Toppling Mind!!!!

Commotion!!

2013-03-08T21:50:00.000+05:30

I can't avoid this friction of thoughts inside,
Parts of my head are just released and fight...

I'm trying to ignore what doesn't seem to be mine,
But when that goes away why I don't feel so fine....

Another dilemma,
Another emotion,
Feels like nothing but an useless commotion...

Why my mind wanders where it doesn't belong,
And even if it does, I am still scared as I don't wanna be wrong...

Will I ever know what am I going through?
Somewhere I want to know that what I feel is true...

Something is not so right and I am dealing,
Or is this just an emotion without a feeling...

I wish I could see and touch my thoughts as I feel them,
I just wanna be free and go away from this blame and claim...

Nothing I Can Miss...

2012-06-21T17:21:00.000+05:30

I miss the days when I knew I was innocent,

My heart had love and mind was full of trust...

Gone are the days when silence meant loneliness,

Now everyday looks like just a new progress...

The crowd left an armor in my hand,

Now I just have to know how to pretend...

I no longer have a struggle or go through any pain,

I just can see the world so clear and it is insane...

The life has become so easy and sound,

And I no longer have a heart to pound...

I don't need to ask for better than this,

I realized I have everything and nothing I can miss...

Love Deprived

2012-05-19T08:13:00.004+05:30

I can't seem to believe that you ever cared for me,

Your empty words drift away as fragile whispers.

I saw the day when the love left your eyes,

Your tongue fell still your treason is silence.

Please try to say more carefully that you no longer need me,

This cruel back and forth is tearing apart my faith.

The only eyes you'll look into is your mirrored facade reflection,

You are the solely means to my love deprived end.

"Take every love away from me cruel angel."

Apathy cries out from my lungs,

Indifference reeks of fiction.

Time will tell how long will I endure.

Now I run and hide excluding such complacence.

As tears rain from my bloodshot eyes.

I feel the sorrowful pull of my deprivation.

Leaves me nothing to remind me of this love now lost.

I wander in the ambiance of my depression.

The air now reeks with the presence of my vile voice.

My smile masks the withering of my heart.

I am not your trophy, I am nobodies trophy,

Yet I still crave for that love.

Source -http://allpoetry.com/poem/4238125-_Love_Deprived_-by-LoveDeprived

This Is True!!

2012-04-28T07:50:00.001+05:30

"No matter how close you follow the jumps, no matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matter. We're just warming up."

Wanna Go Home!!!

2012-04-13T01:36:00.009+05:30

I don't know why I took this road,

Now it's getting hard to carry on,

The path behind has disappeared,

And I can't go back home.....

It's now getting dark around,

And I know what I lost n what I found,

What I have left now makes no sense,

And there's no way back home.....

I have been waiting to reach you for so long,

And I had to keep myself so strong,

There is jus' no turn on this road,

I wish I could go home.....

You have been so far away,

Your shadow mocks me everyday,

Y don't you push me deep in the ground,

As I can't go home.....

This path is never ending,

Don't know why I am defending,

But I hope it leads me to you,

Coz I wanna be home.....

With you!!!

Carry On....

2012-02-27T07:36:00.013+05:30

Some thoughts are screaming inside,

And I know that the intention is not so right,

So I let it go and move on,

As the world will also carry on....

Somethings will never be the same,

As loved ones will not stop playing the game,

No matter how hard I try to stay and go on,

As the world will carry on....

Jus' 4

2012-01-09T13:15:00.002+05:30

I love my dreams, but I need to wake up;

There will be nothing around, until I get up;

They say I am wrong, they say I have got to be strong;

Who would have guessed what's going inside, If it is the aftermaths of losing the sight;

Love is so far away, No matter how long you stay;

Telling the truth is always wrong, what to do when you cant stay no long;

Am I blindfolded, by the fog of lies;

Do I not know, I don't have what I thought was mine;

Tell me the truth and don't make me kill myself;

Tearing apart, and you just stay too far;

Never wanna love again, don't wanna die again;

I see you around but your presence makes me more alone....

Jus' III

2012-01-09T09:32:00.004+05:30

Words that come from deep within the soul

Convey warmth that makes one feel whole

Hugs are part of expressing true emotion

Special human contact delivering devotion

Thoughts are forever eternal to the mind

As they give birth to memories that bind

Hearts have eyes with which they can see

The many visible kinds of love meant to be.

- Someone’s Facebook status

No Reason...

2010-02-24T04:19:00.011+05:30

Do I have a reason to be missed when I am gone,

I want to find out the reason why I was born,

No reason seems to be right to be alive,

Why I am filled with regrets every night,

Time is running out of hands swiftly,

It seems life will end so quickly,

I feel so tired with all happened around me,

It looks disastrous and I want to run,

I chose my paths and was afraid never,

but now can someone help me make it better,

Don't know why I feel so tainted in my heart,

I wish if it should just tear me apart,

And I will rest in peace, forever...

Shimmer...

2010-02-24T00:37:00.005+05:30

Shimmer was the ray of light,

Which grew fonder and bright.

Shimmer was the strength that I knew,

It gave me warmth and was so pure.

Shimmer was the name that healed the pain,

It did bring me sunshine and now the rain.

Shimmer made me grow stronger,

Was always so calm and ponder.

Shimmer was my strength,

But left me in pain.....

Darkness Heals.....

2009-12-08T02:10:00.008+05:30

Dawn is breaking but I still miss the darkness,

Wanna go back to the warmth it brought to me,

No bright light to blur the sight.

All fears and regrets were hidden,

And no confusion about the colors,

The silence around me was so clear.

No boundaries, no limits,

Surrounded by the silence and counting the minutes,

And could see dreams with open eyes.

Beyond the words what I felt,

No extremes to be dealt,

But I am quite sure that darkness heals....

Can There Be..?

2009-11-24T02:31:00.006+05:30

Can there be another beautiful morning,

When clouds will come down to float on these waves,

Can there be a better day,

When the breeze will bring a charm the way it brings today,

Can there be another world,

Where I will relive those evocative moments,

Can there be another emotion,

Which will be mine and will bring me strength,

Can there be another musical instrument,

Which will arise the inner strength the way a flute does,

Can there another love,

To respite me from all these nuisances,

Can there be a second life,

Which will be comprehended,

Can there ever be a moment,

When I will feel complete.

Between You and Me....

2009-11-21T23:36:00.011+05:30

I don't know if I will regret,

Knowing you and why we met,

But I know one thing for sure,

That I am not wrong this time.

Never knew I could be so strong,

When people told me how I'm so very wrong,

But nothing can stop me from trying,

Coz I know this blaze won't be dying.

Tell me trusting you isn't a mistake,

I will be next to you whatever it will take,

But you have to show me the way,

Say you'll be with me in every day.

Telling truth wasn't the plan,

I'm doing everything what all I can,

The time I knew the road is going to end,

It's you who brought me the strength.

Take Me There.....

2009-11-21T23:36:00.009+05:30

Take me there where no one goes,

Take me through your thoughts,

Let me know what no one else can know.

Keep me in your heart,

Let me stay where no one else can stay.

Keep me in your eyes,

Let me see your dreams what no one else can see.

Maybe I can be a part of your life,

Let me be into every moment of it.

Jus' wanna be there...forever...

All This While....

2009-11-16T20:47:00.004+05:30

All this while,

I followed my heart,

And spoke to my mind,

But saying truth doesn't seem to be right.

I don't want to live this lie,

When I know you gotta leave me this way,

There is a feeling I can't deny,

But I will get over it some day.

One moment you are here,

And in the next you are gone,

Don't you realize you leaving behind me in a fear,

A part of me was also torn.

If I knew what I understand today,

I would have already gone away,

Saying goodbye isn't so easy,

But I will do it any way.

Jus' - II

2009-11-09T23:45:00.004+05:30

It's a new day, a new beginning,

Some voices I have started to listening,

Voices of my mind and of my soul,

And I don't regret coz my heart is pure.

I see through my thoughts and belief,

And I know I ain't wrong- a relief,

No regrets if an imagination wants to relive,

I still feel complete even if it is primitive.

The fear I have is fading away,

Still trying to find my own way,

Next to me is a shadow I admire,

I regret not to realize it prior.

Feel so glad that I found a pearl,

The shine is so bright that the sight is blur,

The belonging is more than precious,

I thank God for being so gracious.

Note: Could not think of any title complement these words.

Take Me Home...

2009-11-03T22:49:00.005+05:30

Leaves are falling again,

The sky is getting darker,

I am tired of strolling alone,

Please hold my hand,

And take me home.

This mob frightens me,

Loneliness sends shivers down my spine,

Don't know how to deal with this fear,

Something I have faced all my life,

I am still waiting for you down here,

Please take me home.

Just a moment next to you,

Before I break free from my life,

I need to reside in your embrace,

Just for a while,

I no longer can be alone,

I wanna be home.

The stars won't stop shining,

Clouds won't come down to embrace me,

Wish I could fly with this wind,

Or could live in the ocean,

But I will still be alone,

Won't you take me home.

I Sense The Love

2009-09-05T04:33:00.005+05:30

When those eyes look at me,

I can sense a mystery,

When that voice calls my name,

It brings me a little pain,

His thoughts separate the shadow of cloud,

Why this perplexity speaks so loud,

I have lived for another day,

Waiting for a fairytale to come my way,

Can not stop clock ticking,

I wanna stop this time from running,

Every time I close my eyes I see a beautiful face,

I know it's you but I can not chase,

Maybe we aren't meant to be together,

But I am in pain and getting into it deeper.

Dubious

2009-09-01T00:29:00.004+05:30

Could there be another way,

I tried to find it everyday.

I am trapped in this cage like a bird,

Please set me free if you heard.

All I can see is a crimson patch,

But I realize it's fading away.

May be what I desire is not meant to be,

Or there is something I couldn't see.

What this commotion is all about,

Will sun break free of the clouds?

I turn around and try to know what I am leaving behind,

I wanna see the reflection of my dreams.

Clouds in my head part away by his voice,

I don't care if I am wrong cause' it's my choice.

I am stuck in this dubious battle,

I hope it is not too late...

I Exist (Existence is Hidden)

2009-08-18T22:06:00.009+05:30

Yes. I do exist. I exist like an unknown tree in a forest. I exist like an ignored flower blooming in a potted plant kept in one corner of the garden. I have been so away from affection that now I don't realize it's importance. I know that one day this isolation may make me fall or may be I will be picked up like a flower by someone unknown passing through the meadow and my existence may come to an end. But is that it? Is that what I am existing for? No idea and I don't really think about it but what I know now is that "I exist". Though my existence is hidden like a pearl in an oyster traveling across the sea searching for someone to set it free. It's not been long when I realized that happiness don't come to me easily. I keep searching for something new but nothing happens. Number of trials have failed and I am here left in this darkened place. I am just running and what I see is another dark path. I don't know if I've missed a door which could have led me through the light. A kind of numbness taking place inside me leaving me hollow. This hollow part helps the friendly voice to screech and produce an echo and then to disappear leaving behind a silence and I am scared to break that silence. I know I am searching for something but that something is nothingness. This nothingness gives me a satisfaction which is enough for me to survive everyday. There is something messing up with my thoughts which is beyond explanation. I am trying hard to come out of these clouds which have created haze around me. And I feel today that I am done.

Still "I EXIST", fighting these nuisances.

Still Finding Myself....

2009-07-29T07:50:00.006+05:30

I am leaving a part of my emotions behind,

I am afraid it doesn't belong to me,

I am glad that I did not get blind,

b'cause the truth I could see,

Who knows that it is not fake what I hide,

Your essence is what sets me free,

Why I feel so weak inside,

I wanna win and I fight,

I can see nothing in your eyes,

It is just a phase and it will die,

Your presence makes me more lonely,

All I see is a crimson patch fading away,

I feel so numb and lost in this swarm,

And I am still finding myself...

On Valentine's Day!

2009-02-15T09:47:00.009+05:30

I asked God to show me the way,

He gave me signs on Valentine's day,

Cupid's heart was beating for me,

Thought I could handle but jus' wanted to flee,

That slight touch was so pure,

Wish nexus will never be torn,

I confess the continuity of mystification,

I still have the proclivity to take depravation,

Mind jus' wanna be a little stealth,

Inspite of the felicity it felt.

Perplexity

2009-02-12T01:05:00.006+05:30

Perplexity longing to freak out,

Celebrations seem to be so wrong...

My mind is engrossed in some thoughts,

And heart doesn't know what it wants...

Started loving the silence around me,

Don't know what can set me free...

There's no easy way out of these shackles,

I feel nothing but so much of frazzles...

Time is running out and i am still there,

May have loads of ways but doors seem to be rare...

Pearl

2009-02-06T03:38:00.009+05:30

Not made from a grain of the sand,

Wants to breathe on this land,

Surviving for years in the deep ocean,

Splendorous, precious and priscilla-n,

Lives to get released from the oyster,

Where it has been left cloister,

The beauty is so un-touched and pure,

Love it and you will regret no more,

The protection of shell hides it's beauty,

Still it achieves the shine and the glory.

That Soothing Feeling -

2009-01-30T03:04:00.018+05:30

Walking on the grass,

One ray of sunlight in the gloomy sky,

Droplets of frozen crystals,

Catching the rain drops,

Swaying with the wind,

Clouds floating in the sky,

Walking through the mist,

Looking at the falling leaves,

Sitting under a tree and contemplating,

Fragrance of flowers,

A soft touch of a baby,

A dim lamp in the dark night,

Waves of the ocean touching the feet,

A musical instrument,

Holding hands,

Writing in the sand,

Fear when driving through a dark jungle,

Sip of coffee in the snowfall,

Playing with the colors when don’t know what to paint,

Watching shooting stars and asking for a wish,
Sunrise and sunset,

They do make us feel different in certain way.