To Whom Else Have We To Go? http://jessica.cylence.org You have the words of eternal life. Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:20:20 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.0.2 en I’ve never known a love like this before. http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/19/ive-never-known-a-love-like-this-before/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/19/ive-never-known-a-love-like-this-before/#comments Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:20:20 +0000 Jessica Cross faith http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/19/ive-never-known-a-love-like-this-before/ I am beginning to understand grace and I mean really understand it for the first time. It is the manifestation of Christ’s power and grace and mercy and strength and its available to me, but it was intended to to used to keep me, not just to forgive me when I fall. He is like, “I want you to come to me for grace before you sin so I can keep you instead of coming to me after you sin and you are begging for forgiveness”. Abuse of grace. Wow. These truly are the True Riches: understanding the deep mysteries of God’s heart.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/19/ive-never-known-a-love-like-this-before/feed/ Like for real for real… http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/03/like-for-real-for-real/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/03/like-for-real-for-real/#comments Sat, 03 Oct 2009 04:21:02 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/03/like-for-real-for-real/ The deeper I get into nursing school the less my heart draws to it. It’s like I am there but my heart is a million miles away. And this is the thing: its not like my heart would be at some other job; my heart is becoming less and less attached to this world and more and more attached to the cares of God. Jesus came to seek and save that which is lost and I am finding my thoughts to be consumed with this notion daily. Oh Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary. I want to be a constant sharer of your marvelous Truth. I do not want to get so dedicated to any job that IT becomes the focus and determination of my life. I want to work as unto You in the necessary daily worldly labor, but I want my real work to be fishing.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/10/03/like-for-real-for-real/feed/ Great is Thy Faithfulness http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/26/great-is-thy-faithfulness/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/26/great-is-thy-faithfulness/#comments Sat, 26 Sep 2009 22:42:50 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/26/great-is-thy-faithfulness/ For the past 6 months I have been wanting a 2mm yellow gold 14K band to wear as a symbol of me keeping Jesus first in my heart and loving no other thing or person before Him. So today I realized I had 50 bucks I could buy one with and so I stopped in Samuel’s Jewelry off Brodie Ln. She handed me the the exact ring I was looking for - one 14 karat and the other 10 karat. The fourteen was $100 and the ten was $45. So I was like perfect I will take the ten. As I examined it I noticed on the inside it said 14 but it was labeled a 10 karat. I immediately told her about it and asked if she had any 10’s. She went and talked to her manager and they decided they wanted to give me the 14 for the price of the 10!!! And not only that but today was a “today only 20% off”, and she was telling me they only have sells like once a year. I was like thank You Jesus for providing me with that!! Anyways I only ended up paying $36. A 100 dollar ring for 36!!

It has actually been more like a year since I have been wanting this ring. I am at a Laundromat right now that has free wi-fi and two flat-screen TVs and free coffee. I really like Laundromats because they are so multi-cultural. About to go to studygroup up in Cedar Park.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/26/great-is-thy-faithfulness/feed/ Humble Thyself in the Sight of the Lord http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/21/humble-thyself-in-the-sight-of-the-lord/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/21/humble-thyself-in-the-sight-of-the-lord/#comments Tue, 22 Sep 2009 02:54:04 +0000 Jessica Cross faith http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/21/humble-thyself-in-the-sight-of-the-lord/ And He will lift you up. What an Awesome God that He would desire a broken and contrite heart. My God. It amazes me how I can see a brother or sister in Christ doing wrong and my reaction will be to judge them in my heart…instead of pray for them, which is exactly what needs to happen (especially if I am aware they are going through something). Its so strange that I can just have heaps of mercy for those who are not born again but my own brothers you said I have murdered in my heart. Something is off in my heart, Lord and I am so, so, so sorry for doing this…it grieves me in a painful way not only that I would respond this way about my brother but also its indicative of me not really knowing and believing at my core that if my Savior had not washed me I would surely die. I was on a grease poll going to hell when You came and got me. Sadly, a lot of believers live carnal and their conscious has been seared for so long they do not realize the judgment to come upon them if they do not turn from their ways. This should inspire me to pray instead of prey…as my pastor would say.
I love what Jesus told Peter in John 21 when they were walking together and Jesus was speaking of the type of death Peter would die for the faith and Peter turns around and points to John and asks what would happen of him (pretty much asking if John will have to die as well, diverting away from himself) and Jesus responded to Him, “What’s it to you if he remains until I return? YOU follow ME.”

Jesus, I love you, and I know you have placed in my heart a tremendous hate for the things you hate and love for the things you love. I am able to discern them but the most important thing, which is love YOU with all of my heart and love also my brother I am missing. This is foundational and I want to love you with ALL and from this I will be able to admonish those with love. You love people (for you so loved the world you gave your only Son) and if I love you I will love them, too.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/21/humble-thyself-in-the-sight-of-the-lord/feed/ Oh Yeah Baby. http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/02/oh-yeah-baby/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/02/oh-yeah-baby/#comments Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:10:32 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/02/oh-yeah-baby/ School is back is session!!! Second week of school and just got finished with my clinical today @ North Austin Medical Center. I really like my clinical instructor and its crazy to me much more comfortable I feel now in the hospital compared to Levels 1&2. I knew hardly anything for real. Now I am able to do patient teaching and give meds alone and I have to admit I do like the autonomy of it. ANYWAYS, yes it has been very busy but I am still keeping Jesus first in my heart. I have got to. He is the Light of the world and I cannot make it without him for even a minute. He is my Light..

It is so wonderful to not have any sort of love interest or even a guy that I am even remotely interested in. I need this time with Jesus so He can make me into the woman He sets the standard for me to be. Honestly, even if I do not ever get married that is fine with me - as long as I am able to preach the gospel that is all that really matters. Souls are busting hell open and its burdensome for those who ARE being saved. Thank you, Lord, that I can even understand your gospel because without the knowledge there is no desire for the lost to know You.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/09/02/oh-yeah-baby/feed/ Jocy in Brenham http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/18/jocy-in-brenham/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/18/jocy-in-brenham/#comments Wed, 19 Aug 2009 03:21:23 +0000 Jessica Cross happenings http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/18/jocy-in-brenham/ I had a great Saturday in Brenham with my long-time friend, Jocelyn. We were best friends growing up and played softball together and everything until we got to high school and I thought I was too cool to talk to her and she was in the band and had her own friends. We totally lost contact after high school and then about three years ago after I had gotten saved I looked her up on the internet and found out she had given her life to Jesus!!!! I was SO excited and found her email address and we reconnected and have a great friendship. We have a long-distance friendship and probably always will, but when we do talk its always such an encouragement.

God is purging me majorly now and showing me some really painful things about myself that need to change and the funny thing is, its like I was not very conscious of these things. Yes, you can EVEN fool yourself sometimes! Only God knows the heart and can reveal what’s in it. The outside will never tell.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/18/jocy-in-brenham/feed/ Weekend http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/10/weekend/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/10/weekend/#comments Tue, 11 Aug 2009 03:46:58 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized happenings http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/10/weekend/ This past weekend I was asked to dogsit for my dad’s friend, Connie (well, she is also my friend) out in Lago Vista Friday night through Sunday morning. It is just so interesting how things happen and you never expect them and afterward you are able to see that even though it was so incredibly bizarre, God was having His way all along and for the very best. Saturday I took Tigger for about a 40 minute walk as I normally do out to the lake and back. It was a hot one. When we arrived back to the house he had a heat stroke. I immediately put wet washcloths all over his body and put a fan directly on him. But he just kept becoming more and more clumsy and would not drink water.

About two hours later I noticed Tigger pooped on the floor, which is really unlike him. He was laying down this entire time, but pretty restless. I noticed the feces had pus in it (not a good sign) and he continued to poop in little worm-like strands. I was thinking viral, but anyways next came the blood. Slowly at first, then more and more. The poor thing was loosing all the the blood is his entire body. Thank God it was me handling this and not Connie. She would have not been able to do it. Tigger was way too heavy for me to carry to the vet ER and Connie does not have any friends close by. So I went and got Tigger some Pedialyte and a baby syringe, but I did this more for Connie because I wanted to do everything I could even though I knew he was dying. I comforted him and and when I went to take a shower and he saw that i had left, he made his way through the doggy door and out into the backyard to die. Sunday morning I found him dead under the deck stairs.

Thank God Connie was in Houston and she still is today (monday) with my dad in Houston and I know he is being such a comfort to her. The interesting this is that the dog was the only thing keeping Connie in Lago Vista because she had moved out there for a man and that relationship ended about six months ago. So now she is free to move back to Houston. Thats where all her friends and family are and I know she has wanted to be there. Its so perfect how God’s timing is. He just knows when the right time is and who can handle what.

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/10/weekend/feed/ Putting Away Some Thangs… http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/02/putting-away-some-thangs/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/02/putting-away-some-thangs/#comments Mon, 03 Aug 2009 02:47:51 +0000 Jessica Cross faith http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/02/putting-away-some-thangs/ I have been realizing my delayed obedience in putting certain things away is really disobedience. Realizing this has brought grief to my heart but in the good sense of finally allowing me to let it go. Its so funny how we think we can play games with GOD sometimes. I am like, OK GOD, here is this, this and this and He is like, yeah but I want THAT thing right there…that thing you got hiding behind your back….mmmhmmm oh yes THAT thing. HAH, and then I am like, Ok, but what if I give it to you and I never get it back? It does not matter, give it to Him and let Him decide ’cause you know HE knows whats best anyways where I do not have a clue. I think I do, but I don’t.

Jesus, You are the best companion for real. You have been nothing but Faithful and for that I thank You. You came after me when I was about to bust hell open. You saved me from the slaughter. You made a way out when there was none. Nobody but YOU could have done it. Nobody but YOU WOULD have done it…

]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/02/putting-away-some-thangs/feed/ Free To Be A Servant of the Most High GOD http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/01/free-to-be-a-servant-of-the-most-high-god/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/01/free-to-be-a-servant-of-the-most-high-god/#comments Sun, 02 Aug 2009 02:13:44 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/01/free-to-be-a-servant-of-the-most-high-god/ As free, and not using your liberty for a cloke of maliciousness, but as servants of GOD.” - 1 Peter 2:16

And you know this sounds crazy to a world who does not love God, but the Bible says at one time, we were not even considered a people to God! We were totally separated from the Father because of our sin and we were without hope in the world until Jesus came. If we truly believe Jesus died and now the Father has made us accepted in Christ, then its seen as an absolute priviledge to serve Him. I am so glad I see this now. It has changed everything. My motivation in wanting to please Him is out of love because I know what He did for me. I also fear Him because I know the power He holds and that He is a just God…Wow…to be a servant of the Most High….how Awesome….

Ticia!! This picture was taken at our church family picnic today. I just love this girl!! I am blessed to have friendships where the purpose is to point each other towards Christ and you actually both care about the other growing. Thank you, Father.

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]]> http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/08/01/free-to-be-a-servant-of-the-most-high-god/feed/ Pastor Hill http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/07/31/pastor-hill/ http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/07/31/pastor-hill/#comments Sat, 01 Aug 2009 02:11:23 +0000 Jessica Cross uncategorized http://jessica.cylence.org/2009/07/31/pastor-hill/ So I will not forget (but i do not think i will), I had the privilege of getting to visit my pastor when he was in the hospital a few weeks ago. It was really a blessing to get to visit with him, but I think what touched me the most was when I walked in he was sitting there in his pajamas and he was not embarrassed at all. He was totally chill. He was glad to see me and did not feel awkward at all that he was wearing a sleeveless shirt and boxer pants. I had never seen him wear anything other than a nice suit, so this was quite homely. It was just neat because it reminded me how much he is just like me.

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