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This Just In....

2009-10-02T13:46:00.002-05:00

Look what I got in the mail today!!

The Most Beautiful Thing

2009-09-29T11:30:00.003-05:00

Sunday Dj and Bradley got up and got ready and took Gauge to church. When they got home he was very hyper. Dj told me there there wasn't a lady there that didn't hold him and coo over him.

After he started to settle down, Dj was sitting on the couch with him. At that point I witnessed the most beautiful thing I think I have ever witnessed.

The living room was full of all of us but to that little boy the only person there was his mom. We all tried to talk to him and play with him but he wanted nothing to do with us. He sat there on his mom's lap and only wanted to play with her. At one point his daddy picked him up and he screamed until he made his way back to his mom.

This is when I knew my baby has grown into a beautiful woman.

Cancer Sucks!

2009-09-24T10:44:00.002-05:00

Jeff was raised by his grandparents. His dad was around but their relationship was always rocky. I’ve heard stories from his family, his ex wife, and from Gary himself about how bad things were at some times. Some of the things his ex wife told me confirms what I suspected, Jeff always searched for a relationship with him only to be hurt time and again by Gary. Gary was an alcoholic and I know first hand how hard it is to have a relationship with an alcoholic.

A couple of years ago Gary needed a place to live. I convinced Jeff to give him another chance and allow him to come live with us. He was with us for about a month and things went really bad. I ended up kicking him out of my house and after hearing from a few people about the lies he had told about us, I cut him off from us completely. I take full responsibility for doing that. All I wanted to do was protect my family.

Last May when Jeff and I split up him and Gary gave reconciliation another shot. It was tentative at first, only talking once a week for a short time. Gary had quit drinking and started going to church and from what we could tell he was just being a better person all around.

In July we had to go to Dallas to be with him while he had some tests run for a back surgery he needed. We had a good visit with him and peace was made all the way around. The doctors told him for the most part that with out the surgery he would be paralyzed in a matter of a few months. They asked him to go to a few specialists to get the all clear for his surgery.

X-rays were done of his lungs and a spot was found. He was then sent on to have more tests done and that’s when they found it. Gary has lung cancer. After a lot of soul searching Gary decided he is at peace with his maker and he is just tired and doesn’t want to go through treatment. It took a little while for Jeff to accept that but he finally did.

I’m dying inside because I know what my husband is going through. I lost my dad to lung cancer a couple of years ago. I know there is no way for me to make him feel better about what is happening. It’s not fair. He finally has a good relationship with his dad and its being yanked away from him.

Last week Gary was put into the hospital for a couple different reasons. Mostly because he is hard headed and didn’t let anyone know he was hurting and having a bad time until it got really bad. I think that one event brought things home to Jeff more then any so far.

After a lot of battling with himself, Jeff finally made the decision yesterday to go be with him for a little while. We were going to go out there next weekend to help Gary move but he feels like he needs to go sooner. Thankfully Jeff works for a great couple who understands. HB will be driving Jeff to his dad’s Saturday. Then making sure everything is ok with my car and such so I can drive out next weekend.

Jeff is still battling with himself over leaving me. He is struggling with the fact that he feels that while he is out there he is neglecting his duties here at home. I strongly feel like the two of them need to make the best of the time they have left together. I didn’t get to spend time with my dad before he was gone and I want him to be able to have this time.

I just wish I knew a way to make all this easier for him. I just know from experience there isn’t a damn thing I can do and that is killing me.

No Motivation

2009-09-23T12:15:00.000-05:00

For a little while now I have had a lot of trouble sleeping. I am tired during the day but when it gets bedtime I am wide awake. I lay in bed for hours tossing and turning and when I do finally fall asleep, I wake up constantly through out the night. I think this is the reason I lack all motivation.

I am absolutely unmotivated to do anything. I don’t blog. I have two baby blankets that have to be done by the 29th. I have one finished. I have another project that needs done by the 31st of October, it’s almost done. I started painting my bathroom a few weeks ago, one wall is partly done. I’m working on deadlines here and can’t motivate to do a damn thing.

Hell I haven’t even had a hair cut since last February. While it’s not uncommon for me to not have a hair cut, it is uncommon for me to not at least have it thinned out. My hair is thick and it gives me headaches if I don’t get it thinned every couple of months or so.

The past couple of days I have been sleeping better. I fall asleep quick with little or no tossing. Because of this Jeff has come up with what we thinks might be part of my problem. We have had someone staying with us, he left last Sunday. He has decided that I was having the trouble just from knowing there was someone else in my house. He might be right.

Gerard moved out last Sunday. Dylan moved out two weeks ago. Dj and Gauge are moving back in tonight.

It’s no wonder I can’t sleep. My front door has turned into a revolving door.

Revolving door = No sleep

No sleep = No motivation

No motivation = No blog

See, I knew there was a way for me to blame my laziness on someone else!

Nagging At Me

2009-09-22T14:14:00.002-05:00

I know I have been gone awhile and I am trying to work my way back to my blog. I do miss it.

Today something is nagging at me. I had some customers in here earlier and they were discussing things amongst themselves. At one point one of them was trying to make the other realize who some one else is. She said "You know her, she was so and so's daughter."

That statement eats at me every time I hear it. My mom died 7 years ago. Best I can recall she didn't sign off on being my mom the day she died. I AM her daughter. She did not cease being my mom because she died.

Granted, our relationship has changed but that doesn't mean she isn't my mom. Her death didn't change the fact that she gave birth to me or that she raised me.

I guess I just don't understand the thinking behind the statement.

Swine Flu?

2009-08-25T14:19:00.003-05:00

I got home yesterday evening and I was so tired. I cooked then got comfortable in my chair and crashed. Jeff woke me up and sent me to bed where I very quickly died again.

I couldn't get myself awake enough this morning to get Dylan to his bus stop. Thankfully Jeff didn't have to be at work early today so he picked up the slack for me.

As the morning wore on I became very dizzy and my head feels like it will explode. My skin feels like it is burning up from the inside out. It's 90 degrees outside and I am freezing my ass off. I turned on Yahoo Messenger and a friend that disappeared on me last week was on. Her status message said something about taking her out back and putting her out of her misery. I grabbed her and said "I'll shoot you if you shoot me."

She asked me what was wrong and I gave her the run down. Then I asked her what was wrong with her. She has Swine. Confirmed. She spent the morning trying to convince me that all my symptoms are the same as hers were. Then she told me she couldn't hold it together any longer and was going back to bed.

I have spent my afternoon trying to convince myself that I am just really really sleepy and after I get home I will sleep all this away.

WTF?

2009-08-20T08:37:00.002-05:00

This morning I was watching The Today Show. It caught my attention when they said the First Lady has sparked a big debate because she was wearing shorts. Seriously?

They had a poll and 83% of people said they were fine, 17% said they were inappropriate. WTF? Seriously?

I'm kind of dumbfounded that her choice of vacation attire is even an issue when there are a million other things that people could debate about. She was at the Grand Canyon. What was she supposed to wear?

I suppose the people offended by her "short shorts" are the people that treat a day at their favorite swimming hole as a black tie affair!

Supply And Demand

2009-08-12T11:53:00.001-05:00

Our area has a big drug problem. Meth use is huge! I know that it is that way all around it just seems more out of control around here because of how small we are. It is such a big problem that there has even been a documentary made about our neighboring county. I went to school with some of people detailed in it. It was really weird to watch.

Our local Drug Task Force is doing a really good job cleaning it up. So good in fact the supply is dwindling but the demand seems to be on the rise. The cost is going up accordingly. In the past few weeks break-ins are becoming the norm.

Jeff’s boss (who shall be called HB- His Boss) and his wife (HBW- His Boss’ Wife) are two of the nicest people I know. They will help anyone in need at any time. When I first met them they welcomed me and my children and two of my closest friends into their lives as if we had known them forever. At the same time they gave a homeless man a camper trailer to live in on their property and helped him get back on his feet. One of Dj’s friends got kicked out of her house and they heard about it and they stepped in and helped her out by giving her some household things she would need. They are just good people.

Down the road is what is known as “Cocaine Corner”. The people that lived there seemed to have always lived by the philosophy of “Don’t shit where you eat.” There has never been any real trouble with thievery in our area, until last month. Cocaine Corner is now empty and things are starting to come up missing every where.

Three weeks ago, on Sunday, HB called me and said to have Jeff meet him at their job site because the barn had been broken into and he needed help doing an inventory. It turns out they stole “only” a trailer that belonged to HB. The trailer contained about $40,000 worth of tools and equipment. It was a really big blow.

Exactly one week later our phone rang again. It was HB tracking Jeff down again to ask him to watch the open barn because he had to get to his Aunt’s house and he didn’t have time to lock it up. Turns out, his Aunt had woke up and found a man in her kitchen. She was in her house and the man came right in on her!

There is a truck that keeps driving by at night and slowing down when it gets near the barn. So far it has never stopped that we have noticed. It belongs to the former Cocaine Corner owner.
Last night Dylan went to a friend’s house. On his way back a truck passed him hauling a trailer. Dylan came running into the house looking for a flashlight. He said it looked like one of the trailers stored at the barn. I knew no one had been up there so I felt safe in letting him check it out. After about 5 minutes Dylan came crashing through the front door scared out of his mind yelling “Someone is up there!”

While checking things out, he flashed his light over by one of the sheds on the property and saw someone run off towards the pasture. Jeff headed up there to check it out while I called HB. Within minutes our little corner of the world was alive with vehicles and spot lights. As the guys headed out looking for someone they saw that pick up leaving our area. HB started following it but he couldn’t keep up.

When the search turned up nothing, every one gathered back up at the barn. While we were standing there talking we heard someone yell and then we heard someone shoot a gun. I’m still not sure what that was all about and I don’t know if any one else is either.

For the first time in years I have felt the need to keep a loaded gun in my house. The guns have always been there but never kept loaded. The guys are starting to take extra precautions when it comes to me, HBW and the kids being home alone.

The cops have a suspect and he has been questioned apparently several times but they don’t have any real evidence that they can hold him on. He is known for his drug use and dealing. I have to be honest here and say, I sincerely hope that one way or another someone gets a grip on the supply and demand problem in our area.

Pictures... Instead Of Bullets

2009-08-05T13:51:00.006-05:00

This morning Dylan was at work. They were changing a tire and put grease on the rim for some reason. When the tire sealed it through out a stream of grease. This is where it landed.

Gauge came to visit me the other day at work. He laid on my chest and fell asleep. Normally when this happens and they get ready to go he wakes up when I hand him off to him mom or dad. This time, that baby was worn out apparently.Also, he has given up his pacifier. He found something he likes a whole lot more!

Trying To Pull Myself Together With Bullets

2009-07-17T11:11:00.004-05:00

We had one helluva storm last night. This picture is the view from my house. It's been so long since we have had a good storm that we stayed outside until we were soaked. I was trying to get a picture of the lightning but I wasn't quick enough. The horses were going crazy too but I wasn't smart enough to get a picture of that.
My counselor and I had a long talk this week. Apparently I am becoming anti-social. At first she asked me if I thought I was depressed and I really don't think I am. After we talked a bit we came to the conclusion that I spend too much time alone. Because of that I really have nothing to talk about anymore. I hadn't realized until the other day that I have quit blogging for the most part too. Its not that I don't want to talk, I just don't always have something to say.
I'm picking Gauge up to spend the night with us tonight. I can't wait! He is starting to be a lot of fun. He has figured out that he really can make noise just to make it. Sometimes he will yell out and its like he didn't realize he was going to do it and it surprises him so he starts to giggle.
And now, I have ran out of things to say. How sad is that?

Jeff Is Slightly Stressed

2009-07-10T15:46:00.003-05:00

I just got a bit of a frantic call from Jeff. He's half frantic and half laughing.

Dylan was told to do the dishes today. He's 14 and we have never had a dishwasher before. He put the wrong soap in it and Jeff came home to this.

It's at the beginning of the wash cycle so there will no doubt be more to come!

*Please ignore the dirt in the floor. I'm sure that will be cleaned up by the time I get home since I just swept that floor this morning before work!*

Because I Promised I Wouldn't Say It To Your Face... YET!

2009-07-03T09:50:00.002-05:00

Dear You Know Who You Are:

I carried her for 9 and a half months in my body. I was in labor with her for 27 hours. Make no mistake about it, that girl is mine! I loaned her to you to love, to honor and to respect. Last night marked the second time she called me because you decided I gave her to you to use as your property to do with as you wish.

The first time you had the balls to lay your hands on her. Good thing for you that you didn't think to actually hit her but grabbing a hold of her was bad enough. I tried to accept you. I stood up for you on more then one occasion because I felt you deserved a second chance in life. I will NEVER make that mistake again.

You use beer as an excuse, if you weren't drinking you wouldn't have gotten mad. Easy fix, stay the hell away from alcohol. You say she is your whole world and you love her more then anything, she doesn't need that kind of love! I didn't raise her to be your punching bag, mentally, emotionally or physically. I did raise her however to be fiercely independent and her brothers taught her all her life how to kick YOUR ass!!

You took advantage of a young girl. She got pregnant and somehow you had her believing she couldn't raise the baby without you. I thank God daily that she is starting to see that she already does. I see what you are doing, you are escalating as her eyes become wider open. You started out with a sharp tongue. Then you got a little more controlling with your "love". Now you have grabbed her. Believe me, I know what happens next.

I'm in a bit of a giving mood right now so let me give you a couple reminders.

You have met pretty much all of her family. You have seen with your own eyes, the guys out number the girls vastly. Because of that, those guys are very protective of the female parts of the family. Trust me, they all stick together so it won't be just one of them you have to deal with. You will deal with pretty much all of them. First her dad, then her brothers, and it will trickle down from there.
Her dad and your probation officer are old high school friends.
The person that signed your bond, is one of those protective family members I told you about earlier.
Your bondsman, is a very old friend of mine.

So, If I were you I would get my act together pretty damn quick! Better yet? Go ahead, hit her, I.FUCKING.DARE.YOU!!!

Sincerly,

Your Worst Nightmare

Stealing From Kate

2009-06-16T13:03:00.002-05:00

Every Tuesday Kate does random thoughts so I figured what the hell.

Since our move we haven't been able to get our Dish Network set back up for one reason or another. Right now we are waiting on our new Smart Card to come in the mail and hopefully that will be the last thing we have to do. We have been watching and re-watching DVDs and it has gotten a little tiresome. I finally remembered the old rabbit ears and converter box. Let me just say the digital transition is not best for every one! IT SUCKS ASS!! I was watching a damn good movie the other night and every time someone moved anywhere in the house the movie went off. I didn't have that problem when it was still analog.
When Jeff and I split up he got custody of mine and Dj's cell phones. The account was in his name and I couldn't afford them and both of us had two of them anyway so it wasn't that big of a deal. But, it absolutely killed me to hand my phone, my lifeline, over to him. Now that we are back together I have my phone back. I have absolutely no use for it anymore. I rarely even carry either of my phones now and barely use them enough to need to charge them more then once a week.
My counselor comes to see me today. A couple weeks ago she asked me if I wanted to continue seeing her because I seem to be doing better now then what I was when we started. I decided it was probably a good idea to still see her for a bit because there are a couple bags of crazy that haven't even been taken out of the trunk yet much less unpacked! I really like her. She is pretty fun to talk to.
If any one has come good blog recommendations I sure would appreciate it. I read several blogs and I think it's about time to cull the herd. I've lost interest in a few so I think it is time for replacements. I try to look at some on blog rolls but I tend to feel guilty for clicking on one blog and not another. It becomes a chore because I feel like I have to look at every blog in the roll. (See a whole bag of fucked up right there!)
I'm sure there is something else that I wanted to say but I have no clue what it was so I guess I will leave it at that and get some actual work done. (I'm probably lying about getting work done.)

Be Careful What You Wish For

2009-06-12T14:35:00.003-05:00

This morning Jeff woke me up with a beautiful orange rose in his hand. He grabbed a vase and filled it and put the rose in it for me.

As he was leaving for work I noticed some real pretty yellow weeds growing in the yard and thought they would make that rose really pop in the vase it was in. I told him "I wish I had a few of those yellow weeds out there to put in with it."

Jeff walked over and picked a few of them for me and cleaned them up and handed them to me. He kissed me and went off to work. I took them in and put them in the vase with the rose. I was right they made that rose look even better.

Then I felt the itch in my right eye. It started to water. Then came the first sneeze. My eye started to swell. I hurried up and got ready for work and left.

I forgot to get rid of the weeds. I will probably swell up again tonight when I get rid of those weeds!

Randoms

2009-06-10T15:00:00.002-05:00

If you go into a store with only one employee and ask to use the bathroom, clean up after yourself. When that one employee knows she didn't shit all over the bathroom, she will remember who did and point you out to whoever she happens to be with the next time she sees you.
Along the lines of only one employee, it occurred to me earlier that when I screw up some one's account, I have no one to blame. That kinda sucks.
I told Kate that I might blog about my Starbucks experience today but I decided it was probably only funny to me.
I made lasagna last night. I haven't made it in years. I have to say that I surprised the shit out of myself because it turned out pretty damn good!
Things are going good at home right now. We have gotten into a new routine that is really nice and hopefully help the two of us stay connected. After work we grab a drink and go sit out on the back porch and just talk while supper is cooking. Then we head for the recliners to let the tv play while we take a nap before bedtime.
Bradley started his new job today. Dj had her interview to work at Wal Mart today and her drug test. I'm excited for them.
I think I have bored every one enough for one day so I will just say good bye!

I'm So In Love

2009-06-09T09:45:00.006-05:00

With this face! He has to be the happiest baby I

ever met. When he wakes up in the morning he just lays there and smiles and coos and talks.

After I got off work yesterday I went by to pick up the kids. Gauge was loaded up and locked in and him and I started to chat. He kept smiling and finally giggled for me! I swear the only time he cries is when he is hungry and then I can't blame him, I cry too!

He had a little scratch over his eye. I kept asking him what happened and he would just laugh at me. I finally said "Did you get drunk again?" He immediately cut his eyes over to his mom like he was saying "Bitch, you told on me!"

Dj called me last night to tell me he almost fell but they caught him. It scared him and he started crying really hard. She said that while he was crying as plain as can be he said Nana! I told her that's right, he knows who loves him! Now you might be asking if I seriously believe he was crying for me. Your damn straight I do!

The Good And The Funny

2009-06-08T15:04:00.002-05:00

I figure it's about time I started blogging again. Several good things have happened in the past couple weeks and I wanted to share them.

Saturday two weeks ago I finally decided to go out with some friends. I had a lot of fun. I got home about 3:00 am to find Jeff had walked about 8 miles to ask me to take him back. At that time it was late and I was tired I told him to get to sleep and we would talk when he got off work the next day. He told me he had already taken the day off. I almost fainted. (Jeff is an overly obsessed workaholic. Nothing comes between him and going to work.)
We have been back together 2 weeks now and things feel different. They feel new again. I told him that I would not invest myself in this marriage until I felt safe again. He is doing everything in his power and then some to make that happen.
We moved. I love my new place. We finally finished up moving Thursday night. We decided we needed a new place to make a fresh start. Too many bad memories and thoughts swirling around the house we were in.
Friday and Saturday night we went to the rodeo. We had free tickets for Saturday night but had to buy them for Friday night. When you buy tickets you get entered into a drawing that takes place the last night. The adult prize was $300 and the kid prize was $50. I won $300!! I've been going to the rodeo and entering the drawings for nearly 20 years now, it's the first time I have ever won anything.
Jeff and Bradley finally made peace with each other this past week over the fight they had back in February.

And now for the funny.

Dylan left to go to summer camp yesterday. We were driving down the road talking and had this conversation:

Me: "Did you pack your towel?"

Him: "Yes"

Me: "Did you pack your washcloth?"

Him: "No"

Me: "And how do you plan on getting clean?"

*He held up his hand and started waving it.*

Me: "You know you have other parts besides your pecker that need to be clean!"

Him: "Oh! Well, you can sure bet at least its pearly white!"

Time To Talk

2009-05-20T09:11:00.002-05:00

It happened almost a month ago. The world as I know it kind of came crashing down around me. My husband left me. We had a small fight the night before because of something he said. He told me that he loves me and he knows that all he does lately is hurt me so he felt it best he leave.

Things kind of went down hill from there for me. I can't stand to be alone but right now I can't stand to have people around me either. Every day brings something new for me to deal with and I just don't quite know how to deal with everything.

Yesterday something happened that really made me face reality. It hit me that it was time for me to face the true facts and not the facts as I wanted them to be. I had to call my counselor and when I told her what was going on she didn't pull any punches. She made me realize that I have put a protective wall around him and it should be around me. I'm so worried about how he is doing that I haven't taken the time to worry about me.

I took a big step after we talked. He called me and I ignored his call. He called me five or six more times and I ignored those calls as well. He finally text me and I told him I couldn't talk to him about what was going on because it is just me getting my hopes up again only to be let down. The day ended on a good note. I felt a little empowered.

Today is a bad day.

On Overload

2009-04-24T16:27:00.002-05:00

For the most part this place is an endless source of amusement. This week? Not so much.

Talking is highly overrated and for some reason I have had more then my share of people talking at me. I've reached my bullshit level. But, all is not lost! I have a plan.

When I leave here, I will go and pick my husband up and have a beer.

When I go home I will cook supper, give custody of Dylan to Dj and Bradley and steal custody of Gauge. I'm going to give them a curfew that is too late and kick them out of my house.

At which point I will kick back with my husband and grandson and just enjoy life for a couple of hours.

Bright Spots

2009-04-22T13:00:00.005-05:00

I knew yesterday evening that today was going to be a shitty day. I just didn't realize how shitty it was going to be.

Today marks the 7 year anniversary of my mom's passing. How am I feeling about that? Well, it hasn't been on my mind near as much as it used to be.

I have decided that today will be all about the little bright spots and nothing else.

Spot 1. I got to spend an hour and a half with my grandson. He now smiles a lot when you talk to him.

Spot 2. Jeff's boss sent me this to say thank you for helping them out.

Am I On Candid Camera?

2009-04-13T15:34:00.002-05:00

Today's post was going to be about my weekend. I've had a really off the wall day so I decided it needed posted instead.

This is a run down of the customers I have had today:

An old man that seriously smelled mildewed. Not sure what was up with that.
A regular customer (male) came in to upgrade his phone. He is normally dirty and grungy. Today he smelled like he splashed on a whole bottle of Old Spice. He asked me out. Ummm no.
There is another lady that comes in regularly and she always tells me she is here just to gossip. Or she will want to see the latest greatest phone. She is a single woman and always has been and has no kids. I've always been told that she is really tight with her money. I groaned when she walked in but I was crying when she walked out. She sat here for about ten minutes then asked about our new baby. I showed her a picture of Gauge and told her that our little girl ended up being a little boy. She started crying and opened up her purse. She said "I hope you don't think this is weird but for the past couple weeks I have felt compelled to give this to you. I have to do it or I know something bad will happen." She handed me $20 and asked me to make sure it went to the baby.
There has been a customer in here three or four times in the past two weeks. She kind of gets on my nerves but she makes me money so I deal with her. I was on the phone when she came in so she just started walking around the store. As she walked her damn crack pipe fell out of her pocket! I just kind of turned my head while she put it back in her pocket.

I think I have hit my weird tolerance for the day.

Now I am off to find something to eat again. For the past couple days I can't seem to get full. Wish me luck!

I Love My Job!

2009-04-08T12:44:00.000-05:00

Sometimes my job is much like the job of a bartender. Because I am the only one that works in my store, I can establish some kind of relationship with my regular customers.

I have two older men that faithfully come in and pay their bill during this week every month. They both sit and chat with me for a few minutes and then leave.

A couple days ago the first man of the month came in and we did our usual chatter about his sisters and the goings on of his day to day life. He left for about an hour and came back and gave me a wind chime he had made.

The second man of the month just came in. He sat down here and we went over his bill then he paid it. While I was processing his credit card he started telling me that he had to move. He some how got roped into a feud between his sister and his nephew.

His nephew’s wife passed away about three years ago. Well, he now has a girlfriend and his mother isn’t happy about it. His words were “She can be a bit bossy at times.”

I said “Well, if his wife has been gone three years I would think its ok for him to start dating again without his mom being mad.”

He turned around and looked at me and said “Hell, I would think so! He’s almost FIFTY!!”

My Almost Perfect Weekend

2009-04-06T10:53:00.004-05:00

On Friday I was asked by Jeff and his boss if I was going to be busy on Saturday. They are building a fence and needed some help. Now, my help was enlisted by asking me if I could run a spray can. Thinking this sounded easy, I said sure.

Well, I was wrong. I got to where they were about 10:30 am. The first thing they had me and the boss' wife doing was cutting pipe. These damn pipes were heavy but manageable. After the pipes were all cut we ate lunch. Then the real shit began!

We were handed a bunch of orange spray paint and a nine foot piece of pvc pipe that had a rope tied to the end of it. We were instructed to walk from corner post to corner post and mark every nine feet. Sounds easy enough, don't it? Well, try doing it for a mile long fence through the woods and rough pasture land. I found out I am really, really out of shape after all day of doing that.

Finally the guys told us we were done for the day. We decided we were going to Hobby Lobby. There was a cross stitch pattern there that I fell in love with but refused to pay $40 for it. I thought it was on sale but it wasn't. Boss's wife talked me into buying it anyway because 1. I got suckered into working hard. 2. It was my anniversary weekend. 3. I just hit a personal goal at work. Isn't it gorgeous?

Jeff and I decided since our anniversary celebration got put on hold last Tuesday we were going to do it on Sunday. I woke up Sunday morning to coffee and presents. (Anyone got any good hints to keep me from killing a geranium?)

Jeff and the boss went grocery shopping before I woke up and Jeff fixed not only lunch but dinner too. We spent the day just laying around watching tv.

Even with the work I had to do on Saturday instead of being lazy, it turned out to be one of the best weekends I've had in awhile.

Not Another Chainsaw Massacre

2009-04-03T09:04:00.002-06:00

Wednesday before I left work my husband called me and asked me to stop by the store and get some peroxide and some antibiotic cream. His exact words to me: "I'll explain why when you get here."

At first I didn't question anything. I figured there was some animal in need and he was about to do some doctoring. Then it hit me. I called him back to ask him what he had done to himself this time. Apparently he was in the bucket of the tractor trying to cut down a high limb on a tree. I'm not sure how it happened but the chainsaw got his knee.

When I got there and looked the cut wasn't really too bad. It was jagged enough that stitches couldn't be done so we cleaned it up and put some butterflies on it and it's doing just fine.

Yesterday I was on my way home and I called Jeff to see where he was. He told me this: "I might as well tell you now because you'll find out soon enough, I did it again." I started going off about wearing his chaps that are made to prevent this kind of thing. His boss got the phone and started trying to calm me down. Apparently the chaps wouldn't have prevented this cut.

If you have lost count, this is TWO chainsaw cuts in TWO days!

I went to the store again to stock up on bandages and butterflies. They said this one was worse then the first one. This time he was out of the way and the branch he was cutting had a bow in it and when it snapped it flew back and hit the saw and knocked the saw into his leg.

This one looks pretty gnarly! If you want to see it here is a blurry picture of it. The picture actually makes it look good.

His boss assured me that today Jeff would NOT be allowed around any sharp objects!

Quiet Celebration

2009-03-31T08:24:00.002-06:00

At this time two years ago I was being woke up with a kiss on the forehead. He leaned over and whispered to me "We have a date at 2:00. Don't be late!" Then he was gone.

My stomach was fluttering so bad I figured today was also the day the million butterfly march was scheduled. I knew I was doing the right thing by marrying him. I knew he was the man I was always meant to be with. I also knew I was about to walk in front of a shitload of people in heels. I knew the bets had been made on how far down the aisle I would make it before I fell flat on my face!

There were precautionary measures put into place to keep me from falling; my brother was on my right side holding me up, Dj was on my left side holding me, and Dylan was in front of me. I showed them! I made it the whole way down there without falling. As soon as the ceremony was over though, those damn shoes came off!

There will be no big party tonight or no going out. We will spend the evening together cuddled up in the chair just being together. Although, I was promised he was cooking tonight. Can't wait to see how that works out!

We have had a couple bumps in the past two years but I have never regretted the day I married Jeff. The bumps have only brought us closer and I can't wait to see what the next fifty years hold for us.