.
Have a nice evening.

Working...

2012-10-28T17:18:00.001+01:00

I'm now working on editing zombie pictures. They'll be here and on my dA :3

Crazy cat

2012-10-21T15:09:00.001+02:00

My cat just came in with a little mouse, soo cute... It was alive and didn't wanted to die. She bit of the head and swallowed it as a cobra. Crazy cat.. >.>

Thinking and such

2012-10-21T15:01:00.000+02:00

So I was thinking and then it hit me.. I need to get more people watching my blog, but how? >.>

Damn.. I know I should probably write about my clothes, what my favourite make up of the month is, but I HAAAAAATE it~! D: - Any ideas?

By the way, anyone know who these is? And which anime/manga they're from? ^w^

Pizza for breakfeast

2012-10-15T11:04:00.000+02:00

I've got pizza this morning, because yesterday's supper were pizza. I like cold pizza in the morning, more than I like it warm. It's freaking amazing.. Ever tasted it? Try! It's godlike.. But I don't really think was the reason for this blog post - I .. again .. felt like an update, so I guess this would mean to give you one.
I'm with Alyze, freakish little Alyze, there likes a racoon eating a cat (she insist they are hugging, but I don't think they are). And it's nice, we're just sitting and chilling, maybe going to do some homework this evening or tomorrow were we are home alone. Wahaha. Gonna be nice, I guess.
I've bought Plant vs. Zombies for the mobile, it's a great game and I think you should check it out (if you haven't). It's crazy and I love playing it, though I don't quite like the Disco Zombie, who I named Disco Stuve and I have no clue why he has gotten such an awful name like that. I'm supposed to be good with names.

Here's a Pon & Zi picture, just to resemble how much people are around me when it rains. It rains a lot these days in Denmark, so anyone tend to be really careful with me always having an umbrella and it's okay, but.. seriously? I'm 16 now, I should be able to take a bit care of myself even though I hate walking around with an umbrella.
I hope you guys will have a good day. I'm off to a doctors appointment soon, so I'll stop writing and call it a day. Happy day!
And blessed be.

Hair model~

2012-10-08T07:46:00.000+02:00

I've been standing as a hair model, or actually.. I've been sitting in endless hours, waiting for the customers to arrive, before us models could get in on the stage. It was fun though. ^^
And yes, this is the only picture I got. You can either like it or not.

And I've been carving a pumpkin out yesterday, so I could enter a competition. Very nice.. But I don't really know about the quality of it. You can't see the screws in it, which made it so much more bloody. >.>
I had fun making this, and I don't really care if I win or not. But I want to win, otherwise I wouldn't have used an hour or two making it.

I don't have any important

2012-10-02T21:44:00.002+02:00

So.. I don't have much to say.. Erm.. Felt like an udating, so yeah.. hi..

Well.. Bam.. My breasts has grown and they should be killed and stabbed with a hammer, ne?
This is my update.
Bye.

Gender?

2012-09-22T22:12:00.002+02:00

Being here, in the world (we talk in general), it can be difficult, to be male and female. Women are jugded by their body, yes, and bigger breasts, is apparently best. I've hate mine and I'm not allowed to buy a chest binder, and I really want one. Though I want one, I do not wish for my sister to buy one. It'd be a shame, if she used money on me (I think I've used over thousand of DKKR on her), so I understand why she want to do the same for me. I just don't want her to do it, 'cause mom wouldn't allow me to wear it.

I often wonders, if I'm a transvestite, but I don't really feel like a boy that way. I prefer looking like one, but it's kinda hard, when your own mom is against it.I have a hard time, being me when I face these challenges, because I can't even buy boys clothes, without her, judging it down to a level, where it ends mysteriously gone. I have one pair of pants I want to use, because they are guy trousers. So.. I don't need to say more right?

And such things as a bra.. I don't wear anymore, because I don't feel the need to, when I just get "larger" breasts by this little thingy. Though I got something like a sports bra, but.. it's not the same, as getting them totally away - like a binder does.

I wish I could close my eyes and I could fly away, in a little sky and see who I am, in a different world. If I'm a boy or a girl. Am I transvestite or happy with my looks? Who would I be? 'Cause in the end.. Who is Lyra?

I don't know what I'm gonna say.. I'll just post this picture, because I thought it was hilarious.

Siiims

2012-09-17T19:21:00.000+02:00

SO.. I've been busy.. I've been playing Sims 3 and now I'll show you the pictures. xD

Beautiful Girl

2012-09-12T20:35:00.000+02:00

This is because I want to share to this band, which is quite new to me. I love the music they write<3

Religion and differentices

2012-09-11T19:55:00.000+02:00

Now that I'm attending a Christian school, it doesn't mean I believe at their beliefs, yet I won't pin them down, just because I'm not Christian. For me it doesn't matter what religion you have, as long as you don't try and shove it up my ass.
In Denmark I think religion is a "big" problem. They say we're open minded about people being different, yet they still doesn't understand why I'm walking around calling my self a witch ('cause that not normal behaviour!) and wearing stuff only "attentionseekers" wear. What I wear on a daily basis, is not because I need attention, it's just the way I dress. As all normal human beings I wear something as shocking as shoes, socks and UNDERWEAR! Bam.. doesn't that surprise you? I can be THAT normal? Sorry.. this is just my way of telling you, there's no reason why not wearing baggy clothes and such. It doesn't mean you're seeking attention, it means you're trying to find yourself.
I'd like to show you guys a picture of me when I was around 13 and then now. I found myself and I don't regret doing this and looking like I did.

(Warning, pictures are taken with a BAD camera, from when I was younger)

My eyes are filled with black, my hair is orange and I'm wearing a leather jacket (I still wears the jacket)

And then there's now. Black haired, pretty normal make up, still different and my own. I just think I look quite normal at his picture, but it doesn't matter.

And this is from a girl, there is wiccan and still LOVES science and such stuff. I'm not going to be something everyone is. I want to be a Dermatology and study at Oxford. Yes, I have dreams, maybe I won't reach them, but at least I dare to try, until it's too late, to be what I wanna be.

Keep dreaming, and don't stop believing in yourself. No one is going to tell you to do otherwise. Stay strong and positive.

New haircut

2012-09-08T16:46:00.001+02:00

Now with curls!

I went to the hairdresser to day and dang Peter did an amazing job! <3 - I really really like that salon in Brande named Hos Mikkelsen and I'm never disappointed about it. I've been using the same hairdresser for three-four years now and I'd be sad to lose such a great hairdresser as Peter. When I'm there I just sit in the chair and wait for his magic, because it's based on trust. I don't decide the style, it has to be about trust.
Now watch the edited pictures!

Uh.. Btw.. Peter wanted me to be a hair model with him, when he's going out to make some show! I'm sooo worked up about! It means much to me and maybe it's because I've got a dark period lately.

Well.. That was all for now. I hope you enjoyed my lovely pictures, as I did myself. Take good care, till next time! Which is weird to say 'cause I know you would.