This Is How I Live My Life

MALAYSIA BOLEH

2012-02-12T07:54:00.000-08:00

I believe Malaysians are all aware of the latest news of KFC worker attacked the customer.

The news even spread to Taiwan, as I noticed.

Malaysia's news is always been a joke to foreigners.

What always make people laugh is our politics, our laws and the race problems.

Look at the picture below if you can understand chinese.

Apparently, there is no charges towards the KFC MALAY worker.

Not even a fine. Or compensation to the customer.

Where is the principle: "The customer is always the King?"

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MALAYSIA BOLEH！！！
原来在大马，没持武器打人就是“没罪”！！！
原来在马来西亚打人是不必负法律责任的，真好！

KFC员工殴人一案，基于袭击者没有持武器，案情属于轻微，即便伍姓事主认或认不出攻击男子，后者也不会被警方扣留查办。
而且，基于袭击者是触犯刑事法典第323条文，即自愿伤人，在法律上处理轻微案件，不至于需被扣留，更何况受害者伤势不严重。

难怪啦！KFC打人的那位帅哥去到警察局要录口供前时酱多patern啦!

这样天下大乱了！！！
真得很想问执法者那你是不是变相在鼓励社会暴力？
TAKE NOTE: 709 BERSIH当天，我们人民一样没有用武器！但是警察就乱乱以暴力打我们！
老师骂华人学生是鸡事件，KFC无理打人，及警察护短的事件，这些就没有被抓！！！

这样的话都说的出,原来用手打人是轻微案件的,不会被扣留....

WTF!
Say OH NO please.

What if the KFC employee is a Chinese that attacked a Malay customer?
What do you think?

You'd smile sarcastically if you get me.

Whitney Houston Dies

2012-02-11T22:48:00.000-08:00

I just can't believe what have just happened to Whitney yesterday.

We were still singing "When you believe" that feat Mariah Carey last night not knowing that she just passed away that afternoon.

Oh no.

She's been the one of my idols seriously.

I've been faking my voice to sound like her.

Technically, shout like hell just to seem s little like her.

When I was young, I used to compare her with my mother.

They looked quite alike in the big round and scary eyes.

Do they look alike with the signature teeth? Oh.. I guess they have the same rabbit teeth too.

Anyway, I just went to thestar trying to figure out what happened to Whitney,

but then they just wrote about when and where she died.

What about 'how' she died?

How possible could that be in a sudden that she just dies in the hotel?

She was supposingly staying in Los Angeles for the Grammy Awards on this Sunday night.

But who knows she just left.

What a waste!

God should at least let her finish the award that almost all artists been dreaming for.

Her death is really a great lost in the world's music industry, seriously.

I mean, how many like her is still out there?

Why artists die in such a young age?

Like Michael Jackson?

QUOTE OF THE DAY -- "I say in speeches that a plausible mission of artists is to make people appreciate being alive at least a little bit. I am then asked if I know of any artists who pulled that off. I reply, 'The Beatles did."

— Kurt Vonnegut

I'd reply, "Whiteney Houston did."

Rest in Peace.

Landing Anywhere

2012-02-10T21:24:00.000-08:00

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Shoot For The Moon and Stars

2012-02-10T05:43:00.000-08:00

I dream really high, seriously.

Just like expecting myself could grab the moon even I didn't even land on it before.

Undeniably, I like stars. Love, in fact. I love stars.

Especially in the middle of the night where the world is creepily quite.

I like to lie down somewhere large and empty.

E.g. On the road. Field. Basketball court and etc.

The universe is just too amazing that everybody would be curious about what is out there actually.

Brainstorming often is good, action is the most important step to work something out.

And that's why there are a lot of scientists,

They think different.

They figure something that never exist.

They dream of every single thing they thought it's possible every night,

even when people says it's impossible

they would answer "I am possible"

instead of giving up.

What about me?

Being a model is always a dream since young.

I like the spot lights.

I like to be professionally dressed up; to be makeover

I like to be stared differently, like a star.

But as I said, there are a lot of stars out there which, all of them shines from the moon.

Therefore, they need to get closer to the moon to expose their beauty inside them.

Tyra Bank is always the one I would stared at, for a long duration.

I don't know why.

I just like to observe her confidence, her special features and her every different makeover.

It seems like every style fits her like born for her; like exists for her.

I'm gonna ask myself whether anybody would observe me like how I observe her.

And yea, that's day-dreaming.

It's incomparable, girl.

Cause she's an International supermodel !

Have you gone mad competing with her?

Okay, I am just admiring, of course impossible. *Sigh*

What about the Malaysia's Top Model, Amber Chia?

Comparable? Except for her height, I know =.=

There's this girl, Josheen

the one and only that goes famous after taking part in UTAR MODEL COMPETITION

She won. And she just suddenly gone famous.

Magazines are all on her.

I also have some little conversation with her, asking about her new life with modelling.

And then I figured out that, she was as shy as I am once upon a time as she was grown from a small town with farms and all that.

I kinda admire her, occasionally, jealous a little. Ha.

Readers, you can read more from her site. Click here.

Somehow, nobody ever supported me.

I was not strong enough to hold still, though.

My mom says study first, modelling seem 'dark'.

'You have to sacrifice your virginity to be a model'

Then... unfortunately

I stop my dream.

Being a normal human, everyday.

Study in the morning, tuition in the evening, revision at night, and sleep very early.

Pathetic.

Until one day, the influenza from my university, UTAR.

I've been chosen in UTAR MODEL SEARCH for the university publicity.

Peoples gave good comments on me.

They said I smile like a sunshine; my smile inspires them and whatsoever.

Of course, everybody likes to be praised.

Nobody likes critics.

But I like critics, in a good way, of course.

Critics grow me into a better person.

There's this one quote talking about

"Failure is only a part of your success"

So, don't be afraid of failure nor criticism.

They are a gift

If someone ever told you how bad you were,

you should say thank you and appreciate, cause the someone just wants everything good for you.

I mean, honestly, who knows the bad side of yourself?

You just never thought you would be that bad, right?

So it's good to know what you doesn't know.

After all, I've been trying to improve myself these days.

My dream just never be a dream anymore.

They haunt me everyday.

I just feel like I have to do something, at least before I get really old.

Who knows the outcome when you didn't even try the first step?

And then, I get mad with those slimming methods.

Search from internet, ask my bff that knows everything about weight loss, do hard massage on my arms and legs almost like everyday, and then I tried for slimming pills, and my mom gave me a box of cleanse tea from Viva Barley Green Healthy Products -- For constipation.

Apparently, it helps. Detoxify, slimming, and weight loss.

Seriously, I want it fast.

One more step to help, exercise.

Haha, the laziest part of the whole weight loss process.

I was too rush that I found a model part time job from the internet.

Asia Part Time

And they were casting for new faces. I sent in my resume immediately.

Few days later, they replied and told me a lot of a professional portfolio for a model.

After some talkings from gmail chat, I finally get to understand the system.

A model needs an account, a professional portfolio.

I don't have a portfolio. Need to pay RM200 for the most basic package which include 20-30 pictures and 2 short video clips directed by a director.

There were some hesitation at first.

I was having too much of hesitation earlier and that's why nothing worked out.

Being a coward doesn't help.

Should dare to lose, dare to face no matter how hard will it be.

Dear encouraged.

But he is kinda chicken too. He is also worry about my safety.

Anyway, last decision.

I am in.

I took the first step. No fear. Kays?

Just shoot for the moon !

Quote of the day: Challenges are what make life interesting,

overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.

Smile for the rest of the day !

Never Make Someone Disappointed

2012-02-05T19:30:00.000-08:00

Some say couple should quarrel.

Quarrel doesn't mean hurting each other.

It'll more exciting quarreling.

Hmm, I don't think so.

Quarrel means having a lot of conflicts.

Conflicts means they are not on the same side.

They think so differently.

So, do you still think couple should quarrel?

Definitely not.

Never thought so.

I've been tolerating once and again and again.

How many times that I couldn't even remember.

I don't see what's holding me back anymore.

Don't ask me to stay the next time if I shout break loud.

Sometimes a girl keeps going back to a guy who treats her bad,

because she's not ready to give up hope that may be someday he'll change.

I've been hoping, once awhile.

And then I figure that it's not worthy sharing you with those unneccessary substances.

I was once expecting you to look me back when I call your name

But you never look back, instead, you ignored, or more technically, you didn't know

Why don't you know?

Cause you were not paying attention to me at all.

Sometimes, when you give up on someone, it's not because you don't care anymore,

but because you realize they don't.

Don't blame me for not holding faith.

You have to know, you caused this.

I believe that

One day, you will realise how much I was there for you when I'm gone

Don't worry when I fight with you,

worry when I stop because it means there's nothing left for us to fight for.

Don't get irritated when I am being grumpy

worry when I stop nagging because it means I don't love you anymore.

Saving someone that doesn't love you is much more easier than

saving someone that you have disappointed

I couldn't understand why were you showing your temper when you did something wrong

instead of apologize.

What could be more worse when you slammed the door with your pillow

and walked away like I blamed you for nothing?

Sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.

Maybe that's the reason.

You have disappointed me.

I will never carry hope.

I will only play heart-dead with you.

I will not say anymore

'I love you'

Cause I won't love you for nothing.

Too much of expectations leads to disappointment.

It's enough suffering through.

Let's just play game.

No stake, just game.

Deal :)

You Cannot Deal With God

2012-02-02T07:22:00.005-08:00

Yes, it hurts.

A lot a lot and a lot of complicated feeling can't stop wandering around my mind.

Your text never left my mind, even just a second

I just couldn't be alone even in the bathroom.

Word by word.

They just keep repeating like animation.

Keep persuading myself that it's true.

That was what just happened.

Face it.

We were still talking,

still joking.

The next moment, you just stepped out.

You raised the white surrender flag.

To our love, to our memories.

Telling me how suffer you are.

That you and I know, they were gonna be memories,

for now, for ever.

The promises made, the future that once we drew together has been vanished.

Cigarettes can be lighten, it can be blown out, too

You told me,

you just gonna throw it away no matter how nice it flickers..

They just have to be gone from now on.

Uncertainties...

There are too much that we never gonna have a premonition before everything happens.

That is why love hurts, and love warms, too.

You are so brave.

That's all I wanna say.

Your courage made yourself clear,

telling me what a big mistake we were doing.

Telling me how bad I was.

You were so tired.

You were wounded all around.

I should have noticed earlier.

I should have made a clearer decision.

And then after that, I figured out

"You have to let people go.

Everyone who's in your life are meant to be in your journey

But not all of them are meant to stay."

No matter how hard the feeling is,

I just have to act like nothing happen

Act like I don't care

And that's the only way to help you get off from the pain I caused you these days.

Unfriended you doesn't tell childish.

I am helping you.

Get me off your mind as soon as possible.

I believe and I know you will get well soon

Cause you are stronger than I thought, tougher than I ever imagined

*A last big smile to you, and I'm gonna wave forever*

New Stuffs Just Like A Whole Bunch of New-Born Petss

2012-01-22T00:47:00.000-08:00

The greatest thing ever is always about receiving/buying new stuffs and you own them wholly

Yes, I get what I want.

Though it's not all of it

But yes, I am delighted

A new year with a lot of new stuffs;

that always make my birthday a very special day.

However, you just gotta appreciate everything throughout the rest of the year;

no matter how bad will it goes.

First of all..

The first present received for my birthday present was from my Mighty Mama :D

A camera that I've always wanted.

Super satisfied cause it has a lot of function such as modes, and scenes.

Mom bought for like RM800 for me.

I know she loves me deep inside..

Thanks mummy :)

Another that impressed me.

By friendssss

Ivan, Sai Chuan, Fatt, Eugene, Alex, Wan Qi, Qiao Ying, and Lucas

Thankssss

I love this real much that I almost want to display them instead of wearing them for some nasty sports. Ha!

You couldn't imagine how much I obsessed with it

The perfect shoes come with a perfect tumbler with my favorite colour

You guys are so perfect;

Knowing that I would need a water tumbler during sports.

And yes, I need to drink more water so that it could also helps in losing weight

--Ivan's philosophy :)

Then here comes a special gift from my sister

Rinako Ooi.

I guess she wishes me to nourish and take good care of my face so much?

And she did give me one simple sentence that surprised me even more.

She just suddenly popped out

"The honey is just too real that I can't resist to lick them from my face"

Guess what?

She really licked them

OH MY GOD OOI XUE NI!

She then said

"And it tastes bitter...!"

*Don't make me faint on the street, pal"

Haha :D

And then I dyed my hair again for new year,

just like what I mentioned on twitter

Follow me, if you haven't

https://twitter.com/#!/ARIEL_YEN

Teeheee..

The colour doesn't look obvious though

But it looks healthy

fit my dry hair lahhh

The following is the bag I love the most, currently

Bought it from Genting during sem break.

I fell in love when I first saw this red squared-shape medium-sized handbag was on display

Ori price: RM129.90

Guess how much I bought after 70% new year discount?

RM40 plus only.

Yay ! It was really a great day !

Even though I just shop alone.

See how much the plum red attracts me.

I just couldn't stop staring at her

Glamorous, is to be described

Ohh ! I haven't updated my break trip yet !

Ahh...

That was so much to talk about and I was too lazy

Sorry..

This is one of the sem break parts

Stay tuned for the others !

*Writing about new stuffs is always the best part throughout the whole blog;

I am smiling all the way writing these*

Teeheee :)

You were...

2012-01-19T09:24:00.000-08:00

You were once a while the guy that will always be there for me...

I made the choice

and I lose you.

I was creating these.

I should be blamed.

Sometimes I felt guilty,

Sometimes I gone sad and regret.

But, you ain't gonna be there for me anymore.

I should have known this better than everything.

Perhaps, I knew it.

I just don't know what happen to me, actually.

I am being stubborn.

Too stubborn that I thought what I chose was the right choice.

Was what I want.

The moment you moved on

I feel ache inside.

You never gonna be there for me anymore

You never gonna look at me anymore.

I, will disappear forever, to you.

I thought you'd waited like forever for me.

hmm.

I was being too confident.

Hoping, still, you will.

I stunned, for like a few mins,

everytime I view your wall.

Wondering....

wondering...

and think.

Uncertainties.

Unknowns.

I left because of unknowns.

I've put you on the table as the stake of the game.

Roulette? Perhaps.

36 possibilities plus 0 as 37 possibilities.

It's spinning, still.

But I lost my stake before I get to know the result.

I've underestimated my stake.

They just won't wait until the end of the game.

I am being ridiculous, being selfish, being unbelievable

Why do I feel sadness when you walk away?

I don't want you to leave.

I don't want you to stay, for the sake of your future...

Haizz

You were once a while the guy that I called in the middle of the night

and you would come for me whenever it is

You were always one.

I am just too afraid of the realities

that I let go of love.

Wish you were here.

My 19th Birthday 2012

2012-01-07T00:12:00.000-08:00

Time flies

I am now 19.

Celebration is a certainty.

I should have known this very very well.

No one would ever got me out of their mind

Right?

Please allow me to be this confident :)

Well

I would really have to say a very big thank you to all of my lovely buddies

You guys made my day.

Though I was thinking I might be playing tetris at home during new year eve

which was always my favorite day throughout the whole tough year

Nevermind,

Tetris battle sounds good for me this year

Don't really feel like gathering around the crowd for that 10 secs countdown.

What surprised me was I have a really silent phone.

No one contacts me at all

Hmmm

Honestly, was kinda upset

Thought you guys been busy about your exams and totally forgot about new year eve,

my 19th blast birthday wor !

Even my darling's phone battery flat and I can't contact him at all too

Haih

What to do?

Stay at home with baby lorr

At the moment,

my phone rang,

Audrey was on the phone

First thought: Birthday celebration

And yea, it is

But I have to drive to her house first :/

Then we're going to Autocity.

Hmmm

My mind was blank and I just went to bathroom and make up myself

Then straight to her house

Someone called on the way..

Xue ni: Your surprised blew off already -_-

What the......

"But still, come to our house first"

-_-

Kinda like down ki lo. :/

Why like that gehhh?!

Nothing special anymore after I reached their house

Just switched car to Autocity

What on my mind was all about CHIA SENG CHONG !

WHERE ARE YOU EXACTLY?!

He was supposed to ride on bus to Penang

and now your phone is dead and I can't found you !

Few minutes later.

Xue ni's phone rang.

She answered and passed to me.

"Hello? How? Fun enough?"

"Huh? Who are you?"

"You know how worry I am?"

"What the fuck ! Why are you answering? OMG"

"Surprised huh?" :/

Not surprised at all darling.

You were freaking me out !

I was just so surprised about who you've brought together with you

Not that I was not happy nor surprise to see you

I was just already expected to see you today

Anyway,

thanks for bringing Eugene and Ivan along.

They really surprised me when I see Eugene's new Persona

that I wouldn't have thought he might drive here

Mr Eugene;

Best friend that helps all the time :)

Mr Ivan;

My best buddy, We used to talk until the sun rises

We had dinner at Swensens

Which was not actually the best choice

but the best of the worst. Hmph

Too many peoples and traffic jam all over autocity

Almost every shops were crowded.

Then, here comes my sista :)

My VIPs;

Airen Jing Jing and Laopo HuiZhen

Miss Er Er;

The best listener

Miss Rinako/Xue Ni;

She prefers Rinako, instead.

The best helper,

she stands up for you whenever you need her :)

Miss Audrey Wee;

The sweetest smile she has :)

Miss Fei Fei;

The tiniest and you will feel like protecting her all the time

Thanks girls, for celebrating with me.

Though nothing actually surprised me

But I appreciate the planned plan that you guys surely spent time out of your busy moment

I had fun.

Thanks to all.

May you all have a happy and lucky new year :D

Tiny Rabbit

2012-01-01T08:10:00.001-08:00

Hello baby boy :)

Welcome to this wonderful, yet miraculous world

Do you know how much you've been blessed to come to this world?

So many peoples were waiting for your appearance.

Busy buying your stuffs,

Everybody was so excited !

And finally,

after 10months of carrying you in your mummy's womb,

your mummy's been suffering from food-allure

and

You've finally came out.

~First day back home~

See your mummy

So worry about you.

Don't you cry so much kays?

She is so new to this.

She gets so out of control whenever you start to cry.

And now your daddy's turn.

You can actually see that he is so tired lor.

As I know your daddy,

he's like the kind of man that wouldn't stay beside you and 'tam' you geh

Yea, proved me wrong !

He damn sayang you and your mummy :)

Always scold her for being too worry about you and not taking good care of herself

Awww...

So touch to see a new start up family

You know what?

You're just too cute that I feel like wanna hug you so tight in my arms

but you're just too tiny and fragile that I almost get myself a heart attack

but it's okay,

you will still be loved by your Auntie Ariel

Awww can't wait to hear you call me Aunty !

Baby..

You just have to grow normal and healthy yea.

<3 Love you <3

Another Fight

2011-12-26T23:25:00.000-08:00

Why do we have to fight like this every time?

I started the fight actually.

I am always the fire matcher.

Is it really my problem?

This isn't what I want.

It's still the same.

I asked for too much.

What is it on earth so hard for you guys to treat a lady like a lady?

I just want you to be more attentive

to care more about me.

Every time you say you love me

I really hope you mean it.

Cause you would throw me a glance like you're going to kill me.

It's scary.

You really freaked me out

Do you know that?

Maybe I was really wrong,

but you acted like I murdered your whole family.

Why?

It's hurt, I know

I get mad every time you get mad.

I follow.

I would have talk like crazy with sharp knife on my words

and stab your heart accidentally that I wouldn't know how much it really hurts.

I was just like this since forever, and I don't know why.

I am sorry.

Thousand apologies.

I repeated my mistake, as usual

Why am I always trying to protect but instead, I hurt somebody else that I care?

Am I really being childish that I can't control myself?

I just want your eyes to be on me.

I just wanted to be like a baby princess being held in the arms like a pearl

Yes, treat me like a precious pearl

And, yes, I think I am worth to be a pearl.

Every time you say you did a lot of things for me,

sorry, I can't see anything.

Define a lot please.

I tidied your house almost every day

I prepare drinking water every day just to keep you away from thirst

I buy fruits, cut, and even feed you with it

I hang your clothes every day

even I am in real tired mode

But you bring back sands every day

Throw your clothes all around the floor that I have to pick them up one by one

Turn on your computer and play the football game everyday

Playing with your 'turbo sports car'

and then you will remind me to full body massage you.

Sorry that I nag so much

Sorry that I complain so much

and sorry

I don't know what you actually done for me.

You would say

I bring you to breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day

I bring you to movie, club, KL, and every where

What else?

Sorry, I can just remember these.

Do you remember that day you went to the mini market for like 15 mins plus.

I waited for you in the car

and you showed up with a big plastic bag after 15mins plus

you said

"See what I bought for you !"

And then you started taking things out from the plastic bag one by one

"I bought you some biscuits, bread for your breakfast"

"A very big bottle of family use body shampoo"

"Toothpaste ! Remember we didn't brush for 2 days, Oh no ! Haha"

"And owh, herbal tea, to boost your every day"

Do you know how sweet you were?

I was just going to say how much I love you

and how much you are worth for my love

This is simple

This is just what I want every day

It just simply define "I did a lot of things for you"

Please, don't we quarrel anymore.

曲终人散

2011-12-24T17:36:00.000-08:00

两个月多了

我们是真的分开了

虽然心里一直都在想你

但是我清楚知道我们不可能了

虽然，也总是觉得在未来的日子里

我们也许还有机会

但是这个想法确实会伤害我们三个

要是我一直这样下去

我不会真正爱他

我也永远戒不掉对你的习惯

这样，

对你们都很不公平

我知道

我凭什么来拖着你们两个？

这两个月里

我几乎每天都在想

我这样的选择到底是对错

今天

我终于要对自己说

既然都做了决定就不应该后悔

不应该再犹豫了

大不了两个都不要

我不应该再想你了

不应该再常常把你挂在嘴边

不应该拿你出来做比较

我已经没有再依恋的借口

那一刻，我转身的时候

就不应该想再一次拉住你的手

那天，你的脸有几分憔悴

你的眼有残留的泪

我不会忘了

因为那是我造成的

要是我真的爱你，

就不该象过去那样用双手紧紧把你环绕

放你走

让你找到比我更适合你的

让你不再为我流泪

让另一个她把你遗失的笑容找回

曾经幸福的，痛苦的

该你的，该我的

到此一笔勾销

我是真的希望

你可以再一次

幸福的，开心的

对着我，笑...

我不会忘了我们曾经一起拥有的回忆

你永远会在我心底...

Fear from the Bottom of My Heart

2011-12-16T09:28:00.000-08:00

I just don't know why.

You are now drinking.

I am supposed to believe in you.

But I am scared.

I don't trust you.

In other words, I don't trust those alcohols.

You were so drunk when I last saw you drinking with your cousins.

I don't know why guys life should be this way.

Drinking is like everything to y'all.

You knew you would do anything when you were drunk.

And, you would never know when you are going to be drunk.

You just gonna keep drinking until you don't know what you're doing.

How can I trust you?

I don't know why.

I feel like crying right now.

Tears filled my eyes.

I shouldn't be this skeptical.

If I keep being like this,

in the end you'll just gonna throw me away.

I just don't feel safe at all.

Seriously,

I hope you wouldn't hide anything from me.

But on the other hand,

I don't know how much I can take it.

My heart is soring.

I am not okay.

I cannot stop imagine the picture of you drinking with girls around.

I am so being a worried pity wife here.

And I super hate myself being like this.

Why?

I am worry, yea.

I am not feeling safe.

So?

I can't tell you.

I don't want to be a frightened little girl in front of you.

In fact, I am.

And I am pretending,

which suffer really a lot.

I don't know how to reply your message.

Cause you are acting like

"I am busy drinking, talk fast"

I was just gonna say,

"Please don't take any drugs, and be careful"

Do you know how hurt it is when your cousin asked you inside

and you just gonna cut the line immediately.

I was imagining, you're rushing back inside to sexy girls.

I know you would say

"Please don't think too much, please"

"Yes, I think a lot, that is because you didn't make me trust you"

Maybe yea, you love me,

but you'll just gonna do some mistake

How do you think those affairs come from?

You always show up in discos every time I am not with you

What's the problem actually?

Why so desperate?

You can say no if you want.

Remember:

"There's nothing about can or cannot, it's about you want it or not"

Frankly speaking

I am not trusting you.

Sorry.

Tetris Fight

2011-12-10T01:50:00.000-08:00

It's funny .

We fight over tetris.

I don't know how it started.

But we just started to yell each other during the battle.

Maybe I randomly said something offended you

But I didn't mean it.

It's just a game !

Win or lose, so WHAT?

Are there any prizes?

That's what I'm gonna say.

I don't know why you felt like offended.

You just shouldn't be so rude to me.

I'll never forgot how the words came out from your lips.

It hurts.

The Gap 1822

2011-12-01T06:41:00.000-08:00

How do I actually have to start this post.

I don't know.

I feel down.

We talked so many times.

Conclusion : We're not on the same side

You are way too matured.

I am the opposition.

Although I don't look like really 18.

But, somehow, I actually can be like 20.

Still, not 22.

Still, middle of 4 years.

Age gap. The severe problem of us.

Although you are 22. But you, too, don't look like one.

You are just more than that.

You always think I am naive.

You always think everything I do is a mistake.

You always try to correct me.

And these, made me feel so... *I can't find a word*

You are looking down at me.

and you know, I don't like it.

Anyway, you're right.

I am still in the life I used to live with.

Life with Hong.

Life like how he agreed everything I commented.

Agreed everything I was about to do.

It can't be denied that, he was a good supporter of mine.

I was too attached with this feeling.

I like to be hoped.

Like anything happen, I am the one that gonna solve things calmly.

I know, this is stress !

I complained before.

And now, I don't know why, I complain again.

Duh.

Why does life has to be this complicated?

I tried to explain how I really think about.

You just have your own opinion.

I just think you should have guided me.

You went thru this phase.

Maybe you should give in a little to me.

You should treat me like you used to be.

You know what?

I felt offended when you said,

"Hong has spoiled you, you'll never grow up if I spoil you like he did"

WTF?!

Spoil?

I doubt.

It was how sweet and you did not know a thing.

C'mon. He was just being caring.

Maybe we're just not in the same phase but you shouldn't say like this.

Everybody has their different kind of method to show love.

Everything we did for love is not considered a mistake.

It's what we did with feelings.

Maybe you will deny this sentence again

I guess you will say

"Feelings without rational is still not considered a thing"

"You should have thought wisely"

"You never know why when you're not at my phase even I explained hard"

I am thinking these problems.

Are we too fast.

There are these thoughts from friends

"Nothing about fast or not, just follow your feelings"

"Feelings always make the start"

"We're still young, why consider so much?"

Haih.

See?

This is what will happen when you did not consider.

What should I do now.

Feeling says : Don't leave him, you have feelings.

Rational says : You should take a break before you start a new relationship. Clear your minds before you gonna add in something new. At least your mind wouldn't be messed up.

Haih......

Sungkai Hot Spring

2011-11-28T08:37:00.000-08:00

It was really a very wonderful trip I had today.

The most memorable day in Kampar.

Never thought Kampar wouldn't be this boring.

Credits to 承宗哥 !

*Damn er xin right?*

My life would never be this fun if I never met you.

But too bad, I don't have a proper camera

and again, I missed all those fun parts.

Seriously,

camera needed.

Anyway, I still got some before we left.

Then it would be all about my description of the whole trip.

We started our journey @ 4.30pm

with eggs and everything readied.

Please don't be curious about the eggs.

It was the funniest part of the whole trip! :D

Then it started to rain along our journey.

First thought in our mind

"We'll never gonna have fun today"

Problems:

1. Public holiday wor, got open or not ehhh?

2. Raining wor, still can let us get in or not? :S

"Cham lar ! Traffic jam some more!"

WTF!

We were so like disappointed when the rain never got lighter as we got nearer

We prayed, so hard.

And ta-daaa !

We arrived at 6.15pm

*Imagine how long have we stucked in the car*

Still, non-stop raining :S

BUT, tickets are still on sale !

Ha ha !

Everything worth back !

The environment was really so relaxing.

I almost fell in love and almost gonna stay there forever.

*exaggerating, as that was really AWESOME*

The spring was really heating, my skin burned

Not actually burned,

It just turned pink !

It was like about 40-50 celcius degree

Took us a few mins to finally get into the pool

Seriously, you don't wanna get out of the pool if you don't feel dizzy.

Soothing enough for you to actually sleep inside the pool

Pros and cons,

Once there's Malays, there will be nothing about cleanliness.

Hmph !

Nevermind, we leave them aside will do.

Don't get affected by them.

You still need to get into the pool

Awww !

Now, the eggs part.

Guess what have we done to the eggs?

20 eggs brought, by the way :D

Ohh, and kicap brought too !

Ans: Boil eggs in the spring :)

2mins -- 1/4 boiled eggs

3-mins -- Half boiled eggs

5-7mins -- Full boiled eggs

They were just so tasty !

Nothing ordinary like we usually boil the eggs.

Feel like going back d

*Slurp* ;P

We stood there for quite a while,

Busy cracking those eggs slowly and carefully

Don't wanna waste any of the eggs.

20 eggs for 5 persons.

It was just enough.

I swear we will bring more during our next visit :D

--- 8pm ++ ---

Time to go home.

Ivan lost his slippers !

One of his slippers actually.

Don't know which sor hai took only one of his slippers

Bodoh..

He borrowed mine.

And that's what made me laugh like hell !

See what it looked like....

Hahahahahahaahahahahaha !

"Nger nger fit in !"

Next funniest point.

Awww...

Laurance so pity, he can't get to sleep

Reason : "I scared if I fell asleep, I would have kissed him, and it looks so gay !"

Hahahahaha

End of the day,

end of the trip.

Looking forward for our next trip

Cameron Highlands :D

"Your existence, my source of happiness"

To-Buy List

2011-11-17T08:12:00.000-08:00

So many things I wish to buy.

So much money needed to be saved.

Should really seek for more part time jobs already.

Should save more money to my Maybank account already.

Hmph !

To-buy list:

1. CAMERA

- I don't wanna missed any more minutes of my uni life.

2. SPORT SHOES

-Going so much for badminton recently, should really buy a proper shoes instead of my super hard CONVERSE shoes.

3. SPORT SUITES

-Since going so much for sports, nicer and proper wear is needed as well.

4. Bras

- It's weird to have this on the list, but I really wanted to have a few more sexy bras in my closet :D

5. Iphone

- The toughest task to achieve. But still will give a try

6. Tint Film for Fat Lady

- Gonna stick something to protect my skin on my fat lady (Waja)

These are what on my mind for now only

I think there are still a few things to be listed.

Can't remember.

Of course, I kinda hope I do not have to buy all these by myself?

Haha

Looking for sponsors.

Half of the price also 'kill' !

Haha

You Are The Reason

2011-11-15T18:13:00.000-08:00

I think this is gonna be a new relationship.

It's fast, I know.

But, who can resist when it comes to feelings.

We always defeated by feelings.

Feelings always drag us along our life.

It's fact.

I know it might seem weird,

or might be inappropriate to the others

As I just ended one, and started another within 1-2 weeks.

Don't ask me why, don't ask me how.

It just came.

He just appears.

Perhaps, I was seeking someone to accompany?

But who knows?

Days passed, another month is coming soon

I am about to fall in love,

To him.

A surprising sentence just dropped off from my lips this morning.

I told him

"I love you"

and I pressed my lips on his.

I smiled as usual, with feelings, of course.

I surprised him, like myself surprised.

I smiled, still.

Looking into his eyes.

Wondering my words.

My responsibility to the sentence.

Are they true?

He was asking the same question.

I stunned.

It might be true.

It might be a feeling-drag

I am not sure.

But I felt sweetness from the bottom of my heart.

I feel happiness, that has been long lost.

I feel like not anymore alone.

Protected by some kind of unseen objects.

You are the reason why I felt these.

You are the reason why I like this feeling being together with you.

I feel so secured being with you.

I do not have to face so many things by myself anymore.

As long as I have you to help me solve my thousands problems.

You are just so capable in sharing all my thoughts.

This is the life I actually wanted like forever.

Find a guy that he loves you, you love him.

And he gives future, he gives secured promises.

The most important,

He is capable in giving you a happy, and a safe family.

All of these might be my own hallucination

Might be what I build up myself

as I wanted these so badly.

I almost hope myself to drown inside

I almost wanted to say

"I love you"

every time you kissed me.

Though, it's not time yet.

You said,

"I felt like poisoned by you already"

Then I replied,

"Don't worry, I am the antidote, I won't let you die nor leave me"

All I can ever do

2011-11-08T07:06:00.000-08:00

Late night.

Mask-ing.

Wondering.

What are you doing?

Wondering.

I called.

You picked.

You were just so different.

You were just so happy.

You were just like nothing happened.

You lived your life.

I tell myself.

"Nevermind, I'll get used to it"

I...

Just not anymore in you.

You are on your own

and so do I.

All I can ever do,

let you go,

let you live your life,

never bother,

never, anymore.

As long as

2011-11-08T05:09:00.000-08:00

Never thought I would still care.

Saw your pictures.

Saw how happy you were.

Kinda hope I was with you.

Kinda like wanna stand beside you.

I don't know what's wrong.

But I know, you do it on purpose.

And I admit, the post I wrote, was a bit on purpose too.

Seriously,

I felt like wanna smell you all over again.

Anyway,

As long as you are really happy.

As long as you can get over me.

As long as,

You were the one I loved before.

And

As long as,

I was also the one you loved so much.

I miss you.

Goodbye. Farewell.

2011-10-29T10:58:00.000-07:00

Just ended what I've been so protecting once upon a time.

Never felt regret as I think it's the only choice that I could make.

I didn't end it so irresponsible,

Instead,

We talked.

We discussed.

After all,

We can still be friend.

I think this is the macho part.

Where we still can be best friend.

I'm not gonna say

"Let's broke up, because I don't love you anymore"

That's super irresponsible.

What actually surprised me was,

I didn't cry.

I didn't respond when he says "I love you"

I can't feel a thing

*Sorry*

Maybe, it's really time,

it's what that should be done right now.

He acted sad at first.

He begged.

And then,

He laughed, starting to understand.

Perhaps, he might felt the same way I felt

We were just not suitable anymore

Being together will just suffer both of us.

I am glad, and pleasant

cause he finally actually understand the statement

I need not explain and explain again as usual

which is really annoying.

I found that he is sexy when he acted like a macho guy.

He says "Can we still be friend?"

"Are we still going to talk?"

I smiled.

"Of course we will."

All that ever held me back was always his family.

They were really like my family

and I really don't feel happy losing a family,

where I actually cherish, and appreciate.

I never wanted to lose them.

But, there's nothing I can do.

I can never be like going to their house and celebrate every events anymore.

Never going for road trips anymore.

Never be invited to any party anymore.

Yea, that's what that holding me back.

I don't want to lose them.

Still,

Everything follows.

I lost them, like forever.

Repeats

2011-10-28T01:49:00.001-07:00

Never thought this would happen again.

Never thought I would be the one who is going to end this.

Never thought, this is what my decision

and I also never thought,

I didn't tears a bit.

Things never gone well since I studied here

and that was already one year and a half

We were always so suffered

I mean,

Me, especially me

I suffered

And,

Things never gone well since you started your career.

You changed

and, I can't accept the fact.

You went so different ever since you worked.

We, went differently, too

You never thought of me anymore.

You never remember me.

You never remember what I said even you were just so near

Distance is not the problem.

We travelled 2 hours to meet each other whenever we can

Ahem, I mean, last time

but not now

You are not anymore I know the most

You are so strange to me right now

I never gonna understand you anymore.

I don't know what happened,

I tried to save

I tried so much to maintain everything that is needed

I know distance is hard

and that's why,

I've been called like a "kid" that always needed you to accompany.

This is the problem that's been in between us

You chose, you made your decision,

you chose your stupid job over me

and now, I made my own choice too,

I chose the one that could take care of me and really treat me like a lady.

I know,

It is my fault,

it's always my fault when I chose to let go

我是女孩。

我希望有人疼爱，有人包容，有人让我撒娇

有人能陪在我身边，有人喜欢带我去逛街，

有人乐意带我去世界各地也在所不辞

我是女孩，

我希望有人记得每天和我说晚安

有人记得我们过去的点滴

有人决不把承诺作儿戏。

我是女孩，

希望有人好好爱我，有人惦记我，在我郁闷大哭的时候把我的头按在胸膛里。

I am just so normal.

I am just so needed to be cared.

I am just so simple.

I am just a girl, who needs love.

I FAILED

2011-10-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

I am so going to remember this result FOREVER.

I seriously damaged inside when I saw this stupid sheet of result.

Never failed before

This is the first time in my lifetime on the first semester of my degree

I feel so ashame right now

But nothing's gonna change the fact that I failed

I was not going to accept the reality before I view my result from portal.

Acted like a total freak

Avoiding from UTAR website

Purpose : Hope for something good

Yes, you can say that I actually estimated failure

No, I still hope for the good side, maybe something that surprise me

But, in the end, I failed.

I stunned in front of my computer for 10mins ++

I barely move

Just keep my eyes on the computer screen

Crazily hoping for it to change

It doesn't

It remained the same during that 10mins

And it's clearly a fact that even how much I wouldn't want to know

What am I gonna do right now?

For the first time I've ever failed any subjects

I really don't know what I should do right now

Feels hurt deep down in my heart

Feels guilty, too.

I should have done better !

I shouldn't have taken this kind of result where no A+ appears

Wonder when will I actually realize I've been gone for so long

I've changed

No longer that secondary one

Craving for As

Instead, I am hoping for a C

I mean, what's wrong with me !

What have gone to my mind?

Have I gone insane?

The result is my future man

You don't really have much money to fail like this

You can't afford the failure

Never !

How is your mother going to pay an extra RM1600++ for you to repeat your mistake?

Think seriously,

You've been acted so richy since you've gone to uni

That's all?

Are you really a rich one?

Haiz

What am I gonna do?

*STUNNED AGAIN*

PLAN YOUR SCHEDULE !

YOU IDIOT !

Admire

2011-10-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

I always admire those gorgeous, intelligent and very powerful women

I mean girls, but it don't look powerful when I say powerful girls.

Girls are mean to be like gossip

Never a gossip woman huh?

Xiaxue is one of my admired idols

I always wanted to be like her

Travel over countries

Even social over the world

Know a lot of awesome people

She is fantastic

I really really hope I could be like her

Earning by only blogging

Then you can have flexible time to do whatever you want

and in the meantime you're earning US dollar.

I can't think of what kind of job can be like this if it is not by blogging

I am sucks

I can't even actually post up my pictures

Even don't have perfect camera to capture those perfect scene

I always wanted to buy a DSLR

I even wanted to be a photographer

Uhm, I mean a part time one

I have loads of mission to be done

Yet, I am stucked in a university

Cause I don't have money

Shortcut to be wealthy : Study degree and get master

Is it possible?

Still in question that has no solution.

How bad it is.

One thing of me is, lazy.

Being a famous, I mean a person that is favorable to anyone else

Is, you have to be really hardwork

Plus, gifted intelligent

I don't have gifted intelligent

And I am lazy

How to be a successful woman then?

Crap !

I was with a friend called Sue Lyn once awhile

She is the type like xiaxue

Sociable, interesting, favorable, knowledgeable

She often shares her experience to peoples around her

and peoples always find that interesting

This is what hard to achieve

I never gonna be favorable :(

How sad.

Sob

Somebody admire me pleaseee.

Twitter Beginner

2011-10-03T04:49:00.000-07:00

Just signed up an account in twitter

As what my friend Kalvyn introduced,

"Twitter is like you can have everything you want, it's super duper fun, go play go play !"

I think he means, you can post anything you want?

*Skeptical eyes*

HAHAs

I started to feel curious about what he said earlier

and went to create one

I am way too noob to explore something new

The functions, those posts, follows and etc.

But cannot be denied that twitter is easier than facebook

So it's actually better than you just going to start facebook

I think this is why twitter is popular

that they even promoted in Grey's Anatomy

where Dr.Bailey used twitter to post her surgeries.

Anyway, still discovering it's max function :D

HAPPY TWITTER-DISCOVER TO MYSELF :D

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