tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076Tue, 31 Jan 2012 16:13:46 +0000cookingmovingnewsfrustrating vaguenessbooksgreen thumbprimal dietboozelove hurtsindie coffee passportreverb 11musiceventfunemploymentmartini mondayphotoslinksbandrantingboymovieintrospectiontmitravelfeaturereverb 10surveybakingawesometimesinternettalk about the weathernagging self-analysishockeywritinglovehealthvancouverworkmoneyno i don't wanna read your thoughts anymorehttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)Blogger465125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-367686339850189648Sat, 28 Jan 2012 00:20:00 +00002012-01-27T19:20:44.294-05:00bandnewsbakingmusicstop! video spam time: the sisters of mercy are love. so much love. i post these mostly because i have to profess my slavish adoration for the dvd that all three of the above clips came from - the "wake: choruses from under the rock" live dvd, aka the "1985 albert hall show", aka the last show the original lineup ever played before disbanding - and because i've been watching that dvd so http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2012/01/very-busy-people.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/R9TyngSifZI" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-7727432915604005814Sun, 15 Jan 2012 20:56:00 +00002012-01-15T16:00:43.219-05:00nagging self-analysisnewslast week was my week of challenging myself to do things i don't want to do. this was hard. it's funny, actually, how jenn wrote on the topic the other week just as i was reflecting the same thing about myself. motivation is a bitch of a thing once you're an adult and don't have authority figures (parents, teachers, whatever) telling you that "you need to do this". by the time you're an adulthttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2012/01/little-victories.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/JuKuRSepT44" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-8318314466656308394Tue, 10 Jan 2012 01:00:00 +00002012-01-09T20:00:05.167-05:00travelnewsmoney the last of the season. yorkville does holiday light shows right. so many things happening, yet so little coming to mind whenever i sit down to write a blog post. i've never had "writer's block" per se - at least, not since i stopped writing fiction, which could be a bitch of a thing - but sometimes i just can't come across things to blog about. either it has to be all on one topic, or else ahttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2012/01/frugal-means.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/f-KnqcA8OF8" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-8971235851790623917Mon, 02 Jan 2012 21:26:00 +00002012-01-02T16:26:36.491-05:00nagging self-analysisintrospection....and this is where i get mopey about the fact that i had a draft of a new year's blog post - i really did! - but it mysteriously disappeared into the ether, and now i have to start all over again. ghosts in the machine, man. anyway! welcome to 2012. i'm a day late, yes, but i spent the second non-kingston half of my winter vacation lazing about in toronto -- well, not even lazing, mostlyhttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2012/01/different-resolve.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)2<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/g_Y7gDYJcZw" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-2030867524226141445Sat, 31 Dec 2011 01:54:00 +00002011-12-30T20:54:59.099-05:00booksthose who know me in person know that i am a reader. i am the kind of person who will purchase a book and have it completely read within a day or two. i am that weirdo who will stay up long into the night because she's at a really good part in her book and can't put it down. i have no ability to comprehend people who "don't read"; in my mind, reading for pleasure is one of the most vital http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/read-my-mind.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/LtMKWkOn5UY" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-2344443248486376949Thu, 29 Dec 2011 14:36:00 +00002011-12-29T09:36:03.480-05:00musicintrospectionso again, here we are back in toronto after the holidays. this year, it was a short respite; this was somewhat thankful, as i’m finally starting to feel the family stress and emotional drama that comes with “going home for the holidays”. also, as i noted post-christmas last year, i’ve absolutely begun to think of toronto as my real home, and after nine years here (minus those bleak eight months http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/musical-interlude.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/YkRnrI_78mU" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-767876316553010796Mon, 26 Dec 2011 13:11:00 +00002011-12-26T08:11:01.384-05:00newshealthfirst/sad things out of the way first: my grandmother died on thursday morning. (this would be my paternal grandmother; my mother's are both still alive, but super old) hi everyone, welcome to bummer christmas. coming home actually wasn't as dreary as i expected it would be - although my dad was a mess the day of (and i have zero experience comforting a parent), he was much better in the http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/semi-wonderful-christmastime.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/Yhyex4t1VAQ" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-3661990233877422744Thu, 22 Dec 2011 13:28:00 +00002011-12-22T08:33:06.408-05:00introspection the holiday season will forever be a number of things to me: 1. being on a bus to chicago in the dead of winter when i was 21. for some reason, this whole experience from december 2004 really sticks out in my mind; i think it's probably because it was one of the craziest things i'd done to date, and it had been absolutely worth it. for some reason, i mostly remember the fact that i was stuckhttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/remembrance-reflections.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)1<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/d9xCnE2TGxg" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-3739039793862281877Wed, 21 Dec 2011 13:31:00 +00002011-12-21T14:51:58.196-05:00hockeyawesometimesphotosso last night, we attended the leafs nation fan night, because of course we did. (we both won a pair of tickets, but my pair had better seats) it feels funny sometimes to talk about how much hockey means to me these days, especially given how i was never an athletic child and i went through the typical early-to-mid 20's goth-punk period of hating on anything sports related. but the http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/passion-is-price.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/oeTGSdROSKw" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-1492696420262880296Tue, 13 Dec 2011 23:58:00 +00002011-12-13T18:58:46.830-05:00travelintrospectionnow that the year's wrapping up, i've already started pondering possible 2012 trips. itchy feet, what can i say. at the same time, i came across this post from back in february, which got me to thinking about how many of those travel destinations i actually managed to check off in 2011 -- and it was more than i expected. in total, here's where i ended up in 2011 (minus the few usual trips to http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/vagabonded.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)1<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/UFX3GQpoXOU" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-5780445033761738618Sun, 11 Dec 2011 00:55:00 +00002011-12-10T19:58:07.767-05:00awesometimesphotoscookinglast night we had a dinner party. it was the kind of thing that i more associate with my parents, because far from being some raucous house party where we stuff as many people as possible into our living space, it was a simple get-together with another friend-couple. old photo from last halloween because we're both camera-shy otherwise jenna is one of my longest-standing best friends; we http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/in-evening.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)1<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/TF0KRbaySPE" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-4237740444725839354Wed, 07 Dec 2011 02:13:00 +00002011-12-06T21:13:43.258-05:00nagging self-analysisintrospectionso, anyway. quick housekeeping questions that came up a few times: 1. will you be deleting all the entries/tweets you wrote? nope. i'm a firm believer in not erasing history (unless of course history has a typo in it) and, you know, it's that kind of stuff that makes a life an interesting read. it's more human to read about peoples' gigantic fuckups. provides more dimension and perspective.http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/what-came-after.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/VeCCxY6tzdQ" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-3060764006139673796Sat, 03 Dec 2011 13:15:00 +00002011-12-03T08:15:40.053-05:00newslovefrustrating vaguenesswell, that breakup lasted about as long as kim kardashian's marriage. ...i've tried to write a blog post about how we reconciled yesterday and he said he was so sorry and promised to do things better and i tearfully confessed that i didn't want to go and that this is home for me...but you know. this is one of those things that i don't feel i owe anyone an explanation (and/or defend myself) for.http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/12/love-is-weird.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/VraqXn5boj4" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-2958842065215938374Mon, 28 Nov 2011 23:12:00 +00002011-11-28T18:12:38.639-05:00introspectionlove hurts...and back to square one. i was doing okay -- really, i was.  but with pms looming, it was only a matter of time before something small tipped me back over, and today, it was a combination of apartment hunting (always a depressing activity, but far more so when it's a post-breakup apartment hunt for your first place alone in years) and making the first attempt at sorting out the housing/moving http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/too-much-with-me.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)1<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/hanY0iJG478" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-1572869533741989776Mon, 28 Nov 2011 02:22:00 +00002011-11-27T21:24:39.661-05:00frustrating vaguenesslove hurtswalking through the annex in the dark, mostly drunk, sucking on a cigarette, focusing on the way the wet streets reflect the lights, and i remember. for better or for worse, i remember all their faces and their touches and their kisses, and i remember being that poor young girl who had no idea what she was getting into, even though she thought she did, gods help her. fuck you all. i remember. http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/lets-end-it-here.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)3<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/gQ7qjRFe8s4" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-1212029061050924410Sun, 27 Nov 2011 02:54:00 +00002011-11-26T21:54:32.025-05:00frustrating vaguenesslove hurtshey, here's a great little previously-unpublished scribble from a private diary -- dated december 17, 2005 (a different boy here, but one who would go on to break my heart harder than it ever had been at that point in my young life), reprint inspired by me passing that corner yesterday and smiling to myself: -------- "...And this is why you're dangerous," he said to me as we slowly broke off http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/devil-by-my-side.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/UaHSBnZo9SY" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-5872332140338266864Fri, 25 Nov 2011 00:07:00 +00002011-11-24T19:07:22.442-05:00newsmusicintrospectionlove hurts let's talk about other, nicer things for a while: - happy awesome friend times: it seems that four years locked away with a boy hasn't made me into the total social pariah i thought i was, because i'm currently busy filling up my calendar with evenings out and afternoons drinking and catch-up dinners. and for the first time in the last little while, i'm not finding the urge to flake out and http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/harmonies-for-haunted.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/JJRajy40jLg" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-2238211291948483226Wed, 23 Nov 2011 13:04:00 +00002011-11-23T08:28:54.361-05:00introspectionlove hurtsand then there was this: It’s Harder To Be The One Who Leaves i didn't write that, but given my state of mind lately, i probably could have. it's strange, because i - like many people - have been on both ends of breakups, and i think they're equally hard. i absolutely understand the "appeal" (for lack of a better word) of being the one who gets dumped; there's something of a relief when you http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/tell-me-what-to-say.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)1<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/I8wcnmtPCOA" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-8154744727109369198Sun, 20 Nov 2011 22:44:00 +00002011-11-20T17:52:41.499-05:00nagging self-analysisboyintrospectionlove hurtsso...that happened. it's been hard. of course it hasn't been easy, but i'd been building it up in my mind so much for the past couple of months that i didn't realize how utterly awful i'd feel after the words came out. also, i didn't know that a part of me was going to start clinging and screaming and not wanting to let it go. four years, man. my mother (who divorced my father after 19 yearshttp://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/too-many-hours-from-this-hour.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)2<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/r6kGa3O5rT8" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-1347952609258996425Thu, 17 Nov 2011 02:52:00 +00002011-11-17T16:14:32.764-05:00love hurtsat approximately 7:16 p.m. eastern standard time on november 16th, 2011, i ended my relationship of almost four years. i don't know where we go from here, but fuck, this hurts.  and all i can do is listen to florence + the machine: "it's a fine romance, but it's left me so undone..." fuck. [ music | florence + the machine, "shake it out" ]http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/heart-in-your-heartbreak.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)2<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/agTFe-H0PE0" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-2642380262997304859Wed, 09 Nov 2011 15:28:00 +00002011-11-14T21:16:38.897-05:00tmimoneyfrustrating vaguenesswhat i buy when i win $250 in american express gift cards (which i received through a work contest to name the new team newsletter -- thanks, colleagues!): - tokyomilk dark "tainted love" perfume (indulging my love of fragrances at lsst -- i've always adored colognes on men but never had the money to buy perfume for myself, and now, finally...!) - two packs of razor blades (for me, wintertime http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/act-on-impulse.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)2<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/i1PMGdlA_gw" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-4386335905927272113Wed, 09 Nov 2011 02:18:00 +00002011-11-09T08:29:58.429-05:00primal dietbakinglinkscookingso i don't know if it was klout saying i was influential about food, or rachel introducing me as "the master chef", but i've only recently(!) realized that i've become way more of a cook than i thought i'd turn out. it's one of those surprising personal facts that's more or less crept up on me in the past few years. given that home ec was one of my best (and most favourite) classes in high http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/punk-rock-betty-crocker.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/2C7pT2KZttI" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-7593882815378614737Tue, 08 Nov 2011 00:06:00 +00002011-11-07T19:07:13.065-05:00nagging self-analysisintrospectionit's been a slower start to the month than i thought. november has traditionally been a shitty month for me; although i have christmas to look forward to, my sads hits me in november more than any other months, probably due to the whole dead leaves/cold weather/general greyness of these four weeks. november is one of my yearly low points, and though i don't go into it feeling that way - http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/11/deserts-of-sound.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)2<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/akupGwFCJMM" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-3859761403620952474Mon, 31 Oct 2011 23:58:00 +00002011-10-31T19:58:35.922-04:00martini monday inspiration: absolut official website score: 7/10 recipe: 1 1/2 oz absolut watkins 1/2 oz coffee-flavoured liqueur (kahlua) i might be cheating on this one a bit, since i think you can only get absolut watkins at duty-free shops in airports, but i was a sucker for it as soon as i saw the super-cool bottle and the purported flavour (spicy coffee-almond! gimme that shit). i immediately knew i http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/10/martini-monday-espresso-martini-milan.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/g7fAzrQsB6A" height="1" width="1"/>tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3606262888941367076.post-9114356449480319360Sun, 30 Oct 2011 12:32:00 +00002011-11-01T09:28:10.801-04:00introspectioni wonder when it was that i started to cool off on halloween. [image from strange times] it wasn't always this way, for sure -- halloween used to be (and still sort of is) my favourite holiday. i've always loved costumes and dressing up - my hidden past as a cosplayer would attest to this - and pretending to be someone/something else for a night is totally fun. but someone, as i've gotten http://roaminginthenight.blogspot.com/2011/10/hallowed.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Caitlin H.)0<img src="http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/TodayMyHeartSwings/~4/-b_15KL5B6A" height="1" width="1"/>