The Neverending Journey

A Fork in the Road

2010-05-25T20:03:00.000-07:00

I have a problem. I am an emotional eater. I am not sure what it is deep down that is causing me to eat, eat, and then eat some more. Sometimes I can't stop, even though I can hear myself screaming inside to just stop. Before I had my kids I was a smoker. I gave it all up the minute I found out I was pregnant, and never went back. It was my emotional crutch. Now I have binge eating. The

feeling defeated

2010-05-02T19:56:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling defeated lately. I guess this would be the reasoning behind my lack of blogging. I have felt defeated in my weight loss efforts. I keep thinking back to how much harder I have to work for it this time. I wonder where my self control and resolve went. I read blogs and talk to people I know who have been successful and sometime it makes me feel very defeated.I feel defeated

Making the right choices

2010-03-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

My choices have changed. This last week I had a day which I had to eat out for every meal. This day was a high calorie day as far as my zig zag would go so that was good. I also still had a cheat meal coming. For breakfast I choose an egg white western omelet on wheat english muffin from subway for around 250 calories. For lunch I went to a deli style restaurant. I choose half of a baked

2010-03-16T20:47:00.000-07:00

Wow it has been almost a month since my last post. I guess I have been trying to figure things out for myself. I am now trying a different approach to my eating, thinking, goals, and my workouts. On the eating front I am now trying the "Build the Muscle, Burn the Fat" approach. Simply I am adding protein to every meal and snack and trying to consume most of my simple carbs before dinner, and

2010-02-18T19:28:00.000-08:00

I have been avoiding this post. I need to get it out, but I know while talking about it will be therapeutic, it also means reliving the moment. I relive this moment several times a day and every night when I close my eyes. A week ago today my Dad went in to have a surgery to put a stint in because he has an aneurysm. The surgery went great, afterwards not so much. My Dad is a smoker and has been

I Burned What

2010-02-03T19:42:00.000-08:00

Today I was off work, but I had a lot of errands to do, so I took the kids to daycare anyways. Around lunch I decided to go (by this I mean I reluctantly dragged myself) to the gym. I knew it might be busy, but it was the only time I would be able to squeeze it in. I am shy by nature, and feel very awkward and intimidated around others (especially when strength training) at the gym. There was

Mirror Mirror on the Gym Wall

2010-01-31T18:39:00.000-08:00

Went to the store and got new running shoes yesterday. Turns out I already own the top of the line as far as running shoes are concerned. I went to a specialized running store and everything. The salesman did not even look at my stride or anything. He said since I enjoyed my shoes so much, and they are the best out there, I should just stick with them. I tried on a few more kinds, and well,

The Motivation I Wish I Didn't Have

2010-01-24T11:23:00.000-08:00

Ten days ago I got the call that my Dad was at the ER and they were waiting for an ambulance to take him to a bigger hospital in the closest city. My dad has an aneurysm and he had gone in for severe abdominal pain. His local hospital took a CT scan and had seen that his aneurysm had grown and were concerned that this was the cause of his pain. Long story short it turned out to be a pulled

2010-01-12T04:26:00.000-08:00

Had a crazy weekend yet again. I had to leave work early to pick up my little girl, she had a stomach bug and had thrown up at daycare. This killed my plans for Friday. It was my ten year anniversary, and both the hubby and I were off work and we were going to do something fun together while the kids were at daycare (maybe indoor skydiving). We were at least able to go out to dinner together

Rocking it 2010

2010-01-04T19:29:00.000-08:00

So far I am rocking in 2010. I did a one mile run and a one mile walk on Saturday. I did these so that I could calibrate my Nike +. On Sunday I went to the gym to do some strength training and a hill workout on the treadmill. Both of these were new workouts to me. I got both of the ideas from runnersworld.com. The strength training routine had a few similar moves to one I was doing before. Over

A Look Back in Time

2010-01-01T05:00:00.001-08:00

Happy new year. It has been a long time since I have written anything. I just haven't felt like putting myself out there lately. I am going to make an effort to be more dedicated to writing at least twice a week. I am doing this so I have something to look back on for strength and guidance when I need reminded of what works and what doesn't. I cant really do that if I don't write every now and

new week

2009-12-06T20:25:00.000-08:00

Last week was a bad week. A fight with my boss that lasted from Sunday and into Monday was all it took to ruin a whole week. I did come out more resilient and more determined to succeed in all aspects of my life. My boss may be my mentor and she may have taught me most of what I know, but that does not mean I have to be just like her. I need to find my own ways to make things work. I am back to

Weigh In Day

2009-11-23T18:08:00.000-08:00

I could have, and wanted to, jump back into bed, wake the husband up and jump up and down on the bed in celebration. I wanted to but I resisted. I don't think at the wee hours of the morning my husband would have shared my enthusiasm. Drum roll please. My weight this morning was 162.5. True it has been a while since I weighed myself at home, in the morning, on a Monday, but it is much much better

Just do it

2009-11-22T19:19:00.001-08:00

It is Sunday and that means it is time to review last weeks goals and list this weeks goals. Last weeks goals were:Monday: gym after work cardio, strength at home before bed (no) Tuesday: gym after work cardio (went before bed) Wednesday: strength before bed (no) Thursday gym cardio (did it) Friday: off Saturday: run or gym weather dependant (nope). Got two days done and I logged all my food

2009-11-17T21:05:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I said that I did not exercise or log my food. I went back this morning and did as accurate of a guess as I could, and the results were not pretty. According to my calorie tracking site "If everyday were like today you would gain .9 pounds a week. :( Not good, but definitely a truth I needed to see. Today it reads " If everyday were like today you would loose 1.7 pounds a week."

Monday Madness

2009-11-16T20:07:00.000-08:00

Well good intentions aside, I neither made it to the gym nor was I able to log my food. The hubby had a bad day at work and wanted to go out to dinner. He is the type that hates to be at home when he is down. I complied for his sake. The cookie dough afterwards is all on me. If I get into that tub of school fundraiser junk one more time I will throw it in the trash. I don't care what it

Weekly Goals

2009-11-16T03:48:00.000-08:00

For this week:Monday: gym after work cardio, strength at home before bedTuesday: gym after work cardioWednesday: strength before bedThursday gym cardioFriday: offSaturday: run or gym weather dependantLog all food even if I have to approximate.Try one new foodI did not reach all my goals for last week because I got a cold (better than the hubby's flu) and I way over did it with my strength

So Far So Good

2009-11-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

I just posted my goals a few hours ago and I am excited to say I can check off the first goal for this week. I went to the gym did my strength training and my 30 minutes of cardio. I kept trying to talk myself out of doing the full thirty but in the end I did all 30. I ran for .75 miles as part of my cardio. This is not as far as I wanted to run, but I will take it. Only 9.25 miles to go for this

Goal Time

2009-11-11T18:45:00.000-08:00

Its time to write out some concrete goals. Without them I have nothing to hold myself to and nothing to challenge myself to do.GOALS:This Week:1) Workout Wed.- 30 min. Cardio, Strength trainingThurs- 30 min CardioFri. - 30 min Cardio, Strength training2)Log all food for rest of the weekThis Month:1)Workout 4 days a week minimum2) Run 10 miles3)Lose 3 poundsBy ChristmasLose 8 poundsBy the end of

Relaxing Sunday

2009-11-09T20:16:00.000-08:00

So I decided to go for a hike for some "ME" time. My sister was supposed to come with me, but she backed out at the last minute. So this pretty girl was my companion. This is the mountain we climbed This is the trail This was the breathtaking view at the top. Worth all 7.4 miles round trip. Unfortunately I had a malfunction with my hiking boots. The support in the ankle area was rubbing

I'm Back

2009-11-04T03:32:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since I have blogged, exercised, or stayed within my calories. I guess you could say I took a vacation. Between illnesses and stress at work I have been spread too thin. These are excuses and do not make my vacation acceptable, but sometimes in life we have to do things to get by. My clothes are getting tighter, I am tired all the time and I am starting to get stress

2009-10-30T03:48:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post. Yesterday I was talking to my younger sister on the phone and she asked what I was doing. I told her I was shoveling my sidewalks (thanks mother nature for the two feet of snow, not) and she said "how can you shovel and talk on the phone?" My reply was " I am on my bluetooth." She in turn says "Thats right you are in shape." I guess its the small things that we can do in

More to the story

2009-10-06T03:52:00.000-07:00

Last night I left out some of the important details. If I am doing this so I can look back see where I came from, what worked, how I have changed, what worked, what didn't work, ect. then I need to be a little more detailed. Last night at the gym I did the treadclimber for twenty minutes (after a five minute warm up on the treadmill of course). I pick a slower than normal walk speed (I

Oops

2009-10-05T21:06:00.000-07:00

Wow I can't believe it has been almost a month since I last posted. It has been a crazy month for sure, and in the process, I let my healthy lifestyle slip. It started with my first 10k. Well actually three days prior to that my little girl broke her leg. Then that Saturday she spent the day throwing up :(. The on Sunday I ran/walked my first 10k. My time was 1:23:41. Not bad. The next day was

I Hate Monday

2009-09-07T20:23:00.000-07:00

Today was one of those crazy days at work. You know the ones where it seems like if it could go wrong it did. My boss convinced me to go to Qdoba for the Monday breakfast special. But for lunch I did good and only had my salad. Then after work I was supposed to go grocery shopping, but I decided not to, way to stressful of a day I just wanted to go home and be with my family. So with stress