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My Life Principles V1.3 Lessons

2019-01-04T04:45:00.000-08:00

This is something I learnt today listening to a Tony Robbin audio.

Humans have 6 needs ..

1. Certainty This is the need for security, comfort and consistency

2. Uncertainty This is need for variety, challenges,

3. Significance The need to feel important, needed, wanted and worthy of love

4. Love and Connection The need for feeling connected with and loved by other human beings.

5. Growth The need for constant development emotionally, intellectually and spiritually

6. Contribution Giving beyond ourselves and giving to others

Anytime at least 3 needs are met humans get addicted to it.

My Life Principles V1.2 Lessons

2018-11-08T04:07:00.001-08:00

One thing I learnt a very hard way is something which appears at a certain point of time could be exactly different if you consider a larger time frame.Also something which is normally perceived pleasurable could have very painful impact in long run.

For example early in my IT career I did a project on a CRM project implementation in Chennai and that project was supposed to last only few months and at that point of time I was a single and based out of Kolkata and and Chennai is a relocation with company paid accommodation , travel expense and food expenses. Also opportunity to see a new place and it had a opportunity to travel to customer location at Miami at the end of the project which seemed very enticing. But as soon as I landed over in Chennai I could very soon realize the project is already in a black hole and anything but pleasurable. We had to do very long hours and quite a few time I slept at office so that I can wake up and work the next day. No holidays and not even off on Sundays. I was a young professional and had never exposed to this type of situation earlier. At the end of the first month I contemplated to quit working in IT and peruse a civil service job which was my parents ultimate dream.But somehow I stuck to almost the very end before I had to travel back to my home town for a family emergency. This was a experience which was very painful but in retrospect I can see the amount of learning I had i those few months I would not even get in years.

Pain or failure with reflection is growth! - Ray Dalio

Sometimes we do get very myopic and focus on too short term and forget the long term life purpose. We try to do the daily activities without reflecting the bigger picture like bricklayer laying bricks without any knowledge of the wall that is being built or the building the wall will be part of. So it is very prudent to stop and reflect from time to time and imagine the big picture.

One thing which became very clear after going through a lot of challenges is nothing stays the same any good or bad changes as time passes. Or at least the interpretation of the situation changes as humans are biological machines meant for adoption. What that really mean that life will through situations at us or scenarios at us and our only job is to get some experience from the situation and add to our collection. If we do not learn or adopt the same situation will repeat over and over until we learn and get the experience which it supposed to teach us.

We feel anything good or bad based on our prior experience as that is how we survived but to really gain experience we have to treat it as a scenario with as much indifference as possible. That will isolate us from identifying the situation through a existing lens and give lot of additional perspective which was right there but ignored.

Never focus on outcome. Just visualize the outcome without any slight though about any steps needed for the outcome. Focus on process and adjust the process for the outcome. There is a beautiful verse in Bhagvat Gita
Karmanye vadhikaraste Ma Phaleshu Kadachana,
Ma Karmaphalaheturbhurma Te Sangostvakarmani

Now let's begin our main section Swami Vivekananda's commentaries on the verse.
Swamji told—

Be beyond the common worldly motives. "To work you have the right, but not to the fruits thereof." Man can train himself to know and to practice that, says the Karma-Yogi. When the idea of doing good becomes a part of his very being, then he will not seek for any motive outside. Let us do good because it is good to do good; he who does good work even in order to get to heaven binds himself down, says the Karma-Yogi. Any work that is done with any the least selfish motive, instead of making us free, forges one more chain for our feet.^[Source]

One thing I realized after multiple experience anything that you do for the sake of doing it or even any wish you make for the good of the things no matter if it becomes or helps the self becomes and turns out to be reality as if like a act of god. So taking the self out of things makes us directing connected to the source energy or higher power or God which ever way we refer it.

My Life Principles v1.1

2018-11-07T04:55:00.001-08:00

Today I start to write my life principle for the future me and the next generation who will be walking on this beautiful planet after we are long gone. The core pieced I will journal in this is the

1.life lessons
2. Setbacks
3. Decisions which defined destiny
4. Process that helps to make the tough decisions
5. Routines which help with improvment of all aspects of life
6. The traps of additions
7. Some of my philosophies like what is the true meaning - Its not retiring rich thats for sure
8. Enjoying every step and enjoying the journey

The catch 22 we are in

2018-10-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

Today while I was doing my morning routine this I realized a very core paradox in life. We strive work hard and achieve things and to make progress. The way to do that is very simple we need to abstain from things which is more like a addiction like killing time , watching a movie or drink beers and focus on something which is much more growth related thing like exercising and meditating but the real growth comes from while doing things we we may not like to do. Like making more push ups and meditating for longer than we normally do or make a new goal and work towards to achieve the goal and once we achieve that we look for the satisfaction we get at the end of the goal just to do anything which we like to do which is again a addiction. And as soon as we give in to the addiction we lose very quickly the drive which propelled us to the goal itself. I believe some people call it a plateau and its not easy to break the plateau as the very cyclic nature of it.

The only way to beat this vicious cycle is to make growth the only goal. Any material goal will get us back towards the addiction and we will be stuck in a plateau.

First step towards this is to identify what we like to do if you do not have to do anything at all. It does not necessarily have to sound like sipping a glass of wine or binge watching Netflix. But it can be as benign as just not getting from your bed in time , not doing the chores and watching some nonsense cat video.

So the only way to get out of this cycle of plateau in making is set the goal of growth it-self on any endeavor. Like if you are writing a book then your goal could be write 10 words more than you did last time in the same amount of time. Or replying to all emails 1% faster than you did yesterday and when you see its not moving forward find new tools or ways to improve from others and take best of them.

In my childhood days I had a very bad handwriting and everyone would tell me to improve it but no one told how so I kept repeating the same handwriting for almost in my high school. Then suddenly I way one friend of mine write his name which starts with A (Amrit) in a very nice hand written letter A. And I tried and failed to replicate that A before asking him for help and he taught that A and I repeated that A and I could do it even better after quite some attempts. Now that became a obsession of mine and I will repeat any nicely written letter anywhere I see and just in few months my hand writing became so much better than I could not even recognize my old hand writing in the old days.

The second thing we have to make sure the growth goal has to be measurable and we need to set a periodic weekly/monthly/daily review cycle to ensure we are actually growing as planned.

Wave hypothesis in trading

2018-01-28T15:14:00.000-08:00

1. At any point of time there is always two waves in play... positive and negative
2. The magnitude of the one wave can trump in a trending market for example if a bigger wave comes as positive then it will trump the negative side if the negative wave is smaller time frame
3. Based on the difference between wave the price action moves in one direction or the other or remains same if both waves are in similar magnitude
4. The biggest wave in one direction at the starting point of the move remains in force until a bigger in wave in the opposite direction topples the original wave
5. A wave size is not confirmed if it did not meet its ST target in 20 time period immediately following it. It tells that there is a bigger wave in motion in the opposite direction.
6. Waves can have a bigger wave in positive direction but smaller wave in negative direction. This will make the price action still move in the bigger wave direction in a longer trend
7. The indicators normally hit the target in the direction of the major trend and normally miss target in the direction of the

Rules :
Do not make any decision when ST is falling or climbing. Wait for a stable ST for 2-3 bars before action

Multi indicators with symmetry are normally correct ones ... They will have two bars on side with on on center or just two bars on side,,,

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 8 (Getting to the meaning of life)

2018-01-16T05:03:00.002-08:00

We always think if we get something or some one or some where or if the weather is in certain way or of I get enough money then I would be happy. But after deep thought of the subjects that is most likely not true. Happiness is probably something which is a chemical composition which happens inside out brain and which we synthesize our self. That is why people on drugs or alcohol get happy as soon as they get that substance , but either 2 things happens very quickly after inducing happiness with a substance. Like any other substance which body creates the chemical composition changes or body do not feel the same way with the same amount of the chemicals and from there it is a down ward spiral. And because they get the happiness for a very small amount of time with out any effort or pain they try to follow the same path the next time. That makes them sucked into the spiraling black hole of misery and non contribution to society.

This is a big paradox. Only way we can synthesize the petrochemicals that gets us happy is actually progress and growth. As body is a adaptability engine as soon as body gets the same feeling it increases the bar. That is why we grow. For example as soon as you could do 100 push ups which gets you some muscle growth and immense pleasure body increases the bar and you will not get the same benefits and happiness with the 100 push up and you need to do more.That is also one of the reason people stop growing as they get frustrated. that also ensures you make every commitment to make progress and not get stuck with a results.So the most important aspect in life can be is the commitment to the process of growth by a habit. As no amount of motivation will be enough to do the same thing day in and day out and as soon as in one day your motivation is not enough you will stall the progress completely and even make the downward journey.

Commitment to growth and perfection is part of quite a eastern philosophy Yoga and recently adopted business philosophy like Kizen. Yoga literally means add. You just add to something which you have already and that itself is growth

Operating system of future

2017-12-21T05:32:00.002-08:00

Operating system has been evolving leaps and bounds from DOS and unix where you write the actual command in my mind that is one dimensional to windows and mac where you use a pointer to interact with on a two dimensional. Then from the same two dimensional concept is expanded with interaction using fingers with capacitive touch screen in your smart phone.

Gen 1 : DOS or Unix (One dimensional)
Gen 2 : Windows and Mac ( Two dimensional with a Pinter which is one dimensional like mouse)
Gen 2.5 : Smart phone OS ( Two dimensional screen with multi point interaction device like finger and gesture support like swiping and zooming

In my mind the next generation OS has to be 3 dimensional with virtual reality headsets as the screen (or holographic 3 D display which is unlikely) interacting using full hand motion and all fingers wearing a specialized gloves with the input sensors build in. The input interacts with the headset wirelessly and user can do all sorts of motions using the full motion of hand. Like Hold , push , grab , traverse. It will also have some nice utilities in gaming with real life gaming like fighting.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 7 (Getting to the meaning of life)

2017-12-20T05:03:00.000-08:00

You may have read about Abhraham Mashlows hierarchy of needs. Where he puts self actualization on the top of the pyramid.

You can read the wiki here if you have not read about it.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs

Hierarchy

1.1 Physiological needs
1.2 Safety needs
1.3 Social belonging
1.4 Esteem
1.5 Self-actualization
1.6 Self-transcendence

Here is the individual needs from wiki.

Physical dimension	Physiologic needs	Breathing, circulation, temperature, intake of food and fluids, elimination of wastes, movement.
Environmental dimension	Safety and security needs	Housing, community, climate.
Sociocultural dimension	Love and belonging needs	Relationships with others, communications with others, support systems, being part of community, feeling loved by others.
Emotional dimension	Self-esteem needs	Hope, joy, curiosity, happiness, accepting Self.
Intellectual and spiritual dimensions	Self-actualization needs	Thinking, learning, decision making, values, beliefs, fulfillment, helping others.

Here he talks about top most need later as self transcendence is to do something which is beyond him self for a higher altruistic purpose. But in my view he is probably very close to the needs but what is the meaning. Where we get our meaning. Everyone does not have to be at the top of the pyramid which takes a long time to fulfill his needs. Its like we are always looking at the summit and forgetting about the journey and that will inevitably lead into something ignoring the journey for the ultimate summit. The meaning has to be part of the journey and not the summit as once you reach the summit you may ask why the heck I wanted to be here as I have to come down now.

So meaning is and has to be part of the journey. In my mind the meaning need not be complicated. It is as simple as "Freedom" and "Growth".. Since being a baby to the ripe old age the only thing that will give meaning is just freedom and Growth. As again looking deeper Freedom is the necessary condition for growth. We will dig deeper later into this.

Humans have a tendency to make things complicated as we build complexity on top of simple things as the new use cases and scenario shows up and the paradigms change and area of purview widens. Currently the virtue is to do something great for humanity and for earth but think just couple of hundred back it was to do something great for England or Spain in colonial areas. People may be conquesidors like Cortez were probably utmost satisfied or may have reached a self actualization status just expanding the colonies into Americas even at the expense of native Americans and no one would have even given a though about human values or even human liberty. We widen our scope and our brains as we realized new reality. So the meaning has to be something that is independent of the current accepted virtue. For example if science proved beyond a thread of doubt in future that global warming is good how can that be included into the meaning. Meaning has to remain the same irrespective or any virtue.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 6

2016-07-07T05:17:00.000-07:00

Perceived Pain vs Actual Pain :

Lets understand what our brain is.
Our brain is the most sophisticated computer that is known to us.It processes information , stores information and also controls standard bodily functions required for a human to stay alive. Its also has the task that make sure survival of the body at any cost. Its also one of the computer unlike any one which we have ever invented which adds new memory and processing capability as needed and if not needed or it slowly sheds any additional capability or memory which it has at its disposal. So its a adaptable computer to the environment and utilization. Just like any other computer it has a temporary memory like RAM which stores information that is very relevant very recently need and another memory that may be needed but has not been used recently but may be needed in future and on top of it it can create additional capacity. This temporary memory which is similar to RAM in computer is the subconscious mind that controls something which does not need to be processed differently every time as the end results and the factors that drive the end results have a very similar pattern. In fact the inputs and outputs are so similar the process that goes in to affect the desired outcome does not even get registered in the memory for a long time. For example when you are learning to drive a car you have to always look for each of the functions like accelerator and break and the road among other things . But think if you have been driving the same road for more than 10 year ; you can literally do not have to think at all while driving in that road. Similarly someone who is typing for the first time will have to look for the letters but for a expert in typing will not even have to look towards the keyboard at all. So if you like to mastery anything you would have to practice so long that you create a new neural pathway which will make the whole affair effortless.

Its so hard to start a new thing and practice over a period of time as you do not have a dedicated neural pathway for that action but once its created you do not have to do a thing. Humans and for that matter all the living creatures are organic beings and the most important distinction of something organic is the ability to change both internally and externally based on the need to cater to a different situation. So the most important thing that someone can learn to master in anything is learn to practice until a neural pathway is build. The practice can be a actual practice but as all the calculation that is done in the brain itself a mental practice has been experimentally show to be as effective. There is experiment with the group of basketball players who are asked to practice and another group asked to not practice physically but only practice mentally making the throw and its observed that the group that just did the throw mentally also improved as much as the group which practiced. So this confirms the notion that making the new neural pathways are the most vital part in making an habit real.

But have you ever thought how a pain is actually created ; its nothing but a response of your brain which interpret something or some stimulus is harmful for you as a whole. So that means that its not something which is rather it is something that is interpreted as. This is the key. As we know interpretation of something can be wrong in many ways ; and this is true in our perception of pain as well. This is usually something that is correct in terms of physical pain or discomfort. If you cut yourself bad in a knife as a child you would automatically try to avoid touching a knief. This is the type which is helpful and protects us and can be treated as positive pain interpretation.Even though this can sometimes lead to limitation when you grow up as you would have something associated in your brain and you no longer need to be associated any longer as you have grown enough to handle the knife. But the other type of pain that we will focused on here is the mental pain which cripples a person much more than a physical pain can ever be. Think of a situation in your childhood where you needed to speak on a podium in front of a group of other students in your school and you fumbled and stumbled and you gasped for breath and after you are done your fellow students ridiculed you about it for few days. Now you talked to yourself public speaking is stupid and you are not going to do it ever again. This is something which exactly happened with me in a very early age in kindergarten school when I was supposed to speak on a podium on the occasion of teachers day and I fumbled and wrongly told that today is children's day and all the kids laughed aloud. That made me more nervous and made me gasping for breadth and I could not really finish my whole speech well which I had prepared for many days earlier. That made me tell myself that public speaking is bad and I tried to avoid public speaking for many year to come until just a few years back when I started slowly to realize my limiting belief and started working on it. Its not easy to create a new belief but it is possible with diligent efforts and unyielding practice. All you would need to do is to go back to the earlier experience which it all started and replace the negative outcome to a much more positive outcome, and then practice the same thoughts over and over until you firmly believe in the thought you want to instill in yourself. This is the reason why there is no medicine that is effective for psychological conditions like Post Traumatic stress Disorder(PTSD) or anxiety or depression. As brain is mostly a pattern matching instrument which work through images not words or language some images or stimuli can cause excruciating pain as brain will associate the images to an memory or an event that is extremely painful. There is no easy way out of this as this is basically an association mechanism that is your brain is very adopted to. To avoid to be in this trap is to get yourself practice over and over again to visualize and stimulate the same images but now associate an different feeling to it. At first the brain will resist , react , revolt but eventually after too many repetitions it will eventually succumb to the new conditioning. The key here is repetition. But another key is emotion.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 5

2016-05-09T04:25:00.002-07:00

Feeling Connected : Joy

By now you might have guessed what I mean Joy could be different than happiness. Actually it is. You can manifest happiness at will but joy is something you will have to strive. Some people many be just be content with the happiness and there is nothing wrong in it. But we are not here in this planet just to be happy we all have a much higher purpose. Think as if all your fingers have some kind of feeling and feeling and it found a way to be happy and content and did not participate in the purpose of holding a object in your hand. Would it fulfill its higher purpose. We all come to this earth with a after a lot of struggle and suffering and we all have a higher purpose. We all are part of a much bigger consciousness and we are just offshoot of those consciousness. So our goal can not just be happy our goal is to gain eternal bliss which is sometimes refereed in eastern philosophies as "Mokshya" which you can only strive towards your higher purpose. We are going to talk about in future parts. Now what is a higher purpose. To understand a higher purpose we need to understand what we actually are. Now no one in this world truly and fully understand what are are. If you talk to a scientist or a person from medical field.He will say we are a biological living organism who is adopted into the environment of planet earth and we have manifested through millions of years of evolution. Which started as a single cellular organism in a warm soupy ocean in the earth to a multi cellular organism like a fish and reptile or bird or mammals and finally to monkeys to us. They are actually correct in ways. If you ask a theologian , depending on which religion he follows he will tell god created this universe in 7 days and in the 7th day he created a male and female Adam and Eve who then in turn created us. Now he is no incorrect either. If you take into account gods days could be much different than us as time is relative so we can not scientifically refute that its not correct. Some scientist may argue what... we have evidence of evolution we have fossil records of things evolving. Now to that point I would say lot of things in the theology are not meant to be interpretative of a detailed record of fact because it deliberately misses the details. There is no written documentation of what God did to create the world. Now its like a parable of three blind men where all of them went to a elephant and one hold it legs and said an elephant is like a tree trunk and the second went in and he hold its trunk and said its like a fire hose made with rubber and the third man went and hold the ear and said its a like a think piece of leather. Now how can a elephant be three radically different things ; are they all wrong . No in fact they are all correct. When a concept or something is much bigger than the observer which we are at this case there will be multiple version of fact and they could be all correct. Take an example we being the most intelligent species on the planet and earth being the only place we known , but still for thousands of year we have been believing the earth is flat as its so much order of magnitude bigger than anything in our experience we never had a clue how can we stand and not fall over on anything that is spherical. It took us to create telescope and look at the other planets and then do some real convincing to get to the point that earth actually being spherical and being an enormous size than us we do not fall over and it appears flat to us. Similarly think as if you are an ant climbing on an Eiffel tower would would have any clue what is the shape of the tower. The only way to understand anything by any real means we would have disassociate that thing from the observer and then try to understand from a disassociated point of view. Now how would we disassociate from life without being in heaven to observer the life to understand it. We can not by any known means. So if we can not be certain of it then it may be in our best interest to use any hypothesis if that gives us some desirable result and ignore any hypothesis that takes us away from desirable result.

Now some scientist may say the biological purpose of any living organism are here in earth is to survive and reproduce. Now if you look closely survival and reproduction are very inter related. We are indeed surviving by reproducing among other ways of survival mechanism we have like healing , immunity and regeneration. So is that it. In a way it is. But there is something special which we have only within us that make us different than may be a something that is not living. That is consciousness which could be the key to understanding the life. We all including all animals have consciousness and we are aware of our existence. But the only reason I will exclude animals for this discussion as their consciousness is little less developed than humans , that does not mean they are not totally off limit from discussion of the topic. So all humans basically share a type of realization of existence that is consciousness which is the connective source in human. Its like all leaf of the tree are connected by the tree sap that flows among all of them making them all part of the same tree. However for a moment think as if you are a leaf you have a independent existence and you feel as if you a different from other leafs. Which is actually true as you born and die as a leaf which has a different cycle from the other leafs however if you only realize you are a leaf and you will do everything to make sure you as a leaf will survive and thrive without any realization that you are part of a bigger thing called a tree you are probably leaving not up to the bigger purpose. There is no denying the fact that we have our own will and choice which could be different. However if a cell or a leaf only focuses on thriving and reproduce taking all the resources of the plant or an organism it will just grow into a cancerous tumor and ultimately end up in catastrophe not just for the entire part of the growth but may be for the entire organism itself. So its very critical to feel the higher connection and realize that just like a single leaf we are part of a tree and to be healthy and fulfilled the tree as a whole has to be healthy and fulfilled. Now you may say I am such a small part and I do not think I can really contribute in a meaningful way. Have you thought if every leaf in a plant thinks the same and don't contribute to the plant for food utilizing photosynthesis then the whole plant might slowly decay and weaken and then die ultimately killing the leaf as well. So the first thing to do is to realize that we are part of a higher consciousness which includes every type of consciousness from a small living organism like a fish or a small shrub to bigger life forms like whale. We are all connected through a single thread which is consciousness even though we do not realize them. So first thing we would need to do to feel the joy and bliss is to share a sense of empathy towards all living creatures as if they are the leaves of the same tree we are part of. Once we have build the empathy for everyone we will slowly realize the connected link that we have long lost and share the same energy that flows through the collective consciousness. Once we get connected to everyone and every living organism we will slowly share all the pleasure that any living organism share like you can be delighted to see a squirrel jumping from a tree to tree holding a nut or a rabbit munching a carrots as if its the first carrot he has ever eaten. You will also feel the same for other people and share their pleasure. And moreover this realization and practice of the realization will liberate you from the smaller daily setbacks.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 4

2016-05-06T05:29:00.004-07:00

Feeling Connected : Joy

Now you know how to invoke your best feeling in a single instance at will at any time. The next important thing is practice. Its all about practice in life. Humans or any living being are so beautiful creation we lose what we do not practice so that we can gain what we practice. Actually living beings are like play dough the colorful clay that kids play with making them in different shapes and sizes. Once we become something we are no longer the old thing until we get back to the old thing. We have potential to be anything but we are only one thing at any point of time. For example you can not be happy and sad at the same time. You can not be calm and angry at the same time. You can not be anxious and blissful at the same time or you can not be at pain and at ease at the same time.

So what make a person in some way or the other. Its Habit. We are what we habitually do. Think about you may have been a great skate boarder when you are a child and you have not been skateboarding for a while , most likely you would not skateboard as well as you could do earlier. That is because you only have a limited amount of bandwidth in your immediate subconscious mind which is what directs yous day to day life. For example if you brush everyday before going to bed and you have been doing that try going to bed without brushing; probably you would not even have a good sleep that day. So the key is practice. Our mind is always practicing whether you like it or not.We either practice a good thing that makes you feel good or if we do not do it we by default practice something negative. Actually there is nothing which is really negative , which is a really a very controversial topic that we may touch later. You either practice something that is productive that pulls your towards your goal or enhances your capability in ways you desire, or you do not practice something productive or towards happiness. Think about your life is ship that is travelling towards a specific port. This analogy is not entirely correct as it never stops when the port is reached. But for easy understanding lets consider this. You are in the high seas and you need to travel north continuously to reach your destination port so you would need to make sure every day or every hour its headed toward north ; but what happens when you lose your direction or compass. Now you do not have a direction in your ship and the ship will wonder around in the high seas rather than heading towards your goal or destination. Now you let it roam around for a week and after a week comeback and check how much closer your ship from the destination port and you would just get frustrated, then still you did do anything to make the ship heading in the right direction and then you come back after a month to see how closer your ship is from the destination port , you may be even more frustrated it may be even farther when you started your journey. So its very important to keep a very close eye on the direction of your ship or life and make every possible step every possible time to guild it in the right direction. Now this is a common mistake in Humans. We always do not get our ships in control and our mind may say you have been doing this for a full week now, take some rest and chill. Its boring persevere doing it every day each day take a break and indulge in something you love to do , do some party , drink some beers , your destination is not going away you have done so much steering your ship in the right direction. Now all these indulgences are nothing but something that leaves your ships direction in disarray. Think you are in a cruise ship and the captain has been guiding towards a port and he decided to party for a few hours without making sure to leave someone a the helm. Keeping the same thing every day could be monotonous but its what you become as part of the journey that matter. If you would like to indulge in something make sure you have planned what would you do to make up for the lost time or lost motivation. You need to practice something or some way you would like to make as a habit as many times as possible until the habit is ingrained in who you are. Once it becomes ingrained into your identity or your own reflection you do not have to get any motivation to do it rather the habit itself will motivate you to continue with the habit. So its very important to make sure which habits you want and which you do not. As per a recent study we need to practice something 66 days straight to make it a habit. So I will recommend to practice at least 4-5 times a day for 66 days straight. I know its not a trivial task but having a eternal happiness at will is not trivial either.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 3

2016-05-02T05:34:00.000-07:00

Feeling Connected : Joy

What is the human nature. Human nature is basically to being your current state of inertia unless you get some kind of external impact. Just sit back and think if you are who you are and you have nothing to do , nothing to prove and nothing to be what you would rather do. Would you be calm , probably yes. Would you be poised and complete ; probably yes. But there is always a big but why does almost all people are never calm and poised. Its so simple to achieve. Because you will really have a hard time to control your emotions , and thoughts as just like your heart its a continuous process and never stops. You can not have a single thoughts for 2 mins unless you practice meditation and the brain has all you emotions stored in a single space and even if you think you control your thoughts you do not. Unless your brain stores similar thoughts in a single place and organizes it in a correct order you can not control your thoughts. At this moment when I am writing this I am thinking 10 different things like I need to work on my typing skills , my communication skills needs improvement , I need to fill out that form which I am procrastinating for so many days and so on.. Sometimes you would also have contradicting thoughts as they are also stored in the same places in your brain and because there is a connecting piece they are even more closely connected. So how would you really isolate your thoughts , there is only one way available as far as I know to make your brain organized. That is meditation. Just like if your desk is really not organized when you are looking for something you can not easily and quickly get it without really taking a long time or messing up your who desk or you have 100 file on your desk without any specific order or in any specific way.Then to get to a specific file you would have to juggle through a lot of the files before getting to the file you have been looking for. We have a lot of sensory inputs like touch, taste , see, smell and hear which feed to our experience and makes our memory. These inputs together make our specific memory or feeling so if we would like to make a memory the more number of sensory inputs we associated something with the better. Think you have met with your person of dreams and he/she is exactly how you had imagined. You want to a calm beach resort restaurant in the first date and where there was salty smell of ocean with warm sand and you were tasting a exquisite red wine holding their hand while the waves are breaking on the shore while you feel the soft sand on your feet with a full moon glistening over the ocean. How likely you would forget this encounter. Probably never. And if at any point of time you would like to go back to that exact moment in your imagination how difficult would it be? probably not very difficult. Because you have every type of sensory input associated with the event noted in your brain and to find that exact feeling you just need to enact or remember one of the sensory inputs. Ever wondered why if you have a special cologne which you wore in your cruise vacation last year and whenever you wore it it reminds you of the vacation time and you feed good about it and it becomes your favorite cologne. Lets take an example where you got a dictionary where all the words are stored in a random order and you are looking for a single word how difficult would it be. Probably you would need at least few hours to get to the word if you do not give up finding the word in between. But think its a dictionary where all words are sorted and organized and you are looking for a word and you also know exactly which page the word is.And also on top of it any word in that dictionary is color coded green for positive connotation , red for negative connotation and yellow for neutral connotation. Now how long would it take to find the exact words. Probably within a min at max. This is the power of indexing and sorting anything. This is also applicable for your brain power.
Now you may be thinking why I have been talking so different things that are not connected to joy. But actually they are. If you need to experience joy first you would have to remember its not outside situation that make you feed joy or sad. Its your internal response that make it. Now if you would like to control your thoughts or move away from a negative thoughts to a joyous one. You need to first create a joyous situation it does not matter if its in real or in your mind. Then associate as many sensory inputs that you can associate with that joyous thought.Then feed the same sensory inputs in a periodic manner and contemplate the thoughts to make that feeling reside in your immediate memory rather than in distant memory. Then make a habit to invoke the exact sensory inputs to recreate the situation in your mind at will or in a periodic manner or when you realize you are not feeling joyous.

Now lets take an example to make the whole thing little more simple. Suppose you want to be always to be happy in spite of the situation. Now as I said earlier feeling joy or sorrow is a response to any situation ; that means you can create the feeling of joy at will in any situation. Or you can create the feeling of meditation in your work schedule even while you are in meeting. Here is a step by step approach..

Step 1. Create a great joyous situation may be in real or in your mind.

For example. Take a wonderful vacation to a pacific island with a magnificent beach with your spouse and kids.Lets think you went to to your own island Fiji and you are in your private beach front mansion. You and your spouse are walking on this delicate soft white sand while the cool green waves touching your feet and making you a feeling of cool sensation while you have this feeling of warm sands .While your kids are playing on the sand and making a sand castle. You are now feeling the a cool breeze with a salty oceanic smell that is coming through beautiful and fragrant flowers making a salty floral vibe.You are also hearing to the soft tweeting sound of of a wonderful variety of birds coming from the jungle near the beach and the breaking of the waves on the shore making it a delectable music to your ears. Now you have got yourself a little fruit salad with tropical fruits like Pinapple , Mango , Passion Fruit with a refreshing and sweet coconut water. You are thinking at this time " Life is heavenly " watching the jade green water of the ocean where you can see all the colorful tropical fish swimming in the water.

Step 2. Note all the sensory inputs here.
Smell: The smell of a salty breeze with the aroma of tropical flower and fruits with coconot
Sound: Ocean waves Breaking. Birds chirping.
Vision: Jade green water.Warm White Sands. Deep blue Sky.
Touch: Soft powdery Feeling of the warm sand. Cool Breeze. Cool wave breaking on feet.
Taste: Cool and subtle coconut. Sweet and slightly sour taste of tropical fruits like pineapple and mango
Thoughts: Heavenly. Calm. Relaxed. Blissful.

Step 3: Recreate the heavenly feeling at will at any time.
Smell: The easiest part recreating this feeling is through the smell. Get a cologne with salty oceanic vibe and fruity and coconut notes. Or you can add more than one cologne to make this smell. Do not use this as your daily wear. Spray this special cologne in a handkerchief and have that in your pocket.
Sound: Have a music in your smart phone with sounds of Ocean waves , Birds Chirping and soft breeze blowing
Vision : Surround yourself with paintings of a beautiful island of your dream and you pictures taken in the island in any way possible but not at places where you will have to see them every time you open it. May be in your wallet. But little away from every days things otherwise you will fall into having that picture as being the cliche.
Touch: This is the toughest part. Have a special stress ball which is having sandy and soft texture. Sqeeze it when you like to recreate the feeling
Taste: Have a chewing gum with tropical fruit. Or have a tropical trail mix with dried coconut chunks and tropical fruit.

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain - 2

2016-04-29T10:22:00.000-07:00

Physical pain or physical discomfort is inevitable in Human life.Or rather let me put it in this way physical pain is a integral way of life. Since a baby's birth to the death bed humans get some physical pain in some way or other.

Imagine you are a little baby in your mom's womb trying to push your way out to a big new world from a limited space of your mother's womb. Although mother's womb could be the coziest place in the universe; you will have to give your everything to push yourself out to a bright airy world where the possibilities are infinite and freedom is unlimited. You always seek freedom in any level possible unless you yourself constrict your freedom in your brain or by some believe you would want to break all barriers to get freedom in anyway possible. And Freedom is almost always never Free ;

you will have to strive for it , work for it , break some paradigms , break some mental inhibition and finally break some of your own ingrained beliefs to really be gaining that. And the path the freedom has almost always have a thorny path but its a very critical things to remember physical discomfort is not something that is in your body rather its always in your mind. A good majority of people can not even walk for a mile without exhausting themselves and there are huge number of people who can run ultra marathons and even run for 100 mile without feeling much of exhaustion. And more over the same person who can not run for a mile one day can run 5k the next day. We all have all that it takes in us but we do not fully conquered the command panel yet.

Its like we have been given a high power automobile or a Ferrari but we do not know how to to change gears and always drive in the first gear and then complain that the car is not fast. May be its not as simple as that our physical being are much more complex ; think of you actually have a car which have a top speed unknown but the owners manual tells you that the more faster you can drive everyday the car will achieve a higher top speed but if you do not use the car then which ever top speed you had achieved will reduce slowly. You will have to drive your body and mind as close to its limit to increase your potential or you can always not use your car to its limits and eventually lose the top speed you had achieved earlier. Moreover you body is not just a car and its will always try , act out , coax with you mind to keep you from driving it closer to its limits. It has many ammunition in its disposal like physical pain , mental pain , emotional pain , bad weather , bad feeling , not enough energy , not enough time and not enough resources .

But be assured there is no real pain or bad things in the universe its always the interpretation that makes it bad or good. So before you can control your body you will have to conquer your mind.

Life is about Giving Joy and Taking Pain : TOC

2016-04-28T04:49:00.001-07:00

Introduction :
Chapter 1 : What is the true meaning of human life
Chapter 2 : Success & Happiness
Chapter 3 : Perceived pain vs Actual pain
Chapter 4 : Perceived Pleasure vs actual Pleasure
Chapter 5 : Goal and the importance of it
Chapter 6 : Goal & Happiness and interconnected
Chapter 7 : Conditioning of body , mind and spirit for a perusal of a worthy goal
Chapter 8 : Practice & Perfection
Chapter 9 : Training and Guarding mind
Chapter 10 : Getting the best of the Now
Chapter 11 : Past is nothing but a experience
Chapter 12 : Future is what we do now
Chapter 13 : We are collectors of experience
Chapter 14 : Give joy to get it back
Chapter 15 : Living Life king size doing the hard things
Chapter 16 : Compassion
Chapter 17 : Giving to get the ultimate joy

Life is about giving Joy a taking pain

2016-04-27T05:08:00.001-07:00

Recently I have been contemplating what is the true meaning of life what happens and what we make happen .What we are supposed to do in this planet where we are limited vertically by physics and in a lot other ways mentally or psychologically. I believe I found the answer to this so profound questions. But before we go there as this is a question that will poke the hornets nest surely , lets think about few very basic things. What in life is most valuable. Some might say my iphone or internet or some may say its the big home they own or a luxury car. But have anyone thought about the water they drink can someone truly live any meaningful life with a clean glass of water for more than a day. Or have anyone thought about a clean gush of fresh air they breath ; can anyone really still survive even couple of minutes without it. Probably no.May be lets think about time we only have 86k seconds a day and that is it. They are not going to get back any single second lost for any reason what so ever. Or may be a good physical health and good mental health. Without a good physical health every other material thing in the world would fade in its glory or more even a good mental health without which you will not experience anything meaningfully even if you have everything at your disposal. Have anyone thought what the the price of all these valuable things. They are priceless.
So the bottom line is in life most of the things that are priceless are free and can never have any price to it. But because they are free we never really understand the value of it.This is a quite ironic , is not it. And we will see lot more ironic things next.

Similarly like any living organism humans try to lean towards pleasure and away from pain. There is nothing wrong in it. In fact it a very basic primordial quality which is even exhibited at any level of living hierarchy like a amoeba or a ant or even a fish. For example if you have a amoeba in a petri dish and pass electric current or heat at one end of it the amoeba will move away from it and if you put some food source it will move towards it.However most organism move away from pain towards pleasure driven by their survival instinct. So whats wrong it it. Humans are different however. Human have a much better memory and much better brain. We normally define pleasure not for anything related to our survival. We have conquered everything related to survival and our pleasures and pains are no longer driven our natural tendency to survive rather the pleasure is normally driven by indulgence or a non fruitful habits. For example if you ask 100 people what pleases them 90% will certainly say partying or drinking or even eating a great tasting food. And if you ask 100 people what is pain probably most of them will say going to work , doing chores or working out at gym , run a mile or doing a creative project or any repeating thing. So what is the outcome of this type of mentality it create a bunch of over indulgent people who do not want to do much but want to have everything the world has to offer. Also not getting what they really desire like happiness and even end up losing the health. This create a burden on the society and more over burden on the planet and more over burden on them selves as pleasure is hard to achieve without a healthy mind and body.

Our true nature what we should be driven towards we really want is to experience everything but indulge in nothing material rather only indulge in something to improve internally like a skill or a mastery any specific craft of their liking or something creative or may be working out or running. We will discuss much more in detail in coming post.

There is a very well know proverb "we make the habits first then the habits make us". However only a very small fraction of people few intentionally make any habits.As habits making need discipline and an internal drive without which when the going gets tough which will inevitably happen we will stop or even move backwards. Have you seen anyone getting younger after passing of the days. Nope. Right? We always grow older no matter if we do anything or nothing. But in the habit making process we do go backward if we do not contribute towards to goal. So we have to be very careful. Especially when the going gets tough and our motivation and desire subsides.

Peace..Calm... Be happy with what you have rather than thinking you would be happy with what you want..

Next Gen Pointing Devices : A thought

2013-01-07T12:01:00.002-08:00

Just thought about If I would think like Steve Jobs how would I think of next gen of wireless mouse.. the answer is probably pointing gloves with multifinger gesture control and haptic feedback and touch sensor built in.

flaws and inadequacy in Human Perception

2010-03-31T22:45:00.000-07:00

Ever wander why we can only see light waves (energy waves) with wavelength of 390-750 nm because nature thinks that we would be only needing that much as per our living
conditions of earth.But even birds and even bees and insect with smaller capacity brain can perceive the infrared wavelength not visible to us.Ok we might agree that some creature living in certain underground environment that never needs to come out or a organism that lives in deep sea water might need to use the ability to perceive the ultraviolate wavelength but why the birds and bees, they rarely stay indoor also and always up in the air with exposure to visible spectrum of light.Because they needs these wavelength light to do some special function like bee needs to find the honey and birds needs to know if the partner is sexually active looking into there feather.

SO the questions is if these very primitive animals can process these additional wavelength using there smaller brain celles how the processing ability of the human brain be less than them as we have evolved so very much than them.

How can all the living organism have a body of protins and atleast have a DNA and RNA helical structer in them.

How can our ear is just to ear and our eye is just to see our nose is just to smell skin to touch and tongue is to taste only and they are so highly specialized in the ares of the use.There are animals like snake that use the skin vibration to hear.They dont have ear yet they can hear.That means at least ear is not the only thing that makes us hear.And moreover none of the sense organs are made to do any specific things if you looks at a broader level these are the things that created by the infinite intelligence to sense the energy in different forms.The sense might have some ability to do other work as well . For example some blind men can actually see things in there brain by touching things, and we all accept that,whats the problem with that.But can you imagine the human brain has the ability to hear and see certain things or it can smell and see certain things.Yes how impossible it might sound but it has .We might not need to see visually to see things although how much detail is yet to be explored and this can be at a very primitive level as we have already forgotten the ability.And our sences have evolved that.We perceive everything in our brain , our eyes dont see things , our skin does not feel a thing and our ear don not hear a thing these are only small energy receptor that enables the free flow of enery pulses to the brain in terms of raw data and then the brain processes the raw data into meaningful info and creates an illusion that is somehow meaningful to the person and previos believes and experience.So everything that you see, feel or hear is a manifestation of your own brain.For example the whales and elephants can emitt and infrasonic waves and perceive these waves of other elephant and whales.These are larger mammals and even we can't perceive these waves.We can however create an instrument and then make these wave impact that instrument and then convert that to our audible frequency to hear them.So if we cant perceive the infrasonic waves how do we get frightened by these waves when played without any audible waves.Even these waves
consists the major parts of a lions roar.

examples of Elephant from pbs.org:

Wit Aniwat, whose family runs an elephant camp for tourists in Thailand, was awakened by an unusual alarm clock: the trumpeting and wailing of elephants.

It was a bit out of the ordinary, but Wit thought nothing of it as the sun rose. There was work to do.

Five minutes later, another oddity. “The elephants became very agitated,” Wit recalls in NATURE’s Can Animals Predict Disaster? Astonished, he watched as the huge animals broke
their chains and stampeded up a nearby hill. He and another trainer gave chase. But they hadn’t gotten very far when a terrifying sound overtook them: the sound of a towering wave of water crashing ashore and overwhelming everything in its path.

Luckily, Wit survived the tsunami. More than 200,000 other people around the Indian Ocean weren’t so lucky.

The elephants? They were fine too. Wit and many others believe it’s because they knew the wave was coming. And scientists say there’s a possibility that Wit is right. That’s because elephants are among a handful of animals known to be able to hear “infrasound,” the extremely low-frequency rumbles that are produced by natural phenomena from earthquakes and volcanoes to heavy winds and avalanches.

In fact, studies have shown that they use infrasound — which can travel vast distances through the ground, air, and water — to carry on long-distance conversations. Researchers have homed in on these “invisible” communications in just the last few decades, as sophisticated microphones and recording equipment allowed them to listen in.

Now, infrasound researchers wonder whether some animals can hear danger approaching. For instance, big storms such as hurricanes produce their own distinctive infrasonic
signature. Similarly, earthquakes can produce several distinct infrasound pulses that can travel thousands of miles and much faster than water. Thus, tsunamis, also triggered by earthquakes, hit the shores only after infrasound.
Here is a small extract from a PBS website about animal feeling in its original words
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In Thailand, it’s possible that Wit’s elephants picked up these signals before the wave hit, prompting them to trumpet their fear and then flee. But we may never know for sure.
Elephants carrying radio tags in the region may have offered important insight. Unfortunately, researchers lost contact with the tagged elephants eight hours prior to the
tsunami. When they regained transmission an hour after the tsunami hit, they found the elephants in the same vicinity as they were prior to the tsunami — just a few hundred feet from the shore. It is impossible to know exactly what happened while the transmitters were down.

Studies in zoos show that even animals known to hear infrasound don’t necessarily become agitated when they hear the signals. But researchers also note that the animals in zoos are so frequently subjected to infrasound, from their urban setting, that they may be desensitized. Scientists say carrying out experiments in the wild that might settle the matter once and for all would be very difficult and expensive.

But researchers are learning more about infrasound through other kinds of studies. Alligator researchers, for instance, are cracking the code that these huge reptiles use to signal their mates. Among other things, they’ve learned that alligators can produce an array of infrasonic signals by vibrating air inside special sound-producing sacs in their
chins.

Other researchers are studying the idea that infrasonic sound can produce emotions in people. To test this, they asked people at a concert to rate their emotional responses to several pieces of music, some of which had been secretly “spiced” with infrasonic noises. More than a quarter of the listeners reported that the infrasonic melodies produced “ghostly” feelings of anxiety, uneasiness, sorrow, fear, and chills down the spine. Infrasonic sound can also make people nauseous and sick.

Those physical and emotional reactions may explain why horror movies used to feature scary, low-pitched organ music, the researchers say. And perhaps why animals too get scared when they hear a mysterious, infrasonic pulse.
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Here is the known animals that uses the infrasound to communicate. " Whales, elephants, hippopotamuses, rhinoceros, giraffes, okapi, and alligators "

Now if size is anyindicator that bigger animals produce infrasound guess what type of animals that should be producing the ultrasound wave.Yes you are right its the relatively smaller animals like bat,insects,roodents,cattle,fish and only one anomaly whale again.Now again if size is any indicator and you plot a size in mass vs frequency in Hz graph of these animals and the frequency they can hear the graph indicates that if its any indicator then there will be very few animals of bigger size than us in the earth however there will be millions of animals that can be smaller to a very small level present here.

a new perception about life

2010-03-30T20:59:00.000-07:00

I was hugely successful for my march25th Goals and almost achieved atleast 90% target of each dimensional targets except on exercise and learning two new things.Thats quite a feat considering the previous to achieve or even get close to the Targets.

I am normally getting to read an average of 4 books abstracts each days and considering the fact that these contain quite comparable subjects that needs to be intuitively analyzed thats quite a feat.

For the last few days I got terrifically interested to look and analyze and relate the unified string theory , human mind and its perception about the universe.Looks like our perception is only designed to cater to the need for mundane daily activity.Do you understand how on the earth our senses like feeling of temperature is designed to be able to differentiate very low energy bands , like how in each scale of the temperature measurement the lowest temperature possible is only a few hundred degrees(-273K) in kelvin scale and can have a possible temperature of tens of millions of kelvin.

How on earth a human eye only perceives and feels and sees the colors from respond to wavelengths from about 390 to 750 nm even the bees and insects can see light in ultraviolet even some birds see lights ultraviolet (300–400 nm), and some have sex-dependent markings on their plumage, which are only visible in the ultraviolet range.Very weired.Din't know how the perception can be very limited even what we see.The most sophisticated senses of the human beings are eyes and these are also so much limited it misses some basic functionality of a basic digital Sony camera like optical zoom and wide range ISO setting as well.We are not even able to hear outside the audible range of 20 hertz to 20KHz.Very limiting so even what a typical male African elephant makes to communicate we are not able to hear a bit.But our brain are left with all the processing power combining all the living organism on earth because of the so called evolution process.How can you explain that an average human brain processes 400 billon processes/sec where as only utilizes 2000/sec process and most of these are the only environmental perceptions.That means we have the ability to do much much much more processing ability than we can ever utilize.The UTILIZED vs Potential processing power of brain is like a 500 millionth of our ability.Will continue this topic further in my later post.

will catch up in no time

2010-03-25T20:49:00.000-07:00

The great trickster plays in such a way that you sometime fall prey to it and still it make you believe that you are in control... :)

one and half week lost and I have yet to achieve what I had planned to acieve ..... still sometimes I feel that I am all powerful and I am controlling my desiny...how funny that is ...however when looking from a birds eye view you are just a small dry straw of dry grass flowing in a wild stream..However I am pretty confident that I will overcome the flow and I can force my way up the stream in spite of all odds...however there are so many things to do and its not very easy to set up your priority in life...

Now in this blog I will just post the numbers and I will analyze it with a multi dimensional approach to see where I stand now and where I want to go...

First of all let me tell you my assumptions...
if you define what are the resources and constraints at multiple point of time in life you can define your life as a view if you slice across fewer dimentions.for example if I set my
I have the main dimensions as (I will rate it with a max rate of 10)
TIME , --this is a ongoing dimention can't rate it
Financial Health, --2
Health-7
mental health,--5
personal satisfaction from family/friends --8
intellectual Health --4
availability of time for recreational activities -9
Professional satisfaction of work -- 3

Now this parameter might change bases on you mental state at the point of posting of this blog...
I will elaborate this more in my next posts....

One good this is that I can really understand now that the subconscious is much more powerful than I had initially thought...I can feel its true potential....and that is what creates your beliefs...

I can give at least 10 very personal examples from my life and of my close friends...I will illustrate them later...just a simple very recently that I had a lower back ache since 3-4 months and now just one day I convinces my subconscious that I dont have it and like a miracle from the next morning I am not having that for real... amazing....

enough about that now time for some daily goal setting ...I have already exceeded my daily quota of 30 mins and its already 45 minutes on still rolling...I will set a very very realistic target for tomorrow...

TIME , --this is a ongoing dimention can't rate it and we cant set any target here
Financial Health, --No target
Health- get up at 7 in the morning and workout for 15-20 minutes at home
in the evening 5 block running in 60mins
mental health,--listen to some mindpower audio book and take 20 mins for exercise(lean time)
personal satisfaction from family/friends --call up parents for 10mins and 2 friends 10 mins each (evening after sleep)
intellectual Health --Read 4 abstracts and atleat 25 pages more ( 2 before lunch and 2 after coffee)
availability of time for recreational activities - Party with booze with friends and watch movies (after 9PM)
Professional satisfaction of work -- learn 2 new things and apply them...note what you learnt ---start a new thing (take a 30-45 mins slab)

addition to that reward with each activity with a M

plan what you can do and do what you plan...

2010-03-11T21:31:00.000-08:00

What a heck of a day it is...getting up at 7 even you go to bed at 4 and feeling dizzy on your home to office and moreover refrigerator running out of milk so no cornflakes in the morning and granola bar breakfast again...feeling so dizzy that a hot cup of black tea surrenders before you that its have no more caffeine to get you awake and evening cricket after office when the while ball is barely visible and you have to solely depend on your hearing sensory organ to hit the ball out of the park(I can realize now how the blind cricketer would be feeling ) ...and after 3 5-5 game its a complete body ache...barelly able to run in the park (this is what happens if you have zero physical activity)...and after the match a sleep in the late evening that you feel like you had not taken for years.and now in the middle of the night that is technically the next day writing the blog that says for the last days activities..hardly looks like a day you would plan for rather a day that pull you inside its grand architecture...

Now the good thing about today although its technically friday and practically thursday ...the thursday always have been very inspiring and they remind that fridays and weekend are just around the corner and that week that feels like begun just few hours ago is about to be finished within a few hours.So you feel like your life is in such a fast track that you only realize that when you see you face in the washroom mirrors and surprise to find few grey hairs...I am growing old...oh heck it feels like a week that is practically a year....and if you are put in a cell without any light for an hour you 'd feel like a year.. now this shows how biased you feelings are.....you perceive what you think not what it is...which is the single most important reason why I am using my laptop keybaord so much now...while playing with a blackberry on my other netbook...

One thin I learned today ...believe is so biased as well its only a manifestation of your previous experience with things not necessarily some thing real...its of course make you fell more confident about certein things without which you even can not turn your laptop on to write this blog also...but its what you perceive not what it really is.. its another layer of Maya..(sounds philosophical)...for example there is a old proverb in my native language which would translate here without taking any credit of it "if you are once bitten by a snake the next you would be terrified if you see a rope"...

Now about todays plan dint worked out atall..btw what was the plan for today...oh there were no plan...thats why...so how its feels like having no plan and no execution ofcourse...its feels like your life is one day shorter...oh Really ..I do mean this...so thats the punch line I had put on the subject..now one good thing I came to know about me (too much of me these days probablly you be bored..sorry) is that what I really enjoy doing ...no its not what you might be thinking now..dirty minds...its when you are able to execute to perfecting to what you had planned before..its gives you a feeling of self command and sends strong doses of some neuro hormone may be adrenalin (who knows) to the brain and brain thinks its on the top of the world and as if control a lot of the stuff around the world..and what makes you feel miserable its the exact opposite if none of your plan works out...its not that what you have really planned using your conscious brain but it can be planned by your unconscious brain as well when you might even be sleeping which you have stored in your Brarehouse(Bbrain warehouse like few days or few weeks before which you secretly wanted to do........then you really feel like being pissed off...

Just editing this to add one more think that I am feeling as much satisfied just to write this BullSh** blog than I probably had felt if I had hit six sixers in a over in the match of this evening ..oh really I mean it ;)

S+2 ,,,,skipped the S+1

2010-03-06T14:27:00.000-08:00

I thought of initially if i document and put everything that I want here i can get some kind of motivation for me ...but i was wrong...its not about documenting things but its about believing things...learned that belief is something that enables us to do everything we are capable of even picking up the notebook and typing some bullsh** like this...

Enough philosophies...it was Friday yesterday and so i into partying mood once it is 4pm so never get me into put anything into my blog...yesterday was nice day here sunny and 40F and suddenly every dormant hibernating homo sapiens of the sleepy little city to spring suddenly into life and jammed the four lane roads of the city.Buy it really feels great when you had a nice sunshine after 2-3 weeks of gloom and snowfall.And when it is sunny how can the all enthusiastic cricket frenzy indian here stay put.We managed 11-12 person cricket team and started a 5-5 tournament in a part at 6 PM.

So what about a friday without booze had a went to a liquor shop and got got some belgian ale duvel and a 1.75l old smuggler scotch.The Ale was good and dint tried the scotch though..had not expected more dull weekend than this..if i compare to the last one with all the disc,dance,djs and beers..

ok...but the weather was perfect today as well..went for stroll at Jackobson park and walked around around until the sunset...went to see the Legions,,what the hell in the earth people make such movies and expect some unexpecting guys like us to watch that crap...and finally made me a turkey sandwich for dinner and some cappuccino..that all for dinner..yes no booze for today ..although its still 11pm and i might end up with some bud lights later,,,but nothing till now...

One more thing I learnt is that if you want to really important plan small steps if you want to touch something big..if you plan soo big and dont go for small steps first then its all "maya" out there.. all the 5 points to do i had end up putting 2days back i just managed to complete 2 of them and somehow close to do the 3rd one..so going for word I will plan 2 very realistic goal ...to 2 goals just above the realistic thing that will make me stretch and 1 ambitious...and lets see how it goes...

My First blog

2010-03-04T17:49:00.000-08:00

Today I finally made up my mind to post my first blog...not that there is anything special I want to write about or anything that I want other to read about....but just for me for the posterity in case I want come back and want to read my mind...so here you go....
I have written down on a small yellow scribble post it what I want to write and put it in my laptop bag..let me see it..oh leave that,,

Yesterday din't had my dinner just made a a big omlette with cheese and spring onions(experimented with cheese with omlette) and some cappuchino and orange juice and went to bed early as I might feel hungry if I wake up till late.This however did well with my appetite and din't let me wake up in the middle of the night.Got up late around 8am and the first thing that came to mind is very surprisingly "This is the best day of your life"(no i m not kidding...very weired ..eh)...anyway din't got time for breakfast so just had a protein bar and grabed a green apple on my way to catch up with a friend(CR) who had meeting at 9am.It was already late and he drove his 1998 corolla as a corvette on a racecourse although gayatri mantra in the background should have soothed him a bit...no one spoke a word till we reached office at 8:55 5 minuted before time.Had a meeting with a client(BE) from 9 so ran hurled towards his office as soon reached office . It went on till 10:15 to explain and present time lines and all those mundane schedules.Then I fixed my calender and tested some of the works that I was supposed to have done 2days back anyways late not lost.Then went for lunch late as usual 12:45 in the cafeteria with home made rice and egg curry and it felt like just another day with all the same things and same people with same work....
I was working on to write an white paper with a new concept that had come to my mind yesterday about "Cryptational Database" (my own definition of course) ...but just got only enough idea to write one more line to what I had put down yesterday and that a very generic life..oh hell with that...
Now back to the yellow scribbled paper and with 13mins to go before I stop my blabbering ....
I got to put down 5things i wanted to do todat and 5things to do for tomorrow...
Toady..I have hardly 3 more hours to go so nothing much...but i just love to type on my toshiba netbook ..so lets see... 2 points...each with 1 hours plan...oh forgot I had not called my girl friend yesterday and she must be very upset...so 15-20 mins for her...that leaves me with 40 mins for each item...

Today : 1. listening to Dale Carnegie ...making friends I think this would be 60mins activity at least
2.listening to gayatri mantra..sooths my soul...but that not the activity ...so what else ....ok defining what i really want in this life...tough questions to be answered in 30-40 mins...it has already taken me 26years for answering...but probably worth it...

Tomorrow:

Waking up early around 6 and working out...you dont feel good without that and moreover I am back with my love handles after no workout of 2-3 months...I know I may not be able to persuade some people to go to gym even though they just register and pay money to gym for the last 6months without going even once.
listening gayatri...I dont understand the true potential of this ..but certainly this had some true liberating ability to release someone from the vicious circle of the mundane life to introspect,....now i have one more minute to go to finish all the bull s**t..but I think no harm in dragging 5-10 more minutes as not much thing to do right now...
Reading 100 pages of literature may be technical...or just literature or just spread sheet data...I dont know but i think looking into the spreadsheet appears to have the same effect like reading another book...of philosophy
developing 5-8 new reports to ease up the work pressure of offshore team...dont really have to do this but i think to build up a confidence on them this is a very essential part of this...don't know how much time this gonna take ..some time a query take like infinite time and some times its just blazing fast....and tomorrow is friday so the ubiquitous beer and kentucky whisky is obviously calling ...I will try to avoid this pleasure lets see how this goes..
I think I would need some more time to figure out what i really want in my life...very confusing question and after all with all the blind folding views and maya and looking into live within other's perspective....very very tricky question....

Some new people I talked today....none... :( appears that i am very boring and introvert otherwise why wont anyone got to talk to me....but one good thing today no smoking and only two mugs of black team...one of them just to let me awake in the afternoon...

talked to mom..recharged my att with a 50$ ...forgot to bring my lunch box from office ...must be smelling by tomorrow lets see...bought some groceries from ALDI and Sams and fried chicken from sams...thats a lots of stuff for a first time blogger ....eh...and I am officially 12 mins delayed of my target end tome....