tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64050601732783384542024-10-08T14:41:29.945-07:00Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12293124510863305185noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6405060173278338454.post-64320252673221072522012-01-03T19:56:00.000-08:002012-01-03T20:04:37.020-08:00It would have been good to start this on the 1st but it's close enough!<br /> I start this with a great big sigh looking at the flashing icon awaiting some sort of entry. Now I laugh feeling sort of silly just sort of diving into this randomly and spontaneously without some sort of game plan.<br /> .....<br /> ...<br /> <br /> Now what?<br /> I know sort of what to achieve but not sure of how to go about it. My grammar sucks, I want to improve. I asked a writer friend how can I learn to write well, I have a lot to share but my thoughts are scattered all over the map and I have the technical writing skills of a grade schooler (if that).<br /> Advice given: Just start writing and keep writing!<br /> <br /> My objective here is to document, what I perceive a very challenging journey to fulfil a promise I made to my incredibly amazing daughter, that being... "to love me" or to love myself!<br /> I've never made a promise to her before and she was moved that this was the 1st one, but I felt I owed it to her.<br /> I've tried to venture on this journey before ohhhh so many times to only wind up on the highway of self sabotage.<br /> The problem is, every time I attempt this journey, I keep winding up on that fucking highway. I' apologize for profanity I may use in my Blog. I resisted at 1st but thought fuck it I can't suppress myself at risk of offending anyone.. I really need to let go and speak it real.<br /> <br /> Each day I want to move forward to hopefully repair the damage I've done to myself and to others, no matter how great or small and/or achieve something very constructive that will benefit myself/others and in turn.. hopefully my daughter.<br /> She is my source of inspiration and I am humbled by her beautiful heart, mind and soul.<br /> <br /> Ok.. Now that this can is open, It's a start.<br /> I've been struggling all day at one of todays tasks...invoicing for work done over 6 months ago! Sad eh?<br /> <br /> Sincerely, Steve GBAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12293124510863305185noreply@blogger.com1