There's Hope in the City

2012-08-11T15:07:00.002-07:00

You may notice above that it looks like there are selections of voting options, but no question! Well, Blogger is having some issues with it's gadget feature, but that's not what matters to you.

I'm calling on everyone to PLEASE vote above on the following question:
The government and laws were created with the intent of providing and protecting certain rights. One of the most basic rights is the right to thought--which includes opinions and beliefs. So, should the government provide laws defending someone's opinion to be prejudiced and discriminate? For the sake of argument, assume that the discrimination is not allowed to be violent or abusive.

I would also cherish your comments at the bottom of this post. After my survey is over, I may explain why this is such an important question to me. I've literally lost sleep over thinking about what the government's role is in allowing the liberty of thought but also respecting and providing for basic human rights. I'm wrestling to define this for myself, but I want to see where you, my beloved followers, stand on this issue.

Thank you, and you shall hear from me soon on this :) Spread the word for other people to vote on this, please!

Hope

Are You Ready to be Challenged for the Stand You Took on Wednesday?

2012-08-03T06:30:00.001-07:00

Are You Ready to be Challenged for the Stand You Took on Wednesday?

This Wednesday may not have been the most proud moment for many Christians, Republicans, Freedom-of-Speechers, or Homosexual vigilantes. Don't believe me? Read on, and comment on the end if you so choose.

I want to be thorough, so I want to fully explain my background first. I believe that people shouldn't be identified by any one factor. I especially don't think that sexual orientation should be the way that you look at a person or accept them. I believe that admitting homosexuality, regardless of how accepting your friends and family are, is incredibly difficult because it takes admitting that you are still going against what people and science says is normal. I defended this Chick-Fil-A Appreciation Day all over Facebook and in conversations with friends. I was excited that people all over America were standing up for Economic Freedoms, Religious Freedoms, and Freedoms of Speech. However, my greatest fear happened.

As you watch the video above you may immediately notice Ms. Tracy's clearly fallacious logic, or the simpleton speech of the first interviewee, or the female pastor. But what you may not notice, because Christians have gotten supremely numb at noticing, is the hurt and the anger that Ms. Tracy is expressing in this video. She is just one example of thousands of people in America, who, on Wednesday, felt ostracized and persecuted for their sexual identity.

Before you start gathering your pitchforks and torches, hear me out. I have many beliefs on homosexuality which would take too many pages for me to explore here. Supremely above what I believe on the practice, though, is my understanding of God's loving nature. Even though this day was not meant (by those who organized it) to feel like an LGBT persecution day, it was another example of Christians appearing hateful and superior. I'm not saying the Appreciation Day shouldn't have happened, but I think the masses of America will quickly notice some hypocrisy amongst the people who supported this event.

If Mike Huckabee had called for a National Help the Homeless Day, would you have spent 2 hours doing that? Or would you have written a check? If he had called for a National Clean Your Local Parks Day, would you have helped? Or would you have Tweeted about it and left it to other people? And if an openly homosexual person owning a large chain of stores was being told to shutdown some of his locations because of his personal support of the LGBT, would you have all gone and waited hours in line for HIS rights? Or would you be the one telling him to shut down his stores?

The hard part about this past Wednesday is that S. Truett Cathy made a statement about a widely controversial religious topic. If he had just said something about the President and some stores were asked to close, very few people would think to organize a rally. But Wednesday, though it was about freedoms, appeared to be about another issue entirely. It shouldn't have been, but that's how it came across. There was even a Chick-Fil-A in Texas which gave out free sandwiches to people who said they were against homosexuality. Such is the nature of national events which cannot be completely controlled.

Thank you, everyone, who supported CFA for the right reasons. I hope your voice was heard! But for the future, let's think about how our rally's may be perceived. Today, some people in the homosexual community have decided to go to Chick-Fil-As all across America and show PDA in the restaurants as a counter-rally. Let's make sure that somehow, be it through social media or personal interactions, we show that our incredible overwhelming love for God explodes from our every action and speech such that people of all orientations, races, and personalities know that we love them more than the cause.

2012-07-30T07:52:00.000-07:00

God is just too good

So, I have just had the most incredible summer, and it's not over! I really feel that God wants me to blog about it because it always encourages people when we share the ways God can always be a blessing, right? Therefore, this post is going to have more of a personal update feel rather than the typically eccentric story-like form I take.

The beginning of this summer, I was moving into a new apartment in Brooklyn. I will honestly say, I had more stress at that point in my life, than at most. I was literally broke. I didn't have a penny to my name, I went weeks with very little food. I was required to be the epitome of what I abhor--a mooch. Then, I had some difficulties with my roommate because I have such a hard time with empathy over pragmatism sometimes. This is when God taught me my desire for efficiency, yet the pitfall of arrogance which often accompanies it. So, I spent days praying and begging God to provide for me. In a nutshell, I had 40 days (give or take a little) to make $1750 so that I could pay for all my expenses prior to and during my travels to China. Well, He provided for me above and beyond that! I also struggled during this time with whether or not I should tithe. Some weeks, my tithe was almost the entire remainder of my savings account, but I went through with it. I sincerely learned to walk by faith. But God gave me just enough money to pay all my bills with a small cushion for my return to New York.

Then, in China, God was merciful and wonderful on many days. No one on our trip got any sort of intestinal sickness, which is remarkable. This was my greatest fear because, as some of you may know, I have a strong mental aversion to vomiting (etc.). Not only did we stay healthy, but God gave us many open doors to share the gospel with students whom we otherwise never be able to approach with God's word. There was also an incident with a wardrobe malfunction, and as silly as it seemed, when God provided a way for it to be remedied, I felt like His hand was totally at work! God surely does provide for all the seemingly small and great needs :)

Upon my return to Texas, I encountered some relationship difficulties with people I wasn't expecting. But in this time, I take it as a huge blessing that God seemed to slap me with a mirror reflecting many of my shortcomings. I appreciated this and counted this as a gift because now I know how to serve others better and place myself second. I have never before been so humbled my all the things God wants to work on in me. I also had the opportunity during this short visit to help at one of the teen camps I used to attend in high school. This was a HUGE gift to me because I'd always wanted to, but I never had a full summer free to travel with this organization. The owner of this camp let me go with them for one week to their camp in Texas, and I was amazed at the presence of the Lord in that place. I helped lead 2 people to Christ and watched as 2 of my friends got their lives right with God. I also was able to spend time with some of my dearest friends during that week. God just kept pouring into me through people, experiences, and gifts in such a way that I'm left speechless and overwhelmed by His undeserving mercies.

Finally, I've been in New York for less than a week now and God has already shown up! Some of you may know that when I moved to this new apartment, I had no furniture in my room because I couldn't afford it. I was blessed by a free dresser and end table that friends gave me. But then this weekend, out of the blue, my old professor called and told me that she'd be willing to give me her futon if I'd help by cleaning her old apartment. So now, I have an incredible, new, and comfortable bed and it wasn't even something I was worried or praying about!

During all these times of provision, whether I was looking for them or not, God just kept reminding me of the phrase in the Lord's prayer, "give me this day my daily bread." That's all I for which I need to ask! I don't need tomorrow or next year's necessities. I don't need to know exactly where I'm going or how I'm going to take care of everything. As much as this goes against my temperament, there's an incredible freedom and peace in Him that words just can't describe. So I encourage you, if you're going through a time of disparity, pray and ask others to pray, but don't let worry overwhelm you. I mean what's the worst that could happen? If you don't trust me, just try it with one thing you're in desperate need of. Tell God it's His and that you aren't going to try and psychoanalyze it, plan it, or control it. Just try it once and see if God doesn't provide in incredible ways that you couldn't have expected! It may not always look the way you planned, but just trust that He is the great provider and planner.

And for those of you going through smooth patched, I implore you to find ways to give! There are so many people out there who need what you can give! If that looks like being a prayer warrior, writing a check for a friend in need, helping a non-profit, or just cleaning out your home and donating some stuff to Salvation Army, I beg you to give as much as you can. There's nothing that grows you or blesses you as quickly as giving of the little that you have to help people so that God can also provide for you when the situation reverses!

Well, I love you all :) Feel free to send snail-mail, care packages, or just Bible verses to me at my new place! My address is in the "About Me" section. Now, go be givers!

John 16:33
Hope

2012-06-01T17:04:00.000-07:00

I'm BAAAACCCKK!

Hello all! I sincerely apologize for not posting anything for a long time. Turns out, my addiction to over-achieving and my constant inability to say, "no" means that I was I was booked with work up to my ears and this had to be pushed to the end of my to-do list. However, I'm excited to be back, and I'll be writing again!

So here's the hizzity happs:

I have only one week until my trip to China. Thank all of you for your prayers and support. I actually over-fundraised by $150! This is all thanks to your generosity, and I'm incredibly amazed by how God pulled me through this experience.

I have also moved! I'm now living in Brooklyn with Kacey (one of the girls I roomed with this past semester). We LOVE it. The area feels suburban, residential, and quaint. Care packages, as always, are extremely welcome!

As far as school, it ended well, and I got almost exactly the grades I wanted. Basically, Dean's List was my goal, and I reached it!

I'm also set to be on the executive team for our theater organization here on the TKC campus. I also have a new academic advisor who is brilliant and producer her musical off-broadway (hopefully soon on broadway!).

For now, I'm just working several nannying jobs with the hopes that I will have enough money before I leave for China for 2 months of rent while I'm gone.

So, while I'm in China:

We will have our own team blog that you can follow while we're in country. While I would like to personally stay involved with all of you, I will ask that you do not email, text, call, or Skype me. This is for our own protection, but I also will not have access to most forms of communication while I'm gone.

Needs List:

So just because it's been a while, and I'm living pay-check to pay-check, I'm unashamed to speak of my needs because I know that's how God provides! I love you all, and thank you for sticking with me.

Prayer, prayer, prayer. Mostly for safety in China and God's wisdom and words while I'm there. Also, that I make enough money for rent this summer before my regular job picks up again in the fall.
Giftcards to healthy restaurants like Subway. Also, giftcards to Trader Joe's for groceries would be helpful!
Swiffer duster handle
Air freshener
Bug spray for our home; preferably the kind that is meant as a protective barrier around the house.
Trash bags for a 13-gallon trash can
Shower spray
Paper towels and toilet paper
Strainer
Ikea gift cards because as of now, I don't have any furniture in my room.

Thank you all for everything and I'll be writing again soon!!

**Hope**

2012-01-20T10:42:00.000-08:00

Ever wanted to learn the history behind a fairy tale?
Perhaps this sounds a little random, but this is a presentation I put together for a class with my friend, Chris Kendall. I wanted to share this because Sleeping Beauty is one of my favorite fairy tale stories. The implications of her resurrection and the ability for time to affect no mortal in the story is quite fascinating. More interesting than that, though, are the horrific stories from which our traditional Disney plot was derived.
All in all, I learn crazy and wonderful new things here and The King's College and like to share the things which most peak my interest! So, click on the link below to watch a Prezi presentation. Also, feel free to click on the source links at the end to get more info on the story's international history!
CLICK HERE FOR SLEEPING BEAUTY PRESENTATION
God Bless :) Updates on my life to come.

Hope

2012-01-06T14:49:00.000-08:00

2011 RECAP

To be completely honest, this year has overwhelmed me. This post will be completely transparent as I want to share the growth and weaknesses this year has revealed about me. I'm also tying in songs that summarize my feelings about each month which correspond to the link below for my 2011 countdown playlist. This will be lengthy, but thanks for reading!!

January was wonderful and my final semester of highschool was closing in. I remember that sinking feeling of oncoming loss already setting in. I wanted to make the most of every moment because I was afraid of losing friends. Looking back, I was right. I lost a lot of friends because of distance and time constraints, but I don't love any of them less. To those of my friends about to go through this phase, allow yourself to prepare for this. Don't think you'll always be the exception, but embrace every moment now. The most defining moment of that month, though, was the moment I was hurt by the two people who love me the most. It was a trying time for us and I still hate that it happened. For the record, to me, it's not that incident which helped our relationship but rather my allowance for independence. I have so much love for them, but I hope that one day I will find a gracious way to forget how I felt that day. [The explanation for my song choice this month is too lengthy. If you know me well, you'll know why Falling by Florence + The Machine is perfect here.]

February was truly a month of love and surprises. I got my first bouquet of black roses which I loved and the school year was truly hectic. I couldn't decide on colleges, was hectically auditioning and applying for scholarships. Competition for One Act was in full swing and I was trying to live it all up. It's my favorite month and it was a good time. [Looking back, Judas by Lady Gaga seems appropriate. Do not, however, take this as a look back on my choices as ones I regret. I honestly wish if everything were fixed that things could've worked out.]

March was a month of broken hearts and dreams. I felt lost and scared and I realized I project hopes and dreams too much on those I love because I want the most for them. Flaw or gift, I do not know, but that forced me to be awoken by many harsh realizations. Sometimes God truly pulls things away from you to show you that you cannot make someone better regardless of the love and effort you put into them. They must want and realize God's dreams for them. [Amy Winehouse's song, Love is a Losing Game perfectly summarizes my feelings during this period.]

April was a time of turning over new leaves. I rushed into too many things trying so desperately to salvage the last of my happy memories before college hit me in the face. I gave someone my care and my pain in such a short time. I hate myself for hurting that best friend and damaging that relationship. But that was the month of my final highschool proms. It was the best proms I've ever had. I loved the nights and felt like a princess both times. It was a magical month with many lessons learned. [The friend I hurt will know why the song Firework has meaning. It's not because of the lyrics but because the artist is Katy Perry. For him, I must dedicate that song (which was a surprise song included in my recital) to the month of April.]

May was wild with graduation plans, parties, pictures, AP exams, recitals, college choices, and job searching. I've never felt so stressed thin and pushed for so many deadlines at once. It was definitely a time of growth for me. I was forced to make decisions about my future which I honestly couldn't prepare for. I spent more time in prayer this month than I ever do begging God for His direction (which I'm blessed to say, I honestly have found). I also began working like crazy to save for this lovely life I now live in the Big City![I sang Don't Forget to Remember Me by Carrie Underwood and my senior recital and actually choked up a bit, but not as much as Taylor! lol But I honestly can't imagine a better song for my sentiments in May.]

June was when my relationship with Josh blossomed. I love what we have now, and I'm grateful every day that God has given me a strong man to trust. Things are always complicated and no one predicts the future, but I am secure in the present. I found a second family with Mommy, Pappi, Titi, Billy, Rita, Allan, Paola, Alejandro, and Sebastian. They all loved me so completely and gave me a safe and secure place to live, love and be myself. If God didn't bring these people in my life, I don't know that I would ever feel as safe away from home as I do now. [Josh showed me the song How To Love by Lil Wayne and that's when I began to appreciate this artist. It's our song.]

July was wild and crazy! I can't count all the times Pablo, Kyle, Omar, Nathan, Jackie, Rachel and I hung out. I was certainly out of my house a lot shopping, having sleepovers, and sleepily driving home after long days of socialization and work. I'm so glad that this month was the end to the summer of my life. [I'll never forget when I heard Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 in Jackie's car. It became the anthem of my summer.]

August was move-in time. I will be honest, I cried for 15 minutes after my mother left me at my New York apartment. I was scared for about that long, until my roommate Kacey came home. I was scared the money wouldn't work out and fearful that I wouldn't be able to handle the academic that workload. Even now, I find myself feeling those stresses again. After how smoothly everything went last semester though, and trusting that God will provide for His will, I'm no longer afraid. I am secure in Him now and that's all I have to remember. School started for me on my birthday and it was weird not celebrating, but I think it was better that way. Humility has always been a struggle for me. [Because it's cliche and overused, I almost feel obligated to place the song Empire State of Mind by

September was rather mundane. I was still job searching, studying hard, and avoiding a social life at King's. I have this problem of associating having friends with not having time to do homework. I had a super hard time settling in (though it honestly didn't affect me) and I just went about my studies. I was just beginning to get into a rhythm with things and adjusting to my roommate situation. There were many King's ceremonies and rituals and competitions thrust upon me at this time, but I suppose I liked it. I was definitely kept busy. I also met my Big B (like a big sister program in our house) and we became fast friends. [Invisible by Skylar Grey isn't how I felt about this particular time but rather a remembrance of how such anonymity use to affect me. Think of it like an expression of my growth.]

October was the month of tests. I had my first week of college midterms and was afraid for my life. I have come to define myself by my grades (a terrible habit!) and I hardly slept that week. This was also the month I started my job with the most wonderful boss in the world (Courtney) taking care of the most incredible kid I've ever met (Olivia). I had to get used to a 5:30 AM alarm daily for work. This was also the month I made a mistake. I trusted too easily again. I hurt people I love and I assumed someone's word as a friend was honest. I was naive and too forgiving of someone's obvious faults. I have learned now and I value those close to me so much more because of it. [Should this person read this post, he would know why Teenage Dream is the song for this month. Someone I cared about showed it to me and I just have to put it on the playlist though I've put it on a playlist before.]

November was a selfish month on my part. I was living for myself because I pretty much thought I could get away with it. I was working harder than ever in school, but also trying to hard to express my independence and ability to choose my own lifestyle. I let down my new family, and for that, I'm sincerely sorry. I temporarily lost one of my best friends, but I'm so glad she and I are good again!! I was blessed by finding a church home at Calvary at St. George's and 3 new part-time nannying positions. This was also the month of the theatre production at my school and I was thrilled with its success. I developed many friends and a mentor whom I highly esteem. This was the month I truly began to see my potential and future here in NYC. I also came home quickly for Thanksgiving and was reminded about all the things for which I'm working. It was a rejuvenating blessing. [Again, I know I've already used the song, Money by the Flying Lizards, but it's a great song. We used this is in our production of The Good Person of Setzuan in November.]

December was probably my most difficult academic month this past semester. I had finals which I was sure would be the death of me. I'm pretty sure I drank more espresso than is legal. I also worked more cumulative hours before I came home than I do in a normal month. I got sick just before I came home, but had the most marvelous 9 days. I love all the love everyone showed me and all the fun I had while I was home. To those who I didn't get to see: I'm genuinely sorry from the bottom of my heart. I had many familial demands as well as previously made plans, and unfortunately couldn't fit everything in. Just know that I love all of you have been there for me, lifted me up in prayer, and I never forget you even though I may not have time to communicate with you. [Dance (A$$ by Big Sean was introduced to me and became the funniest, dumbest, yet best dance song I heard in a long time!]

Well thank you everybody for following me these past few months! I admit December was a lazy month and I didn't do what I should for my blog followers, but I'm back and in full force! Please lift me up in prayer, though, because I have a 20 hour semester and I'm in 5 organizations and potentially in an exec position on one of them. I also lost the one professor I was closest to who was the best mentor I could've chosen for my college career. Just pray that God brings someone even better in my path and will help me have the energy to survive such an arduous path. I love you all and I would love for you to refer this blog, subscribe, comment, and +1 me!

CLICK HERE FOR THE CORRESPONDING PLAYLIST

2011-12-14T11:43:00.000-08:00

~~College Needs!~~
Well, it's that time again--Christmas :) So I hope that all of you are having a wonderful holiday season! We sure are here in 9C. Today, Chloe went home to New Hampshire to visit her family for a month (lucky girl!), and Kacey will leave Monday to go back to Colorado. I will leave next Friday to be in Texas for 9 days, so those of you wishing to make plans with me, get to texting now!! Not to take advantage of this typically generous time of year, I have created another lists of some things that we need around here along with wants and prayer requests. Thank you so much to all of you who have anonymously (and not so anonymously!) sent care packages! Everything is desperately needed and greatly appreciated. So read on, send as you can, but if nothing else, please lift us up in your prayers!

~~Needs:~~

one of those cables that goes from the computer to the tv (not sure what it's called)
air freshener
dish soap (like liquid dawn)
stain remover (tide or resolve)
paper towels

~~Wants:~~

still non-perishable foods like rice, macaroni, instant oatmeal or potatoes, chips, soups, canned veggies, pasta, cookie mix, etc. (groceries get quite expensive and the staples are used up quickly!!)
gift cards to restaurants: subway, wendy's, olive garden, mcdonald's, jamba juice, pizza hut, etc.
or gift cards to stores: target, amazon, kmart, forever 21, h&m, dillard's, macy's, jcpenny's, etc.
small rugs to put at the apartment doors that go with a red/black/white/gray color scheme
spatula and whisk

~~Prayer Requests:~~

the $3800 I need to go to China
safe traveling for all of us as we head home
for Chloe's sister dealing with some issues at her school
that Kacey and I will be able to juggle all our babysitting jobs next semester
for me to find more scholarship money and/or that my tuition appeal to the school would go well
the girls I work with at Operation Exodus in Washington Heights: 8th graders who come from difficult family backgrounds who need to trust people and be shown love
just lift up this next semester in prayer and that we would all be rejuvenated over the break to give our best effort in glorifying God next year

Well, thank you so much for however you're able to contribute to this list. We love and appreciate our family and friends who are always so good to take care of us :) As always, tell your friends about my blog, subscribe, comment and stay updated, and the address for package shipping is in the far right column under the "about me" section.

God Bless!

The Girls in 9C

House Film!!

2011-12-08T13:29:00.001-08:00

I just wanted I share the film my house presented for the interregnum film competition. I am proudly a sister in the House of Clara Barton! This is similar to the Hogwart's housing system combined in ivy league houses sororities/fraternities. It's a fantastic system and each year, there are a variety of competitions which culminate to one proud house earning the house cup. We somehow ranked 2nd overall and we did this in one night because we were misinformed about the due date. But I thought you could all have a good laugh an get a glimpse of what nerds do to be humorous :P you may not understand some of the King's jokes (like each boy represents a guy from each of the boys houses). I play the boy representing The House of Ronald Reagan. Well, laugh and enjoy!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48GNl8cO6pM&feature=youtube_gdata_player

2011-12-07T07:05:00.001-08:00

Christmas and China

I just want to thank you so much if you've been following and trying to keep up with me. I apologize that these last few weeks have been lacking posts on my part, so please forgive me! This week is finals week. I have 2 exams this Friday and 2 on Monday. Please keep myself and my two roommates in your prayers as we try to get all this information crammed into our heads!

For those of you who don't know, I did get to go home for thanksgiving. I surprised my family (for the most part) and it was a great time! Special shout-out to the Crews family for having me over that weekend and the Cobar family for making me feel at home. To everyone I didn't see, I sincerely apologize but when you only have 96 hours to see people, and your family demands most of that, you feel quite stretched :P But I love everyone in Texas so much and cannot wait to see everyone!

I also have extremely exciting news about this summer. After a strenuous application process and much prayer, I've been selected to go with a team of students from my school to China for three weeks through a program we call International Ventures. I will be taking a class this semester to prepare in which I'll do fundraising activities, spiritual growth lessons, and help write a worldview/western civilization curriculum which will be part of our mission in China. The students on this mission are set to write this curriculum which reflects what we teach as our common core here at King's. We are then presenting it to prestigious academic institutions in China and telling them how they can teach this to their students as a sort of Western Civilization course. Part of our mission will also be to minister and build relationships with the students over there and really help share our faith with them. It's not a missions trip but it's also not a scholarly venture. It's a beautiful mixture of the two and I'm extremely blessed as a freshman to be chosen for this! I will have to raise $3,800 to go, so please help me be in prayer for that! With all that I have going on next semester, it will be a little overwhelming, but I feel that this is something God wants me to do and I can't wait to see how He'll use me!

Lastly, I'll just mention Christmas nonsense. I may be coming home for Christmas, but flights are really expensive. Please be in prayer that God will provide the funds for me to spend a little bit of time with my family and friends this holiday season. I really would appreciate that! I will be posting a needs/want list soon so that if you're feeling festive, you can some some lovely gifts our way!

Thank you again for reading this lengthy note and staying involved in my life. It means the world to me that y'all care enough to stay updated and I promise my postings will get better when I get through finals week :)

Much love, in Christ!

2011-11-29T08:16:00.001-08:00

NOVEMBER PLAYLIST

^^^^ That is a link to a playlist of songs which have really stood out to me lately. I've decided to try sharing some of my favorite tunes with you and speak through music rather than always words. Each song has a special meaning, but don't try to analyze it too much :) Just enjoy some good jams and possibly some new artists for you!

As always, thanks for following! Quick shout-out to a couple of new blogs I love:
http://www.takethelocalglobal.com
http://www.dormliberation.com/

I will be posting soon about all of the fantastic Turkey Day festivities.

2011-11-15T06:36:00.001-08:00

I just wanted to post a quick "thank you" here to everyone who follows me and especially to those who send packages according to our needs/wants lists. I have received two anonymous packages which seem to come at just the right time when I'm about to run out of something. I take this honestly as a blessing and sign of God's provision. For those of you wrapping us in prayer and encouragement, I thank you from the depths of my heart. I haven't felt much loneliness since I've been in the city, and I've been overwhelmed by the general success that I've had here. I don't take any of that lightly, and I give all the credit to God. Your prayers (and gifts of course!) do mean the world to me.
My roommates would also like to thank whoever sent us the coffee! We go through the elixir of life more quickly than anything.
So keep following my posts, subscribe to me, click on my ads (an effortless way to make me money!), and feel free to look at the bottom of the page for more ways to follow me! I look forward to posting things here, and I don't know that many people actually pay attention to it, but it's a nice way for me to feel like I'm sharing all the fun I'm having with everyone I love! Now that I've gotten your feedback on what you'd like to see on my blog--though feel free to keep commenting on my page--I'll do my best to deliver what you'd actually like to read! God bless, and keep sharing my blog with others :)

Hope and the girls in 9C

2011-11-11T17:07:00.001-08:00

This weekend, Kacey and I went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art! It was extra credit for two of her classes and one of mine.

The satirical drawing above is done by Thomas Nast. The Renaissance painting with Kacey next to it is by Jacopo Amogini. I hope you enjoy these goofy pics! It's a great museum (go if you can). The entrance is by donation, so we actually paid $1 total for the two of us. (Give more if you can!)
Thanks for keeping up with the 9C shenanigans :)

2011-11-08T13:55:00.000-08:00

~~Synthetic Sausage Nightmare~~

Beginning in middle school, I knew more than any sixth grader should ever know about commercial animal slaughtering for food chains and grocery stores. Needless to say, I acquired an aversion to almost all meat products not advertised as free-range. This habit remains with me; though on occasion, out of respect for others’ cooking efforts, I break my own code. Since I’ve been in New York, street vendors and friends alike hound me to “let loose” and try such authentic local foods like halal food, Philly cheesesteaks, and hot dogs. This weekend, I am venturing out for the first time to get one of Nathan’s Famous hot dogs.

Now, this whole idea of avoiding vendors serving tortured meats began with several PETA videos. So as I walked the two blocks from my Midtown apartment to Nathan’s, I had to overcome mental images of persecuted cows raised in confined unlivable conditions. Totally unrelated to the situation at hand but adding to the challenge ahead of me was that I had to march twenty-five minutes in the cold down slush covered streets with chilling winds biting my cheeks. My adventure was already off to a great start.

As I walked into the shop, a short Indian woman called out to “Hector” for “more dogs on the grill. ASAP.” (These were lovely words for my already overactive imagination.) When I stepped up to the counter, I asked for a number one combo—including one hot dog, fries, and a drink—with their “Old Fashioned Orangeade” since I was feeling especially spontaneous.

After waiting only a few minutes, a brown bag was placed in my hands, and I walked quickly back to my toasty abode. Once securely comfortable in my living room chair with orangeade in one hand and “dog” in the other, I sunk my teeth into the all beef hot dog smothered in ketchup.

First, I saw a vision of Elsie, the Bordens Dairy cow, begging for her life. (Okay, so a little too dramatic.) Then, I tasted the almost foreign flavor of burnt meat like the hot dog sandwiches my grandpa made when I was in elementary school. I had forgotten how chewy those little synthetic tubes of packed meat are. After the first bite, I chugged about half of my fizzy orange soda at once.

Disgusted by what I did, I offered my roommate the rest of the hot dog. She laughed and told me I had to finish what I started. Then, she looked at me and said, “It’s all in your head, you know.”

2011-11-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

It has often been said that christians are

so heavenly minded as to be of no

earthly good. Every time a follower of

Jesus Christ forsakes a so-called secular

occupation and claims to an intention to

go into "full-time Christian service," she

is in effect relegating a huge portion of

the total fabric of human life to

something or someone other than the

Savior of the world. For the biblically

astute Christian, there are no "sacred"

and "secular" occupations, only obedient

and disobedient ones.

2011-11-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

Dear People of the city of Plano,
You have your beautiful parks and your neatly trimmed yards. There are four malls within fifteen minutes of each other and dozens of overpriced salons on each coerner. Yet a drift has come between us. Those of you "Westsiders" are obsessed with your Gucci, Mercedes, and Ugg labels. But you "Eastsiders" have taken pride in being the West's antithesis! Plano West Senior High School is known for the exorbitant club fees and slutty cheerleaders drunk off daddy's money. Plano East Senior High School is "the pharmacy" and gang school whose only positive attribute is the minority's academic achievements.
The city is consumed with an insular mindset concerned only with image and status. Can't we stop this tiff? However it started, none of us know, but shouldn't one of America's safest and most prosperous cities set a better example? My first week in New York, a professor asked where I was from and when I said, "Plano, Texas," her first thought was mass suicide! While this isn't accurate or directly my point, it's time we gave ourselves a better rep. The teens are killing each other in a war of stilettos and weed. And the parents fight over mansions and job titles. Perhaps our generation won't kill themselves over this, but regardless, things are out of control. It's time we make peace, the East and the West, and just become plain-old Plano.

2011-10-29T12:30:00.000-07:00

Let. It. SNOW!!
This is the most beautiful thing I have seen in New York! I knew this day would come and I would have to face the snow of the Northeast. I also understand that this is still the honeymoon phase of my time here, and eventually I will be sick of this fluffy white gift.
I have spent 5 hours in rehearsal for The Good Person of Setzuan and have 3 hours left to go. So when the flurries brushed passed the window panes, of course, I had to run outside.

It's beautiful and romantic. I want to grab a steamy cup of coffee and lounge under blankets on the roof or dance down the streets singing wintery music. I love today, with the exception that I'm cooped inside and don't have a snow buddy.

Today has been a little blessing from God! I feel like after the stressful past two weeks, I now have a little gift from Heaven to relish for the rest of the weekend. So if you live in the City and wanna come to the roof with me, let's go! If you aren't here watching this lovely display, just pray that God keeps me sheltered but keeps the snow coming!

2011-10-26T10:35:00.000-07:00

~~College Needs!~~

As promised, I am updating you with some things that those few of us who occupy Apartment 9C would love have shipped our way! There are things that we want, and things that we absolutely need, but anything you can do to help will be magnificent! As always, the prayer requests are the most important because spiritual health is more life-giving that physical health. Our address is listed on the previous "College Needs" post and also on my facebook page under Information in the "About Me" section.

~~Needs:~~

Keurig coffe pods (preferably the chai latte or dark roast coffee flavors)
Latex gloves
Cash for metro cards
Swiffer dust mop sheets (dry)
Daily shower cleaner spray

~~Wants:~~

Travel mugs
Gift Cards: subway, mcdonald's, starbucks, dunkin donuts,
Clothes!! (with winter coming, we're all gonna die :P) so giftcards to- forever 21, macy's, h&m, buffalo exchange, american eagle, abercrombie & fitch, etc.
Coasters (preferably ones that work with a red/black/gray/white color scheme)
DVDs. all genres are loved by the 9C girls :)

~~Prayer Requests:~~

that we would have the motivation to study hard and excel
for the possibility of me doing a study abroad program at Oxford fall 2012
financial provisions
Kacey in her long distance relationship
Chloe with just general adjustment to college life
for opportunities to become evident to us of God's provision which will open doors to help with our futures
strength of character/witness

Thank you so much in advance for helping us out! Some of you have sent us food (Thank you Kacey's parents and Josh)! Grocery bills have been a lot lower because of that. Anything else y'all can contribute as we continue to work off our tails in the Big Apple would be so greatly appreciated :) We love you very much and we promise to make you proud <3

The Girls in 9C

2011-10-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

New York's Gotten Wasted!
(A few personal observations from my time on the streets)

No such thing as a “typical street” in New York City exists. For some areas like Queens, Brighton Beach, or Brooklyn, streets are littered with cigarette butts, coke cans, gum, and various other trash. Other more attractive streets can be found in Midtown and the Upper East and West Sides. The filthy condition of some New York streets has been an assumption of outsiders for decades. But after those outsiders have visited, moved in, and passed the honeymoon phase, the environment is much less than comfortable and at moments unbearable.

According to the New York Department of Sanitation, according to Fiscal 2011, 94.5% of all New York streets were deemed “acceptably clean.” After hours on the sanitation website and rummaging through useless and mostly outdated documents (such as the Mayor’s current street cleaning proposal dated 2006), I found that the percentage is measured by pictures sent in from 6,000 “sample blocks.” Of these clean blocks, some marginal number from 50%-69.9% were actually rated dirty according to the “seven-point picture-based” criterion of the cleaning scale.

However, some initiatives exist around NYC that assist with this growing predicament. One of the most well developed programs is the 34^th Street Partnership. This partnership is entirely privately funded and helps maintain security and sanitation over a 31-block area from 10^th to Park Avenue and 31^st through 36^th Street. On almost all of the streets, one person with a large rolling trashcan and cleaning equipment passes by picking up debris and changing trashcan bags. The small park in Herald Square has tables and chairs with the sponsored organization’s logo on it. Not only are the furnishings cute and stylish, but also as clean as the streets surrounding them.

Walking around this sector, I saw a middle aged man with a bleach white sweat suit uniform and large blue rolling trashcan passed me on the corner of 33^rd and 7^th. When I asked, the man beamed and said his name was Barry. I inquired if he enjoyed his job, and he said he loved it because his supervisors cared about him and the team was a real family. Barry went on to say that “even if it’s just minimum wage, it’s a job. With forty hours a week and only four days a week, I can’t be more grateful doing something I feel helps keep my community clean.”

In our conversation, Barry shared why he loved his job, but with an 8.7 unemployment rate which is the highest in New York State, associations like the 34^th Street Partnership can provide more for New York City than job satisfaction. If the city is willing to trash its lanes, then it’s the city’s onus to clean it up.

2011-10-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

My Prayer
Father, this is my prayer in all of my weakness. This is when I cry out to you because only you are sovereign and only you can can give me the strength to follow Your will regardless of how painful it may seem. Thank you for being my Daddy, that strong place of comfort in my life when everything else seems to be falling apart. Thank you for holding me in Your loving arms and assuring me that everything will be ok. In your will there is peace. I only feel at unrest because I worry what others will think of me if I stick in your will.
Father, I ask now that you will show those whom I love why I must surrender myself to what You want. I pray that you'll show them Your will too so that it doesn't seem like I'm blindly or idiotically choosing things that are wrong. I need you to clear the way for me now and prepare the hearts of those whom I must confront.
I feel safe in Your will and in Your arms, but that doesn't always mean I feel happy. Sometimes, knowing that I have to take the brave steps to do Your bidding makes my stomach churn with fear and nervousness. I am uncertain of my human abilities to execute everything in love, but I pray you'll give that to me. Speak to me and through me and give the hearers Your grace and patience. I know that in all things you work together for good. I have seen the good which will come, but Lord, I know not everyone has.
For once I think that I'll be doing something to better myself, my future, and my spiritual walk. Naturally, I have been met with the most adversity for that. Just hold my hand as I walk along this path. This is Your journey for me, not one I've chosen. I give it up in Your hands now. You know what I hope to see from this and You know the future I desire. Selfishly, I will ask You to keep that in mind as You plan out these next years :) But I don't want to ask too much. All I desire is Your wisdom and the self-control to obey it.
I love you so much, Daddy.

Hope

2011-10-01T11:19:00.000-07:00

random update

So last night, I ventured to the homecoming boy's soccer game against Copper Union. I walked the wrong way in the rain to find the 6 train. Once I found it, I waiting in the wrong line for the M35 bus. After I got on the right bus, I was surrounded by a bunch of old men and found my way to the soccer field. We lost by quite a bit...but I have to say in complete honesty and I promise no sarcasm, I had a blast! I got drenched in the rain (which I love!!) and I felt like I was really supporting my school :)

Oh, and today, there's a parade for Korea. Hahahaha....good times.

2011-09-25T15:26:00.000-07:00

Shiny Pink Gems With Silver Stars

"This one was from my great-great-great-great-grandmother," Olivia stated pulling out a beautiful antique gold necklace with amber and emerald stones.
"Really, Olivia?" I said with a smile. "I can't believe you got to meet your great-great-great-great-grandma!"
"Well..." Olivia paused. "She's actually just my great-grandmother."
"I see," I stated. Then I paused and looked at her searching for the real meaning behind her over-exaggeration.
"Now close your eyes!" I quickly closed my eyes and pretended to not have seen the stunning gold ring with yellow semi-precious gem. "I must emphasize AGAIN," clarified Olivia, "that you must be very very D-E-L-I-C-A-T-E with this." As she said this, she pulled every syllable of the emphasized word out as if mysterious stressors were hiding in-between the alphabetical symbols which lacked the power she sought. "This is my favorite ring." "Oh, and you can look now," Olivia said.
"Wow! I love this!" I exuded. "Did someone special give this to you?"
"Oh, probably."
"Olivia," I whispered. "What is this beautiful necklace?" I said as I pointed at a Hobby-Lobby-style pink necklace with tiny pink plastic beads intermixed with translucent clear star ornaments. The tape at the end of the pink string indicated it was probably a unique Olivia original. There could be none others like it.
"This is my favorite necklace," Olivia said with glowing pride. "I made it, and I call it! Look, it has shiny pink gems with silver stars," she said with a smile that was cramped for room on her face. "That's what we'll call it; shiny pink gems with silver stars."

~~Needless to say~~, I adore Olivia. She is the new girl I nanny five days a week early in the morning. I make her breakfast and take her to school. She's a sweet girl, but somewhat detached. I already can tell I will love her. I'm looking forward to starting my job tomorrow morning bright and early at 6:30!! Just pray that my alarm will go off every morning and that I will wakeup regardless of how stubborn I want to be! If I do things right, I may have this job for 4 years! This is seriously a blessing for God and I'm thrilled to have the opportunity to get close with a family in NY and hopefully bless them in return. I appreciate all your prayers as I explore this journey. Everything is going by quickly and I get a bit consumed in my work and forget to just have fun. But I'm avoiding homework now, so perhaps that counts as living a normal college life? Anyway, thank you for following me and I will keep posting as long as you're interested!

2011-09-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

A Weekend in the Woods

First of all, thank you so much to everyone who follows me and keeps up with what the shenanigans of 9C. I appreciate the love, support, and prayers greatly. It's always an encouragement to me!

This weekend was the 2011 Fall Retreat for King's Students. It isn't mandatory for anyone to go, but highly recommended mostly for freshmen. Very few upperclassmen go. I was not planning on going because it cost $35, and as a broke college kid, I don't even want to spend that little on something that isn't mandatory. But President Dinesh D'Souza was gracious enough to grant me a scholarship for the trip and I paid nothing.

The Bus Ride: I won't hesitate to tell you that the bus ride to upstate new york was HORRENDOUS! Someone had the bright idea to play a Star Wars film at full volume on all the little tvs in the charter bus. I not only didn't want to see or hear the movie, but because of that, the overhead lights are set to stay off meaning I couldn't study whatsoever. And if you ask my roommates, I'm defined by my ability to overachieve and push myself to my limits. :) So, I attempted to sleep, but that didn't turn out too well.

The Arrival Fri. Night: I stepped out of the crowded bus and a gush of cold air nipped at my cheeks. Oh no, I didn't enjoy that. I. Hate. Cold. So I bundled up in Josh's blanket, grabbed all three of my bags, and booked it to my room. I'm sure I was a sight to see as I frantically set the heater high and buried myself under all the provided sheet and blanket I brought. I spent the next few hours studying and chatting with my roommates (current house scholar, Gabbi, and former house president, Katie). Between Gabbi's smelly feet and Katie's overwhelming laugh, we had a fantastic time! I spent the rest of the evening up in the "White Hall" (aka student activities building) and read and played on my computer. Oh, and I have a strict rule of never sleeping before 2 am :) I'm sure that makes you proud, mother.

Saturday: While I hadn't been looking forward to the trip initially, I was pleasantly surprised by some of the things camp Taconic had to offer. Despite everyone else's high standards for camp food, I loved almost everything they made for us, especially the salad bar. I didn't much enjoy the morning session, I skipped the afternoon session to do homework, and I read through the evening session minus the worship part. The lectures were basically centered around the triune love that God the Father, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit offer us as well as ways to balance everything in college while fulfilling the King's mission.
My favorite part of the evening was the bonfire! It made me terribly reminiscent of times at the Crews' house where we would make a fire in the pit, talk, pray, worship, goof off, and make memories that I cherish to this day. But it was wonderful to remember those things and make some new memories. Kacey and I stood on a picnic bench to the side after s'more-making and joined in all the ridiculous group singing. The house of Churchill boys started the night by singing "My Girl" to the house of Barton (that's us, and we're they're sister house). We refer to our relationship as "Barchill." Then we spent the next hour or so just singing everything from Jason Mraz and Taylor Swift to old church hymns and worship songs.

Sunday and the trip home: I didn't do much of anything exciting on Sunday. We had two meals at the camp and just did homework until the bus left. On the bus I engaged my seat-mate in conversations about what highschool was like, what I'm doing in NYC, and various other philosophical topics.

Now that I'm home, things are pretty much back to normal! Just plugging along and working hard. Thank you for all your prayers and references about the Nanny job! I will start next week and work 5 days a week early in the morning. Unfortunately, I have to work through most of my breaks, but this is an answer to prayer for my loan money to be payed off. Just keep praying that I will keep the job and that hopefully more scholarship money will come in so that this job can be spending money in the future!

2011-09-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

~~College Needs!~~

So, I'm thinking that this may become a bi-weekly or monthly post, but as a broke college student, my roommates and I have needs! (Go figure) And while we'd love to fantasize that we will all of have well-paying jobs that can support our needs, supply our wants, and pay off our loans, that's a bit impractical and highly unlikely! So, I'll be posting some things that we need (and want!) every so often and if you can spare to send some care packages our way, we'd love that! But honestly, don't feel like you need to contribute because we know EVERYONE is on a budget right now :) If all you can do is pray that we get what's on our list, then you'll be doing us the greatest favor of all! For those of you who do feel like you can contribute, our address is:
990 Avenue of the Americas, Apt 9C
New York, NY 10018
Ask anyone, I hate being a mooch, but I'm also practical and I believe in the generosity of others. This is a bit uncomfortable for me, but my pocketbook just can't do it all! Much love from the girls in 9C (Kacey, Chloe, Hope) <3

~~Needs~~

PRAYER!
money for laundry
paper towels
80-100 watt lightbulbs
easy mac, ramen, anything non-perishable
restaurant gift cards (q-doba, tgif, mcdonald's, subway, olive garden, etc.)
printer paper
amazon giftcards for textbooks
trader joe's or kmart giftcards

~~Wants~~

movies
keurig coffee pods (chai latte, cappuccino, and dark roast blends are our favs!)
clothing store giftcards for warm weather clothing (express, macy's, forever 21, urban outfitters, american apparel, jcpenny's, american eagle, etc.)
anything red and black that would be cute to decorate our apartment with.

~~Prayer~~

That Kacey's boyfriend will be able to afford traveling to NY for thanksgiving
That I would get the nannying job I applied for
That Kacey's new job at Starbucks would go well
That Chloe would have an easy time settling in and getting comfortable with a group of people
That all of us will stay safe, find good church homes, and affectively be good witnesses for the Christ :)

Thank you so much for following my blog and subscribing to me! I appreciate the love and support I have from all of you.

2011-09-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

The B Train Back To Texas

After an hour of suspension in mid-air and some people watching, I am finally at the Brighton 5th Street stop. Gum wads speckle the concrete floors like spots on a Dalmatian. To my right appear rows and rows of roofs with little to no spaces between them. I feel like Mary Poppins in the scene with the chimney sweeps, only, I wish I could clean these rooftops. Suddenly, I am unequivocally aware of my bare shoulders as water drips steadily on me from the railings above. I intentionally did not bring an umbrella. Today is all about letting Brighton throw each of its unexpected elements toward me.

As people stare at me for my obviously un-protective wardrobe choice, I feel the crisp air. While markets cook food and trash litters the sidewalk, the ozone somehow smells of clean rain only edged with a little smoke. I keep walking, and the rainbow canopies of the shops reflect a myriad of colors like a prism for each raindrop. Almost all of the stores are markets and pharmacies. Do the people here love to eat and frequently become ill? While I ponder this question, I hear the squeak, squeak, squeak of tennis shoes and bike tires. I find it strange that I have not heard a train overhead yet.

Look here! A homeless woman approaches me mere pink crocs and a worn old gentleman’s suit. (Oh, there is the roar of that blast’d train!) Well, she asks for a dollar which I do not have, so I feel full of guilt as I pass her back toward the subway.

This is little Russia. The thick accents take me back to the nights of whining to my dad that twelve times was most certainly enough views of his favorite film, The Hunt For Red October! Now, today, I wish that B train downtown via 6th avenue could make me watch it just one more time.

2011-09-06T14:47:00.000-07:00

I Can Reason! from the last row in classroom 4

I came to college absolutely certain that I would fail any attempts at mathematical equations put before me. I wasn't wrong...
...at first.
On a lovely New York morning I was given an assessment test which was supposed to be an easy way to gauge my abilities in the areas of history, english, logic, and mathematics. I. Failed. Miserably.
Suddenly my confidence was shattered and I was sure college would be an endless duration of classes in which I would undergo the most humbling coursework of my life until now. Then, God showed grace on me!
(I feel I should note here that I mean this to be no farce or mockery of the powers that God has to provide and care for His children when they are in DIRE need, so please pardon my occasional religious humor.)
So, here I am now in my fourth day of my Quantitative Reasoning class totally baffled at the condition of my brain for it is not in mush! My teacher began the course by informing us all that this was merely a revised pre-calculus class which would not fulfill the institution's goals which were the reasons we all chose this "easier" credit. No doubt, this caused a great fear in me and I have been terrified that this would be the end of my high GPA aspirations. But today, in class, we are discussing prime numbers.
Yes, really, just prime numbers.
We've divulged in various theorems involving prime numbers and tediously taken the time to prove them, but it's nothing more than simple addition. Amazingly though at this ivy league competitive university, several students are asking the most basic questions about mere number sequences and the believability of such proofs.
For now, I am one of the smartest in the class with only the skill set of a lowly 540 on the math section of the SAT. I don't know how this has happened, but THANK YOU, LORD!
I am thrilled with this turn of events and I must say, my confidence has once again been restored (knock on wood).