The T's World

How did Semester 1 go?

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 13 Jan 2015 15:47:00 +0000

I used to tell myself this:

A new beginning, A BRAND NEW START!

A new environment, NEW PEOPLE!

Change for the better!

Be a better person!

THIS IS ALL LIES AND FANTASY.

NOT REALITY.

What actually happened was this:

A new beginning, YES, but A BRAND NEW START? NOT REALLY.

It's just the same old studying, the lectures, the lecturers, the coursemates, SAME THING.

A new environment, YES, A very beautiful, in fact, but NEW PEOPLE ? New faces, same old attitudes and characters. I learnt a very important lesson here: NO MATTER WHAT PLACE IS IT, IF THERE IS THE EXISTENCE OF HUMAN LIFE, THERE WILL BOUND TO HAVE DRAMAS AND PROBLEMS. IT'S THE PEOPLE'S THAT'S AT FAULT, AND ULTIMATELY, TO BE VERY HONEST, OUR OWN SELF.

Change for the better? Yeah, just a little bit, but there's so much more to learn. The thing is, HOW AM I GOING TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IF I DID NOT EVEN LEARN ANYTHING NEW TO IMPROVE MYSELF WITH? ( I just discovered this problem. )

Be a better person? But FIRSTLY, I NEED TO CHANGE AND IMPROVE !

So here are the highlights for SEMESTER 1, YEAR 1 IN MY DEGREE:

Fortunately, studies, lectures and lecturers are alright for me. ( /) (But I'm still anxious about the things I don't quite understand...)

Assignments ? I DID THOSE STUFFS UNTIL I GOT SICK. THOSE STUFFS ARE NOT HUMANLY POSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE AND THEY ARE REAL TORTURE. (X) ( No exams though, I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. )

ALSO, I'm starting to get sick and fed up of buses and trains. Yet, I fear I can't learn directions well enough to actually drive.

SO THIS ENDS SEMESTER 1 !

Bittersweet yet again!

Well, you know what they say, 'You won't know the sweetness without the bitterness'

I shall blog again, if I can, but hopefully it is because I genuinely have time, and not because I lack social life.

BYE !

2015 ?!

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Tue, 13 Jan 2015 15:09:00 +0000

I suddenly realised I can't seriously stop blogging.

It will be awful !

Not having a post in 2015 ??!

That will be very bad indeed.

So I shall start the year with this .

2015 !

I'm 21 years old !

Officially an adult !

WHAT ?!

OH YEAH.

That seems terrifying.

Indeed it is.

Can't believe it though.

But better do believe.

Since there's no escape from it !

Now, I realised and I'm going to be very realistic now by saying that I may not have time to even think of something to blog about when my university studies start again, let alone the time and energy to sit down and actually produce words and sentences to write blog posts.

And I also realised blogs are not that well-received anymore and videos have taken over.

Therefore, I also realised that I will be writing for primarily my own self , as a journal of some sort, and maybe one day, when I'm old, I'll look back and read the things I have written and cringed to what I have written and how I have written my thoughts down.

But I guess it's all as well and there's nothing to lose.

So here we go, blogging yet again !

I hereby sincerely hope for a DRAMA-FREE, NO-NONSENSE, FUN, ENRICHING and BLESSED year ahead !

I have accepted that there will be many obstacles and challenges waiting for me, out there, as the days and months pass by and I'm already feeling the worry, anxiety and fear, which is what I should NOT do.

I tell myself,

ONE STEP AT A TIME.

And I will make it.

I will always make it.

Since I'm here now.

That has proven that I can.

I also want to reflect back to 2014,

of all the things that have happened,

the good,

the bad.

I cherished the good,

I learnt from the bad.

And with all that I have learnt, I hope I'll be better equipped for the challenges ahead !

I have much to learnt still,

And I will learn them all.

Frozen

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 04 Apr 2014 05:05:00 +0000

Yes, yes , YES.

I finally watched Frozen !

The best princess-based Disney movie to date ! It even won an Oscar for Best Animation Film ! And its song, Let It Go, won the Best Original Song !

Great storyline, very unique and original. Beautiful music and songs. Top-notch graphics. Awesome characters. Whats more to ask for ?

I'M OLAF AND I LOVE WARM HUGS ! <3

Oh how I love him <3 Can I have my very own Olaf ?

The awesome cast !

The amazing sisters, Elsa and Anna <3

Cyber craze

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 23 Mar 2014 02:27:00 +0000

Why do we feel the need to 'like' and 'comment' on posts on Facebook ?

Why do we feel the need to take 'selfies' ?

Why do we feel the need to 'retweet' and 'favourite' on Twitter ?

Why do we feel the need to take every pictures of the things we do and eat at the time and post them everywhere ?

WHY ?

No logical or reasonable reason whatsoever.

It's like we, human beings, have turned ourselves into willing servants of the social networking sites, gadgets, technologies and the internet.

Maybe you could argue that taking pictures and capturing moments is for memory and posting up on sites so that the memory will not fade and share them with people so that everyone you know could share your joy and happiness.

Yes. that will be the only acceptable reason, although people overdo it and it becomes a craze and show-off medium and that does not explain the need to gain as many 'likes' as possible.

The thing is, moderation is the key.

Everything has limits.

Stay within the line and everything will turn out well and beautiful and meaningful.

But right now, I don't think there will be a turning-back.

We have gone too far.

What a pity .

Insight: Choosing a Degree Course

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 23 Mar 2014 02:14:00 +0000

Firstly, I love the Mass Comm degree and I found out the reasons why I can't pursue this degree.

And then, I love the Law degree and I found out how I won't be able to make it till the end.

And then, i found something closer to my heart and picked English-related degrees , English Literature/ TESOL Education degree and stay with it because that is all I love all my life.

The message here is : YOU GOT TO FIND SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT TO DO DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART.

Because that will ALWAYS lead you to the right place.

Sometimes, it will be overwhelming that you know you have so many choices out there and you have a lot of interests and you feel like you can try out everything.

But then again, when you sit down and think about it more, you will start eliminating choices because you found the reasons why the choices couldn't exactly work out for you in the end.

A person could have many interests and many sides. But a person also has a main core purpose that he or she wants to do the rest of their lives. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is what your degree got to be about.

A study in degree is a time period in life which is important. You need to have fun while studying it , gain experiences, get to know the world and yourself better and path a future for yourself.

Although it is perfectly fine that you end up doing something that has nothing related to your degree course when you start working, it will be so much nicer and better that you do end up doing something you studied for, that's the first best thing in options.

Be yourself and think for yourself. Don't let other people tell you who you are and what you need to do with your life. Study what you want and love. Chase dreams, fulfill goals.

Best of luck to everyone !

Insight: Choosing an University

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 22 Mar 2014 09:49:00 +0000

So, what really went through my mind during the process of university-picking ?

Here we are.

It's said that it's good to dream BIG and put your vision as HIGH UP as possible. Therefore, I have been eyeing the UK universities for the longest time.

And since I have been thinking about flying over to the UK to study for so long, it's only right and reasonable for me to apply for the universities there through ucas.com

So I did. I applied for 5 universities.

Thankfully, I GOT THEM ALL.

Now, as any determined, headstrong and logical dream-chaser would GRAB those opportunities to fly over to the UK to study, I DID NOT.

I have my very own reasons, ie: the unsuitability of the actual degree courses, the lack of scholarships, the challenges of living abroad and so on.

But the sheer satisfaction of getting offers from universities that I applied for is enough for me. It proves to me that I CAN DO IT.

So then what did I do?

I went back to my first love, my dream university for years, an university close to home but has the legacy from the UK. For me, it is the perfect combination, just simply perfect and I know in my heart no matter what choices that come my way, I'll still pick it and that's WHAT MAKES IT THE RIGHT ONE.

An insight on choosing the right degree course will be coming up next. Stay tuned !

Why do I choose to work ?

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 16 Feb 2014 02:02:00 +0000

Starting 17th Feb, I'll start my job at YuanYuan Boutique at Tesco in addition to my teaching job in the weekends.

But why would I want to do that ?

1. I don't fancy sitting around the house doing nothing worthwhile and I hate myself for it.

2. I need to socialise more, meet people and open up a bit.

3. I want to observe myself on whether I can take the pain and suffer of working from 9.30 am to 10.30 pm. It will be a challenge I want to prove to myself.

4. Gain working experiences.

5. Avoid nagging by parents about being in front of the laptop all the time. Now that I start working, I don't even get enough time to sleep and eat.

6. See the world, the society, the people and observe and obtain how good or bad things are.

7. To earn some pocket money, first pile of paper money at age 20.

This is gonna be one bittersweet experience, that's for sure.

All I hope is that it is going to be alright and that I am still alive at the end of this and be prepared for university in september.

What I Wish I Knew When I Was 20

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 17 Jan 2014 07:23:00 +0000

I finished reading this book and now my mum is reading it as well !

I found it very informative, real and helpful so I thought I would share with you the tips and lessons inside it, so that everyone of you will not miss out on the golden knowledge !

1. everything has value. You have to find ways to improve the values of things to discover opportunities behind them . ( vision of entrepreneurship)

2. every mistake has its solutions. Its solutions could be turn into opportunities for success . We just have to look around hard enough to notice the things need solving and changing. ( vision of entrepreneurship )

3. Do not let people tell you what you should do in your life. Do not let the society's stereotype vision and status quo to frame you into a typical thinking box about how you should do and act.

4. Luck comes with hard work. So put yourself in that position to attract luck.

5. Dont give up. Keep trying. But remember failure is good as it makes the road to success. Learn when to let go and accept defeat. Know that giving up is not a bad thing and keep holding on is not a good thing either.

6. Remember it is a very small world. Your life will often consist of the same people over a period of time. Treat people well. Care for your reputation. It will give you opportunities and give you an easier time in life.

7. Combine your skill, your interest and whether there is a market for it , u will have the perfect job and u wont have to work in your life. And if there is no market for your passion and talent, create it.

Hope for a good life !

What I wish to accomplish in 2014

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 04 Jan 2014 05:07:00 +0000

Here are what I want to do and accomplish this year :

1. finish reading all the books I bought

2. Finish my novel

3. Learn about make up

4. Get used to contact lenses

5. shop for dresses

6. learn more about university life and life aboard

7. Get more working experience

8. Send an article to The Star

9. Get to that essay competition prize giving ceremony

10. get good result for the A2-level exam

11. apply for scholarships

12. get scholarships

13. lose some weight and get my body in shape and be healthy

14. figure out more about beauty and fashion

15. be sociable and go to events and places with people

16. learn some new skills , cooking ? baking ? dancing ? photography ? video editting ?

17. drive more !

18. earn the first amount of salary in the age of 20 !

19. treat the family and myself with that first salary

20. get into a nice university in a nice place and continue with my degree !

Late night haunted thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 28 Dec 2013 03:33:00 +0000

I feel bad about what I did.

I feel that I am not a good person as people think I am.

I think that sometimes I am selfish, not considerate, not thoughtful, always think of myself and only myself and somehow using people as how people use other people.

The more I think about it, the more I feel bad about myself.

And then I started thinking how I have treated other people.

I think I haven't treat people good enough.

And that what if one day I wake up and someone is gone and I didn't get the chance to redeem what I did and that I haven't treat him or her well enough.

Then I have this madness to get up and call everyone I know how much they mean to me and I just want to tell them I'm sorry if I have did something wrong and I just want to tell them how much I love them, no matter the things we have gone through.

It's a week away from a new year, 2014. And I really hope for a brand new start and a more awesome future .

2013 has been one of the most awesome years in my life. And I am very happy about it. Grateful about it. And blessed.

So now I hope for a good start for 2014. I want to go find a job. Still thinking about it.

But no matter how bad things are or how much hardships there is, things will be fine in the end.

Oh well.

Happy new year ! Happy 2014 !

Looking for Alaska Review

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 11 Dec 2013 06:19:00 +0000

It is official. I am rather fond of John Green's books and his writings now. I am so glad that I have bought his books collection .

Looking For Alaska is both familiar and yet different with The Fault in Our Stars. John Green's writing style is rather the same in the two books but the storyline is so different and so special and therefore extraordinary compare to The Fault in Our Stars.

The style of the whole plot is already one of a kind, to begin with and then there is the fast pace of story-telling tat will hold your attention till the end of the book.

The one thing that made me adore the book is that I have never yet read a book which one of its main characters die in the middle of the book and that shocked me and therefore made me love the book more and admire the wit of Mr John Green for doing that.

Anyone who loves The Fault in Our Stars should try reading Looking For Alaska. And anyone who loves John Green's writings will not be disappointed with this one. In fact, this will just make you loves his writings more !

So now, I should start reading Paper Towns . Peace out !

The Updates in My Life

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 06 Dec 2013 03:00:00 +0000

So I thought I should at least write something like this. It seems very appropriate. So here we are :

My Cambridge A-level exam is finally over !!

Which also means I graduated from college !!

And that leads to me leaving INTI !!

That marks the start of holidays again !! But not just any other holidays, it is those kind of holiday when you graduate from school and wait for the time comes to go into another school to study higher level of education !

I applied for a few UK universities ! I went through an interview and I also got an offer right now.

One of the highlights of this holiday is definitely that moment when I won the essay-writing competition I participated in my college !! I got the Silver Award, which also means I will get RM200, a certificate and a book award !!

Another highlight of this month will be that I am going for a holiday to Hong Kong with my family !!! Can't wait !!

Oh and also, I'll be buying a new phone. Sweet !

And, I think celebrating Christmas at Singapore will count too since we are also going to Singapore on Christmas Day. We will also be heading to The Universal Studio !!

I will also be following my mum and sis to their Bakery Acedemy open day and also their baking course trial classes ! Will be fun !

This holiday also consists of meeting up and hanging out with friends at different places !!

New achievements, new experiences, new way of living ! Life is good right now !

Note : If any one of you out there thought I'm bragging and being very arrogant or proud of myself or the things I am doing, NO. I am not. In fact, I'm just so happy and grateful that I want to share my happiness because a shared happiness is so much better than a solitude happiness. I don't think I should be apologising but if you feel bad about your life or yourself after reading this, I'm deeply sorry. And one word of advice, I dont think you should feel any jealousy as well because every dog has his days and so every one of us will have our days of glory. I am sure of it. And maybe some of you will think that the things I have just wrote about is nothing to be highlighted about because they dont bare any significance in your life, then it is okay. You dont need to do anything. Thank you very much for your time for reading this.

Reading and Writing

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Mon, 28 Oct 2013 03:41:00 +0000

I have this theory that no one could really keep all the knowledge and inputs without putting out some outputs in some ways which then means that if you read a lot of books, there will come a time when you somehow have to write them out in your own ways.

This year of 2013 has been a fruitful year in the Tiffany's Literature Land. I have been reading tons of books written by a lot of other authors and that makes me feel happy and grateful. I have only been reading and re-reading Harry Potter series for a while now and also the Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan. And in 2012, the Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins is added to the collection. But in 2013, I have been introduced and recommended to a wide range of books and genres, the likes of The Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green ( and his 3 other books) and of course, the rather new Mortal Instrument series( 6 books in total) and Infernal Devices series( 3 books) by Cassandra Clare.

One thing about how amazing it is to be able to read new books rather than the obvious reason of having new stories and fictions to read, is to have a taste and insight to how different every author writes and how the writing style reflects to their individual lifestyles. This is maybe not very obvious or valuable to a regular reader, but to any aspiring writer out there, it is golden, in my opinion anyways.

I just love to observe and analyse how everyone writes and how the styles give different auras to different stories, it is an amazing thing to do actually. It is definitely obvious that authors in the modern era write differently from authors like Charles Dickens, Jane Austen and so on. It leads me to wonder whether I have my own unique style of writing too and how my writing style compare to other people's.

After reading different kinds of books by different authors, I come to realise that the bottom line of writing any book is the existence of knowledge and real-life experience and not just the writing styles and the fantastic usage of words and twist of sentences. Of course, this makes me wonder again whether I have enough experience to write the stuffs I think I want and could write. Right now, I still think I'm lack of it though. But young people could be successful authors too right ? As my mum said, 'Dont ever question what you write,'. That's an awesome advice because I always question what I wrote and then tried to change them and then ended up with nothing which makes me sad always.

So now what I'm trying to do is to write whatever that comes to mind and not question it and go with the inspiration, the flow and my gut feeling. I do think it will work out well.

-Wrote all this while laying on my stomach on the bed, feels good-

While Reading The Fault in Our Stars...

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 26 Oct 2013 02:51:00 +0000

So I have read 4 chapters of John Green’s The Fault in Our Stars and I must say I love it. I genuinely like the way Mr Green wrote, his style and word usage and everything. The storyline is quite fast-paced and direct but it is just perfectly planned out and so it is immensely interesting. (And I think there is a thing to authors’ names. I think that names that are easily said, written and remembered are so much more cooler than those that are not.) And this is the first book I read that got me some insights about cancer. And also, cancer and young love. I don’t really mind the foul languages.

So as I’m reading, I start thinking about how it would be if some guy gave me his book to read and with his phone number written at the title page. It must be extraordinary to start a courtship like that, the nerdfighteria’s style! Then I remembered I have once given a book to read by a guy whom I liked as well and I remembered feeling rather lovey-dovey at that moment. But turned out, it ended with nothing.

And as I’m reading the lines where Augustus Waters asking Hazel Grace rather aggressively about when could he see her again, I thought to myself how familiar that situation is. And then I wondered whether it is how guys hint that they are pursuing you. I smiled at how Hazel responses to those advances because that seems to be similar to how I think I did it, but not quite the exact same, but you get my point.

One thing that made me feel that I’m not wrong or weird or alone in doing it is that Hazel didn’t really reject those advances but being coy and flirtingly suggest how Augustus and her should meet again and somehow let Augustus knows she’s still interested. That seems like what I did, although you know, in different situations. I guess I have flirted around the situation of school work? But I don’t think what I did account to flirt. But generally, having something to say to someone? And I have been getting that kind of flirt in return.

And moving on to Hazel and Augustus’s casual meet-up or date, I just think it’s so awesome. The thing to emphasise here is casual but with a hint or touch of romantic interest. These kinds of dates are the best, in my opinion. And this got me thinking again. I did have this kind of dates right? But more casual than this though. But yeah, definitely, but with less romantic aura, but those auras are most certainly presented.

Then comes the time I think to myself that it must be so nice and amazing to share a book which you love to a person you like, like how Augustus and Hazel did it. It must be so touching to be able to share opinions about the books with each other. Also, they unintentionally have a special word to themselves, which I find it so cool and fun and meaningful in many ways. And the fact that Augustus unshamefully and wittily let Hazel know he likes her is just flawless and that kind of reminded me those moments I had, which of course, I hope are real and genuine, right from the heart.

Now I haven’t finish the book and so I don’t really know how Hazel and Augustus’s story will end but I hope for the best! ( And I think this is my first modern young adult book that revolve kind of heavily around the subject of love. )

~ A book lover courtship~

Comparison between stories with male and female heroes.

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 28 Sep 2013 04:08:00 +0000

Stories that feature male heroes as the main characters.

1. Things will be more fast-paced and challenging.

2. The main hero will really have the role as a leader in any battles and fights.

3. Protect the girls and showcase bravery xD

4. Less emotional exploration.

5. Romantic confession with his love interest.

6. More manly and less sensitive back stories and flashbacks.

7. Adoration by female readers.

E.g : HARRY POTTER, PERCY JACKSON

Stories that feature female heroes ( heroines ) as the main characters.

1. Things will be slower and more emotional.

2. The main heroine will have the most protection in battles and fights.

3. Handsome guys come to the the rescue of heroines.

4. More emotional engaged.

5. Having crushes on handsome guys.

6. Sensitive, touching, emotional back stories and flashbacks.

7. Adoration by both male and female readers.

E.g: HUNGER GAMES, the MORTAL INSTRUMENT

Things To Do Before I Die

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 28 Sep 2013 03:51:00 +0000

1. Visit Harry Potter theme park in Florida, USA. Buy Harry Potter robes, wand, scarfs, badges ! and other stuffs !

2. Holiday with my family in the UK, USA and around Europe.

3. Look down from the Effiel Tower.

4. Be able to experience the British and American way of life and culture.

5. Visit China and Australia ! So basically travel around the world xD

6. Go for bungee jumping ( maybe)

7. Go skating.

8. Actually swim in the sea.

9. Scuba-diving.

10. Sky-diving.

11. Ride a horse.

12. Be in a helicopter.

13. Be in a cruise.

14. Dance in the rain.

15. Publish a book ! An article in the newspaper !

16. Go to a One Direction concert ! Meet them !

17. Discover true love .

18. Be on roller-coasters and the Eye.

19. Do something to change the community/ society/ someone else's life.

20. Own an awesome cafe/bakery , with music, books, art and awesome desserts !

21. Experience real snowing, build snowmen, do christmas shopping .

22. Do vlogs on Youtube !

23. Lend a helping hand in fashion retails and brands, with clothes, shoes, handbags and jewelries.

24. Go ballroom-dancing ! Fancy dresses !

25. Attend important, grand, fancy events. Movie premier maybe ? award ceremony ?

26. Have my own Golden retriever puppy ! and rabbits !

27. Design the interior spaces of my house.

28. Have a fashion-forward wardrobe space !

29. Have an awesome bedroom with glowing stars on the ceiling !

30. Visit Disneyland ! Lego land ! Universal studio theme park !

31. Stay up all night till the morning with awesome friends !

32. To have peace and harmony in the family.

33. Have dinner in the train.

34. Put face-art on my face xD

35. Meet Duke and Duchess of Cambridge.

36. Meet my favourite authors ! Especially J.K Rowling !

37. Visit an actual movie set !

38. Living in the country-side. Cottage !

39. Actually fly a kite.

40. Lay in the middle of the road at night.

41. Sit on a swing at night, with winds blowing.

42. Scream out loud to the sky.

43. Go to the North Pole and sit inside an igloo.

44. Be able to bite stuffs again. especially burgers !

45. Eat pizzas, lasagnas, burgers, spaghetti, fries and coke ALL DAY LONG.

46. Attend a medieval carnival in medieval gown !

47. Have a costume party !

48. Go holiday with friends !

49. Have a seafood-themed dinner !

50. To live in a dream reality !

TO BE CONTINUED :D

WEIRD FACTS ABOUT ME

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 25 Sep 2013 09:53:00 +0000

1. I smell new books before reading them.

2. I don't take good care of my books at all.

3. I feel weird looking into the mirror when there is someone else standing beside me.

4. I watch every video at least TWICE.

5. I have my own systematic arrangements in my messy space and stuffs.

6. I replay songs until I hate listening to them.

7. I love being polite to random people I come across just to see them smile for a moment.

8. I couldn't really stand silence. I think silence is so awkward. But if I can stand silence when I'm with you, then you really are special.

9. I have this weird and unnecessary ideal that how everybody should act and should live their life and how the world should be and why everything is the way it is.

10. I can be very friendly and outgoing for a day and interacting with people make me so happy and a very shy and timid person the next and I don't feel like doing anything that needs me to interact with people. And this is really bad.

11. I'll be genuinely hurt when people tease me because I'm just soft that way and that I don't see why people feel the need to do that.

12. I don't really feel people need to have any expectations towards me and I don't know why they will have them. And I don't know why people look highly towards me when I know I'm just doing the things I do.

13. I just don't understand why people feel the need to hate on me when I don't do anything wrong to annoy and disgust them.

14. I think of love as a very complicated puzzle that I need to solve someday.

15. I get excited and nervous at the same time for almost everything even though they are quite unnecessary.

16. I can go from being happy to being sad to being angry and then depressed just like that with all the problems building up inside me. And then without really solving all the problems but just making peace with it, I'll be really happy again/

17. I take interest in the weirdest things.

18. I always put people first and act in the best interest of others and I'm weak at saying no sometimes.

19. I have an unhealthy obsession with the British culture, people, places and everything.

20. Books, writing, languages and everything related are my passions.

TO BE CONTINUED.

Feelings deep inside

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Fri, 13 Sep 2013 07:57:00 +0000

Yes, I'm not happy. Actually, I'm sad. Well no, I'm angry.

It's like sitting in a dark corner, inside a tiny little box, underground, far far away from everyone and everything.

I wonder why the world is the way it is?

I wonder why do people are the way they are?

Why the society is the way it is?

Why do people lie and not be honest and upfront about everything?

Why do people complain and judge others but they act the same way as they are acting?

Why don't they think before they act?

Why they feel the need to do something the way they do?

Who do people NOT know the boundary and draw the line?

Why don't people mean the words they say?

Why do people hate each other the way they do?

Why do people say they hate someone but yet treat them in the nicest way possible?

Why can't we all love each other?

But do love even mean anything?

Is there even any truth in the things people do and say?

In this insincere world, how do we even find and know any real friendships and relationships?

Who do you trust?

Do you know who will be there for you when you fall?

How do you even know who someone really is?

How do you even know who they will turn out to be?

Why do people feel the need to be jealous of other people's achievements and happiness?

And why do all the hatred and troubles come to the purest, kindest and most innocent?

Do you ever feel like you are being observed and judged of what you do even if you feel that there isn't any need for anyone to do that?

People always think and complain that what they have been through is the worst, but there are actually people that got it worse.

People often don't understand what exactly you have been through but yet they want and think they could judge you and voice out opinions blindly.

It's really rare to have another person who is fighting the exact same battles as you since everyone has their own battles in life.

When does our world even turn so sick?

Happiness is temporary and pain is too but it does seem to last much more longer, doesn't it?

Right in the end, it'll always be just you, alone, with no one else. In the end, it'll just be up to you.

Where are all the kindness, the joy and the love?

Where are all the sunshine, the laughter gone to?

Everything is going to be alright in the end, but right now, the end seems so far away.

Keeping everything inside until it finally explodes is a very bad strategy indeed. Am truly sorry if you have read this. Truly sorry. Goodbye.

Thoughts on Love

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Aug 2013 10:54:00 +0000

So things often go like that.

Girl met guy or guy met girl.

One person will firstly like another more, and will be so crazy about the other person.

Next, when this first person doesn't care much anymore, the second person starts to like and go crazy about this person.

When you're lucky, the first and second person will start to like each other again.

So now, when do you actually start a relationship ?

And why do you want to risk an awesome friendship ?

Why do you even want to risk a friendship with someone over a relationship when you don't even know what the future holds ?

And you don't even truly know the other person yet ?

There is this feeling that push you forward, make you take the step, I guess.

A feeling so powerful, so strong, that makes you know it's the right thing to do, even though your mind will have a lot of unanswerable questions and unknown future.

Now here comes a twist. What if you managed to keep this feeling all to yourself and not let the other person know ? Do you think friendship could last then ? They do say 'you can't stay just friend with the person you love'.

But lets just say you tell the other person your feeling and that person reject you. Now what ? Don't you think it's better to NOT tell at all ? But people do say ' the what ifs feeling is worse than the truth' .

But what if the other person has the same feeling ?

Then you two shall move into a relationship.

Now during a relationship, how to keep it going then ? How everything works ?

What about your past ? your present ? your future ? your parents ? your friends ? your life ?

It'll just make your life so wonderful if things work out well.

But now what if it doesn't ? On what basis do you and the other person feel the need to break up ? But why not solve the problems instead ?

Now if you do end up breaking up, then you ruin a friendship ? So you could stay friends ? But the friendship will not be the friendship like the first time. That's for sure. Now won't you feel regret that if you don't risk the friendship, everything will be alright ?

Now what if the feeling is so strong that after breaking up, you feel like going back to the person again ? Will it be worth it ? What makes you think it's going to work this time around ? If you do think it'll work, then why break up in the first place ?

And there is a difference between love and like. And also there is a difference between crushing on someone and liking someone.

LOVE= QUESTIONS.

TOUGH QUESTIONS.

Which is why things can't be taken lightly.

Which is why this takes courage.

...........

People nowadays

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Aug 2013 10:05:00 +0000

If you're a really bad person, then it's understandable that people will judge, criticize, comment and dislike you.

But what if you're an already good person ?

Do you still get judged ?

Do you still get hatred ?

YES. YOU DO.

It's understandable that everyone has flaws, no one is perfect, we get it. But is it reasonable to dislike and judge people because of such tiny flaws and weaknesses ? NO !

And there is another whole new section of : Judging before knowing. That's the worst, seriously. But people who do that often don't truly know you though. People who really know you won't do that, they'll just be honest and tell you what you need to correct, right ?

I have this theory that people who spread hatred are those people who need kindness and love the most. They just feel so insecure and they feel they need to let people down to make them look stronger. They have no one to turn to to talk about their problems.

People are just bad, you know, BAD.

But then again, you cannot satisfy everyone, you can't make everyone like you and you can't stop people from judging.

Moving on to another section, this is weirder. People seem to get mad at you for whatever reason without any warning. I think it's the mood swing problem.

You never know why. You never did anything wrong. They just seem to get mad at you like that, out of the blue, one fine day. Suddenly, everything could change. No matter how much good times you have spent together, with just this one day, this one moment, you got resentment. People got mad. Well, surely, there is some explanations ? Like maybe you tell me what's wrong before getting mad ? Can we talk about it before anything else bad happened ?

People are weird. People are mental. I don't see how I could survive in this planet full of people. But I love those loved ones would help me through.

I'm really DONE with all this torture of figuring things out, about why things happen these ways and how people come to conclusions, how is my impression on them, what they think.

But then again, I should not even care in the first place. They're messed-up, doesn't mean I have to too.

But everyone knows it's hard to NOT CARE.

Everyone cares.

This is why we're all scared.

And this is why the planet, the society, the people are all messed-up.

GAHHH !

Books I Need To Buy

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 14 Jul 2013 13:47:00 +0000

By J.K Rowling ! Are you kidding me ?!

Combination of 2 book series !! Must be epic !!

The 4th book of the Heroes of Olympus series ! Gonna be awesome !

The Hobbit book ! After watching the movie ! Just simply amazing !

Or Maybe I should just get this and be done with it ? With the lords of the rings series !

Or this series ,which is recommended by my cousin ?

But there is just one problem if I get all these books. I won't be able to study ? *laughs*

Nah...I don't think so . Since I have done this before .

Well, alright then. That said, I'll go and try to get my hands on them !

Peace out !

Artistic ?

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 14 Jul 2013 13:29:00 +0000

I have always wondered why people who could sing, act, dance, play musical instruments, write, draw, paint and other artistic stuffs all together ?

Well, think are those artistic genes *laughs*

It is just wonderful to see people with these kind of artistic abilities. It is just an awe.

There are people who could do artistic stuffs averagely remarkable, but there are some other people who do one thing better than the other.

It all depends on the individual.

Being artistic has become a field of its own with the most amazing people on the Earth are in.

I hope someday I could join them and be one of the artistic people out there.

Currently I could write, draw and paint, and I sort of know how to play the piano.

I do work hard to be able to do those stuffs in a better way and I hope one day I shall succeed in doing what I love and share them with the world to inspire people and make changes.

Goodbye.

Inspiration post # 1

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sun, 14 Jul 2013 13:04:00 +0000

You might not see this. You might not even care to read this.
But to those of you who care enough to stop for a moment, spend a little time and energy to read, thank you.
I know that there are a lot of us out there going through all kinds of hardships, obstacles, problems and worry that things might not get solved or get better, I just want you to know that it will eventually because everything ends, good or bad. Things eventually end and if it doesn't end, it isn't the end of it.
We should have this belief in ourselves that we could overcome the things life throws at us and have this very thought that hard things come to us because we could handle them. We're stronger than we think we are.
We shouldn't let all the negativity pulls us down. We should stand tall and face it head-on and be brave warriors. Be confident.
Feeling confident, being positive and feeling great about ourselves attracts more positive and good things happening in our life, believe it or not.
So if you think you're having a bad life right now, STOP. Change your thought. Try thinking all the happy, proud things you have done and know that how blessed you are with all the love and support you have. And turn around and smile in the face of all those problems and troubles. You'll feel that things seem to be easier to solve then.
We should all be happy. Just let go and don't think too much. Life is good. And we should be thankful and grateful.
Love ourselves, and love others.
Hang in there. Remember, you're not alone. There are loads of people out there going through the same problems as you. Stand together and fight for a brighter tomorrow. Nothing is impossible. Everyone is a champion in their own rights. You make YOU. You make the power to choose who you want to be, where you want to go and how you want to be in life.
Growing up and encountering changes is a scary thing but it's also a part of life. Remember, if people could do it, why not you ?
No matter what, remember, there will be people looking over you, care for you and be there for you.
Life is short. Do the things that make you happy. Don't let anyone decide and tell you what to do in life. Be sensible. Grab opportunities.
SMILE. LOVE. LIVE.

My One-month Holiday

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Thu, 27 Jun 2013 13:46:00 +0000

So what did I actually do on my one-month holiday ?

Instead of getting depressed about how unproductive I am, I'll just try to list out the things that I actually did and hence to make myself feel better in the process. *laugh*

1. I learned how to take care of a puppy.

2. I learn how to bake. Baked chocolate and walnut brownies successfully too !

3. I...well I...managed to study some notes. Although NOT as what I have planned for myself, which is study all the course books and stuffs. Definitely didn't work out that way. Oh well.

4. Watched two movies. The Hobbit ! Which I'm now a fan ! And LOL, starring Miley Cyrus.

5. Had karaoke sessions at home ! Which was fun !

6. Spent quality times with family .

7. Stay quite healthy, I'd say.

8. Went shopping for a few stuffs. Yes, A FEW. seriously !

9. Continue writing my story and created a new one as well !

10. Read a lot of books !

So there you go ! At least I have done 10 things. Well, at the very least. Now, I shouldn't feel so bad about myself for not doing anything throughout the holidays ! I could be happy *laugh* Although I didn't really finish ticking off my to-do list, I'm content that I at least did SOMETHING. And it's better than nothing ! So YEAH !

So now that holiday is ending, my last semester of A-level course will be starting. Goodbye free and lazy time, Hello busy hectic time with lessons and assignments to attend to. Oh well.

See you guys around !

Collections of thoughts

noreply@blogger.com (Unknown) — Sat, 22 Jun 2013 13:48:00 +0000

So there is this thing out there which states to be comforting, inspiring, meaningful and motivational, which is what I called, the 'collections of thoughts'. Collections of thoughts include memory boxes, humour collections, gratitude journals, proud and happy time records and something similar to those.

People have said that these kind of things could help us a lot during when we're sad and depressed about stuffs in life and it's easy to see why to be honest. These things make us happy again, make us feel grateful and blessed, feel alright again that our lives are still wonderful and bad times will soon fade because everything ends somehow and things will be alright in the end.

I have been thinking of starting this for quite some time but I have never get around to do it. I just feel lazy to be very honest, I'm sorry to say that. *laugh* And then I'll have to think of stuffs to write which I normally don't do because I sort of wait for inspirations to come to me and I'll write stuffs down then. But generally, yes, I'm, well, LAZY.

Anyways, when I do come around to write, I'll surely post it up here. I don't believe I couldn't write something for this, psssh. xD Inspiration, I trust you !

Goodbye.