I bid you farewell.

2011-08-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

WOULD YOU EVER COME BACK NOW ;(

2011-03-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

Ever wondered why when we see beautiful photos of really nice places, and the memories just keeps flooding back?

That's because we want to relieve them again, with someone.

Our imagination can take us everywhere you know.

2011-03-15T11:32:00.000-07:00

I wish I can travel to all the beautiful places in the world with you. To breathe the same air as you, and to share the same pretty memories as I had.

You and I definitely have so much to catch up on.

And trust me when I say I haven't moved an inch, I'm still here, waiting, waiting for you.

2011-03-13T08:42:00.000-07:00

I was viewing really nice photos on tumblr, and was realllllyyyy inspired to get a tumblr too. Soon yes, after I'm for the exams. Weird much, I stumbled on this rumble showing super beautiful photos of random images .... On nature. Yup, they're so pretty, makes me wanna visit those places. Some places I didn't even hear before, surpirising much.

When I was viewing them, it just came to my mind how we share the sentiments over stuff, just that we refuse to take the initiative to break the ice. It's like we knew each other for some time now, but just refuse to talk to each other. You might say it's a regret, but I just hate what you've become. We'll just remain like this, till some miracle happens and we because close like old times.

Oh btw, i want to visit these beautiful places. With you baby.

"The best apple on the tree is always the last to be picked. Cause they're the most special."

Anyway, to end this short and weird post quickly, maybe you should know we could be so much more.

Go on, press it.

2011-03-01T07:10:00.000-08:00

11.11- 1st march 2011.

I wish that everything will be better. Honestly. I really hate this stressful life of mine now.

Everyday I get home, I always worry about the next week's tutorial. The pace is so fucking fast that one day you just freaking take a break, others will immediately catch up with you. The main issue is that I must never lag behind, I'm trying my best to finish all my homework on time now cause I don't want to end up like j1, where I got so fucking screwed in every way possible.

I want to live my life without distractions. Ok yes, currently i'm like ogleless so that makes it 100 times better.

I just want you to stop sending weird signals, it's either you fucking want it or not. If not, i'll get damn pissed and annoyed waiting for an answer. We can be so much more, if you would allow me to.

Anyway, I wish that I can catch up. You see, the thing is, ok how to put it, I'm like fucking stupid so I need to work twice as hard. It's like I have to abide by this popular motto wherby when others are slacking, I'm working. When others are working, I work twice as hard as them.

It's only so much I can do. I have to save myself first before I get to other less trivial stuff. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

And the rest, just fuck off.

Lastly to end this post off,

“I think admitting how you feel about someone is one of the bravest thing you can do. Because not all of us are brave enough to do it, not all of us can take the risks. And believe me, it takes a lot of practices in front of the mirror and confidence to do so.”
— Nadine Rendon
(Source: forgottenstars-)

2011-02-12T08:14:00.000-08:00

I really like it when I'm appreciated. In even the littlest, subtlest way possible. Sometimes, people can make me see things that i dont even see in myself. You all GMH.

Today iagenda was going to Fiona's for CNY lunch, and afterwards helped out as CIP at St.Hilda's centre. First time, I tried pushing someone on wheelchair. I feel very happy when the person thanked me cause I did a good deed. :)

Anyway, it really was fun helping them. :)

2011-02-04T05:29:00.000-08:00

I really love my cousins alotttt. I've been playing and entertaining them the whole day today, and I just love to carry them or piggyback them. I mean, they're so cute!!!! Gosh you'll feel like you're carrying a warm nice bundle in your arms. Lol hahahaha goodness!! I haven't seen my cousin for one year already and she can walk now!!!! Omgawd la!!!!???? She's wearing a pink mini sized cheongsam. damn cute la walao!!!

But still new year's new year, the same thing every year. It's an awesome break. I love to forget the world, cause it's so depressing. Right now all I wanna do is to put all my troubles to the back of my mind and never relieve them anymore. May my feb 2011 be an awesome month. So fast it's feb already huh! God. Time flies. I hate a lvls. I rather take one million o levels all over again.

Anyway, usually when you say a wish out, It never comes true right? Not like you don't say and it'll come true anyway, but lips sealed tho.

Please wait for me, because you know I'll wait for you. I'll hold you in my heart, till I can hold you in my arms. And please start first, cause I cannot. I have to uphold my pride and I never ever do something first even if I'm at my wits/desperate end.

Hi! Happy cny!

2011-02-02T08:41:00.000-08:00

Today I went out with Fangning to have some HTHT. Basically, updated each other on our lives and stuff, it's really interesting talking to her and I really love her! ;)) swensens, wow spent a bomb outta my pocket. But it's okay, not everyday I do that! And I bought two real nice hairbands with her. Finally lah, all my hairbands broke the day before!

Anyway also heard alot of upsetting rumours/stories about how my friends (not that close ones) quarreling and staging wars with each other. Lol okay, i'm just really glad I'm kind of fine. My friends are all so reliable, I can't imagine if I'm fighting with belle everyday. ;( anyway, also heard some disgustinggggg stuff that's real putting off. Like my entire impression of someone can change just because of one rumour. Not that it may be fake or true, but it's real 85% likely to be true, so yeah....... Also kinda worried for my friend right now.

But yup, anyway today's a great day. Have a safe trip, rebecca, and belle! I love you two girlfrienddddsssss. <3 come back soon belleyyyy we have a date together! ;)

And to you. I hope you won't turn out like those stereotypes. I believe my judgement is good enough to differentiate between them and you. You're different I know, I can feel it. You just behave too maturedly it scares me sometimes. But yeah, it amazes me at the same time. Hah okay bye.

Gonna drink tomorrow babes have a great year ahead! I love all my wonderful fwennnsssss. <3

2011-02-01T01:53:00.000-08:00

No it's okay, I won't let myself down this time. It's true I didn't put in the effort, but it doesn't mean I can't do it. I will prove you all wrong so suck on that. I'm Cheryl lim. Yeah and I'll b back with double the vengeance. You won't ever, ever, see me fall like that anymore.

It's my fault yeah, this time, not the next.

2011-01-31T23:13:00.000-08:00

I swear I'm damn excited for Chinese new year! I LOVEEEE EATING CNY NOODLES!!!!!

2011-01-31T05:46:00.001-08:00

I think its really cool if your eyecandy's eyecandy, is you.

Nonono, dont get me wrong, not that i have any. But im just saying right? something coolio!!! hahah ok im cheapthrilling.

I HATE NETBALL and I regret it so much joining it. Its so diu lian that i cant even tell people Im in netball. Not like in TK, netball so good that I just feel a little proud that I am inside, once. HAHAHHA. :D Life's full of regrets anyway.

Chinese new year is coming, Im pretty darned happy because I LOVE chinese new year. I love how I can wear my new clothes, new pants, and new sandals. Everything new, its so lovely! I love buying clothes. I wish there will be a shopping centre selling clothes fully catering to sibei skinny girls like me.

HAH. Bye.

You're damn cute I swear! Why havent I noticed? #fail #slow :(

2011-01-30T04:46:00.000-08:00

With heavy responsibility comes great commitment.

My promise stays strong baby.

2011-01-29T08:21:00.000-08:00

Why the fuck must you keep insulting me like that? fucking cheebye I'll make you pay. Gosh was i blind or what? You should always spare a thought for other people, not yourself only. See now, karma has hit you in the face motherfucker.

Why must you be in the same school as me? Just hate how I have to see your fucking ugly(fugly) face forever. Go screw off motherfucker I learnt my lesson and I will never, ever go back to you anymore. I just thought you would change, I thought. But nah, you can't.

And you stupid slut who spread rumours about me: FUCK OFF and keep your fucking legs closed man! Stop going around acting cute or doing things to seek attention man bitch! If you're that pretty/hot/famous/popular, PEOPLE WILL COME TO YOU, not you go and show your face to everyone. SLUT. Go open your legs somemore if you like it so much. Bitch. First day already flirt like a dog to a new guy. What are you? Some lose pussy looser thn the shoelaces on my shoe? Screw your mum if you too free lah! _|_

2011-01-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

Belle I love you. But, i kno you can only see this first sentence and nothing else so too bad. :P Im facing emotional breakdown ma. HAHAHHAHAHAH. :)

OKAY HAD A GREAT DAY AT EAST COAST PARK TODAYZ.!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously I sometimes wonder, if im really feeling emo, will I ever go to east coast to sit at the waves and just look at the peaceful waves there? I dont know, actually i might. The scenery is really nice, i love the sound of water calmly lapping against the breakwaters.

then again, I wish you were here with me. But its going to be a different year this year, i darent expect much/.

2011-01-27T18:49:00.000-08:00

You totally, absolutely caught me off guard. I never expected to see you right in my tracks. But I still succumbed to you, even if I said I was supposed to ignore you.

What th hell is wrong with me. :(

Anyway, your stare is really scary and threatening. I feel very uncomrtable as long as you're around me. Please go away.

2011-01-27T06:55:00.000-08:00

But you will always know that somehow you are something to me, and I'll be jumping into your arms just the minute I see your face. Whether how many km/m away, i'll just fly and the next minute I'm right next to you. How can I ever possibly ignore you?

2011-01-27T04:48:00.000-08:00

"It's not that I hate you.. it's just, put it
this way. if you were on fire and i had water, i'd drink it."

haha, I just deleted my blog. In other words, this post is privatised. Too many stalkers already and Im damn uncomfortable due to rubbish rumours sapreading around like wildfire. Okay fine, if the rumour was true, then I'll be okay with it but its not so im kinda fucked up with that bitch.

But also good, cause alot people asked me why I deleted my blog. Some people who I really had no idea they read such a small blog of mine. They even said its really interesting and its such a waste. Well, haha thanks, but too bad:)

I wont be back so soon.

Anyway, school's being a bitch so far. Its just too busy, like no time for anything else. Usually after school I'll go off to meet friends and chillaxxxxxx but now, nah. Totally have no time to finish my tutorials. Its like never ending and no matter how much I clear, its never gonna decline. Im really very annoyed because of this fact. Come on, I even have leftover holiday homework I havent even completed yet. Mj sucks. I really hate Singapore's education system alot, really. I even thought secondary school's O levels was hard, what the shit it is nothing compared to A lvls.

Yup, today's the orientation day for new J1s. So weird, i didnt see much pretty girls or boys, its disappointing. I'd like a school where majority of the people there are goodlooking! Im sorry, im not being superficial, I just like to observe people. It just becomes a habit.

Okay, I'm really disappointed today. It just sucks. I really expected more from you cause I thought you'd be happy too. But well, you just didnt even bother. Since you dont care, I shall act like I dont too. You're a secret I never dared to tell anyone. Never did, never will. But its okay, I wont really find you anymore, unless I happen to bump into you coincidentally. I never will be desperate enough to find you, trust me on this.

Today was a really bad day for me, I didnt bring my ez link card to school today. Then I wanted to pon school on CNY but fuck, they just had to make it so that all cg reps had to go school on that day. FUCK you mjc, fuck you. I hate you. Fucking ruined my life. Coincidentally, everyone else had a bad day today.

Now that my blog's privatised, I can post what I want, what I like. Its better this way. I just wish that Im forever a loner that have no friends in the school. I wish Im like someone that no one ever talks about, or give shit about. I just want to sit at a corner and emo myself. I just dont like it that when I go school, I have to put fake smiles. Act like Im happy but inside, Im not. Just that no one really cares whether youre sad or not, hence just act happy lor.

Anyway friend, hope that you're okay.

Thank you rebecca, for always being there. You even lent me your ez link card cause adult fare is damn expensive. Thanks alot, really, im really very glad to have a friend like you even though youre aunty sometimes :)

2011-01-22T08:53:00.000-08:00

“I too, am saddened if you’re sad. But then I realized someone’s gotta pull you up. In case you can’t.”

via T.

Mr bok is the best I want him back

2011-01-21T22:24:00.000-08:00

Hi. Just came back from netball tournament/ competition. Okay.

Firstly right, i was honestly DAMN pissed yesterday night cause of that fucking slut, hence I took it all out on today's match. Not to act popular or what, but quite some people asked why I'm so pissed or what but it's a long story I can't really explain. And also very paiseh for me to explain.

Okay anyway, back to the match today, I freaking hate the team. It just sucks, no questions asked. Not that I'm trying to act good/skillful or what, the entire team excluding some got netball background people, they don't even know the basics. At least if I overall suck, I kno the very basic leg movement. As in the jump leg, then must land on which side that kind. In all honesty and not trying to act cool or what, I can't stand it and I played until very pek chek and angry. Like dog running, even I want to take the slack position also cannot cause miss Choy didn't allow. Because if I take a slack position, there's people more lanpei than me and we confirm die at the back.

Damn annoyed. Of course after 2 matches I think the team damn Lao kui and i don't want to embarass myself together with everyone so I just opted to sit down and don't play. But miss Choy just didn't allow. Damn annoying man.

Somemore is the main court leh, court one. Everyone will watch one la. Even mr bok was standing there, together with yanxiu, mr tay and chun di. Honestly Mr bok still same size sia. Yup they all my previous coaches... Hah. Then I tried my best to camouflage with everyone and don't want let them(especially bok) see me, cause as I said again, the team SUCKS and I don't want mr bok to stand at the side there watch me in a lanpei team. He confirm say stuff like, " see la last time don't want train hard, now work like siao also cannot save anyone" lol.

In the end just played until damn pissed and and halfway just went off myself to secretly watch mr bok's club playing at the next court. It's CLUB leh, it's like all his best players from damai or dunno which other schools, playing as a team. That match damn interesting, I saw this damn FREAKING HOT girl who's also his star player in his club. She's honestly damn hotttt I can't get over it! But she's a butch.
Like guy guy. But I think she's one major hot butch, short hair and all. Sporty hot butches are damn sexy!!!

Remember how much I used to hate mr bok to death last time???? Suddenly right, with all my life, I wish he can come to Mj and coach us sia. Yup, LOL im damn serious!!!! Mj SUCKS TO DEATH and I pray to god that this year tournament the school won't even send a team for east zone. I rather get a little bit paiseh to don't send team, rather then send team and get thrashed 100 to 0 and then announce on morning jam. It's that bad, really!!!!

Oh and I found out mr bok changed car from his hideous red car and his club name is called "extremes". It's really sibei extreme!!!!!!

Gosh BOK I WANT YOU BACK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE save MJ!!!!!

Oh and so now, all of you who keep asking why I love to pon cca and just skip it without giving a shit ........ Finally you understand right???????!!!

And upcoming Monday there's training again, trust my entire balls that I will not be there.

LASTLY, to end this post off, I WANT TO BE A SEXY SPORTY BUTCH TOO!!!!! I want to chop off my hair and be a damn hot butch. Butches ftw!!!!!!!

No its okay

2011-01-20T04:57:00.000-08:00

WALAO I KNN HATE BANGLAS. From now onwards I will never stare or say hi any longer cause you're an asshole that deserves to die. Walao, damn fucking paiseh sia, even after that incident happened, my face was burning for 1 hour straight afterward. WALAO EH KANINA!!!!

LOL, walao!!!!! Paiseh ultra maximum!!!! Chloe said if that ever happened to her right, she whole life don't want to step into Mj anymore. But it's okay cause all my life, ever since I was born in my mama's tummy, i've been doing embarassing things for like everyday of my life. Got used to it already LOL, so I hardly give a fuck. Okay so you stupid sanjeevan shit banglah, if I ever see you one more time, I'm going to use divya's floorball stick to squash your balls and I'll make ball juice out of it SO WATCH ME honey I'm like damn capable of that.

Okay.

Just got home anyway after meeting. Waste my time only. I go there only for the free dinner. Which included pizza and chicken wings so ya... Whatever it's okay. Heh. FREE STUFF FTW.

YAY. At night later, a friend made my day, hahaha thank you so much. I felt alot better knowing sometimes the things i do, have some form of recognition. You see I was really having a rough day today so what you said albeit how small it was, I honestly appreciate it. Thanks. :)

Now, i'm prepared to run off with my honey belley tomorrow WALAO EH BELLE I got like kanina million things to tell you arghghgghgg and you'll be damn interested in SOMETHING which i'm gonna tell you. Honestly. Hahahaha. Meeting the rest of my favouritest people tomorrow. And despite having like 3 tests next week, I'm willing to screw them all up just for you all!!!!!! BE THANKFUL GUYS!!!!!!!! <3333333333

Haha, Going school early to meet Z cause she's having a rough day too (like me) so don't worry honey!!! I'll be there for you!!!! Even if I have to wake up early (which I hate). Love you!!!!!! ;)))

Okay buaiixxxx

Ya so what? I'm really just so goddamn frustrated. Its just not even my fault that its like that. Why? Okay maybe its my fault. But i can't help it if I'm always a loser who does things wrongly, screw things and just make myself look like shitting ugly like I am most of the time.

2011-01-19T04:41:00.000-08:00

If someone hurts you, make the bitch pay.

-Katy perry

WELL, I never. First for everything isn't it? Let me just say a cliché phrase to sum it up, "勉强是没有幸福的。＂
I kno my Chinese sucks, but still there's a valid point in the statement.

Anyway, lol I don't wanna be mean. Not gonna say anything else.

Okkkkk netball trng today shit my fitness is damn baddddddd argh I can faint like anytime. Honestly running 5/6 rounds will make me giddy and feel like throwing up. Walao! Signs of pregnancy. Okay jk. Knn!!!

Glad my Friday is free. At last, freedom. This entire week I have to stay back everyday for various reasons and tmr there's a kanina meeting that lasts for 5 kanina hours. WTF??????? But I'm only going because the teacher is treating us dinner at some restaurant. Free stuff I'm always going! First to volunteer, first to receive. LOL, auntie right. After I eat dinner alr tmr, I will find an excuse to pon the remaining 2 hours. Sly and cunning, I like it. I love myself. Smart and brilliant.

Hahahahahahaha okay whatever kiddingz.

Friday - LOOKING FORWARD to meet my babies :)))))))

Okay that's all. I'm feeling less stressed today. Monday and Tuesday were like hell I swear.

2011-01-17T22:17:00.000-08:00

Time to settle down my friend, I got my priorities right this time.
:(

2011-01-17T05:35:00.000-08:00

Busy like a motherfucking bitch. Honestly right, I hate Mj to death. I cant wait for this ENTIRE week to pass. Everyday I'm fully packed like a freaking dog and I want to die. Even my most precious Saturday is gone.

Oh and, just to add in for good measure, its only second week of school.

No but its okay, my engine's still burning. :)

2011-01-15T21:27:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt that you have to stare at a message for like superrrrr long trying to think of what to reply? It's like you can't say something stupid, and try to think of the best, smartest way to answer.

2011-01-14T20:41:00.001-08:00

SCREAMS "SLUT' AND WAVES MY HANDS IN THE AIR TTM.

WINI - If you can see this, I found someone to add onto mj fucked whores list. Heh. Slut tht cant keep her legs closed at all please !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay anyway going to town soon, yayyyyy, havent been breathing town air for very long alr!!!!!!!! I LOVE GNG TO TOWN. Gonna watch burlesque later. Hehehehehhe wooo woooo :)

Tonight we’re going ha-ha-har-hard
Just like the world is ours-ours-ours
We’re tearin’ it apart -pa-pa-part
You know we’re superstars
We R who we R!
We’re dancing like we’re dumb
Our bodies go numb
We’ll be forever young
You know we’re superstars