the sinister icy black hand of death

NEW BIG POST LINK

2011-05-20T10:04:00.001-04:00

OK, now BKC was having trouble with the Plain Old Blogspot Feed, probably because his newest post was Ridiculously Big and the POBF was incapable of handling its Meaty, Throbbing, Engorged Length and Girth. So here was the link to the post:
http://thesinistericyblackhandofdeath.blogspot.com/2011/05/liberal-swpl-babylon_20.html
So go read that and download the sibhodcast linked at that page.

LIBERAL SWPL BABYLON

2011-05-20T08:23:00.000-04:00

Sibhodcast Here.

DISTANT, B-/C+

The movie meant well and name-checked Tarkovsky and was about themes of ForeverAloneliness and Distance and Isolation and Stupid Jobsearching and Hopelessness and Emptiness and Longing and Pining and Alienation and Getting Too Old and Dismal Winters and BKC could really relate with it all, and BKC liked the characters: an "Achmedinezad"-looking photographer who "sold out" and works for a Tile Company taking photos of Tiles; his cousin/relative from the boondocks who is quite "manchildish" and half-assedly looks for a job in Maritime Shipping and Mooches off the former guy. He also has a yen for being Really Creepy and Raperish around women, often blatantly following them and watching them from behind a bush or a corner or whatever, but he never actually rapes or molests anyone. There is not a lot of talking, and a lot of long Tarkovskyesque shots that are pretty good, and the movie was notable for BKC for taking place in Istanbul, and BKC had seen very few Turkish movies, and he was currently rather fascinated in His Conception of Turkey as this Crossroads Intersection Land that was both East and West, yet Neither.

It was meant to be a slow-moving movie and it was only 105 minutes long or so, but BKC still started fast-forwarding quite a lot after 40 minutes or so. He wasn't really in the mood for watching Any Movie Any More, let alone a slow-moving one. He was Crippling D about being Too Old for the Young Woman he Liked Most. So he fast-forwarded alot of the slow scenes where they weren't talking. The movie wasn't HORRIBLE and didn't deserve to be fast-forwarded so much, which is why BKC wasn't giving it an Official Bad Grade. BKC might even tacitly recommend it to people who weren't so Crippling D they couldn't sit through an entire (slow-moving but reasonably-lengthed) movie, and/or the themes of this movie appealed to them.

THE GHOST, D/D+

and it was absolutely atrocious. He could not keep from fast-forwarding almost constantly after about 37 minutes of a ~100 minute movie. It started out somewhat promising, effectively employing some VERY cheesy cliches - eg BKC liked the over-the-top Obvious Horror Movie Music, and the nonstop Jump Scares - but ultimately The Emperor's Clothes fell off and you could see this movie as little more than a bad, extended TV show. Not Good Writing. BKC even started fast-forwarding through the scares. Same Old supposed-to-be-creepy Asian Girl with even paler skin and natty black hair covering her weird face that was in literally EVERY Asian Horror Movie. If you want Asian Horror, stick with the Groundbreakers and not the Cheap Imitations like this crap. It took too long to even fast-forward to the end. This is why BKC had stopped making the effort to rent movies.

DARK MATTER, B-/C+

This is was Average Movies should be: if not great, then watchably good, 88 minutes, tell a decent (if not perfect) story, not overstay its welcome. The movie was far from perfect: predictable story, largely one-dimensional characters, but it was more good than bad because it told an interesting story which BKC had never seen in a movie before: a smart Chinese student is accepted into an astronomy/astrophysics/

cosmology PhD program under a Star Professor; lives in the Weird US in a house with a bunch of other Chinese Grad Students; doesn't really assimilate into the US very well; clashes with the professor who says he's "in over his head; this is too big; you've got to PAY YOUR DUES if you want yer PhD;" and then the more americanized, ass-kissing, dues-paying Chinese Student gets the Best PhD award and the protagonist kinda gets hosed. The professor was Super-One-Dimensional; The stuff played like a TV-movie Soap-Opera and Ridiculously Oversimplified the Experience of Being A PhD Student in the Hard Sciences, like it seems like it only takes one semester to do your dissertation and you can present your completed dissertation and the prof sez NOPE This isn't what I wanted, start a NEW dissertation from scratch if you want a PhD. BKC knew that there was some disconnect between the student and their main advisor, and they certainly weren't hovering over your shoulder having to approve every word you write, but BKC just didn't find this movie's depiction of the whole process very credible. That didn't keep the movie from being somewhat enjoyable, though. BKC liked how the Chinks constantly smoked cigarettes and debated whether they should stay in Academia or go into Private Industry and make Big Bucks; and whether their pride/ego could handle having to "pay their dues" and some people were fine with it but our hero was obviously not; and BKC thought the climax was Totally Unbelievable and Too Extreme, although it was a Classic, Fun Climax that was a lot like something BKC would have written. Watchable, not overlong movie, but BKC wanted to see more and better movies about BhD Students of all sorts. Maybe some White Marxists in the Humanities, hahahaha. Or even if they just made a movie of Jorge Cham's PhD Comics, or the Feminist Grad Students in Alison Bechdel's "Dykes To Watch Out For." Captured the Grad Student Life in a way that BKC liked more. Although BKC really liked the scene in "Dark Matter" where all the Starving Grad Students RUSH to the table of Free Food and stuff their faces with cookies. Free Food is apparently the Single Biggest Cliche of PhD-Life.

BEESWAX, A-/B+

BKC liked Andrew Bujalski way more than One Thought he would. By all accounts, Bujalski symobolized and typified everything that disgusted BKC about SWPL, Liberal, Bourgeois, Narcissistic, Navel-Gazing, Collegeboy Adultolescents and their not-so-big "existential" problems. BKC was a magnet for these themes and he initially approached Bujalski expecting to SHRED him, but, instead, he ended up quite liking him. He did for "generation Y" or whatever BKC's current generation was, what Noah Baumbach and possibly Richard Linklater and a host of older filmmakers BKC couldn't remember had done for Generation X. Perhaps BKC liked him because Bujalski and his characters were actual contemporaries to BKC's Own Life-Phase. But BKC also felt that Bujalski kept it More Really Real than those other filmmakers. BKC hadn't seen Baumbach's latest, "Greenberg", but that looked shittastically annoying with Ben Stiller flipping out all the time. (Although ALL Bujalski Needed to be EVEN MORE SWPL was to have GRETA GERWIG in his movies. Barrrffff.) But Bujalski miraculously avoided being Cloying or Self-Important or Pseudointellectual (good god, BKC had liked Linklater's "Waking Life" when he was 18, but now that he was 30, he saw right through those Pseudointellectual smoke and mirrors.) Yes, Bujalski's characters mumbled and were wishy-washy privileged SWPLs, but BKC still liked them, the movies, and Bujalski. He'd only seen one other Bujalski film, "Mutual Appreciation", but that one had a lingering staying power with him. Why had he remembered such a seemingly-trifling movie? Because it was mysterious good and memorable. Bujalski had an X-factor you couldn't quite put your finger on. He was Good At What He Did. Nothing felt out of place. Most importantly, he seemed to really connect and empathize with his actors and bring the best out of them. There was a real nice extra on "Beeswax" called "A Tribute to the Extras" where Bujalski went through and commented on some cut scenes and the extras standing in the background where he felt he had given them the shaft. That was real nice of him. His tone was dorky and SWPL yet, like his movies, charming and endearing despite himself. He definitely appealed to Woody Allen in his Young Prime.(One of the Critical Blurbs called him "a neo-hipster Woody Allen with the romantic of Rohmer." NEO-HIPSTER WOODY ALLEN, heh. And it was kinda true, but in the most positive way. BKC had only seen one of Rohmer's films, "Claire's Knee", and remembered it being OK. It also had Genuine Heart, like Bujalski.)

The main actresses in Beeswax were two unknown twins, possibly non-actors, but they played their roles outstandingly. Even the annoying jewish milquetoast beta know-it-all ex-boyfriend who seemed bad at first ended up winning you over. And even though these women were Narcissistic, past-the-peak-of-youth SWPL Sluts, BKC liked them TOO. People being FRIENDS with their Exes and Dumping their Beta BFs just because they didn't really feel it anymore. BKC should have wanted to punch the dark-haired, non-handicapped twin in the face for that one, but he ended up liking her too. There was an overall sense of Warmth and Sincerity and Genuineness and Humanity that BKC had found hard to find with SWPL films.

So, a great follow-up to "Mutual Appreciation", but there was no reason Bujalski had to have like 3 or 4 years between movies. He wasn't THAT significant yet, but he did show great potential, and BKC wanted him to fully realize it and not jump the shark. He was uncannily good at walking the tightrope over the abyss of Sanctimonious SWPLdom and he danced joyfully across it, revealing other SWPL Jew Filmmakers (Baumbach) as the Annoying SWPL Jews they were. BKC really didn't want Bujalski to lose his magic touch. Watch this with one of your SWPL harem and you will actually Enjoy the Movie in addition to getting Anal and having them put Bujalski at the top of their favourite movies list alongside Crappy SWPL movies they have no sense of discrimination for, but you do, because, like BKC, you were Actually Smart and could tell Good movies from Shitty movies.

Now that the weather was harbinging Rebirth, BKC wanted to start getting up Super Early to get into the Daily Routine of doing One Pomodoro of Brisk Jogging and One Pomodoro of Bigboy Job Search. Start off small, but habitually, and then gradually increase the Pomodoros.

BKC was excited about his upcoming Official Hang-Out with That Woman. At the end of the Time he would tell her he had fun and hint that he liked her and that he wanted to do this again sometime. In No Less Than Three Weeks hahahaha. See if those Intimate Words translated into a Kiss Close. She honestly seemed like SUCH a Traditional Woman that not only did she not Bang or S D on the first "date", but might not even Do The Gross Tongue-Flapping/Waggling/OralSex Mere Kissing on the first "date". (Just the Way NonTraditional Modern Women Kissed, you could tell they used that mouth for a LOT of CockSucking, and that was a BIG turn-off to BKC.) OK, then how about a G-rated Traditional Conservative Closed-Mouth White-Knight Beta Kiss? A Quick Peck On The Cheek? Even though BKC was 80% Sure she was Traditional, he still wasn't sure What Level of Traditional She Was.

BKC watched Fox News and read the WSJ and the National Review and listed to Rush, Hannity, Levin, Beck, etc, but he still realized these people were, despite their assertions otherwise, Mainstream Media just because they were so Big. It was hard to find a piece of Unspun Media. The Right spun stuff just as much as The Left. BKC just happened to like the Right's Spin better than the Left's Spin.

So Marathon-Running actually decreased your testosterone and made you a scrawny swpl beta, but you had to do a HELL of a lot of running to get to that drop-off point. BKC was not worried. If he ever got close to that point, he would shift his focus to Heavy Weight Lifting. Which he also wanted to introduce a Little Bit Of Now, just to get a bit of a Testost Boost, while the Running was to Burn Off his Spare Tire, which was marginally embarrassing when you were doing Sweaty Death From Above on a Bitch. Making The Beast With Two Backs.

BKC had seen "School For Scoundrels" with BillyBong Thornton and Jon Heder on Comedy Central. It was actually pretty funny, but the title was misleading. It sould have been called "School For Beta Loser Omega Virgin Niceguy Chumps." BBT taught the class how to Get Laid because they were all failures with Women and had No Game, and the lessons were all very PUA/Game-Like. The key line was: naturally, one of the Betas piped-up with the CLASSIC BETA line: "But I don't want to JUST get laid, I want A GIRLFRIEND!" and BBT said, "Easy There Killer. Let's just focus on getting you guys Laid first. Don't worry about that other shit."

This was exactly because The Suppliers of Sex No Longer Demanded that the Sex Take place in a Committed Relationship, because Women could no longer get pregnant anymore, and could make their sexual decisions based solely on short-term, immediate, animal lust. This had made it much easier to get Sex and much harder to find a Committed Rel; it increased the Supply of Sex available, and decreased the Supply of Commitment-Worthy Broads; so Beta "Scoundrels" wanted something that barely existed, and didn't know how to get the "alternative" that WAS readily available. To some. Not betas.

Roissy proposed that Personality/Social/Charisma/Extravert Dominance, i.e., "Game", would become more important as Women's Incomes caught up with Men's. Men could not rely on their traditional power as "Breadwinner" to attract women, it was just one other way men had become expendable to women, so men had to compensation by being flamboyant and charismatic, because Boring Bigboy-Job Beta who Only Makes The Same Money As I Do has now become Boring.

Well, BKC had his Famed Dinner with OldCunt. He had pumped himself up to be More Alpha Than Alpha, and he had pulled conversation off pretty well. No blatant shows of Beta, no Intentional Bitchy Shit Tests from OldCunt, although she was unfortunately a bit Impregnable. There was a minor shit test about his Age, but he Laughingly Gave Her A Hard Time About that. Still, he was hoping that question would NOT come up. He Accidentally walked into it by giving some neutral Biographical Non-Beta Facts about his Family. He couldn't shake the feeling that she Just Would Never Be Into Him Because He Was Too Old; and that maybe he should try to find a Nice Girl Like Her, But Only Closer To His Age, They HAD to Exist if they Existed at Her Age, Right? Or more Amenable to Spreading For Way Older Guys, hahahaha. Also BKC's Body was conspiring against him because he had an Absolutely Killer Headache leading right up to the Start Of Dinner; And it was Unseasonably HOT outside; and all this combined with the Hot Soup was causing him to Condense on his Brow, forcing him to exit to the bathroom for a mid-meal refresher, while she remained Youthful-Skinned and UnOverheated. BKC handled himself Gracefully and Alpha, however; in the past, he would have handled this much worse. It made him think about his General Unhealthiness. Or maybe his F'ed up Thyroid. Lesser Men would have been Killed By Embarrassment, and BKC WAS somewhat Killed Physically by this because it made him look GROSS and Unhealthy And Unsexy. Still, he tried to Control The Things He COULD Control, and maintained Killer Eye Contact as best he could. She was typically Nonflirtatious, Nongirly, Nonsexual, Plain, Boring, Vanilla. He really wished She Didn't Think He Was Too Old Or Too Gross. Believe Him, BKC didn't know how he'd gotten so old either. He still wanted to Date 22-23 year old girls, which she was.

The movie was decided against unfortunately. BKC didn't really want to see any movies that were out either, movies SUCKED, he just wanted to Span Time with OldCunt; but she did not seem to be of a similar mindset. He was hoping he would "Knock it out of the park" with a Tits Dinner and then they would both agree to see Shitty Movie just to Span Time and Hold Hands in the Dark. It was not in the Cards Today. BKC hoped it wasn't All Only Because he OVERHEATED and had a Hot Flash. He had NO CONTROL over that, unlike with his Alpha, Winning Personality. Well, BKC could still Game and Bang other Bitches in his Harem, but OldCunt was still his favourite. Fucking Pedestal. But honestly, a Dinner can pass Really QUICKLY, and there were no Awkward Moments of Silence Attributable to HIM at least. BKC insisted to Pay For Her Dinner and she actually let him and she was Overly Grateful. It was her Birthday in Three Days and BKC said it could be her birthday present from him. BKC could think of a few ways she could Repay Him. Tingle for Short Old Alpha BKC Costanza already. BKC left without regretting his own performance, but he was still dangerously close to Crippling Depression thinking that she Just Didn't Like Him Like He Liked Her. Because he was Old, and he didn't have Life Status Bigboy Career Commensurate with that Old Age. Well, excuse HIM for wasting his family's money on a useless college degree, hahahaha. Oh well. At least he had honestly done all he could and he couldn't regret not doing enough: invited, called, made nice conversation, paid, etc. He wasn't gonna stop Gaming Harem Bitches, and maybe OldBitch would Surprise him. She HAD kinda surprised him over the PHONE. He felt Total Alpha Then. He thought a Make-Out was Imminent. He hoped it wasn't his Gross Glistening Overheating Body that put the nail in the coffin, but at least he could be secure that THAT was something that he could NOT control. (beyond the Brisk Jogs that he was Now Back In The Habit Of Doing Again.) Automatic biological processes. Fuckit. She'd be his age one day not too long from now. She'd pry be making BigGirl money with her Smart Career to be sure; but would she be married and with children? Would she be 80% Sexually Satisfied? She certainly seemed to have a Much Lower Sex Drive than BKC. Fuck this him having a Low Libido shit. He actually had an EXTREMELY HIGH Libido, and it took a HELL of a lot for him to be 80% Sexually Satisfied. Ideally, she would have invited him back to Her House to Watch Movies on the Couch. That would have 90% satisfied it. But just as BKC could not control his Sweaty Brow, he could not control how old he was. Serenity Right The Fuck Right Now.

Still, BKC did not have as much energy now as he would have if she had Tingled for him more. Which was fucking BULLSHIT. It shouldn't make any difference to YOU whether someone ELSE tingles for you or not. Other people's thoughts and feelings don't fucking matter. BKC Didn't give a FUCK what other people thought and felt..... did he? Well, sort of he did, when he felt positively about Them, he wanted them to feel positively about him. And she probably DID feel "positively" about him....just not in the tingly way, but in the Dreaded Friendzone way. BKC DIDN'T DO FRIENDZONE. NOBODY PUTS BKC IN THE FRIENDZONE. No Maam. And it wasn't because he lusted after her Pure Body, but her Pure Mind and Soul along with / in addition to her Body. He wanted the Full Package. This is why Bitches never understood why Guys didn't Like The Friendzone: "He would Throw Away A Perfectly Good Friendship Because He's Too Hung Up On Wanting To Bang My Body! I can't Help How Sexy I Am Tee Hee!" Wrong Baby, he's in full-blown Infatuation Love with you and wants to MARRY You. He likes more than just your body. Unrequited Old-School Traditional LOVE of the Faggy-ass Disney Variety you've only ever dreamed of but forever killed because you let every handsome guy who ever wanted you have you.

Wambulance. BKC was SO OLD, (How Old Was He?) that this one cunt he once "Dated" back in The Day who he thought was Almost Too YOUNG for him at the time, well she was now Married AND maybe two years OLDER than OldBitch. Bawwwwwwwwwwwwwwchan.

Well, now BKC would focus more Effort on the Skinny Friendly Polish Girl. She was older than OldBitch but hadn't lost her Youthful Prettyness. BKC just hoped she didn't have KIDS. Or was MARRIED. Well, he could deal with Married. He'd let a cute young wife wreck her own home. He was just Turned-Off by Big Old Stretched-Out Canals that BABYEZ had Popped-Out of.

It was a BEAUTIFUL day, second day in a row of mid-70 degrees, PERFECT Brisk Jog Weather, but BKC had to Sleep this Crippling D off. Rejection because you're Just Too Old is a particularly Painful rejection. You can Learn Game and you can Exercise and you can try to Better yourself, but you Can't Turn Back Time. It was 7pm and BKC debated whether or not to watch this artsy turkish movie "distant" or to just lay down and close his eyes.

BKC went to bed at like 8:30 pm right after the movie and couldn't sleep past 7:30 am or so. He SHOULD go to the DMV, do a Brisk Jog, and Jobsearch today, but he also had to go to the store and to the publib too, so he'd do those first. Maybe take a nap in the middle of the afternoon, hahaha. BKC had about 10 days before his new class started and he wanted to "Recharge His Batteries" because he had been Working Hard On School the past couple of weeks and was looking forward to the break. Being a Grownup Bigboy was simply too much ENERGY. BKC did not know how all these people had the Energy to work 50-60-70-80 hours a week staying BUSY and not sleeping. No WONDER people looked tired and old and fat and stressed and unhappy. That is just what The Responsibilities of Grown-Up Adult Existence DID to You. It wasn't FUN. You didn't get with a Cunt or a Job you LIKED, you simply Settled and Took What you Could Get: Your talents and skills and attractiveness and power and mate value added up to The Price of Your Person, and each person fetched a different Price, and your Price could only be exchanged for So Much, and sometimes you weren't satisfied with how much YOU were WORTH, and how much you were Worth to Others, basically. You wished your value were higher so you could be bartered for higher-value jobs and cunts than you were currently worth.

BKC's Saving Grace was that He'd Been 100% Abstinent from Alcohol for the past...22 months. Except for that 10% alcohol in the NyQuil, or when the Priest dipped the Eucharistic Host in Church-Wine once. As long as BKC was Abstinent From Alcohol, he allowed himself to have Pathetic Foreveralone Whining Little Boy Rage, World's Smallest Bourgeois Violin, Complaining, Bourgeois Ennui, Pity Party, etc.

BKC needed a new pair of Jeans, a better-fitting white and blue Dress Shirt (to wear with Ties and Suits for Bigboy Jobs), better Black Dress Pants, he should just go and buy a full-blown Suit Package already. The Suit Packages they had at the Salvation Army SUCKED, and the Dress Pants SUCKED too. They looked like SHIT. BKC was Grateful that he had the luxury of being able to actually save actual cash to buy a suit, and not just put it on a credit card that he'd never be able to pay off and would just keep growing interest and MURDER his credit score. That was the NORM Nowadays. BKC was grateful to be Abnormal in that respect.

BKC LOVED watching the Heterosexual Interactions of his Male Friends and he usually did so very Critically towards the Women involved. He KNEW his Male Friends Deserved Better. Their Mate Value was Way Higher, and they should NEVER be taking ANY shit from CUNTS. Women that were both Attractive AND Nice AND Virtuous should be throwing themselves at these men, as they should for BKC. These men were worth way more than to have Slutty, Flaking, Attention-Whoring Cunts Flake Out on them, or Friendzone them, or String Them Along, or Get Their Hopes up, or Not date them Exclusively, or have Obnoxious Personalities, or go to Stupid Parties, or have Promiscuous Pasts, or to have Children and Big Baggage, or to make the Men into Supplicating Friendzone Orbiters. Fuck That Shit. Naturally, These were somewhat difficult things for BKC to say to the faces of the men, because if the men were Pedestalizing Cunts, you couldn't talk sense to that. Just like they couldn't tell BKC that OldCocksucker was nothing but a Low-Value CumSlut that he deserved better than, because BKC wouldn't listen. Thankfully no-one BKC knew Right Now was suffering the indignities Of Cunts Right Now. Either they had found Decent Women, or they were Peacefully, Proudly Alone.

BKC should try to get an IT Internship SOON, like This Summer or Fall. Internships were almost MORE important to getting a Bigboy/Grownup Job than the actual DEGREE: Don't get a Degree, Get INTERNSHIPS. He could do 16 hours a week, maybe 20. Along with 30 hours of work and like 10 hours of class. That was easily doable. The majority of Bigboy Grownups worked WAY more than 60 hours a week. But for BKC Mr No Energy, even 40 hours Sucked ALL His Energy and he spent all his free time sleeping. So he'd be even more Tired and No Energy, but at least he could show his Face in Public before Cunts and say he was 28 years old and Worked an Appropriate/BigboyGrownupResponsibleAmbitious-Commensurate Number of Hours a Week. It ALMOST didn't matter what you were doing as long as you were staying BUSY AS FUCK.

BKC was marginally-above-average productive for a day off: he went to meijer and bought some coffee and some professional black dress pants both at somewhat reasonable prices; he went to the publib and got more movies; he went to the bookstore and sold his old books and bought his new books. Then he came home and adjusted his Budget Spreadsheet and then went for a BRISK JOG and got very sweaty. This weekend he wasn't working so much so he wanted to do Some Jobsearch, get Caught-Up on his sleep, and if that meant going to bed at 6:30pm every day, so be it; AND to detox from coffee/caffeine and get down to ONE MEDIUM cup of medium-strength coffee per day rather than TWO LARGE mugs of Strong Coffee.

BKC was going to take One or Two Pomodoros and try to finish his

GAYGLE WEB HISTORY PROJECT.

q2 2009 apr thru june: uconn. final fantasy 2 snes evil wall. peter vella box. library journal. a bunch of tv tropes. library science blog. richard crenna. barack obama smiling. rolling stone mastodon. steve zahn and his doppelganger william russ. what can pwn do for you. final fantasy x cosplay. leonard cohen live in london rar. best ps2 games. (he'd just gotten his New Ps2.) silent hill 2. resident evil 2 licker. center for forensic psychiatry. leonard cohen tour. opeth tour. leonard cohen if it be your will meanings. nice guys tm. how to talk to your crush even though you are shy. how to make friends. how to be friendly. mayhem marduk tour. attila csihar. most secure careers. kay panabaker. joanna levesque.

q3 2009 jul thru sept: how to ask a girl for her number. larry david good for you. best classes for career changers. larry david soundboard. dark tranquillity torrent. fafsa eligibility. hateful angry books. free speech hate. how to remove noise from a live recording. aa meetings. (Yikes. BKC had just had The Worst Day Of His Life and Gotten Arrested for doing something Very Stupid and Retarded and this would Impact The Rest Of His Loser Life.) tax forms. loneliness coping. shyness tips. a bunch of cute young girls names he'd seen around. fastest growing careers. how to make friends with an extremely shy person. (hmm. where were all his Life/Legal Trouble related searches?). john daly drunk. emotions anonymous. best rpg for ps2. karl marx jokes. this guy he knew from Bourge College Wasted Years who was making a bit of a Political Name for himself in BKC's City.

FUCKING CRASHING AGAIN. Two or three times while trying to write SIBHOD the past 30 minutes. WTFFFF. Where was the Crash Report? With actual tech details, not just saying "computer suddenly crashed." NO FUCK.

how to get to know someone you like. (BKC's Infatuation with OldBitch had officially started.) quit drinking cold turkey moods anxiety. buddhist temple. the court and judge BKC was involved with. Old Bitch's High School year of graduation grads. a poetry book written by a lebanese immigrant English Instructor. dragon quest 8. top 100 young adult books. katee sackhoff. lord of chaos movie. new burzum album. varg vikernes. david morse. a good start bottom of ocean jokes. crippling depression. roissy pandagon. afc blog. average frustrated chump. bruno baby cruicifed. autism testing for adults. sibhod. chongo. looking for the Harry Potter fan who had been a much-appreciated Sibhod Fan in 2008 and had actually written an HP FANFIC starring herself and BKC; she had fallen off the face of the earth following some personal tribulations. curb your enthusiasm fanfic. king of the hill fan fiction. dysthymia forum. MarxPrude. ChicagoGirl. current 218. his Evil Econ Instructor. chronic discontent. tom waits lyrics november. graph paper. rotting christ triarchy blogspot. alan rickman answering machine. ulver bergtatt rar. invisible oranges. worst muffin top. house arrest. scram alcohol monitoring. (BKC was under House Arrest and had a SCRAM bracelet way before Lindsey Lohan popularized it!). wolves in the throne room two hunters review. lifelover konkurs. kent du jag doden blogspot. drudkh autumn aurora blogspot. shining halmstad cover art. accounting bonds study guide. depressive suicidal black metal. pro ana. souther lord records. moonsorrow verisakeet. worst cities for jobs. most capitalist countries. paysage d'hiver blogspot. white noise machine.

q4 2009 oct thru dec. andrew carnegie pictures. abobo. 1984 sledgehammer throw. emma watson underwear. social anxiety anger. klee irwin. tascam pocketstudio. phoneme chart. alveolar trill. nicholle thom. sara paxton. taake nattestid rar. affliction shirts fashion douchebag. slap chop remix. albanian phrases. tindersticks self titled blogspot. burzum tribute. us gdp graph. meijer crunch attack. roissy body language dominant alpha. (BKC had recently discovered Roissy. This was a Big Deal.) bob dylan live recordings. creed office gun michael's birthday video game. welt aus eis. how to record a song on your computer. dr wayne dyer blog. medicaid eligibility. when did us government take hands off approach. aspergers syndrome. the place where BKC started getting regular drug tests. food stamps eligibility. youmacon. etg testing for alcohol. katatonia night is the new day. life consequences of a dui (finally!). bob dylan tour. fortune 500 list. ChicagoGirl. paranormal activity. unemployment men bachelors degree white. sexus henry miller. phil collins greatest hits rar. tom petty greatest hits rar. buzz ballads rar. lars von trier antichrist. bob dylan divorce beat wife. real gdp us history. this short-haired hyper cute girl from Bourgellege BKC hadn't thought of in years until he had a dream about her right then and then got real hot for her. deathspell omega si monumentum blogspot. (it was safe to say BKC was entering his Current Life Epoch right about now.) gender roles relationships. personality test kiersey. best value laptop. chicagogirl. best rss reader. OldAgeistSlutWhore. mantras for peace of mind. istj personality. calming phrases breathing. BKC's friend's name poker. deathly hallows release date. mulholland drive dead woman bed diane selwyn. casual sex emotional damage. funeral home for the death of his friend's mother. best black metal albums of the decade. BKC's professional email. BKC's name misspelled. conscientiousness. harry potter fanfiction hermione hagrid. napalm death time waits for no slave blogspot. national geographic channel russian mail order brides. /end q4

OK BKC was officially installing UBUNTU. The kind that you install and run through windows. BKC didn't really want to partition the hard drive or anything. However he hoped he would NOT be a slave to windows 7 because he wondered if it were an operating system problem that was influencing all these crashes, and if it would crash less when he was running ubuntu, vaguely called a "cleaner" OS than windows.

(Well it apparently just did the partitioning and installing itself but you ran the executable for the first time thru windows. Then you had to restart, then there was a old-school bios-y startup menu saying Pick Your Operating System: Windows 7 or Ubuntu. OK.)

OK here were BKC's first words in the Sibhod typed using Ubuntu. He was using Firefox. Trying to install a Flash Plugin, which was wayyy more complicated than he thought. Apparently Ubuntu users don't use YOUTUBE. What do they have their own fucking faggot UBUNTUBE with 10 lameass videos?

OK BKC finally got the Flash and the Java plugins working. He could play Runescape. It autodetected and defaulted to some pretty tits graphics settings. But it still suddenly went black and crashed. Shit. It had to be bad hardware then? maybe it was BAD MEMORY. BAD RAM. He should really do a Memory Test. He thought he heard GeekSquad say that nothing was wrong with the Hardware. But was RAM (i.e., Physical Memory) "Hardware"? Could BKC honestly Work Hard enough to Get A Career In This Type Of Stuff? Why was OldPromiscuousTaintSuckingSlurpenBurper such an goddamn fucking AGEIST???!! Why was BKC so Aged? Why did he associate Youth with Purity, and why were Both so Important to him? Why did She make all the right choices with her Life and Education and Career and why did she like being so responsible and so Nonslutty and why did she HAVE to be such an AGEIST? Well at least BKC did a brisk jog and installed ubuntu today.

(BKC did a memory test, initialized in Windows however, which restarts and does the test before the OS actually starts. But it said there were no memory errors.)

BKC started watching this South Korean "horror" movie

Ubuntu apparently used a different file system than windows, meaning Ubuntu did not recognize or could not even Find any of the files BKC used in Windows7. Those folders and files simply just didn't show up. Now, you could go into the Terminal (what Windows Users know as The Command Line) and issue a few commands to get Ubuntu to find the Windows files Partition, but.... ok apparently you can do it REAL EASY without downloading extra plugins by simply going to "file system" then "host" in the "Explorer." NOICE N EASY. No terminal, just easy gui point n click. BKC was not a huge Terminal fan, but apparently most Linux users were. You had to be. These were Computer Tech Geeks as well as Open-Source Communiss. What a WEIRD confluence. BKC was attracted to Linux not as much for this Leftist Marxist angle, but because it was rumoredly more efficient and crash-proof and virus-proof and streamlined and faster and cleaner and less bloated and Just Plain Better than Windows. It seemed sorta Mac OS-ish, but only in the sense that it was Not Windows, and BKC rarely had the opportunity to use something that was Not Windows, and until now, that had always been Mac, and he actually hadn't even used a Mac in YEARS. Linux was like Mac for MEN: people who actually KNEW what they were DOING and didn't just say "tee hee look at how cute it looks!" Fuck THAT Shit.

But BKC realized that most workplaces and schools in the universe used Windows, so thus any Computer Work you would be doing would have to be done in Windows. Well, you could make doc files and spreadsheets in Linux, and certainly html and xml and all that. But like the stuff BKC had been doing recently? No way: MICROSOFT Visual Studio, Microsoft Access, Microsoft SQL Server. MIcrosoft .Net framework, etc. Microsoft was still a Behemoth in the Software world, it went without saying, and always would be, and that wasn't necessarily a BAD thing, other than BKC couldn't Play Around in Linux and do his Visual Basic programming innit.

Well you could get an Open-Source IDE like Netbeans or Eclipse or whatever and write Java probably.

BKC was surprised to see that Visual Studio included "Web Development" Settings, which let you do a WizzyWig, Dreamweaver-ish split-screen of html code and Browser View. BKC wondered why his Html Instructor hadn't mentioned that. She was still a nice lady though, and BKC would have her again for his CSS class starting in 8 days.

BKC thought this Linux was a pretty good OS for something that was FREE. BKC wondered what kind of cost-savings you'd see if you were a Big Organization and used Linux instead of windows. Because all those fucking microsoft licenses could add up. And you could do stuff like MySQL and Apache on Linux, right? Indeed, that seemed like the Web Standard Atm. And BKC was convinced that Technology and The Web would become more and more synonymous - The CLOUD, if You will - and was obviously being more and more implemented on Mobile and Miniature wireless devices: phones, tablets, blackberries, etc. (BKC would totes get a Smart Phone if he could get a good price on it. He wasn't Anti Smart Phone by any means, he just thought it was too Luxuriously Cost-Prohibitive for him personally. If his Employer were to give him Smart Devices, though, he'd PimP Hell Outta Them and be Productive As Fuck and get a Fucking Promotion.

An Interesting Example was the new Chromebook, a laptop which ran Google's Chrome OS, which was designed for 90% Web-based stuff. Of course, BKC had his reservations about Google. Probably that it would def be an Ideal Company To Have a Bigboy Job For And Then He'd Pull The Top 1% Of Women, but he'd Never get a Job there because that would be like him getting into Harvard Medical School, plus Google had all this CAREER-KILLING inside information on him RIGHT NOW. BKC could pull 30 Harem-Wives just-as-good-and-better than OldCumCrapper if he ever had a job at GOOGLE.

BKC was OBSESSED with WOMEN, not only OldCumCrappingAgeist, but WOMEN in GENERAL. He was always thinking about Women and everything else in terms Of-Women. He was Obsessed With Women. The way Addicts were Obsessed with their Drugs. FUCK that shit.

Go To Indeed. Search for Jobs within 5 miles (hahaha). Filter Full-Time. Display 50 (FIFTY) Results per page. Sort by DATE. Go through several pages until you get Caught-Up to the last time you did this. Repeat for Several Pomodoros Per Day until you are Habitually Caught-Up. Apply for Jobs you are even 70%-qualified for. State salary requirements in ResCL and say you are willing to work on a Probationary Internship Rate for three months. Make sure you use the word Intern because Interns can get paid less than legal minimum wage, preferably free, because they're not technically "employees".

Certified Project Manager.

J2EE. Java Platform Enterprise Edition. LAMP software stack. Mono. Ruby On Rails. APIs. BKC was an IT PROFESSIONAL and his Skills and Knowledge Demanded Bigboy Compensation and 80% Sexual Satisfaction from Young Nonsluts!

BKC heard a story about a mid/late-twenties Mobile App Developer who was Unemployed and whose Business-Employed Wife made way more money than him and constantly Cheated on him and got Pregnant (from him? who knows!) but he has no idea because she had him FOOLED with a Lovey-Dovey Phony Act.

BKC had been walking from his car to his Littleboy Lazy Loser Labia-Curling Job one day when "The Tracks of My Tears" by Smokey Robinson and The Miracles popped into his head and stayed there for literally weeks. A very powerful, pure, really-real song. If BKC were still a Drinking Man and did Karaoke, he would totally do this song. Even though such Crying-In-Your-Beer Bullshit was totally BETA As Fuck, for a song this Great, such could be forgiven.

So, in a way, The Web, or, more specifically, Web Browsers, were becoming The New Operating System. Example: BKC could use the Web-Based Google Docs Software to do his Budget Financial Spreadsheet equally easy on Windows, Linux, Presumably Mac. BKC was using Firefox in Linux because it had "shipped" with his distribution of Ubuntu and he hadn't bothered to install Chromium (Chrome for Linux?) yet, and he was getting more anti-google now anyway, and Firefox had a convenient Private Browsing feature as well. He could well-live with Firefox. He wasn't all anti-firefox by any means.

BKC probably was too much of a Noob to use a Linux OS before, say, maybe one or no more than two years ago. Newer editions of Ubuntu seemed to be designed with Recruiting more Tech-Idiots over to Linux, and BKC appreciated the friendly learning curve.

BKC'S GOOGLE WEB HISTORY

2010, q1, jan thru march: marduk wormwood (!!!). international marriage broker. russian mail order brides. destroyer 666 tour. burzum belus rar. (his #4 most-searched query of all time.) great feminist speeches. julius evola. vangelis blade runner blogspot. OldAgeist. eric clapton greatest hits rar. burzum belus leak. relationship advice columns. close relationships psychology syllabus. strappado torture. watain sworn to the dark. pasting images into gmail. sku 95555769. atmospheric black metal. best romantic comedies. wigrid hoffnungstod blogspot. google reader feeds privacy. discordance axis the inalienable dreamless blogspot. kismet MIT. new freddy krueger. dual booting ubuntu (!!!). feminist porn erotica. virtual friendship and the new narcissism. anal sex is the new third base. black kc the man of absolute power. virtual girlfriend. mikael stanne. carey mulligan. old funeral devoured carcass. jorge cham phd comics. morgion solinari rar (DEFINITION EPIC! MUST HAVE!) attachment theory. best drudkh album. price elasticity of demand examples. opencourseware. open course ware library science. funny library shirts. mia wasikowska. coldworld melancholie 2. r crumb women. misogynistic. how to play euchre for dummies. abs lost full episodes. nailbomb point blank mediafire. hate forest. black metal BKC's city myspace. meijer diet rocky mist. wolves in the throne room diadem of 12 stars mediafire. gmat test dates. foscor groans to the guilty. (BKC had thought this was the Kewlest Band Name / Album Name Evar at the time.) euronymous short shirt. neal conan gene wilder talk of the nation.

q2 2010 apr thru june: ludicra the tenant rar. best cities for jobs 2010. water and diamond paradox. taras shevchenko. immortal discog torrent. perfect competition. type o negative peter steele dead. marketing plan how to write template. shining sweden tour. mla owl purdue. even more excellent html. david blaine card tricks revealed. piero scaruffi. metal archives forgotten tomb. nico desert shore mediafire. swans discog pirate bay. belief o matic. tristan taormino advice column. carnivore rar. polyamory podcast. taake tour. frontline college inc (good show!) dead can dance discog torrent. l'acephale stahlhartes gehause. xasthur portal of sorrow blogspot. best first person shooter ps2. roissy in dc. leviathan tenth sub level blogspot. some dumbass cute 18 yr old girl he wanted to bang who was in love with a big douchebag. google cache. the national high violet blogspot. (he was def out of his National phase by then, which consisted only of "Boxer.") leonard cohen isle of wight album rar (a classic from the vaults!). gmat math review. social anxiety coping conversation making friends. four tet rounds mediafire. it leaked. flying lotus cosmogramma mediafire. vijay iyer hisoricity rar. forgotten tomb songs to leave mediafire. chloe grace moretz. metal archives amesoeurs. the spearhead. alcest ecailles de lune. dating relationship advice. job hunt blog. mopenhauer vampiric age (whatever happened to him!) small talk with girls. shyness conversations small talk. social skills activities. second life. alcest tour. OldAgeistBitch. dead can dance tour (ha! You Wish!) librarian jobs outlook (not good enough for BKC!) major searching for OldAgeistBitch, including phone number. MarxPrude. CrushSlut. 18YearOldDummy. OldBitch. Himself. his NEMESIS. STDGirl. MarxPrude, finding her phone number! (these stalk-sessions can in waves.) peter drucker. bkctmoap. faceless drones. called in before the boss. (looking for images for a Management Class Powerpoint). bills table calculator paying. work life balance (what a retarded concept!) best business simulation games. NLP techniques. deathspell omega shirt. mikko aspa. playing psx games on ps2. how to change pessimism. final fantasy piano collections. windir 1184 blogspot. rate your music windir. open source drum machine. autolevel final fantasy 12. cor scorpii blogspot. vried metal archives. (BKC on his bried "Sognametal" kick.). Evilfeast lost horizons of wisdom. walknut graveforests blogspot. atmospheric black metal best of. social anxiety support forum. final fantasy 12 zodiac spear. ruins of beverast unlock the shrine rar. rate your music nagelfar. sex advice. IT careers outlook.

q3 2010, jul thru sept: mit open courseware computer science. best rpg games ps2. how to get over a rejection. dexter episodes online. drum blast beats advice tips speed. larry david as a child. health care reform bill. colleges in austin tx. dawn naer solen gar blog. dusk majestic thou in ruin blog. lunar aurora andacht blog. sacramentum far away from the sun blogspot. black metal 8-bit. grab audio from youtube. medical marijuana for depression. nocturno culto the misanthrope megavideo. us economy unemployment blog. hb1 visa. microsoft office 2007 professional torrent (hehehehe.) feminist vs mra. omega virgin revolt. sexual frustration in men. ulver troldskog tab. god of war 2 walkthrough. jobs for americans in norway. milton friedman audio. is kesha jewish. how to make friends. rebirth of dissection dvd. dairy queen nutrition facts. data entry from home legitimate. best college majors jobs. best majors for jobs. lars von trier the five obstructions streaming. tom waits alice original demos. white power 14 words. accounting quick review sheet. emily deschanel. at the gates red in the sky is ours mediafire. his evil online accounting instructor. bullets over broadway streaming. at the gates purgatory unleashed mediafire. life during wartime movie streaming online. bsn starting salary (BKC should have been a BSN, among many other things!) bs computer science salary. components of gdp. how to do a balance sheet in accounting. best depressive black metal. how to improve your mood. michael mcdonald. sleep matt pike tour. open source IDE. aspartame dangers. how to begin running. how to fix crooked glasses. preferred stock dividends accounting. music like burzum tomhet. searching this Cute 18-year old Right-Wing COnservative Traditional Girl who he became infatuated with after he had a dream about her and then she went away to college to become a Medical Doctor. how many pages is 500 words. roosh v. bernard chapin. cliche generator. dunning messages accounting. best 2 year degrees. where do you get general ledger beginning balance. this tall curly-haired blond afro girl with pale skin, looked eastern euro. his Programming Logic instructor. nap pod. jogging calories. libertarian. accounting mnemonics. open source accounting software. chrysler auto workers drinking. prong rude awakening mediafire. sean hannity radio. rush limbaugh radio. when is it too cold to jog (Oct 3, 2010. BKC had less than 5 months to Get In Shape. Damn.). /end q3

Now BKC was back on Win7. He just wanted to say he got the great idea to "buy" the old DOOM games and start playing them again, especially Doom 2, which was the best. Maybe he'd even try making his own levels again (.wad files.)

OK Doom2 crashed Win7, and BKC couldn't get shit to work on Ubuntu, it didn't like the exe files. So now BKC was looking at Google Docs Templates and Libre Office Templates (How different was Libre Office from Open Office?) and decided he needed a New Version of his ResCL, and it would be most effective if both the Res and the CL were from the same ResCL Template Suite, and that that Template "Suite" was crisp and clean and clear and didn't have a shitload of formatting and was easy to edit. This was honestly a lot to ask. BKC figured the best was just to use his MS Office07 Official Templates. What shit. How did All Grownups do this? How did OldAgeist do this? How had all those people he had known who had Become Bigboy Grownups do this AND SUCCEED? What did it Really feel like to be "A Success?" Were they any more "Happy" than Losers? "Happiness" was just Privileged White Bourgeois Bullshit!

BKC was going to go for a Short Brisk Jog Two Days in a Row!

BKC was downloading the Pimp Package of Netbeans so he could try to teach himself Java and "Glassfish" (????) while he was "learning" VB and Visual Studio. He had a ton of shit to learn before he could even get the Unpaid INTERNSHIP (which was more Job-Getting than the degree.)

BKC happened across Joel Osteen on TV and actually watched for a few minutes. He was really getting-off on a variation of the Serenity Prayer where you Just Don't Worry About Shit. You just go day to day and don't worry about shit and just do your best for the day and leave the Big Stuff to The Lord and the Lord Will Provide one way or the other. If you get rejected by the Job or the Cunt, don't get sad, it means that The Lord has something BETTER planned for you in the future.

BKC didn't want to take this to mean to just fly by the seat of your pants and never plan anything, because The Lord Plans Everything and Does All The Heavy Lifting. Nope. You gotta Plan at least 50%, meet the Lord halfway, AND do 100% of the heavy lifting. But that need not include Worrying. Leave the Worrying to the Lord.

The Lord saw fit to crash BKC's computer right in the middle of installing Netbeans, so it looked sorta funny when he started it. It probably didn't install all the files it needed to. So when BKC went to "new project", there was nothing there for him to choose. There had to be something there, which kind of new project, for him to choose. OK no problem, he just had to uninstall and reinstall. But it wasn't letting him uninstall. OK no problem. He'd just restart the computer and try again. BKC would do the lifting, the Lord would do the thinking, feeling, worrying, etc. The Lord had Big Plans for BKC.

Maybe BKC should have installed the Linux version of Netbeans because Ubuntu seemed to crash significantly less than windows.

For some reason, whenever he ran uninstall, either from Control Panel or the Netbeans uninstall exe, he just got an error. So now he'd just download a new 244MB installer and try installing it again, maybe it would overwrite or fix the old, bad one.

So now he installed it from Ubuntu with No Problem. It looked sorta like Visual Studio but of course we were working in a Java World now. BKC wondered if the kids in the Java class used Netbeans or Eclipse or something else. What the hell WAS a "Runtime Environment" anyway? BKC could make a GUI form with a button that said "Hello World." Now pay him 30 grand a year with benefits, hahahaha. Give him 80% good Action with Traditional Broads who hadn't thrown their lives away. BKC was so glad he was born a man and could get a second chance after he'd thrown his life away the first time. Women don't get Second Chances. Kinda sucked for them.

BKC had failed at both Corporate Life and Academic Life. He wondered if he woke up to suddenly find himself magically In-The-Middle of one or the other career, which one he would do better at. BKC insisted he could have been a Good BhD if he had had his S'ual Needs Satisfied, he had never Drank Alcohol, and he made the Right, Alphaer Choices When He Was Young. Of course, given those same conditions, he also maintained that he could have been making a lot of money in The Corporate World, but he had Thrown His Youth Away on Booze and Weed and Sloth and Letting Opportunities Slip Away and Going Crazy over Cunts Who Rejected Him. But he was a MAN, Goddamnit, and he was going to MAKE a Second Chance. He was in the process of that right NOW, Motherfucker. He was going to get not one but TWO IT Internships before the end of the year and then he would have a Bigboy IT job in 2012 AND have good, clean, traditional under-age-25 women in his Harem and he would have FUN Getting-Off In Them.

If OldAgeistCunt Exercised because she was Not In Perfect Shape BKC would feel better about the whole situation. He would PREFER it if she had some "Minor" physical flaw that made her perceive her own mate value as lower. Like if she had a Muffin Top or something, or a Huge Ass. A Muffin Top would make her feel SUPER Self-Conscious, and she'd likely STILL be Cute Enough for BKC, but maybe she'd be more likely to let him Take Her because she wouldn't Feel So Fit. See, BKC was Exercising because he wanted to Lose Current Weight, not because he was Currently Already In Great Shape. Not that BKC was officially in "Overweight" status, but he WAS on the High End of "Normal" and could easily tip the scale into Overweight if he didn't watch what he ate and that Paunchy Belly of his. Or maybe he got Belly-Fat because he was such a WorryWart.

Everyone's gotta Pay Their Dues. Paying Your Dues was not a BAD thing. It Built Bigboy, Hardworking Character. BKC had paid his dues in some ways but not in others. Sometimes he felt that just by Surviving to his Late Twenties that he was Entitled to 80% Sexual Satisfaction. When you're a pimply teenager and watching all the Cool Kids Get Assction but not You, that's fair, because you're Paying Your Dues, and You'll Get Yours when you make it to your Late Twenties. Yeah, but don't Sabotage your Fucking Career while you're going Crazy over cunts, either. The Advice Old BKC could Give to Young BKC!

Don't Take Sexy Pictures of Yourself. You won't Be that Sexy in 5 years. By 27 you'll be Over The Hill and you will look back on this as Ridiculous and wish you hadn't Thrown Your Life Away. Thrown Away The Gift The Lord Gave You. Or you won't realize this, and take Sexy Pictures of yourself well into your 30s, and now the Men are just Laughing At You rather than Jerking-Off to you wishing they could have You but You wouldn't Let them.

Anyway. Time was not automatically equal to dues. BKC COULD have paid his dues by this time, but he didn't. Time not equal to Dues. Although sometimes easily confuseable with. Nope. Dues was equal to WORK. TIME was not equal to WORK. BKC did not have a good ratio of WORK to TIME. WORK/TIME RATIO.

"So Stop BITCHING And DO The Work, BKC! Slurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrp!"

And at this point, Doing The Work was merely: opening up the resume file, tweaking it, redoing it in a diff template, changing stuff around in the CL, and then sending that fucking package to Employers and then Calling Them One or Two Weeks Later and Writing All Possible Interview Questions, then Writing All Possible Answers, then Studying them. It wasn't that COMPLICATED!!

Well, BKC would try to remember Joel Osteen. BKC would leave the worrying for the Lord. BKC wouldn't Think about it. He would just Roll Up His Sleeves and go on Autopilot. He would do the Work and then when he Did The Work the Lord would Make A Way. Even A Mysterious Way perhaps.

BKC didn't care if Agnostics and Atheist Came To The Lord in a similar way as BKC did. BKC didn't consider himself religious or Born Again or even Changed from an AgnosticAtheist. If anything, it was all just a big JOKE to him. Making a Mockery of The Faithful. MOCK THE CROSS. Or he was using it for his own Selfish Gain, telling himself Hilarious Platitudes so he could Grin and Bear It and Go Through The Motions and Pay His Dues. But BKC rationalized that this was a long-term good thing, and that the Lord would be happy if BKC was working with the Lord to better himself. Better than to Worse himself, Uh?

Did Brendan Perry sorta sound like Neil Diamond? Maybe, but BP's voice was WAY Sexier. Although Neil Diamond was actually a Better and Profounder Songwriter than his #1 Hit "Sweet Caroline" would make one think.

Fuuuuuccccckkkkkk. They should raise the Legal Drinking Age to 31. You shouldn't be able to legally drink until you have a Bigboy Job and a 80%-Good Hetero Rel. Then everyone who drank would be 75%-happy AND Established and they just wouldn't even be ABLE to throw their lives away on Drinking.

Did you know Cunts were EXPERTS at Lying To People's Faces? They could be right IN YOUR FACE making-out with you and whispering lies into your ears and make it sound believable because they've had so much practice lying to so many guys in so many "intimate" moments that they don't even know or care that they're Lying. They'll stare you right in the eye and give you a soul-melting look and tell you they Love You and then just continue to tell you Lies. BKC couldn't Imagine becoming this Inured/Desensitized/Accustomed To Lying. BKC told small, polite white lies to make life easier for everyone, and he did so at a distance. He would never tell Huge Lies to People's Faces where there would be Hugeass Consequences. And these were the type of lies that Women were as good-at-telling as BKC was at telling his small, polite, win-win, "Your New Haircut Looks Great!" lies. WHAT. THE. FUCK.

BKC went to the mall and it was Filled with Attractive Young High-School Girls Entering the Peak of Their Power, and they had No Idea. They just Loved the Attention, though; loved being at the center of everybody's world; and it was Tragic that No-One was teaching them that this Power was Very Time-Limited, so they had better use it Wisely. So instead these 17-year olds would Throw Their Lives Away on Cock, and when they were finally BKC's age, they would look even Older than he did at that age.

It was Absolutely Ridiculous and Wrong to Go To Bed at 7pm, but it was Acceptable to do so at 8 pm. IF BKC were getting up at 5:21am tomorrow, which he was. You figure, lay down at 8pm, Reflect and Pray and Give Thanks and Organize and Plan and Meditate, then you fall asleep by 9:21pm, and then you're getting 8 hours of sleep, which, while a LOT, was not TOO MUCH, like say 10 or more hours of sleep.

Sloth was a Deadly Sin and probably the one BKC was Most Guilty of, even ahead of Anger and Lust and Pride and Avarice. For example, BKC had to make some more Cigarets but he was SO LAZY he just wanted to lay down and not make Cigarets. Yet he knew if he didn't have at least 4 or 5 cigarets ready to go for tomorrow, he'd be Pissed come Tomorrow. Well, he had enough Energy to make 5 cigarets!

So BKC made 18 cigarets and played an hour of "Arc The Lad", which was marginally more fun than it seemed. He took that over watching New Family Man. He was Pissed at OldAgeistCunt for not responding to his Happy Birthday Text, so he was going to punish this undesireable behavior by not sending her the text later in the week wishing her a good trip for a little trip she was taking. It was beta enough to send the birthday text! But a key thing to do is use classical (operant) Conditioning: reward the behavior you want to see, don't reward the behaviour you don't want to see. Ideally she would have invited him to her birthday and wanted his old face to make-out with her young face. Don't Throw Your Youth And Life Away, Women!

When BKC woke up at 5:21am he was tired and he couldn't wait until 12:30 or so to take a nap. But that would be Omega As Fuck. That would not be Keeping Busy. BKC figured he should say Fuck The Nap, and just soldier-through and drink coffee until 2pm (that was his New Rule: No Coffee after 2pm) and then solider-through some more and finally go to bed at 8pm (NOT 7pm!). And in that time he would go for a Brisk Short Jog, and redo his ResCL and look at indeed for 15 minutes, maybe Teach Himself some Java. OldAgeistWhore could still do a penance and sent him a Late Acknowledgement. Late was better than never.

Then she physically breezed through the very next day and said a VERY distant, more-unnoticeable-than-noticeable "Hi" to BKC, but No Bye, No Small Talk, and NO "Thank You". She was Obviously Avoiding Him. WTF. And he didn't feel like approaching her. She could easily approach him for the 2 SECONDS it took to say Thank You And Bye. That was her chance. BKC was letting her decide to Send A Signal or Not. And she Def Didn't. No Fucking Way was she going to get a Have A Good Trip Text from his Alpha Person! Fucking Ageist Slut! BKC was angry because she had rejected him and he still couldn't easily find a Perfect Replacement. How do Women find Perfect Replacements for Men so easily? It's not because Men are More Easily Replaceable, it's because Women are More Immoral, Antisocial, and Crazy. FUCK THAT SHIT. 2 SECONDS. COMMON COURTESY. Infatuation OR NOT: infatuation is IRRELEVANT. FUCK THIS SHIT. OLD BKC DESERVED WAYYYY BETTER. He DESERVED way better. He had PAID HIS DUES and was DESERVINGLY ENTITLED to better.

He may have thought he paid his dues on other things and been wrong, but he was NOT wrong about Paying His Dues on THIS. She could come up to him for two seconds. He had initiated countless times, put the ball in her court countless times, fuck, he had just BOUGHT her DINNER. He shouldn't have to Initiate for a Thank You this time! He was angry at her for being An Ageist Cunt who didn't want to show him a FRACTION of the attention he'd shown her. He was DISAPPOINTED because he'd wanted her to be THAT Woman. Well, maybe she was so INFATUATED with HIM that she was TOO NERVOUS to approach him, hahahaha.

BKC got a copy of "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People" and figured he would carry it around conspicuously and look like he was Effective.

Instead of wasting money on a goddam Thermos, BKC would make a pot of coffee, then add 1 cup of water after it had brewed 1 cup so that it would fill past the fill line; then he would put it in the fridge; then when it was cool he'd fill 32-oz Powerade bottles with the coffee so he could empty the pot and repeat the process.

BKC was too angry and disappointed and upset at OldAgeistCunt for refusing to Smile Thank You Bye for 2 Seconds. Who knows. Maybe she was in THAT big of a hurry. So, he could assertively explain to her that he was angry at her; or passive-aggressively tease her about it; or not show her anything at all, which would be the most effective And the most Alpha option. But he was too angry/upset to Take A Nap, even though he'd 50% planned on it. NO. NIGGERS TAKE NAPS. Niggers and Omegas and Lazy Entitled Slothful Bourge Loser Cunt Collegeboy Student Lameos who don't want to Pay Their Dues and Work For A Living. Passive little spineless Virgin Losers. LAZY LOSERS take Naps. A man can change his Behaviour and BKC was NOT going to take a nap. He'd drink coffee until 2 and go to bed at 8 just like a Bigboy. If she was going to go about her day without thinking of him, and she would be productive, then he'd be Productiver and not think of her. An effective way to work-through this anger was to Not Take A Nap and Decisively Apply for One Job. Even if he was only 60% Qualified. Or 10%. He could find that. He wasn't gonna take a nap like a little faggot complaining bitch who didn't want to do what it takes and pay his dues. Hell. Even if he just played Runescape or Tinkered with his Resume, he'd be doing something Positive by STAYING AWAKE. His time was Worth More than Sleeping. He could sleep on the Weekends like the Bigboys. And Fuck. He DESERVED better from her or from ANY cunt he chose to Commit To. They couldn't just treat him like Old Pond Scum. BKC had INHERENT HUMAN VALUE, AND THUS HE DESERVED AND DEMANDED RESPECT AND SATISFACTION.

Partially BKC wanted to Vicariously Live Through Others to Pay his Debt and Fix His Mistakes, by making sure Young People didn't made the same mistakes he had. So, he'd be helping annoying Overprivileged Twats who have every reason to succeed but they CHOOSE to fail? UNDERPrivileged Blacks had done much better for themselves because they had the right ATTITUDE and Work Ethic.

This would have been a great time for a Brisk Jog, but it was Unseasonably Cold today.

BKC was kinda getting the Shaft at his Littleboy Job because they just didn't have enough money to give him as many hours as he would like. All The MORE Incentive to Get His White Ass Moving and Work for the Satisfaction He Demanded and Deserved. BKC could finally feel the Wind Of Change starting to Blow.

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Most guys saw pictures of Attractive Young Women and got all EXCITED. BKC didn't. He would criticize their makeup or eyebrows and say "WAIT TILL SHE'S 26." Yeah, he'd have fun pounding that ass ONCE, but he didn't think it was worth it to do any of the Work, and he'd want to leave immediately after to enjoy the company of his own private solitude. An Infat Pedestal was different because he actually LIKED them and wanted them to be around and like him. If he wanted to Try to Turn himself OFF of OldAgeistCunt, he imagined her wearing shitloads of makeup and dressing like a typical Slut with heels and shit.

BKC could not honestly say Education was a Good Long-Term Investment because of the bad ROI, long Payback Period, etc. The Ideal way to do it is: don't take out loans, just go to school part-time for 6 years and get your bachelors in fucking STEM. Everything else (other than maybe Accounting, hahaha) should be ABOLISHED from The University so it didn't FOOL Fools. This is what BKC did all day other than obsess about women: obsess about the mistakes and regrets of his past. Shit. If he had just LIVED in the Career Center a bit before and after he'd Graduated, he WOULD have gotten a Bigboy Job. (What was he doing instead? Drinking too much and worrying too much about CUNTS.) That was the kinda place that Bigboy Jobs GO-TO to RECRUIT Fresh Bigboys. Anywhere else and they'd throw your resume in the TRASH. They'd throw BKC's res in the trash now because he was not a Recent Grad and he hadn't used 2005-2008 effectively. Well FUCK THEM. He WAS using his time RIGHT NOW effectively. He'd been Living Pretty Effectively for the past 2 years now and he wasn't gonna STOP.

You could argue that the most Darwinian, Natural Selectiony Solution would be for BKC to Blow His Brains Out because he couldn't Win in the Competition of Life. He was just a Sunk Cost. A Money Pit. Something that Resources get Thrown Away on. He consumed way more than he produced. He was a Net Loss. Why SHOULDN'T he Blow His Brains Out, under this rationale? Of course, he was somewhat trying to turn things around. By Not taking Naps every time he COULD take a Nap and by looking at Indeed more. It was just Stupid how much Energy he could have derived from Touching OldWhore's Body, yet if he touched some other whore's body, nothing would happen. No, that was a lie: the more cunts he Banged, the more ALPHA he would became, regardless if he ENJOYED it, because of the Phenomenon of SOCIAL PROOF and how much it means to Women. When Women see you with Other Women, that raises your status a shitload. A Fuckton. BKC didn't ask many cunts to hang-out because quite honestly, he didn't WANT to hang-out with them, he just wanted to Bang Them. Except for NAWALT-Cunt, he wanted to Bang AND Hang-out with her but she didn't want to do neither with HIM Fuuuuccccckkkkkkkkk. Men experience Unrequited Infatuation MANY full Times More than Women Do. But at least MEN can get SECOND CHANCES.

If you take Gender away from Attractiveness - and this the SMP and MRAs did, and it was very useful - and just refer to people by the number of their Mate Value / Attractiveness, it becomes shockingly Obvious how much Easier it is for Women to get Sex with Attractives than it is for Men to get Sex with Attractives. But that's no surprise, women have the womb, women are the deciders, women have more to lose, etc. But when Women act all "Liberated" with their Promiscuity and Birth Control, they're temporarily Having Their Cake And Eating It Too: they don't have to relinquish the "right" to Sex-With-Attractives as a "trade-off" for losing the Risk of Pregnancy. The Payback comes 10 years later, when they're 30 and on the wane and batshit crazy and even-more-undateable. THANK FEMINISM.

The World Isn't Fair. We All Learned that when we were CHILDREN. We can't change the world from being unfair. We can, at best, try to just Go Our Own Way and Bust Our Asses to make our own individual lives Kind of Fair, and even then it won't be FAIR-Fair. But the LAST thing we should do is get ANGRY about something we Have No Power To Change. And here BKC was getting Angry As FUCK. Well, he'd looked at a shitload of jobs in his area and in Austin TX (1:1 job:jobseeker ratio there, as opposed to 1:3 in BKC's area!) Well, now BKC needed a change of scenery. He might play Arc The Lad since he REFUSED to take a NiggerNap today and he only had 5.5 hours left before he could Go To Bed.

Who Takes Naps? LAZY LOSERS took naps. BKC acted within his Circle of Influence to CHANGE his Behaviour of Taking A Nap, THUS he was NOT a LAZY LOSER. WIN.

And then BKC went to bed at 8pm just like he planned.

He seriously deserved Better than what that Ageist Cunt was giving him. See if he Supplicated to HER any more. He had Busted his ass trying to establish a baseline of Comfortability between them and to Vanquish Awkwardness and he had done a pretty good job of it, and of doing all the Heavy Lifting. If she couldn't show even a little goddam appreciation, BKC would find someone better who WOULD. He wasn't going to compromise his High Standards. It was simply Inglorious, though, that Young Women could create such an Insane Demand with their Young Bodies that their Insanely Shitty Personalities just didn't matter, and that Young Men with Winning Personalities did not get anywhere NEAR a Comparable Demand. Oh Well. WAIT TILL THEY'RE 26. Hell, WAIT TILL THEY'RE 25.

It just sucked that he extremely liked everything ELSE about her personality and felt it was so "rare", that if another broad actually TREATED HIM GOOD, well that would be good, but the rest of her personality, according to Odds, wouldn't be as great as OldAgeist's, and he would immediately feel the Urge To Cheat. BKC cheated on cunts left and right unless they were Pedestal. He was every bit as Hypergamous and Grass-Is-Greener as cunts were. Well Fuck it. So he'd bang cunts and cheat on them if he wanted. He'd just try not to DESTROY them with his cheating. It wouldn't be Evil Cheating. Better yet, he'd just establish Open Rels. Cunts LOVED open rels anyway, why couldn't BKC?

The problem really was with BKC's Way of Thinking, and that was something within his Circle of Influence (Covey, 7 Habits, hahaha.) His Thinking Problem was, he didn't give enough WEIGHT (i.e., %, Importance, Priority) to the Attractive Quality of Somebody Being Nice To HIM. He gave excessive Priority to things like NonSluttishness and Cute Face and Maturity and NonHamsteryness and Conscientiousness and Honesty and Reliability and Trustworthyness and Traditionality and Conservatism and Religiosity and Wife-and-Motherliness. Thing was, these WERE important things, as opposed to "Big Tits" or "Nice Ass" or "Does Anal On First Date." BKC just needed to Proactively Train himself to make "Nice TO-BKC" of Equal importance to those other important things. The problem wasn't the problem, BKC's Thinking was the problem.

So, Guys went through their Youth seeing all their Good Brethren not getting the Positive Female Attention they deserve, and they see all the Attractive Women flocking to Charismatic Douchebags and Bad Boys. Then they grow up and realize that these Attractive Women are nothing more than Polished Turds, and that the real problem is a Huge Shortage of Actual Quality Women. Your Good Brethren Deserved BETTER than the Polished Attractive Turds who were throwing themselves at Charmismatic Alphas. They deserved a "Turd" that was Golden Through-and-Through, a real woman of substance and character, attractive inside AND out, a real woman of Gods, a real TRADITIONAL woman. Remember, Conservative Men (BKC's New Declared Audience): Just because you want to bang women who would make a Good Mother doesn't mean you want to bang your OWN Mother, as the Liberals would try to spin it.

BKC spent a lot of time rewording and reformatting his resume and it still looked like FUCK. It did not look like a work of art. Did you HAVE to use those stupid TABLES with the white borderlines in order to make your res look like a work of ART? Essentially the tables existed only to provide Clean and Excessive White Space for the Headings: Objective, Education, Experience, Skills, etc, so that those things could have their own nice too-huge white box to live in on the entire left side of the page, leaving you to CRAM IN all the details you can without pushing the res to two pages. Fuck That. BKC was gonna go back to his Traditional Res, where there were no tables, just LINES of text. Didn't mean the lines of text couldn't be stylized and look nice! BKC was a CSS expert!

Here's a Headscratcher: maybe when Beta Mangina Niceguys are being NICE to women, it's their way of showing that They Will Be There To Provide Moral and Emotional Support to the woman: "I Will Be There For You Through Thick and Thin. I Care About You. Don't you want a Paternalistic Man to Care for You and Support You and Be There for You Faithfully when everyone else has abandoned you?" And this isn't even an unreasonable, illogical thought. Mature, Well-Balanced people Do Desire Love, Support, and Companionship. Just not Yours, Beta, because you're not Socially and Resourcefully DOMINANT enough. It's not enough that you're Individually Emotionally STRONG and GIVING. You have to be SOCIALLY DOMINANT.

Today BKC woke up a bit tired and The Old BKC would say, damn, I can't wait to get home and take a NAP. Well, New BKC said, NAPS ARE FOR LAZY LOSERS, and I ain't gonna be one of THOSE. So he went through his day knowing that he DID NOT WANT TO take a nap and that he would stay awake till his bedtime at 8pm. When he got home he would have a nice big coffee and try to do something productive, even if it was just listening to My Dying Bride and writing Sibhod. Hehehe. Also with some Indeed searching, some Res Tweaking, and some Arc The Lad in there too.

Here's what BKC was doing This Quarter of his Jobsearch: he was putting his address and phone and email in the HEADER of the Resume, as it was only supposed to be one page anyway, then this would leave more room for him to make his name Ridiculously BIG and to squeeze more info on there. He also made good use of Right-Aligned Tab Stops on the Right side of the page. This way you could effectively, on the same line of text, line one thing on the left, and another thing on the right. He also inserted a Horizontal Line (hr /) underneath his name. Then he quickly redid his CL in the same format so they would pair up very nicely. Also used Justified Alignment. White Space Is Your Friend. It can't LOOK Crammpt. HE also used Arial Text because he was convinced it was more "readable" than TNRoman, yet still looked professional-enough. Most shite on the Interwebs was in Arial, CHONGO. BKC breezed through the day's new postings on indeed and actually applied to a job with an Aerospace Engin Co as a Data Analyst, hahaha. Not Bad Uh? He was on autopilot the whole time. If he got an interview he'd CRAP A PANTLOAD. It was off a State Talent Bank website that a lot of the Laid-Off Unemployment Collectors used, and BKC had to update his profile and fill-out the Profile Resume rather than just upload a simple one-page PDF. He just copied and pasted. And for the Cover Letter, he inserted the Contact's Actual Name, which was conveniently listed in the posting. Little things like that which took only two seconds, and no more than two seconds, but it looked good. BKC sat there in front of his Linux-Running Computer and smiled smugly like the world's pseudointelligentest job-getting-secret-knowing SWPL Smartass. Bigboy. GROWN-UP. ADULT. BKC WAS AN ADULT. Not a 30-year-old BOY, hahahaha.

The Beauty Part Is, BKC would have gotten NONE of this done if he had taken a NAP like a LAZY LOSER.

BKC was always willing to give OldAgeistBitch the benefit of the doubt, that she was Not Like That. She's the Only Cunt who's Not Like That. He was so resistant towards believing that she Might be Like That, and also So Resistant towards believing more women Weren't Like That.

He might have even cooled-down by the end of the week, that he would send her a Have A Nice Trip text, out of the misguided belief that she would say, "Oh He Remembered! That's So Cute and Nice and I want to be with this guy who Cares About Me, to send me nice little notes when it doesn't even cross the mind of other people! What A Nice Gesture! I want to spend time with and be nice to him too!" Do you SEE why sending her that text was not a great idea?

FUCK her. BKC had been productive enough today. He was going to play Arc The Lad and Give Thanks To Gods. For Everything. For Linux. For Having A Home. For Not Having CANCER.

Lord Gods Covey differentiated between the Urgent and The Important. According to BKC, The Urgent was your Obligations that you HAD to get done in the Short-Term. The Important was still important: it would be GREAT if you did them, but they didn't HAVE to be done in the Short-Term, so thus you often put them off. But they gave more of a sense of satisfaction and long-term payoff than The Urgent. You were supposed to work on these Quadrant 2 things (High Importance but Low Urgency) in order to become a More Effective, Better Person. Taking Naps was Urgent and not-as-Important as BKC once thought. Buying a Suit or Jobsearching or Exercising or going to the DMV Early was Very Important, but not yet Urgent (maybe if Jobsearching Felt More Urgent, BKC would have gotten more done here!)

Today BKC would try to go to the bank and the DMV and apply for this temp littleboy job in Accounting. This was Temp and Littleboy and it would be just to make more money in the Short-Term Only, but to Increase his Jobbable Accounting Skills for the Long-Term. BKC was GREAT at Accounting in Class, but he'd done little WORK innit. In fact, when he DID do accounting-related stuff as his JOB in 2005, he actually learned and used very little of Accounting Itself, and would have been much more Effective had he taken any accounting courses before that time. Not that he sucked at that job! He followed Directions VERY Effectively. He just didn't "understand" debits and credits and financial statements and assets and liabilities like he did now. The accounting job was only 20 hours a week max and only two months max and was only posted for 4 days. BKC wondered how many applicants it would get: less than 100? More than 500? Times WERE Tough, so he wouldn't be surprised if it were ridiculously high.

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Shit. BKC forgot to put his "Salary Requirements" in his ResCL. To just have a bullet point right on the top where he Lowballs himself and says "Will Work To Prove Worth On Unpaid Intern Basis for X Months, Until Employer is Comfortable Hiring Me at 10 dollars an hour", hahahahaha. This is what you HAD to do to get a job these days. The Golden Goose Was Dead. You had to compete with the Chicoms now.

Think you're ABOVE Flipping Burgers and Scrubbing Shitters and Eating Shit All Day? Your GRANDPARENTS had a WORD for jobs like this. They called it OPPORTUNITY, hahahahahahahaha.

Oh yeah. BKC had full-blown Created his New ResCL on Google Docs because That was bare-bones Word Processing, and if you could make it look good there, it would look good everywhere ELSE, PLUS it allowed you to export in a Shitload of formats. This was about as compatible as it got. This was GOING to get BKC a Bigboy Job.

BKC sat in the car for a minute really tempted by the idea of taking a nap like a Lazy Loser. Then he reminded himself that Napping was Neither Urgent NOR Important. He should be doing things that were Important but not Urgent. Meaning his time would be much better used Replacing his Registration, going to the bank, doing things on his to-do-list that didn't have an exact deadline, etc, and he could do them at a semi-relaxed pace because they weren't urgent. BKC went to 711 for a Largest Coffee. He put a bit of Ice in at the bottom so he could start drinking the coffee right away because he couldn't drink PIPING hot coffee. That worked well. BKC was tempted to put a bit of Coke Slurpee in the bottom and then fill the rest with Coffee, as per his weird interest in mixing Pop with Coffee. Then BKC went to the bank, Then he went to the DMV. He went out of his way to go to the DMV where there might be more White People, because he was a Racist, and Seeing Blacks Drained his Energy. He was immediately informed that the Computer System for all state DMV offices was down. Hmm. Well, HE TRIED. He did all he could. He went home and thought about going to the DMV again tomorrow. It really wasn't that HARD. He went for a BRISK JOG and felt the Burn. Another thing that was Important but Not Urgent. Effective. Quandrant 2. Then he played some Arc The Lad, made some good progress, got real hungry, ate a too-big, too-heavy meal, and went into a HARD Food Coma (what a Hard White Existence!), unable to keep his eyes open by around 4 o clock. He hadn't planned on this. Well, at least he'd tried, with his 12 o clock XL Coffee and productivity. Then he dozed off and on until 8:30am the next morning, making sure to at least listen to the 1 hour of "The Middle" at 8-9 Weds night. ("This Show is AWESOME! This is the BEST SHOW EVER!! I LOVE This Show!!" It really WAS a great show. Patricia Heaton and Neil Flynn really did pair-up uncannily well and create some very memorable parent-characters. And some of the Lines were Hilarious, like when the oldest son says "Two Words: Buddha-ism." That really struck BKC as ridiculously hilarious.)

Today BKC would: take a shower, go to the DMV again (the closer one, with more Blacks), drink coffee, buy an inexpensive-but-nice white or gray-ish Dress Shirt that could be worn with Black Pants, try to do a Brisk Jog, callback his Zen Buddhist Friend mentioned last post who had Nicely Called BKC because he was in town for this Big Marriage Reception they were all going to on Friday; DEFINITELY squeeze in that Accounting Job App, that was both important AND very urgent; maybe play some arc the lad; NOT take a nap; maybe meet-up with that guy briefly if they could agree on a nice central meeting place because BKC hated driving and he also feared his Car was Going To Die pretty soon and he had to start kicking more savings into his "New Car" fund hahahahahaha.

http://roissy.wordpress.com/2009/01/12/a-hole-game-day-1/

OUTSTANDING Roissy post explaining what BKC had been explaining since the dawn of time: the difference between Playful Alpha Teasing Man-With-Options DHV Asshole and Bitter, Spiteful, Creepy, Caring-Too-Much DLV Asshole. This breaks down into the Sexy Son Hypothesis:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sexy_son_hypothesis

Women like Alpha Assholes because these men will provide the women HEIRS who are themselves Sexy Alpha Assholes, who will in turn have no trouble mating and providing the mother with GRANDCHILDREN. As BKC had said a few times (not enough!) before, it's really that Grandchildren Generation that Counts for Genetic Survival. Nearly any man (but not according to Omega Virgin Revolt, hahaha) can struggle to learn Game, struggle to Bang Bitches, and be rewarded with an Heir. But what good is that if the Heir turns out to be an Omega Mangina Niceguy who himself has no chance at reproduction? The genes stop there, and that's no good. You'd be better off siring a Daughter, because she, like the Sexy Son, is GUARANTEED TO REPRODUCE.

BKC's question, then, so was a Daughter as Reproductively/Matingly/Evolutionarily Valuable as a Sexy Son Then? Equivalently Evolutionarily/Genetically Successful?

Make All Your Documents Google Documents. Title them YourNameResume, YourNameCoverLetter, etc. Then, for every job, you open it up, make a Duplicate, which you immediately rename as YourNameResumeDate and then make all your tailoring to that new document, which you export as a doc or pdf (BKC preferred PDF) and send to the person. This way you know the one without the date is the "template" resume.

And since Google Docs is The Cloud(tm), then you never have to worry about where is the newest version of anything. So somebody could hack your resume, sure. But the Odds are Against That.

BKC actually felt significantly better about his Jobsearch after a lousy TWO days simply not-taking-a-nap and Regrouping all his shit on GDocs and making them crisp and clear. Today he was pretty productive, getting a nice brand-new (but reasonably-priced, on sale!) White Dress Shirt for Weddings/Interviews/BigboyJobs AND applying for that Accounting Job. Damn. He'd be surprised if he DIDN'T get an interview. The DMV was still fucking useless because their computer system was still down. Privatize that shit already. It's not like you didn't already have Shitloads of Auto Insurance Companies. But, the main point is, if BKC kept up this Momentum, he could probably get a Bigboy Job sometime this YEAR, hahahaha.

Barry was giving a Big Speech right Now about The Middle East and Arabia and such. BKC should be paying attention.

It still bothered BKC a little bit about OldBitch not even attempting to talk to him for 2 seconds. Then again, it was kinda congruent with her Personality of her in her own little world and not knowing how to relate to others. Like she wasn't Intentionally AVOIDING him, but possibly she was THAT WORRIED about moving her car out of the no-parking zone IMMEDIATELY that she couldn't take 2 seconds. That would be just like her. She wasn't Intentionally Self-Centered. She was just totally fucking Oblivious. MAYBE BKC would send her a very brief, uncaring text for her trip. It's not like he wasn't Sarging for Other, BETTER Traditional Tail Either!! There had to be another ~23 years old Traditional Girl who was cute and who was Less Oblivious out there somewhere!

Well, the good news is that OldAgeistCunt would soon be paying the piper of Father Time just like BKC had. She had JUST hit her PEAK AGE - 23 - and it was impossible to disagree that 24 was worse than 23, and 25 worse than 24, and so on. The Magic Power of pre-23 Female Youth is what produces Real Infatuation in Males, and after 23, she's increasingly less likely to get that reaction from Men. This isn't to say that a 22-year-old girl would produce a healthier BABY than, say, a 25-year-old. BKC wasn't concerned about BABIES per se for this discussion. Just Woman's Age and Man's Infatuation Strength.

BKC conceded there would be some disagreement on when exactly Woman's Peak Age was: 22, 23, or 24. But there could be absolutely no doubt that it was one of those years in that two-year range. BKC said 23, but maybe it was indeed 24. And we could all agree that, by 25, we have started to see The Beginning Of The Wane.

So OldCunt was Now On Her Peak Year of Life. BKC wasn't sure whether he wished her Well, or Ill. Her wisest decision, of course, would be to Commit to Him.

BKC thought about all 10+ women he'd been Really Infatuated with in his life, and it was a FACT that he NEVER developed that full-blown infatuation for them WITHOUT them being 23 or YOUNGER. He had never LOST HIS SHIT for a woman older than 23 (unless he'd first met and become infatuated with her when she was 23 or younger.)

This isn't to say BKC would't BANG Cunts in their Mid or Late Twenties. He just couldn't get infatuated in them. Because they had Taken Too Many Cocks, and, more importantly, they had lost the Magical, Relationship-Glueing Glow of Youth. See, BKC could get Married to OldBitch and it would be all good even when she was 30, because, in BKC's Eyes, she would always be the age she was when he first met her. She was no older than 21 then.

BKC should enter a Coffee-Drinking Contest. He drank coffee LIKE WATER from the time he woke up until the Caffeine Cut-Off Time of 2pm.

BKC was ecstatic to be a "Born-Again" Ultra-Conservative because that made Socializing With Cunts a hell of a lot easier for him. When he told Cunts he was An Ultra-Conservative, they could make their decision right away whether they wanted to associate with him, knowing that he was going to make all sorts of offensive, politically-incorrect, anti-feminist, traditionalist, racist, right-wing, ultra-conservative statements. Not that he ever CENSORED himself ANYWAY, but still, this was very convenient shorthand for broadcasting to the World Exactly What They Were Signing-Up For when they First Met BKC.

BKC was going to STOP calling All Women "Bitches" and START calling All Women "CUNTS." That was more decisive, less wishy-washy, less SWPL, more Truthful. He didn't call them CUNTS with any sort of anger, violence, blaming or bitterness. It wasn't Their FAULT. The only possible emotion there was a bit of Idealistic, Romantic Sorrow: that Women Could Have Been So Much More if they only had the courage and, more importantly, the Right and Timely Upbringing, to Stand Alone in the face of Liberal SWPL Babylon, and to become part of the .00000000000001% of Women who Aren't Cunts.

Well BKC wanted to get this one out Thursday afternoon. Consider it a Wedding Present to those people he knew who were getting married. They could listen to the brand-new Sibhod at the Wedding Reception, hahahaha. But seriously. BKC was excited to see everybody. He wished them nothing but the Best, because they Deserved the Best, and they shouldn't have to work themselves To Death to get it.

STAND AND DELIVER

2011-05-19T15:57:00.000-04:00

BKC had the day off and not really any homework he HAD to go RIGHT NOW (of course he HAD to do JS right now!) so he celebrated by drinking a shitload of coffee. Then quickly crashed into a nap at 3pm.

Warning: Tons of White Priviliged Bourgeois Navel-Gazing. But BKC might have Too Much Time, but he didn't have enough time to Edit. Plenty of Boring White Stuff BUT this is justified by more-than-enough Solid Gold T Stuff.

GET YOUR SIBHODCAST HERE.

BKC was listening to Ophthalamia's first album "A Journey In Darkness." You know, the one with Jon "Shadow" Nodtveidt (R.I.C.) singing. BKC was honestly amazed and embarrassed that he hadn't known Nodtveidt sang on this album until very recently. Then again, it wasn't really covered on his Wikipedia page. It gave only further evidence that JN had one of the Best Black Metal Voices Ever. BKC thought he was Underrated for his Vocals because of his Epic Legendary Songwriting Skeelz. Such that when you thought JN you thought of all the Epickest Dissection Riffs: "Somberlain", "Night's Blood", "Dead Angels", etc. Which was more than valid, because Dissection WAS one of the most important Black(ish) metal bands of All Time; their music was Out Of Time. JN's voice, until after BKC had been listening to it for about Ten Years now, sounded pretty straightforward and typical and unextraordinary: just an average, listenable, raspy black metal rasp. But now that BKC had heard over 9,000 other Black Metal Rasps, it made him all the more appreciative of JN's. You could immediately tell it was HIS Black Metal Rasp; you could hear HIS voice through it. Additionally, he NEVER phoned-it-in; his black heart and soul were evident in every scream he did. It was more than enough to send chills down your spine. In short, JN kept it so really real that he showed how Tragically Common it was for Average People to NOT keep it very real. This guy never went through the motions with his voice. Which is also why it was so disappointing to hear some of the Music on "Reinkaos" going through the motions (although the vocals there were still solid.) BKC really wished JN hadn't thrown his life away by killing that guy and going to prison, just so The World could have been Blessed with more Music and Voice from 1990s JN. So when BKC found this Entire "Lost Album" filled with shitloads of JN Vokills, he got a Bigass Hardon. A Full album of Vokills from one of his favourite singers who didn't have Enough Recorded Vokills. And make no mistake, the vokills on "A Journey in Darkness" were every bit as strong as on "Somberlain" or "Night's Bane."

BKC's Ideal Wife would not have had Casual Sex EVEN ONCE because she would be smart enough to realize that Sex has Vastly Different Consequences for Men and Women; that Women can get PREGNANT, even WITH BC, and for that simple, easy-to-remember reason alone, women should NEVER EVER EVEN JUST ONCE have Casual Sex, because its consequences were not as CASUAL for women as they were for Men. Thus the term "Casual Sex" applied only to Men, NOT To Women, ever.

This wasn't saying that Men SHOULD go out and have Lots of Casual Sex, mind You. BKC had once been highly anti-male-casual-sex, until he gave in and conceded that most modern women weren't Worth More than having Only Casual Sex with.

http://roissy.wordpress.com/2011/04/29/why-gss-sex-questions-should-be-taken-with-a-flat-of-salt/

Women's Anti-Slut Defense Rationalization Hamster makes them lie in sex surveys, even when guaranteed anonymity, about their sluttiness

http://roissy.wordpress.com/2011/04/29/alpha-assessment-tasting-success-edition/

Great, concise, yet detailed summary of at least three field/date/bang reports and good examples of alpha and beta in texting and convo and escalation

Also a GREAT argument as to why Premature Cunnilingus was a Supreme Omega Tell: It Broadcasts Loud and Clear to the bitch you are MADLY attracted to her, that you've NEVER been THIS attracted to a woman EVER, that you have NO Options, that you have NO Experience, that your Perceived Mate Value is WAY below hers, and then she will (rightfully) dump you and be getting PLOWED by an Alphaer man that verysame afternoon.

Corollary, Advoice: if you really wanted to Eat A Bitch's Stank Snatch and hadn't even REAMED her pooper proper yet, SLOW DOWN BETA.

CollegeSlacker was announcing the end of his College Game blog, since he was Gradumatating College right now. BKC joined the chorus and said No, Don't Quit it. We want to read about how you Transition to the Real World that you Rightly Despise and Fear, and to see how you use Game innit, on Out-Of-College Career Older Even Hamsteryer Women; to read about your experience getting your first out-of-college Bigboy Job; to see you transition from becoming Young Gaming Playboy to full-blown MRA/MGTOW, which you have already shown decent potential towards being once you get out of your early twenties "cunt crazy" phase.

There was a "Men's Convention" coming up in the UK and Orlando,

http://www.the-spearhead.com/2011/04/26/a-mens-convention-seriously/

which was causing great debate at the spearhead. Omega Virgin Revolt wrote it off as PUA-Snake-Oil after looking at the organizers website for a few minutes, and so did a lot at the spearhead. BKC thought the debate was vigorous and healthy. PUA was pretty immature and women-focused rather than political solution-oriented and man-focused, which might be seen as a "buzzkill" by all the horny young bucks. But BKC argued that PUA and Game was what indeed introduced Men to the MRA world, such that they could become good MRAs once they matured. Look at CollegeSlacker. Hell, look at Roissy. PUA should not be Excluded from MRA. However, most Mature MRAs have a laser-accurate Bullshit Detector, and 90% of PUA stuff is Snake Oil Pure Bad-Marketing Bullshit. A man didn't have to go through an assraping, life-destroying divorce after age 30 to be Woken-Up to the Extreme Hypocrisy and Cruelty of Most Women; he could be woken-up in his teens and twenties by the Extreme Hypocrisy of Young Women they couldn't "date" because the women were too busy riding the Alpha Carousel and these betas didn't know how to Game them. Alpha Carousel was simply the Young 20s Version of Assraping Flippant Eat Pray Love Divorce and a Lifetime Rationalization Hamster.

MRA was more-than-well-informed of PUA, and PUA HAD TO return the favour for MRA by becoming more informed-of MRA, and schooling the Young Horny Bucks with Solid Advice for the Long-Term; and perhaps mobilizing them for Political Action, which was where the actual important CHANGES could be implemented. Fuck this Activism Burnout of not being able to Effect Change in our lifetimes. No, we would not reach the End-Game in our lifetimes, but we could certainly get about 40% of the way there and also BUILD A SOLID MULTI-GENERATIONAL PLAN for The Next Generation to take it to 100%. Fuck Yeah.

So "The 21 Conference" or whatever wasn't ideal, but it MIGHT be a small step in the right direction. Still, BKC saw no valid reason why A Full-Blown Ideal MRA/MGTOW/Mature Men's Conference could not be held RIGHT FUCKING NOW. That much Men Could Do. It WASN'T A Buzzkill. It was a Buzz-Grower. Men Getting Men Pumped-Up About Solving Problems, because Solving Problems is WHAT MEN DO. There was NOTHING more Omega than thinking that Men were NOT Capable of solving The Women-Problem. Men's entire LIVES revolved around Solving Problems: it was what they got STEM Advanced Degrees and Careers doing. It was a tragedy they could not apply those same scientific problem-solving skills to their own damn personal and political lives. But there was A Change Coming. It was Brewing. It COULD happen now, but it probably wouldn't; but you WOULD probably start seeing it within TEN years at maximum, EVEN IN the Lamestream Media. These were interesting and EXCITING times.

(Like a Comment on the Spearhead said: working 19 hours a day on their farms did not stop Men from organizing the US's War For Independence Back in the Day. Although BKC def did not have that kind of ENERGY right now himself! But some men had to have! Let someone else do it!)

But The Women-Problem wasn't a simple, easy, or small problem. It was a related problem that PUA was a Potential GREAT Gateway/Introduction to MRA, but the majority of PUAs did not treat it as such, and were just Affliction-Shirted Juicehead Douchebags trying to make an easy buck from pathetic sex-obsessed, frustrated, Foreveralone, Friendzone, Supplicating, Next-Sodini Virgins.

It was understandably very challenging for White-Knighters to depedestalize women and think of women as Replaceable exactly because the men thought: "Waitaminnit. I'M not replaceable! I'M A one-of-a-kind Unique Snowflake!" Because they absolutely were. There was no other person on earth as uniquely awesome and valuable As You, Brother Man. And if men and women were separate-but-equal - not even The Same, but Of Equal Human Value, and even Misog PUA's should be able to agree with that - then if MEN were Obviously Irreplaceable, then WOMEN should be Obviously Irreplaceable too, right? NOPE. SRSLYSRY. LOGIC FAIL.

Who was gonna write a good book on Sodini already? Talk to Sodini's Parents and Family which he'd discussed less-than-flatteringly. Talk to the Last WOMAN Sodini had Banged so long ago in the 80s. Really dig deep with all of them. BKC wanted to read that book / see THAT documentary movie. It had been a long time since BKC saw a good doc. He liked a good, long, in-depth doc. He really needed to watch all 12 hours of "SHOAH" or "The Sorrow And The Pity", but he wasn't particulary in a Nazi mood. And it was even damn harder to find docs on Really Sibhody topics Wot Interested him. Here was a Job for BKC. STAND AND DELIVER!!

Could you get a 6 months netflix plan? BKC was Really, really close.

Osama Bin Laden Dead. It didn't take BKC too long to think, Man, The guy responsible for the Kill Shot is gonna get SO MUCH Tail. Still, Bitches were "In League" with Bin Laden the way they were/weren't really in league with anything, which is why Bitches Be Politically Correct Liberal Socialists, Yet they Tingle for Men who say Politically Incorrect Things (but not Blatantly Racist, Angry, Hateful Things, of course, because those would be CREEPY.)

Archimedes Moment: Niceguy Manginas were Nice to Women because THAT was the way they wanted Women to Act towards THEM: Nice. This was a COMPLETELY legitimate want - All Men, Alpha or Omega, wanted women to act nice and pleasant, not bitchy and sarcastic and crayzay and hypocritical and lying and duplicitous and evil and promiscuous, towards them. Be a nice, deferential, sweet, good-natured, kind, pleasant, old-school woman. Every man, alpha or omega, prefers Women that are like this. Where Niceguys fail is that they need to Be An Old-School Man (Alpha) to elicit that positive behaviour from Women. BKC was just explaining their Niceguy Behaviour. Yes, in an ideal world, everyone WOULD be Nice to each other, and the GOLDEN RULE WOULD WORK. But In The Real World, it rarely did.

BKC went to the funeral home for the viewing of a friend's Grandmother (BKC REALLY SHOULD have gone to the viewing for his high-school classmate who'd died last month), and after kneeling reverently-but-anxiously before the body and being grimly reminded of The Inevitability Of Death and This Is What We All Eventually Become and You Only Get One Life and you Better Not Have Any Regrets and Don't Watch From The Sidelines and First It's Your Grandparents Then It's Your Parents Then it's YOU In That Box In Only 40 More Short Years Looking Like A Wax Doll etc, he was faced with so many extremely awkward exchanges it Ultimately Became Hilarious. It made BKC more Confident: Yeah, I can handle a Total Nonstop Shitstorm of REALLY Awkward Convos! Is that all ya got? GIMME MORE!

Awkward in the sense that the convos made it obvious to both BKC and his intrepid soon-to-be-embarrassed conversator that BKC was nothing but a The Biggest Omegaass LAZY LOSER. There were some Religious Brothers from his High School there, which was really the first time BKC had Bumped-Into anyone associated with that school's administration since he Graduated Eleven Years Ago. (BKC was NOT the type who Went Back for Visits After Graduation.) BKC had been at the Top of His Class and many others in that Top Tier of his class had become Successful Bigboy College Grads: Attorneys, Doctors, BhD's, Professionals, Married to Good Christian Women, Children, etc. BKC successfully dodged any questions about himself. He made polite and pleasant small-talk with the Monks, a bit anxious about any Personal Questions, but since The Adults were talking about The Deceased, BKC was more-or-less safe. BKC had nothing but the greatest of respect for these Catholic Monks Committed to The Lord and Quality Education like these men were (he felt differently while he was actually a student there). He didn't get any really awkward questions until he was in the parking lot leaving when the Monk asked him about BKC's Career, which wasn't an invalid question, and BKC just chuckled nervously, gave the name of his employing organization (but didn't say what he did; his employer employed people of ALL DIFFERENT skill levels and education and pay etc) and honestly said, "That's actually a little bit of a Difficult Conversation, Brother", and BKC promised he would Stay In Touch with the Brothers and Drop By for a Visit Some Day. It was easier for him to lie through his teeth about THAT, than to fabricate a Much Bigger Lie about his Successful Career.

BKC bumped into a guy maybe only one or two years older than him who was a Successful CPA/Accountant/Financial Analyst etc. Real Nice Guy, just a Good Decent Guy, believe it or not, but he and BKC, despite being close in age, were in Polar Opposite stages of life. BKC had been a Drunk, Lazy Loser for most of his Twenties, and this guy went to school for something Smart, probably did a couple Quality Internships, and was justly rewarded for his Hard Work with a Smart Bigboy Career, gotten Married to a Nice Teacher-Woman, and now they were Happy Homeowners and would certainly have a Child within 5 years. Even though Going Away To College had been THE Single Biggest Mistake of BKC's life, his Pride couldn't keep him from mentioning that he Did have a Degree, as if that would explain both that BKC was SMART and that he hadn't been COMPLETELY wasting his Twenties With No Education (although he really should have been considering he'd Wasted His Twenties and his Longsuffering Family's Resources anyway) and that BKC was just having a Tuff Time with the Mancession right now, so he was Back In School Learning Techie Stuff and Getting Ready to Do an MBA With Special Emphasis In Business Information Systems. Hmm. If BKC had these conversations all the time, and not just once every couple of years at funerals, he would get much better at them, and might even be able to fool himself and Fake It Till He Makes It. BKC SCREAMED with Maniacal Laughter as he got into the privacy of the car and drove home. He went to bed at 7pm while the sun was still out. Yes, he was a Man With Options, the World Was His Oyster, he had His Choice of Thirty Bitches he could Bang right NOW, including OldBitch Uppen Zee Arsch, but he'd decided the Best Option was for him to Look Out For The Greatest and try to get 10 Hours of Sleep before getting up at 5:20am and trying to have an Honest Bigboy Day tomorrow (he had a lot of homework to do, AND he was going to try to be Alpha As Fuck to OldSlurpenBurper).

The Kind and Degree of Evil All Women were Capable of Boggled the Mind and the Soul, and it was no surprise that in more enlightened times, Bitches were accused of Witchcraft and being Nothing Less than The Whores of Satan Himself, doing his evil bidding, unleashing Pure Hell On Earth. Women had Slept With their Coworkers and Bosses and had Raised Hell At Work until somebody quit or was fired (hint: usually not the woman!) They had Slept with a Man then Slept With His Best Friends Right After, Annihilating Men's Soul-Nourishing Platonic Male Friendship in the Worst, Shittiest, Evilest Possible Way. They had made Brother Slay Brother. They had moved-in with a guy, Dumped Him, THEN CONTINUED to live with him AND derive Perverse PLEASURE from Banging a String of Alphas just so they could listen to their Beta Ex Cry and Wail and Moan at night in the room next door, and he would get Blacklistedly Fired from his Jobb due to Cripplingly-Depressed Underperformance, move back into his Parents' Basement, where his Dear Parents would find their Dear Beta Loser Son Swinging from the Rafters at what he was too Crazy to see was actually the Prime of his Life. Bone-and-Soul-Chilling Horror and Evil. Women Were Worse Pieces Of Shit than You could EVER IMAGINE. This is what even Different-Seeming Women like OldBitch were Capable Of, Until Proven Otherwise. Thank Feminism! THANK it!

Fyou-you-you-Auschk.

It did NOT behoove you to Trust women or give them the benefit of the doubt because then you'd be more likely to get Burned than to Not get Burned. That wasn't Cynical. That was RATIONAL: You play the odds. If odds are (possible range of 60% to 80%, but def well over 50/50 win/lose, which was all that mattered) the Woman Is Evil, then you don't Fucking Trust her. BKC had gotten Nowhere trusting women.

The Lesson Learned is: Guilty Until Proven Innocent. This was not to say All Women Could Never Be Trusted. Nope. 1% to as much as 40% COULD be trusted. They just had to PROVE and EARN that trust.

Men, in starkest contrast, were, on the average, MUCH more trustworthy.

Yet, Young Women still had something You wanted, and they had nearly impregnable Anti-Slut and Anti-Anger and Anti-Creeper and Anti-Niceguy and Anti-BETA defenses. You couldn't 100% treat them like The Evil Pigs 60%-80% of them Were (BKC should just round to 70% already, that would be Less Misogynistic) and expect to Get What You Wanted. You had to Play The GAME. But this was not a Fun Game. It was much more fun to play xbox 30 hours a day.

BKC's New Gameplan for Success was to Not take Naps, have Biggerboy Days of Productivity, and his reward would be to go to bed at 7pm. Seven. Sun out, he could easily go for a Brisk Jog or The Movies or Hanging-Out or Banging or best of all, Jobsearching, but he was going to go to BED. Watch a crappyass TV show or movie; OR get a full 9 to 10 hours of sleep and STILL get up at his normal time of 5:21am? The choice was obvious. (Although he SHOULD do more Brisk Jogs and Jobsearch, Natch. But, now that the weather was Much Nicer, he might start getting up to do Brisk Jogs at like 5 am. Every. Single. Day. Bang Promiscu6's.)

BKC was slightly shaken (and he needed to be Shaken) by the Awkward Career Questions the other day, and disappointed that All Women could not live up to his Pedestalized Portrait Of Purity, and Nervous about trying to be Alpha As Fuck to OldBitch Today, that he wondered if he should even try to invite her today at all, that he might not be "coming from the right place" and his game would be off. This was the Beta Niceguy "Angel" on his Shoulder.

The Pedestal was the problem, NOT OldBitch. The Pedestal was the enemy. And BKC was a Problem Solver. He could SOLVE a Damn PROBLEM! Even Beta Men could SOLVE PROBLEMS, ALL Men could Solve Problems; that's something All Men were BORN with; that was even more a mark of a man than his DANGLER!

This problem could be solved by Always Being Alpha and not Treating her like he put the pussy on a pedestal. By Pushing The Best He Could and MAKING her UNEQUIVOCALLY Reject or Accept him. The End.

It was kinda ironic that BKC was an Introvert AND Short; because Short Guys needed to SufficeCompensate for their Shortness by being a Charismatic Extravert. And this way a Short Extravert might hope to do 70% as well as a Tall Introvert.

BKC had taken the BKC Family Computer to its seller, Best Buy, for a Warrantied Geek Squad inspection. It didn't sound like they would Fix The Problem, which was 70% odds of being an Insufficient Graphics Card. Not a Defective Graphics card, but an INSUFFICIENT one, to play Runescape and the little cutesy puzzle games BKC's Longsuffering Dear Old Saint Mother played to alleviate the disappointment of A Lazy Loser For A Son. It was shocking that a brand-spanking-new computer with a light-speed processor did not have a sufficient video card to play Cutesy Puzzle Games without crashing. The big mistake was getting the Integrated Graphics Card. BKC figured that would be ok for Everyday Small-Stakes Gamers, as long as you weren't playing The Absolutely Newest, Biggest Games. Wrong.

BKC loved Graphs. Especially Graphs for his S'ual Satisfaction Over His Lifetime, and Men's and Women's Mate Value Over Their Lifetimes.

BKC sat in the Computer Lab and Cranked-Through his Networking Labsims Exams. It was stupid. The quickest way to do it was to immediately score the exam, get 0%, then print out All Questions with correct answers, then go back and copy the correct answers in. It was "time-consuming" because there were a lot of Exams (maybe about 40 to 50 BKC had to do) and a lot of printing and you weren't really Learning anything if you procrastinated and wanted to take the Shortcut like BKC always did. But he was productive and then laid down at SEVEN PM to go to BED. Because BKC was a Raging Thinker, he didn't actually get to sleep til around 9pm. But still he got enough sleep to get up at 5:21am and have an Unnapping, Bigboy Productive Day. He'd decided not to invite OldSlurpenBurper today simply because he was Too Busy this week, and during his small talk, he gave the impression that he was SUPER Busy and couldn't Stay and Chat (It was his Busiest Week Of The Year). Not like she hadn't done the same before.

BKC wanted to announce that for quite a while he'd wanted to announce that he really wanted to bang the Tall Goth Girl from NCIS. Her name was Pauley Perrette and she was 42 (!!!!!) years old. BKC did not like her gay, promiscuous tattoos or her liberal politics. Typical Female Bullshit. But he would still Manergetically Bang her 42-year-old Tall Ass.

In The USSA, there was current a crisis where Males had Lower Self-Esteem than they realized, and Females had Higher Self-Esteem than they realized, and the MSM might be inclined to proclaim that Males have Higher Self-Esteem than Females. BKC suspected Men might actually have Lower Self-Esteem than Females, but didn't know it, and would never want to admit it, for Obvious Reasons.

It was such a fucking weakass cop-out for Women to say to men "MAN UP and get a bigboy job!" because it was AT LEAST 5x EASIER for Women to get a Bigboy Job than men. This was BKC's latest Politically-Incorrect Cause, like saying that because of the reverse-racism of Affirmative Action, Whites were unfairly losing jobs to Blacks. BKC wasn't going to comment on that one. He thought the Man/Woman issue was a much better battle to fight.

BKC tried to make a Top Ten list of The Women He Respected The Most. (NOT the women he wanted to Bang the most; there was very little, if any, intersection here, tellingly.) Well, Mother Teresa would have to be #1. Judge Judy definitely. Kathryn Jean Lopez from The National Review maybe? Susan Walsh maybe. Grerp Definitely. BKC should like Sarah Palin but he really didn't. He was even lukewarm on Ann Coulter. He liked the Mom from Everybody Loves Raymond / The Middle (Patricia Heaton) because she was a good Christian Conservative Woman. (BKC was now officially comfortable with being labeled "AN ULTRA-CONSERVATIVE.") But most of the women on his list were probably just everyday mid-40s women who lived lives of quiet dignity, being good, honest, decent, ethical, moral, well-behaved Wives and Mothers. BKC loved women who were over 40 Right Now. It was just the Young Women Of Today At Whom he hurled the "Just Wait Till You're 40" Ageist Epithet. These women wouldn't be so respectable when they were 40.

BKC could make it through the day a LOT, LOT easier without a Nap if he just kept reminding himself he was going to BED at SEVEN PM. BKC liked being this kind of Hardcore.

Also, Never Forget that you have the OPTION of Banging Any or All of 30 Young 7-or-aboves, you just CHOOSE to go to bed at 7 because that option clearly gives the best ROI for YOU.

BKC wanted to Publicly Laud the Real-Life Blogger who was posting quite regularly again after a long hiatus. His latest was an In-Depth, Compelling discussion of the NFL Draft re the local football team. BKC LOVED seeing stuff like this, even though he didn't know or care DICK about Football. He did care a lot about Men Writing Good Stuff on Stuff They Liked Writing About. There could never be too much of this.

Compared to Mid Twenties "Successful" Women trying to fool themselves and the world that Pretending They Were the Sarcastic Cutesy Twee Hipster Lollercaust TWITTER of Pink or Zooey D or Katy Perry's Chihauhau or Kat von D or Dita von Teese or Ellen Page or the girl from Crystal CASTLES or Miranda JULY or Natalie PORTMAN could pass for Compelling Fucking Writing. FUCK THAT Retarded, Shameful Bullshit.

As a fan of Norse Mythology, BKC was moderately interested in the new movie "THOR". He had no idea Natalie Herschlag or Anthony Hopkins were innit, or that Kenneth Branagh was directing. (He was more interested in Norse Mythology than Superhero Comics.) But as far as Superhero Comic Action Blockbusters went, Thor looked moderately promising. Not as interesting as the usual Sexonomics Sibhod Fodder BKC would never stop talking about, though. It was His Obsession.

Although BKC wanted to point out what a Forgotten Classic "Hot Shots" was. Absolutely should not be seen as the "Red Headed Stepchild" of Airplane and Naked Gun. Or perhaps BKC really really liked and was biased in favour of when Cary Elwes told Charlie Sheen, "I'm gonna tear you apart like Christmas Goose". Or when Sheen first entered the barracks and Elwes was arrogantly unimpressed, casually returning to reading the Esquire magazine ("World's Best-Dressed Airmen") that had HIS OWN FACE on the cover. This was the kind of Classic Comedy that just COULDN'T be made anymore, unfortunately. BKC hoped the recent Brouhaha over Sheen would cause this movie to be Brought Back, because it was All Good, Sheen included. He was at his Strikingly Handsome Alpha Finest.

Even though a Man Dying of Starvation in a Dungeon would eat a Bowl of Faeces, he would probably only eat it ONCE, he wouldn't LIKE it, and he wouldn't suddenly FORGET the taste of a nice juicy STEAK. It would still taste like the Shit it was.

A analogy could be made for the Sex-Starved Man vis-a-vis Women.

BKC had trouble making the same analogy vis-a-vis Jobs. Too many times he was so Grateful for his low-stress Littleboy Job that he often Forgot that he Was Worth More Than This, and he should be Working Hard to Earn What He Deserved.

Interesting, because Jobs were a Necessity, Like Food, unlike Women, (see last post) so it was weird that Women could be compared to Food but Food could not be compared to Jobs. Hmmm. Okay that's a Red Herring don't get too confused by that. Maybe the point was, in his Lazy Loser Spoiled Bourgeois Lap of Luxury World, BKC's Job was somehow not more necessary than Food.

On Wed May 4, BKC wanted to extend Official Birthday Well-wishes to an "old" Zen-Buddhistish Friend who was hopefully doing well, but if he wasn't, BKC wished nothing but The Lord's Best upon Him. It was Tuff Times especially for Zen Buddhists and BKC wasn't sure what the Career Outlook on Monk Jobs was. Didn't they usually have a pretty Cadillac Benefit Plan? (BKC was only teasing in the most empathetic possible way, as BKC had a less-than-Yugo Benefit Plan himself.) Anyway this guy was an alpha classic: smart, hard-working, Chill, Very Ethical. This was the perfect marriageable alpha man under Marriage 1.0. He deserved The Greatest in Everything. BKC wasn't sure if he was a Reader, although BKC had tried to shamelessly push the Sibhod on him in emails. Hopefully he used a Feed Reader! Also BKC could probably start a pretty good Business with this guy. Just something to put in the back of the mind and let simmer. Meditation. SELL The Buddha at a tidy profit.

On Thurs May 5, which the Decadent White World called "Cinco De Mayo", BKC extended Official Birthday Greetings to a Local Man who BKC should probably see more of. He was also very smart and ethical and a good writer and a hard worker and deserved The Greatest and should accept nothing less than The Greatest from Jobs and Bitches. BKC knew this guy was busy with an exciting and positive Career Transition, and BKC hoped that was going smoothly and stresslessly, but that he could still probably take 5 MINUTES a week and Crank-Out a new Blog Post; it would be immeasurably greater than having to read Bitch-Twitters. Next time BKC saw him he would be sure to buy him a JAMESONS. This Guy also had reached a Scary Age where you really can't "Celebrate" your Birthday anymore, but BKC hoped he gave it a go regardless, because in not-too-long, We're All Gonna Be Just Dirt In The Ground. (Also this guy had a Strong Business Sense and BKC wouldn't mind starting a Business with him either.)

Like BKC had said many times before, the Sibhod was his vehicle for SELFISHLY PROVING to the world that he could reliably remember people's birthdays. Because he wrote them down in his gaygle calendar.

As a rule, he did not do Sibhod Birthday Wishes to WOMEN, because they got Enough Attention Anyway, and he did not want to come-off as SUPPLICATING.

In "Salo: The 120 Days of Sodom", one of the Slave-Girls presented her Young Full Breasts to an Old "Pervert" who uttered the classic line of "Splendid! Tits To Revive A Dying Man!" or something to that effect. BKC felt like that sometimes, only without the Teen Tits in his Face. Everybody should see that movie already.

When BKC got the Family Computer back from the Geek Squad, after probably shelling out x bucks for a Sufficient Graphics Card to play Cutesy Little Kid Games (Chrissake; BKC had been fooled because it was called an "HD" Graphics card and designed to be able to play HD video; but apparently it couldn't play very LD GAMES. Fucking Jews), he was going to install Linux UBUNTU just to Play Around With It and put on his resume that he was Proficient in a Linux Environment. Basically BKC thought this way about Everything: How can this Improve My Resume. Not a Bad Way To Think.

Linus Torvalds, Inventor Of Linux, was a Finnish Citizen of Swedish Descent. A Swedish-Speaking Finn. He probably spoke Finnish in addition to Swedish and English. He had married a Finn who, as his student, sent him a "test email" asking Him out on a date. Now they had 3 children.

Probation Chief Hosed

BKC was shocked to read his local paper and discover that the chief of the probation dep't where BKC had served his own probation was fired from his job following two misdemeanor charges: using the state Law Enforcement Information Network for unauthorized purposes, and stalking a female employee of the court. BKC's main experience with the guy was when BKC went for a saturday-morning Alcohol Education Class. He got a good vibe from the guy. He did NOT get such a good vibe from the other (female) probation officers. The guy was BKC's favourite person in that court. Down to earth and reasonable and courteous. Apparently he had been Banging a female employee. The paper didn't say what her position or her name was, Obviously, but in BKC's mind, it was one of the rather "Hamstery" Female ProbOfficers. The paper did say She Dumped Him and started dating a Police Officer. The Male Probation Director took it pretty badly and used the Info System Illegally to determine the name of the Police Officer. BKC wasn't sure if there was any other "stalking" going on or if this WAS the "stalking." Then he checked into a Psych Ward. Jesus Christ. In BKC's Mind, a Narcissy Hamster had Ruined The Life of a Good Man whose only crime was being Less Alpha than a Big Tough Beat Cop. Those Women were not worth losing one's job or going to the PSYCH WARD over. He got RAPED. BKC "liked" to think that it was his own actual ProbOff who dumped the ProbChief for the Officer who had Arrested BKC. BKC was trying not to give too many details here because he did not want to get arrested again. But he was Off Probation now and this was Public Information in the Public Domain. BKC just was giving Gossip on the seeming personalities of some of the people involved.

BKC had become fully aware too late of Google's Web History Service. To his horror, he was able to see all his searches back to 2006. Five Years of BKC's Searches and who knows what else. BKC had been suspicious of Google for a while, and now it was clear that his Goose was Fully Cooked. So he was going to have some Fun and Now, on the Sibhod, Tell the Story of the past 5 Years through some Choice Google Searches. This might take a few posts. Or not. BKC urged others to look at their own Web Histories.

https://www.google.com/history/

Q12006: tom waits chords. pyschiatric hospital mental health jobs. phlebotomy. the name of his x-Nemesis2005, including plausible misspellings. city websites for local cities. (jobsearch). st johns wort. images for "sadness". us state department. the office free love freeway. i hate myself and want to die. butts. butt cleavage. cost of living index. local hospitals. TESOL certificate. government shit taco shit beer shit shit happens crippler shit. types of shit. train fare europe. median income census data. bill watterson. searching Nemesis2005 eastern-state hometown to try to find name of step-father. killer coke union. searching nemesis05's mother. image search for nemesis. frog and toad are friends bang head wall. improve sales skills. internships psychology. drug testing hair. bob dylan chords. leonard cohen. apathy is the glove. search nemesis's Plausible email addresses and usernames. search a bastardization of his nemesis's name that led to a link to his Semi-Serious Blog 2005, which he should post as a proto-sibhod. shitty person. mr hankey, mrs hankey. krohm. the shit list. pile of shit. shit happens. shitman. nemesis, nemesis's mother. ignatius reilly. loenard cohen. mulholland dr. sample cover letter. name of obsession infatuation girl 2005 (need to come up with anonymous nickname. Marxprude.) italian mangia. balls. jabber jaws. nation of islam slogan. glen garry glen ross alec baldwin brass balls. oinks pink palace. cruise control fuel efficiency. darkthrone ferdasyn. alabama fire hose blacks.

Q2,2006: nemesis's x/current boyfriends name. people he went to bourge college with. AND their parents. up from sloth. i am a human hamburger. dimunitive form russian names. nemesis. black metal radio. dickie cricketts mr show megaphone crooners. hitler mr nice guy. gentile jokes. van hammersley odenkirk. holocaust. nemesis. krump kings. really not enough jobsearching. Unless he was doing that while signed-out of google.

Q3,2006: some weird searches he didn't remember. he may have been hacked. goya this is what you were born for. country most sweatshops. nemesis. dating advice. counting crows chords. name of this infatuation girl from chicago: Catholic, Chaste, Law School. he might have just first met her then. tiny dogs. torture. shoulder lean. anna faris. nemesis. There was way too much nemesis and not enough Job Search! i hate women. i hate everything. list of dogma 95 films. colleges third tier fourth tier. nemesis, her father. psych phd programs. klaus kinski. ukrainian surnames. polish surnames. nemesis's full name with middle name. depression laziness. can't get a date. laguna beach cameron. famous suicide notes. auschwitz photos. depression internships. dominique swain. tom waits photos. jewish geography. cankles. sad bastard. charles bukowski jewish cemetery. woyzeck knife stab wife.

q4,2006(oct-dec). stuff related to his Union Activist (!!!) internship. Npr internship (!!!) shane macgowan. kafka disease of the senses. nick cave chords. nietzsche abyss gaze. katatonia discouraged ones. limn. house centipede. office david brent higher ground. agnostic appeasement of thanatos. poland anti semitism. nemesis. skell. kafka milena love. nodtveidt suicide. anti cosmic. misanthropic luciferian order. nemesis. chicago infatuation. stagger lee. kyckling. leonard cohen tour. dateline predator. invictus. alcohol content olde english 800.

q1, 2007: misogyny weininger. nemesis. phil collins american psycho. obsession. fixation. this is why i'm hot. rotting christ triarchy review. skull for a bowl. nemesis. xasthur. exorcist rotten earth. wild at heart bobby peru. seth putnam coma. euronymous cave photo. excellent communication skills. fat bottom girls tab. celibacy. abstinence. haunted places. nihilism. david d burns md. crippling depression cartoon. chicago infat. stone cold steve austin drinking beer. erebus webzine. hr giger penis landscape. larry elder.

q2 (apr thru june) 2007: ugly fat women. obsessional love. nemesis. fustigliani brothers. cho richard mcbeef. mercy seat chords. inland empire face. one more man gone. nemesis. universities in chicago. mulholland drive pilot. family guy brian diarrhea soup. bum squatting. sorskogen. how to become a trappist monk. teodor skjellum norway. albanian jokes. indoctrination u. job search depression. bukowski greatest loser get rich on a dime. college girl he wanted to bang ("Brow Ridge"). jew jokes. free ham. another college girl ("plain jane."). craft death to planet earth. kessler whiskey. kids in the hall don't tease nusing home dancing girls. karl heinrich bukovski. hurricane chris. days since counter. timothy leary. unc chapel hill. nemesis. marxprude. fulbright. jobs for infp. maja thurup. a bay bay lyrics. yog sothoth. new mexico state university. chicago girl.

q3 2007 (july thru sept): romantic relationships college years. chicago theological seminary. tarkovsky the mirror. [BKC's city] blogger. arnett suffering selfish slackers. calvin and hobbes sneer. cyrillic alphabet. lindsay lohan crotch. a bunch emerging adulthood psych articles. nemesis. the cure katatonia. true love revolution harvard. robert smith young. misogyny unlimited. sick sheass hideous tapeworm. BKC's name. chicago girl. library science graduate students forum. mystery pickup artist. depression forum. the address of The House where BKC often got raging drunk and passed out on the floor. baumeister men women. face extreme burned reconstructed. obituary live 2007 (BKC was starting up the sibhod around now.) foucault panopticon. monkey ball gongon fall out. seul contre tous soundtrack. social class pyramid. social construction of gender. black metal song title generator. bukowski loose gray wings. calorie burning walking. (this is where BKC started walking 12 miles a day and lost a lot of weight. going to the library to "job search.") suburban malaise. wedding gift etiquette. dvorak bagatelles.

q4 2007: exorcist III nurse corridor scene. first appearance of pre-nemesis-nemesis's name followed by "naked" (call her "STD", this was BKC's infamous "may-december" thing, she was a cute slutty jew and had gotten married in late 2010). man who thinks most women are sluts. boys who do not know how to hug girls. bergman glass darkly banal vulgar effort. how to win at darts. jurgen habermas. bukowski diapers. bukowski flattened by trivialities. 25 year old virgin never had a girlfriend. (note: many of these did NOT represent BKC personally; he just did "Beta's-eye-view" of the world once in a while, since before he wrote about Betas on the Sibhod, he often wrote Stories about Betas and full-blown Omegas; They were damned INTERESTING Characters!) bukowski trapped by a singular fate. rape sexual abuse statistics. pulse kairo black wall. catharine mackinnon blog. andrea dworkin. calvin and hobbes bourgeois buffoon. calvin and hobbes sinister icy black hand of death. raunch culture. hegemony gramsci 1971. chopin funeral march guitar tab. proceed to entangle entire area. involuntary celibacy. crystal castles alice. steel reserve. rainbow party oral sex teenagers. gayle rubin temple of butthole. baltika 9 lager. destroyer 666 white supremacist. hate everything and everyone stupid idiots. max hardcore paul little. american apartheid. manichean ethics. drug testing passing time limit. unrequited love. gender role socialization. lonely single men. best klezmer albums bands. philippe nahon. student 1968 tanks china. white castle calories. 88 nazi. name of old friend who was getting a phd in chemistry. journal of adolescent research. man only attracted to very few women. adolescent sexual relationships. reason for leaving job application advice. men too choosy with sexual partners. python meaning of life organ donor. how to have good sex when you have not had sex in a long time. depression alcohol. kozelek pronounce. nervous first time having sex in years. dr dre fuck yall blow me. how to get into a good masters library science program. how to get over a crush. christmas is gay. accountant education job market salary. jobs for infp personality. easiest masters degree to get. peter vella. ass tramp stamp. geoducks spawning. crush on a girl do i tell her. this is what i do i sit on you. geoducks ejaculate.

BKC was shocked at how Boring his searches were. And also that his Nemesis's Name was THE #1 Search Of All Time on BKC's list. A variant of that name was #2. BKC wanted to also point out that 90% of his job search was being handled by Job Websites and NOT google: indeed, careerbuilder, monster, etc, so it wasn't too surprising that there was not much job-related stuff. Also, BKC expected the searches to get more interesting now that he had entered his Sibhod period and was probably logging on to Gmail/Google more. History didn't save your searches unless you were logged on. BKC just wanted to Tell The Story and then Delete All His damn History.

First Movie Review In Forever: THE ORPANAGE / El Orfanato

Final Grade: C+

Exec Produced but not written or directed by Guillermo Del Toro. BKC had actually read online recommendations of this movie. It wasn't that great, but it wasn't horrible. BKC promised he wouldn't fast-forward until at LEAST 50% through the movie, and, to the movie's credit, it didn't start jumping the shark until after that halfway point.

Probably when she first loses her son right in the middle of act 2. You start to realize how hammy the writing is. Act 3 is by turns compelling and stupid and BKC shaved off a few minutes here and there. Pros: BKC had seen much, much worse; good look and feel to most of the movie; some effective scares; a couple of great disturbing faces; the director showed potential. Cons: Just not good enough.

BKC had stopped by the PubLib and decided to rent some movies. He promised to start fast-forwarding the second they jumped the shark. His time was valuable, and was much better used for Sleep than for Boring Scenes of Movies. A movie could be OK and still have boring scenes - BKC just wasn't gonna watch them. Even though Orphanage wasn't Great and BKC fast-forwarded some (pry only no more than 5%), he couldn't say it was Horrible Either. Less Discriminating Viewers could possibly like it a lot more.

q1 2008 jan - march: pick slide vs pick scape. bang the head that doesnt bang. hotter than white hot. gallo buffalo 66 girls stink. no business like shoah business attribute. beef curtains. racist in the year 3000 argos checkmate. gay hasidic jews. jewish drag queens. monism. kyke. red house painters tab. existential depression. how to explain gaps in employment. fastest growing careers in america. counseling MA. network administration. doctor of divinity. duk koo kim tab. israeli military. english to russian translator. how to have good sex. fastest growing jobs. i have no ambition. starting wage bank teller. jew cartoon. poop pants. fartin gary. who farted. screaming gibbon. far side big bird shot. anne frank funny captions. americas top places to work. the castrating zionist. prokofiev woody allen love and death. box truck. examples of great customer service. get over a crush. bread and roses strike. haymarket riot. labor union solidarity. wobblies. cesar chavez. condoms hpv protection. canadian hunter. alcohol blackouts. hate speech faggot used neutrally. dream meanings chase. balinese thrash metal. serenity prayer for atheists. tough interview questions employment gaps. interview questions at walgreens. BKC's own gmail address for the first time here. bukowski insert penis rump four year old daughter screaming. nemesis's name. american nazi party. america's whitest city. anal revolution. white singers black people like. drunk driving. for he is risen. russian jews brighton beach. prussian blue hitler smiley. rich and rare canadian whisky. private investigator school. bum wine. md 20 20. grandmas boy steel reserve.

q2 2008 april thru june inclusive: unexplained deaths in outer space. at the gates us tour. caspar david friedrich monk by the sea. class struggle. purcell funeral queen mary tab. the thieving magpie. alcohol and depression. skepticism aes review. alcoholism textbook. how to quit drinking alcohol. help reducing drinking alcohol. percent jewish population skokie IL. bunch of people he went to high school with. sass sandwich phil hartman. gustav mahler frere jacques. neuroscience journal. unitarian universalist church in area. leaving las vegas soundtrack. go to sleep now and dream of the things you want. beth gibbons funny time of year tab. iommi fingers. a very cute short-haired "lesbian" he used to work with. anger management techniques. the zen buddhist friend mentioned way above. hairy russian girl. jew big nose. anti semitic propaganda. social anxiety forum. incel. finnish phrases. tar baby. mandingo. psilocybin. DXM robotrip. skepticism kaear. candlemass. walmart picture me portrait studios interview. kobenhavn. yucateco habanero. down III anselmo. steel reserve calories. good questions to ask interviewer. mayhem black hearts. development psychology stages adolescence intimacy. assy mcgee. welcome dollhouse get raped. magnolia electric co tour 2008. three hots and a cot. solondz storytelling nigger fuck me hard. mark kozelek tour 2008. nigger bath. university of chicago americorps vista. vikernes euronymous kebab. mayhem funeral fog tab. pure fucking armageddon. we are his sisters and his cousins and his aunts. in the woods generally more worried than married. yog sothoth congeries of bubbles. things i hate. exorcist captain howdy. library bibliographic tools. leviathan massive conspiracy torrent. jewish woman. 4chan. pitchfork top songs 2007 twilight sad. caid raid. anger alienation hatred misanthropy. judas iscariot andrew harris northern illinois university. robocop ed 209 direct violation. daniel planview. lost highway mystery man. some graphic novels. everlasting torment vs annihilation of the wicked. plasma donating centers. how to stop hating everything. craig thompson blankets. burzum han som reiste tab. black metal drum machine. ntrack studio lag. name of the guy who reamed BKC re him trying to get an americorps job at u of chicago. proust temps perdu graphic novel. simple recording software that doesn't lag. krohm crown of the ancients. depression unemployment anger. bukowski open all night senseless faces watching. hot dog water. bechdel fun home.

q3 2008 (july thru sept) : thai drunken noodle. act your wage. interview questions for english teachers in korea. george clinton p funk concert. cheap eyeglasses. most relaxing classic music in the universe. judas iscariot corpses bleeding rar. alcohol social anxiety. quarterlife crisis. how to quit drinking. flirting guide to. langoliers. immortal technique interview. MarxPrude. jobs for people with social anxiety. female gremlin. in the woods caledonian hall rar. haxor. conversation techniques. chicagogirl. xanax. bechdel dykes. sex traction aunts. inhibited sexual desire. it leaked. eyes wide shut soundtrack. emily osment. emma watson. theodicy. misogyny hating women. afc oneitis pedestal. ac hitler sensitive man. sigur ros tour. libido. heartless bitches internation red flag list. naglfar tour. involuntary celibacy. best palindromes. data entry jobs. manufacturing co he had an interview at for a desk job. vicky cristina barcelona showtimes. when you think everything is stupid and boring. thromdarr 2008 promo rar. STD-girl. incantation diabolical conquest rar. post office jobs. charles bukowski ignuus. first appearance of a a girl's name who he prob had a crush on near this time. (CrushSlut we'll call her. She will appear more.) chicken broth risotto. make mp3s into youtube videos. ignis fatuus. joe biden abortions. zizek enjoy your chinos. friend's grandfather funeral. goatse. duchenne smile. male tramp stamp. depression case studies. croatian dance club. university of edinburgh. unsatisfied libido. racist fha hud. good young adult books. nunslaughter. jobs for people who suck at life. malacological convention. drunk puke balcony. lizards of satan. jew bwa ha ha gif. chuck berry. bongzilla. melancholy munch. market research consumer panel. electric wizard dopethrone. how to become a counselor. kurt weill cannon song. gomer pyle full metal jacket. gene clean billy ray cyrus mulholland drive. other peoples lives diminish me bukowski. i beat anoerexia jpg. subjective units of discomfort. tacos inalambricos. why choose abstinence. quit drinking. aa 12 step. freud libido. goatwhore serenades tides blood rar. freud christ. how to pass a unicru test. bonnie prince billy. dumb woman smart man. drunk facebook girls. williamsburg hipster girl. ved buens ende written in waters rar. unicru always cheerful. what did you like least about this position. how to answer unicru. new ipod commercial song. flanders spandex. the obscene kiss satan woodcut.

q4 2008 oct thru dec: bryce dallas howard. adam baldwin ordinary people. albania. lars von trier suspenders. thank you letter interview. cannibal holocaust turtle. name of person he interviewed with at a bancard company. tom waits whistle down the wind. bukowski sail it up your ass. long panama palindromes. starting wage caribou coffee. girl quotes myspace. make amends. relationships journal. pitchfork twilight xasthur. mystery pick up artist. famous people with bkc's birthday. little shop of horrors audrey II. david galas cataclysm. ellen muth. depression cognitive therapy online internet. michelle obama whitey. crotch chop animated gif. stellan skarsgard. bristol stool chart. liars paradox. mournful congregation. freud love word. Crushslut. Nemesis. name of the person he interviewed with at his Current Job. trial of the bow rite of passage. bukowski heres a cock. troll toll boys hole. gottman ratio relationships positive interactions. chloe sevigny blackface. what happens when you haven't had sex in years. dancer in the dark final scene. bukowski groaning on pot. stupid flyers brooklyn indie. waynes world this man has no penis. crushslut. showers that cleanse you of your life. photoshop face swap. american women suck. the aristocrats nigger cunts. kristen stewart scandal. i wanna lick you up and down till you say stop lyrics. bag of dicks. normal sexual behavior kinsey. how to call a girl. gary oldman hannibal. saoirse ronan. bird mask. the gates of hell. female masturbation euphemism. gena rowlands woman influence. kat dennings. how to make business cards. searching a shitload of people at his New Place of Littleboy Employment! faygo grape. mary daly axe. really stupid one liners. the woman with giant legs.

q1 2009 jan thru mar: julianna tlc face. how to tell when a girl is interested in you. name of a person in the Counseling MA prog he actually talked to. first appearance of OldSlurpenBurper's name, plus the high school she went to. best super nintendo games. ad hominem. straw man examples. pennywise the clown. young tom waits. joaquin phoenix beard. coercion rape. how to avoid temptation to drink at bar. bruders des schattens. karnov. mickey rourke the wrestler. cheap violin. STD girl. Nemesis. authorial intent. hannah and her sisters quotes. the scare chord. chick tracts evolution. catholic humor. goya saturn. kathleen brennan. casey waits. scoville units. top sports blogs. nikola tesla celibate. madonna whore. amanda marcotte. best city economy in us. dr marvin candle. i hate niggers bruce willis. bukowski fucktowski. ritual killer rar. best snes emulator. how to talk to shy people. schindlers list shoot her. pitchfork top songs 2008 torrent. aware beware war. clint eastwood pussy. hannah montana feminism. feminist rapper hip hop. male feminist. flirting guide SIRC. upon yonder hills i have wandered. OldBitch. montauk monster. emily osment tour. john galt objectivism. Nemesis. BKC's name. CrushSlut. OldBitch. BKC's phone number. final fantasy mystic quest. stellan skarsgard. malin akerman. new possible variations on oldbitch's name. best value laptop.

OK that will continue next post.

Did you know that Women couldn't get Pregnant Anymore? That is why They All were so Flippant and Casual and Consequence-Disregarding in their S-Lives!

BKC forgot that every year, once it started getting Officially Nice, it took BKC about a Month to "catch up", because his Inner World more accurately matched the rainy and cold and gloomy and unpleasant Winter/Spring weather that had been en vogue. So BKC couldn't feel TOO guilty for laying down on a BEAUTIFUL Spring Day to take a Nap, rather than Brisk Jogging.

BKC was sleeping EVEN MORE. He had even LESS energy. This was somewhat frustrating. He wasn't Crippling Depressed although what if The Medical Syndicate claimed he was crippling depressed because severe lack of energy was a big symptom of crippling d. BKC had NO PROBLEM laying down to go to bed at 6:30pm. He would peacefully doze off and on and then it was 5:21am and he had gotten a shitload of sleep. Sleeping was basically BKC's New Drug. He would almost always rather be sleeping than doing anything else, and he could easily sleep 12 hours a day, every day, if not 16. Sometimes he chose not to do other things (JOBSEARCH, Brisk Jogs) so he could get that extra sleep. He was glad he was not super-social because that would seriously cut into his sleep time.

Movie Review: Down To The Bone. Grade: B-

This is from Debra Granik, director of "Winter's Bone." She only made movies with BONE in the title. The surprisingly-attractive despite her obviously-aging-face (prob because she was not an Obese Land Whale and Still Had a Bangable Body, an anomaly for women in their mid-thirties) Vera Farmiga played a "working-class" mother and cocaine addict. BKC's main complaint was that Granik's portrayal of "The Working Class" was too Patronizingly Bleak, like look at these poor savages who didn't have the Bourge Luxury of Going to Film College in NYC like I did, because that is the ONLY WAY to avoid Bleak, Soul-Killing Drudgery. Winters Bone also had some of this, although prob not as much. Also BKC wanted Granik to cast more of a Judgement on her character than she did, rather than viewing it through this liberal hamstery womanly "nothing's right and nothing's wrong" "objective" stance. But it wasn't Too Bad. There was a good Scene for Discussion when her estranged husband rather suddenly drops the kids off before she has the new place ready for the kids and he speeds off immediately, saying "I Have A Date!" BKC knew Most Women would view that as Him Being Immature and Unreasonable and He Didn't Have to Tell Her To Get Out in the first place. BKC saw it as Granik actually being somewhat mature and showing that him being Angry At His Wife was an Appropriate Response to her being a Selfish, Cheating Addict Bitch. Although Farmiga should have played her more like that, rather than some innocent, doe-eyed creature who could do no wrong, and it was OK for her to cheat on her receding-hair husband, who, also to Granik's credit, was not a misandrist, one-dimensional, wife-beating savage.

Also the movie was good at showing Real People in Real Rehab, which is not some Dr Drew Luxury Resort. It's a Hopeless Hellhole where people are in Hopeless Legal Trouble and they are 99.99% Certain to go back to Drugs. And when you lose your job at Wal-Mart for drugs, you are Forever Blacklisted from Ever Getting Another Job As GOOD as Wal-Mart Ever Again. A Grim Reality which doesn't decrease your desire to do drugs.

Not a perfect movie worthy of the Annoying Fawning Blurbs by Peter Travers of Rolling Stone on the Box, but he was an idiot who shouldn't have A Job. Somewhat worth seeing if you're interested in Granik's work, although BKC thought she still had a long way to go to become a Memorable Filmmaker: Namely, ditch this Bourgeois Patronization, and have a goddam Opinion. Provoke the Audience by Taking a Position, not by NOT taking a position. Don't be so Twee and Wishy-Washy and Flip-Flopping and Hamstery. Grow a Pair. Man Up. Overall, though, the movie wasn't BAD. It was better than The Orphanage. BKC was Real Close to Fast-Forwarding during the Third Act, however. At least it was "only" 105 minutes. Running Time was a Bigger Deal for BKC than You might think, because he had seen too many movies break the two-hour mark that absolutely didn't need to.

BKC was watching "Mean Girls" and Whorehan was making a speech about how girls shouldn't call each other bitches and fugly sluts and whores because then guys will feel like it's okay to call girls that, and of course Tina Fey missed a great teaching opportunity there. BKC argued it was okay to call people Bitches or Sluts or Whores if they did Bitchy, Slutty, or Whorish things; but he was going to give the benefit of the doubt here, and encourage Hate The Sin Love The Sinner, and to remove Hate Language such as bitch and slut, and to use more OBJECTIVE, DESCRIPTIVE, UNEMOTIONAL language that simply describes a person's behaviors or personality - note that just as a person's behavior or personality can be negative, some of these terms might have a negative connotation, and rightfully so, but NOT Globally Emotional, like "Slut!" or "Bitch!" So, instead of saying, "She's a Slut/Whore/Bitch" you can say that "Her Behaviour/Personality is: Untrustworthy; Unaccoutable; Immoral; Promiscuous; Profligate; Ill-Informed; Irresponsible; Lazy; Cruel; Evil; Uncompassionate; Unempathetic; Selfish; Narcissistic; Betraying; Duplicitous; Back-Stabbing; Phony; Fake; Hypocritical; Nonsensical; Disgraceful; Dishonorable; etc". and that way you're rightfully condemning the Behaviour without Wrongfully condemning the Person. WIN WIN!

BKC just wanted to Congratulate himself for Directly Inviting OldPromiscuous to a possible event this week. Now, there's no predicting whether she would FLAKE OUT - odds are she probably WOULD, she was A WOMAN - and he probably could have been MORE ALPHA when asking - odds are most men could be more alpha when dealing with women - but he wasn't Overly SUPPLICATING, and, he'd like to point out that NOT ASKING was the MOST BETA, it was MORE BETA than The BETAest Asking. Because a SUPPOSEDLY Nice Girl wasn't going to ask AT ALL, period, and that's the way it should be. Now, BKC had over 29 backups so he wasn't overly invested, he was a man with OPTION, but he wanted to Bask in this Alpha-and-Energy-Making ACHIEVEMENT. Since he was kinda on the fence. Which possibly made his Ask more Beta than Ideal. But, again, any ask is over 9,000 times more alpha than no ask, and a week worth of beta regrets and hand-wringing and overanalysis and worry and replaying. Now BKC had to RUSH to finish his SQL homework as fast as possible. He was thankful for his recent Boost of Energy from his Alpha Achievement!

Although he absolutely did want to rub his hands all over her Big Tits and Small Ass and lay his head down on her Small Farting Ass and Smooth Stomach and take a Nap; and he wanted her to Like Him and think he was Funny and Smart and Not A Loser. He hadn't planned on becoming such a Big Loser (Although Few Losers ever do. Maybe it's their Total Lack of Planning that causes them to become Losers.) And at the end of the day, BKC STILL didn't have a Concrete Plan. If this Computer Education stuff didn't help him get a Bigboy Job, he'd switch to something else. Male Nursing. Green Energy. Hotel Management. The list was neverending.

BKC was JUST like the Nerd Who Finally Gets Laid Trope. When The Nerd Finally Gets Laid, everybody notices because it's an obvious 180 change. This had happened on a recent episode of American Dad, and one of BKC's Favourite Examples was when Garth Finally Gets Laid in Wayne's World 2. All of the sudden he's a Man Of The World, of Great Distinction and Character. It was similar with BKC when he got Action from a Pedestal. He was like "Superman." He got shitloads of stuff done, was Alpha as Hell, and was genuinely Cheerful to boot. In an ideal world, BKC would Get Pedestal Action from OldUnaccountable, use Game to KEEP that action coming for long enough for him to Use The Alpha Momentum and Productivity to Get a Bigboy Job, which would eradicate his "LOSER" status and then he could continue getting Pedestal Action until he was SICK AND TIRED of it and the Pedestal was GONE. And then he'd still have his Bigboy Job.

Also BKC was going to start Lying about how old he was until that time when him saying his honest age wouldn't be a huge Loser-Tell and Embarrassment. BKC could probably shave at least 10% off his Age and Pass as 26.

The BKC Family got the computer back from the Geek Squad with a New, Dedicated Graphics Card installed. This should solve all the crashing problems, hahahaha. But sure enough, it started crashing again. Only this time without the black/green lines and pixelization. Jesus Christ. At least the Graphics Card was less expensive than BKC expected, but he still wanted to know what was going on. Maybe you couldn't open too many programs too fast. There was NO WAY the comp could not have enough Physical Memory. This was a fairly-new, somewhat-near-mid-range computer. It upset BKC's mother more than it upset him, because she would Freak Out and become Difficult with the Geek Squad and BKC was just thinking of these poor wage-slaves dealing with Difficult Customers all day, and how BKC was extra-empathetic to Customer Service people. Then BKC thought about how he was not Man Enough to have his own Bigboy Job - a FT Geek Squad job would be a Big Step Up for him - and had to be The Mediator between his Family and The Computer. BKC was just pissed that the public-use computers at Skool or the Liberry seemed to work much better, whether he was playing Runescape or doing Homework.

Because Women were In-Demand and could make good on Their High Demand, that meant that "Little Nicities" such as making-out were No Big Deal for women. They could Get It whenever they wanted, and more often than not, they would do so with Alphas who would soon Plow them. Thus Women could not put themselves in the shoes of 80% of men, for whom Mere Making-Out WAS a big deal.

It's not that Women didn't have Pedestals for Alpha Men. They could just so Easily Replace the men and forget about them. Fast, efficient rotation of new alphas onto their pedestals. Where, with Beta Men, the Pedestal was really more tailored to the Individual Woman, and Replacements were harder to come by, and it took them Longer to Get Over It. Men were More Loyal than Women.

Some Educational Programs built their Internships RIGHT INTO the curriculum, especially the Health Sciences. Here you would sign-up for like 20 hours a week of Hospital Work and work at a different Hospital every semester. These placements were coordinated by instructors/admins and the hospitals. BKC thought this was the smart thing to do. It made Education slightly less of a Racket. Even if the Placements were controversial. A Shitty Placement was better than No Placement, and even Stupid Retarded Losers in, say, the 45th Percentile of Performance would get Resume-Building Work Experience. Other programs did not have Mandatory, part-of-the-curriculum Internships. You had to find and compete for them extra-curriculorly, and if you weren't at the top of your Alpha Game, you'd miss your opportunity and become overeducated, underexperienced, and unemployable. BKC wished he had not been so immature and irresponsible when he was Young. Going Away To College Was The Biggest Mistake Of His Life.

But he would still manage to get his Mandatory Internships. And Soon. Before Age 30, hahaha. This wasn't the end of the world. The Tuff Get Going.

BKC was going to be Alpha As Fuck to OldTaintSucker. He should aim for Same-Day-Lay. Was she really so Different or Special?

BKC had lost his current Driver's Registration. wtf. He had an up-to-date Proof Of Insurance, License, and License Plate Tag. Yet if he got pulled-over without a Registration, that would be a Misdemeanor, and he didn't want that. He hoped he wouldn't have to stand in line for 3 hours at the DMV on a day off. But he would if he had to. It was hard Enough getting a Bigboy Job with ONE Misdemeanor on your Criminal Record!

It was REALLY EASY to Use Game on Girls. You simply repeat to yourself, NO Supplicating Beta. Always Be Alpha. Visualize a big X going through the Supplicating Beta. When BKC took OldTaintSucker out to Same-Day-Lay Dinner, he would have to be somewhat of a Niceguy, because she was below-average used to Being Game. That didn't mean he couldn't be 100% Alpha, though. He would be 100% Alpha and a mix of 50/50 Nice/Sincere and Playful Teasing Amused Mastery, then calibrate that 50/50 as needed. It was easier for him right now to be Nice, and she was so Innocent she might even take a 60% niceness. But she WAS maybe one full point Hotter than Him, so he'd have to DHV STRONG and maybe even throw at least one hard neg. But he'd have to be Gentlemanly too, with a Gentle Specimen such as her. She didn't like going to the Bar or Partying. But who knows. Maybe she Banged all of her Professors. Maybe she banged her Tall, Handsome, Athletic, Weight-Lifting, Ladies' Man Brother. Who cares. BKC had Too Many Options To Count.

Hahaha. It was so easy for a Reforming Beta to Fake being Alpha, it was amazing more Betas weren't trying it.

There was this great joke that went something like: a twenty-year-old who is not a socialist has no heart. A forty-year-old who is not a Conservative has no brain.

BKC had said it before but now he'd say it more clearly: He Wanted an ULTRA-CONSERVATIVE Woman.

Roissy had a good recent post on Testosterone being the Lifeblood of Game. Interesting food for though. And BKC suspected he didn't have enough Testosterone because he was always tired and lazy. BKC wondered if you could get more T by Banging Bitches. Apparently you needed T to make Bitches Tingle. That was understandable. You could also build T by STRENGTH TRAINING (NOT "SWPL Marathon Running"), whey protein, broccoli, fish oil, getting enough sleep, not drinking too much, etc.

There was also an interesting WSJ article on The Pill and how it made women More Attracted to Nonmasculine Men. Hmm. BKC figured that could go either way: By fooling women's hamsters that there were No Consequences for Sex, they might choose the Biggest Alpha every time. But it could also Mess With their Biological Hormonal Monthly Desires for Alpha men at the time of their Menses.

BKC had absolutely no doubt that High Testost correlated with High Alpha. Thus he would experiment and try to increase his Testost. At least that was something Biological. He'd heard cheesy commercials on the radio about Testost Supplement Pills.

BKC didn't need to tell OldTaintSucker his LIFE STORY. Quite frankly, it was NONE OF HER BUSINESS. He shouldn't be divulging vulnerabilities and fears and insecurities until WELL after Ten Bangs, by which time she would be In Love with him, and he could then use an expertly-time Act Of Beta (AoB) to facilitate Longer-Term Relationship Game with her. Note: Too Many Acts of Beta WILL sabotage your Longer-Term Rel Game, and it should go without saying that ANY Act Of Beta will Utterly Annihilate your Short-Term Game.

Specifically: No talking about his AGE, no talking about his Career other than he had a Good Plan and it was coming along GREAT, no talking about his Parents' Basement, no talking about his Regrets and Weaknesses. This much should be Screamingly Obvious, but it was Amazing how readily Betas talked about their insecurities with Strangers, and Bangable WOMEN at that. Why did they do that? Because the experience of Spending Any Time with an Attractive Woman was such an Unknown, New Experience for them, they got Nervous and Sabotaged Themselves. And they were understandably nervous because these chances didn't come along that often.

BKC remembered one chance he had over 6,000,000 years ago with his Nemesis. He'd since learned from a mistake he'd made on a pseudodate with her, which Framed him as a DLV'ing Supplicating Needy Beta: where he "joked" about having an "existential crisis" because he honestly WAS, he was graduating College and was like a little boy in headlights not knowing what to DO with his LIFE, boo hoo bourgeois privilege violin. Unfortunately, that was only one example of a Pattern of General Needy Betaness, which, if he knew then what he knew now, after reading and internalizing Game For Years, he would have gotten so much Assction out of her that he would have gotten BORED of her and upgraded to a More Attractive Bitch.

Learning from Mistakes is Pretty Alpha. It makes you a Better Alpha than never making the mistakes in the first place.

Although BKC was still not an expert at Text and Returning Messages Game. What he did know: If a Bitches Flakes on you, you don't respond to her text until like 5 minutes before the planned event was going to occur. That should make her worry that you didn't get the message and you would think she was Standing You Up. You don't act Sad (Beta) or Angry (Creepy), you just give her a new time and place if you WANT, and then the quickness with which she responds to THAT is you indicator of interest or not. Also wait at LEAST 30 minutes after receiving THAT text if you have to give a response.

Agree and Amplify. Show Amused Mastery. Stop, Crop and Cull. Bitches had a Needy Radar even worse than BKC had a Slut Radar. Although BKC would always lay the lion's share of shame at the feet of Bitches, because it was More Shameful to be a Slut than for a Man to be Needy.

BKC's Networking Instructor was such an Outstanding Guy that he gave $25 Restaurant Gift Certificates to the Top 4 Scorers on his Final Exam, which BKC was Tits and Alpha enough to one of be. It was a pretty nice place too. He should take OldAssholeLicker there and pay with a Gift Certificate, hahahaha.

BKC wanted to report than he had finally GROWN A PAIR and CALLED OldCockSucker. It took no less than a full Half-Hour of him pacing around and repeating "I AM ALPHA. I AM ALPHA. I am the World's Handsomest Most Powerful Man. It's Beta to Wait Nervously. In order to Put My Penis in her Vagina I HAVE to Call Her." and finally he did. The worst is obviously the time between hitting send and waiting for the person to pick up, if they indeed do. She was polite enough that she did. She was also very nice and polite and Friendlier than BKC expected. She even laughed Sheepishly when BKC applied Fake Confidence. Either she Saw Right Through Him and was laughing Nervously At Him Being Creepy, but BKC didn't think he was being Creepy, and she sounded more Sheepish than Creeped-Out, Sheepish IE TINGLING and Nervous Over-Her-Liking-Him. BKC didn't want to get Overconfident here, but he'd Proven Before that it was ALWAYS better (with women and jobs at least) to be Overconfident rather than Underconfident.

BKC had a list of Movie suggestions and Restaurant Suggestions and he was ready to put his foot down and Decide if she was too wishy-washy, but he also wanted, perhaps Overly Betaly, to give her a chance to voice her opinion and consider any of her Burning Desires. He showed some alpha by steering her away from a suggestion he honestly didn't like.

He would try to wear something decent and shave and get her talking about herself, it was the easiest way not to talk about himself. He would respond to Shit Tests with Amused Mastery. She sounded Amenable to going to a movie After the Dinner. Wow. BKC had mentioned "Late Lunch" because he thought "Dinner" would be too intimidating, and she suggested the Dinner Time. And then SHE suggested the idea of thinking of a Movie Too after Dinner. BKC didn't want to suggest both, he just wanted to suggest something Minor so he didn't come across as Too Excited. But he would TOTALLY take her to DINNER AND MOVIE. He would even PAY for it too. You might not be able to tell from the Sibhod because he called her Cocksucker and Taintsucker and Whore and Slut and Bitch and LoadTaker and AssSpreader, but he only did that to try to Take Down The Pedestal Of Infatuation. He honestly quite liked her and didn't want to be An Asshole to her, and, god forbid, he might even sort of Respect-Her-As-A-Person. He would Happily Buy her Dinner and Movie. Almost as important as her Spreading Her Legs for His Alpha Cock was the Surety That she Honestly LIKED Him. BKC wanted to Be Liked By Her, same as he Liked her. So if SHE was getting Excited to simply Span Time with HIM, HE for damn sure was getting excited too.

If it turned into dinner AND movie, then that was really "Datelike". That was so formal and Traditional that a Traditionalist like BKC couldn't deny it. (He felt she was a bit of traditionalist too.) This was the type of things Men and Women Just Don't Do anymore. They just get drunk at the club and do drunken same-night-lays, they don't go to Dinner and Movie. BKC figured he should probably try for a Kiss Close IF they indeed went to a movie and she was giving positive signals. Like she had on the phone. For Better or Worse (BKC wasn't sure if it was Alpha or Beta), BKC really made the Goils Wet when he Kissed them because he was an uncannily good Kisser.

There was indeed another rather significant Complication to the OldBitch Issue which BKC had not yet and would try not to discuss on the Sibhod, a Complication to Escalation, if you will. But at least he was now Living Without Regrets, had Faced His Fear, had been pretty Alpha, etc.

OK, the complication was, BKC knew her from his Littleboy JOB, and that's all he would say. BKC saw and talked to lots of people At His Job.

Well, it wasn't too complicated at all: he could EASILY avoid her 95% to 100%, while there; AND if she Ingloriously Dumped him for Him Being Beta (which he couldn't possibly be any more) and then Flirted like a Whore with every Albanian in sight right in front of him (who cares, let the whore suck dicks, it's not like WOMEN could get PREGNANT), that would be ALL THE MORE INCENTIVE for BKC to MOVE HIS FUCKING LAZY WHITE BOURGEOIS ASS and get a new JOB. In fact, maybe he SHOULD try to Escalate This not just to Try to be her Traditional, Monogamous Husband, but to get his ass moving on his jobsearch. In the Long-term, no ill could come of any possible short-term ill. (Except Marriage 2.0 where she becomes a Land Whale and takes him to the CLEANER the moment he finally succeeds at getting a bigboy job, hahahaha.)

But seriously folks. BKC was a Traditional Man and he liked Traditional Women, and she seemed to be one of them. He would DHV her with his Superrighteous Intelligent Conservative and Traditionalism. She would say, "Oooohhhh, he's SO Traditional and Conservative" and then Flood her Bunchy Underpants with Virgin Musk.

And now it was a BEAUTIFUL 80 degree afternoon and BKC was going to go for a short, but BRISK, jog. He was fucking ALPHA AS FUCK.

BKC encouraged all his Readers: to be Alpha As Fuck Too; to not blackmail him and maliciously try to get him fired; to recommend him to their Manager for a Bigboy Job (While understanding that the Sibhod is ANONYMOUS except to the 10 to 20 people in the world who Actually KNEW who BKCTMOAPGHOW was, and for now BKCTMOAPGHOW didn't want any MORE people knowing Who Wrote The Sibhod because this stuff was OBV a CAREER-KILLER); to wish him LUCK and NOT give him patronizing ADVICE Re That he would Do Good with That WomanTomorrow; to Demand Satisfaction; To Stand And Deliver; To Blow Shit Tests Out Of The Water With Amused Mastery and Infinitely Higher Value; and Happy Birthday to those two people; and also BKC hoped to see a bunch of old school classic people in 9 days.