Tree House Talk (All Strength No Shade)

Discovering Me

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Fri, 1 Feb 2013 11:40:00 GMT

Last year I was having a quarter-life crisis at the age of 26. I felt lost, stuck, and in a deep rut. I felt like I needed something BIG to happen. Something that would change my whole life. So, I waited, but nothing happened. Every day that passed me by only made me feel worse. One morning I woke up and couldn't con myself to get out of the bed. At that point I said enough is enough.

A Year of Hard Lessons -- And a Merry New Year

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Thu, 10 Jan 2013 16:31:00 GMT

Over the past year I have been an emotional wreck. I was lost in a pool of wants and needs while drowning in my own self-pity. Like somehow the whole world revolved around me and everyone in it was against me. Frustrated with my underpaying job and my overpriced apartment I got so overwhelmed that I lost sight of me. It wasn't constant but it truly was a rollercoaster of emotions including the vicarious traumatization within the community in which I serve.

Our Pride. Our Community. Our Movement.

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Wed, 15 Jun 2011 11:41:00 GMT

OPPRESSION

Many people have experienced oppression in their lives -- which is the prolonged cruel or unjust treatment or control, as well as the state of being subject to such treatment or control. I am not sure if you have been told this before, but we are all different and come from extremely different realities. Even twins within the same household have very different realities as they live life in their own truth. I like to look at oppression as not really an action of an evil person but as a form of narrow-minded conditioning. Conditioning built off the moral beliefs and social norms of the influential leaders in our lives.

To Tell the Truth

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Thu, 17 Jun 2010 06:53:00 GMT

Every Pride season I think back to when I first came out to my mother. I was out to my friends and a few family members that were my age, and that was it. This experience was nothing like I expected it to be.

I was 13 years old. It was a day like any other. I went to school, came home, did homework and chilled on the porch for most of the evening. After a long day and dinner I decided to join my mother in the living room and watch TV. We didn't do much talking while we watched TV unless we were debating what program to watch.

Enclosed by Disclosure

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Wed, 12 May 2010 09:35:00 GMT

Should we disclose 100 percent of the time?

In the HIV community disclosure is a controversial topic right now. "Tell. Tell. Tell," they say. I feel before we can tell our status we must consider three things: Why am I telling, who am I telling and am I ready to tell.

Do I Have Poz Pride?

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 14:30:00 GMT

I speak out every day about my HIV status. I tell a large number of people my story. I want them to know my name and of my many experiences. Some people thank me. Others despise my exposure. They tell me it's no one's business but my own, what I have done and what STD [sexually transmitted disease] I have. However, I'm honest and have no problem telling the world that I have sex with men on occasion and that I'm HIV positive.

They ask, "Are you proud of your HIV status? Do you take pride in you incurable infectious disease?"

A Change Like No Other

t.alexander4health@yahoo.com (Tree Alexander) — Thu, 1 Apr 2010 15:30:00 GMT

My name is Tree Alexander, born in Chicago, Illinois. I have lived in NYC for almost two years after moving here for relationship. In that short time I have experienced a deranged partner in a domestic violence relationship, homelessness with hunger, loneliness, heartache, pain and deceit. That relationship lasted for about nine months. I had to make that end through tears and heartache -- but, I will save that story for another day. I found out my HIV status one month after I turned 20 and HIV has changed my life completely. I went from acting to producing. I don't just "act" like who I want to be ... I am! I can now experience life as it is.

I moved to the North Side of Chicago when I was 18. I was introduced to the gay clubs and bars, the late nights and early mornings, the alcohol and the sex. I began working, partying and enjoying life on the North Side. I was now in a neighborhood that was accepting of me. During the summer when I turned 19, I was working in a clothing store on Halsted and Roscoe streets. I saw this guy come in and he was cute. He looked over and when I asked him if he needed any help, he gave me a smile. After that, he smiled at me the entire time he was in the store. He began to leave, so I stopped him and asked, "After all that, you not going to ask for my number?" In a quick reply he said,"Nope, but I will take it if you give it to me." We laughed and exchanged info before he left.