thoughts.feelings.randomness :)

The Joy of Books

2012-01-19T23:26:00.004+08:00

More reason to why I want a library and love books. :)

THEY DANCE! :D

A little like Belle

2012-01-19T05:00:00.000+08:00

I want a library. :)

A place where I can just sit and read for hours at a time, surrounded by shelves and shelves of books lined up just waiting for me to open their covers and enter into their world full of mystery, suspense, love and tear-jerking, life-changing experiences that mould them into their characters and make them either so lovable or detestable.

A place filled with comfortable chairs with fluffy cushions, soft and furry rugs, a comfortable window sill with a beautiful garden view, soft music in the background, the smell of coffee in the air...a fireplace would be lovely.

But then again, this is Malaysia, so there's no need for one. Hee.

Being able to live out the stories with them, learn from their challenges, mistakes and lessons in life and rooting for them till the end...that is why I love reading. It opens a whole new world to you. It increases your power of imagination with every book and rewards your imagination when a movie based on the book is created.

People ask me how I can finish a book in a day. It's simple. I love reading. And I can't wait to turn the page and discover a new plot, a new scheme, a twist in the story, a new love blossoming, a clue to a crime, a new piece of the puzzle that makes a complete picture as the story continues.

I love my books.

Old or new, torn or still with perfect pages and covers, pages falling off and bookworm-eaten or ink-smelling...whatever condition they're in, they've been a part of my life and I love them. :)

So what're you waiting for?

Go grab a book now. :)

"There are those who say that life is like a book, with chapters for each event in your life and a limited number of pages on which you can spend your time. But I prefer to think that a book is like a life, particularly a good one, which is well worth staying up all night to finish."

Practice makes perfect :)

2011-11-30T22:55:00.001+08:00

After months of not really putting much time and effort into the piano because of studies and various other reasons, tomorrow, I shall revive my love affair with music.

Going to take David's advice and practice as much as I can, whenever I can. Every free time I have will be devoted to learning as much as I can and practicing. (:

I can doooo this. :) ohyeah. *determined face*

Coincidence?

2011-11-29T02:33:00.001+08:00

It's scary how your update sounded as though you had read my post.

:/ Oh, if only that were true.

Then I can push that little thought out of my head....or make larger room for it. HEH.

I highly doubt so, though. But if you did, could you please let me know?

Sigh.

Unknowingly, yet powerfully.

2011-11-24T02:26:00.001+08:00

Dear _________ ,

You may never know this (unless you're reading this now, although it's highly unlikely), but you've played a huge role in my life this year. If you didn't cause me to question and think about my capabilities, God-given talents, my hearts desires, dreams and visions, hope and love, I might never have reached this point where although my heart is still looking for directions and seeking the right answers from the one above, I know that I'm on my way to making the right decision for my future.

Unknowingly, you have motivated me to do my very best in whatever I do, and to love what I'm doing. You taught me how to worship Him in a whole new way and in a different perspective. You brought life back into something in me that had died down for a while after being piled upon by studies and stress.

Through our short conversations, you managed to remind me of the joy that we only get when we are serving Him- in everything we do. Your updates reminded me to give praise to God where it is due and to thank Him for everything He's done and is doing in my life. Your stories reminded me that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. You've reminded me of many things, but most of all, you reminded me of who I am and who we're living for.

Your life is so full of God's blessings and favour that nobody can deny the fact that God is there in your every day, your every action, your every word. Your child-like faith has inspired me and your drive and passion for what you do brought out my love and passion for what I do; even if it happened at totally the wrong time- right in the beginning of my second semester.

I believe God brought you into my life - or me into your life, depending on how you look at it - at such a time, throughout the years, for a purpose. He knew that there were greater plans for my life than what I had already planned out. By allowing us to stumble upon each other again and again at such points in my life is what I would call divine intervention, as corny and lame as it may sound. Every time I saw you around or talked to you, it's as if my heart participated in a round of tug-of-war. Not in the lovey dovey way, but in the love and passion kinda way. As though you had reminded me of a dream far away that I had pushed aside because I considered it impossible, and my heartstrings were being tugged once again my that dream, each time we conversed. I should've known and believed that the desire that was previously in my heart was put there by God. I am again reminded now that nothing is impossible for God.

He holds my world in His hands, and I am truly thankful for it.

If only you knew how much you've been a blessing in my life. Unfortunately, I'm afraid that my words may have been misunderstood or my intentions wrongly interpreted, as it might occur when one writes instead of speaks. In the future, when I'm in the midst of chasing or living my dream, I shall read this post again and whisper a prayer to thank God for everything you've done for me, in your own way - unknowingly, yet powerfully, and yet another for Him to continue blessing you so that you can be a blessing to others, such as you have been in my life.

Thank you for being patient with me. I might have come across as just another fan-girl, which I might have sounded like, but don't get the wrong impression, though. I just really admired you, and besides, you were the only one at that time that I could talk to about it who could provide me enough information and advice.

I will always be grateful for what you have done. One day, by the will and grace of God, we would be able to serve Him together, each of us doing what we love best, all for His glory.

Crying for this generation

2011-09-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

I was just going through my timeline on twitter, and a few posts from two of the people I follow really stood out.

Both were regarding their mums.

And both weren't very polite about their mothers.

One even used the F word.

I am honestly appalled.

How can one even allow themselves to use such words on their parents?

They've done more for us than we've ever done for them in out entire lives.

It's not like they tried to sell you off for prostitution or something..

All their mothers asked of them was for a bit of help.

No matter how angry we are at them, I think that we should still respect our parents.

Even if they're being unreasonable, that is no excuse for anyone to use the F word on any of our parents.

And even if you're angry, try to find a way to cool down!

Don't just lash out on twitter where everyone can see what you're saying.

That is so immature.

And you know the saddest part?

They're both Christians.

So help me understand something.

How can someone who claims to be a Christian do something like that and not feel guilty?

AND.

How can someone who does that post anything about God as their next tweet?

And i'm sad to say and see that many Christians are like that.

But just to clarify, not everyone is like that.

I love my parents, even if I don't tell them that.

It's just not in our culture, as Malaysians, to say I love you.

But I will never ever think of saying or posting stuff like that about them.

I am baffled.

Tweedle-dee, Tweedle-dum

2011-09-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

A few of the things that make my days better. :)

Unfortunately, I don't spend as much time as I would like to on the piano anymore because I'm way too busy.

So now, I compensate for that by doing something I love almost as much.

I won't say that I'm extremely good at it.

All I'll say is that I thank God for the gift and talent that He's given to me.

And that I love using it to bless other people through worship; and I love it when people tell me that they've been encouraged by me. It encourages me as well.

I know then that God is using me for His glory.

As if I need to explain it anymore after all the previous posts.

I love listening to music.

It's one of the most effective forms of relaxing and resting of the mind in between long, tough days in college or while doing work or just for personal enjoyment.

Music has been my form of personal TAWG a lot of the time as well.

Worship albums like Alive In South Africa - Israel & New Breed are amazing.

Reading.

It opens your mind to a whole new imaginary world in the book.

I love imagining what the characters would look and sound like, what the places would look like, what the food would taste like, what the air smells like, etc.

Books. You can never get enough of them.

Pillow Talk

2011-09-07T01:21:00.001+08:00

Currently studying for my Biology A test which is happening later today.

Unfortunately, instead of looking like that...

...I feel like this.

Oh so sleeeeepyyy. :/

One more topic to cover before i hit the sack.

How do I stay awake? :(

Pa-rum-pa-pum-pum

2011-09-04T22:07:00.002+08:00

Have I mentioned that I have a thing for drummers?

Hot stuff, don't you think?

Heh.

Musical frustrations

2011-09-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

Every. Single. Time.

Every single time I talk to a certain musician friend of mine, I have this urge to want to pursue music professionally.

If you know me, you'd know that as of March 2011, I have decided to become a doctor.

Well, the decision wasn't an easy one.

There was a lot of uncertainty behind that decision.

Okay, correction. There IS still a lot of uncertainty behind that decision. :(

There are times when I listen to a few songs or view a musicians profile on facebook and i'm like

"Aww man, I wish I could do that as a living".

Sigh.

With all my time spent in college and doing assignments and studying, i had to drop my main instrument, the piano.

It'll be great if I could play the guitar or some other instrument to fill up that musical void, but unfortunately, all i can do is sing. :/

I love singing, don't get me wrong. I reaaally love singing.

But there's this thing about actual instruments. It's different.

You can play out the melodies and harmonies that your voice can't do all at once.

Unless you have a recording studio at home ~~PLEASE TAKE ME THERE!!!~~, you can't do that.

Anyway, because of that, I hardly ever touch the piano now, and I'm getting rusty.

My choice of chords is ugly and I think even my timing is running now. NOOOOO. :(

Seeing everyone chasing their dreams, starting in ICOM, then going to Berklee.

And even a high possibility of breaking into the music industry and becoming a world touring musician..

Even all the New Breed Auditions.

Gahh. I wish i could be part of something like that. :/

But as usual, after a few hours..

I still think that music isn't my calling.

It doesn't feel right. I may absolutely love it, but I think that maybe... I'd be a better doctor.

Yeah right.

Sigh, let's just wait for the few hours to pass and then life goes on.

Y.E.S. 2011

2011-01-25T02:27:00.000+08:00

It's been two weeks since Y.E.S. 2011.

I really miss everything we've done there.

The classes where we discovered more about ourselves, about God and how each of us can do more for Him with our different personalities.

The team building games where many of us "died on the moon".

The weekend ministry where we learnt how to trust and depend fully on God and saw Him move powerfully in each session. This was the best. <3

The activities..I never knew i'd like water gun fights that much.

Jam sessions with John and Adam during the breaks where we really went on and on.. =)

The alumni dinner and the skit we had to come up with and pull off, where we totally "zha-ed" danny..all done with a lot of love. :)

The mamak sessions, long talks and MUS with the wonderful people from YES. :)

I'm going to miss it all.

The experiences, the friendship, the prank Joyce and I pulled on the girls at night, the time spent together...

I never regretted going for YES.

I'm crashing next year's YES if i'm free. :D WOOHOO!

In Love :)

2010-09-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

You know what it feels when the word 'LOVE' can't describe how you feel about something?

It's a feeling that makes you want to laugh and cry at the same time and makes you so happy.

But yet you can't describe how you feel.

It's like this magical feeling that makes you feel like you can do anything as long as you still have that feeling.

I still can't describe it.

But i only get that feeling through worship. :)

It's better than love.

Better than drugs (not that i've tried it, mind you)

Better than anything.

The closest word i can think of to this feeling is 'BEAUTIFUL' but even that can't explain it exactly.
:D

But yes. Worship is beautiful. :)

Beep Beep Boop

2010-03-18T03:16:00.009+08:00

Hey, LOVES! (;

2010-03-13T03:54:00.001+08:00

I love the way we can poke fun at everyone and in the end still love each other so much.

I love the way we're all insane at times and come up with weird stuff.

I love the way we're noisy and fun and different and cuckoo.

I love the way we are witty and smart in everything we do.

If I had my way, everyday would be a Friday.

Just knowing I'll be spending time with each of you can make my day.

So before I go, I just wanna say

I LOVE YOU

Shoe One Knee

Amanda Lee Susu

Rocker Vi-Vien

SARAH ANNEother rocker LEE

JOY-to the world-CIEEE

Cho-lo-weeee

RAY-NA-NA (that's her name) CHANG

Ashwin Nicky

Jerome LAME-O Tai

Alex OOOOH

OH yes, you have a spinal cord, AARON

Adam WHY DID YOU EAT THE APPLE! Yong

John ChewChewChewChew ( sounds like a train! geddit? geddit?! :D )

YES. EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! =)

*HUGS*

2 years in a row, babes.

I'm so proud of what we've achieved together :)

2010-02-21T02:11:00.001+08:00

I can't remember whether i've said this, but THANK YOU

Michelle, Joyce, Chloe, Kim, Amanda, Adam, John, Jason & Nelson for celebrating my birthday with me. (;

And thanks to all the people who wished me. :)

Appreciated each and every one.

Better late than never. =P

Random photos :)

2010-02-06T15:35:00.001+08:00

Hot legs belonging to all my darlings. :)

After Christmas service. :)

Pictures from 19C's cell Christmas party :)

After the party.. =P

Our "challenge" and praise and worship session. (;

Thanks for the memories. :)

Grr

2010-02-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

After the WT meeting we had today, i was thinking about what was mentioned.

Pastor mentioned about liking "new blood" in the team because they are all so eager to "get it right the first few times".

Unfortunately, not all "new blood" are like that.

There are some who just don't bother even listening to songs before coming for practice!

And yes, i AM surprised. Horrified, even.

Why join the WT then?

So that people can recognise you?

So that people can see how good you are?

OH COME ON.

And then there was the point about murmuring and grumbling.

Yes, all of us have grumbled before.

Especially those who have been serving for over 10 years.

By the way, I REALLY respect all of those.

They've been serving for so long and they're STILL serving.

It's GREAT. :)

Anyway,

People always comment that i'm a perfectionist, tries to fix things a lot, picky even..

And time and time again the WT is reminded not to be too technical.

But what's wrong about wanting the best for God?

Especially if you CAN do it but you're not giving your best.

Danny and Ps Julie mentioned that the spirit of excellence IS a good thing.

If you're giving a performance (not that i'm saying that worship is a performance) you'd practice again and again to make sure that nothing goes wrong.

So when you're worshipping GOD, why shouldn't we give our VERY BEST?

But yes, i agree that when all you focus on is technique, you give little room for the spirit to flow..

But then again, HOW to flow when the technique isn't there?

How to flow when we don't know our chords?

How to flow when we're not LISTENING to each other? When we're not looking at the WL?

When we don't bother even to pray before coming for practices and before service?

That's why i complain, because i think and i KNOW things can be better.

If only we are willing to work at it.

I say WE because i have room for a LOT of improvement too. :D

Another thing that bugs me.

Many people come for worship practices unprepared..they arrive and only then they start learning the new song the WL wants to introduce that week, learn up solos, practice their chords...

It's not just the WL's job to make preparations for worship that week!

The musicians and backups are supposed to memorise their lyrics, learn up their parts, know their chords and solos and whatever else.

Practice is the time for the team to worship. And try out new things.

By right, during practice, we should know our chords and lyrics so well that we don't have to look at them anymore.

Then we should be able to just worship and flow with the spirit better.

And if you don't want to practice at home before coming for worship practices, please don't practice your John Mayer stuff or come up with drum solos or whatever else?

Because even if you can play exactly how John Mayer plays or even if you have the best drum solo, if you can't be bothered to spend as many hours to be as good during worship and to give your best to God, WHAT'S THE POINT?

Who gave you the talent anyway?

Second half another day. :)

A walk through 2009

2010-01-02T05:33:00.002+08:00

2009 was a wonderful year.

So many things happened this year.

The year started of in church. Watchnite service. :)

The emphasis the church set for the year 2009 was the Year of Positioning. I really believe that it was the right emphasis because many many things happened in 2009 that i really never thought could happen.

After watchnight service, I went out with Adam Yong, Jason Ngu, Nelson Ong, Tan Yee Wei and Roger Chan for our first meal of the year. :)

[ The one sentence they still remember up to now is me saying "I'm gonna die when i go home!!" because it was really REALLY late. =P ]

Then in February, there was the "interview" to be in the Subang Rally committee.

This was really pretty wow, because i went there without even knowing it was an interview and I even got in.

Hey, God works in His ways. :D hahaha.
And through that positioning, i started contributing more in CF as well.

Then on the 8th of May, the CF of SMKSJ had our Easter Rally! :)

Again, the unimaginable happened.

I tore a muscle while practising the dance we were going to perform, and my whole knee cap moved to the side.. It was kinda freaky and gross but really cool as well cos i could see and feel my leg all weird and bulging at the wrong place. Ugh.. HAHAHA.

But through that, many other people were kinda pushed to take over what i was supposed to do, which in that sense made them step up and take the position.

But we had an AMAZING turn up on that day. :) Thank God for that.

In July, there was Subang Rally!
The event that the committee worked on for months. :)
PRAISE THE LORD, everything we worked hard for paid off and we had the most awesome rally to date! :)
I got to know about 30 amazing people from the worship teams and the whole wonderful committee that i love dearly.
Again, we were blessed with the 400+ registrations and the 1000+ people who came for the concert and the many salvations we had on that day. :)

In August.

The CF of SMKSJ had out last official meeting. :)
In other words, our party. (;
It was LOADS of fun and so many people turned up.
On that day, we were told by members of other clubs that they were going to quit their clubs and join CF next year. YAAY! :D hahaha.
God is good! :)

November.
I had my Yamaha Fundamentals Grade 4 exam..thank God for keeping me very calm throughout the exam.
The previous exam, my nerves were so bad that I couldn't stop crying for half an hour after coming out of the exam hall.
And the day after that, GTPJ had out Charity Bazaar! :)
My cell, SS19C teamed with another cell and was put in charge of a candle-blowing game..which is really not easy, actually. :) the game, i mean.
We went out to get kids to play our game and in the end, our stall managed to raise RM1000 for charity. :)
SO COOL RIGHT! :D hahaha.

December!
First there was a very very VERY GREAT AND POWERFUL APYAC conference.
SO many lives were touched and changed, mine included. :)
Then there was Christmas@Home, our cell party.
Praise the Lord for almost 70 people who attended the party and the three salvations we had! :D
God is so so so awesome. (;
Then Christmas celebration services at church, where the group that did the presentation got invited to perform at MCA's Christmas gathering or something like that.
What an opportunity we have to share the GREAT news to all the party's leaders and members from all over Malaysia! :)
Youth camp was a fantastic camp.
This was the first camp we really didn't follow the schedule and just went with the flow of where God was leading us to..
It was really amazing.
Friendships were strengthened, new relationships formed, the uncelled were celled, the not so close became very close, the quiet became noisy, the crazy became even crazier, the loud became louder, hearts and lives were changed and touched.

To God be the glory for the things He has done! =]
It was a great and awesome Year of Positioning with Him in 2009.

Looking forward to an even greater Year of Favour in 2010!
:D

1, 2 or 3?

2009-12-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

I have so many things to blog about that i can't even start.

And every time i want to write something here, something else happens and adds up to the list of things to blog about.

God has just been wonderful throughout the past few weeks.

Gahh. So many things.

Where to start?

Or maybe i'll just write in my diary.

HAHAHA.

:D oh well.

after i'm done deciding what comes down here, i'll post again.

Till then.

Youtubeeeeee

2009-12-07T02:09:00.001+08:00

Watch this! :)

It's really cool.

I wanna do this toooooo!! Heh.

2009-11-06T02:01:00.000+08:00

Anyone hit www.google.com today?

Check out the picture.

It's so cute!

Hee. :D

2009-10-27T01:04:00.001+08:00

Huuu..

Exams:(

I Gotta Feeling :)

2009-09-27T02:09:00.007+08:00

I Gotta Feeling, LIVE at Oprah's 24th Season Kickoff Party

The Black Eyed Peas kicked off the new season of Oprah Winfrey's daytime talk show in stunning fashion on Tuesday by staging the largest single city 'flashmob' dance event ever.
Without the show host's knowledge, Peas star will.i.am teamed up with choreographers to create a dance routine for the band's "I Gotta Feeling" hit and then called on 800 fans to help him carry out the spectacle on TV.
The 800 were taught the moves and then they passed them on to another 20,000 Oprah fans, who showed up for the taping of the TV titan's free block party show in Chicago, Illinois.

The amazing finished product aired on TV in America on Thursday - when more than 20,000 people took over Chicago's Michigan Avenue and wowed Winfrey and will.i.am with a colourful synchronized dance routine.

This is so awesome. :)
First impression was WOW.

Now if only we could pull this off. (;

Happy Birthday, Monkey! :)

2009-09-26T23:34:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday, Adam! :)

You've been a really good friend all these years.

After all these years, you've really become more mature. =P
HAHA.

Seriously, though..

You've really become more responsible this year.

But your pranks never stop.

I can't believe i called John and talked to you for a whole 10 minutes without even asking why you sounded like Adam. =P

You monkey!

Anyway.

I really thank God for giving me a friend like you.

People like you make life interesting. (;

Hahaha.

Eat more.

Laugh more.

Be lame more.
But pleaseeeee.. don't purposely sing off tune in yee wei's car while i'm trying to listen to a perfectly good song. -.-

Heh.

God bless.

Hearts. :)

Happy Birthday, Danny! :)

2009-09-25T02:11:00.000+08:00

23rd September 2009.

The day my brother, Daniel Lim Han Jie turned 8! :)

Happy Birthday, Danny. :)

Love you loads and loads and loads and loads.

Yes, you may be annoying, but you also can be really cute and funny.

Love you to bits. <3

I miss your curly hair. =P