thoughts&emotions

No Sense to Argue!

2010-08-21T11:42:00.000-07:00

Ah what a life! Sometimes we came accross with people or events that really really sucks! There are a lot of things to deal, your mind trying to control outburst of emotions, and annoying words and actions came coming back.....I guess the best thing to do is just take a deep breath ...........There's no sense to argue afterall!

Is this wrong grammar?

2010-06-29T17:42:00.000-07:00

It's funny to say that as I wrote more articles, after how many days I found some words that for me are doubful as regards grammar is concerned hahahaha I am even surprised of myself because my instant reaction is I just laugh about it. I don't have my previous reactions that I am so scared of criticism. I think I am growing up hahahaha I am happy that I am not imprisoned anymore of fear of criticism. lol

Well, I am just learning. I am trying to respond to myself. She told me that I will write. So, I listened to her hahahaha I am sure myself is happy right now because I followed what she wants. It was two years ago that I promised that I should listen to her. And if there's a silent whisper in my head telling me not to do that, that's my subconcious mind reminding me to weigh things first.

Is this wrong grammar? Oh well, as of this moment, that's what I honestly know as regards writing. So forgive me if it's wrong hahahahaha I will be happy then if you care to tell me. Thank you for your time. My email ad is endereslaresa@yahoo.com

I love Obama!!

2010-06-29T17:24:00.000-07:00

I was just listening to his speeches before. And from those words he uttered, I got an urge to find out who he is. I went to the city library and by chance there was an available dvd about his life. Of course, I borrowed it immediately.

To make the story short, I know now why he has that certain charisma of connecting himself to the people. I know why those words came out of his mouth with utmost sincerity. Eventhough I didn't have any idea of who he is before, I got curious to know him.

He worked before as a community organizer. As to my understanding, that kind of work is really the best way to understand the roots in the community. I have been exposed to a part of doing community organization. To have actual exposure is really different from reading the guidebook. Usually, the guidebook is created by highly technical people. Their ideas are brilliant but the heart of doing those things in the actual world matters.

I really like Obama!! How I wish that he will continue to uphold his integrity. I hope that he will continue to grow and be an inspiration to the next generation. I want him to leave the White House with a good image unlike others who did not.

Strange Stopover

2010-06-28T14:35:00.000-07:00

I keep on wondering my recent whereabouts. I feel like I am stepping backward forawhile. I don't know why this licensing process is so long and complicated! I am fed up already of people asking me "Are you working?" Yes, I am but not the formal way that I have to leave the house and work somewhere.

Perhaps...I am into a strange stopover in my life. A transition maybe that makes me find some other fun that I have not been to. A span to make me realize that there are things beyond our control and has to wait. It reminds me that life is not all about work and money. The reason why there is a word "pause" because you have to use it.

Like in a long jump competition, an athlete has to step back in order to prepare oneself for a long jump. So, I guess I have a long jump waiting for me. I need to prepare then. Increase my endurance and broaden my thinking and skills. :-)

Different itch each season :(

2010-06-28T13:10:00.000-07:00

Haaaizzzzz I'm suffering different itch each season... During the fall season, I said to myself that the itch was due to am adjusting since I just arrived the country. Winter season made my skin dry. So I said it's maybe the cause. Then spring time, they said there are a lot of pollens in the environment as the trees and flowers begin to bloom. So, spring allergy is normal. How come it's summer time already and I'm suffering another kind of itch? What's up with me?

I consumed already all my antihistamines. I don't want to buy anymore. I decided to desensitize myself. Oh boy, it's not easy. It bothers me everyday!! I have ear infection too because I always use the cotton bud to scratch the inside canal of my ear.

Hmnnnn seems I am allergic to this country? Or I am not that busy to ignore these things lol

Blogging is my ...

2010-06-27T23:29:00.000-07:00

These days my body clock is not set for any timeframe. I just sleep when I feel I like to. What I know is I keep track of the time I go to bed and count 6-8 hours as my next schedule for waking up. Urghhhh I don't know why. Sometimes I'm wide awake until 4am.

Evaluating myself if I'm productive of those times? Yes, I am. I produced a number of blogs. I wrote also different articles for our websites.

I wish I am a computer and just click shutdown when I want to. But, I can't do it these days. Before, it's so easy for me to fall asleep. Now, seems my sleep is so hard to get lol

I lost my interest reading books and even watching movies. My books are all waiting for me. The movies are all ready in my lappy. But, I seem to ignore their presence hahahhaha

Everytime I want to exhaust myself so I can sleep... I just grab my lappy and do blogging. Seems like blogging is my new sleeping pill? lol

I love google!!!

2010-06-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

I was thinking long before like this...how I wish I could have a friend who knows a lot of things. You know what I mean? I want somebody who answers me immediately when I have questions of different things. I have been longing to have one. It seems funny for me to realize it now. How could I have one? Each person is a unique individual. lol

Unaware that beginning last year, I am always into situations that I want to find answer to my long time questions. The topics vary. My mind is I think always busy thinking and left me puzzles to work about lol

At this very moment, I can say that in those times of my inquiries, I had the best oppurtunity to find the answers. It even brought me to different world of understanding. My mouse clicked and showed me the way to interesting adventures in life. I may call it destiny? I don't know because I did not mandate my mouse to go there. It was just happening naturally lol

The reason of my wonderful exploration is my friend Google. Now I can say that Google fills my need...for a very smart friend hahahaha I love you Google!!!

Born is my public diary

2010-06-27T22:28:00.000-07:00

I was doing my laundry when lots of thoughts and emotions playing inside of me. I tried to finish my laundry quickly and grabbed my lappy immediately. I don't know why I have this sudden urge to write. For the meantime, I guess it's better to allow myself to indulge into something...maybe I will call moments of writing.

I recall I have been writing a lot these days. I don't know why I'm into this world lol Maybe there are reasons behind this. Let me try to enumerate:

1. Maybe this is a sudden calling. To write is not really easy for me before. I found it so hard to start and think what to write. But tonight, it seems my hand is I think perfectly coordinating with my brain and heart. lol I don't know...it's just my guess hehehe

2. To put your thoughts and emotions into writing is amazing. It doesn't happen everyday that it's easy to describe things...convert the whatever ideas playing inside the skull and chest hahahaha

3. Hmnnn maybe this is the official birth of my public diary. Although I have fears that I may write bad words when I'm not in the mood but I think I can easily delete it when I'm back to my normal mood lol

4. But I have to remind myself that I should always keep in mind my long long time policy that "there are words better left unsaid" meaning I should be responsible in my writing. If possible ....positive and inspiring words....so help me God :-)