The Mind of a Poet

A Rose In Life

2016-11-30T09:22:00.001-08:00

Come now little sister lets us take our thought filled walk
An image once forgotten, a little troubled, but never lost
Hand in hand we step now, on our feet and on a cause
And like the tree of life, our roots support our flaws
I love you little sister, always have and always will
An when you see my eyes know our father holds you still
I love you little sister, hold your breath an take my limb
Descend amongst the whispers and let your life begin
And as you tumble slowly remember forgotten eyes
For the man that held his Rose bud has never really died
Now with your graceful landing bask in my great son
For he now holds the eyes of the past that's just begun
So in the distance now you see a Rose that starts to bloom
Her pedals open slowly, amongst a son, eclipsed a moon
No longer my littler Rose bud, I take a step away
May the stars upon the heavens guide you on your way
I love you little sister, always have and always will
I give this man my Rose for now he forever holds you still

To my little sister and her husband Matt

Dream Seeker

2012-01-11T23:06:00.000-08:00

This torn and lost child only wishing to be
Has been blinded by the light and false prophecies
Waiting for a sign
He attempts to find himself
But a life that has no meaning, offers little help
O child hear your calling
Open up your eyes
The dream you have been seeking requires sacrifice
Now close your mind my child
And open up your heart
The limits that confine you
Are tearing you apart
My child you are but sitting
Stop searching for a hand
Answer one's own calling
You will rise to take your stand
Break free from chains that bind you
It is your soul that has the key
Rise above the lies that tie you
Become a man that's free

Mirror Mirror on Shattered Wall

2012-01-01T14:53:00.000-08:00

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whose eyes are these with tears that fall?
I know these eyes, but don't recall
This frozen face with tears that fall
O mirror mirror upon my wall
Who is the darkest of them all
The shatter stills when tears do fall
"So cold am I" these voices call
Please mirror mirror on my wall
Please end my pain, just end it all
Please end my tears and end my fall
Please end the cold from shattered walls
Mirror mirror on shattered wall
I'm forever looking down your dark hall
You've warped my mind beyond recall
I hope you shatter when you fall

Lover's First Kiss

2011-12-29T21:59:00.000-08:00

To her I tell another little secret
My world unfolds, while shinning in her eyes
For years I've walked never truly seeing
And now it's clear with her upon myside
I feel her touch, it's leaving me so breathless
My heart is racing, I'm feeling so alive
So tonight I'll lay dreaming in my wanting
Of the girl I kissed, for which my heart now thrives
With my first glance, she was so enchanting
As I looked up and saw her dancing in the sky
So to me she gave a smile of such beauty
So enticing was she, it took me by surprize
Love at first sight is only but a whisper
And when two stars meet, they'll shoot off into the night
Such beauty with such grace is a sonet when I kiss her
My heart is only longing for the secrets in her eyes
And when we are held in the arms of one another
Forever we will dream along the shooting stars of our own sky

One's Own Neverland

2011-12-23T09:21:00.000-08:00

I press my hand against her breast and listen as she breathes
A heartbeat sounding forever on, so much said in one's own sleep
Her gentle dreams bring warmth to mind, an together we are held
A sleepless night within my mind is forgotten all to well
So there she lays in one's own sleep with a smile upon her heart
I hold her tight against my chest, then wish upon my star
Such a perfect world that I live in when she is next to me
It's as though fate spoke when we first met, an from there it was meant to be
Her dreams of warmth fall gently now and guide me to my sleep
A life of pain was all I knew, now my heart can know some peace
So in the night we lay here still, together in the dark
Untouched are we by simple pain, for complex is the love of hearts
So on she'll dream as I just listen with one's own pressing hand
As she tells her silent fairytale, we'll drift off to Neverland

Darkside of The Heart

2011-10-16T16:31:00.000-07:00

I must confront my darkside and learn to let it go
To forgive my inner demons and the pain that I still hold
Consuming is this haunting, always hiding what I'm to be
These hardships that I am bearing are weighing down on me
I must find my own forgiveness to discover my own path
And not forget my darkside from the troubles of my past
My memories are apart of me and the man that I've become
If I close my eyes to ignore them, I'll know not where I am from
My struggles have been tiring, to where I am so weak
I must use these learnings wisely and struggle to my feet
A painful life of falling, so dark I can't recall
Might of left me injured but the healing defines us all
So when I show my darkside and start to fall apart
I'll think of all my falling and fight with all my heart

My Lonely Dove

2011-10-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

Please fly to me my lost love dove
Up overhead in skies above
You hide in clouds so I can't see
Your teardrops fall, like rain you weep
O please my dove, please listen well
This heartbeat rising to where you fell
For all I have is not enough
I'd give it all just for your touch
Like strangers now I walk this ground
As you fly by, above, not found
I feel your presence as feathers fall
But when I look up only rain still falls
O my love, my lonely dove
Please come to me, I feel your love
I feel your heart and know your mind
With you so far I feel so blind
So on I'll walk as my word flies
And hope one day to behold your eyes
Because my dove, my only love
I see only you in skies above

October Breath

2011-10-15T19:16:00.000-07:00

Walking through this tall grass field
I see the breath October feels
Falling sunlight on falling leaves
Watching breath as I breathe
In early mourning I give my sigh
As my whole world meets falling sky
And in the middle of this mist
I feel a gentle falling kiss
October mourning I see your songs
A bird's lone chatter with jumping fawns
This field I walk holds all my peace
This fall time air inspires me
Painting thoughts with my own words
The leaves dance down and souls are heard
My changing seasons, you touch me so
For new beginings hold all my hope

Tears of Sand

2011-10-06T00:56:00.001-07:00

I slip away into my depth
Just fear and I with no one left
The silence falls and angels weep
The walls I've built brings me my peace
I hear their calls but they can't help
This broken heart consumes itself
I feel these worms dig through my mind
The darkness spreads, only hate I find
So much pain with loves I lost
They left me here at selfish costs
The tears I give turn into sand
Then fills the glass and breaks in hand
My depth, my curse, my mind, my pain
These silent screams, am I insane?
The walls of fear, my endless depth
A broken heart with no one left
Weeping angels and tears of sand
The spreading darkness for which I am
The worms of hate and selfish costs
Alone am I and always lost
Down I look upon this man
Please my love, I need thy hand

The Mirror Distorted

2011-10-06T00:52:00.002-07:00

There is a ripple in the water with every drop that falls
Distorted is this image from which I can't recall
I start to listen clearly even though he cannot speak
This man is slowly falling and looking very weak
A drowning man is calling, so I'm giving out my hand
But living through this torture seems not to be his plan
I give a calling screaming, for now he starts to weep
While hearing in the distance a voice that cannot speak
These tears that keep on falling make it so I can't see
Each ripple that is forming is a wall that I'm to be
This man just keeps on fading, why won't he take me by the hand
Why I give my caring I have yet to understand
Now as this sky stops crying, his face I start to see
A man that's done his dying has no wanting to be free
I look into this water, a reflection of a man
A mirror of his father so now I start to stand
The only face I stare at is one that is well known
For even though it's lifeless it is one that is my own

The Prince and I

2011-09-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

Underneath the hollow tree an owl watches over me
Without a word alone he sits
Such glaring eyes I know this prince
These trees give cry as though afraid
This nighttime air seems so dismayed
I feel a presence well known to me
A watchful owl opens wings and speaks
"Child sweet child why do you cry?"
"Is it cause your alone and have no where to hide?"
"These eyes see more than what you believe"
"An though a good man I see the pain that you keep"
O owl wise owl I know not what you mean
I am not running, I just want to be seen
An if I say so myself, your eyes are quite gone
I am not crying, now quite, be gone
And at this response the prince just started to laugh
For the owl had known the years of my past
" Listen to me now, I see through all of your lies"
"I can see into your future and the past that you hide"
"And though your not crying I still see all of the tears"
"The loves you have lost and the pain through your years"
"So here you are now, lost and alone"
"As you quiver afraid, still just writing your poems"
"I know you can see what potential you have"
"Stop having self pity and press on through your past"
"Your eyes show your pain and also your strength"
"An though there is sorrow, you shine in your wake"
"I know you feel tired, weakened, and frayed"
"But see past this illusion and stop being afraid"
"The path thats before you offers no help"
"Nothing is given you must take it yourself"
"And when the day comes that your path meets an end"
"I promise before you we will speak once again"
An with a sly gesture the owl took off into flight
As I stood there just watching into the night
Not sure of this vision or what I had seen
I felt passion inside me and reached out for my dream
So with only a gesture and an ending unknown
I started my journey with a pen and a poem
An when I feel lost I will look up to the sky
To see my prince soaring showing me why

The Poet's Kiss

2011-09-08T19:44:00.001-07:00

As I rise in the mourning and find you asleep
Somberly you lay there with the beauty you keep
Now pressing our lips we remain so intwined
My heart beating to the symphony that I call your mind
So with a warm hearted smile and all of your love
I fly from my window to the stars up above
For I am the sun and you are the moon
And no matter the years we will continue intune
O love of loves with stars in your eyes
You give reason in being which causes my rise
Softer than silk, your hair falls with such grace
Euphoria fullfilling me when you hold me in place
So here I shall sit and fill book after book
Finding the words for the heart you have took
You are more than a lover you are truly a friend
Shedding my tears while guiding this pen
To say you are perfect would be more than untrue
For it is your flaws for why I love you
Never selfcentered and always so caring
The affection you hold is mine for the taking
So many times have I been lost in the dark
Finding my way with the light of your heart
If only I knew what this life meant to give
Then never in pain we would able to live
So lay there at night and feel all of my words
Only you knowing of the poet's kiss that you heard

The Reflecting Sand

2011-09-08T17:38:00.000-07:00

This life that he is living is more than just a dream
Can you feel his passion rising it's bursting at the seams
A young man keeps on writing, alone by candle light
You see his shadows dancing, while his words come into sight
His world is but a mirror, a past thats always there
But if he tilts this mirror, then his path might change a hair
It's all about perspective and where he tends to stand
He sees the things that change him but the view is all in sand
This man has so much meaning but no one seems to see
That he cares not for faulty meanings, he's just wanting to be free
So in this darkened room, still shining is his light
He is sitting in his silence, still just writing in the night

A Watchful Eye

2011-08-14T06:20:00.000-07:00

I miss you friend whose looking down
Keeping watch on loves well found
I close my eyes to behold your face
Still shedding tears, please soothe this hate
My prayers to you are all thats left
A world now gray without your breath
I miss you mat and all we had
How is my father, is he still sad?
The path I took lead me astray
Please forgive me now and guide my way
My love for you was always there
I tried my best, please know I care
My fallen brother for which I weep
Am I a coward and deserve no peace?
With all I am, I hope you know
My love for you shall always grow
An down the road when I meet my end
I will search for you and brace my friend

I miss you Mat, love Andrew

Heartbeat Rising

2011-08-01T15:00:00.000-07:00

I still see that fading shimmer when I look unto your eyes
The wanting of forgetting of my darkened hurtful lies
Remembering of our past and unsure of whats to be
Has left you in a crossroad, I can see the pain you keep
Please know that I am trying and understand why I must wait
I know you are not certain because of my mistakes
I'm sure that I'm still hurting you and should probably walk away
But understand I cannot for my heart still has some faith
At night I lay here dreaming an your all thats on my mind
I promise if you'll trust me no other's love could be like mine
I have shown you who I am, still paying back on my mistakes
I hope you see me truly an find a risk that you should take
An if ever you should kiss me I will take you by the hand
Press it to my heartbeat and hope you'll understand
For my heartbeat seems to rise up then settle to a pause
For this is why I'm human, I'm sorry for my flaws

The Distant Sound

2011-07-31T19:47:00.000-07:00

Im sitting here awakened and feeling like I'm drawn
A patient man thats falling, such a life of simple pawns
Realize your life of failing an who we are that we must be
Is their anyone thats listening or am I the only one that sees
The voices keep on calling but I never seem to find
What it is that I am searching for which in turn has left me blind
So on we all keep walking never thinking of our steps
Until we take that weary step and were falling out of breath
Day by day it all keep passing, I'm sure its just a dream
I'm sure when I start falling I will wake an then be seen
Can you here that in the distance, that O so failing sound
It's the words that I've been searching for, I think I'm finaly found

Soulless Bliss

2011-07-21T15:15:00.000-07:00

A soul forgotten within my tear
Slowly falling through this winter air
A sleepless night within my mind
To many thoughts I cannot find
The howling wind cuts to my bone
A lonely wolf still finds no home
My mind is bleeding from all this thought
I find no comfort in lessons taught
Now looking back from whence I came
I see I'm lost and have no way
Circles drawn on these closed eyes
The mask I wear from those who've died
The depth I have is why I fall
An is my reason I've lost you all
So in my darkness alone I'll sit
My only company in soulless bliss

The Words I Held

2011-06-26T05:04:00.000-07:00

Words well said can leave you blind
Words well heard can change your mind
The words you've said once held their pain
An brought my tears like drowning rain
No wanting now for the words I've lost
I've paid my price and all the costs
To long I've spent so torn apart
Your words no longer reach my heart
So know this now I hold no pain
Then hold the past and hold my shame
I know your words held good intent
I hold no grudge for pain well spent
With these last words I write to you
Now in my eyes are friends held true

A Dreamer's Path

2011-06-26T05:03:00.001-07:00

With silence so soothing gentle singing away
I hear in the distance no confusion today
Mind is set free to wander with please
Visions glide by drifting with breeze
Now with content I breath my new peace
Forever about me guiding my sleep
I hear my new hopes rising in the moonlight
Forever still gazing at stars in the night
O dream broken child away your old sins
Defeat your own demons and dont let them in
For when the time comes that I must realize
I'll be my own man and stand up with my pride
Then soon a bit after I started to wake
Longing to dream of the paths I must take

The Void in Heart

2011-06-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

My mind is lost, my heart is torn
I grab my chest in my mourn
The scars I wear reflect myself
Alone I sit with no ones help
The pain I feel is in my bones
Then through my pen and out my poems
To the sky I give my cry
As tears roll down, I wonder why
The pain I feel knows no end
I burn and watch the loves I mend
This darkened room holds all my grief
Emotions torn is why I weep
The only thing that has not came
Is my dark clouds to end their rain
I feel the calm before the storm
The loss of love has left me worn
Try and try but I still fail
Lost in my mind I can't conceal
To those of you that are reading this
Know my pain and lack of bliss
All I have is not enough
To fill my empty endless cup
O love of loves I'm torn apart
Please whisper words to mend this heart

Who I Am

2011-05-31T16:44:00.000-07:00

I know my faults and who I am
Please listen now and understand
With all my passion I act in haste
An all my depth shows in my face
But with my passion, steps in my heart
An the love I hold tears me apart
I think to much, but never ahead
The lies I tell could weave a web
But this is so the ones I love
Will never fall and stay above
I am to hopeful with things unclear
Which in return, I cause their tears
I have much patience and bear much wieght
I do have limits but never hate

My actions are mistaken for thinking of myself
Only trying to protect those for which I cannot help
Always sacrificing, to help others off the ground
An yes I do feel lonely that my love is not yet found
The loyalty I have will never cease to stop
My mistakes come in many, but I learn what I am taught
The promises I make I always try to keep
But being optimistic tends to sweep me off my feet
My past is dark with clouds, leaving me depressed
But still I see some light in a future that may be blessed
For know thats all I'm writing, I'm sorry it's not more
If you want to know this man you must open up your door

The Desert Bleak

2011-05-17T06:00:00.000-07:00

Alone I wander in desert bleak
This thirst I crave has left me weak
I consume and take, a well not filled
On I go with pain not killed
O desert bleak please let me see
So I might wander away from thee
The years that pass are all just sand
My mind is lost, but still I stand
These passing faces are all the same
They look no different and have no names
My lips are cracked and so my heart
I thirst for which I cannot part
In desert bleak I make my way
This sea of sand and my decay
O desert bleak please promise me
If I am found just let me be

Clouded Skies

2011-05-15T22:13:00.000-07:00

Come and go you passing day
Still I see no stars this May
Day and night come in with clouds
I feel the rain my heart allows
On my bed I give my stare
Through my window, with no care
I long for stars that only shine
Such meeting eyes I cannot find
A passing day, a clouded face
Which hides my pain I cannot face
I try my best to not and want
These clouded skies that only taunt
I know such clouds will finaly part
With parting clouds Ill find my heart
And when again I find those eyes
Ill watch them shine like stars in skies

The Blind Man

2011-04-17T20:54:00.000-07:00

Now on again I start weave
This long and complex tale
With twists and turns and ups and downs
My dreams have been my shield
I hear your voice but can not see
Will you lead this heart to home
With broken eyes and this cracked heart
I search your lovely tone
These recent steps were mine to take
An I took them all alone
O feel my whispers brush back your hair
To the window of your home
Now in my dreams I see your face
Like a man that once could see
For as long as we keep out of sight
A blind man I shall be
So hard I try but can not write
My heart is at a stop
I need a muse, some inspiration
Can you lend me just a thought?
A simple touch, a gentle whisper
Or even just a look
Would be enough for me to see
An gain back the heart you've took
I know my acts and who I am
An feel what I can be
On this next turn whether up or down
I hope that I can see

The Distorted Illusion

2011-04-02T15:42:00.000-07:00

Now looking at my picture, you say you see my art
But my meaning so much deeper, if you only knew my heart
As a focus point in thought, you blend against the rain
I feel your lonely droplets with this mind thats gone insane
You try to understand me, but your looks are so confused
If my actions are not clear, then I have nothing left to loose
An though you hear me clearly, to me you have no tune
Forever I am reaching towards the stars and darkened moon
Now falling off my face I look at my own tear
Forever seeing eyes which have never been so clear
Distorted is this image reflecting back at me
Wtih illusions that are bending I am not what you can see
I know the words I tell you make less than perfect sense
But this is how I show you what I feel at present tense