:: the raven princess

Lipat Bahay

2011-05-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

Everyone! Ako po ay lilipat ng bahay. Though nanghihinayang din ako sa mga posts ko dito, pero kailangan ko rin kasi pag-aralan ang bago kong bahay. Kailangan ko ng experience kaya don ko na itutuloy ang aking pagboblog.

Ito nga pala ang aking bagong bahay The Goddamn Cat. Sana subaybayan nyo pa rin. Maraming maraming salamas.

Kagaya's Serenity

2011-05-03T14:36:00.004+08:00

Kagaya is one of my favorite artists. Ang gaganda ng mga gawa nya, as in swak sa aking panlasa. Kung di nyo pa sya kilala at curious kayo (kung curious lang hihi), click nyo to.

Ang picture sa taas ay ang pinaka-favorite ko sa mga gawa nya. Serenity. Sa tuwing tinitingnan ko ang picture na to, marami ang tumatakbo sa aking isipan. Katulad ng, may tao kaya sa kabilang isla? Kaya kayang languyin papunta don? Mukhang mababaw lang naman ang dagat. Siguro mababaw nga kasi merong napormang bato na parang daanan papunta sa kabilang isla. Siguro pag lowtide pwede itong lakarin.

Ang sarap naman mag moon bathing, o kaya mamangka. Wala lang, masarap magliwaliw kung ganyan kaliwanag ang buwan. O kaya, ang sarap magswimming. Tapos babaybayin ko yung bato papunta sa kabila. Pag nakarating na ko sa kabila, sarap magstroll na nakapaa. O kaya uupo na lang ako sa buhangin, o tatawid sa pangatlong isla na malapit. Ano kaya kung magdala ako ng libro at uupo ako sa nakausling bato. Magbabasa ako habang itatampisaw ko ang aking mga paa sa tubig, ang cute. O kaya don ako sa bangka, itatali ko na lang para di matangay ng malayo.

Hayyz, sana may lugar na ganito sa mundong ibabaw.

Oh My Ghulay!

2011-05-01T22:05:00.001+08:00

Ngayung gabi, nagtext ang love-of-my-life na magchachat daw kami in 30mins. Di naman ako masyadong excited kaya open ko agad ang laptop ko. Check ko kung merong load pa (dahil globe tattoo lang ang gamit ko). Yes! Meron pa.

Kalmado na ako ngayun, pero kanina gusto ko na umiyak. Kasi naman, pagka-open ko ng laptop ko, lowbat ito. So kinuha ko ang charger sa bag at sinaksak ko agad. Nagbilang pa ko ng tatlo bago ko sinaksak dahil takot nga ako sa kuryente. Then tumayo ako ulit para kunin ang headset dahil ayoko naririnig ang mga sumisigaw sa tv (nanonood si papa ng horror movie...anak ng tinapa).

Pagka-connect sa net, nagsimula na akong magblog hop at nagpatugtog ng Yanni songs ng sobrang lakas. Wala pang 5mins biglang namatay ang tugtog at namatay din ang laptop. Taka ako. Nagalit ako dahil ang charger ay hindi na nakasaksak. Inakusahan ko agad si papa (dahil kaming dalawa lang naman ang andito). Nagalit sya, dahil inakusahan ko sya, dahil hindi naman daw nya ginalaw at hindi rin naman daw sya tumayo sa kinauupuan nya. Anak ng tinapa! Bakit natanggal? Hindi lang basta natanggal, maayos pa ang pagkalagay sa ibabaw ng radyo. Kainis natakot ako. Promise naiiyak na talaga ako kanina. Sinabihan pa ko na baka may multo dito. Nak ng! Alam namang takot ako don arrggh.

Pagka-open ko ulit ng laptop, patugtog ulit ako ng Yanni songs ng sobrang lakas para mabaling sa iba ang iniisip ko. Erase erase...di ko na dapat isipin. Last na to, di na dapat isipin.

Ang Kaharian

2011-04-29T15:04:00.002+08:00

Sa kakabasa ko ng mga novels na kaharian ang tema minsan napapaisip din ako kung ano bang kaharian ang gusto ko. Sa isang libro na binasa ko (na hindi ko tinapos dahil nosebleeding), merong isang babaeng regent o pansamantalang namumuno sa isang kaharian. Dahil babae sya at hindi pa taga doon, marami ang komontra sa kanya (gender discrimination lang). Kaya hindi naging madali ang trabaho nya. Ang mga sinaunang tao talaga, gusto nila pambahay lang ang mga babae tsk tsk.

Back to topic, ang kaharian. Pag ako ay napapabilang sa isang dugong bughaw (syempre ako ang prinsesa), gusto ko kulay light blue ang kwarto ko. Merong porch syempre kung saan makikita ko ang buwan at bituin sa langit sa gabi. Merong isang secret door na ang likod nito ay isang secret tunnel papunta sa aking secret garden na pwede kong puntahan kung nalulungkot ako, o kaya pag masaya ako. Syempre me violin din ako at sana laptop na rin na pwede kong dalhin sa aking secret garden.

Gusto ko pixies ang tagabantay ko (katulad ng nasa taas). Bakit hindi fairies? Dahil pwedeng malaki ang fairy, pwedeng maging kasinlaki ng tao. Gusto ko maliit lang, ang pixies ay kasinlaki lang ng palad kaya sila na. Sila ang tagahatid ng pagkain, tagabihis sakin, and wait...pag tumakas ako papuntang secret garden pwede ko silang isama.

May naisip ako. Pano kung don sa secret garden ay merong isa pang tunnel papunta sa village. Gagala gala ako sa village at magpapanggap na ordinaryong tao. Gasgas moves na ito ng mga fairy tales, pero ang mga suwail na prinsesa namang yun ay walang ginawa kundi ang gumala dahil sawa na sila na may guwardiya na laging nakabuntot sa kanila. Syempre iba ang motive ko, gusto ko malaman kung ang mga ordinaryong tao ay maayos naman ang pamumuhay. Kung maayos ba ang pakikitungo ng mga opisyal sa kanila sa palasyo o baka pinasalvage ng di malaman ang dahilan. Malay natin diba? Sabi nga nila, to see is to believe.

Dahil ikaw din naman ang susunod na uupo sa trono (ako pala), maaga pa lang ayusin mo na. Bilang isang prinsesa dapat marunong ka makipag-kapwa tao. Marunong ka dumiskarte, hindi lang puro pagpapaganda ang inaatupag sa maghapon. Sayang naman ang opportunity na sa buong mundo ay mabibilang lang sa daliri ang makakaranas nito.

Dahil ito ay isang guni-guni lang, lubus-lubusin ko na. Isasama ko na rin ang mga larawan na malapit sa idea ng aking guni-guni.

Ang kastilyo. Dito kunyari ang aking kaharian.

At ang kunyari kong secret garden.

Thought of You

2011-04-27T22:22:00.001+08:00

Okayyyy...

So here's another youtube video that I want to share. This was introduced to me by my brother (he is a graphic animator so he knows art stuffs like this one) a while back. This video is kinda sad for me, but I was captivated by the emotions that was portrayed by the dance.

Feel free to comment your interpretation of the dance. And enjoy.

Edit: Grammar check.

Summer Heat

2011-04-26T17:05:00.001+08:00

The summer heat, reminds me of the siniguelas tree we used to climb. We picked everything that our hands could reach, just to be chased by the angry owner after. It reminds me of how I get fascinated with the color blue of the sky and the cottony white of the clouds. I used to imagine that the clouds are some soft mattresses and pillows, that I am lying there comfortably.

It also reminds me of the scent of the ocean, the sea breeze, the sound of laughter, the wide playground in a low tide afternoon. It reminds me of the wind softly touching my face as I used to take an afternoon nap in a huge mangrove tree.

It reminds me of the different colors of popsicle we peddled around from morning till afternoon. Never mind the scourging heat of the sun, a saving for next enrollment and a free popsicle at the end of the day is such a simple joy.

It reminds me of the cardboard paper I used as shield during midday when my mother would tell me to write what was written on a piece of blackboard hanging outside our neighbor's house. I was just learning ABC back then, and it was the mighty era of betamax. I used to formulate an equation that if I had written a favorable number of letters we get to watch the movie, otherwise we stay at home.

The summer heat reminds me of many things from my past. It reminds me of how I used to be. It reminds me that back then, life was so simple.

Once Upon A Time...

2011-04-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a very slow internet connection in a far away land. How could this be? They are bountiful of speed and less population to use it, but it is too slow. Everyone was so upset. Their Facebook wouldn't load, the YM, the blog and all things under the sun.

The beautiful princess of the land finally stood up and called her advisors.

Beautiful Princess: You might be all aware why I called you here? Our internet connection is too slow. Reports say that there is no problem with our resources. What do you have in mind?

Advisor Makulit: This might be another attack from our little friend called Download.

Advisor Mausisa: But according to my reliable source, the neighboring kingdom hasn't experienced this epidemic. If this is something to do with Download, then they too will have the fate as ours.

Advisor Maunawain: You are right Advisor Mausisa, they should experience the same as we did.

Beautiful Princess: Should we call someone to investigate?

Advisor Maalam: I would like to recommend Mang Jose to do the job. He is quite impressive.

Beautiful Princess: I haven't heard of that name before, is he from our kingdom?

Advisor Maalam: No your majesty, he is from another kingdom. I contacted him once in a while for small jobs.

Beautiful Princess: And what small jobs?

Advisor Maalam: Ehem, *whispers* the small jobs your majesty.

Beautiful Princess: I see. Alright, its decided then. We will be hiring Mang Jose to investigate this loathsome epidemic. Advisor Makulit, have our runner send a message to Mang Jose immediately. I want to meet him tomorrow morning.

Advisor Makulit: Right away, your majesty.

And so Mang Jose was called to investigate the unknown phenomena of the land, in exchange for $100 a day with free board and lodging. For at least three days of meticulous investigation, Mang Jose showed up to the castle one day.

Mang Jose: *bows* Your majesty.

Beautiful Princess: Did you find something?

Mang Jose: Yes your majesty. One of the tube was displaced by a clan of rodents who moved for a winter vacation a week ago. They are unfamiliar with the device so they didn't report the said incident. They never thought that it would cause so much trouble and they are very sorry.

Beautiful Princess: Why haven't they approached me?

Mang Jose: They fear you your majesty. This can be easily fixed though your majesty. If you let me, it will be done in an instant.

Beautiful Princess: Thats great! Fix it at once and I will pay you double.

Mang Jose: As you wish your majesty. *bows*

Mang Jose moved back the tube to its rightful place and everything went to normal. Facebook of the villagers loads fast, as well as YM and blog and all things under the sun. The rodents were forgiven by the princess and they settled in far away land for good. Beautiful Princess was more than happy of Mang Jose's performance. She promoted him as the kingdom's investigator.

On that night, they celebrated for the great success. Everyone sing and dance. The princess sat on her throne infront of her very wide computer screen once more. And she lived happily ever after.

***END***

I Catnap Three Little Kitties

2011-04-16T15:48:00.001+08:00

There were three little kitties born on the same day. The mother cat used to stay inside the house and thus the three little kitties were also nursed by us. After some time, the kitties began to open their eyes and began to walk around the house. They also began to play and began to recognize voices. They are adorable.

We planned to move to another place and I can't bear the thought of leaving the kitties and the mother cat behind. My father was against it, but I made up my mind.

On that day, I put the little kitties in the laundry tub and planned to put the mother cat in a sack. Its brutal but we don't have a pet cage. Its not a pet with papers and everything, just an ordinary pet. So I gained a number of scratches on the process, but still failed. The mother cat don't find it appealing to be inside a sack, so we leave her behind. I thought that I could take care of the kitties. I can feed them too, and they will be fine.

The first day in the new house was noisy. The kitties wont stop crying, its obvious that they're looking for their mother and they are hungry. Since they still breastfeed, I mix powdered milk and water every morning and afternoon after I got home from work. I feed them with a dropper. They are still very noisy, they would only stop meowing when they're full or tired. There's this kitty who looked at me one day with the most heartbreaking expression. As if she said, Where's Mama?

A week later, they began to eat solid food. They at last found out the way to get out of their little box, and they began to poo and pee. This enraged father, he might be right that it will make the room smelly but still, the cats can be trained. And since they are still noisy, I agreed that they will be moved to the second floor.

The second floor is under-construction. So there's sand where they can poo and pee and all over the place could be their playground. However, they share the place with a mother dog and two puppies. The mother dog is tamed but the puppies are too playful.

The kitties are naive, they don't show any fear to the dogs. I saw them one time, they breastfeed on the mother dog together with the puppies. My poor kitties. They looked so dirty because of the dust and dirt of the place. It makes me want to wash and brush them, but restrained myself on doing so. They are still kitties that cant endure the cold afterwards. The puppies gets an extra spank everytime they are extra playful that the kitties seems to be screaming to death.

I visit them in the morning before going to work. Since they share food with the dogs, its okay if I won't have to fix them breakfast. But I see to it that they have something to eat when I got home from work every afternoon. I make sure that they are full first, leftovers are for the dogs. They also get to play and stay inside the house when father's out.

When they get bigger, maybe they could stay inside. Maybe they could be trained like their mother. And I could wash all those dirt away.

WTF Japan, Seriously!?

2011-04-12T21:19:00.003+08:00

While I was browsing facebook, I stumble upon this ad/post (I can't remember) which caught my attention. At first, I thought it was a site of a racist lol. But when I followed the link, the first thing I've noticed was the header. It has a picture of a japanese woman in different expression with a mushroom hat. So I'm assuming that the author is japanese and the site is all about epic fails.

I was right. The contents are epic, but not fail. I enjoyed watching most of the videos, I can't handle some with gory stuff in it. The vids and illustrations are all so weird. Yeah, we all know that japanese people had the most bizarre idea of all time.

If you're interested, here's the link: WTF Japan, Seriously!?

And my favorite vid. This makes me want to watch the movie XD

PBB Audition

2011-04-11T14:05:00.001+08:00

Ito ay para sa post ng PBB Audition by Jhengpot. Dahil gusto ko ng gulo, makikigulo ako ahihi. Joke lang, di ako masamang tao. I mean gulo na masaya.

Ako si Kraehe, hindi totoong pangalan. Dahil marami akong pangalan. Halos karamihan ng nakilala ko iba-iba ang tawag sakin, na yun na rin ang nakasanayan nila. Pero konti lang ang tumatawag sakin sa totoo kong pangalan. Weird di ba? Hindi ako bibo, makwento lang pag hindi tinatamad ahaha. Hindi rin ako mahilig magpicture-picture sa sarili ko. Kasi kahit anong gawin ko panget ang kalalabasan XD sayang lang effort ng ngiti ko wehehe.

Marunong ako sumayaw at kumanta, isa akong all time frustrated violinist. Never say die ang motto ko, kaya naniniwala ako na mapeperfect ko pa rin someday ang Twinkle Twinkle Little Star sa violin. Mahilig ako magbasa ng libro, mangalikot ng kung ano ano, at mag-daydream. Isa akong tao ahihi.

Lablayp. Meron ako, at inlab ako. Meron syempreng ups and downs, di naman nawawala yan. Pero getting stronger as we go further kumbaga.

Yan lang po ang tungkol sa akin. Naniniwala po ako sa kasabihang, ang tao pag naapakan ay nagigising. I thank you.

Paano Ba Ang Magkwento?

2011-04-09T10:33:00.002+08:00

Paano ba magkwento? Dapat ba matalinghaga? Makwela? Misteryoso? Baka pwede ring may pagka-makata. Dapat ba detalyado? Lahat ng sulok ng silid dapat bang banggitin? Ang kulay siguro ng bawat gamit ay dapat ding sabihin. Siguro pati ang laki o bigat nito.

Siguro pati ang mga tao sa paligid. Pag kilala babanggitin ang pangalan, pag hindi naman ang ayos na lang ang pwedeng banggitin. Pati siguro ayos ng mukha, kung matangos o pango ang ilong. Kung payat o mataba man. At siguro ang pananamit, kung magara ba o gusgusin.

Paano ba ang magkwento? Marami sana akong kwento, pero hindi ko alam kung pano isasalaysay ang mga ito.

Ang Mahiwagang Ninja!

2011-04-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

Noong ako ay maliit pa lang (maliit pa rin hanggang ngayun), nakagawian naming manood ng action movies. Action as in karate, kung fu, na nagsisiliparan sa ire ang mga bida. Ang cool ng moves, tumatambling tambling, naninipa, naghahagis ng shuriken at syempre magaling din sa espada.

All black ang suot nila, pero hindi naman sila Men in Black. Meron din pala ibang kulay, pero kadalasan ay itim. Mata lang ang makikita sa kanila, at mahilig silang magstalk.

Para maliwanagan kayo sa sinasabi ko, lemme introduce to you the kinds of ninja.

Cat Ninja

Turtle Ninja

Sexy Ninja

Fail Ninja

But wait, theres more...

Genius Ninja

Not-so-ninja

At syempre ang coool ninja

Di ba ang cool ng mga ninja? Sa panahon ngayun, dumarami ang klase ng ninja. Sa susunod na henerasyon baka lalo pa silang dumami. Sila ang mga kakaiba ang dating, ang mga kakaiba ang moves at masyadong misteryoso.

Ayan, sana meron kayong natutunan sa aking maliit na presentation. Wave wave sa lahat ng ninja.

Facade of Reality

2011-04-06T16:01:00.001+08:00

Balik metal gothic na naman ang dumadagundong sa aking headset. Wala lang, trip lang, namiss ko kasi. Bakit nga ba nagustuhan ko ang gothic songs? Kasi, una, merong halong classical instruments. Pangalawa, musika sakin ang maingay. Pangatlo, ang vocalist kadalasan opera singers. Pang-apat, ang lyrics ng kanta ay hindi yung nakasanayang love-love or emo-emo. Kadalasan ay patungkol sa bagay-bagay sa paligid. Yun nga lang, yung iba brutal talaga ang lyrics.

Ayun at bumalik ako sa pakikinig ng mga fav bands ko sa youtube like Nightwish, Within Temptation, Kamelot, Epica at marami pang iba. Nag sing-along na rin ako dito sa office. Wa pakels kung maingay, mag-headset kayo kung ayaw nyo lol.

Merong isang kanta na nabalikan ko kanina, nagustuhan ko ang lyrics kaso merong pagka-anti sya (na hindi naman masyado). Share ko lang. Merong ibang stanzas na latin, dinugo ang ilong ko. Wala rin ako mahanap na matinong translator sa google. Calling people na makakapagtranslate from latin to english hihi. Anyway, ito na sya.

Yung lyrics pala nasa vid.

Ang Aking Imahinasyon sa Tubig ng Dagat

2011-04-05T12:38:00.001+08:00

Madilim. Walang buwan at mga bituin sa langit. Wala ring ulap, parang empty space lang. Nakahawak ako sa harang ng deck ng malaking barko. Tinanaw ko ang dagat, ngunit kadiliman pa rin.

Katamtaman lang ang simoy ng hangin. Walang kahit anong ingay sa paligid. Wala ring tao o kahit ano, ako lang at ang sinasakyan kong barko.

Sa ibayong dako, meron akong natanaw na maliit na bagay. Palapit ito ng palapit, waring lumulutang. Palaki ng palaki ang bagay na iyon habang ito ay mabilis na pumapalapit sa kinatatayuan ko. Hanggang sa natanaw ko ang kabuuhan nito. Isang malaking kastilyo, nakalutang sa tubig. Maraming lumang bintana, ngunit nakasara. Mayroong veranda sa may bandang kaliwa. At nag-iisang pintuan sa gitna. Howl's moving castle ba ito?

Napatingin ako sa may pintuan, bahagya itong bumukas. Pagkabukas nito, walang anu-ano at merong lumabas na lubid sa pinto. Para itong may buhay na itinali ang sarili sa barko at ang iba nito ay nagtali sa kanya kanyang pwesto at nang natapos ito ay naging tulay. Isang lubid na tulay mula sa barko papuntang pintuan ng kastilyo.

Ang pintuan ay parang nanghihikayat. Halika, pumunta ka dito. I has cookie. Nasa trance state ako, (ano ba tagalog ng trance?). Parang nagsasalita ang pinto, halika na. Tumawid ako sa tulay, dahan dahan. Nakarating ako sa kastilyo at pumasok sa pinto.

Pagkapasok ko sa loob, bigla itong nagsara. Pilit ko tong binuksan, ngunit ito ay unti-unting naglaho. Wala na ang pinto, wala na akong lalabasan. Pero wala sakin iyon, wala akong nararamdamang takot.

Sa loob ng kastilyo. Puro hagdan. Mayroon paakyat, pababa, paikot, meron ding nakalutang, nakatagilid at nakabaligtad. Marami ring nakalutang na kandila. Lahat ng naroroon ay hagdan lamang at kandila. Sinimulan ko umakyat sa pataas na hagdan. Nakarating ako sa paibaba, sa paikot, sa nakabaligtad, sa paikot. Napakaraming hagdan, sinubukan ko lahat.

Nakaramdam ako ng pagod, sumakit ang mga paa ko. Sa lahat ng nasubukan ko hagdan, walang nakakonekta sa isang silid man lang, o sa isang kusina o bintana. Bawat isa ay nakakonekta lang sa isa pang uri ng hagdan. Medyo madilim, marami ngang kandila, pero hindi iyon sapat para magbigay ng liwanag sa buong paligid.

Natakot na ako, hindi ko alam kung papano ako lalabas sa lugar na ito. Napaisip ako, sana nanatili na lang ako sa barko. Sinubukan ko ulit ang mga hagdan, baka isa sa mga ito maghahatid sakin sa exit. Pataas, patagilid, pabaligtad, pababa. Wala. Ganun pa rin.

Nawalan na ako ng pag-asa. Napa-upo na lang ako sa tabi, tahimik na nakatingin sa mga hagdan. Nagbabakasakali na isa sa mga yun merong daan palabas.

Sa isang sulok, merong akong namataan. Anino? Paano nagkaroon ng anino dito? Isang anino na hugis tao. Palakad lakad, patakbo takbo. Tumayo ako, sinundan ko ang anino. Paakyat sa isang pataas na hagdan na ilang beses ko na nadaanan. Tumakbo ito, bumilis na waring nagpapasunod sa akin. Pataas ng pataas na tila walang katapusan.

Lalong sumakit ang aking mga paa, masyado itong mabilis. Hindi ko halos mahabol. Mabigat ang aking katawan, natalisod ako. Bigla itong huminto sa pagtakbo, naglakad patungo sakin. Iniabot nya ang kanyang kamay para tulungan akong tumayo. Nakatayo ako, inakay nya ko. Dahan dahan ako, kami, naglakad pataas ng hagdan.

Sa akala ko walang katapusan na hagdan, sa bandang dulo nito ay mayroong pinto. Nakasara, ngunit pinto pa rin. Dahan dahan pa rin akong inakay patungo don. Pagkarating sa dulo, ang anino pa rin ang nagbukas ng pinto. Ang labas nito ay ang veranda ng kastilyo. Ang barko na dati kong kinatatayuan ay nasa aking harapan. Natuwa ako, makakabalik na rin ako.

Humaba ang kanang braso ng anino at kumapit ito sa isang parte ng barko. Hawak nya ako sa kaliwang braso at sabay kaming lumundag papunta sa barko.

March 31 pa itong nasa draft, ngayun ko lang natapos. Sa wakas. Ito ang matagal ko ng panaginip, as usual. At narealize ko na pwede din pala ang tagalog sa pagsulat ng dreams ehehe. Sa umpisa kasi ang hirap, parang mas expressive pag english. Anyway, ang title ay sa isang dream ko rin, wala ako maisip eh.

50 Facts of Me

2011-03-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Makikiuso sa uso. Sa pagblog hop ko kanina, nakita ko to 50 Facts About Me by canonista. Kaya ito, makikiuso na rin ako.

50 Facts About Me

1. I prefer complete darkness when sleeping.

2. I cant live without my cellphone.

3. I'm quite a chatter in the cyber world, but opposite in the real world.

4. I've had a number of dreams that I want to put to words, but the sequence tends to run away from me. Like Im chasing a frightened horse that is running towards a black hole.

5. I multi-task alot.

6. I am a Gemini and born in the year of the Dog. In my own opinion, the year and the sign are the exact opposite.

7. Im a frustrated violinist.

8. I am very stubborn.

9. Me and my sister (the one next to me) were bullied when we were in kindergarten. The next day I brought a slingshot (tirador) to scare the bully. But it was of course confiscated by our teacher.

10. I am a big fan of Yanni.

11. Gifts are most valuable to me. Even if its a pebble from elsewhere, I would keep it all my life.

12. I love comedy movies.

13. I love books.

14. I love challenges and adventures. I'm the female version of Peter Pan.

15. I dream of having a secret garden.

16. I hate people who cuts you off while you were still talking. Its really annoying.

17. Its hard for me to forgive people who wronged me.

18. The only sport I joined during school days was basketball for girls. It was not even an proper basketball, its more like agawang buko.

19. I am into gothic and rock songs.

20. I dreamed to perform the violin part of Agujero Inmundo on stage (with bass and drums to accompany me).

21. I don't wear makeup. An adequate amount of moisturizer and pressed powder is all I ever apply on my face ever since.

22. I love cute furry animals, especially cats.

23. I only have a pair of shoes, a pair of high heel sandals and a pair of slippers. I don't buy extra, I replace things if they are beyond repair.

24. I'm not vain.

25. I have this phobia of plugging electrical devices. I was electrocuted while trying to plug the tv, somewhere in my childhood.

26. I don't drink and I don't smoke.

27. I hate people who backbites, like it is only their happiness in life.

28. I'm afraid of ghosts. Though I haven't seen one, but please, just let them be unseen.

29. I love vampire books, movies, and mangas. But please, not Twilight.

30. I love reading manga.

31. I get attracted to all shades of blue.

32. I love pastel and neon colors, but pink is not on my list.

33. I like looking at nude art. I see it as an art, no more, no less.

34. Sometimes, I would raise my eyebrow to stop an annoying conversation.

35. I do appreciate little things in life.

36. I realized that listing facts about oneself would take this long. This is the 7th hour.

38. I don't like wearing glasses, but I have to :(

39. Before, I wished I was taller. But now I realized that someone can really accept you of what or who you are.

40. I easily laugh even the corniest joke.

41. I like the scent of a diesel oil.

42. I don't like confrontations.

43. I don't like being idle for a long time. It will bore me to death.

44. Something from my childhood is precious to me. If given the opportunity to turn back time, I would go back to that place.

45. I prefer silver than gold.

46. I don't like watching gory movies.

47. Whenever I feel down there's someone who would lift me and cheer me up.

48. The same person stalked me 3 years ago.

49. The same person makes me fall for him over and over again.

50. I'm inlove with that same person.

Sweet Dreams are Made of...

2011-03-29T00:16:00.001+08:00

I found myself somewhere unknown to me. The place is pitch black, like light never existed. Despite of this situation, I can see things. Whenever I close my eyes I can see shadows of things, silhouette. Like an infrared that sends images based on temperature. Im not the right person to explain this, but it is like that. I can see the huge log blocking the way. Branches that have sharp thorns, and the knee-high mud grabbing my feet. I knew I was in a swamp, and that there's a small hut maybe a kilometer away, and a person in that hut waiting for me.

I carefully walked through the unforgivable swamp. My hands anxiously touching the things I see infront of me as to not to further wound myself. The mud continuously grabbing my feet. I feel so weary. But all these things would come to an end. I can see the small hut. A shabby small hut that a small amount of wind could blow it apart.

I knocked twice to the wooden door. Someone stirred inside.

Mama, mama, Im here. I came.

Shhhh, keep your voice down. Come inside.

Inside the hut is still dark, but I can feel warm fingers touching my face.

I knew you'd come. You are tired. Come, rest now. And she let me sleep on her lap.

This was the dream I had when I was in elementary. This is one of those dreams that wouldn't want to fade away from my memories. Time is 12:12AM, I can't sleep. The Sandman is late.

Note to Sandman: Hurry up and put me to sleep already lol.

I has Post

2011-03-25T21:11:00.001+08:00

Great! Ako ay nagdidileryo na naman. Hindi masyado hihi, nagwiwithdrawal syndrome lang. That's right wahihi. Ako ay isang adik, isa akong adik! Di ko pinagkakaila at di ko itatago. Na isa akong adik sa ONLINE GAMES. Yun nga ang sabi nila, pag adik ka, wala lang..adik ka lang.

Ito so far ang mga nalaro ko.
Ragnarok Online, Tantra Online, Flyff, Granado Espada, Dream of Mirror, Audition Online, Cabal Online, Dragonica, BandMaster, Bright Shadow, Kitsu Saga, Gunbound, 2Moons, Runescape, Shin Megami Tensei, RO2

Nakalimutan ko na yung iba, yan lang matandadan ko. Alam mo merong iba dyan na mas mahaba pa dyan sa listahan ko. Di na yung bago, marami akong kilala ahihi.

Nakakamiss din kaya. Nakakamiss ang makikipag-pvp, makipag-siege wars, makipag-angasan, makipag-sawsawan wahihi. Lalo nakakamiss ang game lingo. Sa phil servers pinaka-common ang amf o kaya amfufu. Dati amp na pina-iksi sa salitang amputa, katagalan naging slang ang mga tao naging amf na. And worst naging amfufu. Oh well, nag-eevolve talaga ang language. Marami pa ibang terms, like imba, pots, pabaps, sawsaw, weakling, pt, meat shield. Ano pa ba? Nakalimutan ko na yung iba.

Pag international servers namin, uso ang sobrang shortcut. Tulad ng imma, srously, orly. Uso din ang wrong grammar. Tulad ng, I has lag, I is dead meat. Nakakatuwa, namiss ko to. Dati fluent ako sa wrong grammar game lingo hihi.

Nostalgic, Hahayz. Share ko pala ibang screenies na nakatago pa sa pc ko.

Dream of Mirror - my musician and my pet

Granado Espada - perfect screenie of my Ani family

Battle of Immortals - we the couple

Tantra Online - the master and the summon tee hee~

March Updates

2011-03-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

Di ata ako nakapag-update ng list of Dugong Bughaw last February kaya ngayun update ko na sya. Medyo hindi pa rin kompleto kasi yung iba hindi ko pa nailagay. Yung iba nasa waiting list pa, so di pa talaga sya final. Medyo busy rin kaya di na masyadong nakakapag-update at nakakapag-bisita. Hirap ng dalawa ang trabaho lol.

Anyway, dahil update ngayun maglilista na rin ako. Medyo matagal tagal na naman ang muli kong pagkabuhay (2 and a half months na ahihihi), meron na akong karapatan magdeclare ng favorite blogs ko. Ito ay maiksi lamang. Sinadya ko talaga to kasi kapag mahabang listahan, magiging bias na ako.

Sa mga kaharian na kung saan pinadpad ako sa aking itim ng pakpak, ito ang aking mga kinagigiliwan.

Batas Para sa Mahirap...Umintindi - Ang walang kamatayang panyero.net. Nakakawiling basahin at infairness marami akong natutunan. Halos lahat yata ng entries nabasa ko, mula sa pinaka-unang post hanggang sa latest. Kaso yung ibang info nadidisolve lang din sa utak ko. Mababa lang kasi memory ng utak ko ahaha. Kailangan ko na mag-upgrade.
Splice and Dice - Introduce ito sakin ni Nishiboy. Simple lang ang blog at walang maraming ka-ekekan sa gilid. Pero promise, kailangan katabi ko si google o kaya si mr webster pag nagbabasa ako ng entries nya. Nosebleed. Pero kahit na tumutulo na ang dugo sa ilong ko, at puno ang isang timba minsan, go pa rin ako. Ganda ng pagkasulat at astig ang sense of humor. Yun nga sa tuwing bumibisita ako sa kahariaan ni Splice ay hinihiram ko muna ang invisibility cloak ni Harry dahil feeling ko wala talaga akong malaking titik na K na magcomment.
I S T A M B A Y - Pinoy na pinoy at astig! Dito rin maraming mapupulot na aral. Parang modern na mga kwento ni Lola Basyang dahil mayroong moral lesson bawat post. Kaya idol ko to, at tuwang tuwa ako pag merong bagong post ahihihi.

Ayan ang aking top three, sa mga susunod na updates baka madagdagan na.

At dahil nagdadaldalan kami ni Nishiboy sa chat, minsan nagcocompare kami ng mga favorite blogs namin. Di rin maiwasan na mapunta ang topic sa most annoying slash irritating slash worst blog namin. At nagpalitan pa kami ng links at kung bakit hate namin ang blog na yun. Aminin, meron ka rin nito hihi. At ayun, nag-dare sya na pag nagpost ako ng list of annoying blogs ko, magpost din sya wakekeke.

Pero pero, nope. Ayaw ko. Dahil ayoko ng gulo, friendly ang aking uwak. Behave sya para di sya maging fried uwak na pwedeng pang-ulam.

Anyway ulit, ito ang video na nakita ko sa facebook at tuwang tuwa ako. Share ko lang para matuwa din kayo ahihi.

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Minsan sa Bus

2011-03-14T13:13:00.001+08:00

May babae na mag-isang nakaupo sa tatluhang upuan ng bus. Medyo wala gaanong pasahero kaya magkakalayo ang pagitan ng bakante at hindi bakanteng upuan. Habang si manong kundoktor ay nakikipagsabayan sa ingay ng paligid, sya ay tahimik lang sa kanyang kinauupuan na parang malalim ang iniisip.

At nang umisod na ang sasakyan para sa susunod na destinasyon, merong isang lalake na mabilis na umakyat sa bus. Pagka-akyat ang dali-dali syang tumabi sa kinauupuan ng babae.

Habang nasa byahe, itong damuhong lalake ay halatang dumidikit sa babae. Aba eh ang luwag luwag naman ng sasakyan kung bakit nagsusumiksik itong feelingero na ito. Medyo inis na rin si babae. At dahil panay dikit ni lalake at naiinis na si babae, nagsalita na sya.

Babae: Pwede po bang umusog kayo ng konti, ang luwag po ng upuan.
Lalake: (Tumawa) Akala ko di ka magsasalita, sinadya ko yun para pansinin mo ko.
Babae: (Tinaas ang kaliwang kilay).
Lalake: Suplada ka pala, hindi halata sa hitsura mo. (Ngumiti)
Babae: Hindi ako suplada, hindi lang kita kilala.
Lalake: Alam mo, sa kabilang bus sana ako sasakay, kaso nung nakita kita sa may bintana nacutan ako sayo ahaha. Ako nga pala si Mark. Ikaw, anong pangalan mo?
Babae: Clara. (Pekeng ngiti)
Lalake: Ahh, nice meeting you Clara. Ang cute talaga ng pisngi mo ahahaha. May boyfriend ka na?
Babae: Yup, meron na.
Lalake: Ahh, ako din may girlfriend na. (Binunot ang cellphone sa bulsa ng pantalon nya at pinakita sa babae ang wallpaper nito).
Lalake: Ito kaming dalawa. Maganda sya ano?
Babae: Oo, maganda sya. (Pekeng ngiti pa rin)

Biglang nag-ring ang cellphone pero tumigil lang din ng dalawang segundo.

Lalake: Nagmisscall sya (ngiti), alam mo ba ang meaning ng misscall?
Babae: Hindi eh, ano ba meaning nun? (Hindi naman po sya masyadong madaldal?)
Lalake: Ibig sabihin nun, I miss you, I love you. Pag nagmisscall sya, yun ang ibig nya sabihin nun.
Babae: Nice, ang sweet naman pala ng girlfriend mo.
Lalake: Oo, sweet sya hehe. Syanga pala, pwede ko ba hingin ang number mo?
Babae: Bakit?
Lalake: Ala lang, pwede ba kitang yayain lumabas? Friendly date or something. As friends lang naman.
Babae: Hindi pwede, may magagalit (Ngiting di makumbinsi)
Lalake: Kahit as friends?
Babae: (Ngiti ulit)
Lalake: Ang swerte naman ng boyfriend mo ehehe. (Ngiting sapilitan)
Babae: Ang malas ng girlfriend mo.

Huminto na ang bus. Merong iba na nagsibabaan at meron namang nagsisakayan. Si manong kundoktor ay busy ulit sa pagtatawag ng pasahero. Sinukbit ng babae ang shoulder bag na kanina lang ay nakapatong sa kandungan nya at tumayo.

Babae: Sige ha, dito lang ako.
Lalake: Dito ka na lang ba? O sige sige, ingat ka ha.
Babae: Oo, lagi akong maingat.

I Dreamed of Flying

2011-03-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

Photo by Takaki

I dreamed of flying. Its every child's dream, to watch them fly to the open sky. It was mine too.

When I was younger, I used to stare at the clouds. Its tempting. I used to imagine that I could jump so high and the wind would take me higher and higher to the clouds. I don't dream to be like Superwoman or whoever cartoon heroes that could fly, just me, enjoying the wind and the freedom of my fantasy.

Funny thing is, I used to formulate the ways on how I can actually fly. As a matter of fact, I still consider it today. From my first method, flying without wings. Like superman and the like, they have super powers that enables them to fly. If an ordinary person doesn't have those, maybe an alternative will do. Lets take a look at the flying squirrel. They don't actually fly, they glide. They have a loose skin that acts like a parachute. But if I would consider the flying squirrel technique, I would need to stay in high places and jump to catch the wind. Its a hassle, really. To bring a gliding equipment and jump off the building. It sounds absurb to me.

How about flying with wings. I should choose a pair of wings that could carry my weight. Of course, these wings should be bigger, half my height will do. Most fairy that I've seen in pictures have butterfly wings. But nah, it looks too fragile to me. Although it is favorable aesthetically, but I reckon it won't last long with my reckless attitute. I believe an eagle's wings suits me, its sturdy. Like angels, their wings are like of eagle's wings structure. Or at least thats how I see it.

These wings should be attached at my back. There will be nerves that will be connected to my brain so that when I order it to flap, it will flap. It will take some practice of course, but I will get into it. And maybe, I should consider how birds fly. How do they fly? Jump first, then glide and flap? If I should flap my wings first, I need tremendous effort to lift myself from the ground. Maybe jumping first is not such a bad idea. Jump, then flap then glide.

Come, fly with me.

Define Boring

2011-03-08T09:25:00.001+08:00

OMG! Ang tagal ng di ako nakapag-update. Super duper busy sa buhay buhay, namiss ko tuloy magbasa at makipagchismisan sa mundo ng blog. Sa sobrang dami ng ginagawa ko, maniniwala ba kayo na nakakabore din pala yun?

Tama, hindi lang ang walang ginagawa ang boring, pati rin pag marami kang ginawa. Feeling ko, ayoko na...pagod na ko, kilan ba matatapos to? Bored na ko Lord, promise.

Rant mode na naman ako wakokok. Need ko lang siguro ng bagong buhay. Need ko lang siguro ng bagong environment. Wait! Lemme rant...minsan lang to.

Cool Coincidence

2011-02-23T13:12:00.002+08:00

I don't know if this is just a coincidence. But just yesterday, while browsing some cool artworks on the net, I found something really cool. Remember my post entitled Water World last Jan 22, 2011? It describes events from a dream of mine the night before. You can check my post if you haven't read it yet.

So yesterday, here's what I found.

Art by Hugh Sicotte

Cool eh? Though some aspects are different. (Like, in my post there was a huge whale, in the drawing its a shark. Theres a school of fish in the drawing, my post has none.) But the concept is almost the same.

I don't claim anything on this matter, and I respect the artist of his artwork. I just wanted to show some pure coincident awesomeness.

Bese-besehan to the nth power

2011-02-20T21:14:00.002+08:00

Yup yup, busy days na naman. At kulang na naman sa tulog. Ang baba na nag dugo ko, 90 over something na lang wakekeke. Laklak na lang muna ng ferrous sulfate.

Pero pero, okay lang hihi. Dahil dahil, excited ako. May pupuntahan ako sa weekend and did I mention na excited na ko? hihi.

At dahil wala naman ulit akong matinong post, share ko lang itong heartbreaking photo I found on the net. The photo speaks for itself.

Photo from darcsfalcon

Eavesdropping

2011-02-18T13:01:00.002+08:00

Produckto ng pagiging osyosera.

Habang kinakausap ni mamang kapitbahay ang kanyang pamangkin.

Kapitbahay: Boy, napanood nyo na ni ate yung eclipse?
(Ate = nakakatandang kapatid ng pamangkin nya)

Batang lalake: Opo, ang ganda nga eh. Napanood namin ni ate sa school.

Kapitbahay: Talaga? Meron pala kayong film showing sa school? Eclipse ang pinapanood sa inyo?

Batang lalake: Opo. Diba yan yung tinatabunan ng buwan ang araw?

Kapitbahay: Ahhh....ahahaha! Hindi yan, yung merong bampira.

Sumabat si ate.

Ate: Hindi pa Tito, meron kayong bala? Panoorin natin.

Kompletuhin mo kasi wakekek.

Di ko pinanood ang movie na to dahil nakokornihan ako. Not my kind of vampire story, pasintabi sa mga Twilight fan XD. At dahil bese-besehan ako these days, puro epic fail muna posts ko.

Ano daw?

2011-02-16T16:43:00.001+08:00

Ako : Pabili po ng coffee.
Ale: Alin dyan?
Ako: Ahh, ano po yung brown? Ano po difference nun sa normal coffee?
Ale: Umm...ito brown, ung isa black.
Ako: Ahh okay po. Isa po nung brown.

Langya, nagtanong pa ko.

ang mahiwagang kape