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can you tell me what my essense might be?

2015-04-28T03:01:11.000Z

can you loo at my picture and tell me what you think my essence might be?

Scholars and Scholar Cast

2014-09-06T03:55:15.000Z

I remember reading on here that scholars obtain their experiences vicariously through other people. This is not to say that a scholar won't have firsthand experience but that most of it will come from observing other people, events, data, etc...Scholars are neutral and assimilative. So naturally wouldn't a scholar or someone who is scholar cast be attracted to situations where they can observe. Maybe this is true of anybody with the mode of observation

I am noticing lately I get a lot of info from just watching. Of course my overleaves completely support that with the mode of observation and also with me being scholar cast. It seems even as I'm talking or doing something there is always this neutral perspective watching. I used to think it was my arrogance waiting to ponce on anything I would consider embarrassing but it's not tense, it is just there observing.

I guess I'm wondering if anybody with the mode of observation or is a scholar essence or cast has the same idea or would disagree with me.

Past lives on different timelines?

2014-09-05T18:45:18.000Z

I was watching a documentary from BBC the other day about a boy who had memories of a past life on an island off the Scottish coast.

He could describe the surroundings, house, people, names and the family dog.

He vividly remembered the trauma of his death.

They went to the island and everything was as he had described it, except that the family had never lost a child.

The whole feel of the program was genuine and watching this I remembered other programs and books I had read about people remembering past lives but not quite getting it right in all details according to historical records.

I wonder if this is how it works with parallel universes. I had somehow thought that the different timelines would split and continue on their own or maybe on rare occasions merge but all within the span of a single lifetime.

This rings true to me, somehow!

It would make the reincarnation process of choosing circumstances, point in time and fellow souls incarnated with just the right personality or body that much easier.

What do you other Michael students think?

Auras

2014-09-04T02:38:53.000Z

So today I am in my Elementary Italian 1 class and as my teacher was teaching I got a little unfocused and my vision was kinda blurry. Nothing to be alarmed about, just that mode where you zone out and think about nothing. Now as my eyes were unfocused I notice that if I looked at my teacher I saw this pale green light surrounding her that followed her everywhere. I snapped out of it and wrote in my notes whatever it was that she had written on the board and mentally said myself "Ohh I guess I can see auras now......cool." It's been one of THOSE weeks so any enthusiasm I may have had at this discovery was not there.

I tried to look for my own aura and as I was taking notes for another class I could see this pale blue light surrounding my index finger. So that must be my color I suppose.

Does anyone else see auras or know what the colors mean?

On Flow, With a Tip for Kings

2014-09-03T02:06:44.000Z

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From a private session on 9/2/2014

[DianeHB] I've been noticing a tendency in me and others in Flow, to prefer the path of least resistance, to go where life happens to take me, and a reluctance to exert a lot of effort to make things happen. Is this what -Inertia/Momentum looks like? I used to do that a lot more when I felt like I had no power to do something about it, but even as I've learned to navigate better, my preference is to go around obstacles rather than fight for things. Is that simply a tendency of Flow?

[MEntity] Yes, you are actually learning Freedom. Freedom is the expansion of navigation within, around, and upon structure. Inertia is the fight against that. For those with a different Goal, the breaking down of obstacles and clearing of paths is important for the fulfillment of the Goal, but for Flow, it is all about the path of least resistance, and the increasing capacity for allowing a long way around rather than a plowing through.

[MEntity] For those in Flow, it does not mean it comes easy to allow for the long way around, but as the life unfolds, and the splashing about in the stream of life comes to a still, then the navigation begins, and it starts to make sense that all rivers lead to the ocean, so to speak.

[DianeHB] As another King said before, Flow seems like an "advanced" lesson for Kings. ;)

[MEntity] For those in Flow, especially for those with ambition, the motto of "I will get there" is important to remember. Those in Flow are often in Flow because they lived several lives from "I should be there." The shift into "I will get there" can be difficult, but brings a great peace to the management of lifetimes.

[MEntity] You are starting to realize that the long way around is not shameful or worse than any other means of getting to where you would like to go, because getting there is less important than what you get along the way to there.

[DianeHB] That's what I've been telling myself regarding my ambitions -- that once I found something fulfilling it would be okay to take the rest of my life to get to it.

[MEntity] For the older soul, and especially for the old King, "ambition" must take on a daily context, rather than an ultimate result or destination.

[DianeHB] Could you expand on what you mean by "daily context"?

[MEntity] Rather than having ONLY a long-term, obvious, finish line toward which to aim, there must be a sense of motivation that is just for the demands or the desires of that day. Does it matter if you are ultimately a nurse or an accountant? Yes, but today it matters most that you do the work that you set out to do, and find fulfillment in that day of success. As you build on your daily contexts of fulfillment, your greater arc of aim can more easily be calibrated and altered.

[DianeHB] That makes sense

[MEntity] We may not always succeed, but we do aim for sensible responses.

[DianeHB] LOL

[DianeHB] Oh, I think you almost always succeed

Reformation of the Monetary System

2014-09-03T02:00:00.000Z

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From a private session on 9/2/2014

[DianeHB] Tex's question: An economist who worked for the CIA, Jim Richards, wrote a book called "The Death of Money", giving his belief that the dollar will lose its position as the world currency in as little as 6 months from now, certainly within 5 years. If this happens, the world will fall into a deep depression. He gives many reasons for believing this will happen soon. Do you see his predictions as accurate? Basically Tex is terrified about losing his life savings to inflation and devaluation of the dollar. We're wondering if this is something we should plan for accordingly.

[MEntity] First, we will say that it is more valid to presume a high probability for reformation than a "death" or collapse. It is not uncommon for these changes to come, and they have come several times. Though we cannot predict a scenario, we can say that this reformation is likely, but so far it appears that this would be beneficial. The economic disparity is on its way out as a means of defining prosperity, so shifts are naturally moving toward ways that would even out the spread of prosperity. This channel does not have the terminology for explaining this as clearly as we could, but we can say that while there will be ups and downs over this transition, it would be a transition that is cumulative rather than as collapse, and would include a wave of education for why it is better.

[MEntity] Second, we will say that of all of the transitions in reformation of currency, resources, and value the highest probabilities show that this would be the least-painful of all, so far. A lot has been learned from history, and while there are those who are sinister in the world, there are also those who are invested in the well-being of the world, and this mindset of greater context is gaining footing.

[DianeHB] That's good to hear

[MEntity] Economic overhaul appears to be vital for the means necessary to deal with greater threats, such as climate, environment, population, and disease. The latter have more likelihood of affecting your well-being than economy, at this point.

[DianeHB] Yes, you've mentioned that before. I've told Tex that too.

[DianeHB] Fun times

[MEntity] We will not say that there is no need for concern, but that your concern may not have much bearing on any positive or negative directions ahead. Preparation for presumed collapse is quite limited.

[MEntity] In most probabilities, paper does lose its footing as symbolci currency and is replaced by digital credits, and this, in itself, is a profound step in a more beneficial direction, despite the fears associated with that future. That value of digital credit is far more malleable, lenient, and free to such an extent that those credits begin to take on a new resource of meaning. Eventually, credits reflect the value of exchanges, not a stored and limited resource.

[MEntity] A Mature Soul world cannot be sustained on the current ideas of money.

[MEntity] Those are of the Young Soul, and it had its run. The Mature Soul paradigm is looking for how to shift away from this, but as smoothly as possible, generations at a time, rather than as a collapse or "death." We cannot say there will not be a collapse or death, but that it is not as likely as a fairly rapid reformation that will have its precarious moments.

[DianeHB] Do you have anything you could say to Tex to help him deal with his fears? If "preparation" is not of much use?

[MEntity] We can say to Tex that he allow those fear to inform him, not to lead him. Explore the worst-case scenarios, but also the best-case. Look at the most outlandish of ways to prepare for the worst, and the most peaceful of ways to nurture an ideal. Let the fear inform the choices for the future, but do not let it define the future.

[MEntity] The fears are legitimate, so to deny them would be insulting to your intelligence. But to embrace fear as a conclusive reality is also insulting.

[DianeHB] Also, what is our timeline for this reformation to happen at this point?

[MEntity] This reformation started in 1950 and will likely take another 50 years, at most, and 10 at least.

[DianeHB] wow, that's faster than I thought

[MEntity] Relatively speaking, it is fairly rapid.

Learning forgiveness

2014-08-31T17:44:13.000Z

I'm on saltspring island now. Caretaking a farm. Of course I was 2 hours late letting the chickens out this morning haha...shiat.
CAN'T SLEEP IN ON A FARM!

So I'll get to the point quickly here. I have noticed a very clear change in my perception lately, one of great gratitude for being alive.
It feels like something has definately " changed" within and I can probably account it with moving up a notch in the 4th Internal Monad...
I haven't exactly moved past the manifestation stage the way I expected it would look , which was: start making a lot of art projects and moving forward on every desire i always wanted, being very active towards what I want.

Although I work more and more towards that every day, I feel like in my heart I manifested that stage with just a willingness to be vulnerable and intimate in scenarios where i would have always been on extreme defense before. I acted on what I knew to be true.
I feel I can validate this moving up the 4th IM because I notice i'm not so concerned anymore with my idea of purpose...or finding MY ACTION THAT WILL BE MY PURPOSE...though I still want to , don't get me WRONG, this is a challenge of mine I have always had though it does not carry that WEIGHT anymore.

A new challenge , new to me , has arisen. I said I have been feeling more and more grateful for existing. I feel Safe and responsible and CAPABLE of making any choice I want. Bottom line : I feel very capable. I look in the miror and i'm beginning to love who I see but I still feel a strong resentment towards myself. I see the lines on my face that could have been avoided if I had self worth in those many times in my life where i convinced myself i was hopeless. I have a fear of running into the people I love and noticing that they also recognize these lines of suffering on my face.

I know this comes accross as superficial, to me that is not the case, to me this is a case of forgiveness. I am learning to FORGIVE myself for the YEARS I have lived in absolute unconcsiousness. The YEARS i marinated in fear.
I have a strong urge to reach out to everyone I hurt in my life and deeply ask for their forgiveness. I have been doing this in many instances recently but I know it's really about me needing to forgive myself. When I reach out to all of them i am also reaching out to me, trying to find a good enough reason to forgive myself.

This is my new struggle, I FEEL THE POTENTIAL, I FEEL WHOLENESS AND THE CREATIVITY AND THE LIFE INSIDE OF ME, but I have to learn to see the scars in a new way. I want to forgive myself for all the years I thought I didn't have potential and that I was a waste of space for simply being alive.

Now I have never talked to Michael concerning the Monad I am in, so this is all self reflection based.
I feel it to be pretty accurate.

all my love

A very Priestly bleedthrough

2014-08-28T06:36:22.000Z

Last Night in Montreal.

I hear the drums beating and vibrating from the party that never ends outside. I have been very reclusive this summer, but not reclusive in the sense that I feel like I missed out on anything. I came to Montreal because it excited me to explore my relationship with Scott from a different angle. This was my Vision. For the most part the reality lived up to the vision...I do not want to downplay the work that went into making that happen. It was a daily reminder, hourly reminder to relate from a point of Truth rather than a competive arrogancy.
There really is no words to describe the beauty of interacting with someone in a totally new way.
It's still a struggle to express that love I have for him without wanting to put on all ten suits of armour before I do it, but I damn well impressed myself when I did express it. When I did express vulnerablity, When I did jump into the pool without any defense, knowing a could get BIT, but trusting I wouldn't. Not once did I regret it.

I'm learning that people understand things from entirely different angles. I can be talking about Love ( for example) in what I find to be the clearest statement possible and shocked everytime when another individual hears this very clear statement ( to me) in an entirely different way. Ha ha We ain't all speaking about the same things when we are talking to each other, sometimes NOT EVEN REMOTELY, even though the same words are used. Luckily Ms. Iyanla Vanzant of the OWN Network and " Iyanla : Fix My life" acted as the buffer between Scott and I. Where as I knew we spoke of the same things when we talked, hours would be wasted sometimes trying to agree on the proper way or philosophy that we both felt suited us on how to view something. Though Again, we both usually meant the same damn thing. Where as I could absorb the michael teachings for hours on end, Scott found immense benefit from the Michael teachings when it applied to him but his dyslexia didn't allow for hours on hours consumption of the material. What Iyanla did for both of us was provide an example of LIVING these basic principles of LOVE, TRUTH, ENERGY. Everytime we tuned into her show, it was like going to school. Every viewing followed with a 2 hour conversation of how what we just witnessed applies to our lives . How we can Better love one another and love living, was a daily topic that I could never get enough of.
She was the mediator we needed. The foundations were there. The ideas where there. Seeing it in ACTION solidified the Vision.
When I see her I feel inspired. I see that being a television show does not necessarily mean " voyeuristic", you can tell involving stories that reflect YOU in such a way that it's as if you were in that tv show yourself. When I first thought of " what does an interactive story look like?" when I asked Michael one of my numerous questions on ART, I would always picture it as sort of like a story with LIVE TWEETS...and I just hated that idea ha ha. It's very hard to be engrossed into something when everyone's opinions are flashing over the tv screen...but Iyanla's show shows me what true interactive " storytelling" can look like. When you root it in truth, when it's directly relatable, it becomes more than just viewing someone elses life. It forces you to be engaged as a viewer, engaged in YOUR LIFE.

I'll take her off the pedastal now. I only ever saw spiritual teachers who were " soft spoken", very " slow" in approach....almost eternaly calm...and although this reflected a deep peace I found immensely intriguing, I never saw MYSELF in the full sense of my potential in them. It's nice to see you can be prophet of truth and love and still be a huge ball of energy. I'm allowing myself to include a larger range of truths and perspectives now, where as before I would never trust anyone unless they fit my very particular mode of what it is to " be enlightened" or " be spiritual".

Applying these principles to my daily life, I can now read the Michael teachings from a completely new perspective. A perspective of enrichment and depth , I find I don't leave confused anymore or rushed to UNDERSTAND IT ALL but instead excited and really grateful to be able to have the volume of this information available to me. This community is a gift to be a part of. It was not how I envisioned my " spiritual group" to take form when I first started self discovery at the age of 23, but now I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I am feeling that my Priest essence twin is bleeding through. Although I have a deep desire to create in the sense of artistic form and structure, whatever way I may approach that, I'm finding an equal desire to have that Art marinate and propelled towards INSPIRING others of their absolute potential. Nothing would feel entirely fulfilling unless it was rooted in Nurturing the potential of everyone involved towards their highest possible truth. This may just be a human trait when it comes to " purpose" but I'm feeling the flavour to be very priestly.

I'm excited to step fourth into British Columbia now with the tools I have.
I'm excited to continue to allow creativity be part of my day, love be part of my day, gratiude be part of my day, TRUTH by part of my day.
It would be delusional not to take into account my major issues with structure and Action, these are daily battles to overcome as I am so accustomed to not exactly being grounded in physical reality. I get really caught up and excited by feelings and ideas and seem to do my best ACTIVE changes when it comes to dealing with relationships in new ways, but in terms of more structured personal desires it is still a struggle to overcome.

I look forward to the next blogpost when I can lament over my astounding progress in terms of Action.
This might take time, that's ok...that is very hard for an idealist to come to terms with.
I am standing in the right shoes though and ready for the obligatory endurance.

feeling grateful.

Private channeling 8/14/2014--Troy

2014-08-26T17:58:44.000Z

This was a credited session for another one which Troy will email to me.

With the changes that have happened in my life in the last few months I have taken some time to read this. While not much has been physically written, I am beginning to see the characters in my head.

Knowing that there are a few other writers on here, including our resident channel, I thought this might be appreciated.

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<MEntity> Hello to you, Christian. We are here, now. We can begin.

<cfalde> Hello,

<cfalde> For my first question,

<cfalde> I lost my job on June 10th. This hit me harder than I expected. Over the last bit of time, I have noticed a couple of things.

<cfalde> I want to write, but keep stopping myself.

<cfalde> I don’t want to go back to a office job.

<cfalde> I feel like this experience cracked something lose, and I don’t want to build it back.

<cfalde> What clarity can you provide?

<MEntity> This is a turning point you describe. In many instances when a turning point arrives, there is a sense that one must stay focused in the direction that the turning point seems to point, but often that direction will require some structure of support that may use what is already accessible. For instance, you may have revealed to yourself that you would like to write, but to dive directly into writing may feel blocked because there may be the distraction of income, security, and a familiar structure, itself. So it can be an important part of the process of a turning point to "hug the curve" around which you are bending so that you can continue without losing that sense of redirection.

<MEntity> In other words, you may not have to avoid a return to an office so much as you might simply need to add writing to your days.

<cfalde> exactly what I was just thinking.

<MEntity> We are not suggesting you return to an office, of course, but that it can bring some peace to know that it is not a step backwards IF you choose that as your means of security as you write.

<MEntity> If you dive into your writing as a source to save your security, the pressure may be counterproductive to the creativity and meaning that is in the experience of writing. You would, in some ways, simply be turning your writing into another "office job" if that pressure were to be brought to it.

<MEntity> If you are not concerned about security or income, then your block may be of other concerns, but if security and income are a concern, that is your first context to address as a means to free up your direction for writing.

<cfalde> Only wish that income wasn't a concern, at this point it seems to be the biggest, given the situation however, that is unsurprising.

<MEntity> However you proceed, embrace the truth that you discovered or "cracked open." Let yourself be a writer. Let yourself aim for being an Author. Working in an office, or seeking alternative forms of security as you write, are non issues. Give yourself your time and space in your day to write, even as you look for sources of security. This is the turning point. That it is not a matter of one or the other. It is a matter of your owning the work involved for both.

<MEntity> In many of our students who aim for a more creative path, there is often a sense that one cannot focus on that if one does not already have the security aspect set. It is true that survival struggles (however relative) can divert creativity, but only to the extent that the survival is threatened. If one is in danger, then it may be difficult to write. If one is simply resisting a direction, then it is simply a matter of changing perspectives.

<cfalde> :stubborness "I don't like change":

<MEntity> This happens for those who seek intimacy, as well, presuming that one must have everything just right in the life before bringing someone else into it. These fragments often miss out on the pleasure, joy, enthusiasm, and support that might come with allowing intimacy. This is true of that intimacy with the self, as well.

<MEntity> It can seem that you must tend to all of these other obligations and responsibilities BEFORE tending to your more intimate pleasures, joys, enthusiasm, and support, but allowing yourself that time and space in your day, especially if you are not in danger, can actually help you in all other areas of the life.

<MEntity> Do you think/feel you can/will do both?

<cfalde> I believe so. It was something I was trying to do before I got fired. However, the job was so draining and literally everyday I never felt I could take time for myself.

<cfalde> Then when it fell apart a different panic set in. It is only been recently that I have begun to really examine it and try to understand.

<cfalde> I think it might be that I just schedule a time to set aside for writing specifically, and taking the time as they present themselves for intamcy.

<cfalde> Setting the phone down would help.

<MEntity> Having a repetitive obligation can bring about a lulling effect (drain) that must, eventually, break if there are undercurrents of dissatisfaction and unexpresssed creativity. The key here is to understand how much you contributed to that draining. This is not to say the job was not draining, but you may now see more how you neglected yourself as some sort of cost on top of it.

<MEntity> In that realization, it is now only a matter of adding action to the knowledge.

<MEntity> You do not have to force it, but invite it. Rather than presuming you must "set aside" time for writing, let your whole day be about writing. Invite yourself to mull over your ideas, your dynamic inner dialog about the path of a book, and write notes as you are inspired. This will help lead you to the greather lengths of time for focus.

<MEntity> The key in this method is writing AS YOU ARE INSPIRED.

<MEntity> Setting it on the "backburner" of the brain just adds weight to your day.

<MEntity> Do you feel the difference?

<cfalde> Yes...I remember that when I was writing down ideas on the train that it would just flow. If I tried to make it happen then it was harder.

<MEntity> Yes. This really is a matter of LETTING yourself be a writer, not about a rush to make yourself write.

<cfalde> and it's like when I have papers to grade for my classes. It just feels like this rock hanging over me and I REAALLY don't want to deal with.

<cfalde> but in the case of the classes have an obligation to.

<MEntity> When you have obligations that you do not wish to address, but know you will/must address them, the relief comes when you address them. The weight is only in the resistance. This is a primary ingredient of procrastination. The space between the knowing and the doing. The doing, the action, ironically, relieves that weight of resistance.

<cfalde> And yet I do it all the time...it's like a bad habit.

<MEntity> The more one resists, the more one associates that action with that weight/resistance/pain.

<MEntity> Correction: the more one associates that obligation....

<MEntity> So the irony is in that the ogligation is far less of a distraction than the resistance.

<MEntity> Barring obligations that are imposed against one's will, and not simply a part of the dynamic of work related to one's choice of income, or choice, in general, then that resistance can often speak to wounding that still requires healing from as far back as the 2nd Internal Monad.

<cfalde> Another one?

<MEntity> For many of our students, any position of responsibility, particularly when others are dependent upon judgments or qualities that might affect others' lives, the resistance can be strong. The older soul Personalities often do not like to be in this position because they do not like others in that position over them.

<MEntity> Even in the most-desired directions of fulfillment, such as channeling, healing, creativity, teaching, etc., all of which are deeply fulfilling to the older souls, this is a rite of passage that must be met.

<MEntity> It is a chance to update the self as to what it means to be of value and meaning to others' lives without it meaning a showcasing of your failures, vulnerabilities, or as an imposition upon others in a way that showcases their own.

<MEntity> These are considerations for you to explore that you can wrangle into perspective, but these considerations do not imply that the previous job was not draining, in and of itself. You cannot change that part, so we focus on what you can change.

<MEntity> And what you can change is how you invite yourself into this life as a writer, how you DO that, and how you go about seeing your sources of income as supporting your creativity, even if begrudgingly.

<MEntity> We must conclude here for today, Christian. Your pursuit of writing is Good Work. Your realization of this turning point is Good Work. It is only a matter of letting yourself have, do, and be all of it now.

<MEntity> Good day to you. Goodbye, for now.

<cfalde> thank you for your "time"

So I've Been Hearing Things Again...

2014-08-26T00:00:00.000Z

As a caveat, this post will be full of song clips. I can’t write it without including them to express where I was coming from.

This Nexus, unlike most others that I remember anything from, was almost completely lacking in dreaming that I can recall anyway and that is pretty unusual for me. I typically have a very active dream state around those times. But something else happened that I’ll chalk up as just as equally fascinating, to me anyway.

On Aug 16th, we were driving back from eating lunch and headed to the marina. While stopped at a stop light, I barely caught the glimpse of a car that passed in front of me that had the word “blood” printed on the side of it. I imagine it was probably related to either a blood drive or blood bank of some type. Just seeing that really caused me to have this strong urge to go back and re-read the blog post I wrote on Sensitivity To Parallel Selves. I could hardly wait to get back home and re-read it. As a reply in that post, I posted the youtube clip to the song Demons by Imagine Dragons. It seemed to summarize that scenario up perfectly. The song gives me an angry feeling, a pointing of fingers as far as “look what you did, you really fucked up” kind of feeling as if it needed to be stated. There’s little empathy coming from that song. It’s just laying out the cold hard truth.

Now the next day, we were back down at the marina in the morning. Marty would be walking but I wanted to read. I have been reading from Seth lately on parallel realities of all things. After a short while, I had had enough of the dense subject so I decided to listen to some music. Marty was listening to music on our Spotify account while he was walking so I was trying to find something that satisfied me on youtube. I tried to find the song Demons on youtube by Imagine Dragons but it seemed as if I could find it by anyone but them. As I was going through some of other versions, I found a really interesting version of this song by Jasmine Thompson. What I really liked about her version was it gave me a feeling of finality. The deed was done. There was no turning back from this scenario. Rock bottom had been hit. I sensed humility and a resolve to try to fix this situation. Arrogance had taken a seat on the back of the bus.

I listened to the song several times and gained an appreciation for the way it was done. I then sat in silence with just my thoughts for a while just taking in the view. Suddenly, I heard “We’re coming home!” To be honest, I want to say I heard “Knock knock knock… we’re coming home!” but I can’t be sure of that now but I definitely remember the “We’re coming home” part. Where did that come from??? Now I sort of use youtube like you would an 8 ball sometimes. I’ll type a phrase into their search bar and see what songs come up for that phrase and I did exactly that for the one I just got. A song by Skyler Grey with the same title came up that looked interesting so I gave it a listen and was blown away with what I heard. It follows:

I could barely contain myself when I listened to this. This was almost exactly the feeling I got when I received that message. Interestingly, both the words “blood” and “kingdom” are in both of these songs. This song I found to be positive and uplifting. It was almost as if some healing had taken place as time had passed and the resolve was now in place to move on. I also got almost a postscript comment to what I heard initially of “oh and they like runts too.” Now THAT really did get a “what the fuck” out of me. I mean, really, am I losing my mind here?

The back story on the runts is this. There is this hard candy that I like for some reason that I can’t explain and if I see it in one of those quarter vending machines, I’ll pop a couple in and get a handful of them. It is so rare that I actually come across them anymore that I haven’t had any in probably 2 years at least. So to have this comment come out of the blue is mind bending. When I eat these by the way, I do a sort of OCD thing. I’ll eat all of one kind, then all of another, and another until I only have the bananas left. They are my favorite :)

Later in the day, we were headed to the grocery store and Marty was Music Navigator while we were driving there. He was not aware of any of this so far. He ended up playing a song by a group named Dotan called Home. I wasn’t really paying attention to the song until a line in the lyrics hit me upside the head. The line in the song was “We’re Coming Home Now.” When I heard that, I literally said out loud “Oh my God!” I had never heard of this group much less this song before.

Moving forward about a week now, it is now Saturday, Aug 23rd. We were driving to a restaurant to eat lunch and I was trying to get Marty to put Skyler Grey’s song, above, on Spotify so I could listen to it again while I was driving. There was another song currently playing that I wasn’t paying much attention to. He agreed to change the song but he had to search for it first to find it to get it playing. Right when he found it to switch songs, the current one playing had the words “So let it go…. Wake up, wake up, We’re Almost Home.” Can I get another “what the fuck???” He switched the songs too quickly to stay on this one so once the one I requested had played I had him go back to this song by Moby named Almost Home. I had heard of Moby but not this song! Marty still knew nothing about any of this so he couldn't possibly be pulling some sort of colossal joke on me.

Now about this time, I’m almost beside myself. I didn’t know what the hell was going on. I continued listening to the songs through the coming week trying to make sense out of all of this. I had pretty much resolved that this upcoming Convergence Nexus had something to do with those 3 parallel lives that were still hopefully living. Perhaps they would be converging and so “coming home” made sense as far as a message. But where did the message come from? From what I understand, you don’t exactly speak to parallel lives. Based upon what I got in the original channeling there, such as the symptoms, information can flow that way but not actual communication. This only made sense to me if it came from a guide/Essence then.... something non-physical.

While taking my shower one morning this past week, I caught myself asking out loud about the runts candy comment trying to figure out how that could factor into all of this and no sooner than I asked the question did the answer “because they are an anchor” came into my mind. I have been about to come out of my skin waiting to ask about all of this and today was the day that was to happen. What follows is what I got:

Team POF
August 25, 2014

[MEntity]: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin.

[Bobby]: I want to try to ask about something today without giving too much information so that the validation of it seems more real than you just seemingly agreeing with what I present so I may ask about some things from a broader perspective and if you can't tune into that, I will then try with more detailed information.

[Bobby]: So first of all, I think I've had a very personal experience over this last week or so with this Convergence Nexus of a parallel or parallels converging or soon to be converging. If I'm tuning into this correctly, this would be regarding some information that you have given me in the past. If this isn't too wildly vague, can you confirm this? If it is still too vague, I'll go a little deeper in the explanation.

[MEntity]: Are you speaking of your status of freedom?

[Bobby]: Hmmm, perhaps in a manner of speaking. Let me provide some more info then

[Bobby]: So the back story is this: Last year around mid-November, I asked you about a discomfort that I have around needles being injected into veins for the purposes of drawing blood. You told me about 5 parallel lives that had succumbed to drug addiction whereby they used needles for injecting the drug. Then in early January, I asked how many of the 5 had made it through the season and you responded that 3 had and the other 2 had died. The 3 that survived would likely converge at some point.

[Bobby]: It is this possible convergence that I wanted to ask about today. First, are all 3 of the ones spoken of this past January still living? Are they most likely going to converge during this major convergence nexus if they haven't already? Approximately when did these (3) split off into their parallels by the way?

[Bobby]: I got the strongest sensation weekend before last that the convergence of these parallels may be about to take place and I'm just trying to validate where this intuitive feeling may have been coming from? I actually heard "we're coming home." I know parallels can't communicate exactly that way so it likely came from a guide/Essence. And since then, song after song has come to my attention with the phrase "coming home" in it. Is my perceived source of this information accurate?

[MEntity]: Oh, then our initial "guess" was not about this. Your clarification helps. We know it would be more impressive a validation if we were to hone in on this more acutely and directly, but we rely a great deal on communication from you for many details. To respond: all 3 are living; yes. There looks to be a high likelihood of Convergence, yes, and during this Convergence. They are not converged,

[MEntity]: yet. Those parallels appear to have been "born" around the early 1980's. The message "we're coming home" is likely from Essence, as this is the most direct link among the parallels. The repetition of the message would then be a matter of your consciousness naturally amplifying a pattern around you, much like having bought a new blue car suddenly reveals to you how many others have the same new blue car.

[Bobby]: Is there a funny sounding name of a candy that "we" all have in common that you can can speak of? I can think of one that came to me quite clearly when I heard "oh and they like (name withheld for now) too" and it gave me a good laugh when it ran through my consciousness the rest of that day since I would not have thought of it for any other reason :)

[Bobby]: I realize that is a sort of "what color is my underwear" question but this was really funny

[MEntity]: We do not know if this is relevant, but we see Twizzlers. Otherwise, we do not know what this refers to.

[Bobby]: ok, not the one but I appreciate how difficult that may be :)

[Bobby]: I was going for Runts LOL

[GeraldineB] lol

[MEntity]: These acute levels of awareness are often not accessible to us.

[Bobby]: So this hearing of Essence then this way.... will that be how it often occurs for me? It was very humorous

[MEntity]: Once a precedence of clarity is established, it can tend in that direction, but not always remain in that direction, or limited to that direction.

[GeraldineB] like my illusionary doorbell ringing in the middle of the night

[Bobby]: lol

[Bobby]: When I asked why the candy name came to mind I got because it was an anchor. Does that make sense?

[MEntity]: These striking moments are not always of Essence, but of depths of the local consciousness, as well, especially when efforts to raise consciousness are in effect. The local depths of consciousness can be as meaningful a guide as any non-physical guide or Essence. This is because the trust in self is vital to the expansion of trust to other sources.

[MEntity]: Yes, the concept of this anchor is valid.

[MEntity]: The conscious Personality will look for key ways to link to other variations of itself, especially if that conscious Personality is actively looking at/for variations of itself, even if across parallels, concurrents, or lifetimes.

[MEntity]: When we teach our students how to access other parallels so as to gain wisdom, support, effects, etc. from one to the other, we have suggested looking for these anchors.

[Bobby]: It seems I have heard you then

[MEntity]: The variation on the lifetimes can be quite different, so finding those anchors can be like creating tin cans and lines among them for even faint exchanges of insight, awareness, energy, etc.

P.S. - That Moby song makes me want to have it blasting while doing Tai Chi on the beach :)

Compassionate Act & Dreams of Convergence

2014-08-25T18:00:00.000Z

The "compassionate act" was an event that happened last evening which is related to the dreams I had this morning.

From a Private Live Chat on August 25, 2014:

[Maureen] I met a young woman on the street last night. Her name is Nicole. She was sitting on the sidewalk, begging and weeping. It was heart wrenching. I stopped and talked with her and ended up giving her bus fare to get home (out of Province) so she could quit begging. She asked if she could hug me. I was happy to, so we hugged. We talked some more. She said that her two year old son had died last week in Sick Kids hospital and she was five months pregnant. She had thought of taking her own life. Her mother was worried about her. She just wanted to go home now. She said she had been spat on earlier in the evening and kicked as well. She wondered why some people are so cruel. We talked about that, how some people can be, and how no matter what that she is important. I told her that the world was a better place with her in it. We hugged again. She hugged Lorie. She went to get the bus home.

[Maureen] When I looked at Nicole I “saw” Chantelle (Sage-cast Artisan, 6th Level Old) who is an Entity Mate. Is Nicole an Entity Mate?

[Maureen] Also Michael, if you have any comments about the exchange that took place that would be appreciated as well.

[MEntity] The fragment in question does not appear to be an entity mate, but this is moot to your compassion for this individual. The experience was one in which your Positive Poles were aligned and functioning in the moment. This has meaning and tangible impact.

[MEntity] The association with the Artisan appears to have been a matter of Soul Age resonance. The struggles of the Level.

[MEntity] 6th Level can be debilitating and devastating, with being kicked while one is down, so to speak, and this is not all that unfamiliar to you, as Essence, so you would likely stop to help any late Old Soul get back onto his or her own feet, if possible.

[MEntity] Sometimes, often times, if the chance is given, the intimacy and vulnerability of a moment is generated from choices, not always from predetermined mathematical resonance.

[Maureen] I see. Lorie "enjoyed" participating in it as well. He shed tears over it.

[MEntity] Everyone grows from even a moment of compassion.

[Maureen] That brought tears to my eyes .. about even a moment counting.

[MEntity] The truth of that moment, and all that it implies (which may be different for different fragments) can be profound.

[MEntity] It is a good opportunity to apply that awareness on a grander scale, as well. If a "moment" in one's lifetime can make such a difference, and matter, then a lifetime is no different, even among all of the lifetimes.

[Maureen] I can feel my "insides" softening up.

[MEntity] A lifetime is merely a collection of moments.

[MEntity] And moments matter.

[MEntity] We are not intending to be poetic, but describing life tends to lend one that tone.

[Maureen] You sound like Seth to me (that’s a compliment) when you speak this way. :)

[MEntity] When teachings are true, there would tend to be something that sounds familiar.

[Maureen] Please comment on a dream I had last night. I think it speaks to the Convergence that is happening.

[Maureen] Dream August 25, 2014: Dreams were very full last night but I can’t remember much. The last one, I was walking through what was either an art gallery or a store of some kind. It seemed to have all these corridors or (as I can “see” it now) a bit like a labyrinth. I saw what looked like the back of a honey coloured small wood frame so I picked it up and looked at it more closely. My thoughts were “this is great it can go with the other frames of so-and-so’s father’s paintings” but as I looked closely it was actually a wood carving with an arched top and the whole thing opened up with hinges. The first movement opened it into two sides, then into four sides, and then you could pull that open and it looked like a rudimentary church. I didn’t like the closed off energy of it, so I placed it back on the shelf and Ingun walked by and said the same thing. She said, yes, I don’t like the closed off energy either. I said, I don’t like the way we are all cut off at this point, with where we are staying right now. We are too cut off from people’s energy. Ingun said I guess you could always just go within and ask for an energy connection through the Crown Chakra, as a suggestion, but we both agreed that we didn’t like this cut off feeling we had with “this place” we are staying at. I could see that there was a whole, like a globe, and one side had most of the energy and the other side had none. Actually it was like the Yin/Yang symbol – only I saw it as energy or actual lights from people. Ingun and I were both on the side with no lights and we didn’t like it. We could feel the imbalance and were uncomfortable with it.

[Maureen] Also, in an earlier dream I was at a very large conference. Elaine (from TLE) was there as well as Bill Clinton and Oprah. We were all milling about but also forming into groups that we could get up from, and mill about some more, sit in another group, and mill about some more, etc. I wanted to ask Bill Clinton a really good question, but by the time he sat down to talk to me I had forgotten it because I was so “star-struck”. He got up (he seemed very distracted) and walked to another better formed group with connections (for him). There was a great level of unrest.

[MEntity] You are asking for our comments on the dream in light of the Convergence?

[Maureen] Yes, or if it is about something else, please comment as well.

[MEntity] The first dream would likely be related to the world of "you" merging into "this" world over the next several years. This "other world" is quite closed, quite contained, and has worked hard to break out of that state. The reaching up and out of the Crown is one of the means through which Convergence of parallels happens.

[MEntity] The "other world" has lived under religious, political, and military oppression for the past 200 years. This is true of most countries, not of only the United States, but the establishment of the United States is the start of the cascading relief from this oppression across the world. This began to happen in the 80s, and the culmination of the efforts has come to be in sync with "this" parallel.

[MEntity] We think the symbol of the church may speak to this sense of unrest. There was a phase where uprisings were being quelled by religious escapism, but this was not enough for most who are conscious. Aiming for an afterlife promising relife was absurd.

[MEntity] *relief

[MEntity] Troy presumed that was a typo. It is not.

[Maureen] I can see now why Bill Clinton (political, social/community) and Oprah (spiritual, social/community) and Elaine (out-spoken practicing Atheist) were in the dream. We will ALL be working to "right" the imbalance.

[MEntity] You are seeing the patterns now.

[Maureen] You could knock me over with a feather now with ALL the patterns I can see, at this point. It's astounding.

[MEntity] Welcome to our world.

[Maureen] LOL

[MEntity] The beauty is profound.

[MEntity] Choices and actions made from the place you created that moment described earlier are the moments that will change the world.

[Maureen] That's what I thought at the time. Not how "good" I was because of what I did, but why can't we have a world where there is no hunger, no homelessness and NO ONE needs to beg because they have all they need. That's where my mind went.

[Maureen] And I'm a Realist.

[MEntity] There is a higher likelihood than ever that the move toward a Resource-based world is on vector. The Sequences will likely have begun in September when we can look at these again to see if they are leading to Vectors.

[Maureen] Thanks so much Michael. This has meant so much to me, to be able to talk about this with you, today.

[MEntity] We're here with you.

Alignment with Essence

2014-08-25T14:00:00.000Z

In a recent session with Michael (22/08/14) I was interested to find out about my Essence and I learned something about the themes my Essence has pursued in this GC. I also learned something about my efforts to achieve +Alignment with Essence.

ME: In this Grand Cycle, then, your Essence could be said to have many themes, and different themes for different contexts (such as themes for how it exits a life; themes for relationships; themes in karma; themes relative to each goal, etc.) but we could describe the core theme of the themes as a whole as being REVELATION. One consistency among a high percentage of lives, and what brings a kind of bliss to Essence, is discovering something utterly new and/or surprising that changes the life on some level.
Mike: I really get that, Michael.
ME: Essence "loves" the turning points in each life when the Personality "wakes up" and begins to use its power of choice and creativity.
Mike: I can feel that. Are there any egs of lives where my Essence has watched a fragment successfully become 'Revealed' ?
ME: Some Essences are much more "hands off" than other Essences, and while yours will never impose its enthusiasm and ideals, it is elated when you, as Personality, work directly with it so that there is little difference between Essence and Personality.
Yes. This lifetime.
Mike: Wooohooo!
ME: You are quite well aware of this, even if putting into words is not always immediate.

Learning to channel and "blind spots"

2014-08-22T06:22:03.000Z

Yesterday, I asked Michael how my channeling practice was progressing. I asked several questions in the beginning of my session, one of them also being about my difficulties with relationships in general. What I didn't expect is that both issues, channeling and love life, are actually intertwined. I thought this session nicely explained how channels have to work through their own issues in order to be able to channel clearly. So, enjoy!

<MEntity> In response to the first question:

<MEntity> Your channeling skills are increasing in strength, and as these increase, so does your sensitivity. Part of this is because when you act as a channel for any teacher, or even for your own Higher Self or guides, you must be anchored in some kind of empathy for the information to flow as clearly and as easily as possible. In other words, if a channel wishes to access information that is scientific, it is helpful for that channel to educate himself in the sciences. The same is true of life experiences. If you wish to make yourself available to others who will be asking you about relationship struggles, you, yourself, must come to terms with your own struggles.

<MEntity> As we work with our channels, and as any source works with their channels, the Agreements start to unfold around the channel navigating difficult scenarios so that when he or she is available as a channel for others, there is a circuit already in place around that issue.

<Nadine> That does make sense to me.

<MEntity> If the channel and the source do not create that circuit, then the channeling becomes a part of the provocation for the channel's own healing and insight, rather than for that of the recipient beyond her.

<MEntity> In other words, if you do not navigate your struggles in a relationship and come to terms with those struggles, then if someone were to ask your source about relationships, the information that would come through would be forced to be aligned with the wounding of the channel and what is neccessary for her healing.

<Nadine> I see. So navigating those struggles is part of letting go of any bias that could influence my channeling?

<MEntity> That is not to say the channeling would not be helpful for the recipient, too, but it simply means there may be more layers through which the recipient must sort before finding her own usefulness of the material.

<MEntity> Yes. This is not orchestrated as such, but when one seriously pursues channeling, any blind spots in the life will come to the surface naturally.

<MEntity> In your case, your blind spot is co-dependency.

<Nadine> Oh, okay. What does that mean?

<MEntity> Your sense of personal worth and value are tied to the acknowledgement of another for sustaining that value and meaning.

<MEntity> Not entirely dependent upon the approval or acceptance of another, but tied tightly to that dynamic.

<Nadine> Yes, that's true.

<MEntity> To help you shift this from being a blind spot to being an empowering motivation would mean realizing that your love life is not a distraction. Your love life is not something that starts and stops with the inclusion of another. Your love life is always in effect.

<MEntity> Your love life is YOU. To bring another into that is to share it, not to save it. Not to start it. Not to save you. It is an invitation.

<MEntity> The blind spot is that you seek to find a way to love parts of you that you have found unlovable, unwanted, unliked, and if you could just get someone close to you to rescue you from those parts, or to put those parts to rest by loving you unconditionally, then you would feel whole.

<Nadine> And I should probably be able to provide that for myself instead of expecting it of somebody else...

<MEntity> But the key here is in owning that wholeness as ALREADY in place, even with its ugliness, its laziness, its escapism, its eagerness, its hunger and desires. Those things are a part of who you are. You are not one thing or the other. You are all of these things. You ARE lazy. You are escapist. You ARE desperate and lonely at times, and distracted. You ARE worried. Etc. Those parts of you do not disappear into the blur of another person. They will rise back to the surface as soon as you are intimate enough to reveal them.

<MEntity> Along with these things, you ARE intelligent, giving, loyal, enthusiastic, generous, sensual, worth every effort to love, and beautiful.

<MEntity> You will never be just one set of these descriptions over another. You are faceted, and the blind spot is the presumption that merging intimately with another person will help soften some of those edges on the facets, or even remove many of them altogether.

<MEntity> The only thing that allows a fragment to become more spherical over faceted is in the personal embrace of all facets.

<MEntity> So this is where you are in your channeling pursuits. You are working through these levels of self-acceptance so that you can not only embrace the flow of information that would come through you, but so that you can embrace another person as standing beside you, not FOR you.

<Nadine> So I'm doing some work that's actually good both for my channeling AND for my love life. That's nice.

<MEntity> Yes, you are working out Agreements with us for channeling. "You" have done so with us in previous lives, and can do so again.

<MEntity> Yes, Nadine. As an example of that wholeness that is you, everything you do in your love life or in your pursuit of channeling would be connected.

My 4th IM

2014-08-21T19:00:00.000Z

In February Michael had this to say about my progress through my 4th IM.

'<Michael> Can I ask, where am I in terms of completing my IM’s, please?

<MEntity> You appear to be in the 4th Stage of your 4th Internal Monad. This Stage is described as MANIFESTATION. This is marked by a Negative Pole of Otiose, and a Positive Pole of Purpose.

<MEntity> Otiose is the sense of having no direction, no footing, no value or meaning, while Purpose is the sense of choice in direction, using creativity, confidence, and imagination as a means for guidance.

<MEntity> The natural progression through this Stage would be to move through the Negative Pole, first, and then, eventually, move into the Positive Pole. So there will be a phase where one's purpose and diretion are heavily questioned and scrutinized.

<MEntity> This would continue until there is a regaining of control over one's sense of choice, and the use of creativity for generating paths of choice.'

In a session with Troy today I asked for an update. I also metioned the unaccounted grief I felt on the three days before 25th July. Michael said:

MEntity

'(you) appear to have marked your move through Incongruity and into Alignment. That grief may have been a full-blown look at what remaining in Incongruity would feel like if you did not make the choice to move forward into Alignment. Moving forward into Alignment, the Positive Pole of the 7th Stage, means making the conscious choice to rise above

any final external factors that you feel defined/define you, and continue on toward living as only you define yourself.

MEntity

If you feel this grief again, it would be a way for you to clearly identify when you have allowed your sense of self to be usurped by factors that do not actually define you.

MEntity

You are in the "home stretch" of the final days of your Internal Monad. We think you will exit it in the Positive Pole within this month or next month. That shift would likely be gradual, but a sense of confidence and enthusiasm for being out in the world would tend to grow.

MEntity

This has been a year of fairly accelerated growth. This is a year of Growth, Passion, and Realism, so many of our students are making headway, even if sometmes painfully.'

It has been a year of Growth for many of us, hasn't it?

Glory the Parrot

2014-08-21T00:00:00.000Z

Comments have been turned off. This entry resides on the new TLE:

Glory the Parrot

Janet:
You told Bobby Arant that many Artisans and Scholars had spent years in devic form in the bird kingdom. I suspect I’m one of them. Currently we have a Quaker parrot -- “Glory” -- who is now 16 years old. Glory is very fond of me and my daughter Casey, a Scholar. Glory is sometimes curious about strangers, but he strongly prefers his familiar people.

On Sunday you said that birds can incarnate in cycles like dogs and cats. So, first I would like to know if Glory is participating in a cycle, similar to what you’ve given others on TLE for their cats. I’ve had a number of birds in my life so it wouldn’t surprise me if Glory has been with me before.

Second, an unusual thing occurred recently when Casey visited with boyfriend Greg -- also a Scholar. From the first moment he set eyes on Greg, Glory wanted Greg and no other. Throughout the visit, Glory would lean toward wherever Greg was. This has never happened with any other stranger, and Greg did not know how to react. What was going on? Did Glory recognize Greg as one of those fragments that he has been with before?

Finally, I’m curious about why Glory doesn’t get along with my daughter Emma -- an Artisan. I have assumed this is because Emma is lower in the ‘pecking order’ in Glory’s eyes. However, Emma shows affinity for cats, so is it possible that she’s a ‘cat person’ rather than a ‘bird person’ and Glory senses this?

MEntity:
To respond to the first question yes, "Glory" is in an incarnational cycle. It is true that Scholars and Artisans not only spent a great deal of time in devic form among Ave, but are responsible for most of the more colorful variations that evolved. Sages are responsible for the vocals.

Exploration of Kingdoms before committing to a species spans several planets before committing to a cycle. Earth was explored long before commitment to the planet in Sirius, so there was some familiarity with the planet and its Kingdoms when transferred.

Fondness for a specific species can come from reasons developed in the current Personality, and from Instinctive resonance that is ancient in Essence.

"Glory" is a mix of Servers, Artisans, and Warriors.

This is their 6th incarnation with you in this form.

Janet: Really? All in this life? That’s probably all of the birds I have had.

MEntity: No, 4 in the current life, if we are looking at this accurately.

Janet: I see.

MEntity:
In response to the next question if we are looking at this accurately, this is common for animal companions who are incarnating in a set of lives with one fragment, but has grown familiar with other fragments from other sets of lifetimes and cycles, even if as other species. The consciousness that is the bird "remembers" other fragments of resonance because it is networked as part of the hive soul that is its own species and that of those species it has been.

An aside: this is why some species who would normally not get along, or are that would seem to be completely foreign to one another, find affections cross-species.

Janet: Has “Glory” been part of another species that Greg might recognize from this lifetime?

MEntity: In response to the third question "Glory" is responding to an odor that is associated with Emma. We do not know if this is artificial or pheromonic, but it looks to be a matter of scent that bothers the bird.

Janet:
Well that’s useful! Thank you.

(I wasn’t even sure that birds could smell, so another question answered.)

MEntity: In response to the final question the species that is remembered by "Glory" that is associated with Greg would likely have been as Rabbit.

Janet: Oh that’s fun. Thanks so much.

MEntity: This may not have been in the current lifetime. We do not think it was in the current lifetime.

Janet: It’s just interesting based on my fascination with the wild rabbits in my yard. Thanks.

Proof of the nexus convergence?

2014-08-20T20:00:00.000Z

old soul art?

you be the judge.

http://youtu.be/LDZX4ooRsWs

Michael On Probabilities

2014-08-19T20:03:04.000Z

Private Session
August 7, 2014

[Bobby]: In my last session, in May, I had you do a topic based discussion on the Properties and Function of Memory. In that discussion, you brought up several other areas that looked like they could potentially be explored in the same manner, namely, Imagination and Probabilities. I love the idea of exploring each of these this way but would probably, due to time restrictions today, have to limit

[Bobby]: it to just one. Based on what we, as a collective, would most benefit from at this time, which of these (Properties and Function of Imagination or Properties and Function of Probabilities) do you think should be covered today just as you did Properties and Function of Memory?

[Bobby]: If one is not anymore advantageous over the other, then I would be fine with Properties and Function of Imagination at this time.

[MEntity]: We have covered Imagination in some detail that is likely on record among your peers, so we can look at Probabilities today, if you wish.

[Bobby]: ok, sounds good

[Bobby]: (I think I secretly wanted that one anyway based on my fascination with probabilities) ;-)

[MEntity]: Keep in mind that memory and probabilities are two very different qualities. One is an active tool that is immediately accessible, while the other is a state that must be assessed. They cannot be delineated in the same way.

[MEntity]: Probabilities are a passive by-product. We will explain this further as we elaborate, but we start by clarifying this difference.

[MEntity]: We will start by clarifying the quality of "probability" and then see if this can be offered up in a way that is useful to a student as a tool of understanding.

[MEntity]: On the very basic level of what a probability is, we must look at the anticipated state versus all possible outcomes.

[MEntity]: That is the basic math of probabilities.

[MEntity]: In a finite system, this can be mapped, but in a system that is near-infinite in terms of outcomes, this makes calculating the probabilities a very different kind of math.

[MEntity]: We say "near-infinite" because the outcomes are still limited in scope compared to infinity. The outcomes are still finite. However, all outcomes cannot be gathered as a solid number because not all outcomes have even come into formation in many cases.

[MEntity]: In addition to this, the anticipated states versus number of possible outcomes is not a closed system for us. We may have access to the student's or students' range, but there will always be the potential for input from outside of that to change outcomes.

[MEntity]: For example, we can look at a student's Agreements and offer the most probable window for fulfillment, but we are not looking at probabilities for a car accident, weather disaster, ailment, sudden travel plans, death in the family, of both or either involved in the Agreements.

[MEntity]: What we must rely on, regardless of how near-infinite the possibilities and input, is a closed range based on as much as we can process or access at the time.

[MEntity]: We must assess these factors at the moment the questions are asked, and those factors can change when asked at another time.

[MEntity]: We will refer to this mathematical method as "intuitive/irrational math" as opposed to "logical/rational math."

[MEntity]: Though the range may be different for those extant, it is the same process of consideration when looking at life probabilities.

[MEntity]: In other words, we may be able to see more, but a student can still use the same process, and they do.

[MEntity]: To bring this down into terms that might be useful for a student, we will propose this breakdown in how probabilities arise, are sustained, and then solidified:

[MEntity]: IMAGINATION - this is the first range of probabilities generated by a fragment. If it can be imagined, it is a possibility. This does not mean it is entirely probably, but it is possible. Everything is possible. Not everything is probable.

[MEntity]: INTUITION - this is the first paring down of possibilities into probabilities. This is the range that is gathered through wants, needs, gut feelings, and all accessible information, in general, mulled into something that resembles a workable range of possibility and probability.

[MEntity]: This is the area where you "follow your heart," "listen to that inner voice," "follow your gut," etc. or simply where you make sense to some degree of what is possible and likely.

[MEntity]: (we will return to each of these to factor in fears)

[MEntity]: CREATION/CREATIVITY - this is when one begins to actively align with a range of possibility and probability. Steps are taken to create that which has been decided is both possible and probable of the outcomes anticipated versus the desired outcome.

[MEntity]: CALIBRATION/RE-CALIBRATION - this is when one finds that either Imagination, Intuition, or Creation are off track from the intended function that each of those may have.

[MEntity]: We will now cycle back through these functions to include how fear is factored in, and how this shows up, and how it is dealt with, if at all.

[MEntity]: Imagination, in this case, is a function of the Intellect/Expression. In this assessment of possibilities, all that is feared is often included. Worst-case scenarios fleshed out on some level are included here. This is because when there is an assessment of possibilities, the range of the unknown will always have to anticipate dangers.

[MEntity]: Intuition, in this case, is a function of the Emotions/Inspiration. Whatever was feared in the Imagination now comes in as Dread. These are very real probabilities of scenarios unwanted or not desired, or even feasibly dangerous and threatening.

[MEntity]: Creation, in this case, is a function of the Action/Moving, and this is when one's actions begin to align with what was dreaded or desired. Whatever was dreaded now comes in as Defense, or defensiveness. This is the functioning level of sorting through possibilities and probabilities and creating self-fulfilling prophecies of doom, or self-fulfilling alignments with desires.

[MEntity]: Calibration/Re-calibration, in this case, is a function of Assimillation, and can show up as the "I told you so" or "I knew it" element when fear is involved, further aligning with fear, dread, and
defense, or where one allows the fear, dread, or defense to be informative and indicative of how to imagine, intuit, or create differently.

[MEntity]: What we have described is not functions of probabilities, of course, but functions of the individual in relation to probabilities. Probabilities remain a by-product of each of these functions, so understanding these functions can be helpful in navigating choice. And choice is key in each
of these functions, of course.

[MEntity]: Keep in mind that what we are sharing is in as meaningful and as useful terms as possible, all with the caveat that one cannot possibly account for all factors that may arise along the way. But each of these functions can help one to navigate those surprises.

[Bobby]: By way of the choices we eventually make…

[MEntity]: The closest we can come to describing properties of probabilities might be in terms of CHOICES, SEQUENCES, VECTORS, and FULFILLMENT.

[MEntity]: Choices lead to Sequences lead to Vectors lead to Fulfillments.

[MEntity]: Choices is the level where the widest range of possibility and probability exist at the time. This is in effect at every point in a life on some level, but, eventually, choices lead to Sequences.

[MEntity]: Sequences is a narrowing of probabilities and possibilities into key stages that propel toward a Vector.

[Bobby]: or con-sequences LOL

[MEntity]: Choice can alter a Sequence or a Vector at any moment.

[MEntity]: Choice can alter a Sequence into a different Vector, as well.

[MEntity]: A Vector is the highest probability and path of alignment with Fulfillment.

[MEntity]: Fulfillment is a point of no return.

[Bobby]: So in my first question, you were seeing a vector then?

[MEntity]: Imagine this:

[MEntity]: If one is aiming for Fulfillment of arriving in NYC from Seattle, there is a great range of Choice along the way before that first step toward NYC. Once that first step is taken, then the Sequence begins. In this case, it might be that the Sequence is the method of travel. It will
require foot, ground vehicle, flight, subway, etc. to arrive in NYC. At some point in that Sequence, it will shift to a Vector. Most likely, the flight leg of the journey, as it is entirely intended to land in NYC.
Once arrived in NYC, it is Fulfilled.

[MEntity]: However, at any point along the way, Choice could alter the methods of travel, which would alter the Sequence, and alter the point of Vector, and even while in the Vector point, the plane might crash for any number of reasons.

[MEntity]: Or be diverted, etc.

[MEntity]: If the flight/Vector was diverted to New Jersey, then Calibration would help in getting back on track, if you chose to do so.

[MEntity]: In your case, Bobby, we would put our assessment in the Sequence stages.

[Bobby]: ok

[MEntity]: Do you have questions about what we have shared? We think this is a fair enough mapping of the functions and properties of Probabilities, without our going into the vast mathematics involved in our own assessments.

[Bobby]: As always, this info is dense for me so I'll mull it over and come back later with questions :)

[MEntity]: As it was delivered "spontaneously," it may require some further formatting and organization on the recorded end of the delivery.

Preponderance Of Lifetimes As A Male

2014-08-19T19:37:25.000Z

Private Session
August 7, 2014

[Bobby]: Lastly, here is a matter of curiosity that I've been meaning to ask
about. Either through my own questions to you, lifetimes of mine that
you've mentioned with others in their questions to you, my own hypnosis
session, or my own meditative regression discoveries... all of my known
past lives have been male. Is this coincidental or is there some other
pattern there that I am yet to become familiar with?

[Bobby]: interestingly, about a week ago, I had a dream in which I was female in
the dream. As far as I can recall, that was a first for me.

[MEntity]: About 70% of your lives (will) have been male. The ratio of Male to Female Energy often reflects the ratio of incarnations in one gender or the other over time.

[MEntity]: This is not a rule, but tends to be more sustained the more solid the Role.

[MEntity]: In other words, a high female energy Warrior would likely have had a high percentage of female lives.

[MEntity]: But a high female energy Priest or Artisan might be more likely to have a balance or even higher degree of the opposite gender.

[MEntity]: This would account for many of your lifetimes being described as male.

[MEntity]: In most cases of incarnational patterns, there is a tendency for genders and sexualities that reflect the lower part of the energy ratio as a means to bring balance in the later soul ages.

[MEntity]: We will conclude here for today, Bobby. Good day to you.

[MEntity]: Goodbye, for now.

[Bobby]: thank you for your time, as always :)

Self Love, Future Incarnations, Resonance with Grandma

2014-08-19T16:00:00.000Z

Here is my session from today. I got some great advice on how to change habits out of self love. In addition, the resonance with my grandma was confirmed. Finally found out my cadre and entity, too! I can definitely believe the Renaissance era French past life; French comes so easily to me.

[MEntity] Hello to you, Rachel. We are here, now. We can begin.

[Rachel_L] Hello, Michael.

[Rachel_L] How can I make more choices for myself out of self love? I have struggled to motivate myself to exercise, clean my house, go to sleep earlier and curtail my addiction to sugar and the internet. I know I need to change this because my health is being impacted and I am going to go back to a full time work schedule. I can't help but feel restricted when I try to change these things. In the past, I was highly perfectionistic and stuck to different regimens, but I do not think this came from self love.

[MEntity] There are two ways we will respond to this:

[MEntity] One is that choices that are self-loving are not always pleasant. They can often take work. When one shifts directions away from being asleep to being wakeful, and away from convenience to compassion, from nurturing wounds to nurturing healing, it takes work. It takes effort. This work is not always obviously beneficial as one implements this effort.

[MEntity] If you were pulling a loved one up from the side of a cliff so that he would not fall, simply the notion of your love would not be enough to pull that individual up into safe footing. You must strain, pull, and endure the effort neccessary to pull that person up. This is the same when one shifts directions in a life away from sleep to being awake, etc.

[MEntity] You would do well to keep your eye on the love that IS the strength behind your choices, not on the strain that it takes in the effort.

[Rachel_L] I see.

[MEntity] Secondly, there is an irony in the concept of expanding one's freedom.

[MEntity] Freedom cannot be fully experienced without structure. It would seem that any kind of structure would imply some kind of restriction, and that is true to some extent, but without some restrictions, freedom is lost.

[MEntity] Imagine the difference between free-falling, with no structure or restrictions, versus a controlled flight using some structure and direction.

[MEntity] The sense of freedom is expanded when one can fly versus when one is falling.

[MEntity] This is true in both the literal and figurative sense, the physical and psychological sense.

[Rachel_L] Ah, I can understand.

[MEntity] So what you are doing is far more loving and nurturing of your freedom than you may have realized.

[MEntity] The main missing element is your appreciation of your efforts.

[MEntity] Give yourself credit. Give yourself the same comfort you would wish to give to the person dangling at the other end of your hand at the side of a cliff. Keep yourself focused on the point, not on the strain.

[Rachel_L] Yes, I definitely need to acknowledge my efforts

[MEntity] This may seem simple, but it is quite empowering and can lift a great deal of your concerns.

[Rachel_L] Yes, that is great advice, what I needed to hear.

[MEntity] Next time you hear this, it can come from you, and mean far more than even our reminder.

[Rachel_L] Yes, I will try. Thank you.

[MEntity] Next question?

[Rachel_L] Have I had previous lifetimes as 7th level old? If so, how many and what was the farthest I got in the Internal Monads in this soul age level?

[Rachel_L] Is my Essence planning future lifetimes, or is it exploring the possibility of cycling off?

[MEntity] Surprisingly, once and Essence is at 7th Level Old, "plans" go by the wayside when it comes to what is next for incarnation. By this time, Essence knows that "anything" can happen during the lifetime, and knows that a Personality might find new joys and challenges to explore, and this would never be cut short by a plan for that lifetime to simply be the last life. In other words, every lifetime has the potential to be the last, but can often be far from the last lifetime. The choice for a lifetime to be the last is often held for after the completion of a life so that no Personality feels this pressure.

[Rachel_L] Oh ok

[MEntity] This is not a rule, but is true, in general.

[MEntity] From what we know, a final lifetime is usually fairly calm, neutral, and unaffected. When the lifetime struggles with self-love, acceptance, or any sense of disgust with the world, it tends to imply that there is an arc of exploration in progress, and that other lives will be a part of that.

[Rachel_L] That makes sense.

[MEntity] Next question?

[Rachel_L] I feel a very strong resonance with my grandmother, XXX. Can you explain this resonance? Where is she in my support circle and where am I in hers? Can you describe one of our lifetimes together that would bring a sense of recognition? What is her role, casting, soul age and level, and cadre and entity?

[MEntity] The fragment known now as "XXX" appears to be a 6th Level Old Artisan-Cast Sage who is one of your own Cadence Members, meaning you are from the same Cadre and Entity and from the same (smallest) group of 7 Sages in that Entity. So there is the mathematical elements of your bond that transcend all lifetimes. This fragment appears to be in your 3rd String Love and Discipline Positions while you are in her 3rd String Compassion and Humor Positons. A lifetime of recognition might have been from France in the late 1500's CE when "you" raised this fragment as your own daughter after her family died from an illness. You raised her in your business as a seamstress and textile maker to create some quite beautiful capes and clothing that would be considered Art even today.

[Rachel_L] What is the cadre and entity?

[Rachel_L] Very interesting.

[MEntity] Cadre 1, Entity 4.

[Rachel_L] Oh ok.

[MEntity] We must conclude here for now. Good day to you, Rachel.

[MEntity] Goodbye, for now.

[Rachel_L] Ok, goodbye. Thanks, Michael.

My grandmother and me: C1E4 Sage Cadence Mates

My Passion

2014-08-19T06:10:43.000Z

From POF 8/18/2014:

[DianeHB] Last month I had been feeling frustrated and ineffective with what I'm doing with my life. I thought I found the right thing for me when I decided to go into accounting, but that's not quite "it" either. I'm good at accounting and I enjoy helping people with it, but I still couldn't shake the feelings of ineffectiveness and dissatisfaction. I thought this was imprinting of having to be successful to be worthy, or the challenge of being in Flow and feeling like I have to justify my existence. But then I happened upon a magazine article that inspired me. It was about a woman who stumbled upon a way to sell children's clothing on Facebook, and her efficient business model combined with social networking allowed her to create a company that brought jobs to an economically depressed town. The factors that inspired me most were: innovating a system or way of doing things that effects beneficial change on a large scale. This idea makes me feel effective like nothing else has, and it would bring in the creative element that I've been missing. It seems like being a programmer or engineer would better facilitate this vision than being an accountant, but it's what I've got and it's useful. I would not mind mastering the accounting first and gaining more IT skills as I go.

I would like 1) your comments on the above, 2) whether I have any agreements along these lines, and if there's time 3) whether I have any parallels that are doing something along these lines.

[MEntity] Comments on the above: It is Good Work that you are open to new ideas, new levels of ideas, and willing with build upon choices that you have already made, rather than imposing a daunting and overwhelming weight of disappointment or failure with not having chosen a "right direction." This approach will serve you beyond even your current imagination and inspiration. We suggest that you continue expanding in that direction. It is not always efficient or available to us to convey a succinct phrase that would inspire you such as your recent inspiration, but we trust that if a fragment is willing to continue to choose and learn, then the clarity would come.

[DianeHB] I think I've been drawn that way for a long time, and the idea had felt too daunting to even be entertained.

[MEntity] You grew up.

[DianeHB] :)

[MEntity] Agreements are already brewing, but not solidified, as far as we can see, as this is fairly new in your consciousness as a viable direction. As you formulate your sense of direction and next steps, along with your general idea of an acceptable result, the Agreements begin to be solidified and activated. We would suggest checking in again about Agreements in 6 weeks to 2 months.

[MEntity] As you have not fully fleshed out the ideal, our response is based on the general ideal described at this time, and in various parallels, yes, this is a general theme. For instance, in one, there is a "you" who works with matching up families to homes that are affordable and secure; in another "you" are working with an animal shelter who runs a program for the elderly and ill to have contact with these healing creatures; in another, "you" are helping lower-income families to move out of chaotic finances and into a state of security by helping them to understand the nature of money in a new way, not as something out of reach that must be obtained through strife or luck, but as an energy that is a kind of life force that is rightfully belonging to them, and so on.

[MEntity] This is the negotiating mediator angle that comes more easily to you than you may have assumed, and when you find the context for expanding on that strength, you may find the fulfillment you seek that is felt to beneficial to others.

[DianeHB] Hmm, I just did a project for my not-for-profit accounting class where I came up with a fictitious nonprofit similar to that last parallel.

[MEntity] It is likely not a coincidence.

[DianeHB] :)

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My Comment: I've said before in various career-related discussions that I don't seem to have any strong passions in this life. I take it all back. I've had hints and glimpses of what might be "my passion", but because the chasm from here to there seemed so wide, and I've been so used to discouragement, I've tended to push it out of my consciousness. I'm fascinated by tech start-ups that revamp old ways of doing things, and my reaction in the past had been to feel envious and then shove it out of my mind so I wouldn't feel it. Only recently have I learned to see possible paths to distant ideals.

I should have known better than to ask about agreements so quickly though. Michael gave me a similar response when I asked about my accounting agreements early on. My current idea is a bit more ambitious than these parallels -- maybe too ambitious, I don't know. I'm not sure I'm really cut out for entrepreneurship. I have always been drawn to the idea, but I've also always had a hard time talking to people, and that's a big obstacle. If I want to go that direction, I have to work on my speaking skills.

The school project I mentioned actually wasn't so coincidental because I based it on the "financial makeover" idea mentioned in a previous blog post, except for the project I modified the idea into an organization that teaches personal finance to young people. The parallel mentioned in the channeling is actually closer to my financial makeover concept. There is another "coincidence" here -- one of the sample projects my teacher gave us, done by a past student, was a senior pet care assistance organization to help seniors care for their pets. I don't know what that's about, if it's about anything.

As I Am

2014-08-19T02:46:25.000Z

This is a strange time, a foreseen obstacle has come fully to light and this dreaded "thing" is more impact-full than I could have presumed was possible. The situation still has potential to go in my "favor." Though, what is expected of me is hard to handle... more difficult than I would have wished. There is also a saying, "wish in one hand, shit in the other, then see which fills first" I don't want to end up with a handful of shit, if you know what I mean. I have Work to do, lots of Work. A day ago I would have told you I was ready for anything and willing to do the Work, and now I'm having trouble coping with "it" all.

So as to sound less cryptic and ambiguous I will let you in on what I know. Perhaps many of my fellow TLEers know, I play bass guitar in a band, a very good band too. Last Friday, the 15th, we performed a concert. The show was good, it was far from "perfect" but very very good. My Father (a fellow musician) attended, and he was proud of me. His exact words to me. "I knew you were a good musician, but god damn, I didn't know you were that good." His words mean a lot to me, I don't seek recognition or approval from Father, but I would be lying if I said his praise did not make me feel good. Returning to the matter at hand. A group of music producers were in attendance as well. They liked what they saw... but only part. One of those parts they disliked was the drummer, but we have been having issues with him for the past few months. The other part they disliked was me. I don't know why they didn't like my performance. The front man and lead singer is who they are really interested in, he's got a guaranteed recording contract. He's a young pretty face who can sing, and they will exploit him for all he has to give... they will suck him dry and I know it. The drummer has already gotten the boot, and only three days after the producers have become involved. And to my knowledge the only reason I am still a part of the band is the guitar player (my best friend) talked them in to giving me a "second chance."

One cannot help but speculate at this point. Has this been the plan all along? Was I just a means to an end? Was I USED? I don't know but I can't help but feel that way. And above all of that my biggest worry is; that I am being judged based upon superficial observations. Perhaps it is how I look, or maybe it is my attitude. I am an easy going person who doesn't get overly excited about things. I keep a level head at all times and I just "go with the Flow." I think I appear lazy to the Producers, but I can't say one thing for sure. I do know that these said "producers" have the impression that I was fighting for the "spot light." I don't know where they got that idea. The "spot light" is not what I want right now, the idea is far off the radar for me. I am a flamboyant player and I like to move a lot on stage. Maybe my passion for music is being misinterpreted. I feel hurt and injured. I feel as though my commitment is being second guessed. Green paper changes everything and that includes people, I fear the worst. Which I suppose the worst for me is being tossed to the side. I know I am expendable and have known it all along, NOW I am gazing down the throat of this Beast of Expandability, his teeth gleam with razor sharp edges and his breath wreaks of poisonous hungry saliva. All I want is a good stiff glass of whiskey right now, but I refuse to indulge... I know where that path will lead me. I am smoking cigarettes like a freight train, my nerves are killing me right now.

This song pertains to me, and it is what is holding me together at this point. Give it a listen and feel my pain and anger. You may not like this style of music and I don't care any how, listen to the lyrics they say it all for me.

Deepening Intimacy & Processing Collective Wounding

2014-08-18T22:00:00.000Z

I attended two POFs in order to get a long dream interpreted by Michael. There are some personal comments from Michael about how I can go about having deeper intimacy in my life and there are some really interesting comments about collective memory going back to our beginnings. Michael Cleverly played a starring role in that dream. :)

Michael said: <This> …appears to be a collective memory from an earliest phase in Human history and acclimation. While you learn how to accept more facets of yourself, and uncover a more holistic spectrum of yourself, you may also be pulling up collective wounding that you can address as Essence and Personality.

From POF – August 17, 2014

[Maureen] Michael, I have two dreams that I think are related that I would like your comments on. As usual, they are long (well one of them is) so please just provide what comments you can, in the time allotted. If I need more I can always follow it up in another session with you.

Dream on August 17, 2014: I wish I could remember more from the night. The only one that stuck was this small one at the very end. In real life, we are getting some minor repairs done in our apartment. In my dream with Lorie and I could see our apartment pretty well as it was and I could see where the minor repairs were being done. I could be in the apartment and I could float over and see it like floor plans, or like hovering over the set of a TV series, so I could check out the whole area. When we were in the apartment we walked to where it’s south of the bedroom and there was a living room. We noticed that the main wall, the wall on the most eastern side, was in a state of disrepair and we hadn’t noticed it before. I thought, jeez, we need to get them to do this wall as well.

At one point, perhaps earlier in my dreams, but somehow related to this dream segment (I think it bridged this dream as an “overview”), Lorie went off to the side (or the sidelines) so he could really look at me, to get some perspective. He was smiling and he had so much love in his eyes he was radiating. It was the kind of love that was wise, thoughtful, non-judgemental. I could feel it was true Acceptance because with his perspective (on the sidelines) he could see ALL of me and he (still) loved me.

Back to the wall. It was a deep orange and at first we saw just a minor repair and then the more we looked at it we could see that there were many large spots where the paint was peeling and there was a large line right in the middle, from top to bottom, where the paint (which had so many layers and so had thickened) had come away from the wall in these huge “chunks”. I realized that a lot of the paint, because it was so thick and not adhered anymore, was ready to just fall off or be pulled off. The rest could just be sanded down. But the whole wall needed to be done and I thought Mike, our old superintendent, would give me a hard time about doing the work then I remembered (with relief) that we had a new superintendent (Clem) and that he would do the work, easily, because he was more service/work oriented.

I noticed that this room was actually the small living room that was in our family house growing up. As I swooped up in the air, back and forth, I could see that in the reality of the dream the orange living room was extended south off of our current bedroom apartment but when I was just slightly above I could see that it didn’t belong in “our” current apartment (or in the dream apartment) it belonged in the past. I saw it visually as an overlay.

My comments: What I took away from this dream is that it’s related to my Sacral Chakra (orange) and the disrepair that goes back to my childhood (as it’s my childhood living room), that’s now at a point where it can be, and needs to be, repaired or healed. The room (Sacral Chakra) is ready to be repaired and I’m ready to be healed.

Dream on July 17, 2014: Lots of Astral type segments with a shallow lake and a sloping “lawn” running down to it where so many different people kept on arriving and doing (in retrospect) what looked like really nonsensical things in the water and on the slope.

Dreamed I was in what seemed to be (or looked a bit like) my old apartment on Glengarry. I think Lorie was there somewhere but Michael Cleverly was there. I was playing music on my iPod one at a time (which was time consuming) and I did it for 3 or 4 times each time trying to get a song that Michael liked because he was my guest. Finally I set the iPod back to the beginning and I said “come over here and scroll through and find something you like. I’m sure there’ll something you like, in all my music.” So he did that.

Then I walked across the Living Room (or Living Room Area as it shared space with the Dining Room) and Michael had set up what looked like an aquarium with water in it and he was in it in the fetal position, with his eyes closed facing his son. His son looked really tiny like he was either a premature baby or he was a “preborn” which made sense to me at the time. Michael was doing this to comfort the child to let the child know that he was not alone. Michael was submerged as much as he could be and still have his “head above water” so he could breathe and sleep easily. The child was on a clear stand of some kind because he was so little he would have been submerged in the water and not been able to breathe. Then I saw that there was another “tank” (these were clear so you could all the way around) to the right of the first one. In the one to the right the baby had fallen off his stand (or there wasn’t a stand) and the baby was mostly all submerged except one nostril. Michael was in the same position. My feeling about this, as I distanced myself from it, was that it was somehow about birth and death and the comforting of a little one that “didn’t make it”. Michael had so much love for this little one that he had engineered these tanks, specially for the two of them, so his son wouldn’t feel alone. This showed a lot of clear, undaunted love, and the length and “precision” he would go to in order to bring comfort to someone he loved.

Then I went into the Dining Area where “we” were preparing a large Thanksgiving dinner. My mother was doing most of the work and I was as well. Michael Cleverly was there ready to help, but he was still a guest so we were trying to give him our (I suppose Canadian) version of our Thanksgiving dinner.

Then I went to use the bathroom and I noticed when I had finished that the toilet seat needed to be cleaned. It seemed to have had years of use or layers that needed to be cleaned. The toilet was primarily the toilet my Dad had installed in our basement when my sister had moved in there when she first was married and had her first two children (while she was there). In the dream the children and their children (my sisters’ grandchildren) were all as old as they are now. Her oldest child is 46. They all kept on coming in wanting to use the toilet and I kept on saying there is another just over in the next room and there is another one upstairs. Go use those other two while I get this one clean. They didn’t seem to understand that there were more toilets that could be used. It was a little frustrating.

I noticed there was something in the toilet that was likely plugging it up. I pulled “it” out like a magician pulls a scarf out of “whatever”. It seemed to go on and on but it turned out it was a bed sheet. I said to my sisters’ family that a bed sheet should be disposed of properly, in the garbage, not down the toilet. I continued to clean the bed sheet that had been in the toilet but it was really hard. There were so many layers and everything I thought I was getting to the “bottom” there seemed to be more. I was using a solvent (at least 3 or 4 times) and I left for a minute to let it work and I came back and my sister was sitting on a chair, relaxing, talking on the phone, in the bathroom with her feet up on the toilet seat. I told her to please take her feet away and couldn’t she see what I was trying to do? I continued to clean it and it seemed as if I could see my way to getting it “finished” when my Mom came in, in a bit of a frazzle, because she had been doing the meal by herself and she needed me to help with the last touches for the dessert. I think I was making the whipped cream for the pumpkin pies she had made. Michael Cleverly was still over in the Dining Room. I said I would be there shortly that I was almost done getting the seat clean and I didn’t want to leave it with any residual “grime”. I could see that it was almost “perfectly” clean and it would take just a few more strong “wipes” to be finished.

[MEntity] In response to the first dream, we can say that your comments are valid. The dream speaks to the layers that have come to shield you from the intimacy you crave, or the intimacy you once felt and have grown numb to.

[MEntity] It is not just about intimacy relative to your more obvious relationships, but about feeling close, truly close, to others. In the same way that one can lean against a wall, the wall is never touched when the paint is so thick. The walls of you have carried layers for so long that, even if someone were pressing his or her figurative body against it, you could only feel the general shape of that presence, not the contact.

[MEntity] The second dream: first, the iPod scenario appears to be speaking to your shift away from controlling what others see, think, or feel about you, and allowing them to choose from all of the facets of you. This is a process of maturity that allows for the fact that, even if someone chooses to see a specific part of you that you feel is not representative of all of you, that this part is still YOU. This is symbolic, not only for the Personality of this lifetime, but a process of your integrating your past Personalities at this Level.

[MEntity] The control over how you wish another would experience you is softening.

[MEntity] The shift in the dream toward the tanks appears to be a collective memory from an earliest phase in Human history and acclimation. While you learn how to accept more facets of yourself, and uncover a more holistic spectrum of yourself, you may also be pulling up collective wounding that you can address as Essence and Personality.

[MEntity] Many students who are close to cycling off begin to parallel their own processes of healing and integration with that of collective need for healing and integration.

[MEntity] This can pull up bizarre and unsettling scenarios that are either symbolic or literal, but wholly relevant to collective memory.

[MEntity] In the next part of your dream, it appears that you may have been communicating the necessity for gratitude as a means of allowing intimacy, and that it is not always necessary for you to have things together, clean, and presentable for others.

[MEntity] The "children" in the dream may have represented the importance of recognizing the value in other individuals' choices, and to move beyond seeing them as children who might need redirecting or orientation.

[MEntity] The drawing out of the bedsheet may have been referencing both your need for rest, which you may feel is metaphorically down the toilet, and your desire for more intimacy.

[MEntity] There is more, but we must continue to the next student.

From POF – August 18, 2014

[Maureen] Michael . you said yesterday in regards to my dreams: “There is more, but we must continue to the next student.” I would like you to continue today.

[Maureen] 1) I would like to know more about what I am looking for with intimacy as I’m not sure how that needs or wants to show up in my life.

[Maureen] 2) I would like you to expand on what you said yesterday about the tanks, etc. and what part Michael Cleverly’s Essence actually played. “The shift in the dream toward the tanks appears to be a collective memory from an earliest phase in Human history and acclimation. While you learn how to accept more facets of yourself, and uncover a more holistic spectrum of yourself, you may also be pulling up collective wounding that you can address as Essence and Personality.

[MEntity] In response to 1) We think it would best be described as a intimacy that lives up to your standards of expectation. There is a great deal of charge around what it means to be close to you, to hear you, to give respect to you, to follow through with you, to plan with you, etc, and these expectations can be high or sometimes not clearly defined. This causes a dynamic of distancing between yourself and others as you ponder what you could be doing "wrong" or brood over what that person must be doing "wrong." So what you truly need and want is direct honesty and communication. This is key.

[MEntity] By "direct honesty and communication" we mean that this is important from both directions.

[MEntity] As a Need, this shows up in your dreams quite often as affection, sensuality, and resonance without words. As a Want, this shows up as agitation, dissatisfaction, anxiety, and irritation with others.

[Maureen] That makes sense.

[MEntity] To work on this issue, it would be helpful to be and do the things you would expect of others as signs of intimacy, trust, and compassion. You do already do this, but you can take it one step further to reduce the charge that can build up around it, and always choose to enlist the benefit of doubt. Often you decide what is true about a person, a situation, or about someone else's perception of you, even as you have no proof or little proof this. A benefit of the doubt can go a long way toward softening your barriers to intimacy, both within and without.

[MEntity] In response to 2) There are times in the later Levels of a Soul Age when collective wounding of the species can come up for processing from the Instinctive Center. In this case, it looks like the dream referred to this to some great extent, going back to a time early in the stabilization period of the species when most of the new bodies had to be "grown."

[MEntity] This helps one to process any remaining attachments to the Physical Plane that are still anchored in shared experiences with others.

[MEntity] The fragment who is "Michael" was, literally, there.

[MEntity] Not as "Michael," but in another incarnation.

[MEntity] "He" was key to your being able to keep your own wits about you as the work of helping to maintain this bizarre and terrifying incubation program was resulting in many harrowing effects on the bodies that would then have to be destroyed.

[MEntity] We see that time is up, but we responded to as much as we could.

[Maureen] Thank you so much Michael.

Myopia, Compartmentalizing, and Embracing Shame

2014-08-17T20:50:25.000Z

From 5/20/2014:

[DianeHB] Re: our homework from the "You and Your Reflections OMW" My eyesight has been getting noticeably more myopic over the last year or so. I'm almost certain the stress from going to school had something to do with it. After the last OMW this came up as one of the obvious things I'm trying to work on. You've said to me before that myopia is caused mainly by a refusal to see the big picture. When I remembered that recently, I went, DUH! I knew my focus has been very myopic since I started school, so I started practicing seeing the big picture of my life. It's not easy. I think the main thing for me is that I set these high expectations for myself, and then get stressed out trying to reach them (and I can reach them). Like getting 4.0s and finishing my schooling within a certain time frame. I think at the core of those expectations is that I'm not "good enough" if I don't hurry up and get a job/career, and I'm "running out of time". Do you have any suggestions for shifting my perspective?

[MEntity] The Myopia is reflective of your your compartmentalizing. You have had to do this for a great part of your life. This compartmentalizing of the various truths is more of the issue than your fear of not being good enough. You have had to balance several facets of the self with facets of your life. In order to do so, each must have quite direct focus. The more you feel that certain areas of your life are separate and requiring specific focus, the more likely this Myopia is reflective of that. Your struggles with "good enough" appear to be waning, as far as we can see.

[DianeHB] Hmm. I would say I treat my schooling/career as a separate focus. So what could I do about that?

[MEntity] Yes. Family. Intimacy. Love. Schooling. The Future. Etc.

[DianeHB] LOL. Seems like I don't know how NOT to compartmentalize.

[MEntity] Your move toward inclusion across the spectrum is what you desperately seek as both Essence and Personality now. Whether consciously or not, you are "done" with managing it on this scale.

Follow-up on 8/17/2014:

[DianeHB] You've told me in a previous session that my myopia is reflective of my compartmentalizing. I'm not sure I even know how not to compartmentalize. What would my life look like without compartmentalizing?

[MEntity] Compartmentalizing is natural and effective for many instances in life, but can be problematic if depended upon in all areas and stages of the life. So we wish to be clear that, like most anything in life, the tool is neutral but can be used in healthy or unhealthy ways.

[MEntity] In your case, the reduction of compartmentalizing would mean the reduction of shame and the increase of confidence in expression and opinion. Compartmentalizing allows you to let things accumulate and build in ways that then require lashing out, implosion, etc.

[MEntity] Rather than emphasizing your awareness on how to shift from compartmentalizing, if you move your awareness to reduction of shame (where you might see it show up), and an increase in your confidence of expression, your compartmentalizing would, naturally, begin to break down the unhealthy compartments.

[DianeHB] Ok, so what are the biggest areas where I still feel shame?

[MEntity] Do you not know?
[MEntity] We do not ask this rhetorically.

[DianeHB] Ok, I guess I know. :) A better question would be how do I move out of the shame when I feel it?

[MEntity] To embrace it. To embrace it is to embrace yourself. Shame is a product of a division within, so to embrace the shame is to reduce or reverse that division. To "embrace" it means to state openly and comfortably that you are embarrassed, that you are uncomfortable, that you are insecure, that you feel guilty, or whatever phrase describes your moment of shame. Owning that moment invites compassion from within, which is one of the shortest route to healing and transformation.

[MEntity] Again, this will be a process that is gradual, and not one marked by a finish line. The more you embrace those moments of shame, the more you will more naturally respond to moments of shame with an immediate kindness, and then, eventually, that kindness takes the place of shame.

[DianeHB] Sounds like a good plan. I don't always remember to embrace it.

[MEntity] When kindness takes the place of shame, then the power of choice returns in a more tangible way.

[MEntity] If you do not remember to embrace it in the moment, do so when you remember. That matters, too.

4th IM Complete!

2014-08-17T19:00:00.000Z

From POF 8/17/2014

[DianeHB] What is my 4th IM status? I have a feeling I might be done or nearly done. Since a few weeks ago I've been finding it much easier to catch myself when I'm reacting from imprinting or when I'm being defensive, and I can move myself out of those states fairly quickly. Overall it feels like I'm no longer trying to define who I am -- I simply am. Now my work is to figure out what I want to do with that.

[MEntity] Diane, you are completed in the Positive Pole of your Internal Monad.

[DianeHB] Woo!
[DianeHB] It's kind of anticlimactic.

[MEntity] True. There is not a fanfare moment. Only the implementation of a set of tools that can not be unlearned.

[MEntity] Life is often a matter of progression, not often marked by obvious shifts, especially in terms of a growing experience that depends on slow realizations and conscious implementation.

[MEntity] If you wish to mark the occasion with fanfare and celebration, you can mark July 30th as the closest to when the tipping toward completion.

[DianeHB] I felt the difference around that week -- even commented to Maureen about it. [I chatted with Maureen on August 1]

5th IM Checkup

2014-08-17T04:00:00.000Z

Team POF
July 28, 2014

After the information that Claire got on the stages of the 5th IM, I really felt like I identified with several of them. I only finished the 4th IM last November so I was curious if it were possible to have started my 5th IM already and if so, what stage might I be at. Here is what I got on this in this particular session:

[Bobby]: As far as the 5th IM for myself, have I started working on that yet? The information that you provided to Claire seemed to resonate with me as far as several of the stages. If so, what stage do you see me currently working on?

[MEntity]: The 3rd Stage of the 5th.

[MEntity]: Realization with Acceptance as the Positive Pole and Resentment as the Negative Pole.

[Bobby]: Lastly, Sometimes you see a certain progression where you're able to give an estimated date of completion for an IM. Do you see that for me as far as the 5th IM?

[MEntity]: At this point, based on what we can see, it would be March of 2015.

Wow, March of 2015? That was a surprise. This had me curious as to why the potential quick finish.

Aug 7, 2014
Private Session

[Bobby]: I wanted to briefly followup with the information that you gave me on a probable completion of my 5th IM. I believe you stated, likely, around March 2015. What is it that you're seeing that would lead to that completion date. It seemed "quick" to me, not that that is a problem but I suppose I wasn't expecting it to possibly be that soon. I understand that this is all about probabilities.

[MEntity]: There are other windows, such as May of 2017, July/August of 2019, but we chose to relay the range that seemed to reference your optimal path, which was being reflected more in your patterning at the time. When we look at one's patterning, we are taking into account possibility, probability, conscious intent, and subconscious obstacles. We consider more than this, but these are fair to reference.

[MEntity]: So it is, first, possible at that time, highly likely (probable) at that time, and your state of awareness has locked on to some personal development that nurtures this process, and your subconscious obstacles are few.

[MEntity]: It is not so much that something happens at that time, but what would happen between "now" and then, and that it is a general reference for when you might exit out of the Monad.

[Bobby]: Ok... it just had me curious is all. I'll move on to my main topic today.

[MEntity]: We agree that it is fairly accelerated, but you have been in an "amped up" state that is on board with re-creating yourself, re-imagining your life, recalibrating your relationships, etc.

[MEntity]: We would suggest checking in with us again about your window of completion in 3 months.

Obviously, I'm in no rush and feel I'm in a better position now to see how these stages are unfolding so I'll check in again with them but it doesn't have to be that soon... next year some time :)

Mocking Insecurities

2014-08-17T01:30:00.000Z

[Bobby] One my True Plays has always given me a chuckle, Mocking Insecurities. It almost seems anti-anything you would condone :-) Would you briefly comment on that particular True Play and its relationship to the Life Task of True Security?

[MEntity] Bobby, this Play is one that can help one not to take oneself too seriously, or to take too personally those who would wish to punish you for their own insecurities. If done with malice, it is not Playful, but seeing the comedy in the scenarios is quite helpful. This sets your Attitude back on track.

[MEntity] We are not in any position to condone or not condone, but we are always up for a good laugh, and much of what is funny about life is the absurdly serious nature imposed upon the most inconsequential.

[Bobby] I would agree with that

[MEntity] We used the term "mocking" because that is what it often looks like while incarnated, but it is often just a matter of it being funny. Humor is generated from the resolution of paradox, and in this case the paradox is that something of little consequence is taken as profoundly consequential.

[Bobby] Ok, so I can now see then not letting an upset knock me into Confusion that is more than likely how it relates

[MEntity] That is a healthy way to use that Play, yes.

A good example? :)

Ferguson, MO

2014-08-14T19:49:39.000Z

JOHN LEWIS: DECLARE MARTIAL LAW ON MO. COPS

Police Chief: If You Get Tear-Gassed, It's Your Own Fault... OBAMA: Justice Department, FBI Looking Into Michael Brown Death... 'No Excuse For Excessive Force' Against Protestors... Gov. Promises 'Shifts' In Policing...BAGHDAD USA: Tear Gas, Rubber Bullets, Reporters Arrested... Police Armies In America... Rand Paul: Demilitarize Cops... Holder: 'Deeply Concerned' About Deployment Of Military Equipment... LATEST UPDATES...

This is the header on Huffington Post with some of the most current collective articles listed under the photo. It's chilling.

The paradox though is that the same people who are so gung-ho about the right to carry arms in all public life probably ARE the cops. Both Michael Brown and the demonstrators have been unarmed. Yet, the picture is "why" many militia people claim that they need to be fully armed. A supreme irony.

Proud of your boy

2014-08-13T22:08:43.000Z

All healing after my fall into the pit.
Thanks for all the lovely replies.

came across this beautiful song that was cut from the Alladin movie but hits all my buttons.

makes a tear drop fall down my eyes.

all my love

roycey

http://youtu.be/Q_CKQq7Y1H8

Validation Update: Primary Body Type

2014-08-13T03:45:12.000Z

Hello, TLE community.
Tyrone here, with my first blog entry since Validation Update in November of last year:

So I'm not that good at following my own plans. Thought that's another blog/complain/rant for a whole 'nother time, I just thought I'd confess to this. I'm absolutely terrible at it, as it seems the more certain and inspired I am that I will do something in the future, the less likely I am to actually get it done. It could be that it's just the time when I'm most likely to notice myself if I fail, but this has been a pattern I've annoyingly struggled with for-almost-ever. I welcome any insight or help with this :-)

Aaaanyway, this spontaneous random post is about a minor update I've just done to my profile to more accurately describe myself.

It comes from realizing that in spite of my promising to blog on all the parts of my profile validation since last October, I have been nearly silent on my process since then. And it really has come a long way, since I can actually say I've validated a good 95% of my channeled profile now (only things left are my essence relationships, but it's likely I haven't even gotten to the point in my life where I actually can do that). And even though the Role was hardest for me to validate, with even the easiest ones to check off I discovered oodles of layers underneath that made sense in ways I had never thought of.

This update in particular is a minor one on Body Type:

I just updated this entry because I believe after "observing" several people's profile primaries and thinking about certain overleaf-bodytype connections, my initial assumption from the profile I got was incorrect:

On the profile I ordered from Troy, it said that the Appearance/Nature/Health of my body was Mercurial/Saturnian/Martial. An important distinction I overlooked about this when putting in the body type on my TLE profile is that "Primary" doesn't necessarily mean Primary Appearance. I'd known Mercurial was me physically since first reading about body types, but the highest body type percentages themselves aren't necessarily what's most visible.

Many people's profiles I've seen say stuff like "20% Lunar Appearance, 70% Venusian Nature, 10% Martial Health", or like "10% Martial Appearance, 25% Saturnian Nature, 65% Solar Health", and I'd be like Huh? How could you have 70% of a body type be just your nature?
I concluded that there was definitely something I didn't know, and after a while of contemplating (after reading about how essences make personalities) I realized that it probably had something to do with what was to be explored in the lifetime. As in, the percentages were like percentages of emphasis of the personality's expression.

For instance, as I am a pretty cerebral person, I would naturally tend to describe myself majorly by the way I act mentally more than anything else. I tend to think of myself as the mind-that-perceives, even though all of me is me, including my physics and emotions. The answer to the question of what overleaf my personality was based on for me is almost definitely the Skeptic Attitude I have. That's been one of my main lifetime issues--how I see the world and decide what I can believe and not believe as possibly true. I care about how and what I think more than how I appear or even feel. (This also I note could be an effect of having default intellectual part--the right to think/express what I want is the right I'm continually fighting for, emotions are by default my "sustained" right and to me are easier in comparison).

As personalities are typically designed based on exploration of a specific overleaf and the other categories set up to compliment it (like old souls *typically* exploring attitudes), I think the body type aspects would have similar emphasis, like wanting to explore specifically a certain way of thinking (a.k.a. Nature), and so having a personality whose primary bodytype was actually their Nature Aspect would be how that happens. The same could be said for a personality with their primary of Health: the emotions they have and play with and the subsequent effects on their health constitute what they're most exploring and emphasize for themselves. (I figure Appearance is about how they physically get stuff done or how they look or move around physically, but I'm not sure yet.)

So for me, I figure (and it makes sense to me) that as my attitude is the most prominent Overleaf I have (the others Growth and Observation feel like defaults, as I'm in Essence a Priest-y Scholar) and I'm always thinking about how I can make the world's truth pieces (perspectives) fit together and iron out all the wrinkles in understanding, my primary body type is most likely what corresponds to that: my Nature. That's Saturnian, and from the description of Saturnians mentally being perfectionists, that suits me to a "T". I am perfectionistic about probabilities of things maybe being true and how bits fit together or not. As it's Skeptic, not Idealist, I see much more quickly where the wrinkles are than the parts that are already nice, and I hate letting anything slip by me.

Coincidentally (or not), it used to take me FOREVER to iron my clothes in the morning, as I just had to get all those wrinkles out of my shirt to consider myself having ironed it!

So those are some of my thoughts on the matter. I technically haven't asked Michael about my bodytype percentages, so for all I really know, I could be off considerably, but this is my theory so far.

Channeling Validation!

2014-08-13T02:41:29.000Z

Received 8/12/14
Posted 8/12/14

Hello, all. Since last year, I've been steadily working (in earnest) on channeling Michael, and I've had some good validation the past few months that SOMETHING is indeed happening and I'm bringing some info and insight through with accuracy and clarity. Getting Michael's perspective on our work together and where I am with it, is really helpful for me on this journey. I care so much about sharing this teaching with others with clarity and accuracy. How could I not when Troy is my mentor! So I am tickled pink that I am well on my way to allowing Michael through to share these teachings as the heart of the healing and counseling work that I do.

After today's transcript, I have added my own channeling that I did last August about why I did not have agreements this lifetime. I thought it was cool to cross-reference this with what came through Troy today.

Enjoy!

***

MEntity: Hello to you, Nicholas. We are here, now. We can begin.

nicksweeney78: Hi! Please give me the role, casting, soul age and level for: 1) XXX (co-worker) and 2) XXX (TLE member)

MEntity: If we are seeing these fragments correctly, for XXX, we see 5th Level Old Scholar-Cast Artisan (with strong Priest imprinting); and for XXX we see a 4th Level Old Priest-Cast Warrior (with strong Scholar influences).

nicksweeney78: Thank you. I got priest-cast warrior for XXX and scholar-cast artisan for XXX!! Woohoo! Validation! [my channeling on this below]

MEntity: Correct.

nicksweeney78: I got 3rd Old for both...so at least I was in the same general area! Which leads to my next questions:

*Would you comment on any channeling progress I've made and our work together?

MEntity: Your progress continues to grow in both accuracy of delivery, quality of impact, and depth of insight, with fairly clear distinctions between "you" and "us." Our work with/through you is fairly solid and while validation, questioning, and doubt would always be a part of any healthy channeling dynamic, the trust of authenticity is dependable.

How do you feel about your progress?

nicksweeney78: I feel realistic and good about my progress. I have had some good validation over the past few months. Up until today, however, whenever I checked to see what troy got for a profile, it seemed I could never get both the casting AND role...until today!

I know I have a long way to go, but I have validation to confidently move forward w/ my practice and exploration. kewl!

I only have one more question...so you can respond however you like to what I just wrote...it all goes together.

*I'm looking forward to the time when I have validated my channeling ability to a certain level AND have a certain level of clarity and effectiveness in being a channel, as I really would like to make your teachings and channeling the heart of the healing and counseling work that I do.

At my current rate of practice, clearing and exploration, would you say that the probability is high that I would be able to put myself out there as a public channel by the time I'm 40yo (4yrs from now)?

MEntity: Our response would be a solid "yes." At your pace, it would likely not be necessary to have the extended aim for 40 years, but to take the leap when you are ready to take that leap. Working in confident, small circles so that any discrepancies or missteps can be considered and explored without yourself or others feeling disappointment or failure is important, and then extending to offer services for minimal fees with the caveat that it is as much for your practice as as channel as it may be for the student as validation.

We think you have navigated these two stages well, and may be ready for more extensive services that expand upon your receiving, translation, and transmitting of our communication through you.

You may not feel as confident in the details and terminology just yet, but you can easily convey quality insights about life scenarios that others may seek lessons from.

nicksweeney78: yes, I agree...

MEntity: Terminology can bring up more self-conscious monitoring of quality because it is a specific system against which validation can be compared as cross-reference, so the confidence and stability here can be slower to consistency than the broader work of applying the teaching to life scenarios. The latter does not have to be usurped by the continued work on the former.

nicksweeney78: ok

MEntity: And, in fact, the expansion into those less-specific forms of application can help to bring that confidence and accuracy to the more specific terminology.

nicksweeney78: that makes sense to me...as it seems to invite more intimacy between us and flow of energy through the circuitry that supports the more detailed info coming through...

MEntity: That is correct.

nicksweeney78: As much as this means to me to be able to channel you and share your teaching as a part of my healing and counseling work, I'm just surprised that essence didn't make agreements to channel this lifetime...and I'm curious why "we" didn't?

MEntity: We have Agreements. And your Essence wanted those Agreements to be made on your terms, not as a plan that you discovered and unfolded, but as a path you created from your own choices. There is some irony here in that you, as Personality, had to move away from the ideal of being predestined to some special position as healer, channel, or some other resource of inspiration, to owning this as a path you chose, created, nurtured, and conveyed from an intimate place in order for it to be truly meaningful. You moved from meaning being handed to you, to meaning being created by you.

nicksweeney78: this brings tears...

MEntity: Essence has already had its precarious lifetimes built upon fragile ideals. This lifetime saw its fair share, as well. You, as both Essence and Personality, are "done" with that. You build on authenticity, meaning, and intimacy now.

nicksweeney78: yes

MEntity: A final question?

nicksweeney78: sure...if there is time...my boss' role, Jenny Lightstone...

MEntity: This is the Warrior.

There are other factors that soften this, of course, but this fragment appears to be a Warrior Essence.

Good day to you, Nicholas. We will conclude here for today. Goodbye, for now.

***

[my channeling last year]

Hello

This morning I would like to know more about my channeling work with you in the previous 7 lifetimes when "I" have channeled for you.

1) Specifically, were all of those lifetimes primary channel agreement lifetimes?

2) And why did we not have agreements for me to act as a channel this lifetime?

Thanks!

***

We are here.

One moment.

"You" have been a primary channel for us each time you have acted as a channel for us. Though each of the seven lifetimes were unique personalities and unique circumstances, our initial agreement that you would be a clear and unbiased channel, or rather that the personality would be, became the foundation for all subsequent agreements and work together. Our work together has evolved over the years, obviously, but we have always built that evolution on top of the foundation that was quite secure from the beginning.

It was thought that this lifetime would unfold with plenty to do, so to speak, as you would be focused on 6th level processes and completions, in addition to working towards the completion of all 7 internal monads in this lifetime. Essence knew that the personality would have a high probability of going in he direction of channeling and activating the "standing" agreement that was floating around "out there," but it did not want to pile on too much, if you will. Your essence loves being a student and working with personality to act as a channel for us. It always has. It basically had the attitude that it would be happy if personality chose either direction, but it would have a special kind of happiness if the channeling direction was chosen again in this lifetime. "Special kind of happiness" is not quite correct...but we think you understand our meaning.

***

[my channeling about back in July about XXX, Scholar-cast Artisan above]

And just waiting...on the reception from Michael...right now thoughts are just wandering...thinking about my table...thinking about Jorg thinking about my table here...thinking about how before (a week ago) I got Scholar-cast Scholar...Mature/5...

***

You are correct. The fragment is SCHOLAR-CAST, the fragment known as "Annalee." But the role is ARTISAN.

The fragment is OLD, 3rd Level, manifesting Mature.