ᵀᴴᴱ'ᴼᴿᴵᴳᴵᴻᴬᴸ TONSE

L♥ ♥ ♥

2012-01-09T07:23:00.001-08:00

If you could see inside my soul,

see inside my heart,

you would know how I long for you,

whenever we're apart

If you could see inside my head,

if thoughts were things to see,

you would know how I cherish you,

how much you mean to me

In all the ways you comfort me,

the way you hold me near,

the way you know just what to do,

to chase away my fear

The sparkle in your beautiful eyes,

your smile,

laugh,

your touch,

are just a few of many reasons,

I love you oh so much

Knowing I can talk to you,

about any and everything,

and knowing together we will get,

through whatever life may bring

I could search the whole world over,

and this I know is true,

I would never find another love,

like the love I found with you

Though with each new day,

each sunrise,

we can't know what's in store,

there is one thing I know for sure,

each day I love you more

So if you could see inside my head,

if thoughts were things to see,

you would know I blessed I feel,

to have you here with me.

LoVE

2012-01-05T12:12:00.001-08:00

Love is the greatest feeling,

Love is like a play,

Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day,

Love is like a smile,

Love is like a song,

Love is a great emotion,

That keeps us going strong,

I love you with my heart,

My body and my soul,

I love the way I keep loving,

Like a love I can't control,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,

I love you with all my heart,

And I have poured my entire soul into you,

Right from the very start.

Mirror on the pavement

2011-10-09T09:50:00.000-07:00

Hello ,

Just averted a major accident along the Manipal-Hebri Road.Uncle was driving at his usual mileage sixties when suddenly a youngster from the opposite track sped through the front in an attempt to overtake the adjacent bus..Neither the left nor the right were possible and the oncoming biker seems to have lost all his control and was heading straight on.Both the biker on the left nor the bus on the right seem to sense.In a split second decision uncle took to his left ,with the alerted rider took to his heels moving further off road,the biker in the front rammed the vehicle at the north-east side ripping the mirror and and screeching brakes by uncle put the car on halt on the left.Our eyes met for a fraction before he passed through the right side window where i was seated.As soon as uncle stopped me and bhaijaan got down.I hurriedly looked on to the road for the most horrific scene and could n t find him anywhere. Shockingly the lucky chap found the mintiest Maeterlinck while he ripped the mirror of the car.He was in shock and shaking.People gathered all around and thanked almighty for the escape.God Bless..With a quick few words of comfort we continued towards Hebri.The fraction of a second where our eyes met and saw the light will linger for some more time.

No one remembered the broken mirror on the pavement.

I'm lone, all alone ....(SONNET-3)

2011-10-07T08:25:00.000-07:00

I appear loom in the soul of ye, almighty
Dusk to Dawn i minstrel the psalm of deity
I'm lone, solitary, awaitin' dad's reach
'm i that sweet like a glistenin' peach?

Thank thy mother for the triumph of your's
Now you've grown, you ought to toss
Praise be to lord, the word tongue-tied
Wake up O' from the sands of arabian tide

Be it a fact or a myth that's ancient
Of a girl who's gloomy, besides very patient
Long i stood teaching the aspects of love
On her's to abide by the preaching's of dove

I promise ye almighty, loneliness just flee
Behold me O' lord, it's the original me ........
-Safwan Sadiq

R.I.P. Steve Jobs

2011-10-06T03:43:00.001-07:00

The Wrong of my life..

2011-10-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

You were a loser but i thought youd win

When always heard you say youd do it ,i believed but you neva did anything that way..

No sense of urgency and no meaning for time,i dnt think you ever gonna rise and shine.

All you have is empty and boastephous talk..

Your greedy and mean,
You talk about yourself while you shredd others away.

I have no respect left for you,
Now i know what you do,
Thank God,i neva did my limit.

All i know is how you while your time aay,thrwoing what others have.

You are such a fool and coward,
now that i realise i am going to stay away.

I wish i could tear down every lie of yours,
Account you for every play you played..

It perplexes me whether to luagh or cry at you

but ..alas.. you are you and guess am me..

You boast on others pride
and taunt them with your lows

2 years passed..Ill never forget you
You ripped me of all my success and almost made me a loser

You are a disease ..I hold myself to break you cause you are somebody's world and somebody is mine !!

BROKEN HEART !!

2011-10-05T12:02:00.000-07:00

Every day i met you

I planned to tell

The feelings for u in my heart

That surrounded me like a spell

As time passed by

My feelings multiplied

I wanted to tell you so much

But my heart denied

I was lost in your thoughts day and night

You were the only thing on mi mind

I lost my sleep , i lost my appetite , i became so weak

The life ahead of me seemed so bleak

I had made up my mind to tell you that day

I put myself together and came your way

But what i saw broke me apart

I had no other choice than to depart

The sight i had seen

I could never forget

The thought of you and her together

Made my pillow wet

I tried to run

I tried to hide

But all i could find

Was you by mi side

I was lost

I was depressed

All i could see was you and her

Lost into each other , obsessed

I cursed myself for what i had been

I cursed myself for what i had seen

I did not know where to go , what to do

The outcomes for this was only a few

I had made my choice to go far away from you

A place where you cant see me , a place i wont be with you

I wanted peace , I wanted eternal rest

I left you by yourself hoping you got the BEST !!!!!!!!!!!

-VIXEN

The MOTHER of three

2011-10-05T00:04:00.000-07:00

Dedicated to Shaistha Tonse

The mother of three
was the one who excited me
For a lovely mother like that
Let her souls rest in peace

Her scary smile,her popped eyeballs
Just stretched my lips within no time
For a pantaloon like that
Let her souls rest in peace

She not only took care of the three
For she gave me ***** for free
For a carin' mother like that
Let her souls rest in peace

Not just a housewife was she
But did many odd jobs and was known in the society
For a hard-headed mother like that
Let her souls rest in peace

At the early age of her motherly life
Her dream to become a granny was just a dream
For the mother of three like that
Let her sou rest in peace.
-Safwan Sadiq

Poets Corner : Rainy Night

2011-10-04T23:49:00.000-07:00

On a rainy night,
I with an umbrella at a height
Glarin’ at crystal drops fallin’
No matter who’s callin’

She’s not lone but
Thunder’s strikin’ with cuts
"Pardon me whom this anger's on?"
I was sure this ‘d last till dawn!

Praise the lord for this divine rain
For, it pours after years in our lane
Don’t complain for this heavenly gift
Let it pour and pour with swift!

Now I need to shelter me under a branch
As i got to stuff my snack
And wait till the clouds call ‘em back
And Wait till the……………………………
-Safwan Sadiq

Poets Corner : Not Hostile, Nor the Lovers (SONNET-2)

2011-10-04T23:44:00.000-07:00

Not hostile, nor the lovers
The comrades arising of blooming flowers
Singing the psalm of lovers camp
They enlight their way with slushy lamp

They flicker in the path of divine light
No enmity shall master this puissant rhyme
They flush in blue like a gilded kite
No kings shall glorify the bold chime

Favour me, O' lord of heavens
Be it just friendship, with pleasure immense
Engross this tale, in the books of history
Like a riddle, as hard to tackle the mystery

Conceit it just friendship, as quoth before
That dwell in lovers eyes and nothing much more ....
-Safwan Sadiq

Poet's Corner : Road to the Yellow Woods

2011-10-04T23:31:00.000-07:00

The bloomin' breeze just before the sun rose
The worn out hair-pinned road we chose
Two comrades awaitin' us in the woods
We stepped in along with our goods

The junk foods burst out, a drink with each
The lone solitary boy awaitin' sunsets reach
The cold blooded trees welcomed The Ghats
The gorgeous beauty and fruit-gem tarts

The coffee beans so fresh and green
Just another sight for bright-futured teen
On the way back home, was a bit gay
May-be to break with a hope of ray

The joy on the way back home
was no less than a heavenly dome
The hair-pinned roads diverged in a wood
where me the solitary all alone stood

-Safwan Sadiq

Art and me!!!: All those lessons to be learnt...

2011-10-04T11:18:00.000-07:00

Art and me!!!: All those lessons to be learnt...: Everyday we learn something new...sometimes its something we knew as a child but had forgotten about...sometimes its something we have...

Affection on my lens

2011-10-03T22:19:00.001-07:00

Dadi & MOM : Olden Days

2011-08-21T09:47:00.000-07:00

In those olden days when moms arrival from mumbai was a huge affair.just before marriage mom was guest to UTU's House in Manipal.She was gifted the company of one of dad's sisters(RAA).Aunt recalls dressing up with her into new attires and going for a walk .At one particular instance mom wanted to go to the parlour for the usuals.She told this with her companion(RAA) who readily agreed out of curiosity.The same day Dad,dadi and sisters(AT) headed to the jewellery store to buy ornaments for the wedding.Mom along with RAA got down in the bus stand and headed to the nearby parlour.As they headed out ,dad,dadi and AT were standing across the lane.The jewellery store was in the adjacent building.neither mom nor her companion were aware that dad has already seen them as he was the one facing that side.Dadi and AT were busy with discussing what to purchase.Dad was in awe as he saw mom striding along busy chit chatting with RAA .He literally covered his mouth with his hand looking between his mom and my mom.Finally one of dads sister recognised mom and called on to her.MOM and RAA almost collapsed as they were deciding between running away and confronting dad and dadi.Dad was trying to cover up things,finally mom put ina "aspirin" reply to her current whereabouts.Dadi met mom the first time there.After a few quick exchanges dadi suggested mom buy her own ornaments and they headed along..

More later.

T O N S E 's D I A R Y: hopelessness

2011-08-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

T O N S E 's D I A R Y: hopelessness

hopelessness

2011-08-16T23:45:00.000-07:00

Things seem pretty clogged at the moment.I know what i want to do but somehow i am not quite getting there.I have been working hard on all aspects but still i fail to get it.Why is that.Flabbergasted and hopelessness prevails..

Mood of the day : Low

Farewell

2011-07-27T23:31:00.000-07:00

Been through another roadblock..A very heavy one indeed.A grand start of love ended miserably today.i was the sole reason for the make and break of it.Yes i do feel terrible.I am guilty.But when i weighed what seems to me like a rational dissapointment in every aspect of her life.I fell in love with someone who was steadfast against her goals.I fell with a doctor.She said she wanted to be a gyno.I fell in love with a person who was rational in all her emotions about herself and the people around.I fell in love with a person who had the most softest voice.

I dont know when it all began to fell apart.For start i was the most unloyal partner.I agree.I am wrong.What i understand from my deductions is that it is a man's job to get married,to uphold the responsibilities and with courage stand by it.I am not a good one .I have lot to learn.Not that i have forgotten how i loved and how crazy i had been about you once upon a time,i hope God ,you and all those i have hurt in this betrayal of mine will forgive me.I stand at the darkest hours of my life again being reminded of my mom.She and dad stood by me when i was in Love.

Terribly sorry,

If only you could understand !!

Hope you have the happiest times of your ahead ..

Take Care,

Farewell.

Mummy

2011-06-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

Its been a while since i wrote something down.All this while i was caught up in taking care of my mom,internals in college,problems with my brother,burying my mom, semester exams ...

There is a lot i want to write down.I still cant sleep well at night.I was in practice of being awake for my mom.She used to howl in pain at night and i used to give her fluids to drink.I can still feel her pain. Every time i sit alone or have something to concentrate for i find her there looking at me ,i feel her pain .And it makes me all the more miserable.And the moment i come out of it i remember her family.People who have caused her more pain that stand by her.I think of her brothers.One who caused her her hurt by never being around and who didn't even care to call in during her funeral and another one being right in front of her with no regrets whatsoever.
I remember the following line every sec

" She resembles Britney doesn't she."

"They are bad people .Do not associate with them.They are your enemies legally."
--Otherwise juice their contributions out

"I dint see what she was doing"

"You eat here ,your brother eats outside"

to be contd..

5th Feruary

2011-02-06T04:24:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

Just landed and witnessed another horrible day.In dire shock.God help us all.

Things have changed !

2010-12-22T06:34:00.001-08:00

Its been a lost and a sad week,I feel lost all the time.Touching bare bottoms on a mental scale.Exams have fully drained out.Don't feel like writing the last one tomorrow,

Wishes to the birthday girl.Hope she has the best birthday ever(without me).

With memories of last Christmas cutting me across, don't know how 25th will pass for me.

More Later.

T O N S E 's D I A R Y: My Greatest Fear Realized

2010-10-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

T O N S E 's D I A R Y: My Greatest Fear Realized

My Greatest Fear Realized

2010-10-23T04:39:00.000-07:00

As all people are,i(me) am afraid of what people call "Not Possible" .When applied to situations of life and death it creates havoc.I saw one very closely today.As my insides came out seeing the life almost dangle out ...i was terrified and it has made me realize my worst fear and has changed for times to come..

UNIX August 16 at 11:06pm

2010-08-17T07:05:00.001-07:00

UNIX August 16 at 11:06pm

I hate the feeling that I can't make u happy, I hate the feeling that I know sum how at this point you hate me, & I hate the fact that it happened to end this way, but all I can say is I'm sorry if I hurted you, but there are things that are still unsaid like how ill always love you, & how you made me believe that just maybe love does exist in this crazy world, how you changed me inside & out, how you made me see stars in the sky everynite & how you left me up so high & no one can never compare to you & everyday ill thank you for making me who I am today, I guess, I always love you with all my heart, your love was different from everyone elses, its like you made everything in my body at peace & I love how u always make me reach for more & more... You made everything make sense to me, You set everything free within me, You have my body,soul & mind, & I know its not easy loving me but I love you & I need you baybie.... I'm sorry hundred times.take care love u lots jaann...

..................................Makes no change whatsoever...........................

Love Unconditionally for you ...

2010-08-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

Its all about giving your loved one your life and happiness and at the same time taking away his/her sorrows with you , forever .. !

Telling the person how much you love them telling them how much you care .. !

Giving them all the love in the world ..

Asking God to give you their sorrows ..

Missing them like hell day and night when you are not with them .. !

Praying that the both of you never fall apart nothing comes between you and you stay together .. forever .. !

Giving the person you love all the love in the world ..

Promising to keep all your promises ..

Promising to never let them go ..

Being there for them forever . .

Being their heartbeat .. Their Life ..

Never leaving them alone ..

A Promise you make to keep all your promises you made to them ..

...Cause words are unable to describe its deepness ..

....its all about how much you can love the person

about the limits of loving someone ..

Loving someone Unconditionally ..

--PASSIONS of the HEART--

2010-08-08T08:02:00.000-07:00

At first meeting there is respect
As conversation flows
Personalities are revealed and reflect
Inner strengths discovered and shows

Our true nature, kindness and sensitivity
This is how I believe love begins
Others then realize our true objectivity
It is what we feel within

A spark, an excitement so strong
Grins and giggles show we care
We all want to belong
We open our spirit with flair

Learning each others commonalities
Our likes, dislikes and morals
In time become realities
Refraining from quarrels

Allowing to become liked
It is within our hearts
No one wants to be disliked
This is how I believe love starts

Slowly a spark a flame ignites
A deepening respect a glow
It soars to many different heights
Over time love does grow

If nourished by kindness and understanding
Be ever reminded of the other one
A love develops that becomes outstanding
Nurture a love so true passion has begun

Blessings from the Lord above
that you may find your true love