The Ramblings of a Wannabe Healthy Girl

Weigh in

2016-04-21T11:39:00.002-04:00

I'm working a semi - low carb plan - staying under 100 carbs a day and trying to get all my steps in and as of this morning I was at 190 even. Thats with TOM looming so I'll take it. I also joined a dietbet that started yesterday and runs until May 18. I have to hit under 185.3 to win. I hate to lose/waste money so its a pretty good investment in me :)

Keeping it up

2016-04-08T10:26:00.000-04:00

Still doing good on the walking and eating well side of things. I had a tooth pulled yesterday so I was lazy and didn't get all my steps in but still hit just under 10k which considering I lounged on the couch and babied myself was a win for me. It's going to be a cold weekend here - hopefully our last one before spring arrives - so I'll be doing laps inside my kitchen to try to hit 20k steps Saturday and Sunday. I've been having some pain and swelling in the top of my foot - in the area of the tendon that runs up from the big toe so I used yesterday as a rest day to try and calm the irritation down a bit.
Hope everyone has a great weekend. I'll be checking in Monday with a weigh in.

The "Oh crap I'm going to be a bridesmaid in 4 months" weight loss journey

2016-04-06T10:58:00.001-04:00

So here we go again same old story - I'm fat and trying to lose weight. Seems like some things never change. My best friend asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding before Christmas and like an ass I waited and waited to work on losing weight so here we are 129 days until the wedding and I'm just as fat as when she asked me. I am seriously trying to work on it though. Saturday I strapped the fitbit back on and started walking. I've got my goal set at 12,000 steps a day minimum but I've been doing over 16,000 with a high of 20,229 on Sunday. I've been doing lots of laps around the kitchen. I'm planning on eating my last mini bag of cadbury eggs tonight and then I'm done with the candy. I already did away with the stash at my work that I'd been hitting on the regular. My bridesmaid dress should be arriving soon and I'm not looking forward to trying it on :(

Anyway so my weight as of Sunday was 193.5 - hoping that by next Sunday I see a drop of at least a couple lbs. It would certainly help my motivation.

Here we go again

2014-01-13T11:45:00.002-05:00

Well here it is another year gone by and I'm heavier than the last. It's ridiculous that I haven't committed myself to taking care of me yet and instead choose to be lazy and take the easy way out. I know it takes work, I know it takes a commitment and yet I can't seem to be bothered. I know I need to do something so I'm starting over - yet again. My weight this morning is 189.5, I think that may be the highest I've seen while writing this blog. I will weigh in on Mondays because I'm hoping that will help to keep me on track for the weekends. I'm attempting to follow a South Beach type diet at least for now but I also have a weight watchers online membership that's paid up till mid March so after doing Phase 1 of South Beach from now until the 25th I may change it up to Weight Watchers. I will be going to the gym 4 times a week - I'm planning on M,T,Th and then either Saturday or Sunday. I know what works, I just have to commit to it.

Ugh

2013-05-13T21:39:00.001-04:00

I have nothing really to say....I've gained I think since my last stop by here in January. Not as much as I thought I did but my weigh in in January was 183.2 and this morning was 184.5. I guess we can say I've maintained my out of shapeness for 5 and 1/2 months. I have a beach weekend scheduled for July 12-15 and I'd really like to be down 10lbs by then so I can at least fit in my summer clothes.
I've been wearing a fitbit for a couple months and tracking on myfitnesspal more often than not but I think my metabolism is at a crawl now. I've got to do something and stop making excuses.

Weigh In

2013-01-08T19:44:00.001-05:00

I went to weigh in thi morning and my scale that I thought had needed just a battery replacement was erroring out. I didn't get to weigh in this morning but did make it to my moms this afternoon to use her scale, which is actually where I weighed in last week anyhow and the result was 183.2 - total loss of 3.8 from last Tuesday!!! Yahoo :)

I started my new job yesterday and my eating has been on point. I started my day at 6am with a portioned bowl of the new Honey Nut Cheerios Medley Crunch with a sliced banana and 1% milk. On the way to work I got a large Dunkin Donuts coffee with cream (yes, I said cream - I refuse to cut out everything) and Splenda. At about 10am I had a 90 calorie Yoplait yogurt, at noon - an apple and at 1:30ish - a nature valley granola bar package (both bars). At my PTO meeting tonight I had a slice of the chocolate chip friendship bread I brought and then just a little while ago I made myself nachos for dinner with the leftover salsa chicken I had made in the crock pot on Friday. Now it's water for the rest of the night.

I finally feel like I've got some control again. Not being in an office surrounded by other people who are bringing food in and getting take out for lunch will be great for me since as I've said before I have little to no self control.

Weak-end

2013-01-06T22:18:00.002-05:00

I feel very dejected by my weekend as a whole or as I've been calling it my weak-end. I didn't try hard, I failed myself with my eating and exercising and the scale shows it. I've decided to make my weekly weigh-in on Tuesdays for now. Give myself a day to relieve some of the damage done.

I start my new job tomorrow and I felt very defeated as I tried on clothes to try to pick something to wear. Most of my stuff is too tight. Not a good feeling at all. I'm not buying new clothes so I guess I'm going to have to make this work.

Bodybugg Day One

2013-01-03T20:56:00.000-05:00

I'm so happy to be using my bugg again. I like seeing my actual calorie burn. I feel like it helps

to motivate me. I took a picture of where I was at as of 8:30pm tonight for anyone who hasn't seen what the program looks like. My target calorie burn for the day is set at 2450 and my intake is set to 1700. I went over my intake and didn't reach my goal at this point but I still have time and I think I should probably hit the mark tomorrow.One positive I did have today was actually going over my water consumption goal. I'm using the waterlogged app to track water and I have my goal set to 110oz a day. I've already hit 120oz and I'll probably have one more glass before bed.

The weekend ahead should be a busy one. Friday nights are dance class for my daughter and then Saturday will be her Girl Scout Cookie Rally at the local mall and then our final family Christmas celebration at my parents afterward. We had to postpone part of the holiday since my brother and sister in law and their children were visiting her family in Germany for December.

I'm hoping to take advantage of the time my daughters at the cookie rally by looking for a new pair of work shoes for my new job on Monday. I wish I had the money for a shoe shopping spree seeing as their the only part of me that doesn't change in size :)

First Step

2013-01-02T21:36:00.001-05:00

I had thought about joining weight watchers but the cost is just too much for me to swallow right now. As a lower priced alternative I decided to renew my bodybugg subscription. I've had a bodybugg for quite sometime. Two and a half years maybe? I don't know. I haven't used it in at least a year and a half possibly longer. I'm hoping to use it for awhile and at least get some kind of baseline as to where my metabolism and bmr are at. I'm also hoping it will encourage me to get some more movement in. My subscription should be active tomorrow at some point and I'll be wearing my armband for the first time tomorrow. I'm looking forward to seeing where I'm at.

Guess I may as well try this again

2013-01-01T16:55:00.000-05:00

Just like about every other blog I've seen today I also am hoping this year is a fresh start for me. I'm sitting here at 23 lbs heavier than my lowest weight in memory and at closer to all my weight gained back. Woo hoo. The older I get the harder it seems to motivate to do something about this weight even though I know its a necessity. I'm angry about it. I'm angry that I threw all my hard work out the window. I'm angry that my clothes don't fit. I'm angry that this is such hard work. I know the hard work is worth it but finding the motivation to putting the work in is so hard. I need to do it, I want to do it....but I just can't find the motivation to do it. I'm starting a new job on Monday I know that it's pretty much impossible at this point but I'd love to start the job weighing under 180. I'm hoping that with some serious sodium flushing with all the water I should have been drinking all along and some healthy meal choices I can at least get close.

Also I think many of the blogs I've always followed are kind of like me in that they've run away from blogging for various reasons and I'm looking for some new blogs to follow. If anyone has any suggestions please leave me a comment. I need some inspiration and motivation.

Post #100 or the one where I weigh the same as post #6

2012-10-09T20:18:00.001-04:00

Here I am, my 100th post....I was somewhat of a success story, at least for a little while. I started this blog at around 185 lbs, on June 6 of 2010 I was 183.2 lbs, I managed in 6 months or so to lose almost 20 lbs weighing in at the lowest weight I had seen since high school on Halloween of 2010 164.4 and here I am almost two years later and weighing in today at 183.2 lbs. What an ridiculously futile cycle this seems like. I don't want to ride this weight loss roller coaster again. I want to go down and stay down. I know I'm not the only one who feels this way and I also no their is no magic pill. There's just me and my willpower and my drive to do this. I know its in me somewhere, I'm just having trouble finding it.

Sick and tired of starting over

2012-10-07T21:53:00.001-04:00

I don't know why I do this over and over. I lose weight and then go back to my bad habits and gain it all back if not more. I need motivation seriously. I know my health should be motivation enough but some how it is not. I need to hold my self accountable for how I treat my body and I haven't been doing so. This needs to stop now and for good. Tomorrow is a new day and I'm going to start taking care of me. I'm not getting any younger. I need to do this now.

Day 33 - A little vacation

2012-06-22T09:50:00.001-04:00

It's Friday, it's Friday, wahhoooo :) I love weekends, especially 4 day ones with a little trip included. I'm headed out Sunday with my kids for a short stay with a friend whose rented a house at the beach. The weather isn't looking so great but it will be nice to get away for a couple days anyway. Even better than getting away is the fact that I weighed in this morning and all that water weight I was holding due to TOM is gone and I saw a wonderful number on the scale - 173.8 - I haven't seen anything that low since September. I know I'll probably overdo things a bit this weekend. BUT I also know that I'll get right back in the saddle when I'm back home. I can do this.

Day 29 - An unwelcome visitor

2012-06-18T12:28:00.001-04:00

I woke up this morning after a fun, very eventful but restrained weekend food-wise to a 2.6lbs gain on the scale. Why the gain if I didn't overindulge? The impending arrival of a monthly visitor. Ugh. Such frustration to go from 175 on Saturday morning to 177.6 this morning while staying on point calorie and nutrition wise as well as after spending most of the day yesterday on my feet walking around. It's wonderful being a girl :P

Day 26 - Heading into the weekend

2012-06-15T10:18:00.000-04:00

Hey all!! Busy weekend ahead for me, minor league baseball game tonight with my daughters school, baseball end of season jamboree tomorrow and amusement park trip on Sunday. There will be some tough food decisions to make all weekend but I'm confident I can handle them. I weighed in this morning at 175 even and my goal is to make it through the weekend and not get any higher than 175. something. With all the activities I have going on it will be tough but I'm committed to making it happen. I am quickly coming up on my 100th post and I'm thinking about doing a giveaway to celebrate. I have some ideas in mind of what I'd like to give away...stay tuned :)

Day 24 - Keep on moving

2012-06-13T11:29:00.000-04:00

Down another 1.2 today for a weigh in of 175 even :) YAY!! lol - I can't remember how long its been since I saw 175 on my scale.
I'm excited because the two bathing suits I ordered from Old Navy are supposed to arrive tomorrow. Hopefully I like how they look. I kind of went out on a limb with this one.

I'm hoping I'll be pleasantly surprised by how it looks.

Day 23 - Downward I Go

2012-06-12T10:06:00.001-04:00

Saw a few more ticks downward on the scale today for a weigh-in of 176.2. I was actually pretty surprised by that as I may or ~~may not~~ have had a value sized fry from Mcdonalds at 9pm last night. I figured the sodium would send my weight skyward. I guess I'll take this as my one reprieve and get back to healthier food today. I had a busy weekend with lots of food included between girls night, a bridal shower and a lunch out with my family at Red Robin and I probably could have made some better choices when it came to some of the things I ate but I feel like the fact that I'm down 1.6 lbs from last Monday means I was pretty successful in handling things.

Day 19 - Ladies Night :)

2012-06-08T09:37:00.001-04:00

Good morning!!! Tonight is ladies night with some of my fellow mama's from PTO. We figure after all the work we put in at our kids school this year we deserve a night to relax and just enjoy each others company. I made pudding shots that I found on pinterest. I changed the recipe to use kahlua instead of baileys because that's what I had at the house already. I hope they're as yummy as they look. The recipe made 24 so I figured it out and they're about 75 calories a piece. Not too bad. I used 1% milk and reduced fat cool whip to cut the calories and fat down a bit.
Weighed in this morning at 176.8 - I had to weigh like four times because my mind kept telling me that this number was a gain. I kept thinking I was 176.6 yesterday but I was actually 177.6 lol. It was early and before coffee so it just wasn't connecting for me.
Finally back to nice weather here today. It seemed that as soon as I finally got around to putting my winter clothes away it got cold again. No fair. But we're looking at a high of 80 today and tomorrow so I'm going to make sure I get outside and enjoy it.

Day 18 - Almost the weekend.

2012-06-07T10:20:00.000-04:00

Weigh in this morning - 177.6 - moving downward slowly. Went to the gym last night and did a quick half hour on the elliptical for a burn of 375 calories. I thought I was helping out with the school play tonight at my daughters school but they don't need my help so now I am free to get to the gym this evening, which is great because I have a little get together to go to tomorrow night and I know I may over indulge a bit....pudding shots may or may not be involved in this overindulging :)

Day 17 - Another Day

2012-06-06T09:59:00.002-04:00

Hello all - another good day behind me yesterday :) It's interesting that I've gotten myself back to eating when I'm hungry and having the self control to say no when I'm not. It's an amazing feeling to feel like you have some control over eating. I didn't have that for a long time. Not to say that I'm never going to have an out of control day, as evidenced by memorial day weekend and the cookouts that I overdid it at, but on a regular day to day basis I feel in control and that makes me happy. For example I stopped at Dunkin Donuts this morning for my coffee and I was reallllly hungry so I got a bagel with butter planning on eating the whole thing for breakfast and then having my fruit and Luna bar for lunch. After eating half of the bagel I realized I was no longer hungry and decided to save the second half for lunch with my pineapple and save my yummy Luna bar for tomorrow.

On a side note, have you all tried Luna bars? They are A-MA-ZING!!!!!! Seriously I luuuurrrvve these things. My favorites are white chocolate macadamia, chocolate dipped coconut and chocolate peppermint stick. They don't have that yucky aftertaste that some bars have and really they taste like dessert to me. Plus they have all kinds of good stuff for you in them including 100% of the DV of Folate suggested for women. I'm not a leafy green kind of girl so if I can get my folate in something that tastes like dessert I'm all for it.

I've skipped the gym the past two nights, I've been busy with end of the year PTO activities at my daughters school but I am definitely going tonight because the next couple nights are going to busy and I'm not sure if I'll make it again until Saturday. The scale is holding still at 177.8 but a standstill is better than a gain. Remind me of that when I'm whining that I've been the same weight 3 weeks in a row, lol.

Day 15 - Manic Monday

2012-06-04T11:15:00.002-04:00

Busy day ahead with no exercise planned. I'm being honored tonight at our town's board of education meeting for being one of the two volunteers of the year at my daughters school this year as well as for being co-president of the PTO at the school. My friends and I plan on dinner after that at Buffalo Wild Wings, I already know what I'm getting and no it isn't healthy, lol. The scale this morning said 177.8 - I achieved staying at 177.something over the weekend. I actually had a great weekend food and exercise wise, I had hoped to see it lower but that's a 3.8lb loss from last Monday so I'm not going to complain.

Day 13 - Weekend Workout

2012-06-02T22:59:00.001-04:00

I weighed in this morning at 176.6. I love how the scale just keeps going down. Went out with the family for a quick breakfast and some errands and then came home and debated with myself about going to the gym. I thought about it for a couple hours, tried to corral a friend into going with me and then just decided to suck it up, get off my butt and go. I'm glad I did. Today turned out to be my best workout so far....47 minutes on the elliptical and 20 minutes on the bike for a total calorie burn of approximately 750 calories. Awesome, I'm proud of myself for going though I didn't want to and totally rockin' it. Hope everyone else is having an amazing weekend. Time for bed for me, I have a gym date at 8:30 :)

Day 12 - Heading into the weekend

2012-06-01T10:19:00.000-04:00

Had a happy moment on the scale this morning. I weighed in at 177.8, its the lowest I've seen in 2 months. I skipped the gym yesterday because I was busy with baseball practice and other kid related activities and the kids didn't want to go to sleep last night but I am headed there right after I pick up my daughter from school today. I like going in the early afternoon right after work because it's nice to get it out of the way early on and just be able to relax for the evening. My goal for the weekend is to keep the eating in check and weigh in no higher on Monday that I did today. So a goal of seeing 177.8 or less on Monday - I know I can do it. In other news, I'm currently involved in a challenge on the myfitnesspal website. It starts today and I'm hoping being accountable to the 4 other ladies on my team will keep me in check for the next 5 weeks. Oh if anyone wants to friend me on myfitnesspal.com my id is mparadis718.
Have a great Friday everyone :)

Day 11 - Moving on down

2012-05-31T12:39:00.000-04:00

Jumped on the scale this morning after a very good eating and exercising day and saw a nice downward tick of .8 -- 179.2 wootwoot :) Hoping to continue that downward track and hit 172 before June 24 when I leave for my first beach vacation...I'm going to push really hard and hope to do it. Wish me luck.

Day 10 - Survived the weekend.....barely

2012-05-30T11:42:00.001-04:00

Weighed in this morning at 180lbs even. Down 2.6 from my sodium bloated weekend. I'm hoping to see even lower tomorrow now that I'm back to healthy eating and exercise. We've got no events planned for the upcoming weekend so it should be much easier to stay on plan and not overdo it this weekend. How did everyone else manage this weekend?