Thoughts and Rhymes...

Voices

2011-12-12T23:50:00.000+05:30

Whether we accept it or not, we all are in the constant process of learning.
Learning to live with ourselves. As Bon Jovi say, 'It takes a while to learn to live in your own skin'.

Before I started recording my voice, I always used to imagine myself having this deep baritone of a voice. You know, the kind Marko has- the lead singer of Poets of the Fall. (Yes laugh all you want).
This was during my mid-teens, when my voice was still cracking.
I don't know why, I guess I had been listening to and singing to too much POTF and Creed and Audioslave that I always expected my voice to end up like Scott Stapp's too.
I recorded my first song at home when I was 16. Was a slow piano song. While recording it, I was expecting the end result of my voice on the recording to sound nice and heavy.
But obviously, that wasn't so. A shocker.
I thought I had a good voice until I heard it myself.
I thought maybe I didn't sing the notes well enough to make it sound baritone enough. So I recorded the whole song again.
Now because I failed again, I hated my voice even more. I wondered if this would happen to all the vocalists. Hating their own voices. Bleh.
And after that, for some masochistic reason I heard some more Creed and System of a Down trying to imitate the vocalists and envying in a way their voices.
I'm 19 now, going on 20. I've recorded a couple songs now and still hate my voice. I can't bear the sound of it.
I had a whole Jason Mraz phase too, (still kind of do), where I hoped my voice would at least sound like his. But again, not even close. When I tried to compare it, it appears that my voice in slightly deeper than Mraz's but way thinner than Marko's. Somewhere in between.
I also in fact had a point in time where I hoped that I sounded as hypnotic as Sting, or funky like Athony Keidis. Failed pretty badly both ways..
But hey, I'm still in training. My voice is still not ready. And now that I'm coming to slowly accept my voice, I'm beginning to like that fact that I don't sound like anyone I know. It's good to be unique.
But then again, it looks like its going to be a long time till I start liking my voice.

Stole dad's car.

2011-07-30T21:23:00.001+05:30

Karma's a bitch.

2011-07-16T15:43:00.002+05:30

I have the best girlfriend in the world! :D

BLOG

2011-07-14T01:22:00.001+05:30

'Blog' sounds like the sound someone makes when he/ she vomits.
I've always had a feeling that the person who invented the blog was nauseous. So just to prove to myself that I was correct, I researched it.
I was wrong, as usual. None of my theories have been right so far. But that's just the way it is I guess.
It doesn't stop me from making new ones though. And frankly, I like mine better.

No really.

The actual reason why it's called a 'Blog' is because its a short form to 'Web Log'.

:/

Boring.

My vomit theory works better.

I wonder why I haven't updated my blog in so long. I always feel as if I need to have a topic or a reason to write a blog post. But that's just stupid.
Honestly I don't understand why I still feel this way. Over the past year that I've had this blog, practically all my posts have been pointless and more or less irrelevant to anything that has got to do with nothing.

Today there were blasts in Mumbai. Again.
But what I love about Mumbai is that even though we may get a little panicky while the attacks are taking place, within hours of its ending Mumbai is back on its feet. This horse of a city never tires. I just wish it had a fewer people. :P

I want to start using less emoticons. I want to learn how to bring out my emotions with my words rather than symbols. That'll only come with practice I guess.

iGuess.

Lol it sounds like Apple's new Stock Market prediction application

Two Left Feet

2011-05-05T17:24:00.001+05:30

You're here finally
And finally we're crazy

The music is inside us

And the party is free

I can't dance for nuts

But I'm nuts for you

So I'll make myself a fool

'Cause I'm a fool for you

So I'll dance

With my two left feet

Till my feet start to ache

With my two left feet

Till the night begins to break

Everyone's enjoying the night

We've all got our worlds

And mine's here with you

'Cause tonight I want to dance with you

With my two left feet

I wanna dance with you all night

With my two left feet

I wanna dance in the twilight

I wonder what I'll do when the night arrives

Should I take lessons to learn how to jive

Do I worry too much? I Think I'll take a dive

Into the music and just go with the flow I'm so alive

Cause I just la la la la

Love to da da da da

Dance with you

With my two left feet

I wanna dance with you all night

With my two left feet

I wanna dance in the twilight

With my two left feet

Till my soul sets me free

With my two left feet

Till it's just you and me

Enough already...

2011-03-27T18:57:00.001+05:30

OKAY I get it! I've got a visa for Canada and my PR has worked out. I also get that now universities in Canada would be easier for me to get into and would be way cheaper for me.
I know I'll get tremendous exposure there, especially with what I plan to study [Film].
But is it too wrong to say that I just don't want to go there?
For over a year this topic has been brought up at my place and I'm getting sick of telling my parents that I am extremely happy where I am right now.
Again tonight my parents want to sit with me and look for universities there. I'm so tired of doing the same thing again and again... WHY don't they get that I'm genuinely just not interested.

I do want to go study abroad, but not now. For my post graduation maybe. Right now, where I am, what I'm doing, I'm enjoying myself and I love it here in Mumbai.

Gah. I guess the only way to stop them from bringing up this topic again and again is to just apply to a few places there and see what happens.

My Roots

2011-03-25T00:29:00.001+05:30

I can feel it. The pieces of the puzzle seem to fit perfectly. This is where I am supposed to be.
I'm not afraid anymore, think i may have found my place.

At least for now.

:D

No Guitar. No Distractions...

2011-02-20T18:01:00.000+05:30

... ?

Don't look back, into black...

2011-02-09T20:06:00.000+05:30

Quiet down. We're almost there.

Thank You (:

2011-02-06T23:53:00.003+05:30

Laa Dee Daa (:

2011-01-31T23:50:00.001+05:30

You know how people say, 'When everything seems to be coming your way, you're in the wrong direction.'
Well I'm hoping there can be exceptions to that statement.
It seems, as of right now, everything in my life is 'just perfect'! You know, like how you just don't want things to change.
I have the perfect college. The perfect course. The perfect friends. The more than perfect girlfriend. And as of today, the best bedroom ever!
And to think, I'm not even in the 'wrong direction'... I know what I want to do in life. And I'm working on that. I'm working hard in college. I'm performing in a few places now and then. I'm painting. I'm helping my mother with her business. I'm going to the gym regularly. And I'm taking care of my three babies.
:D

I guess I really am probably the luckiest boy in the world!

Leave. But don't ever leave me.

2011-01-26T21:03:00.001+05:30

I've been checking my own blog for the past few days hoping that it would automatically update itself with all my thoughts... But it doesn't work that way.
So much has happened since the last time I updated this blog. I don't remember half the things. But those things clearly didn't matter.

Before I begin... Happy New year! :D :P

I have a girlfriend now :D

The most beautiful girl in the world. And she's made me the worlds luckiest boy.

My little one (:

It's gonna be tough being without her for these few months ):

But we'll get through it. We're awesome that way.

I love you :D :D

My bedroom's been under renovation for the past two months... Might take a week more to get ready. It's coming out really good! Can't wait! :D

BMM's still fun! Our festival is coming out in two weeks. Really looking forward to it!

I started going to the gym again. I have an incentive this time ;)

I miss you Sashawasha ):

108 days (:

Drown with me

2010-12-21T02:46:00.001+05:30

I-Doser mp3. Thank you whoever for creating this.
Imagine Pink Floyd's Interstellar Overdrive only without anything instruments or effects. Just one single sound that's constantly ringing in your ears for half an hour.
It goes Up and Down. Left and Right. In Circles. Clockwise. Anti-Clockwise. Louder. Softer. Faster. Slower. But it doesn't stop.
It's unusual at first. You're expecting some sort of melody to take over. But it doesn't
Plain. White. Noise.
That's all there is to it.
15 minutes into it I realised I was high. I called up a friend as soon as I realised this.
I'm high right now.
I'm typing.
?
I reached such a state while listening to it that I told myself, 'Forget music. This is the future.'
I even convinced myself it was true.
Until I started listening to Porcupine Tree.
I'm listening to it while I type.
Music.
I'm out of words to describe the kind of high I'm getting right now.

Music has never tasted sweeter.

I read somewhere, The mind is the most beautiful thing to lose.
This is the best way to do so.

2010-12-19T13:00:00.002+05:30

Everyone's claiming to be 'awesome'. Looks like I was wrong.

I'm not awesome.

2010-12-15T17:07:00.000+05:30

Ohhkayyy I really don't have anything to write about. Again. But I haven't updated my blog in too long and I want to write something...
Ooh! I can't wait till 2011! So many movies are finally releasing! Kung Fu Panda 2, Pirates of the Caribbean 4, Gotham Knights, Rio, Transformers 3, Smurfs, Rango! :D
Hmm...
New Years is in 2 weeks... Don't know what I'm going to do.. But that's okay, there's loads of us who don't know what we're going to do. So we'll do something together. Aimless people stick together. It's what keeps us... from straying away... Or something.
Oo Rang de Basanti is on TV... good movie... Good movie...

3D movies have become a little too popular now.. The fun of watching one has also become less. We're taking it for granted. But that's just how it is. I wanted to watch Saw 3D, but it never managed to release here in India ):
But thats okay, I'm waiting for Pirates of the Caribbean now.. Penelope Cruz!
Trailer looked interesting.

Okay now CID is going on :/

Ooh! Ooh! I started watching Phineas and Ferb!!! It's genius. Everyone with a good sense of humour should watch it. In fact, I recommend everyone studying Media to start watching it. It's crazy. It opens up your mind... Makes you think out of the box.
I can't thank my friend enough for introducing me to this show :P
Perry the Platypus!!!

Doo Bee Doo Bee Doo Daa Dum Doo Bee Doo Bee Doo Daa!
[It's the theme song for Perry the Platypus. It's awesome]

It's 5... I wanna sleep. But I've heard it's not good to sleep in the evenings.
Lol
I'm going to sleep...
Oh I'm loving this weather!

2010-11-28T19:53:00.000+05:30

There's nothing on my mind.

Darkest Night

2010-11-21T07:40:00.000+05:30

Today I felt anger, like I've never felt before.
Real anger.
The kind of anger that gives you gory and bloody images in your head.
The kind of anger that makes you want to kill. And by killing I mean literally stabbing someone thirty times till the thirst for mutilating someone has been quenched.
The kind of anger that actually makes you enjoy all this insanity...

I slept today at 3:30 am after doing my last bit of economics. I fell asleep instantly...

Slowly, for some god forsaken reason, I started getting this strange nightmare. I was standing in the middle of a major war. There were guns, there were bombs, and people were dying.

I woke up.

There were LOUD firecrackers being burst very close to my place. And they just weren't stopping.
I checked the time... It was 5.
It didn't occur to me that time that I had only slept for 1 and a half hours.

Thanks to the crackers, Zephan and Lucy got freaked out and started barking. And when they bark at something like this, there's no stopping them.

Within seconds [while the dynamite crackers were still bursting] I could hear these men singing on microphones. :/
And the singing just became louder and louder.
The crackers continued to burst.
The dogs continues to bark.

It was here that I felt like going on my killing spree.
I was getting gory visuals of me stabbing one of the kids who was bursting the crackers.
And I was enjoying it.

I guess now I understand the logic behind insomniacs becoming murderers.

I'm just glad I don't own a gun...

Anyway, after precisely seven minutes, I managed to get up from my bed and go to the balcony to see what the heck was bringing out this devil in me.
Mom was there.
I looked down.
It was a parade.
Mom told me, it was Guru Nanak's birthday and that they were celebrating Guru Poornima.

Ironically, I couldn't find the full moon thanks to all the pollution those lovely crackers had caused.

So I saw about a thousand Sardars running around, dancing and enjoying themselves.
And suddenly, all that anger in me subsided and I started to smile.

It was a strangely beautiful sight.

The crackers finally stopped.
The dogs finally hushed.

It was 6 now. I made tea for Mom and Dad and myself... We spoke for a while and I saw the sun rise.

(:

Handsfree

2010-11-05T22:17:00.000+05:30

Okay so, I absolutely love my arms and hands. I love how they work for me and I know exactly how to use them.
But what about the times when I don't need to use them?
Have you ever been in situations where you just don't know WHAT the HELL to do with your hands?

It happens to me all the time :/

Suppose I'm having a conversation with someone, we're both standing.
What do I do with them then?

Do I fold them?
That looks like you're not interested. Or it looks like you've blocked yourself.
All in all, it looks like you have better things to do than have that conversation.
So this is ruled out.

Do I put them in my pockets?
The way I see it, it just looks like
a. You're way cooler than the person you're talking to. OR
b. You're unsure about yourself...
So ruled out?

Do I put them behind my back and stand like those typical 'Stand at ease' positions we were taught in school?
Uhmm... no

Do I set my hair? :P
I think, unconsciously, I do this anyway, and I'm trying to stop this habit >.<

Do I bite my nails?
Okay this ones a rhetorical.

Or simply, do I just let them be hanging down my shoulder?
It feels a little awkward doing this though...

Any ideas...?

" I'll be there for you " ?

2010-11-04T23:26:00.000+05:30

You get to know who your close friends are, when you change your birthdate.

I realised one fine day that I have 558 friends on Facebook.
Now where on Earth did I find 558 friends?
So I wanted to clear this mess out.
I needed a way to get myself to know who I can remove from my friend list.
Funny thing is, I only add people or accept requests from people if I've met them. At least once.

So the best way to filter these people out in my opinion was to change my birthdate.

To...
4th of November

All those who wish me. Will be removed.
Excusing a few of course. Like those I've just met within the span of 5 to 6 months... And those who I know won't remember my birthday 'cause they keep forgetting, or I never told them. :P

So out of the I don't know how many people who wished me, I removed 40.
Yayy success! :D

Ohh and it made me so happy when those handful of people remembered my birthday :D

Man I love you all :D

Wow I'm actually going to start celebrating this day from now on... As 'Not a friendships day'.
or something... :/

Oh I also found out something kickass!
If your wall is ever feeling bored and empty. And you feel no one loves you or you feel that no one remembers who you are, JUST CHANGE YOUR BIRTHDAY TO THE NEXT DAY :D
And *POOF*. Your walls the most happening thing on Facebook :D

Oh! And it rained today.
And I made sure I heard November Rain while it was raining outside.

I'm awesome.

2010-11-03T13:26:00.000+05:30

"Today isn't just another day.

Today, I'll create something beautiful."

Gym.

2010-11-02T18:59:00.000+05:30

Yes. However funny as it may sound, I've joined one. Deal with it. -_-

I am now officially one of those robots who pays a bomb to walk on a machine for a long time, and not reach anywhere.

Okay no its not all that bad. In fact, I've started liking working out. I look forward to the next days session...

What I love about it even more, is that now I've started to eat even more than normal. Which is really good. For me. I need to gain 10 kgs.

I have a time table.

2010-10-31T18:16:00.000+05:30

	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday	Sunday
1300	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard
1400	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard	Keyboard
1500	Gym	Gym	Keyboard	Gym	Gym	Gym	Gym
1630	Read ECS.	ECS	ECS	ECS	ECS	ECS	ECS
1700	Economics	History	Keyboard	Economics	Economics	History	Economics
1800	Economics	History	Keyboard	Economics	Economics	History	Economics
1900	Economics	History	Keyboard			History	Economics
2000			Keyboard
2100			Keyboard
2200	Sociology	Mass Com	History	History	Sociology	Computers	Mass Com
2300	Sociology	Mass Com	History	History	Sociology	Computers	Mass Com
0000

2010-10-27T23:52:00.000+05:30

Okay I was just about to type something when a bubble here opened saying, 'Check out the New and Improved Preview!'
So excited, I clicked on it!
It really was new and improved! :D

But now I forgot what I was actually about to type...

:/

I have an eco test tomorrow... Or do I?

I do. I don't.
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*Pause for tea break*

I do. I don't.
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I saw a movie yesterday... It was hopeless. Waste of time. Don't watch it...
I'm not gonna tell you the name of the movie 'cause I want you to end up seeing it someday. And then suffer. SUFFER.
Then you'll wonder, "Was this the movie Mehar was writing about on his blog?"

It probably won't.
There's so many hopeless, pointless movies in this world. So what are the odds?
But then again, it probably could be the same movie.
That's when I sit back and smile like an evil person.

Here, I'll practice now.

*Smiles like an evil person.*

Yea...

Is it just me, or does the word 'Blog' sound funny.
It does sound funny doesn't it?
Sounds like 'Blob'
:/

And Blob sounds like... Bob...

Bob
Bob
Bob

It's fun to say Bob

Bob's Blob of a Blog

Bob's Blob of a Blog

...

I have an eco test tomorrow...

Or do I?

I do. I don't.

...

If you were a melody...

2010-10-25T20:13:00.003+05:30

So a friend told me to write love song. I've tried my best...

Theres a melody behind those eyes

The deeper I stare the music makes me cry

Oh I've drowned in this sweet melody

Your starry eyes have got me hypnotized

Beauty with symphonic existence

Together we form a perfect cadence

And with you my sweet melody

Our music defines the radiance

Oh sweet melody

So gracefully you sway

Oh sweet harmony

So hauntingly far away

The echoes of your bittersweet love

It's creating a high I cannot believe

Oh if you were to be a melody

Your grace would be my musical ecstasy

Someday when the music stops

And our harmonies collide

Someday when our spirits entwine

With days and destiny

That day there'll be you

And that day there'll be me

Oh sweet melody

So gracefully you sway

Oh sweet harmony

So hauntingly far away

You're the grace notes in my opus

The singing breeze under the evening sun

And if you were my sweet melody

My love, you'd be in every single one

Egg.

2010-10-18T23:09:00.001+05:30

I'm still an egg. :/