Uncommon Days

Eating Paleo

2014-10-17T03:17:00.000-04:00

I've been eating Paleo foods for almost 2 months now. I'm feeling great and my skin is looking real good, like glowing. I have lots of natural energy and don't have an ounce of craving for processed foods or sweets of any kind.

I did try to eat a bowl of chocolate cereal about 3 weeks into it and had to throw it out. It tasted real nasty and I was actually trying to make myself eat it but then I thought, "why in the world would I do that?" Into the trash it went.

My last trip to the doctor was about 2 weeks ago and I've lost 30 lbs! Well I just couldn't believe it. I thought and felt like I had lost a few lbs but I was pleasantly surprised.

I've been sticking to eggs that we buy from local farmers, ham, mushrooms, vegetables, nuts and just a few fruits. I also eat meat a few times a week. I'm not hungry at all in between meals but do eat nuts, raisins, dried blueberries and bananas. I use as much coconut oil as I can, even put it in my coffee in the AM. I'm sure I'm not listing everything here but the idea was to keep it as simple as I could and as easy as I could in the beginning.

I love everything that I'm eating but starting this weekend I'm going to start cooking. I'm waiting form my Amazon order to come in with my coconut flour and cacao powder. I went to the organic food store and paid out of my ass for some quinoa. Next time I will order it online or look for it at Walmart.

I'm an 80/20 believer so I do get some cottage cheese with my fruits at times and I'm probably eating more fruit than I should considering my goal is to lose weight. But the whole reason I chose Paleo is so that I could eat fruit without feeling guilty so I don't feel a bit guilty when I eat a banana or musk melon. I love them. I'm perfectly happy with what I eat.

I can see how this could be difficult for some people to follow because of the preparing and "cooking" that's involved. It's hard when you can't buy something off of the shelf and throw it in a pan. I worked myself out of that thinking by just reminding myself of all of the poisons that are packed in there with them. Plus they don't taste good now.There's also more shopping and planning involved but it's doable. I go to the local meat shop to get my meat fresh and cut up then go home and sort it out and freeze it. I go to the farmer that sells eggs and buy several dozens at a time, I have to remember to bring my old egg crates. I've been doing this for years though. If you're wanting to cook like I'm going to start doing you have to source your cooking supplies. It's easy to find the organic items you need online but you have to wait...sometimes you can find what you need at the big chain stores but not always and not always organic. I'm also running to the store much more often for the staples of Paleo because they are mostly perishable.

Anyway this is where I'm at in my life. I've been posting at my other blog, On Turkey Lake. It's about the house improvements, crafts and sewing that go on at my place. I love it all.

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CHER

I Changed my mind

2014-07-14T23:14:00.001-04:00

I've decided against any kind of surgery to lose weight. I'm not that much over weight that I feel its justified and after spending a lot of time pondering it I decided that I haven't exhausted everything that I can do . I couldn't shake the fact that I hadn't done everything possible for myself and therefore surgery would be the lazy way out...not life out death. Quit being so dreadfully dramatic Cheryl.
A few Weeks ago I quit eating after dinner. It was somewhat challenging for the first few days but now its old hat. I've lost a few pounds I can tell.since I drink only water i'm not worried about accidentally drinking something either. Its not just about not eating (although it's amazing how many calories I was eating at night), it's about shutting down my digestive system and giving my organs a break...therefore NOTHING goes in the mouth. No tastes, bites or sips of anything.
There's no rapid weight loss going on here but I feel better and I don't have any strange pains in my stomach. I don't wake up feeling like my food hasn't digested. This is just my first step. It's not a real small one either like I thought it would be. I'm constantly having to tell people "no thanks, I don't eat after dinner." I suppose this will die down when winter gets here. If I think i'm gonna want something sweet I eat it with dinner.
It's weird...I was talking to my mom and she's doing the exact same thing! Great minds think alike.

WLS update

2014-02-24T23:05:00.000-05:00

I have been posting on my Cozi blog which isn't public. I'm going to copy and paste them over here so there are gonna be lots of posts at once from out of nowhere.

I looked over my older posts too and I've been posting here since 2009. Wow that's a long time for me to keep up with something. So there is something to say for journaling.

I noticed that almost all of my picture posts have disappeared. The link to the pictures server that I used is obviously gone. Too bad that I'm not sure what pictures those were so I'll just have to remove the posts altogether.

Went to Dr. Beitzel today, it was my last visit of my 3 month weight loss visits. I've managed to remain the same weight for 3 months. That's good for me, I didn't gain and I was gaining like crazy. So I have the papers from my visits but not a medical necessity letter which I told him I needed. I'm confused, maybe he is sending it in. I thought we had our shit together and the nurse handing me the papers and said they all looked good and that she hoped I got approved. So I didn't look at them until we had already left.

I'm going to fax all my info to Dr. Sloan tomorrow hopefully... I'm waiting for a copy of my blood tests results. I thought they were on my online medical records website but nothing is there so I sent them an email. Maybe I should also be asking about that letter. My psychiatrist wrote a letter of medical necessity a few months back so hopefully that will work if all else fails. It's getting to be a little more real. blah blah blah...more on that later.

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CHER

It's getting kinda late

2014-02-23T23:16:00.000-05:00

It's getting kinda late, 12:40 but wanted to make a quick jot. I've gotten some relaxation tonight after having Lala for 5 days and Micah and Rylie for the weekend. Loved every minute of them but to go from basically doing nothing to taking care of toddlers is quite a feat. That would be one of my main reasons for wanting to get myself healthier and choosing WLS surgery for that.

It seems that the time frame to get all of my insurance information together is coming to a wrap up. Tomorrow is my last visit with Dr. Beitzel for my 3 month doctor supervised weight loss program which I should say hasn't gone well. After that visit all I need to do is finish up the intensive paperwork on the surgeons website and fax all my other doctor's information of all my visits. If there's one thing I have it's a paper trail of doctors.

My mom and Jayme came out for a fish fry tonight, it also saved me a trip taking the kids home. That was awesome because I have a lot of driving to do next week and we've been trying to save on gas money to put it into the house. Little by little it's getting done. We've been doing remodeling for a year now. I know because I was reading some of my older blog posts and there was the first posting in March of last year about the things that we had purchased and what Bill had already done. It's hard to imagine that it's been a year because it did go fast but when I think of all he's accomplished it adds up.

Tonight was the first time that mom and Jayme got to see the house in the shape that it's in right now...the new upper bathroom and closet. The new closet office which I love. Many things in the kitchen were new to Jayme and she really likes everything especially the master suite.

I'm excited about having my final doctor appointment tomorrow but now am getting a bit nervous, not much but just a little

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CHER

Lala Loopsy

2014-02-19T23:20:00.000-05:00

Nothing exciting today except it kinda warmed up for a bit. It was nearly 40 today and me, Lala and the dogs went out back for a few hours.

Bill went ice fishing all day. He took the car so now he gets to go to the grocery store tomorrow.

Me and Lala just got done talking to Coffee on OOvoo. That was kinda fun. She got to see Lala taking a bubble bath hehe.

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CHER

A Shortage of US Clowns

2014-02-18T23:21:00.000-05:00

Apparently there's a clown shortage in USA. The news said that the ones that we have are getting ready to retire and the younger crowd never went into the business because they didn't really go to the circus. I say it's because they are creepy!

On a brighter note, we have Lala and she is keeping the house hopping. She is a non stop talker but I love to listen to her, she's really a hoot. You never know what is going to come out of her mouth. She's laying by me on the floor and hopefully she's asleep now since the news is on. Yup she is, just checked.

We got some more snow but I'm just really sick of tracking it. All I really know is we got tons this winter and we're 2 inches shy of breaking the record set back in the early 80's. I think we're gonna get quite a flood because we are getting rain soon too.

Lala went on a sled ride, papa pulled her on it and then she played on a Lala sized snow hill yesterday. I love my little Lala loopsy. She is now calling me grandma loopsy ;)

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CHER

Long Winter 2014

2014-02-16T23:29:00.000-05:00

It's 3 am and I'm just about to go to bed.

We're going into ft. Wayne tomorrow to see Jayme, mom and the kids. We're bringing my Lala home with us for a few days. Hoping we get snowed in so I can keep her longer!! Hehe.

We went down to Lee and Elaines to have chicken wings and everyone else drank beer. We played dice. I got to know the new renters Pam and Steve which was nice. Other than that the rest of us are the Winter crew here at the lake. Of course us, Lee and Elaine, Rick and Cindy, Paul and Jean and Tina. The Merkels didn't come tonight. It's nice to just get out of the house and be around other people for awhile.

Bill got me a dozen beautiful pink roses for Valentines day and a lovely card. It surprised me, even though he gave it to me early or I should say especially since he gave it to me early. I took pictures but still haven't goten everything set up so it syncs with my computer. I gotta get up kinda early, much earlier than I have been getting up so I'm off to bed. I'm excited to see my munchkins.

It's been a very long winter.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Excuse me, I've lost my appetite and can't find it

2014-02-14T23:44:00.000-05:00

I've lost my appetite and I'm not gonna go looking for it. It's been very noticable for almost 2 weeks now. I'm wondering if it has anything to do with the amount of YouTube videos that I've been watching on weight loss surgery in preparation for my surgery. I do get hunger pains once in a while like right now but it 1am and I'm upstairs.

Last night I went and got a bowl of cereal but that's not a good idea so I'm gonna stick it out with my ice water. I go to see Dr. Beitzel for my final wls office visit on the 24th. I'm excited but hoping that I'll have dropped a few lbs this time. With my decreased appetite I should have.

I didn't get up till almost 4pm today! I'm a bit embarrassed to say that even to myself. I stayed up late but not that damn late.

I fell yesterday and slammed into the floor and banged my head on the drawer handles from tripping over some plumbing pipes Bill had laying in the middle of the floor. It was an awful trip, scared the shit out of me but he scared me more with the look on his face and running to my rescue. I remember looking at him with a dazed look in my eyes. And of all things I thought, Awe, he loves me. What a dork lol. Just like the movies. But I guess I think he secretly hates me. That's no way to live a life.

I've talked to a few friends from high school lately while playing games on the phone with them and it's a bit bittersweet when I hear about their jobs and kids in college. I know those days are over for me and have to move on but I still feel like I'm missing out on the prime of my life.

I got my first wls video uploaded, it's still set as private because I want to make sure that the only people that see it are people looking for wls and advice and what not.

Well, I thought I was gonna slide through that fall unscathed but the pain finally set in tonight. At first it just felt like I had done a lot of exercising then it zeroed in on my lower back, right side of my head and neck where I slammed into the drawer handles and weirdly enough on both sides of my neck in the front. It's a good thing I have so much cusion. The rest of my body is aching but not too bad and nothing that 4 ibuprofen can't cure.

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CHER

2014-02-13T23:48:00.000-05:00

It's been such a long long long Winter! We've broken records this year for snow fall and below zero temperatures. I now know what cabin fever truly feels like. I don't have much to do and I asked Bill when he was going to get the ax and chop through the door and say Honey I'm Home! REDRUM.

Boy he's done so much to the house this Winter that I hardly recognize it anymore. I love love our new master bath and closet. I even got a built in office in our regular closet. It's where I'm at right now. It's great, it has all the room I'll need to keep the computer, printer and files together. Of course the kitchen and living room got swapped. Our kitchen is simply awesome. He just finished putting a pull out trash under the sink on the island and today he made tip outs of the fake drawers in the island. He's planning and working on getting the stairs moved. Once that's done we'll be able to finish the master suite.

I actually had a reason for this post but now I can't remember so it must not have been too important. It seems as though I'm going to be able to post more often since I have my little office area that's dedicated for the computer.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Weight Loss Surgery

2013-12-13T16:30:00.001-05:00

So far I've only done a few video blogs but I'm gonna start doing more since I've been planning for weight loss surgery. I've been stalking several of the weight loss vloggers and it looks like it would be an awesome tool for me to use to keep up my accountability. They have ALL been successful. I've got several ideas to keep my accountability in check and to replace my bad eating habits. I've written it all out on paper but will post it here before I go in for surgery cause I know I'll lose the paper eventually. The insurance company requires certain things for me to do before I have surgery and Dr. Sloan also requires certain things for me to do. The doctor wants me to go to a seminar, get my annual pap and mammogram, do his optifast diet for 5-7 weeks. That's to shrink the liver so it doesn't get nicked during laproscopic surgery. I went to the seminar last month and also got pap and mammogram last week. I can't do his optifast until I get insurance approval. The insurance really just wants a letter of necessity from my family doc and to show that I've done 3 months of a doctor approved diet plan. I went to my first doctor visit on Nov 14th and my next is in a few weeks. I should have that completed by the end of February 2014. Then I will wait to see about my insurance approval then I'll be able to start the optifast diet that Dr. Sloan requires. Dr. Beitzel knows exactly what we have to do for the insurance company so I'm optimistic that I will be able to have my surgery by my next birthday. I know it seems far away but it's gonna give me time to work on my bad eating habits and save money for the optifast diet which is $400 and any co-pays I will have to pay. I'm just truely blessed that I'm going to have the opportunity to have this surgery. It was a difficult decision for me because I was the one who looked at people as failures for having weight loss surgery. I've had to face my previous poor judgements of others before in my life and this is another one of those times. It shows me once again that I shouldn't judge people. I'm not doing that anymore or I stop myself when I think I'm going to. When I tested in for fatty liver on top of all the other health issues that I have I knew I had to do something. The liver can heal itself but if it gets beat up too much it will turn into cirrhosis. That isn't the road that I'm looking to go down. Nothing can be done about that except a transplant and that's after dialysis and if I'm even a candidate with all of my other health issues. I wouldn't want to take a liver from someone else who needed it that had actually taken care of themselves. To make matters worse every time I diet I gain more weight back than I lost. My doctor had some term for this but basically said I was at a place where it was kind of a vicious circle since I'm unable to exercise because of the pain in my back and joints because of the weight. Anyway it's the best excuse that I can come up with. But really I want my quality of life back and would like to repair the damage that has been done....sleep apnea, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, depression, back pain, shortness of breath, metabolic syndrome and I'm getting an ultra sound in a few weeks to see if I test positive for poly cystic ovary syndrome. I might be forgetting something but I know that I'll be able to stop taking a lot of medicine and I'm looking forward to that.

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CHER

Sunday April 7 th 2013 Golf Cart

2013-04-07T12:38:00.001-04:00

Today is starting to feel like Spring out. Its still chilly for 60 but the wind won't die down.

But we got our new golf cart and I'm spinning around on it anyway. Tazja loves to run along, tied to it of course and James runs along side. So glad to finally be able to give Tazja the kind of exercise she needs.

I picked up Rylie and Micah Friday and they love it too. If it weren't for Rylie I may not have gotten it yet cause we have so much work to complete in the house. But its all going along fine. They are in time out right now because they went down to the stream and that is a no no.

I've been going to family workshop with Wade. Friday was our second one. The last one will be the first Friday in May. I'm learning a lot and I think he is too. Its nice to be with him all day too.

March 3rd 2013

2013-03-04T01:36:00.001-05:00

Dear diary,
Things don't always stay the same but do they really need to change so quickly sometimes? Its hard to keep up with everything cause its speeding by. I'm gonna be 45 next month. Do you know what that means? That means I will be 50 i'm 5 years! Www have has some big changes in our lives. Jayme had baby Elliott on Nov 27th 2012. Long and thin just like his big brother, looks a lot like him too. poor little guy got sick with the flu shortly after he came home and a blood infection but he pulled through, he's a lot tougher than what he looks. All the other kids live him to pieces but especially Rylie. He thinks that Elliott is his baby and he's extremely protective and nurturing with him. Its adorable. Since being home from the hospital he has gained a lot of weight and is strong and starting to smile and be social, he's adorable too of course.
We has the first family workshop at wades prison Friday. It was nice to see him and spend 4 hours with him. I think he may be a but mad at me cause, well i'm not real sure.
Bill was taken off his anti psychotic meds a few months ago and he is starting to feel better and getting his energy back too. I am too since i've removed most of my carbs and sugars from my diet. I have so much energy that its hard to go to sleep much of the time. I've also dropped over 20 lbs.
So with all this extra energy we've started remodeling. We're gonna move the kitchen. So far we have almost finished putting up the recessed lights, tore down the bar thing and bought a dish washer and light and pan holder for above the new bar. Pictures to come. Time to sleep:)

The Summer of 2012

2012-12-17T19:16:00.000-05:00

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Sunday September 23rd 2012

2012-09-24T00:21:00.001-04:00

It was a nice quiet Sunday dinner. I made chicken nachos and mom bought a carrot cake with her for Zacs birthday. He's gonna be 23 tomorrow.I think he was a bit surprised.
Me and bill picked up some sand for the sandbox today and Rylie and Alana played in it for over an hour.
Me and my mom walked down to the Moreno house and checked out the outer perimeters again. She will probably end up putting a bid on it, but it will be much lower than what they're asking. They want a little over 88,000 and mom will bid low. The tax value is 47, 000 so they are well over priced that's for sure. It's funny because I will look back on this in a few years and she may have went a totally different route.
I'm propped up here on the pull out sofa bed with Rylie snoring away next to me. Alana went to bed around 7:30. She was starting to turn into a little bandit. She's so cute sitting on the potty chair. It's hard to imagine that Micah and Rylie just got potty trained and Alana is ready. She wants to keep up with them two so badly. She is doing a good job at it! Micah is staying at Zacs parents so she has a way to school. Her new preschool refuses to pick her up at their house so Vicki takes her. I feel like I never see Micah anymore. That may change here soon because Jayme and zac want her to be home with everyone else, not having to stay at his parents every night.

September 20th 2012

2012-09-22T20:47:00.001-04:00

Today was another lazy day. Didn't get up till noon and haven't done a damn thing but lay on the couch and watch movies on Netflix. It rained most of the day. It started last night as soon as I got home from baby sitting. Then our electricity weeny out for a few hours. I figured it was gonna be a lazy weekend. They all have been since I've been watching the kids. They totally wear me out. I'm working on trying to get into s shape to keep up with the little heathens.
Yesterday we went to the park cause Rylie wanted to"have fun" he's so frigging adorable it's almost hard to look at him sometimes...and sweet as honey. The way he squeals and giggles and the way he looks at me when i'm swinging him high in the baby swing is irreplaceable.

On the Pontoon!

2012-08-09T00:23:00.001-04:00

We finally had our first pontoon ride this afternoon. Lee and Bill fixed the steering and the reverse cable so we felt it would be safe to take it out. Ann brought Jazzy and DD to stay for a few days and we were able to buy a tube! I was so excited to get on the tube but the boat didn't run very well. Bill just put new spark plugs in it today and we figured it would run great!! Haha. I try to have a bright outlook. Well, the girls were able to take a spin on the tube and they had fun. Then we had to return to the dock so Bill could run down and get some more gas. When he got back we were all ready to go! But the boat wasn't going anywhere, Bill said it would go in reverse but not forward. Then we realized that there was still a rope tied to the dock. Well then the boat still wouldn't go, I asked Bill if trying to drive the boat while it was still tied off would have caused that and he said no.

Lee and Bill had just put on the cables yesterday and today so Bill said that one side of the cable must have came loose. I hope that's all it is because I don't want to end up with a money pit:( I'm looking forward to getting it out and throwing the anchor in and chilling and trying to catch a few fish.

Wade called me tonight, it has been about 3 or 4 days since I talked to him. He seems in good spirits but I think he tries to sound happy when he's on the phone with me...but then again, he probably IS happy to be talking to me:) I just can't wait till he can come home. I don't like this prison thing at all. There is nothing I can do for him except try to help him out with money, phone calls and pics. Of course I visit him. I will be able to go again in about a week I think.

Well this is all for today!

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

July 1, 2012

2012-07-01T23:07:00.003-04:00

It's been awhile since I've posted here. I've been so busy lingering around my new website. It had quite a learning curve, and I still have lots to learn.
I guess I've had good news and bad new.
The bad news...Bills mom died about 2 weeks ago:(
They put her on morphine and she laid in the bed at the nursing home until she died about 6 days later. I don't know which is worse, watching a loved one die or the sudden phone call that a loved one died.
more bad news...my friends Elaine and Lee's oldest son died. He died in a motorcycle accident a few weeks ago too. I stayed at their house every night while they were in Ohio with their family getting the funeral and everything together. I had to make sure their doggies, cats and fishies were taken care of.
I know it's awful to lose a parent, I'm still not even close to being over my dads untimely death but I couldn't imagine losing a child. They were devastated. I feel so bad for them. There's just nothing you can do in a situation like this.
The good news is that we were able to buy a pontoon! We bought it from our friends's brother...Lee and Elaine's brother. We still haven't been able to put it in the water because we haven't been able to get a dock space. But we went to the sausage and biscuit gravy breakfast this morning and Bob said that he was gonna have his grandkids put out his dock for us. He isn't even going to use it this year. I think that's real awesome of him! I can't wait to take it out in the water and test it! It's an extra long one and is covered the whole way except for an area that we will be able to fish and swim off of.
I'm sitting here typing this out because I'm a nervous wreck!! Jayme is trying to get Derick out of the house and I was talking to her on the phone just now and Derick pulled up. She's going to call the New Haven police department and call me back. I've been waiting for like 10 minutes! It's killing me:( I just wish he would go away but he refuses saying that that is his residence. Well it's not...he's not even on the lease and hasn't been there very long. We found out so much bad stuff about him it's just crazy. I let Jayme borrow our expedition because she needed a car to go to work. Derick promised to change the oil in it because I told him we were gonna do it and hadn't been driving it. Well he said he did but he didn't and now it's sitting at preferred auto with a blown head gasket!!! It had absolutely no oil or anti-freeze in it. We think he drained it and punched a hole in it because Jayme told him she was gonna drive it cause he was driving it and didn't want her to drive it. So the very first day she has it all this shit happens to it. They're saying it's gonna cost us $3000! We don't have that kinda money laying around. We don't even owe that much on the car. I can't believe this...I'm beside myself here. There's a guy here at the lake that works on boats and cars and I'm going to ask him to work on it to save us some serious $$$. But then we just found out tonight that Derick doesn't have his license and he hasn't had it...OMG! He's been driving my car around. He has turned out to be a real loser. I'm glad Jayme woke up when she die.
The good news....Jayme and Zac are getting back together! I've had Rylie since Wednesday and today was my day to make dinner. So I made ham and beans and mom, Jayme, Zac, Micah and Lala came up. We were swimming when they got here and they swam for a minute or the kids did. It was great tho, I loved seeing Micah and all the kids were so happy. Everyone was happy. It's been so long since it's been that way. Zac and Jayme are getting a second chance and they are gonna make it this time...I know it. Rylie and Micah are beside themselves! Micah says I love my Rylie and Rylie say "Micah" "Micah......on and on. Alana runs back and forth to Jayme and Zac, she is so happy too. She is getting so big and her hair is growing out and curly. I knew she was gonna get her hair this summer:)

Well that's it for now...

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Happy Birthday to Meee

2012-07-01T19:24:00.002-04:00

Hmmm, not sure if I posted this already...found it in scribefire and figured I better paste it here before I delete it...looks like it's from 2011!!
Happy Birthday to me...
Tazja just wouldn't let me sleep this morning. Gosh she sounds so pathetic whinning and crying. She is so into me haha. I feel bad when I have to make her lay down but I need some time alone too. Today I turn 43 and that's probablly the last time I will say that since age doesn't mean anything to me and I never plan on growing up~too much trouble.
I'm off to see Stacy Seibold today for my headaches and sleep issues today then going to Jayme's. She has the day off and they are all coming out here, I'm super excited that Wade is home and I saw him yesterday and he's looking real good. He's the thinnest that I've ever seen him but it's a good thin. I'm so happy he's off of the drugs, talk about worrying. They never tell you when you have kids that you will spend the rest of your life worrying about them.
Sara went out on the floor a few days ago so I was thinking about stopping by there to get my hair cut and colored but she doesn't get on the floor till 5. I will see how it plays out.
Not feeling too good today, got up earlier to use the bathroom and my tummy feels like it's turning! I haven't been eating right at all and I'm sure that has alot to do with it. But my back is acting crazy. It actually feels like it's broken and going in and out of muscle spasms. Man I'm so tired of it. I look like an old lady when I walk and when I lift a leg to walk I feel like I'm going to fall. I'm icing alot and hoping it goes soon.
I've fallen off the slow carb diet since Matthew's birthday party which I believe was on the 8th. So today is my last day off and then back to the wagon. I haven't gained all of my weight back so I don't feel hopeless.

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CHER

Silly boy!

2012-06-19T21:59:00.001-04:00

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First day at the beach 2012

2012-06-19T21:57:00.001-04:00

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Time spent with rylie

2012-06-19T21:53:00.001-04:00

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Bbt

2012-06-06T00:36:00.001-04:00

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May 17, 2012

2012-05-17T22:30:00.000-04:00

It was so beautiful out today. 69 but sunny with no wind. I could live like this everyday. It's going to be in the mid eighties tomorrow and the next day. I think I might sneak down to the beach and stick my toes in the water.
We picked up Rylie today for "my week-end". Bill just carried him up to bed, he's been sleeping on the couch since we got home 2 hours ago. I hope he doesn't get up too early tomorrow, at least not before us especially since we had to return the dead-bolts because I got the wrong kind. We need the kind that takes keys for both sides. So now there are empty holes in the doors with tissue stuck in it. How hillbilly is that lol. I just don't want him to go outside without me. I guess I'll be shopping for those dead-bolts tomorrow.
Me and Bill went to see his mom today. They took her back to the nursing home last night and her urinary tract infection is pretty muc gone. Her face is a little swolen but not near as bad as it was in the hospital and she kinda looks good that way.
We played a few games of yahtzee. Then Mary came to make sure they changed her back to real food instead of that thickener stuff that she wouldn't eat. I wouldn't want to eat it either. I mean if you know you're gonna go you should be able to enjoy the time you have left. And food is a big part of that. We stopped and got her a chocolate shake at Stake N Shake. She was loving that. A little bit before we left Suzie and her son showed up. I was glad to see Bills mom in her wheelchair and sitting in the break room. She could talk well but still can't hear and Mary doesn't think the hearing aid is necessary now. I hope Bill goes to see her more often. Oh ya, they started her on morphine today and took her off of her psyc meds. She's on the lowest doese of morphine and I think she was pretty alert for being on it, I was a bit worried about that.

I can't remember if I posted since Mother's Day or not. But, me, Bill, mom, Jayme, the kids and Derick all went out to the Old Country Buffet or something like that. For some reason I don't think that's the one, but the other one just like it. Ugh, I hate my memory. Wade was able to call me on Mother's Day. He is starting to get ansy and we figured he is coming up on a year now. Actually I think it's been a year now. It seems longer and will really seem long by the time he gets out. He's going to a 16 wk counseling type of course and I think it's helping him. He also gets a time cut from it. I hope he gets lots out of it cause he needs to do things totally different when he gets out and that's really hard to do. I think he will remember who has been there for him and who hasn't. He has lots of time to think while he's in there and all his "so called family and friends" can't seem to break down and write a ten minute letter. It's not even that so much that I worry about, it's who he hangs around. I don't want him breaking his parole and ending up spending the rest of his sentence in there.

What a bummer post. Good things are happening too. I've started my new website www.sharing-it-forward.com and it will be along the line of a self-help website but with my twist added in there.
The rocks were removed from our back yard thanks to Jon. And we planted grass that has already had to be mowed twice. It's beautiful but we still have some bald spots that I'm going to fix by getting another bag of grass. I'm also going to get the crab grass killer and fix the grass in the front and in the back--then plant some nice grass there too. I still haven't found a place in the yard worthy of a vege garden except the hill area--thats the only place that gets a fair amount of sun. I have sprouts of tomatoes, brocolli, carrots and radishes and nowhere to put them.

Well I'm off to put a little time into my new website.

PS
I've still been dieting even though I don't bother with dieting on Sundays when we have our family dinners. People are noticing my weight loss and commenting. It's great. I feel lots better too!

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Friday May 11 2012

2012-05-11T22:42:00.001-04:00

Cover of Curves

It seems like it's been forever since I've sat down a posted here. I've been moonlighting making my new website, www.sharing-it-forward.com. My initial goal was to move my wordpress dot com over to wordpress dot org paid blog. Once I got started I decided to go ahead and make it a website and keep my free wordpress cause I already have 12 people following it and honestly don't feel like messing with it right now.
So, I'm starting to think of doing something else with the website. I know I want to stay along the same theme. It's gonna be about sharing info and deals but I want it to be a little more involved. I remember going through this a few years back and ended up dropping the website. Well it's still there but I don't do anything with it. It's free so I've just let it set there. I don't wanna do that again. I'll come up with something.
Jayme's been having some issues. She's got herself into a bit of a situation and isn't sure she wants to stay with Derick. Now she's all confused. I feel for her, it's such a hard position to be in. She will make the right decision. She thinks about things with a level head. There will be more on this later I'm sure. I just don't know what to put down here right now cause things are changing so quickly.
I went over and helped Wendy paint a little on the house on trails end ct today. She's been trying to get it ready to rent and has alot of stuff to get done and wanted to make sure as much of the painting was done as possible since they will be laying carpet tomorrow.
I'm still thinking about the website. Maybe I'm just not the writer I think I am. I mean look at this post. But when I let myself say these types of things then things turn out that way, bad. I need to improve on my positive thinking. Everything is so much easier then. It's amazing how that works out.
Tomorrow is our first association meeting of the year. It will be an early morning for a Saturday and then Sunday is Mother's Day. Busy weekend.

I forgot to tell you that I won the Curves monthly challenge! The challenge was to see who could lose the most amount of weight in a month. It started right after I started there so I really think I had the upper hand. I was motivated and had the initial water weight that came off too. I lost 15lbs and I think 6 inches. 15 lbs in a month is great I think. I've been feeling lots better but I just started slacking off too. I only made it to water aerobics and Curves twice this week. I pledge to myself that next week I will show up at least 3 times! I also ate on family dinner night and moms birthday. I think the birthdays are over for awhile so that's a good thing. I just can't figure any other way other than to eat regular food on family dinner night. It's kinda rude to bring my own sub and eat it. Ugh, I don't know. The first family dinner night I was so good and had my protein shake in the morning, skipped my lunch cause we eat around 4 and then I ate a sensible amount but I went a little overboard at moms last Sunday with the goolosh and breads. I felt funky for 3 days and therefore didn't work out or really eat right. I was so afraid that I was gonna fall of the wagon. But I did good today and it's all forward from here on out. I can't let little things bring me down and just say shit to everything.
Well I'm off to see if I can get some fresh ideas from other site.

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER

Dinner at Jayme's

2012-04-29T20:21:00.001-04:00

Today was a nice long Sunday. Me and Bill went to moms and Bill installed her new water faucet. It didn't take long at all. Then me and mom put the air compressor on Craigs list for $800. I hope she gets at least $700 for it! It's big and nice even though it's 12 years old.
Then we all went to Jayme's for dinner. She made beef and noodles, mashed potatoes, green beans, salad and bread. Wow it was alot of food and it was real good too. She is turning into such a good cook. The kids love that food.
Derick's family came over too and it was nice to meet them. His mom, and both brothers Rick and Greg. I forget his moms name, oh no. I did pretty good remembering his brothers name. They were all so nice too. All the boys are so different.
The kids were at the top of their games, I played with them as much as I could. Alana is so silly. She has Derick wrapped around her little finger. She throws her little fit on the floor waiting for him to come pick her up.
We just got home and it's almost 8:30 now. Already getting kinda tired...prob all those carbs! Going off to work on my other website www.sharingitforward.wordpress.com

~~Show Faith, Always Dream, Share With Everyone, Hope hope HOPE and Love Ridiculously & Unselfishly and Be the Person you Dream and Hope to be remembered for~~

CHER